#also the annoying dog has not been kind to her 😭

[packet-of-staples]

Day 139 of drawing Papyrus until he cameos in deltarune! There really are quite a few people who just invite themselves into his house huh? I’m sure he appreciates the surprise friend visits. Also don’t mind the text boxes I don’t know why I did that either.

[strniohoeee]

Could you write a Matt x fem y/n where she gets overwhelmed with life (or something like that) and she tries to hide it from Matt. She fails miserably and in telling him what’s wrong she has a panic attack, so he has to guide her through it. Like kind of angsty in the beginning but very fluffy in the end? If that’s okay with you?

Trapped

Pairing: Matt Sturniolo X Female Reader

Synopsis: Y/N is struggling to balance her stressful life without realizing it. Unable to figure out what’s wrong some questions from Matt make her spiral and panic takes place🗣️

Warnings⚠️: None it’s just short 😭

Song for the imagine: Silver Soul- Beach House

Trap

(Past tense) Trapped

Verb

Prevent (someone) from escaping from a place

Lately my mind has been clouded by this overwhelming feeling of stress. I’m not usually a stressed person, but when I do find myself getting overwhelmed I handle it well.

But right now in this moment I wasn’t sure what was wrong and why I couldn’t control these feelings. I suppose it’s true that stress is a silent killer.

I couldn’t really pinpoint why my mind was racing and I felt this impending doom waiting for me. Like I was on the brink of snapping?

To make matters worse I’ve been distancing myself from Matt and his brothers because I didn’t want to seem like a buzz kill. Constantly plagued by the “what’s wrong” was making me annoyed. Because I simply couldn’t say what was wrong because I didn’t even know.

Matt had come over to my apartment to spend the night with me. I felt horrible because he was so excited and I just wanted peace and quiet, and to go to sleep.

I was being such a bitch, and I tried not to be but it was becoming very hard. My mind was constantly racing and for what? I had no idea….

“Baby are you okay?” Matt asked me, snapping me out of my trance

“Huh what?” I said looking at him

“Well I’ve been talking to you and you haven’t said a thing” he said furrowing his brows at me

“I’m- I’m sorry” I said shaking my head

“Are you sure you’re okay? You seem off” he replied rubbing my arm

“Yes Matt I’m fine” I said sternly kind of brushing his arm off of me

“Oh uhh I’m sorry” he said snatching his hand back

“Listen I’m sorry I’m just not feeling the best today” I said rubbing my forehead

“Would you like to talk about it?” He asked repositioning himself on the couch

“What is there to talk about when I don’t even know what’s going on in my brain” I said frustrated

“I’m not trying to make you upset so we don’t have to talk about” he said looking at me

“I’m sorry, okay, it’s not you I promise. I’m just stressed” I said back to him

“Well baby what are you stressed about?” He asked reading my face for an answer

“Matt I don’t know okay” I said feeling my heart beat quicken

“It’s okay” he said rubbing my knee which caused my anxiety to spike even more

His over analyzing of the situation made my brain go haywire. Anxious thoughts infiltrating my mind.

“I’m just stressed about a lot…..my content, and then my part time job and then also juggling school, and then my mom called me the other day to say that my dog is probably dying, and I have tons of bills and so much stuff to do and such little time” I said my chest rising and falling

“It’s okay to feel that way. You’re young and you’re doing a lot and living on your own isn’t easy” he said tucking my hair behind my ear

“And the warranty is up for my car so I have to call and purchase it again, and my manager has been trying to get a meeting in with me, and I have to fly back home in two weeks”

“and….and…..why does my chest feel like it’s tightening?” I suddenly blurted out the last part

“Y/N, you have to calm down okay. You’re freaking yourself out just breathe” Matt said sitting up

“I can’t breathe and my hearing is going out, my vision seems blurry? Am I going to pass out?? Why can’t I breathe Matt?” I said breathing quickly and erratically

“Listen to me, okay listen to my voice. You’re having a panic attack. You need to focus on your breathing and calm down” he said grabbing my hands and sitting in front of me

“I can’t” I said staring blankly as tears ran down my face

“Yes you can baby” he said

“Why am I crying?” I asked trying to breathe

“You’re having a breakdown, you’re going to be okay just do as I say” he replied back

“Remember when I took you to the cape and we went to that river?” He asked me

“Yes” I said shakily

“Okay now breathe in through your nose and out through your mouth” he said wiping my tears

“Well remember how beautiful it looked, and how vibrant the tree were….we sat down on a rock and you put your feet in the water” he said to me

“Yes I remember” I replied blinking my tears away

“And you tried to count the rocks in the water but you couldn’t” he said

“Yeah there were too many I kept messing up” I said laughing a bit

“And then you just focused on the water running through your feet, and you said that-“ I cut him off

“I said that it felt like silk running along my skin” I replied smiling at him

“Exactly, and you said the wind blowing through your hair made you feel like a main character in a movie” he replied laughing

“Yes I remember” I said laughing

“And do you remember who was there with you?” He asked and to this I furrowed my eyebrows

“Of course Matt, it was you” I said looking at him

“Exactly, I will be with you no matter what. I will always be by your side” he said kissing my knuckles

I had calmed down and my mind had cleared. Finally coming to my senses at what just happened. My body and mind feeling exhausted

“Thank you Matt” I said smiling at him

“Always my love. I’ll always be here for you. You should never let yourself get this way. If you ever feel any amount of stress just tell me I can help you” he said rubbing my cheek with his thumb

“I’m sorry I just don’t want to seem like a burden” I replied looking down

“You’re never a burden. Because when I’m stressed you’re always there to help me and I want you to do the same” he told me

“Okay Matt I will. I promise” I said leaning into his chest after he sat back on the couch

“Listen, you're doing well enough to quit your part time job, and if you ever need any money for anything just let me know okay. I want to help you! I’ll fly with you back home, and I'll go to the dealership to get the warranty package for your car again. Let’s look at your calendar together and schedule the meeting with your manager. And I can help be your study buddy for your courses” he replied rubbing my shoulders

“Thank you Matt I really appreciate it” I said melting into his touch

“This is what I’m here for! To be there for you always” he replied kissing my shoulder

“I love you” I said

“I love you too” he replied back

I looked over my shoulder and he placed a kiss on my lips. A kiss that let me know how loved I was….

The End

Hiiiii I hope you enjoyed this one! I have two stories similar to this on my page, so I tried my best to make it different😭😭 I love yall and I hope you enjoyed this one🥹🖤🖤

-J💅🏽

[look-how-they-massacred-them]

Preliminary Poll

Jade Harley

Submission reason:

Gets turn into the girl who gets in between the yaoi boys. And also the yuri girls.

im splitting this into two parts, the first being in the original comic snd the second being in the ‘dubious canon’ sequels in the comic: jade was a great character and was shown to be very mysterious before her introduction and then when she was fivally introduced she was a super silly and kind girl that got up to fun goofy antics. after she godtiered she became really powerful due to fusing with a powerful entity called a first guardian and she gained the ability to manipulate space (teleport herself & other objects & like change the sizes of stuff etc). then after the midway point of the comic the autor realised she was too powerful so they made up some bullshit reason to temporarily nerf her powers and stuck her on a boat for three years all alone with none of her friends. this was like a really awful disservice to her as a character as when she was a kid she lived on an island all by herself & she played sburb specifically so she could finally meet her online friends . but then after she meets them those versions of them fucking explode and die in the retcon so shes all by herself AGAIN. the saddest part is that her friends didnt even really die (just alternate versions of them) but she has no way of contacting them for THREE YEARS. anyway so she does nothing for three years and then when her journey is finally over and she reaches the alpha session with all of her friends she gets IMMEDIATELY NERFED AGAAAIIIN. basically the powerful being she fused with is a dog , so shes half dog. one of the villains has the ability to control animals. therefore her friends have to knock her out to stop the villain from controlling her so she can’t even participate for the majority of the big fight that the entire comics been leading up to because she literally spends the whole fight asleep 😭 when she finally wakes up she doesnt even do anything despite the fact that shed be extremely useful in battle because the author forgot she existed despite the fact that she used to be a protag. so she just spends the remainder of the fight trying to stop two dog aliens that from killing each other which ends in her getting punched square in the face by one of them and getting knocked out again. there was literally no reason for this to occur other than it giving the author an excuse to say ‘no look she participated! i didnt forget about her look she did something in the battle!!!’ its just really sad because she doesnt even get to reunite with her alternate universe grandpa or anything even though all of the other characters got to reunite with their alt universe families but jade stayed lonely and sad and asleep. shes truly a wasted character and its sad seeing her go from a protag to a character that the author accidentally made too powerful and as a result she had to be basically written out of the story :( in the ‘sequels’: okay so the homestuck sequels are deemed ‘dubiously canon’ by the author themself as their plots were outlined by them but the stories themselves were written by a writing team of fans and theyre supposed to be like a fan continuation by the original author. which means that technically they arent canon but also the plotlines were mostly decided BY the original author so im including them anyway. so let me talk about them. jade is reduced to an annoying bitch getting in the way of the fandoms otp :( shes also like written to be biphobic & anti-polyam stereotypes as shes depicted as super promiscuous and not caring about other people’s boundaries and she pressures 2 of her friends from the original comic to be her 2 boyfriends , & is depicted as like ‘getting in the way’ of those two characters’ relationship.

she also like makes one other character cheat on her wife because jade wanted a baby and couldnt have one with her bf so instead she just convinced his sister to cheat on her wife and shes shown to be an evil homewrecker or whatever :( the way she was written is also super transmisogynistic where theres like 1 million jokes per second about her having a ‘dog dick’ cause she fused with a dog god and its like a punchline . its like ‘hay jade WAAAIT A MINUTE how did you have a baby with rose?!??! Errrrrmmmmmmm WWHHHHAAAAAT?!?!?!! PENIS?!?!?!!??????!!!!!?😱😱😱’ it’s genuinely so annoying . i hate how she was reduced to a made to hate character purely because in the original comic she happened to be close to two characters that later were widely shipped by most of the fandom . she’s genuinely so out of character and far removed from the goofy silly girl from the original comic they warped her so much just because she was a girl interfering with the fan faves .

Propaganda:

hade us so awesome and silly and she deserves the world

[androdetective]

I've been thinking about Mario Hugo a lot (and Patana). Mario Hugo is honestly such a sad character but very resilient. He was an abandoned dog and raised by fucking vegetables of all things. Whom he later ate bc he was hungry. He grew up on his own and adopted to being a stray. And now, with his current young adult self, he adopts a bunch of stray dogs bc he knows how horrible it is to be one. And from what I've heard, he's canonically more of a cat person. (Although he does have some cats) He's an unapologetically kind guy. He's very calm and one of the nicer characters. He rarely gets angry too. And as a young adult, it's not like his scars from childhood have completely healed. For what he went through, he's actually doing quite well. He's managed to save many dogs (and cats) from what he went through and has even reconciled with his mom. He's even fallen in love with another character, Patana. He's taken so much time to know her and genuinely really cares for her. More than her own uncle, I might add 💀. Her brings her flowers often and is super, super nice. To the point of it being slightly overbearing. Mario Hugo means well but Patana does get annoyed with him being so head-over-heels for him. She has said before that she only sees him as a friend. With that being said, something I'd wish for her to do (if she hasn't already) is for her to tell him that she'd like to continue being friends but would want him to not be so overwhelming with his romantic gestures. I, of course, want to see Mario Hugo happy, but if Patana doesn't like him that way then he shouldn't pester her with it so much. He is not owed a romantic relationship, and Patana cannot control her feelings and that's alright. I'd want him to figure out how to be alright with being there for Patana, as a friend even if he wants more. I want them to hang out and be friendly with each other. I want to see them have a very sweet friendship. I'd love to see Patana get to know Mario Hugo better and support him. And if Patana happens to grow feelings and they get together, that's alright. And if she doesn't, that's also alright. Idk I get very upset whenever people say Patana is a devil because she doesn't like Mario Hugo back when she doesn't owe him that?? She's her own person. A guy with a sad backstory isn't owed a relationship with a woman as some sort of deserved prize. A friendship isn't any less meaningful or important than a romantic relationship. Those are some thoughts on them I've had for a while. I just want them to be good friends 😭

[minquiec]

Jia + Interactions

These are kind of under the implication of either 1: this is after atsv and all is well again or 2: the conflict of atsv never occurred and theyre all friends and miguel is just a tired overworked dad (this one preferably I jus want them to all be friends is this SO hard to ask)

pav:

- actually really good friends

- they trauma bonded over that one time hb bought chinese food (fondly, or not, remembered as The Incident)

- Verging into annoying little brother and equally annoying older sis territory

- Really really snarky that it might be bullying atp

- I like to think pav is a little nosy esp w drama (did u see the way he was w gwen and miles like cmon 😞) so jia would gossip a lil. she tries to not but eeeuyghhhhh maybe just this once [it was in fact not just this once]

- because! he's a nosy little fella i think he'd enjoy watching some dramas w rlly outrageous plot lines. jia enables by sending him reccomendations so he can watch w gayatri ajajaj

- I drew this once but in anomaly hunter au pav constantly pesters jia for credits so he can buy food cause he spends it on knives AHSBJAS

- bullies him but gets bullied back

gwenny:

- I have no idea on how jia would fit into the timeline of events within the canon lore hence the preferred implication of how atsv conflict never happened and I can make shit up HAHDHWHS but gwen was the offical spider to bought jia into the hq

- I made a comic abt this WAY EARLY of making jia but it was abt miguel and his slow ass descending platform LOLOL but yea they kept in touch

- they used to be that polite friendly but slowly got more unhinged over time

- flicks web balls/rubber bands(??) at the other

- share similar swinging patterns by jia is a bit more sporadic and leans towards a parkourish style while gwens likeee gymnastics?? I forogor the word

- bullies her for fun abt miles

kilometers:

- oh ☹️☹️

- ik i literally said that these are under the impression of the events of atsv not occurring but if jia ever saw miles' like full story (from itsv to atsv) she honest to god would've been like ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

- this is literally just me projecting but if y'all remember the scene in itsv where aaron found out miles identity AND THE SCENE WHERE HE LOOKS SO FUCKIN SCARED OF HIS UNC AND LOOKED SO SMALL CAUSE HES (13??14?? I forgot) and I think the only thing she would've said is just

- he's just a kid ☹️

- he was just a boy ☹️☹️☹️

- She would've been really sad and he makes her really sad cause he was so young

- her son btw ‼️‼️

- also bullies him abt gwen

miguelito:

- sheeeee doesn't exactly respect him as much as she should but she also doesn't care enough to disrespect him straight up??

- it's more bc the first impressions of him has always been very unserious so she doesn't take him very seriously 😭

- Especially after watching him descend so incredibly painfully slow on his little elevator platform

- gen z employee and tired boss vibes

- She calls him bossman which he's like 🗿stop calling me that but she's just 😆 idcccc

- Also calls him 老大 for fun too and it basically means like,,,boss or head honcho or top dog or something along the lines idk how to translate it

- only reason she's seen around him is cause she likes lyla and thinks she's cute

[sywenai]

The Waddellonian Stories! (Part 2 of Life of Left Handed Baseball Player Rube Waddell)

• Waddell would not go to the men's locker room to change into his uniform, but he changes uniform at the mound, in front of the audience.

• He once joined a touring play but he was incapable of memorising his lines so they let him improvise his, his acting was praised.

• He made an attempt to hypnotize a walrus.. of course, the walrus gets angry and ripped his trouser off.

• At another time, Waddell went off to see lions, and for whatever reason punched one of the lion. The lion obviously did not take friendly to this and bit him. (He let the intrusive thoughts win/j)

• He was once stranded in Kansas City because he spent all his money on feeding baby bears because he didn't want them to be hungry.

• When his team (Philadelphia Athletics) was traveling, they stopped because Waddell was missing. Then later, when they heard a band outside they were at shock to see that the one leading the parade was their pitcher, Rube Waddell. (With a baton and all that stuff😭)

• Waddell's friend, roommate, and caatcher Ossee Schreckengost (or Schreck for short) had told their manager Connie Mack to put a clause in Waddell's contract that he was not allowed to eat animal crackers in bed. (The two shared a double bed, and Ossee was annoyed of having crumbs all over it)

• There was this time Waddell knocked on Connie Mack's door at 1 AM, holding a sandwich made out of limburger cheese and onions that Waddell called "a pazzazza." (Whatever that is..)

• Sometimes Waddell would cartwheel or somersault his way into the dugout

• He was BAD at holding money and spent it mostly on alcoholic beverages to the point Connie Mack gave him his salary in 1$ bills. A 'keeper' had even been hired to keep Waddell in check!

• Shot a friend through the hand!

• Waddell claimed he lost track of the amount of women he married and his new wife almost sued him for bigamy because he forgot to settle the divorce on the last wife. (?)

Although, everyone has a dark side, for Waddell.. he was violent when he was drunk. One time he was moving out from his father-in-law's home, and he had asked Rube for boarding money. This request enraged the athlete and hit the man with a flat iron. When his mother-in-law tried to intervene, he hit her with a chair. The family dog bit Waddell at his left arm, who then fled from the scene to avoid arrest.

BUT! Despite all that chaos, Eddie also had a good heart and tried to help others whenever he could.

• When fellow baseball player, Danny Hoffman was knocked unconscious by a fastball on the temple, Waddell immediately went to aid him.

• Prevented a fire from a store by carrying the upset oil stove outside and throwing it on a firebank

• Saved a woman from drowning

•He saved tobacco tags to get a wooden leg for a little boy

• And on 1912 and 1913, when a flood happened Waddell helped everyone as much as he could, spending most of his time on ice cold water putting up sandbags to seal the crack on the levee.

His kind deed during 1912-1913 rewarded him with.. pneumonia, which then turned into tuberculosis. It was fatal during his time, he never recovered from it and died on April 1, 1914. Rube Waddell was only 37 years old. He may have lived a short life but made the most of it, with chaotic events left and right. His managers were frustrated with him, his teammates found him unreliable but he and his antics were surely enjoyed by the fans. I hope you all enjoyed this post as much as I did. :)

[iinksplit]

my sleep schedule watching me consider waking up at 7am for opening... this is queued tho 😭 hihi i’m melo (21+, s/h), writer of hot girl trash raccoon lee yuram & her functional symbie known as yubi! she’s currently a low ranking journalist at the herald & has lived all her life in eden while dreaming of taking over the world ( yubi tells her to pass her exams first, loser 😔 ) all her info is scattered around the blog ( stats, bio, power ) & i have no plots so here’s an attempt at putting everything together under the cut 😬 hit the ♡ or drop an im if you’d wanna plot, i also have discord if that’s easier!! 💖

TLDR

eden born & raised! her parents were both metas who decided quickly that they wanted to settle down, get registered, & live a good safe life. her dad talks to animals & her mum has some healing powers

think about the most law abiding, nice, polite, incredibly normal two people who could ever exist. that’s yuram’s parents. that’s also how you get an absolutely unhinged child

yuram’s a terror before she gets yubi, the sort to get into playground brawls & play dumb pranks. that annoying kid who likes to ask but why tho when she’s told no. extremely bored of being a goody two shoes like her parents so she turns around & is no shoes gremlin

anyway she’s born with a funky looking birthmark that turns into symbiotic ink when some kid breaks their pen & splatters her with ink, around age ten-ish. enter: yubi!

( basically venom but ) reverse symbiote trope! yuram wants WORLD DOMINATION & yubi just wants to pass their tests & maybe get a steady income

so ( v sadly ) yubi doesn’t help with any of the taking over the world stuff. they do help with exams & chores though 🙏🏻

yuram ends up in university thanks to her symbie, as a journalism major bc she’s a nosy little shit & thinks she knows what the news should be reporting

fresh grad, just got herself hired by the herald but doesn’t get to cover the mayor chae story :( but she might be poking around on the downlow......

other symbie facts! yubi’s personality fluctuates depending on what kind of ink yuram uses to build them up, but they’ve got a solid lawful good base. they aren’t always awake; if there’s too little ink on yuram, the symbiote just hibernates/goes dormant. they communicate telepathically but yubi can either borrow yuram’s mouth or pass notes to other people to talk to them. their big venom form is a huge mass of inkperson, pitch black; kinda scary but they only use that form for sneaking around, non-combative even though yuram wishes they were. ( but someday... 😉 )

chara insp! venom & eddie brock ( venom ), jang hari ( mad dog ), ji seungwan ( 2521 )

personality / misc! gemini sun, sagittarius moon, aries rising, a powerhouse clown. loves being argumentative & is always ready to go. probably willing to go to bat for you even if she’s only known you for 10sec bc she’s nice looking for a fight like that. can’t cook or clean but would d*e before admitting it or the many other things she sucks at. her common sense only exists in yubi, really really rebellious for fun & impulsive because she’s not patient enough & just wants instant gratification. in my head her bgm is any mgk x blackbear collab bc she’s got loser punk rock vibes. disaster really

PLOTS

petty crimes crew: exactly what this sounds like! just a ragtag buncha dummies spraying graffiti & pickpocketing, have been saying they’ll commit a heist since high school but still have no idea how to. lame gang things!!

free printer services: if you need help printing something or, ahem, ‘editing’ a document wink wink... she’s here to help

herald coworkers: yuram’s notorious for being a bit too headstrong & willing to investigate excessively for a story, asking way too many questions & only trusting herself. writes articles freakishly fast once she’s done tho. maybe a mentor or someone who has to keep her in check? fellow new hire jostling for a promotion?

snu friends: anyone from journalism, or their school’s broadcasting & journalism club? maybe someone who saw her ( yubi ) sign up for a million clubs but she never turned up too

bulleog apartments: neighbour plots!! yuram’s a petty little shit of a neighbour & somehow always up to something strange

commitment issues tm: yuram’s string of flings, past & current, or the (1) serious relationship she screwed up? ( also lowkey would love an enemies to friends / lovers / worse enemies but now we care for each other gdi plot )

thats all the ideas i have in my head but we can brainstorm instead!!

[lavenderboneswrites]

top 5 animes ❣️

1. One piece

Of course it’s one piece. Critically I wouldn’t say it’s the best adaption, it’s definitely got some pacing issues and I definitely recommend binge watching instead of the torture of week-by-week (also the manga is god tier #1 manga). Apart from that though, one piece is an absolute epic that has my entire heart. It really be a life commitment cause once you’re in, you’re in for life. Honestly not too exaggerated to say one piece changed my life for the better. If you like stories about found family, adventure, comedy, amazing characters and character develop, absolutely epic world-building on par with Tolkien and G.R.R. Martin then please give one piece a go. And if not, still give it a go I promise it will change your life ❤️❤️

2. Durarara!!

Drrr, specially season 1, is such an amazing adaption. The characters, the art style, the music, my beloved shizaya ❤️ One of the very first animes i watched I still love to rewatch season 1 🥰🥰

3. Fruits Basket

😭😭😭🥰🥰🥰🥰❤️😭❤️❤️ The perfect anime. Bittersweet slice-of-life, tragic and poetic, heartbreaking, yet hopeful. FB grabbed me by the feels and didn’t let go. Ngl I sobbed through most of it, tears of pain and tears of joy 🥺🥹 Critically speaking, in terms of character driven story telling FB is definitely my #1.

4. Hunter X Hunter

HxH is extremely underrated in my opinion. It was my first anime so it has that special place in my heart. Along with OP it’s an absolute pinnacle of Shonen. Most of the time I get annoyed with Shonen anime but when it’s done right boy does it go off. Amazing characters, character development, story-telling, and world building 🥰 critically i would say hxh is my #2 just for how tight it’s story-telling is, it has good pacing too which is such a bonus. Honestly bad pacing is so tedious it’s such a turn off

5. Jujutsu Kaisen

This was such a hard decision to make 😭😭 I didn’t really like JJK at first. It was okay but it was very Shonen and I wasn’t that invested in the characters. What really drew me in was Sukuna. I love his design, he’s an amazing villain and possession trope is 😮‍💨😮‍💨. Another thing that interested me actually was Kugisaki. So this was tying with Naruto for #5 but when I was comparing them I of course looked at the similarities of the main trio. I absolutely despise Sakura, not as a character, I actually want to like her so much, but just how bad kishi has written her honestly she deserved so much better. On the other side, Kugisaki, along with the rest of the ladies of JJK, are absolutely AMAZINGLY WELL WRITTEN. Like i love her so much I think she’s so interesting, three dimensional and it’s nice she’s not just a love interest for the men. A fully fleshed out character who’s a woman in this day an age? In my 2022??? Anyway besides Sukuna and Kugisaki, I decided to watch it for the animation alone, it is absolutely STUNNING, and that is why it’s beaten some of my other favs. It’s worth it for that alone. What really got me hooked was after I watched it I went straight to the manga and it’s one of those stories that just gets better and better with every arc. I am so absolutely ravenous to see the arcs of season 2 animated I apologise for the person I become when that happens 😅 Anyways, after I had caught up with the manga and was properly hooked I rewatched the anime a further two times welp 😅

6. Bungo Stray Dogs

I COMPLETELY FORGOT BSD EXISTED FOR A MINUTE THERE NOOOOOOOO!!!!! Probably this is more so tied with #5. Anyway I love love love BSD. The first season was a lil eh and I wasn’t totally on board but DARK ERA SNATCHED MY WIG and I’ve been obsessed ever since. Up to date with the manga and very excited for season 4. Dazai alone to me is such an interesting character (kind of like Izaya that way). Also my beloved soukoku. And rare pair Ranchuu.

Honorary mentions: Naruto (very soft spot in my heart for Naruto it gets #6), BNHA (season 1-3, beyond that is a butchered adaption and a rant that needs its own post), Banana Fish, Haikyuu!!, Given, KuroBasu, ugh I’ve watched too many animes I can’t even remember them all. Also does this count movies? cause if movies count, NUMERO UNO ICHIBAN FOREVER AND EVER KIMI NO NA WA MY BELOVED 😍😍

(Also Shizaya your name au anyone???)

[stardust-static]

As if my chicken era has not been the most diabolical mistake at times... I am now entering my quail era ✨ well... That's if I did not just get scammed out of $40. 😬 My parents have quail and I love them and have been wanting quail even before the chickens, however they were not as useful as chickens so they weren't my first choice when it came down to it. That's until I discovered that I can make money by breeding the quail. A specific kind though. A kind that has been SO difficult to find in my area! And I want hatching eggs. The eggs for this breed of quail go for $50 for two or I found something that was 6 for $250 this morning. Well I went asking around on some Facebook quail groups for any local quail breeders who might have these eggs and someone directed me to this other lady. So I messaged her and we get to talking and she says she'll send me two dozen for $40. That's including shipping. I confirmed that it's for this specific kind of quail and she said yes. Her page looked legit. It's a poultry farm page and someone else recommended her to me and said she got these quail from her. So we'll see! The money has been sent and she said she'll be sending me the tracking info.. That's such a good deal and if all is what it seems my eggs will be here by Tuesday! 😱

My parents already have the incubator I got them for Christmas and the little chick nursery. I'm excited! I really hope I didn't get scammed or that she doesn't just send me some generic quail eggs.

I'm excited to have the monopoly in my area for these quail 'cause I really could not find them anywhere and they are so expensive! 😩

They're also super cute. They look like little penguins 🥰

Fuck.... I like how after I paid another person was like "this farm also sells them" and then some guy comments "both of these are scams"

!!!!!!! WHAT?!

In the quail groups? We're scamming in the quail groups?? This is what we're doing?

I hate people. I really hope that isn't true. I really really hope so. Mostly because Bailey said "this sounds like a scam" and I'd really hate for him to be right. Oh he's going to be so annoying if he's right!

I sent the money through Zelle I'm pretty sure I can't get it back. I mean I screen shotted everything and saved the conversations. Still though... That money is gone.

Fuck. I really hope I'm not getting scammed!

This happened to me once when I was looking for an American Eskimo puppy and literally every breeder I talked to was a scammer. They all had the same story. It was the weirdest thing. I bought both of my dogs from a pet store because I could not find a legit breeder and Toby was born on someone's farm in the middle of nowhere.

But yeah... I really didn't think they'd be out here doing this with birds! What the heck. I'm so naive! 😭

I just sent her a message like "someone said you're a scammer and I'm a little concerned now.." 😂 I don't know what I expect her to say back, but damn reassure me cause... 😫

[neverlearnedtoread]

A Heart So Fierce And Broken

⭐⭐; there are certain angles grey can work and 'person in a position of power making a tricky decision' is NOT one of them 😭😭

Oh?? 👌😉😏

the way the world was expanded and the isekai aspect of the story was well-handled. it was realistic and also (more importantly) brought tension to the story in a way that i didn't feel derailed the main conflict

in particular the 'women warrior' culture of Karis Luran wasn't overplayed - there wasn't a sense that their culture was any less myopic than any other about gender roles, which was very refreshing to read after Strong Feminist Harper in book 1

No.. ❌🤢🤮

the protagonists of the previous book take a sudden turn for the worse. i don't think its a character assassination per se, but i do find it jarring how the main characters in bk1 became antagonists in this (the actual concept of them becoming the antagonists, i have nothing against, but the execution fell flat for me). i just wasn't finding the situation believable enough for that kind of sudden 180

it wasn't that there wasn't anything happening, but nothing that was happening was something i felt emotionally invested in

POV characters that don't do nothing in the latter half of the book (when they should, absolutely, be DOING SOMETHING, OR AT LEAST FEEL LIKE THEY ARE)

Some spoilers under the cut - this is the second book in the series!

Summary: I've read cliffhanger endings before, but talk about stepping off the rollercoaster of the first book into the Tower of Terror of this one! Let's look at the pros first: the curse that held Prince Rhen and his guard Grey has been broken, and Lillith left dying on the streets of Washington, DC. Harper's still alive, as well as her brother and his boyfriend. As for the cons, well: remember how in the first book they told a bunch of lies about Harper being a princess and constructing an elaborate ruse to rally Emberfall together in the face of ruin? All that's about to bite us in the ass, because not only is the ruler of Karis Luran threatening to invade them after three long years of skulking around their borders, but the rumours that Prince Rhen is not actually the firstborn prince are true, and the real heir to the throne is Grey, who, upon finding this out, has cut and run with his deadly secret like a wolf afraid of his own shadow. It's not the best start for a would-be-king, and it honestly doesn't get better.

Concept: 💭💭💭 The last part of the first book really clawed its way up to four stars (Harper guiding monster!Rhen - on a murder spree no less - was so fun!!) and set the scene for an interesting bk2. I was so excited! I liked the idea of having Grey as a more pragmatic, even-keeled POV to contrast Rhen and Harper's strong-minded narrative voices in bk1. I also love 'stoic bodyguard' / 'guard dog' tropes and was stoked to see Grey as a main character.

Execution: 💥💥 Grey, darling....what happened?? i mean i know the author was trying to write you as a character floundering in situations you were ill-suited to, but did you have to become that annoying in the process?? dont even get me started on rhen. and the thing is, kemmerer's justifications for what happens in this book make sense; on paper, it does work! but all the interesting parts of the story were sacrificed in the process, and that's not an acceptable outcome for me. i was told why the characters were doing what they were doing (ie torture), but i didn't actually believe it. it would have really helped if the sense of urgency and desperation kemmerer wanted us to feel was made more concrete - like, maybe there were hordes of people literally making their way to the castle to demand prince rhen reveal the heir and/or step down, or evidence of karis luran's troops (not just the princess) on the wrong side of the border. and have our POV characters run into these groups, instead of vaguely saying 'they're around!'

Personal Enjoyment: ❤❤ I didn't enjoy this book, but I was also invested enough in the drama to skim-read at a speed that would make it seem like i was really into it. it took me less than a day! more than halfway through i had to admit to myself that anything i would have wanted to happen wasn't going to pan out, including cute rhenxharper scenes, lia mara being kind and whipsmart (or balancing both depending on the situation), and grey making any attempt to rise to the damn occasion. by the end, i was just trying to be done with the book 😕

Favourite Moment: this was a bummer of a book for me but the mental image of grey launching himself out of the window after sneaking into lia mara's room, I WAS LOSING IT 🤣 man said BYE! 💨🤸‍♂️🧗‍♂️

Favourite Character: lia mara? harper? its actually hard for me to pick any character, that's how difficult this book was for me to enjoy. i liked what i THOUGHT i was going to get but it became too clear about halfway through kemmerer was trying to write characters into certain positions / state of mind for bk3 for me to fully invest in what was happening. i will say lia mara SHOULD have been my favourite (i wanted her to be so badddd) except that my vision of a politically savvy and whipsmart heroine that didn't have to resort to violence or threats to garner power (while grappling with her innate sense of justice and kindness) crumbled into her just being 'girl stuck in tower' for like. the last third of the book. like baby! stand up!!

[riverstardis]

shock to the system:

oh that’s weird it does like the build up to the intro but then it cuts out?

oh sebastian grayling i forgot it was time for him

oh there we go there’s the intro

aww elle and dervla

lmaoo elle suggests putting the new f1 on dog sitting duty when he finally arrives and dylan’s like “do you think i’d trust an f1 to look after her?” sjskkf

alicia snuck out before cal woke up😬

elle asks ethan to mentor sebastian because she needs a “good reliable doctor” but says he’s too busy with a ctr review. dylan volunteers to mentor him… you may regret that bestie

elle’s like “but you’re a senior clinician?” since when did the seniors not have mentees?? maybe it depends on whether there are any (named) registrars actually there at the time? maybe it’s a registrar if possible like lily was rash’s mentor but like when paige joined there weren’t any registrars (technically there was matthew but he was paeds) so maybe that’s why she then got a consultant as a mentor? oh and archie was still off after being stabbed when mason started. and iirc alicia was initially meant to be bea’s mentor but ethan ended up taking over? idk how it actually works in real life though

cal bought alicia a toothbrush to keep at his to save her rushing off in the mornings and says he’s free tonight and she says she can’t because she’s washing her hair💀 jeez cal take a hint man

cal walks away looking so thoroughly traumatised that ethan asks him if he’s okay😭😭 he’s like “i’ve just been turned down…” and ethan goes “by a member of the opposite sex? no… WAIT do i hear the walls of jericho falliiing!!” DJSKFKKF

“so this is what it feels like? no wonder you prefer books to girls” 💀💀

ethan’s face falls so fast when he realises cal’s talking about alicia😭 though surely he was also there in the flat while alicia was there with cal?? i suppose he was probably already asleep when they got back, and i’m sure he’s used to cal bringing girls home at all hours

“she stayed over last night but she’s not playing ball today” “it’s not a game is it cal?” “see that’s where you’re wrong, little brother, it is all a game. and it’s a game i really like to win.” urgh🙄

sebastian’s so annoying

oh this actress played yaz’s mum in doctor who!

lmaoo robyn feels lightheaded and jacob catches her and sebastian’s like “hospitals change, nurses don’t” and makes like a drinking motion and jacob turns on him like “are you forgetting that i’m a nurse?”💀💀💀

cal keeps checking out his patient’s girlfriend and louise says to alicia that he’s like a dog on heat but that he doesn’t get that kind of reputation for nothing

cal implies that alicia’s jealous and she’s like “i’m the one who turned you down remember” he’s like “so you were turning me down” and she says it’s just not gonna happen is it “because you’re cal, the guy who sleeps with everyone, who flirts with patients’ girlfriends. men like you are the reason women don’t do relationships.” SJDKKFKG YESSS DRAG HIM

he’s like “wow. well maybe i’m like superman in reverse, take away the disguise and you’ll find clark kent” orrr she could go be with ethan and get clark kent without having to work through an arrogant disguise? she just goes “you wish mate” sjdkfkkf

cal’s clearly starting to actually like alicia at this point but like, if he just hadn’t slept with her in the first place when he knew full well she liked ethan not him he wouldn’t be in this situation would he?

oop cal saying alicia can keep believing that he’s the reason they wouldn’t work but really she would run a mile whoever he was. and asks her when was the last time she was serious about anybody😬

aww alicia’s mum rings her in tears about her dad and alicia’s crying by the end :( and ofc cal has to talk to her “turns out he’s just like every man in my life. but you know what, you’re right. maybe i am a bit messed up. but so would you be if you had two parents going at each others throats and a dad going through a mid life crisis.” “i’m sorry i wasn’t thinking” “yeah. so just do what you’re here to do and stop playing with my head, okay?” :(((

hmm was it sebastian saying “my dad’s gonna kill me” that made dylan consider giving him a second chance?

and then he immediately goes and resuscitates a patient with a dnr😭

ethan says he heard there was nearly a bit of an incident and alicia tells him that cal’s patient thought he was flirting with his girlfriend and ethan says it wouldn’t be the first time and alicia says to cut him some slack because he feels bad about it and ethan makes a jab at her sleeping with cal and says he has enough notches on his bedpost?! jesus christ that came out of fucking nowhere guess he’s hit his limit huh😭

yknow i’m not sure that’s even specifically because of his own feelings for alicia because he did a similar thing with lily when she slept with cal but he only saw lily as a friend, and it wouldn’t exactly fit with the fact that he willingly conceded his awards night ticket to cal because he “knew his place”. i think it’s more to do with him having a friend who he feels is on “his side” who can see through cal’s charm so he maybe feels betrayed when he feels like they’ve “fallen for it”. clearly that’s not healthy😭 get this man some therapy asap

aww seb finds dervla hurt :( he treats her in the staff room🥺

oop the patient’s girlfriend thinks cal and alicia are together and she say’s they’re not but it’s complicated and the gf is like “it’s only as complicated as you make it” and alicia immediately goes to speak to cal nooo bestie don’t listen to her she doesn’t know the full story! you don’t seriously think starting a relationship with someone while knowing full well you have feelings for his brother is going to be anything but complicated, do you?

cal suggests they just be messed up together😭

elle telling dylan how great sebastian was with dervla… maybe he should go be a vet instead of a human doctor?

ohh yeah it’s deffo the ‘arsehole dad’ card that’s winning dylan over

seb tries to hug dylan and dylan goes “there is no physical contact. ever. do you understand?” and seb says yes… dear reader, he did not, in fact, understand

i keep saying that cal must’ve known alicia liked ethan and i do think he did subconsciously at least but i think maybe he didn’t quite want to believe it or something which is why he doesn’t realise what he’s getting himself into? like i would not be surprised if he just couldn’t fathom the idea that any woman would pick ethan over him. the problem is that ethan couldn’t fathom that either😭

[mokutone]

Hello~ i have been rewatching the kakashi-tenzou anbu arc and im frequenting your blog way too much 😭 i love the dog man and tree guy so much

My ask is I dont remember if there was ever any interaction between anko and yamato in canon but considering how they were both the survivors of oro’s experiments, they have some trauma things in common that they could talk about lol would love to hear if you have any headcanons about this.. Would they even try to talk about it!?:?:?

INTERESTING QUESTION...

i dont know of any canon interactions between them either—but that is curious, that i curious...

the only thing is, i don't know if their traumas are similar enough that they would have anything in common—Anko was a teenager or a preteen when she began to "work with" orochimaru more closely, and their relationship seems to be one where she thought of herself (like kabuto probably does) as more of his pupil or student, or apprentice, and then, realized all she was to him was kind of an opportunity. i feel like the betrayal and pain she feels about that is probably a lot more direct to orochimaru.

Yamato on the other hand, he was in orochimaru's hands from like, i guess infancy to about 4-5 years old, and it doesn't seem like he had a lot of direct interaction with orochimaru—honestly it seems like most of that time was just, floating in a tank. I think he has a less direct hatred for orochimaru, and more just a kind of. nebulous dread and fear.

Also, Anko is very loud and direct and sharp, I think, like Gai, she might be somewhat overwhelming to him. If she took an interest in him at all, she might even decide she wants to or it's her Duty to push Yamato out of his shell, and in which case I think he'd clam up even more and be like. Haha. Well. Goodbye.

actually, thinking about it, her trauma at the hands of orochimaru probably more closely resembles sasukes, or maybe even kabuto's. still, i can't help but have difficulty imaging her wanting to talk abt this with either of them, even after whatever happens in late series and theyre all back in konoha.

idk, i see her as having a lot of issues trying to trust people, especially with things that are in any way sensitive to herself—part of why i think she'd like pushing other peoples buttons. its annoying and it makes enemies, but it would also give her a really good idea of how people react, both to her, and even possible to things that she doesn't know how to react to.

like emotionally sending a canary into a coalmine, that way she can protect herself a little better when it's her turn to go in.

[moonandflowersfairy]

match up request: Hi! I wanted to see if you could do a matchup for me :]Personality: my mbti is ISFP,my zodiac sign is Libra (October Libra),I have a sharp tongue,I'm a bit of a airhead and doze off alot,I'm very motherly and love to take care of others,I'm also a really good listener and love talking for hours if I can,I'm introverted but I'm willing to talk for others if they don't feel comfortable,I'm also very touchy so I like holding onto others,I also have huge mood swings.Pronouns: She/Her :] Likes: I really like horror movies and anything horror related,cooking,listening to music,the color green, cats and dogs. (I don't have much interests I'm sorry 😭😭)Dislikes: Snobby kids,people who talk back to their parents,loud chewers,people who walk slow,men,abusers,liars.Looks: I'm 171cm/5'7.5ft,I'm pretty pale,I have dark brown hair with a green underside that reaches my chest,I have hazel eyes and many beauty marks all over my body/face,I have a curvyish body that's still rectangle,hip dips and a convex nose I'm pretty insecure about.Relationship: I'm not exactly sure what I want in a relationship- I want someone who's understanding and doesn't get annoyed easily with mood swings. Someone who is comfortable with being touched since physical touch is someone I do alot,someone I can hopefully see once in a while and don't have to wait 4 months or so to see, they don't have to be a romantic or even be experienced in dating, dates can be wherever I've never been the picky type for those things. Also I'm Bi with no gender preference and Demisexual! :>>Any genre will do! Yes I've read the manga and I'm all caught up on the latest chapter.Hope you have a good day or night!

I match you with...

¡! Inui Seishu ¡!

why?

you caught his attention in more than one thing, your vibes really matches his, and he found he is very comfortable around you

your relationship is based in comfortness and little details

general headcanons:

¡! SFW ¡!

you met him accidently, you entered his shop with one of your friends to see bikes

very friendly

then discovered you had many friends in common and started talking more

you did saw each other frequently given the fact that you lived near him

he isnt very talkative but pays attention to details and demonstrates his love through actions

little by little he fell in love and confessed after 3 months of knowing you

it was a very soft and delicate evening, having dinner at his place, opening up, candles all over his house and a sweet bouquet of white roses

it is a slow relationship in

he gives you rides around town

servicial

not comfortable with pda but will hold your pinky and give you hugs in public

cuddly at night

supportive boyfriend !!

likes to use your heels

your relationship has a dinamic where you already know what the other wants, you both have that kind of connection

I also match you with...

¡! Shiba Yuzuha ¡!

with love, for: @lardeneee

[white roses: a solid, pure, stable and eternal love relationship]

A.N: ok this took me YEARS to finish, Im sorry for that, writer's block :/

[cdfreak]

ghost, shaved ice, scissors, gear, and heart w/ arrow for red! :P

wait also crying, sleeping, bday cake, spider, and all the -no-evils (also for red, but also for mara)

ok im doing all of these for both red and mara because im insane <3

👻 GHOST - do they believe in ghosts? what are their "ghostly experiences", if any?

MARA - mara definitely believes in ghosts, she thinks its a bit silly for a grown woman to be like superstitious so she doesnt talk about it much but she definitely believes in them!! RED - in 101 she thought she was too cool to believe in something stupid like ghosts but she was secretly kind of scared of them lol and once she got to the wasteland she definitely started believing in them. the wastes are so haunted !!!

i dont really know if either of them have had really like ghost like experiences other than mara being like omg something got knocked off a counter its ghosts... when it was like . her dog LMFAO but theres definitely a kind of overwhelming ghostly haunted feeling for them in some places. its strongest for mara when she sees like old buildings or landmarks she remembers from her childhood/prewar life but theyre like rotting and empty now, and for red when she has to explore old abandoned vaults

🍧 SHAVED ICE - do they still have any objects from their childhood? what significance does it have to them? what would their reaction be if they lost it?

MARA - mara lost everything from her childhood, she didnt have time to take any keepsakes from her house before going to the vault :(( shes really upset about it honestly there were obviously a lot of really important things to her

RED - red has her old baseball cap from the vault and her baseball bat!! that baseball cap is so fucked up oh my god its been patched up and repaired so many times but i think if it was ever like fully destroyed beyond repair she would not recover for months. same tbh to a greater extend with her bat old girl that thing is like. she sleeps with one hand on the grip and she lovingly repaints it and carves into it she would literally scream and throw up and kill herself and explode a building and kill herself again if she lost it

✂️ SCISSORS - what is the "last straw" for them to cut someone out of their life? how easily do they let go of people?

MARA - mara tries really hard to give people second chances but if they are hurting people she loves or if they are like . fucking evil like support the institute or hate ghouls or something she is Outta there. its not necesarilly easy for her to cut people out of her life but shes like mature and can do it without too much strife - although depending on how close she was with them it would take her like forever to get over it lol

RED - red will cut people off at the drop of a hat she does NOT care. if they are like annoying or slightly too mean to her loved ones she is like ok bye. get out. thats because umm she has a lot of walls up and refuses to get close to anyone other than a select few so its easy for her to cut off relationships she was never very invested in anyway but she will still like not let go of it and be kind of upset for a while

⚙️ GEAR - what are your ocs thoughts on science & art? which do they give more importance to? how much value do they place on each?

MARA - mara loves science and art so much!! shes not super great at science but she thinks its REALLY cool and she was like daydreaming about doing those little science kits for kids with shaun once he was a little older😭😭😭 and obviously she loves art shes an art teacher LOL i think she values them a lot!! she is of the opinion that art and science arent nearly as different as people say they are and art can be argued to be a bit of a science and vice versa!! she doesnt really put more importance on either

RED - red thinks that art is kind of lame and not as important as science but she secretly kind of likes it <3 she doesnt like want people to think shes soft though so she doesnt show it. red is frankly fucking insane and puts up such a tough guy show and thinks the weirdest things will make people think shes weak

💘 HEART W/ ARROW - what traits do they look for in a relationship? do they believe in love at first sight?

MARA - mara really values like mutual respect and compatible personalities and similar values. she thinks there can definitely be like an attraction at first sight but not actual like Love

RED - red will have an intense relationship with any girl who looks at her its awful

😭 CRYING - what makes them cry? do they cry easily?

MARA - mara doesnt cry very easily but she gets very emotional about like families and children and loss <3

RED - red cries when she gets angry which is often but she tries a lot to hide it

💤 SLEEPING - do they fall asleep easily? what helps them sleep?

MARA - mara likes to have something to hold onto while she sleeps!! one of the first items she picked up in the wastes was a teddy bear lol although she will cuddle with dogmeat if theres room ^-^ she fell asleep pretty easily before the war but during the events of fo4 it became harder and harder for her tbh she was under a lot of stress trying to find shaun and run the minutemen and keep the railroad from getting exploded and also she was #traumatized BUT after destroying the institute and getting her little break from like world saving responsibilities she became more comfortable and calm and sleeping got easier:)

RED - red will NOT be able to sleep if she is in a room alone its literally impossible and she hates it. in the vault it was because she would sleep in her dads room a lot/probably shared a room with cyan for a while but once she made her way into the wastes it was also just like a safety thing yknow. especially after being kidnapped by the enclave and developing like paranoia issues lol <3 also she hates the cold and sleeps a lot better if shes warm. when shes comfortable its really easy for her to sleep though she will just like take naps if she has nothing else to do

🎂 BIRTHDAY CAKE - when is their birthday? do they like celebrating it?

MARA - november 20th !!! she likes celebrating it a lot its a fun time for her :) her first birthday in the wasteland was kind of scary but nick and cait and preston and codsworth threw her a little party and it was really sweet and she cried about it RED - july 13th also <3 i think she liked celebrating it when she was younger but she was like mad she had to share with cyan LOL... she like got over that when she was 10ish though and just thought it was fun to hang out with her brother and friends <3 although it always made her a bit sad cuz of her mom u know. n then after red n cyans dad died on their birthday she like hated it lol

🕷️ SPIDER - what is their biggest fear? do they have any irrational / mundane fears?

MARA - mara is so so afraid of losing more people um its so deeply sad <3 shes also scared of the ocean lol

RED - red is afraid of being alone and left behind :( also mirelurks freak her out so bad

🙈 SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?

MARA - mara feels bad when she gets very angry and snaps at people :( only people she cares about though shes fine snapping at assholes

RED - red does not like it when people know she has like emotions other than anger she is like batman from the lego batman movie

🙊 SPEAK-NO-EVIL - what is something your oc will refuse to stay quiet about?

MARA - she will not stay quiet about like anything that she sees as unjust and it gets her in trouble Often lmao

RED - she likes getting into bos discourse lol

🙉 HEAR-NO-EVIL - what is the worse thing your oc could hear from someone?

MARA - if someone close to her like curie or nick told her she was like. not doing enough to help i think that would break her

RED - if someone in her family said she was weak or that they didnt like her she would die actually

[dejwrites]

i actually don't know yet since some careers are strict on what major you take for the pathway so i'm trying to figure it out since changing it would be hasty if i didn't have all the details.

my dog is doing a lot better for right now! he didn't puke but we think it's because of the chemicals in the grass (when we walk him or when we let him out he's always sniffing and eating the grass and even saw a bit of it when he puked 🙁 (i love my little elderly gremlin fur baby but he has to stop trying to eat things like this be he knew not to do that 😭) my mom and i want to take him to the vet just to figure out what's going on and my dad is not really sure since he's getting older and is a bigger dog breed so its kind of hard to differentiate and then there's the financial aspect of it too

i personally think i'm awkward since i've had to live with myself for 20+ years and would look at myself sometimes like they do to the camera in the office when i do anything that makes me feel mildly embarrassed but get bursts of social energy and try to talk to people despite being extremely reserved, introverted and not a huge people person if that makes sense so idk whats wrong with me

also i think in the response you said its been a month and yeah i think it has but i think that even though its been that long it doesn’t feel like i’ve really talked like that long but maybe it’s because when you’re online you usually have some sort of dynamic set in place with your moots already if that makes sense. i don’t think i have one in place yet so maybe that’s where the feeling comes from which makes me feel awkward bc i do not want ro be embarrassing, annoying or just that moot (i have no idea if i conveyed the message i wanted to)

-🌻

well, do you know what you want to do career wise. it can be extremely overwhelming with changing majors. one of my friends changed her major three times before actually settling on her current major and realizing that's what she wants to do. but i do believe, knowing what you want to do or what you're interested in doing will help. also remember, college isn't a race...so you can change your major how many times you want. after all it's your life.

i'm glad your dog is feeling better. i think y'all should go to the vet or at least call the vet and describe what happened and see if they could tell you over the phone

ah, i understand what you're saying now. i mean, i thought we were on that level. don't really have to do much to be a 'moot' of mine. hit me up and i'm down for a conversation. a lot of moots we literally bonded over anime characters. then some of them i've known from wattpad. don't feel embarrassed talking to me, i don't want you to feel that way so if i made you feel that way. i'm sorry.