#also ive been writing this for... 5 hours! bc i am a procrastinator

[socksonvideo]

i ask for knowledge of your oc please im still hungry (oc ask thing): 12, 20, 23, 28, and 35 please

 and i shall deliver (putting this under keep reading bc its LONG and i dont wanna flood the tag)

12. Druids or Darkcore?

tbh Aspen doesn’t like either but they’d pick druids over Darkcore because they’re not on board with evil squid god. End of the world? they’ll sleep on it.

The druids freak them out a bit. Especially her cousin. Her cousin is just weird about it. Aspen in general isn’t a quick to trust people person, but the druids are just off to them. Avalon is the most normal and probably the 

20. What do they do when meeting new people?

Depends on the person tbh. If it's a person whose normal, (not annoying in their eyes, or just anyone younger than them) they'll go out of their way to actually do a minimal amount of talking. While Aspen is not going out of their way to meet new people, they don't mind as long as conversations aren't long.

If someone's inconveniencing them, Aspen's only goal is to get them to leave them alone. They have various some-what methods of getting people to leave them alone. Just be mute and make them uncomfortable but in different ways. Does that always work? Def not, but they'd take that over constantly being stuck in conversation with annoying people. 

Lucky for them, they have possibly scared off/intimidated such annoying people from Stablebucks (which is where they have to talk the most, at the least) and now mostly just see the regular, normal people they've labeled as "Actually Okay."

23. What are they the best at? The worst at? 

Aside from the obvious horseriding, Aspen is an absolutely God (lmao) at playing violin. It was the first instrument they ever learned and has been going at it for 10 years. Show them a sheet of music and they can play it. Has had the violin version of a rick roll memorized since age 10. I will continuously repeat that Aspen sees Katja’s position as an absolute sin and will be making fun of her.

Using a chainsaw? No problem. Making the most complicated drink for a teen? Sure, whatever. Riding a bike? Erm.

yeah aspen canonically cannot ride a bike. They just don’t know how to do it. It freaks them out a bit, despite riding something that is objectively 10x worse than a bike. If they were willing to take the time to learn they’d probably be okay at it but no. nuh uh. We do training wheels only and those things people ride around on at the beach. I don’t know what they’re called, oops.

28. What’s some stereotypical popular things that they like/secretly like?

Aspen actually loves scrunchies, simply because they are more convenient for them than hair ties. They hate how hair ties yank multiple hairs out and scrunchies simply don’t do that! At least, for them they don’t. We don’t know about other people.

On the opposite hand, Aspen hates every ‘stereotypical white girl drink’ just because they have to make multiple of them most days. and they suck to make. 

35. How are they in conversation? (are they talkative? A good listener? Do they space out a lot?) 

Once again, depends on the person. However! I'm going to focus on 'conversations they'd care more about' because I feel like 'I don't want to be here' is obvious.

Aspen loves listening to people talk. Like, you could infodump to them and they would enjoy it greatly. You have a story? Let's hear it. Wanna talk about the weird person you met today? You two can laugh it out because Aspen will find it hilarious. It doesn't matter what it is.

They aren't very talkative in general (selective mute moment) but sometimes they'll engage. Especially if it's a shared interest, which is probably why they get along more with the "nerd/bookworm" people because that's what they're more into. Though, if they have a wild story, they're definitely going to tell you. The power of embarrassing people at work has a spot in their head for stories.

The only time Aspen spaces out is if they're really tired or just not interested. They try their best to pretend they care because they don't want to make you feel bad. This might just lead them to fall asleep though. Who knows.

[themidnightdisaster]

Slurp's Nanowrimo Journal

Day 1 of Nano

Woah there i was able to write three chapter outlines and gave all my characters their own professions and some traits.

I'm being productive icb. Hoping to finish these chapters before the week ends.

Q1 : What was your first piece of writing?

Overall in literature I would say it's a script for the trailer we made during the 7th grade. *im cringing on grade 7 self fr*

Then in fiction novel, a university au with my classmates as characters I wasn't able to finish it though.

Day 2 of Nano

Was able to write only like 200 words to end the first scene bc i taught my sis for her modular classes.

: ( hope i can make it up tomorrow.

Q2 : What time of the day are you most likely to write? Why?

If it isn't curious with my username, during midnights. The only time of the day where everyone is asleep and my surroundings is peaceful as well. Kinda not healthy but yea, I've been used to it since the start of HS when I'm procrastinating with school tasks.

Day 3 of Nano

My days are alr late I havent realized lol.

So I wrote approximately 500 words last night (a record I guess) and I'm going out today so I have a chance to refresh my mind! Wearing masks ofc hehe.

Q3 : Do you plan or just go with the flow? Why?

With social media aus, I don't plan like not at all. With novels, I don't too but I at least write my ideas vaguely especially when I think it's so mindblowing!

I feel drained when planning traditionally for some reason no one would understand and that includes myself. Lmao.

But for this nano, I outlined my chapters and the vague idea dumps are still there. We'll see what will be the outcome.

Day 4 of Nano

I surprisingly broke a record again! I wrote 2184 words today yoohoo! And i think i finally found a 1 hour writing music for me and starting tom ill be using that. Another miracle, i wrote those in the afternoon so thats why im sleeping early today. How i wish silence like this happens everyday.

Q4: Is a word count important to you? Why or why not?

Yep! I like it when I see my progress through time and it motivates me. But like... word count in a chapter? I dont think its that important. Every novel is different. We all have our own ways.

Day 5 of Nano

I finished my chapter 1 by 5 am so i did nothing writing-related today. I started watching a web drama series and binge watched Chicago Med by night (im planning to find the full episodes)

Q5: What's your favourite writing snack/drink?

I usually go with water especially at midnight since im always thinking by that time, "oh my maybe i havent drink water earlier yet maybe i should drink today" and food? Whatever we have in here.

Day 6 of Nano

Was able to write 1/4 of the chapter, yet im not contented bc i wasnt able to reach the scene i wanted to write. Im worried that i would break the streak tomorrow bc classes are finally starting again. Maybe i would go by 500 words per day. This week. Ill try.

Q6: Do you have a favourite place to write? Do you change it up or write in the same place every time?

I just want somewhere silent and peaceful. At night, I just roam around the house and feel the vibe. During the first days of Nano, I'm on my bed. Now, I'm comfortable to write on my study table even during the day as long as I have my headphones on.

Day 7 of Nano

I fucking have no idea how come im super late in this when i started on nov 2. Eh. Weird.

Anyway, i almost got frustrated when at the 23rd hour of the day, i wrote only 500 words for the chapter 2.

So i skipped to chapter 4. Wrote a flashback as an intro and yea, got 1500 words! Unfortunately, didnt add up for nov 9. So its for today.

Q7: Who is your favourite author?

Well, it's a local author from wattpad. Serialsleeper. She's the only author whom I will read everything whatever she writes! Her mindblowing plot twists, the humor, the characters. I love the way she builds up every character she makes, she makes everything relatable even when her forte is horror slasher! One of my unfinished works is inspired by one of her books. How I wish her books gets translated so she can also gain fame worldwide. She deserves it.

Day 8 of Nano

I didnt write anything for today (yea thanks to the bunch of modules for my sis) but im writing atm. Yea. Im writing on my birthday. What about it?

Q8: What is your favourite book?

This is hard... i dont have anything in particular. Like that all time fave. I love all the books ive read in their own ways.

Day 9 of Nano

So this is the day i literally wrote nothing. went out for lunch in a faraway place, had a celebration when we got home, and watched the half of sonic the hedgehog movie. We got some visitors sleeping over here too so i really wasnt able to write anything. We have no classes tomorrow so i hope i can make up.

Q9: What is the premise of your current project?

The nano one? So, it's a film maker who is making an attempt to reunite her old crew from College to join a film festival in their place. Ok its sound so boring yea but the thing is... it wont be easy for her. Why? Well, she left them hanging after the tragedy she herself made.

Day 10 of Nano

Welp im three days late. This is so bad. Today. Nov 13 i started writing again. And... i want to survive this chapter today !!!!

Q10: What is your favourite genre to write? Why?

Slice of life? That's where I relate to. Friendships, to be exact. A romance story that only not focuses on the romance itself, but also the characters' friendship with others. That's where I guess, comfortable writing about. I got the experience, I got hurt because of friendships too. So there.

Permanent Note : came across this amazing idea by @emotionalfig that i will be answering in the every day! Yay, go try it too!

[shytiff]

Feb 2021 Wins

1 - osce study with clara almira, tryout 9 fkui, tryout review with clar, study sesh with clara that finished at about 10 pm. watched some youtube vids together til 11:15 pm. no longer sleepy, so i made my cv and finished it at about 3 in the morning lmao, bcs i saw this interning opportunity and i was like “damn i should make my cv”

2 - woke up at 7 am, didnt shower lmao, off to kiara for vaccination. Waited for a bit and i finally got it. ate mamdaging pesto rice with beef at kamkan w/ ren ness ara akisyah. talked at studied osce a bit. waited for mom to pick me up. until when do i need someone else to pick me up. i feel helpless and i hate that i cant just ride my motorbike because its too tiring. went back and dad got mad at me bcs i didnt greet him when leaving and entering the house. I truly didnt see him when i entered even though i heard sumn lmao. He said sumn along the lines of "you can always leave if u dont like me" (which is lowkey appealing). I cried bcs i felt sad and annoyed with our terrible emotional parent-daughter relationship. Hold the tears for a bit to study with clara. Darkened the room and slept still in my going-out clothes. I did not shower today lmao,,,,

3 - woke up at 10 am. Tryout and review w clara. Psych coaching. Psych practice with irun. Called lau and dajen bcs hes leving to medan. Randomly checked my email and my intern submission, which i emailed yesterday, that turns out the doctor replied at 8pm yesterday asking for interview today 11 am. And i saw it @ 6 pm. Aka super late. The stupidest thing ive ever done in FKUI. No cap. :( i panicked and it gave me a reason to talk with dad (asking how to reply) so i guess its a form of effort to banish the awkwardness between us. Studied w clara. I hope the doctor can forgive me. Its one loose end after the other lately.

4 - went to starbucks with atikah. got treated matcha latte yayy. cicil osce. called clara to learn imunisasi. went to kaleyo w atikah clara, ate bebek muda cabe ijo yumm. talked abt a lot of things in a span of 1-2 hours. we’re all pragmatist lmaoo. 

5 - osce briefing, DV osce practice w irun, watched run bts again lmaoo since knowing my osce schedule is thursday. read buku osce biru. 

6 - slept and lazed around til 1 pm. went to flavola since the construction was so noisy. osce simulation with UKMPPD Wibu. turns out flavola’s siomay is very fulfilling.

7 - todays construction noise escape is jco. Bought jcool double with almonds and chocolate crunchy. A bit of psych practice w aisyah. After maghrib practiced neuro w irun

8 - had no mood to study in the morning. Went to flavola, kopsusss coklat as usual. Reviewed osce materials (theres some tea about what might come out). Reviewed again at home (even tho i procrastinated from 6-9pm). Asked my bro for some ovo bcs i bought a mini keyboard in tokped lmaoooooo so random

9 - went to merra (ara and nessa’s place) but mom drove dad to the airport first. stome osce study, group consolidation for osce, tried mad bagel (the garlic cream cheese and tuna salad). the bagel was quite dense and fulfilling. the garlic cream cheese is quite heavy. arrived at home by 9 pm, went straight to sleep

10 - omg dr eva contacted me again :”) and i got the chance to be ecmocard research assistant. osce study. line call with ara. matcha latte. studied in juan’s room bcs it was so noisy. the keyboard i ordered arrived lolll cant wait to try. i dont know if its the anxiety or fear but i cant sleep and forced myself to sleep 11pm-ish

11 - osce. Went early to learn sumn more w ara tri. Osce (i forgot opv for the 5 mo old baby in peds station 😭 there was dr yogi omg) prayed zuhur and ashar in merra while waiting for pick up (i rly wish i could just bring my own vehicle but motorbike is rly tiring). Finally tried the mini keyboard, with earphones on. Practiced the song aku bukan untukmu by rossa lmao bu sihar taught us that in 33. I felt rly excited and not sleepy afterwards (that "normal" feeling with nothing looming). Its been a while since i tried something new, voluntarily. I guess its kind of what i felt when i tried the korean duolingo. That lasted for a couple months. Lets see how this keyboard thingy goes

12 - finally finished reviewing to oneshot (took ages lmao). Lazed around

13 - inten ukmppd w ness ren ara @ merraaa always. Went through 5 pdfs. Tried fastfit chicken burger and sweet potato fries. Quite fulfilling. Went back home and straight to bed (didnt eat anymore)

14 - started my day late as usual on weekdays lmaoo. flavola kopsus coklat as usual at my usual seat facing the window. did padi final tryout, score: 69. booty call with fianti, did mindset tryout, got 76,5.

15 - lazed tilll i start my day as usual @ 11-ish. Reviewed to padi final answers. Wow it sure took some damn time. My attention span is rly horrible when im alone in my room

16 - second dose of vaccine today. the rain was POURING. mom and emir waited in mcd. read half of aipki citation. 

17 - finished aipki citation, read CBT 2020 batch I and 2019 batch III questions. read a fantastic slow burn dramione fic. reviewed the last to solid.

18 - accompanied clara for swab antigen near airport train station (we came with motorbike since clara’s car was used). got called over by the police bcs we were in the car-only road lmaooo. went over optima tryout 2021. 

19 - cicil ukmppd at flavola with the usual menu, read some more afterwards

20 - ended up going to tamel bcs the flood in tb simatupang toll. Stayed w nessa and henny. Ate garlic carbonara spaghetti by bittersweet najla. Quite good for the price. Went over mediko questions with nessa and first session citation. Atikah sent some krispy kreme donuts 🥺🥺

21 - woke up at 4 bcs henny and nessa already did. Ate cold kanayam for bfast. Did ukmppd. I flagged quite a lot of questions huaa. I hope i can pass, aamiin. Went to tamel to get stuff (nebeng oca uye), climbed jembor to get to akis et al. Went to aeon (super crowded tffff), followed by ikea (parked at decathlon). Ate at both places (shared portion w kris lmaoo we get full quick). Aeon sushi and ikea meatball. So fulll. Went out of ikea to be briefed by dr Debby (ecmocard) and put my stuff to mom's car. Went in ikea again. And finally we went back. such a good sleep yall

22 - relaxed and i mean RELAXXXED. woke up and slept again. showered to prepare to go to harkit for intern briefing. i was late (thanks daan mogot road) and had to grabbike from untar. put on some sheet mask (natrep rose) bcs im realizing i need to fix my face and look decent for this new environment lmaoo.

23 - left home at 7 am, went through highway (i aint repeating daan mogot tragedy again). walked a bit backwards bcs the hightway exit was infront of dharmais. super slow progress on entering medical datas. took half a day to get one. and another half for the other. ate marugame udon, somay, chicken katsu and otak otak. we finished after maghrib and im writing this while waiting for mom

24 -  tried salted egg dori rice from salt inc. its quite salty and eneg inducing (a bit more than eatlah), but for the price (19k after cashback) i wont complain. Went back home before maghrib but there was still some medical record stuff i did in my room.

25 - magang as usual. Tried chicken egg salad from salad hut. Bought ice french hazelnut coffee from lawson coz i just cant take it anymore (the slump and sleepyness). I feel like the moment that sugary beverage enters my system i rise like a freshly watered plant. First meeting with dr eva and the others

26 - felt so tired even in the morning. Its 9 am and im already ordering janjiw coffee (with hazelnut and milo, quite sweet. Like a mix of kopiko and milo). Slow progress today i dunno why. Lunch is nayam rica2 and egg for 21k. Went back home by tj and mom picked me at gajah 2

27 - i hate to say this but bcs for 5 days now ive been fighting sleeping instincts, i snap out of sleepiness easier in the morning. Nasi uduk for brekkie. Moved some stuff up bcs the noise, played keyboard. Learned the (difficult) chords to tyler's see you again and im feeling satisfied. Went to racheel's place. Got fed chicken noodle. And then off to silvi's with devi also. Got fed chicken rice and dimsum. Thanks to friends im eating superwell today🥺

28 - relaxed at home. Skipped breakfast bcs i fell asleep and ate heartily in the afternoon. Evening run w racheel at citra 6

[fixielixie]

get to know me tag

okay so i was tagged by @seokjinandtonic to do this and even tho i have 3274362 more of these tags to do im gonna do this one first bc it takes the least amount of creativity to do and im also procrastinating an essay i need to write but shhh

Rules: answer 30 questions then tag 20 Blogs

1. Nicknames: dont really have any, my names not the most ‘nicknameable’ sometimes people shorten it to sorch but that’s kinda boring

2. Gender: female

3. Star sign: libra

4. Height: 5′10′’/5′11′’ idk but im tall enough

5. Time: 7:38pm 

6. Birthday: 22nd of October (literally yesterday lmao)

7. Favorite bands: one direction, mayday parade, paramore, you me at six, brand new, i said one direction so im also saying got7. jjproject bc they deserve to be here too. the 1975

8. Favorite solo artists: also one direction, but solo records this time. zayn, beyonce, james blake, leona lewis 

9. Song stuck in my head: u got me by got7, but not the whole song, just the english rap jackson does at around the bridge and i honestly think im gonna go crazy he l p

10. Last movie I watched: a 1930s japanese film that i dont remember the name of but we had to watch it for a film and screen studies lecture 

11. Last show I watched: rupaul’s drag race

12. When did I create my blog: this one? no idea. early this year, but i didn’t start using it properly until mid summer maybe 

13. What do I post: ... i think this is the question on everyones mind lmaoo whatever comes to my head while im ‘’’’in the Moment’’’ 

14. Last thing googled: bible quotes... for the stupid fucking assignment i am procrastinating right now

15. Do you have other blogs: yes i have two active blogs, this one and my main blog

,16. Do you get asks: occasionally. when i do something particularly stupid and get called out on it... okay this happened once... and i didnt even do anything stupid... it was my first ask... im still salty over it 

17. Why did you chose your url: i think you all know why ... jaebum is fucking bald 

18. Following: honestly have no idea on this blog... it’s kinda awkward o follow people back on a sideblog r i p

19. Followers: 431 i think lol about 430 more than i ever thought i would get lol 

20. Favorite colors: black

21. Average hours of sleep: i need ten hours or else i can literally not Function at all 

22. Lucky number: 2 i dont really have one but if i did it would be π

23. Instruments:  i can play wonderwall and through the dark by one direction on the guitar and you know what that counts 

24. What am I wearing: a holey jumper and pajama pants 

25. How many blankets I sleep with: one usually but during the winter two

26. Dream job: bro im double majoring in history and english... ive given up on employment all together

27. Dream trip: im leaving the country for the first time in over a decade in a few days... maybe to go to canada to see yasmin and got7 bc they aint ever coming here and then live in yasmins apartment free of charge without her consent for the rest of my life

28. Favorite food: the edible kind im a college student i have no standards

29. Nationality: irish/english or if we’re getting technical Anglo-Irish, but i am currently living in ireland 

30. Favorite song right now:  not to b a got7anotor or anything but to me is the best fucking song of this generation also flicker by niall horan

okay so im meant to tag 20 blogs but tbh i don’t think i have that many mutuals lmao and all my mutuals know each other as well so i feel like if i tag them they’ve probably already been tagged so im letting this one out to the public yo do it if u want and tag me in it if u do im v nosy

[chickenfetus]

all moongan

thank you for asking falen tbh i love u sm and i love doing these 

omg is this ask for this ask meme i literally almost posted this along with the wrong ask fml

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

more cereal than mik because.. i dont eat cereal with milk……… i love the crunch

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

as someone who lives in a tropical country is that what its called idk we dont have seasons and it never gets lower than 25 degrees so yes that would be ideal

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

hrmmmmm… i just remember the page number?? or try to lmao if i dont remember i just skim through the pages and try to recognise where i left off

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?

with at least 2 packets of sugar tbh…. i dont drink coffee

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?

omg story time i went 2 get my braces removed and the dentist wanted to take pics so he was like “smile with your teeth!” and i was like ok! but then he kept saying i wasnt doing it right lmao… guess whos never smiled b4… (me) so he told me 2 practice my smile lol i didnt answer the qn but ya,,, i am probably

6: do you keep plants?

i used 2 be very against plants… now theyre okay i guess i dont rly keep any

7: do you name your plants?

refer 2 6

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

art??? i havent drawn in awhile

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?

no LOL

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

on my side!!!! i cant sleep on my back bc i gotta hug smth.. and my stomach is out of the qn

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?

🅱️… and .. same brainwaves…. poor mans ____…. this is all from the shady hq im so sorry my other pals

12: what’s your favorite planet?

the moon for no real reason

13: what’s something that made you smile today?

hMMm, watching astro and mx perform??? and just being shady with bell lmao

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

this… question,,,..so im thinking of a bright place with white walls and translucent curtains so the light call fill the (living) room perfectly and everythings really ??? sunny and shit idk its warm… the floor’s made of (fake?) wood and theres a small kitchen bc i cant cook and idk if my friend would be able to lol.. theres 2 bed rooms both are painfully small but it works.. theres one other room with a closet for clothes… the bathroom is just a shower, sink and toilet… theres no washing machine rip and ?? thats about it poor mens life

i watchd the like we used mv again and i realized ...... that is literally where i got this imagery from thanks the rose i love a relatable band

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

heres a fact (?) from me first: it rains diamonds on one planet ?? mecury maybe?? mars??? whomst.. this isnt even a fact its ,me trying to recall shit

ok real fact: There are thousands of other planets out there. sorry lads this website doesnt wanna have fun

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?

is spaghetti bolognese a pasta dish

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?

im chill with my current hair colour??? bc its brown sometimes idk shitty hair

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.

i asked my irl friends (group name: panic support group) and this is what they said

K: everything

E: when u were one hour late (i dont remember this happening but i do know im always late but never for an hour past me wyd)

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?

goDD i dont but i sure want to

20: what’s your favorite eye color?

this is strange but every eye colour is my favourite although ppl with two or more colours in their eyes are so cool

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.

its just my school bag lmao i got it 4 years ago and i take it everywhere even if the event is “small” and they ask us to bring “smaller bags” ill bring my big ass school bag anyway it looks like this (i dont have to but linking stuff is so fun)

22: are you a morning person?

technically.???its the holidays but i still manage to get up before 10 (most of the time) and … even if i have like 5 hours of sleep i manage to feel awake really easily????

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

tf i just use my phone lmao this is what ive been doing for like a month now… i could watch every vlive i havent watched yet, i could make video compilations i could practice my art but… even though im out of school im still procrastinating.. legends only

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

mmmm falens the closest to that

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?

my classroom

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

white converse??  i have 2 get new ones every like 2 years since theyre also my school shoes and break easily….. other than those i have my blueblack converse too (i dont wear them as much so theyre still in one piece)

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?

i dont eat bubblegum bc im always afraid ill swallow it and die and im p sure its illegal here

28: sunrise or sunset?

sunset but i dont look outside enough for either

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?

hm……… with jen its when she sends me asks on anon despite it being super obvious like im not a Fan when my friends send me asks on anon bc sometimes i cant tell and i get a sense of false hope but w/ jen its okay but i know its her

with bell its when they reply to my keyboard smashes with their own keyboard smashes lmao and when they just??//?? say smth cute abt their faves (lately its been sanha thank u sh)

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?

ya lmao when i have 2 sleep alone and its completely dark i have half a mind 2 believe some random supernatural being is out for me

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.

hmM. socks are great i always wear them bc i wear shoes almost every time i go outside… i dont have any weird socks bc im Boring but i have 3 pkmn songs and 1 gudetama socks/.. bUT I DID buy my friend those socks with individual toe pockets… it was so funny when my other friend saw it she choked on her drink and almost spat it out. we laughed so hard we hit our heads against each other i love friendship.. i have 2 wear white socks for sch bc… aesthetic? god if i know lmao….. i only ever wear ankle socks bc….. socks any higher than that? cancelled.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

listen ive never stayed up later than like 1am ok maybe 2am??? but i was working on like a project that was due the next day for school with my groupmates (friends) so does that count lmao

33: what’s your fave pastry?

bread………. sugar donuts…….. i am Aware that thats not how u spell it but wtv

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

why does this ask so many qns in 1 qn……. i had a cat?? it had pink stripes and it didnt have a name bc i dont name my stuff… even my pokemon.. and yeah i still have it except its in a big dusty bag where all my other toys are kept

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?

i kinda have to use stationary for school so ya.. p often is correct… pretty pens??? i dont rly see the point whoopS!!! in exams u can only use black or blue so

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?

im listening 2 day6 so like day6

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?

my room isnt even my room i just go there to sleep .. the place im always at is like a study area except its open?? so everyone can see me lol and . its not messy?? if u look at it from far but the shit on the desk and shelves are so fucking messy god i need to pack those

38: tell us about your pet peeves!

aLRIGHT LADS welcome 2 megans ted talk

(skip this if ur not fond of drama)

so something (refer to the song he said suits myday) happened with jae recently and ive seen fans trying to defend him by @ing him and saying that they love him which is fine - great even! but what i dont approve is how everyone’s basically forgotten about the whole matter because they had concerts so instead of @-ing him and asking him to explain himself, they tell him what a great concert it was which is also great bc their concerts are honestly amazing. basically my pet peeve is when ppl dismiss the problematic action of some people just bc they like them.

another thing is that there were some fans who started guilting others for wanting to drop day6 completely because of what jae did and in my opinion i think it is totally cool to want to drop a group if they did smth bad like??? its ur life???? u can choose who you want to like. what is not cool is pulling out all the good things the person has ever done in their entire life and try to remind others about the positive sides of the person. yes. they’re an encouraging person, etc. but that does not cancel out the bad things they’ve done until they explain/apologise. what is infuriating is just the manner some people took it?? they literally went ahead and tweeted shit like “would your parents drop you if you did smth wrong?” and “you’re seriously gonna drop someone whos been nothing been nice because of one incident?” yes. people will and you dont have any fucking right to stop them? so dont go pulling out receipts.

another thing. its also okay to want to stan the whole group even if someone has done smth problematic. like? to me youre cool if youre able to see and acknowledge the bad shit someone has done and still stand by their side while educating them at the same time its nice to have faith in your idols. however, i wont say much when your idols dont respond and/or respond in a way that shows absolutely no remorse. its cool if you want to support them too, despite that.

tldr; dont fucking excuse someone’s behaviour/action just because youre so far up their fucking ass. dont pull out shit from before either, be it good or bad. and lastly, its okay to want to drop/continue supporting them, its your life.

i just wanted to talk about this tbh,, it was nice to see a few mydays trying to urge jae to explain the whole situation but seeing as he still hasnt and couldve it really irks me :-/

okay update its been a day and i havent really thought about this but im kinda conflicted now bc jae still hasnt talked about the song and im probably just making a big deal out of smth that will never happen again but it really doesnt sit right with me knowing that jae recommended that song to his fans and said it suited mydays?? bc looking at the lyrics... i SURE hope not... idk i have neither forgiven or forgotten but he’s okay now.? i cant stay mad at someone for that long anyway ill never forgive him 4 it though lmao petty ppl only

another thing... jae’s still an amazing person to me with all the encouraging words he says to mydays but this one incident is just soOOOOO hrm and i did go off tangent with the question as usual lol

39: what color do you wear the most?

i wear a lot of colours tbh??? but bc its rly hot out ive just been wearing the same shirt every time i leave the house and its black so

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?

i dont wear jewelry rip

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?

challenger deep

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!

hm,, ive only ever visited this coffee shop like more than once bc the girl i used 2 like showed it to me b4 like 2 years ago and it was nice i liked their mocha frappe and its cozy i guess??? sometimes i go there with friends to study/just eat but i havent gone in awhile.., its two stories and it has an open air sitting area too i prefer sitting inside bc the sun is a big no thanks.. the ceiling is kind of like?? going downward?? like the kind iin attics???? idk man it was nice

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

u cant see shit here sorry

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?

cant relate

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?

yea?? sometimes i just gotta bc my brain wont shut the fuck up

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.

suddenly all of the puns i know have left my mind thanks @ me

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

vegetables

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?

the dark and whats basically in it???? like ghosts zombies and shit u kno the scary shit

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

i like buying albums?? theres a CD in those so it counts lmao i bought sunrise by day6

50: what’s an odd thing you collect?

boxes??? like containers????

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

boxy and letting go by day6

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?

YOU KNOW I HAD TO DO IT TO THEM and oh worm

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?

me: rocky.. ?????? from astro.. /?? no ive never heard of any of those and i saw the word horror so u wont hear abt those from me any time soon

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

i literally havent been outside for 2 days

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?

be petty aka yesterday i changed my twitter icon from jae 2 brian bc jae’s being a child rn so hes out

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?

when they ramble abt smth they like thanksk buds

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?

is this the song from p!atd i have it in my playlist lmao oh i fucing hate this song i always skip it im not listening

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?

idk what either of those are but bell and boxy

59: what’s your favorite myth?

idk any

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

anything that eunwoo has ever written

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?

ive given eggs for karissa’s birthday b4 and i got a kermit its not stupid tho its just the closest thign i could think of

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?

i drink water juice everyday every minute every hour

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?

my books are all in shelves lads i just  heard the fucking keys rattle im not doing this shit im logging off night

ok day 3 and im back like i said previously my books are on shelves i tried rearranging them by series b4 but my housekeeper rearrnaged them randomly the next day so i gave up

i make playlists for songs that i like, really like (i still skip them sometimes rip) and songs that my friend recommends me i have a seperate playlist for the songs i like in japanese 2

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?

light blue?? like its actually p white bc its cloudy

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?

m not rly

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?

just. leaves maybe??

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?

Horror Movie

68: what’s winter like where you live?

oh winter is fucking fantastic it never gets colder than 25 degrees celsius here and if it does rain it lasts for like 10 minutes

69: what are your favorite board games?

i used to rly like snake and ladders and monopoly :-o

70: have you ever used a ouija board?

im not ready for that kinda death

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?

english breakfast or earl gray??? those r like the standard right

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?

ya but i never do bc i either forget to or am just 2 lazy

73: what are some of your worst habits?

being lazy + procrastinating :-D

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

okie :-o ..

they’re great ok ive talked abt them like 10 times in the span of 2 months but whatever folks

they’re super nice, kind and just all of the positive adjectives out there in the dictionary ...... they’ve helped me multiple times and they’re always there 2 lend me a listening ear (or in our case, eye lmao) idk??? im just super comfortable around them always and im honestly so thankful we became mutuals (and subsequently friends) last year!!!! i cant say a lot bc ill just get v repetitive but overall they’re an awesome friend and im glad we still communicate daily via twitter and sometimes our skype sessions even if they’re kinda awkward bc i never know when 2 talk bc im scared ill speak and theyll say smth and itll turn into a MESS which actually happened lmao  

im looking forward to the day our skype sessions become super smooth and easy going!!!

75: tell us about your pets!

i have none but id die for boxys cats

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?

well yeah always tbh but its not smth i have to do but more like want to do im just 2 lazy to get around doing it

77: pink or yellow lemonade?

?? i almost said lemons arent pink but i Remembered...... yellow lemonade

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?

i feel like this is an Attack? okay LISTEN so story time again.

on the flight back from japan i watched the alien covenant and i couldnt even get past the scene where the baby alien was gonna kill the poor guy who ended up being locked up with the infected dude as soon as i saw the blood and the alien emerge from the guy’s back i bolted lmao

so to calm myself down nd block that memory from my mind i went ahead and watched despicable me 3.. which HONESTLY im the worst critic ever but in my humble opinion.... the movie was good????????? idk i didnt watch minions the movie though i got lazy again whooopS!

anwyay i sidetracked but im neutral im not a fan but i wouldnt go out of my way to call minions annoying?? bc they really arent? i feel like its only seen that way bc of how people make posts abt how annoying minions are even tho.. they arent??

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

my memory hates me so every specific thing my friends have ever done for me has left my mind but .

the cutest thing? everything my friends do for me

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?

theyre yellow and no i didnt theyve been there ever since i could remember

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

lava cake

82: are/were you good in school?

yeah i was good in school for like the first three years and this year i just flopped so badly lmao and its my important year too oh well my exams r over and i still dont have a backup plan in mind

83: what’s some of your favorite album art?

all of dance gavin dance’s albums have awesome art

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?

back when i was really into 5sos i thought of getting a tally since that was their logo at that time but now no not really unless i decide to get lance’s face tattooed onto my forehead on impulse

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?

im keeping up with hq, bnha and tg manga!!!!

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?

idk what those r but sure

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

big hero 6

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

who wrote this whats up with these questions

i googled and.. not really?? they all look nice

89: are you close to your parents?

close enough to stand being in the same room as them but not close enough to want to initiate conversations

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.

tokyo was really cool (literally) and if i ever go again id love to go with friends so we can explore more??

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?

japan was supposed to be the only plan for this year but my grandad passed away so i had to go to malaysia multiple times earlier this year ik this wasnt the qn but ive already went to the planned destination tm so

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

BARELY SPRINKLES A PINCH im anti cheese

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?

um. like?? i tie the sides of my hair that cover my face back??? bc i dont like hair in my face

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?

bell

95: what are your plans for this weekend?

hopefully something useful

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?

i also click remind me tomorrow lmao

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?

infp-t, capricorn, hufflepuff (same as falen nd jen yay)

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?

uh ive never been hiking and i dont plan on it sorry body

99: list some five (or id never shut up) songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

currently......

when you love someone - day6

like we used to - the rose

crazy sexy cool - astro

death of a strawberry - dance gavin dance

if it means a lot to you - a day to remember

idk if these actually “resonate to my soul” they just sound nice

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?

oh worm.. i wouldnt miind either???

i know i have 2 choose but like

if i go back into the past i could be less annoying?? but the past has actually helped me be the way i am today and i think im learning to be a better person?? im definitely way better than how i was previously 5 years ago and im just grateful i was able to learn from my mistakes???

so i wouldnt go back to the past.

if its in the future i can see how ill end up and if its not good i might end up being able to change myself so i dont get my “bad end”..???? maybe or i can just see what happens in the future and i can look forward to it

itll also give me a chnace to have the most fun while i can if its not too nice

so my decision is to go to the future

thank you so much for asking falen god this got so long lmao

[funkkpunk]

Sober October Day 7

. Day 7 stressful as fuck due to my procrastination. I did a rough draft of my presentation (How to Roll a Cone Joint) and then Lisa called me asking for help with soundcloud. This ended up with me finding 2 songs I had private and realizing me and Steven rly aren’t bad but I definitely have not been training my writing skills at all. Also we made an agreement to no longer keep music hidden from each other so I think that’ll benefit the three of us by forcing us to be comfortable. But after that I was also oddly sleepy during the day which led to further procrastination on my project. I had to take my dad to get his car and also had to take my sister school so I didn’t end up starting the final project until about 5, but I got both the script and video done. Side note I lit the joint for the video (I accidentally used the free nug of better kush I had gotten) and oh boy that shit smelled beautiful. Steven hit it a few times and I ended up finishing it at 6:45 (when class starts) and Steven gave me a ride to school so I finished the notecard in the car. Then of course my dumb ass didn’t think about how I would actually upload the video I made. Spent about an hour reformatting it and uploading it to my google drive and I ended up going last instead of 3rd. But, I think the actual presentation went extremely well. I made sure to maintain lots of eye contact (I think) but probably locked my elbows still. I get that not everything is a competition, but I definitely feel like a top contender in the class. Oh yeah I had to login to my google account and I guess the verification went to Susan’s phone so she asked me about it. I felt so embarrassed for some reason like I didn’t want her to think I did it on purpose. I really wanted to ask her about Hawaii or at least wish her well on the trip but I didn’t reply after I explained the google thing. Just didn’t feel right yknow.. felt selfish for me to reply with some shit like that like this person is trying to enjoy Hawaii w their family don’t start draining their energy. Not that I necessarily have that power or meaning or anything but just didn’t want to risk pushing her further away. My mom picked me up after class and Lisa came over to talk for a bit about some of her life atm. The general lesson was that actions speak louder than words. We got some in n out and went to see Steven. I told her it was rly hard not to reply to susan bc I felt like the ball is in her court anyways (if that even exists now) but over the past couple days Ive come to think that that is wrong. Because I haven’t really made it clear how I feel I just freaked tf out and shut down communication. But then again it’s like what would even happen.. just bc I’v assessed myself and have started to do better that doesn’t mean anything if I’m still just at home jobless and not accomplishing tangible goals. And wtf am I even saying bc she probably doesn’t want that yknow? Just wishful thinking. Idk but anyways yeah we established the no secret music thing w Steven and he played us some old beats watched some shows then we went home and she left. I fell asleep trying to make beats in bed (when does that ever work) and woke up to shower then slept

[onlinecoachdan-blog]

Are You Passionate About Life?

It’s no shock that not many people are very passionate about their lives. I am doing some research on the subject and asked some people their thoughts and here is what they said about it:

At 26, I feel like I should definitely be further in life! Like I should have more accomplishments! In result, I clock in everyday to a Job (For the past 9 years) that I hate! I feel like There are so many things I'm good at, but haven't really figured out which one I can really say that I have a passion for! Idk where to start..... instead of picking something, going back to school and getting a degree for that, Ive waisted literally years of doing nothing!

And I think you're right, you need to go out and work at finding your passion. If it's something that you're not already aware of. Most people never find there passion because they fall in lust and have kids and need to support their family, if you don't have the luxury of changing jobs of not having security. And the reverse is that you follow your passion and then when you're too old you think I wish I would've taken the time to have a family. Life is a very precarious balancing act. If your passion consumes you, you must realize that there will be a sacrifice in your life because to have balance is very difficult to maintain!

Unlike so many of the other individuals that have commented, I am 26 years old and i am still struggling to find what matters. I majored in Economics , i have worked as a teacher and now i am in the hospice industry, kind of crazy. I am extremely eager to fund something i am passionate about. Sometimes i cry bc i find myself very lost in the world.

I'm currently going through this phase understanding myself and figuring out my passion and not caring what others think. It has been a battle and I can't seem to figure out my passion. At this very moment I know that I enjoy being part of fashion, makeup, acting and celebrities, but I just don't how to find where I belong and how to go about it. I hoping that maybe you can create a video more depth about it.

I know what I want to do. But every day if I have a free time I end up procrastinating and just play video games. Although I set 2 hours every day doing what I really want. Is it passion? Cause if its passion, I really should've been doing it and not just setting 2 hours every day, instead I should dedicate my whole free time. So it passion? or Is it lack of self discipline?

I have been feeling without passion, without feeling and have become frustrated. I am a college student and a millennial in the heart of our generation entering adulthood. I have experienced a lot of adverse events throughout my short life - and I feel like I am very close to success but I really love the concept of finding my "authentic self”.

Is it possible that you feel you know your passion but by a sudden decision you make you change your way so you feel lost in that situation? I mean what is passion really?is it what you wanna be or is it just way of planning all you have to go on a way to reach your passion?can you change job by reasoning yourself but not really noticing how its really serving your passion and then never reach your passion?...I'm lost I’ve stopped working thinking that iv once known how I'm gonna do what I'm meant to do but i feel like I'm stuck in a situation that i don't know how to handle...should i give up on my situation? And forget my reasons for a scheduled way to get to my passion?

The problem in doing your passion is that some times you will need to survive in order to even start doing it. Surviving in this world means to be dependent on yourself by yourself and that is by getting a job "At least" so you can live as a normal person in your society. So basically it is hard and I think it is very very rare for someone to start his passion from his early age and continue in that path until it will be a life career.

It never comes that quick, most important is to be highly aware of your identity, have the state to be comfortable only on your own without any need for external stimulation that will make you temporarily happy, let the past go, do not worry about trying new things, jobs and places which helps you to come up with new ideas feeding your future passion.

I'm in art school for illustration and I have to find out what kind of illustration I want to do. I love what I've been doing I tried out classes from different tracks. I like them all, and I did good with all of them. But I still can't decide. I know it's not good if I try to do everything at the same time. And now I'm starting to lose energy in things I'm doing since my goal isn't as clear as what I had before anymore.

I’ve literally done all these things and still don’t know. I’ve been to 21 countries, I read 5 books a month, I’ve had 6 different jobs, I have a college degree and I’m almost 30 and not closer to knowing.

Well, I would argue that if you are not willing to work for your passion, then it is not really a true passion... A passion by definition is something that you feel compelled to do and you obsessively and compulsively do it and you enjoy it.

I´m confused with my passion. I still haven´t found that one passion I want to devote my whole life to... Well, to be honest, many times I thought I found it but when I look back I see how wrong I was at that time... I went through many very different stages... I wanted to be a biologist, pharmacist... than I studied psychology for one year... Than I was working on my own line of hand made notebooks... Than I found out that four of my five biggest strengths are learning and thinking associated... So I got into studying psychology and personal development on my own... But every time I realized after a while that it is not something I want to do for the rest of my life... Now I really got into fitness, nutrition and wellbeing so an idea of a lifestyle-ćhange-coach came to my mind... But after all the experience with not clicking with what I really thought I want to do I´m a little discouraged to make the first steps... Does anybody have any suggestions about this?

The "follow you passion" advice, is based on these premises: 1. Passion is consequent. 2. Passion is going to make you successful/Passion is more important than success. 3. Passion is an autonomous thing that you can "find" and "follow". 4. Passion is going to make it all easy. 5. Passion is not created, but found. 6. Everyone has a passion. 7. Passion is going to replace discipline, because of the sheer amount of motivation. 8. The Passion Advice is not something successful people use in a speech to cover up the real factors for their success(hard work and talent), because they are humble.

I'm really in a bit of an issue.

I'm 18, last year of school before college and we are going over career/courses etc.

I was told to sit one online, but I got my mother to oversee my answers to ensure I wasn't fooling myself or subliminally directing myself.

Strange thing is any question regarding being a musician, playing in a band, and/or writing songs she 'strongly agreed' with.

I've never said I want a career in music, I play guitar and sing/write songs. I've also mentioned how I'd like to join a band in college but she sees me as a musician.

A lot of people do apparently, I'm shy, short, quiet but aggressive when pressed with something I'm not comfortable in/with.

I've never played on stage yet she gets the impression a career in music is where I should go. That music is my passion and therefore my ideal career.

Resources

http://coachinginst.com/life

https://www.inc.com/magazine/20060401/coach.html

https://www.quora.com/What-are-people-passionate-about-in-life

http://jackcanfield.com/blog/finding-life-purpose/

https://work.chron.com/define-passion-life-10132.html

http://coachinginst.com/find