#also when did i get skz followers i love all of you hello hello hello

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oddinary for the ask game?

oddinary: sUCH a great album,,,, the venom to maniac to charmer pipeline has me sincerely unwell,,,,,

venom

muddy water

charmer

freeze

waiting for us

explain to me how oddinary only has seven songs and yet this was such a difficult decision,,,,,

send me an album and I'll share my top 5 favourite songs from it <3

[mazeinthemiroh]

hello!!!! i love ur work sm omg i’m so excited that requests are open <333 i wasn’t sure if they’re still open or not since your pinned says closed but if you did close them feel free to ignore this! anyways i wanted to a request a little skz reaction to their s/o complimenting them after they’ve had a tough day and are kinda doubting themselves? they’re the best boys and i refuse to believe otherwise

stray kids reactions to their s/o cheering them up after a bad day

genre: fluff, hurt / comfort

warnings: none

a/n: sorry i forgot to change my pinned when i announced requests were open 💀 my bad

chan

chan definitely has his bad days. and sometimes he feels like nothing, nothing will be able to lift his mood. but, to his surprise, you prove him wrong every time. without even meaning to, you will soothe his mind and somehow make his day better just by existing. just by being you. the natural praises that come out of your mouth when you talk to him make him realise his worth <3

minho

contrary to chan, minho doesn't have a lot of bad days. but that means, when he is faced with them, they hit harder than he would like them to. he really appreciates it when you're just there for him. when he's ready to talk about it, he will explain his frustrations. after this, you run your hands through his hair and tell him how proud you are of him. he would never want to admit it, but those words made him very emotional. you touched his heart deeply.

changbin

word of affirmation is important to changbin. when he comforts others, he tends to be very supportive with his words, showing that he cares whilst also trying to provide a solution. sometimes his own problems can't be solved. nevertheless, when you see him upset or sense he's worried about something, he really appreciates the praises and the words of comfort you give him. he realises, in these moments, how much he loves you.

hyunjin

hyunjin definitely relies on your words of wisdom and comfort. when he has bad days, he feels like there is a grey cloud following him, constantly there and something he just can't shake. even with loved ones around him, it's hard to shift out of his negative head-space. so when you leave your little words of encouragement ringing in his ear, telling him how well he did today, telling him how well he did always... he tears up. words such as these keep him going.

jisung

hannie can feel down about himself when he feels like he isn't doing enough. it hurts him, the idea that he should be doing more. the idea of being in a slump. he can't stand it. all he can think about is coming home and burying his face in the crook of your neck. and when he does this, you cuddle him close and praise him for how well he has done today. "you tried your best. and that's perfect to me." he will look up at you with shining eyes and whisper a 'thank you.' he is truly touched.

felix

unfortunately there are a lot of times when felix doubts himself. it can be quite disheartening to watch this sunshine boy talk badly about himself. he deserves to be praised because he doesn't give enough to himself. you recognise this and always try your best to offer sincere words of love and support. even if he might not believe your words at the time they are spoken, they will stick with him in harder times, and he will be grateful that you were there for him on those days.

seungmin

seungmin can get frustrated with himself if he isn't learning things as quickly as others or if he's not hitting the notes he wants to hit. you giving him compliments on these days, even if it's something small like 'you look handsome today', you know, something he hears every day, suddenly means a great deal more to him now that he's sad. you make him much, much happier.

jeongin

jeongin can get down about himself when he compares himself with others or makes little mistakes frequently. when he feels he isn't improving, his mindset can turn quite negative and he may feel disheartened. so he really does appreciate your efforts to lift him back up. it's nice hearing the good things he has done from the one he loves rather than his own negative thoughts.

[chocotonez]

skz as love languages pt1: words of affirmation

a/n: did you miss me lolol?? I’m back! thank you for 1k followers while I was gone, I decided to show my love for you guys through a few special fics I will be uploading through June!

summary: skz expressing affection through different love languages, first being words of affirmation!!

warnings/genre: fluff, hcs, cursing, eng is not my first language :)

1k special master list here! -> ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶

chan

-king at giving words of affirmation but receiving them is a little bit more difficult…

-he worships you every day of his life but he can be a bit of a tease if you come to him directly for praise but that’s just because he is comfortable with you!

-“hmm? need me to tell you that you did a good job?” And get all giggly if you pout or huff

-but always praises you and reminds you how amazing he knows you to be and how beautiful you are

-loves to randomly text you “you look amazing today baby” or “I’m so proud of you! :)”

-but if you tell him the same thing he’ll be blushin and denying and kicking his legs and gigglingggg like stahppp

-it’s a lot of insecurity on his part but also how can an angel like you think so highly of someone like him?

-it’s hard for him to accept your words of affirmation at first but later in your relationship he always just kisses you all over your face, too shy to say thank you or accept the compliments

-compliments you at least fifty times a day tho, but doesn’t think any of those words could possibly mean anything compared to just how lovely and amazing you are

-now if only he could learn to accept a compliment!!!

lee know

-weaponizes compliments LOL

-especially if you’re someone who gets shy easily but like who wouldn’t get a little flustered w THE lee know flirting with you

-“awww who’s a pretty baby?” and cooing and giggling at you while poking your red face

-gets a little shy and defensive if you compliment/tease him back though, especially if the compliments are very genuine and meaningful

-can’t handle praise from you his brain short circuits and he’ll always just respond with “oh u want me so bad…” or “ok and”

-but that’s just because he’s so obsessed with you that he has no idea how to respond I swear

-very good at serious reassurance when necessary because you can rely on him for his honesty, so it means a lot when he’s just like “why would I ever lie about how much I love you?” Because yea why would he…

-can definitely be hard to get through to though because at first he thinks you’re just trying to flirt but then he realizes that you genuinely care about him and he’ll probably cry a little bit

changbin

-compliments you without even realizing it

-“hey, have I ever told you how beautiful you are?” just randomly because like, you are!! and he just wants to remind you he doesn’t even think about it

-loves loves loves when you compliment or reassure him, likes to go straight up to you and is like “do I look cute today?”

-YOU ALWAYS LOOK CUte bINNIEEE ARGHHHH

-gets so soft when you compliment him because like,,,he thinks you’re just the most perfect person in the world and you think he’s a cutie?? like hello??

-bad at just sitting down and reassuring you, but if you ever want a random, badly timed compliment he’s the one for you

-sometimes you’ll just be sitting minding your own business and he’ll walk into the room like “you’re the most lovely person I know”

-always adds a kiss w his compliments <3

-gets surprised if you reciprocate, his heart skips a beat because he never compliments you with the expectation for you to do the same, he just loves reminding you how perfect you are

hyunjin

-very random with it but also super smooth

-one time you two were arguing and he just stared at you before being like “god I love you more than anything” and your brain short circuited and forgot why you were mad for a moment

-devours compliments from you but it may not seem like it because he just seems neutral about it

-he’ll be like like “thank you :)” but inside he’s melting and his world blooms with colors and he’s frolicking in a field figuratively or smth idk

-he’s just not sure how to express how much he loves it when you tell him nice things without jumping for joy or smth TT

-daily compliments!! this man will reassure you with how much he loves you every single day!!!

-he’s your personal hypeman istfg always reminding you how beautiful you are, how proud he is of you, how amazing you are and how in love he is with you

-the best part is that they’re always very personalized, it’ll always feel like these compliments are directed to you and you only, rather than just the standard “ur so beautiful” he’ll describe and romanticize each of your features so you know that YOU are the beautiful one!

han

-loves compliments but never takes them too seriously

-he shows his love in other ways so he can be a bit of a tease about it, because you know he loves you through different means

-probably does fboi pick up lines on you, “dayummmm shordy u so fineeee” and you’re just -_- while he’s laughing his ass off

-he genuinely thinks ur the most perfect person ever I promise

-he loves when you give him compliments or remind him of how much you love him or reassurance in general, it might be his favorite reassuring love language because it always makes him feel so safe and secure in your relationship

-“you really love me that much? :>” LIKE OF COURSE I DOOO :,0

-can never stop himself from smiling when you randomly tell him a few nice words

-after a performance he’ll always be like “DID I DO GOOD?? DID I LOOK GOOD??” ofc u did :(

-your words are his favorite thing to hear and especially when it’s talking about how much you love him and how cute he is <3

-he’s so whipped over you

felix

-he gets really shy about reassuring and complimenting you tbh

-it’s just like how could he possibly convey how amazing and beautiful you are in just words yknow?? I think he’s better at other love languages because he feels so awkward just stammering and blushing while trying to express how proud he is of you

-but he loves loves loves when you praise him sometimes he’ll go out of his way to act all cutesy so you’ll baby him and call him cute LOL

-texts you after every performance to make sure you saw him and he did good

-staff always giggles at how his quality of performance went UP!! ever since he started dating you because he wants you to praise him

-sometimes he’ll get all soft and cutesy and you guys will just be cuddling and he’ll be like “god you’re so perfect” and you’ll be like STAWPPP because stop he’s so cute I’m sobbing

-sorry I’m like losing consciousness as I write about him I love him

-he’s not the best at giving words of affirmation but he will randomly become the rizzler (that’s right I know English slang) and he’ll get all giggly if you get flustered but

-he mainly just loves when you give words of affirmation :)

seungmin

-he’s honestly very sweet about how straightforward he is about it because like,,,hi!! he doesn’t joke around

-he will just tell you you’re the most amazing person he knows and he’s so proud of you without even smiling or laughing because he’s so deadass about it

-thinks it’s just amusing when you get so blushy and flustered

-like ur so cute but also cmon babe why r u laughing…cuz like it’s not a joke ur just so perfect

-thinks it’s funny if you’re praising him because he just thinks you’re trying to flirt or tease him until he realizes you’re just seriously in love with him and think he’s cute and pretty and just UGHHHH

-giggles if you tell him that you’re proud of him or if he looks handsome today <3

-but he’s just gotta keep on praising you because he feels like it’s important for him to always make sure that you know that he thinks you’re perfect

-wants you to know he loves you because sometimes it’s difficult for him to express it properly through other means

-so he’ll always be serious when giving words of affirmation <3

-don’t expect him to be so serious when receiving though

jeongin

-will always respond with “oh u want me so bad,” “ok and,” “so ur obsessed with me…”

-but that’s just because he gets all flustered and doesn’t know how else to respond

-babies you a lot though, always cooing over how cute you are, squishing your cheeks and saying how much he loves you

-he may tease you but he’s obsessed with YOU I swear omg

-always giggling if he sees you in a pretty outfit, asks you to pose and just thinks ur so stylish and gorgeous <3

-“god you know you’re so beautiful right?” or things along those lines

-“bro I’m not obsessed with y/n I swearrrr” and he’ll be like all over you talking about how amazing you are and how beautiful you look <3

-“my cutie is so perfect today!” Or if you have a cool accomplishment he’ll be like “wowww my baby is so amazing”

-pls don’t stop praising him tho even if hes such an asshole about it he really loves when you call him pretty words <3

[liveforjeongin]

hello! I'd like to request (if you want, of course) a lee hyunjin with ler lino and/or ler chan (or you can pick the ler/lers). i love the idea of hyunjin being the best and cutest lee oml😭 i'm so soft for it

also since i'm here i want to tell you that i really like your blog and your stories :) i hope you have a nice day !! <3

Cute

Okay this is so cute I'm gonna die of cuteness overload

Thanks for the request anon<3

-tickle fic, if you don't like that you can keep scrolling

requested by: anon

warnings: nibbles, raspberries, kinda short I think💔

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Skz were on the practice room of the company, getting ready to record the dance practice of their song "Maniac", but this time in 'Zombie Version'

Members were all ready, the camera started to record, the music to sound, and the members to dance

Around the first minute of the song, during Seungmin's part, Hyunjin had to do a step with Changbin of getting back to back, opportunity the older took to tickle Hyun a little

This occasionated Hyunjin to giggle a bit and kneel down on the floor, as it was expected

The two oldest members in the group found Hyunjin's reaction really cute and endearing, making them want to see more of that.... Maybe they could try later...

After finishing the recording, all the members changed their clothes, removed their makeup, and went to their dorms to take a shower and remove any rests of makeup on their body

In the 3racha+Hyunjin dorm, Hyunjin was the first one to go take the shower, and in the maknaes+Minho dorm, it was Seungmin

In the meanwhile, Chan and Minho were texting each other. Chan, in his oldest, leader and almost dad position, wanted to know if they arrived well, and Minho, being the second oldest, was his kid-in-charge in the other dorm

They kept talking, one thing led to another, and they ended up planing on how to wreck Hyunjin together

Oops...

About one hour later, in the 3racha+Hyunjin dorm, a knock on the door was heard. Chan opened, knowing who it was.

Han and Changbin were currently sleeping. Hyunjin was on his bedroom, scrolling through his phone on... Who knows? When his hyungs entered

"Hi Hyunjinnie~" Minho said as sat down on Hyun's bed, followed by Chan

"Hey hyung. What are you doing here? You usually don't come to visit us"

"Minho came today cause we both couldn't stop thinking on something we wanted to try out... And it envolves you" Chan said as smiled innocently

"Me? What you need me for?" Hyunjin put his phone away

"You know... Today at the recording? Changbin tickled you during Seungmin's part, and I have to admit your giggle was really cute, so we wanted to hear more of it~" Minho replied, in a slight teasy tone

"W-Wait what? You're gonna-? No. No no no no no. No. Hyungs, please no... Don't do this to me!" Hyunjin begged

"Awww, but Hyunnie, you're too cute to not tickle you!" The oldest said as started to lightly tickle Hyunjin's belly under his shirt

"N-Nohohoho Channie hyuhuhung!" The youngest between the three started giggling and squirming a bit at the light tickling, looking extremely cute at his hyungs' eyes

"Awwww, look at you! You're so cute~ And you're really ticklish too, of course~" Minho teased while tickled the ferret boy's neck, he wasn't much ticklish there, but they could still get some cute giggles out of him on that spot

Hyunnie couldn't help but blush at the pointing out of his ticklishness, making his hyungs coo at him.

Soon enough, Minho and Chan stopped being gentle with their lee. Suddenly Chan lift Hyunjin's arms up above his head, while Minho sat on his hip and started tickling Hyunjin's armpits, not much gently to be honest

"AAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHHAHA HYUNG! HYUNG HYUNG LEHEHEHEHEE KNOW HYHUHUHUNG PLEHEHEHEHEASE MEHERCY!"

"Awwww, Lee Know is being mean to our Hyunjinnie?" Chan teased as did his best to reach Hyunjin's side, squeezing, poking and scribbling there, doing his best to wild the poor lee crazy

"CHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAN HYUNG NOHOHOHOHOHO AHAHAHAHAHAH!" Hyun's eyes filled with tears, they were killing him

"Hyung, can you take over his armpits? There's one more thing I want to try" Minho asked his only hyung, sitting now on Hyunjin's thighs and lifting up his shirt, as Chan nodded and left the younger's side alone to sat on his hands, keeping his arms up but setting his own hands free, to be able to tickle Hyunjin's armpits properly

Hyunjin was breathing hard, thankful to have a least a minute of rest. He was so lost in his own thoughts that didn't notice when Minho took a deep breath and blew it on his tummy til he felt his lips already against his skin

Chan took this as a sign and went to the town on Hyunjin's armpits, wilding the younger completely mad

Hyunjin laughed, moved his head and kicked his legs like crazy when Minho started to change between nibbling and blowing raspberries all over his belly while squeezing his hips and Chan kept on tickling his armpits

Tears fell down his cheeks, wetting his neck. His face was red and his mind couldn't think of anything more than the tingling feeling expanding all over his body... He felt so weak, but so happy at the same time

Soon, Hyunnie's laugh went silent, and his hyungs slowed down the pace of the tickles, til finally stopping

Chan layed Hyunjin's head down on his lap, stroking his hair and rubbing his tummy to ease the ghost tickles and calm the younger down a bit. Hyunjin couldn't stop smiling and could've sworn that was the best thing that's ever happened to him

"Were we too rough on you? I'm sorry, you were too cute to resist" Minho commented while ruffling Hyunjin's hair a bit and smiling down at the ferret boy

Hyunjin shook his head, smiling widely "It was fine, I... Actually enjoyed it a lot" admitted, blushing when the olders cooed at his words

"You're the cutest member to tickle, being honest" Chan praised, causing Hyunjin to blush a bit more

Hyun soon fell asleep in his hyung's lap, which didn't bother Chan at all, and Minho left the dorm after some minutes watching the younger sleep

Even asleep he looked cute...

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Motivation hits hard

And honestly I loved writting this one😭 (Hyunjin is mi favorite lee, what can I say?)

Everyone, remember requests still open sooo if you want me to write something just send it on my asks on in dms :3

[hyunnows]

SHATTERED PUZZLES | 10

“a rude and arrogant patient with no identification wakes up from a year-long coma and develops temporary amnesia. Assigned to you, a volunteer who’s not going to put up with his attitude, you’re both in for a rough ride.”

PAIRING(s) | Hyunjin x reader, ft Minho x reader

THEMES | fluff, angst, a slight love triangle (i gotta stop with the skz love triangles–), amnesia!Hyunjin, Doctor!Chan, Rude!Hyunjin, car accident, trauma

WORD COUNT | 2.7k+

RATING | pg13

NOTE | ... well hello there. i know its been a while, and im so sorry for that. im still not really back yet, since i havent gotten into any sort of writing schedule or anything. but i wanted to finish this part up for you guys since i felt you deserved it. i also want to say thank you for all the support while ive been away, and hello to all my new followers and new readers for this series! i cant believe ive been working on this since i was 15 T^T its crazy to think ill be 18 in december... really thank you guys, all of you, im grateful for those who are new around here and those who have been with me since the beginning! please enjoy and have a great day/night!

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It’s been about three weeks since Hyunjin was betrothed to Yuna. The two have grown closer, but not as their parents believe. Now, she’s become more of a sister, and Hyunjin her brother. 

She shares her crush on the shopkeeper she’s so fond of, asking for advice and tips. In turn, she gives Hyunjin the same—as well as tricks to keep his hair healthy. He likes having her as a friend. 

In between their normal chatter and hanging out, they scheme. Researching legal documents, checking to see if there’s any way they can get out of marrying each other. It’s tiring work, but love is a powerful driving force. 

“Do you know of any close family members that might be willing to take your spot?” Yuna raises her brow at Hyunjin. “I mean, I know I have a cousin or two that wouldn’t mind being in an arranged marriage for a few years. If you have someone to take your spot, then I think that they’ll let us off the hook.”

“That’s a good idea, except for the fact that I don’t know any of my family. The only family in my memories are my parents, and Minho I guess, but he’s not blood.” The blond frowns, sighing. Why did he have to be born to money hungry control freaks?

Yuna purses her lips, “I’ll have someone look into your family and see if you have any candidates. Until then, we have to just hang in there, I guess.”

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“I’m dying.” You whine, hanging off the couch dramatically.

Minho and Chan shake their heads. “You’re not dying [Y/N],” the younger sighs, “I know it's hard, but you’re both safer this way.”

You know what he’s saying is true, but…

It's been over a month and a half since you were ripped away from Hyunjin, and you’ve thought of him every moment since then. You just want to see him--just be in his presence again. Unfortunately, you know that's not possible. At least, not according to Minho’s information on the blond.

So, while you may not be literally dying, you most definitely feel like you are.

And so when a particular idea pops in your head, you decide you have nothing left to lose, and voice it out.

“Let’s kidnap Hyunjin.”

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“Yuna! Yuna! Where are you?” Hyunjin scrambles around, excitement all over his face as he races to find her. He’d been up since the crack of dawn, brainstorming ways to get out of their arrangement, and he finally came up with something. Now if only he could find her--

“Hyunjin? What? It’s early as hell,” she yawns, glancing at her phone and shoving the digital numbers in his face, giving him a good look at the time. 8:40 am. “What do you want?”

“They can’t force us to get married if one of us is already married.” He grins, panting slightly from the running around he’d done. Luckily, it isn’t odd for a fiancé to sleep over--or else the entire Hwang staff would be giving him a weird look all day.

Yuna curls a brow. “What do you mean? You want to run away and marry [Y/N] to get out of this?” She yawns a bit towards the end, rubbing her tired eyes with confusion.

His face is covered in shock for a moment before he picks up his jaw and shakes his head. “No, I love her, but she’s not ready to marry me yet. I barely confessed the day we were brought here.” He scoffs at the idea that he’d rush your relationship, which she rolls her eyes at. “You should marry Jay.”

Yuna flushes at the idea, mouth turning into a circle in surprise. Hyunjin knows she wants to marry the boy--she’s talked about it almost every day since they met, after all. “I-I don’t know… what if he doesn’t want to?”

Now it's Hyunjin’s turn to roll his eyes. “He wants to, trust me. I’ve seen the way he looks at you through the shop windows. He’s probably written his vows to you already,” he chuckles, his words making the girl redder than ever, which earns him a shove from her small hands. “Just ask him. If you two get married before our wedding, they won’t be able to force us together.”

Pursing her lips, she sighs. “Fine, I’ll ask.” Her agreement makes the blond cheer in satisfaction.

“Thank you Yuna!”

“Yeah yeah,” she waves him off, stepping back into her room and closing the door, “Let me get back to bed now.” Hyunjin apologizes and waltzes back down the hall to his room, and she can’t help but shake her head at his antics. “Weirdo.”

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“You want to do what?” Chan all but yells, eyes wide in confusion. Sure, he’d heard a lot of crazy things pertaining to Hyunjin’s situation but you want to kidnap him? That’s a bit too much for the Australian to handle. “[Y/N] you know that’s illegal, right?”

You shrug. “Let's kidnap him. They kidnapped me already. Plus, Minho has pretty much done this before.” Your reasons just make the doctor sigh. “What? I can’t just sit around and do nothing anymore.”

Chan sees where you’re coming from, he really does, but as a doctor, he’s not sure he can condone this idea of yours. “But [Y/N], there’s no way you’re getting through their security and getting back here with Hyunjin safely. By the way, you could be arrested for kidnapping too. And you don’t have the money to get out of it.”

All of his stupid, logical reasoning makes you groan and roll your eyes. You know Chan likes to play by the rules—you usually do too—but for once, you just want him to support you and your bad idea. “Whatever, I don’t care! With or without you Chan, I’m gonna get Hyunjin back. I know he’s miserable, just like I am,” you frown, arms crossed loosely over your chest. “He deserves to be free, no matter who his parents are.”

As you strut away from the living room, Minho can’t help but stare at you in wonder. All this time, he’s known you cared for Hyunjin. What shocks him though, is that you seem to be the only person that can rival Minho’s love for his friend. ‘I can’t believe I’m going this again,’ he sighs, standing to follow you to your room so you can start discussing plans to break Hyunjin out. With the bright smile you give him when he agrees to your idea, he knows why it was so easy for him to fall for you. “So, what’re you thinking?”

Chan is completely flabbergasted, as well as disappointed, with Minho’s reaction. Sure, he knows Minho’s in love with you--everyone knows--but to go along with kidnapping Hyunjin? That sounds like more than love. It's insane. But then again, Chan also knows how much Minho cares about the younger boy, and how much he misses hanging out with him freely. “You guys are ridiculous, you know that, right?”

You glare at the Australian, but you can tell with the way he sounds stressed that he’s about to give into whatever plan you throw at him. 

And so, you begin explaining your master plan to the two boys. 

It wasn’t anything complicated. You would go as Minho’s date for the upcoming gala, disguised as one of their rich guests. While the two of you worked to find Hyunjin, Chan would pretend to be a security guard, and make a safe escape route. This was the base at least. You had also hoped to bring Han, Jeongin, and Seungmin along, have them act as caterers (if they agreed) and keep attention away from Minho, Hyunjin, and yourself as much as possible. Then, Minho would excuse himself, drive one of his cars around the side, and they would all slip out unnoticed.

So here you were, dressed all fancy, surrounded by about a hundred other guests. They’re all too busy trying to either get to Mr. or Mrs. Hwang to notice you, but you feel as if all their eyes are on you, judging you, picking you apart, and getting ready to notify the security of your suspicious presence. 

It makes you shuffle forward a bit faster, and you bump against someone’s shoulder on accident. “I am so sorry--”

“Don’t worry about…” her eyes lock with yours within seconds, “What ar--”

You hold your finger vertically against your lips, telling her--Hyunjin’s arranged partner (who Minho warned you about and who was well aware of how you looked due to the social media pictures of you Hyunjin had shoved in her face)--‘don’t say anything’ and reconnect to Minho’s arm. Minho, who’d seen the whole thing, gives you a curt nod for not going off script.

Striding to the buffet table, you spot Jeongin in your peripheral vision, keeping the attention off of you. He seems to be doing a great job, considering all the older women were by him, gushing over the “adorable young waiter” less than discreetly. You’d seen his fiancée, now where was Hyunjin?

“I’m gonna go look around upstairs, you keep an eye out down here, yeah?” Minho leans down to whisper to you, looking at you for agreement. 

You squeeze his arm and shake your head, “No Minho, everyone’s gonna know I don’t belong here if they see me without you.”

He sighs, stopping the two of you in your tracks. “Nobody’s going to know [Y/N], as long as you don’t do anything to attract attention, you’ll be fine. Just walk around and smile at people.”

You’re about to argue why that isn’t true when he slips out of your hold and walks off--meaning it would look too odd if you were to speed walk back up to him. ‘Damn you’, you think, before turning towards the art wall and deciding that would be a good place to start. 

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You were wrong. 

As it turns out, the art wall isn’t actually just a small hallway with lovely paintings on the wall and a statue or two on display. It was an entire gallery bigger than your apartment by a landslide. You couldn’t help but be amazed at the family’s collection of fine pieces--but damn it if this wasn’t inconvenient to your search. You’re about 15 minutes into the gallery and still no sign of Hyunjin. You’re beginning to get cold feet about this plan and getting ready to call the whole thing off when a mess of blond hair and dark roots catch your eye. He’s admiring a painting, two bodyguards beside him, one on either side. 

You want to run up to him, hold him so close you’re practically in his skin, his warmth all around you. 

But you can’t, otherwise, all your planning, arranging, and sneaking around would go to waste. You dial Minho’s number and tell him the situation, and he’s by your side within minutes. He smoothly makes his way to Hyunjin, you trailing close behind and listening as Minho tells the guards something to get them to leave. 

“Hyunjin, I brought someone with me,” Minho smiles, catching the younger male’s attention. Stepping aside to make you visible, Hyunjin’s jaw drops and Minho has to catch his glass out of his hands to keep him from shattering it on the floor. “Say hi.”

You can see his eyes get watery, his lip trembling as he takes a step towards you before he stops himself. “What are you doing here? It’s dangerous for you [Y/N].”

Despite his words, you can’t help but melt at the way he sounds saying your name. “We’re getting you out” you whisper, staring into his glistening eyes. “We couldn’t just leave you here.”

“How? My clothes have trackers, there’s guards everywhere-- I don’t think you guys are getting out of here with me,” he frowns, grabbing his clothes to the light flickering in the seams. “I’m stuck here.”

“We know about the guards and everything. We weren’t prepared for the trackers, though,” your brows curl in worry as you look at Minho.

He mentions that he has extra clothes, then moves on to explain the plan to Hyunjin. He seems worried, but at this point, he’ll do anything to get out of his parent’s hold. With a sigh, he asks, “Do you know when Chan will be ready?”

“I was actually about to check,” Minho states, calling the doctor up quickly. He mumbles into the phone, hand covering his face, making it hard enough not only for bystanders and strangers to hear, but difficult for Hyunjin and yourself as well. However, the nod that's accompanied by the movement of his chin let you know enough. “He’s ready whenever you are,” he gives Hyunjin a look, before gesturing to a particularly broad-shouldered security guard standing by a door off to the side of the gallery with “SECURITY” written in bold print on it. 

You begin tugging the blond towards the Australian, suddenly remember you’re all on borrowed time, and that the guards assigned to stay by Hyunjin could return at any moment. Upon this reminder, Hyunjin begins rushing towards the door as discreetly as possible, and Minho decides now is as good a time as ever to excuse himself as the getaway driver. 

“Hey man,” Chan greets quietly, swiftly opening the door to the security room and ushering the two of you inside. Hyunjin nods, glancing around in confusion and paranoia. Upon seeing the younger male’s fright, Chan calms his fears, “Don’t worry about the cameras seeing us. I know a guy who fixed that for us.”

Han’s voice comes out muffled from Chan’s headset, making Hyunjin and your own eyes widen. You knew he had some interest in computers, but you didn’t think he actually had any knowledge to help with something like this. At least now you know how he never seems to get viruses from downloading so much questionable software (he would really do anything to get free streaming services). “Yeah I covered for you guys, but you only have like 5 minutes left before the cameras start capturing live footage again. In other words, hurry up please.” 

You all begin moving through the route, which is incredibly clear. The security room connects to dozens of other security rooms through hidden hallways. You suppose it only makes sense, considering just how rich the Hwangs are, for them to have such an intricate hidden system within the walls of their household. 

Within 3 minutes, you three make it out the back door, where Minho is quietly pulling up, undetected. Hyunjin had removed his shirt during the walk, and ditched his shoes when you guys left the first security room, only needing to change his lower half’s garments now. He hops into the back, quickly replacing his own clothes with those Minho had given to him, ridding himself of the trackers. You hop in the back soon after beside him, Chan and Jeongin piling in soon after with the elder taking the passenger seat and Jeongin squishing himself beside you, barely buckling in when Minho steps on the gas.

“Alright, cams coming on in three… two… one-” just as Han’s voice finishes the count down from Chan’s phone, Hyunjin’s phone goes off with alerts, which are quickly followed by a spam of phone calls that make him throw his phone out of the window in fear as Minho begins speeding down the road towards your side of town.

Hearts pumping with adrenaline, you and the blond face each other simultaneously, tearing up immediately as you lean in to embrace each other’s lips for the first time in far too long. His forehead presses against yours as tears run down his cheeks, his hands caressing and wiping your face. “I missed you so much.”

Your bottom lip trembles, and you lean into his neck, arms wrapping around him to pull Hyunjin close to you, afraid he might disappear if you let go, “I missed you more.”

He lets out a painful laugh, squeezing you tighter to him, and shaking his head as if to gently disagree with you. He can’t fathom you missing him any more than he missed you. “I love you.”

A wistful sigh escapes you, a choked sob following not long after, “I love you too.”

The three boys glance back at you, each of them wearing a soft smile. However, Chan found it difficult to see only joy in Minho’s eyes after hearing your proclamations. He doesn’t mention it though, allowing you all a moment of peace.

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After arriving at Jisung, Jeongin, and–at this point–Minho’s apartment and settling in, one question plague’s your minds.

“So…” Jisung begins, “What now?”

Series M.list | SKZ M.list | Taglist

[luvrhyune]

Hello!!💞 How are you? So i have a headcanon request for Stray Kids (all eight of them). Of course you don't have to do it and i don't mind you deleting it.

I thought maybe something like where the roles are reversed and Stray Kids are the fans ( like they are not idols), how would they be as ones and maybe since when did they start being fans.

I apologize if i made you uncomfortable and for any mistakes or if this is very confusing. Again i don't mind if you will delete it, you are busy after all and please have a great day/night!!~💕✨️💗

-; ✧˖*°࿐ FAN BOYS . SKZ .

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ SUMMARY ; skz as ur fan boy !!

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ PAIRING ; ot8 x reader !!

— warnings ; …none????

— notes ; first off, i would like to say sorry ‘nonnie that this request took so long to get to you, i wasn’t taking requests at the time so i just left it in my inbox

— notes ; but i also wanted to say THANK YOU for the request. this is the perfect example of how to request from me, you were so polite and it was detailed enough for me to go off <3

masterlist.

— CHAN !

his little sister definitely got him into your music.

like she was probably listening to a comeback of yours, and chan pops into her room and is like “wait this is a banger?”

i’d say he started listening to your music after your third (3rd) comeback.

as a fan, chan wouldn’t be as devoted to you as some of the other boys would be.

he’d watch a few promotion stages, watch a few interviews but i don’t think he’d keep up with everything you’re doing.

like if you got into a scandal he wouldn’t know until his sister told him.

he’d definitely go to some of your concerts when he can and take his sister with him for sure.

he’d also buy some of your albums and have them on display in his room, i think he’d also have some merch, like some hoodies and stuff.

— MINHO !

so in this au, minho is a choreographer or a dance teacher.

and so thats how he stumbled across your music, one of students asked him to let them learn the dance their favourite song.

so he watches the dance practice to the song, and another song, and another until he’s pulling up a music app to listen to all of your discography.

he wouldn’t call himself a stan, sure he thinks all of your songs are unskip-able, but he doesn’t keep up with every move you make.

i don’t think he’d have merch either, like one of his students probably gifted him a hoodie from your brand but thats all he’d own.

he doesn’t have any albums, he MIGHT go to a concert & he doesn’t watch interviews or anything.

he simply just streams your music & watches your dance practices so he can teach his students your dances as a treat.

— CHANGBIN !

you’re fandom name? he is one for SURE.

there is no time frame from when he became a stan, he just absolutely adores you.

he probably found your music through tiktok or something.

he definitely has merch, he owns like three (3) hoodies & a lightstick.

he has a few albums too.

when he has time, he watches your promotion stages and a few interviews.

if he can’t, it doesn’t matter because he is ALWAYS streaming your songs.

he’s probably been to one or two concerts also.

— HYUNJIN !

i wouldn’t call hyunjin a stan.

honestly, i think he’d just listen to a few songs and thats it.

he’d probably follow you on instagram, scroll through your feed every few months.

but i don’t think he’d be that interested in you besides music.

sorry that his is so short 😓😓.

— JISUNG !

i honestly think jisung is very similar to chan’s hcs.

i think he stumbled across you randomly and was like, “wait this is fire???”.

and got more & more into your music.

i don’t think he’d pay too much attention to you, he’d follow your instagram and check it once or twice a week.

he’d watch a few promotion stages but that’s about it.

i think he’d own one album and then be put off by the price </3.

& he probably wouldn’t ever attend a concert.

— FELIX !

pre debut stan. PRE DEBUT STAN!!!

loved you the moment you opened your mouth.

he has all of your merch, hoodies, hats, key chains, plushies, light stick.

he has all of your albums, pc’s, posters.

every concert he can go to, he HAS gone to.

watches every interview, every dance practice, every performance.

a VERY devoted stan.

— SEUNGMIN !

he’s like changbin & minho with his hcs.

there’s no specific timeframe he started listening to your music he just loves it.

whenever he’s doing something he’ll probably hum your songs to himself.

he’s not to involved with your life either, you got into a scandal? big whoop.

he also won’t own any merch unless someone buys it for him. and if they do he’s wearing it 24/7.

— JEONGIN !

very similar to hyunjin’s.

he likes your music, he’s listening to it often.

but you can’t call him a stan.

he doesn’t own any merch, watch any of your videos.

he just follows you, keeps up with your drama and streams your music.

-; ✧˖*°࿐ TAG LIST !!

@hyunverse , @ddenoudepression , @sadge-momo , @asters-abditory , @foxinnie8 , @aestheticsluut <3

all rights reserved © property of @luvrhyune . please do not repost, claim or translate my work on this and / or any other platforms. thank you.

[instafic-for-readers]

⟣ Toddlers In Training ⟢

Stray Kids x Platonic!Reader

SkzFamily!AU | SMAU | Written | Comedy

As I.N’s best friend Y/N knows the whole family pretty well, she’s asked to babysit Chris and Lixie quite often - which she couldn’t refuse having a large soft spot for the kids, this story follows her “adventures”as a babysitter and the madness which is the Skz Family unit…

⟣ Toddlers In Training ⟢ Masterlist | Main M.List

[542 Words]

{Authors note: this is a short one - a 2nd part to the previous chapter! Enjoy!}

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Chapter Four: So I.N, huh? 😏

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Getting dinner prepped, Y/N made sure Chris was all set up playing on his own in the lounge. I.N had left a few hours prior stating that her sisters family are back from thier day out and needed to go help with dinner. Chris had pouted as I.N left, his playdate buddy leaving was a big cause of concern for the young boy.

As Y/N put all of the vegtables she prepped into a saucepan, Binnie walked through the door saying a small hello to Y/N and then to Chris before running up to have a shower. Soon enough Hyuna and Han arrived, getting changed into comfy clothes before the latter went to play with his son while Hyuna came to help Y/N.

"Did you have a good time?" Y/N asked, the adults had gone to a charity event that Han's work had set up, Hyuna was in a red beautiful sequin dress, one that reached down to her ankles and had a slit over her right leg. It fit her perfectly - Y/N couldn't believe how beautiful the woman next to her was sometimes...

"It was nice, though Hannie had to go do some networking luckily there were some people I knew, so I wasn't alone the whole time." Y/N nodded at the older womans words, happy she wasn't completly alone.

After another half an hour the food was ready, Hyuna called upstairs to Binnie as Han set Chris up at the table. Their older son wandered down, silently sitting and keeping his eyes away from the babysitter. Hyuna notices, looking over at Y/N with a questioning look, the girl shrugged but unable to keep a knowing look on her face. Conversation started, the family (bar Binnie) talking about their days when Chris piped up,

“Binnie was being weird today, he just stood upstairs looking down them! While Y/N and Innie talked about a boy.” The summary of the situation, obviously left out some important aspects, caused his parents to look at him in surprise before both pairs of eyes fell on Binnie, whose ears started to turn red.

“Is that right? Hmm?” Hyuna spoke in a teasing voice, coming to the conclusion that maybe her oldest son had a small crush on Y/N - seeing as he couldn’t look at her earlier. Binnie glared at Y/N when the girl started to laugh,

“Innie was happy to see you today, Binnie.” the mention of her best friend caused Han to raise an eyebrow.

“So I.N, huh?” The man questioned, his son - now that the family had finished their food - stood up, placing his plate into the sink, saying a quiet thank you before running up the stairs. Bedroom door slamming behind him. Hyuna and Han laughed,

“I can’t belive he’s already old enough to have crushes!” Hyuna exclaimed, always forgetting her oldest son is now a uni student, Han hummed in agreement.

“He’s getting older now! One day Chrissy here will also be shy about the crushes he holds.” All eyes landed on the small boy, who scrunched his nose in disgust.

“Why would I want to be near a girl?! Eww.” Causing the adults around him to laugh once again.

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⟣ Toddlers In Training ⟢ Masterlist | Chapter Five

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(Warning: I don’t actually ship idols/band-mates together, it’s just for subplots!)

If you like this, check out my other Stray Kids SMAU:

Oh To Be A Cat In Love <3 (Lee Know x Fem!Reader)

[chiskz]

▶️ 슬즈로운 제주생활 (SKZful Days in Jeju) #3 & #4 | [SKZ CODE] Ep.22 & Ep.23

♡𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭: @alyszaen , @smh-anon , @neohyxn , @stealanity , @alixnsuperstxr , @kimcheon-sa , @hafsa-hoofsa-heefs , @qtnoaly

[ xxx ] - editors' notes

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EP. 22

♡ Relay Swimming

Chichi also can't swim. She was given a large round wheel with rabbit ears, in which she is submerged so that only her head is visible. She takes air into her cheeks and begins to drift slowly [human or buoy?].

Chichi gave up the race. She sat on the edge of the pool with the inflatable wheel still on. She got a flag from the staff and became a referee.

After the match is over, she jumps into the water and drifts again. Minho swims up to her and they begin to collide with the inflatable wheels like on a go-kart. Han watches them from afar and raises an eyebrow [do they still have any dignity in them?].

♡ Shopping

As someone who didn't swim at all, she went to the store with Seungmin and Lee Know as punishment. She sits in the car back seats swaying from side to side.

CHICHI: Shall I sing something to you?

Seungmin & Lee Know: No.

CHICHI: I'll hum it then!

Seungmin & Lee Know: No.

CHICHI: Then I'll at least purr.

Seungmin & Lee Know: ...

Seungmin & Lee Know: Okay.

[private radio, for 2min only!]

In the next shot, already at the market, Seungmin is holding a shopping list and Minho is pushing a shopping cart. Chichi follows them, peeking over their shoulders from time to time.

CHICHI: Vegetables are boring.... Let's take meat.

Seungmin: We will take the meat.

CHICHI: And let's take beer.

Lee Know: We can't take alcohol.

CHICHI: Can I have something sweet then?

Seungmin: No, you can't.

[When did Seungmin and Lee Know adopt Chichi?]

Seungmin takes Fanta in a can for Han.

CHICHI: May I get one too? May I? May I?

Seungmin glances at her like a tired father and puts a Coca-Cola can in the shopping cart for her as well. Chichi's lips line up in satisfaction like an emoticon :3.

When they finally finish shopping and leave the market, Chichi is sitting in the shopping cart with her legs curled up [this wasn't on the shopping list!]. When Minho and Seungmin put the groceries in the trunk, Minho puts the shopping cart with Chichi in the designated place and.... leaves her like that, then gets into the car. Chichi glances at the camera.

CHICHI: He will come back for me, won't he? He won't leave me here alone... Right, hyung? Hyung? ... Hyung?

Chichi continues to call out in tiny [products are subject to complaints, aren't they?]. In the next shot, however, she sits back in the car again [however, even the store did not accept a product with such a defect...].

♡ BBQ

Chichi stands at the grill with Hyunjin and Han, but not to help, of course. She stretches out her hands and looks at the grill with sparkling eyes [even big cats love to bask]. Changbin notices this and walks slowly over to the grill, putting his jacket over her shoulders. She glances at him and laughs nervously, as is her habit.

Jeongin starts singing "The Blue Night of Jeju Island." Changbin extends his hand to her, and she hides her embarrassed face in sleeve for a moment. She takes a short breath and gives him her hand to dance a slow dance with him for a moment. Everything happens in the background, the editors don't do a single close-up on it.

As the rest of Stray Kids decide on the next game, Chichi finally has time to eat barbecue meat. When "I Am Ground" game ends Chichi goes back to eating, as if she hadn't walked away from it at all. Han walks up to her and looks over her shoulder, opening his mouth slightly. Chichi grabs some meat in her chopsticks and feeds him without saying a word.

Chichi sings during karaoke last. After a moment's hesitation, she chooses "Hello & Goodbye" by MYNAME, without changing pronouns.

Hello & Goodbye, after dating, separation always comes Hello & Goodbye, though it hurts, it only takes a moment to be okay Don't overreact, you can well live without me I promise you, I'll give up to you my girl Baby Hello & Goodbye Felix and Bang Chan smile at once, and Han rouses I.N to a dramatic dance of heartbreak [someone please save baby bread... again].

EP. 23

♡ Cleopatra Game

A high-tones battle begins over who will be the last person to go fishing with Han and Hyunjin. Chichi is doing pretty well, but she knows she would have already lost in the third round, so she was glad that Seungmin gave up before it was her turn.

Chichi was given a brown bowl during dinner, which meant she got a room together with Felix and Jeongin. She laughed quietly and hugged the empty bowl to her chest [the happiest person now].

♡ Rooms

There was only one room with one single bed and one double bed. Felix laughed in embarrassment as soon as he entered the room and was about to turn back when the other two of his roommates were already standing in his way.

I.N: It's okay, we can take the double bed.

Ichi nods immediately and lies down with her back against it.

CHICHI: Ooooh, comfortable! That's the kind of comfort I'm talking about...

[While hell is going on between the other members, the three of them quickly come to an agreement]

Chichi goes downstairs after a while to make instant noodles for herself, after which she is no longer too visible in the frames.

Instead of evening farewells to the camera, the brown room has been given the honor of morning greetings. In the morning, Ichi is the first to take the camera in hand and wave to it briefly.

CHICHI: Heeeey... The little ones are still sleeping.

She showed Felix and Jeongin sleeping next to her, indicating that at the end of the day all three were sleeping together after all.

In the next shot from the brown room, it's Jeongin holding the camera, while Felix can be heard in the background.

Felix: I have a bruise. I swear it wasn't here yesterday. Here on my leg.

Chichi laughs loudly until she falls face down on the bed.

Felix: Why are you laughing? It must be you who kicked me in the night!

He called out after which he threw the first better pillow he caught at her. Chichi, however, continued to laugh, then tapped him on that bruise until he fell off the bed. Jeongin sighed ostentatiously.

I.N: Sometimes... I wonder how I put up with them.

♡ Fishing & Food Making

While Hyunjin, Han and Seungmin are out fishing, the rest of the members stayed home. Chichi rushed to the kitchen first to make herself a strong cup of coffee. She drank it alone, but when the rest of the members came into the kitchen later and Minho offered coffee, she immediately agreed [she had just drunk one!].

Later, everyone got down to food preparations. Ichi doesn't help much, since, as she says, "she has two left hands for cooking". Instead, she paces behind Chan to watch his drone. She then joins Felix drinking coffee, where moments later she gets her chocolate latte from Minho.

Bang Chan: Caffeine will finish you off at some point.

He laughs, but everyone knows he means it. Ichi, however, just stuck her tongue out at him [our leader is overprotective...].

Despite her lack of skills, Ichi helps in the kitchen as much as she can. She mainly accompanies Jeongin peeling fish, to which she efficiently operates a YouTube tutorial. She wears a rubber glove on one hand to look at least a little professional.

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[babycatlix]

hello friends! 💖 and happy new year! i hope 2023 is kind to us all! 

let’s just get into it! at the tail-end of 2021, i wasn’t really sure i was going to stay on tumblr. a lot of the friends i had made on my main and on another side blog had moved on from tumblr/we didn’t talk anymore. the few IRL friends i do have, i don’t follow on here bc i got rid of my old account (c. 2011) so i wasn’t really sure i was going to even be on tumblr during 2022. 

but then... march, 2022, my friend wanted to show me a music video. i wasn’t super jazzed but said “okay.” and he said, “have you heard of stray kids?” and me being into kpop for the better part of 16-ish years i said, “yes, i’ve heard of stray kids. i don’t stan, but i have heard of them.” fast forward a few weeks, he’s made me watch the maniac mv like 10 times and he thinks now is a good time to tell me, “by the way, stray kids is a self-producing group.” in case you didn’t know, i love groups that self-produce. see the other groups i love, bigbang, bts, seventeen, winner and ikon. so as soon as he said that, i was done for. i fell even deeper into kpop and fell into stray kids. 

in april, 2022 i decided that i should make a side blog for stray kids. i didn’t think it would grow into what it has. i just thought it would be like my itzy and blackpink side blogs, where i occasionally post some fan photos and other ppls creations. instead... i thought a good way for me to catch up on 4 years of content was to start giffing and here we are. i say this every time i do a follow forever, but i'm so happy here in my corner of stayblr. everyone is so kind and wonderful! and i want to thank everyone that shows my gifsets love! i'll tag some ppl below, but i want to mention a few special ppl to me first:

@yonglixx and @quokki my lovely sun ☀️ and ale! 💚 we may not talk a whole lot these days, life is busy and school is way too much, but you two were some of the first ppl on stayblr that i really talked to 💖 you guys were my first mutuals 😭🥰

@jinniebit ahhhh anna! we also don't talk a whole lot, but you are special to me! i followed you from your svt main and when i realized that you were here on stayblr, i plucked up my courage (i'm a huge chicken when it comes to interacting first! 🙈) and filled out your mutual form 💖 and i'm so glad i did!

@changbeens wonderful, amazing, talented bee! you mentioned me in your birthday follow forever and i was like, "how have i NOT seen them in my notifs?!" turns out, i was just blind, you were there all along. i love the way you express yourself and you never hesitate to stand up for your friends.

@sunnishine my sunshine 🥰 i'm so glad you were brave one day (i know it took a lot of courage and i'm proud of you 😭) and reblogged one of my gifsets, bc you gave me my own tag and an emoji to go with it 🥺 it was so cute and tbh... i was so nervous to tell you that i wanted a different emoji 😂 but i did and the rest is history.

okay, with the sappy emotional stuff out of the way, here are other ppl that i love a whole lot. if you're not following them, consider doing so! they're all so talented and wonderful! no special order, just alphabetical!

@agibbangs / @atinystraykid / @chanrizard / @chanstopher / @cheekyquokka / @freckledbbokkiee / @geniaparadox / @ggthydrangea / @hanjesungs / @hanjisoonie / @hyunchanz / @jerirose / @jisungs / @juiceofmoons / @jisungsjaistandjeekies / @khairemisthios / @lee--felix / @leefelex / @leenow / @minzbins / @missyedits / @nevoono / @seo-changbinnies / @skz-films / @snug-gyu / @straykidsgallery / @winterfloral

i love you all, you've made being here on stayblr so nice and wonderful! i would've done this sooner, but i worked both new years eve and new years day. but better late than never! i hope 2023 is kind to us all! 💖

[moonhoures]

📰 𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐄: 𝐔𝐏𝐃𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐒!

literally me rn 👆🏻

anyways, hello my loves! i’m here to give you some updates on where this blog stands and is (hopefully!) going 🤭

first, what the fuck happened? 🫣

it’s been pretty much exactly a year since i dipped from this account (again). i’m sorry about that. i got a little overwhelmed and frankly just didn’t feel motivated or excited to write for a long time. i tried writing a few things (and got a little far tbh) but i just wasn’t satisfied with any of it. i even had a terrible moment or two where i got very close to deleting this account entirely but i decided against it as i’m really proud of some of the things i put out, and i would’ve been really sad to see it go. i also love all of you very much and appreciate everything you guys have done for or said to me, and i would’ve felt really guilty taking this blog away from you guys. so i promise i won’t be doing that any time soon!

second, first love 🥰

i’m sure most of you have seen my teaser for first love part 5 by now (which, yes, will unfortunately be the last part for the series 😓) but!! i have like 1 or 2 small things i plan on posting before hand to keep you guys fed since it won’t be posted for another month or so. i’ve been working on it as much as i can for the past couple months, but i do work basically every day so i can only write so much 🫤 but yeah, that’s how first love is! i’ll explain some more on it when i can!!

third, asks/messages 💬

i’ve gotten so many sweet messages since i went MIA (a little under 40 😭). i’m sorry to keep all of you waiting, but i promise i’ll try to answer them soon! i did get some negative comments about my absence and such, but i won’t be answering any of those publicly. i don’t want to feed into them. i understand i’ve done this multiple times & it’s annoying, and i apologize for that. writing is a big passion of mine (as is interacting with all of you!) but it can get draining running this account sometimes. i’m trying my best, and i appreciate your patience with me. i’m definitely undeserving of it.

fourth, also! ☝🏻

i have decided that from now on i will not be taking requests. as much as i love writing specific stuff that you guys want, it does give me a little anxiety. so i will only be taking very limited requests for drabble games and stuff like that in the future. i hope you guys understand 🫶🏻

i also decided to delete my twitter account (well, it kind of got hacked? i think? idk i had trouble with it and basically can’t get back in and don’t want to create a whole new one) so i wont be answering asks with twitter links anymore for this reason.

fifth, comebacks?! 🤩

i’ve recently tried to catch up on some of the comebacks i missed. txt’s temptation ep, monsta x’s reason ep, enhypen’s dark blood ep, and skz’s 5 star album have been in my rotation lately and i love them!! (duh) so if any of you want to stop by my inbox and fangirl over them with me i’d absolutely love that 🥺👉🏻👈🏻

lastly, a thank you 💌

thanks to all of you that continued to follow me, leave likes/reblogs/comments, and message me while i was gone. you guys truly don’t understand how much your support for me means. like i said, i was close to deleting this account all together, but i decided against it, and it was largely because of you. i decided to keep writing because of you. re-reading all of the precious comments you’ve left me on my older work motivated me and inspired me to continue writing first love which sparked my joy again. so, thank you. i also hope some of you read this and it encourages you to leave love for other writers like myself. you could be the one that changes someone’s entire outlook on their account and keep them going. at the very least, you’ll make their day 💕

also, thank you for 4,000 followers??? um what the fuck??? i’ve never had so many people supporting me, i’m actually losing my marbles rn please help me find them??? (that was such a lame joke, okay i’m going to bed soon 😭🥱 ily bye)

i love you. i love you. i love you. more content is coming soon. promise. 😚💗

[moonjxsung]

awwwwww your friend and his girlfriend are so cute!!! they should get fully into kpop and love felix even more.

i’ll update you when i know more about the rescue kitties then! i know the black kitty’s doing well but i haven’t heard from the calico that was injured aside that was back at the vet bc she wasn’t eating😪

and also, i had a dream. that randomly included skz at the end bc why not. i dreamt that i was part of this group of like vigilantes but we couldn’t know each other’s identities but we still like texted. and we had like the most domestic tasks ever like rescuing cats and stuff like that. so eventually we started sharing identities (the girls specifically) and our boss kinda made us move in together. and the group had this leader who came to the apartment once in a while with costume and everything. and there was this other member who had been flirting with me so i just went along with him. and once all the members (three girls including me and three boys) were at the apartment and we all receive a text. and it turns out that it was the pairings for a new skz music video (me, ofc, a super non visually appealing person in a skz mv)😭 and we were like in the kitchen counter/bar and the leader and i were standing. and the girls got their matches and it was like felix and seungmin i think. (so ofc i’m like lino pls🤞🏻) and i opened the message and it said “Bangchan!” and there was a qr code that when i opened it took me to a number in my contacts and it was the leader😭 and we just looked at each other. and the other guy just took off his mask and he wasn’t a member of skz or anything so he got staff. and he just leaves. and chan and i are still just looking at each other and he just takes off his mask and is like “ok yeah it’s me” and im like “weird, that out of every person i could get, it was you, huh?” but like flirty and he just comes up behind me and presses into me and is like “i don’t think that’s weird at all. i think it was pretty carefully thought out” and i decide to tease him being like “i kinda wanted lee know ngl” and he turns me around and we start making out.

this dream was just like strange af bc like where did you come from vigilante thoughts. i was into batman like in high school but not too much anymore. and ofc skz had to just be there. and the fact that it was like kinda pervy posesssive bangchan who orchestrated that we were paired together bc i usually love fluffy cute chan (this is my first dream where chan appears alone!) i am conflicted, nonetheless always love a skz dream.

ily pookie have a great day🫶🏻 i’ve never said this but sorry for the long asks😩

-🐈‍⬛

I agree!!!!! They’re huge fans of rap music and Billy Strings (who I just discovered and have taken a considerable liking to because of them) but they totally respect the kpop sphere as a whole and they follow Felix very closely to fangirl alongside me 🥹 they are so so precious to me I love them

Yes please update!! Sending all my love to both kitties (and praying for miss calico 😢) it’s so hard when you’re just waiting on news regarding cats so I know exactly the emotional state you’re in right now, sending all my love to all of them AND you! And thank you again for taking such good care of them 🥹🫶

HAKDPFPDKSLEKRKRK HELLO???? THAT SOUNDS SO HOT???? First of all we need to get you in a skz music video ASAP…….. also perv!Chan ?????!!::!:!:!!:3!:!/? MY BRAIN IS SO FUZZY…… I need to write more perv skz but somehow I’ve never considered perv, or like VERY heavily into you Chan and I am SO here for it. Isn’t it so weird when you dream of another member and you wake up like ⁉️⁉️😭 I once had a dream about pink haired Seonghwa from Ateez and I have never been the same…. Though most of my skz dreams are just Jisung (clap if you’re surprised!) and I’m so here for it. He’s a great kisser in my dreams if you guys are wondering

MY DREAM….. was fucking awful last night LMAO I had a dream that I was in a library and I was in one of those quiet rooms studying and all of a sudden Jeongin comes in fucking COVERED in blood (he was wearing that white button down outfit from his Dazed cover) and he just looks at me and tells me that if I don’t include a library in my first book about him I’m going to die??? HELLO???????? I didn’t even want to post anything about it here because I was so fucking weirded out and I don’t even have ideas for his book yet but yall can trust it will include a library somewhere in there I guess 🤕😵‍💫 I’ve been having a lot of dreams about my writing and some of them spark inspo but I guess some are also just straight up threats LMAO

ANYWAYS…… I hope you’re doing well my angel!!! Have the best week and take care of yourself! Fingers crossed for the kitties and that you get to make out with Chan sometime soon XOXOXO 💕🩷💓🫶👼

[oraclekleo]

🌻

Hiii! 🥹

I’m Yiel, I’m 23yrs old. Born in 7th of Aug, 1999✨

I recently started getting interested in Astrology and Tarot and tho my account here has been around for a while, I’m fairly new here as a Stay (SKZ Fan) 🥹

I’ve been into Kpop since the pandemic started, mainly only stanning Astro. I was a very active Aroha (Astro Fan) back then, but life happened and I have to slow down but my love for them never changed a bit, knowing they’re the ones that saved me from going crazyyy when the lockdown started. A lot happened since, and its been quiet a sad time especially because of what happened last April. Which lead me to find comfort in Stray Kids, and Tumblr. And I’m honestly so glad I did 😭

I mostly listen to Pop, Pop-Punk, Rock, and Country Music. I’m also an aspiring singer hehe. I honestly love the mystery of what the future holds, maybe thats why I enjoy reading people’s interpretations of tarot readings and I have also started to study the tarot by myself and the help of the internet as well 🫶🏻

I found your blog whilst scrolling through #StrayKidsTarot 🥰 I ended up looking into one of your readings for Chan, and somehow, something clicked in my head and I immediately followed you, went straight to your masterlist. I can’t tell you how happy I got when I saw Astro in one of the groups you’ve read for 😭

In all of the accounts I followed, yours is definitely one of those that really seemed to be enjoying what they do and is knowledgeable about Tarot, also I find it amazing that you have Games and PAC’s too! 🥹

Through your blog, I see you as someone very dedicated and happy with what they do, and I think you’re an amazing person all throughout🫰🏻

Love and Light ✨

Hello and be very welcomed to my blog! 💖

Okay! First of all, you have used the sunflower emoji but I can't see which idol you would like the compatibility reading with. You have written such a beautiful and long message and that one information probably slipped out 😁 No worries, this actually happens to me all the time. You have mentioned Stray Kids and Astro and therefore I don't dare to assume you would want Yeonjun compatibility reading. You have followed the rules perfectly so if you sent me the name of idol you want to be shipped with, I'll do your reading, no problem. 😊

Now when the official part is off my chest, thank you so much for joining my little Tumblr family here. And yes, tarot is indeed my passion and I mostly do it for my own sake not for the popularity or such 😂 The fact I can share my interest with others is only a pleasant bonus. 😊

I got my first deck 17 years ago so it's something I'm into for quite a while. 😂 I'm always happy to hear it when somebody wants to start tarot reading themselves. It's one of the greatest hobbies! I often give suggestions on card interpretations here and I even still run the offer where you can practice with me where I will give a feedback to you and help in any way I possibly can 😁 So! Don't be shy to drop ask or message me anytime. I have already several apprentices. 😂

I'm truly happy you like the content here. I try to keep it diverse. I'm the type of person who would start get bored if only doing one thing again and again. That's the reason for games and interactive stories and Idols After Dark series... I like to keep things interesting for myself. If I haven't detoured like this, I might have completed my requests much sooner but maybe also never because I would lose interest in tarot. 😂

I am in deed dedicated but I'm also super organized and methodical 😂 You should see my charts and docs regarding tarot readings. 🤣

Anyway! Happy to have you here. Don't hesitate to interact with me anytime. I love to talk to my followers. Even about silly things. We had tea discussion, we had a villain discussion that gets ressurected once in while 😂

Be blessed! ✨

Kleo 🦄

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Maja’s STRAY KIDS Concert experience and thoughts (aka probably just me fangirling)!

Under the cut, cause I don’t know how long this will turn out to be.. Will also include some of my bad pics lol

September 17th 2022! 

The day my mind was blown to oblivian, cause Minho THE MINHO is actually real, like what an actual wild concept. Not in like a “I don’t see him as a real person” weirdo kind of way, but in a “I have only ever seen this dude on a computer screen and it’s wild that he actually exists” kind of way. It’s the same for all of the members of course, but I am nothing if not Minho biased lol. 

Ever since the evening the day before the concert, I was so freaking nervous. Like one would seriously think I was the one performing, that’s how nervous I was lmao. Guess it was the realization that I was actually seeing my dude of all dudes (read ultimate bias (sorry Seonghwa)) irl. Even now, just thinking about it makes my stomach turn lmao. I still can’t believe it. 

I had a way better seat than I expected, and I really felt like they were SO close even though I was on the second floor. It was truly wild. 

When the concert started I seriously couldn’t do anything, but watch in awe. I was literally just shook SHOOK! They started with Maniac and Venom, which has never been my favourite songs, but they were absolutely amazing. AND THEN THEY DID RED LIGHTS AS ONE OF THE FIRST SONGS, LIKE WHAT THE HELL. Can’t believe one of my first looks of skz irl is them tied up by their necks??

When they said hello, I was just out of it. It was truly like an out of body experience, I could not with my excitement lol (in reality I just kept on saying “wahh” every five minutes). 

Minho was of course Minho, and when he greeted us, he was like “you already know my name”ish and got us to yell his name, but then he was like “No, there’s something missing at the front” and everyone was like “???” and he was like “I’m Stray Kids’ Lee Know” as if we could know that was his intention. I love him and he is just ethereal and his humor is just amazing. Also, I have never been more happy to know Korean than I was at this concert. It really made it so much more fun, cause the members were all hilarious!! 

I don’t remember what it was, but at their ment, Chan said some kind of joke and Felix just went “Ah, how fun” in the most dry tone ever and everyone laughed. He seemed to be confused tho, cause I’m pretty sure he didn’t mean for it to be that dry lol.  

Then (I think it was now?? Oh well) Minho and Seungmin were charged with having to introduce the new song, but it was just them meowing and barking at each other?? Minho got so red lmao. The song was Easy lol. Apparently the thing was that it was very easy to guess? Which it really was not. 

I don’t remember everything in the correct order probably, but who cares lol. They also said they were going to try something new, and that the people on the second floor (aka me) would also get to see them close! So every time the light went out, everyone was just waiting for where they would appear again lmao. 

Y’all, I got to hear CHEESE live? Like damn, absolutely amazing! I love CHEESE lol

They also did Lonely St. with standing mics!! Absolutely amazing if you ask me lol. But tbh the whole concert was, so yeah. 

They showed their mashup for the new album and then they performed the three unit songs!! 3Racha began by absolutely slaying, and damn, rapper Bang Chan is back back!!! Then Danceracha went on to absolutely end me. Like my jaw was literally at the floor the whole time. It was sexy sexy sexy. Like Wow but times ten. Who knew that was even possible? And the Vocalracha ended the unit songs, by having the best song ever. It’s such a happy “I really like you!!” kind of song and they absolutely slayed, I can’t wait for the studio version for real!! 

At the following ment, Minho was like “I have a question for STAY and you have to answer truthfully! Did you all do the STAY pose, when you met outside of the stadium?” then the other members went on about how it must be embarrassing to do, and Minho was like “I’m in I and I can do it?” and they were all like “You’re not an I. There’s no way you’re an I.” Then they went on to coming up with other things STAYs could do to see if someone was a STAY. Changbin (I think it was him) suggested finger hearts, but they all agreed, that that would be awkward if the other person wasn’t a stay lmao. They ended up settling for doing the skz greeting with eachother, cause that would be easy to play off, if the other person wasn’t a stay. 

They also performed Circus and Fam Korean versions! 

After they performed Fam, they wanted to hear us yell their names but without the in-ears in. It went like *Chan says his line about I.N and we yell “I.N”* and everything went great until it got to, when we had to yell Hyunjin’s name. This is where, some people have probably seen the video online, if not you can find it HERE! Han said his line about Hyunjin, but like 80% of the stadium didn’t yell his name and it was just confused silence. Here is where I’ve seen some weird misunderstandings run around on twitter, about how “Korean fans never screams a lot for Hyunjin >:(” and “Why did nobody scream his name? :(” and “The fans didn’t know they were supposed to scream the names”, but take it from someone who was there and didn’t scream his name at first, it wasn’t like that at all. It wasn’t some weird “Korean stays don’t like Hyunjin kind of thing” like what even? It was just confusion! Han said his line which was just “Artist”, but it sounded so much like he said “I.N” and everyone was confused, cause we had already screamed his name once. That’s really all there was to it. So Han just repeated his line and everyone screamed “Hyunjin” really loud after that! It wasn’t at all any ill-feelings towards Hyunjin. It was just pure confusion lmao! 

At one point they got into some carts(?) I’ll call them carts lol, and they drove around between the second and first floor! They were so close, like what even. They were like really really close, I still can’t believe it.. 

As it does at every concert, they have to say goodbye, and Han was tasked with the role of being the one to be like “We really want to stay, but...” and we, the fans, were all like “Awww :(” and Han was like “This makes me the bad guy” and everybody laughed. 

Between them leaving the stage and the encore (Is it really an encore, when everyone know it’s going to happen?) there were three STAY games. The first one was, the camera filming someone in the audience and that STAY had to immitate the pose on the screen. Then the next one was immitating the dance and doing an ending fairy, and the last one was just for everyone to scream as loud as they could lol. That was also a reorcurring theme in the concert. The members kept on being like “that’s not enough” and making everyone scream even louder. No wonder my throat hurt when I got home lol. 

They came back for the “encore” and they performed HAVEN!! MINHO’S VOICE IN HAVEN LIVE!! VERY IMPORTANT!! I absolutely am in love with him in a non delusional way, of course. 

When they did their ending ments, they were all so happy. They were all talking about how it was a dream to perform at the KSPO stadium, and how STAY made that dream come true and how thankful they were. Felix talked about how it was the first time they were able to get that close to the fans (when they went in the carts and had to literally walk through the fans to get back to the stage), and he had never seen the love in the fans eyes that close before. He said he wondered if he really derserve all that love, and I can tell you he does! Am I tearing up writing this? Maybe.. Chan said all the fans were like 🥺🥺 looking at the members that close, and it was cute and there was so much love. 

Minho was very serious in his ending ment. He said it’s good to be serious sometimes. He talked about how, when he got back from the US after the tour, he had some time to himself and he kind of had an identity crisis? He said he thought a lot about who he is. Is he Stray Kids’ Lee Know or is he Lee Minho? He said it’s very important to take some time to yourself and be serious and think about stuff. He said that STAY should also take some time for themselves sometimes! 

At the end nobody wanted them to leave and they didn’t want to leave either. Chan kept on asking if they should just start from the beginning again, and he started imitating the sound of the intro to the concert version of Maniac, and some of the other members joined in. In the end, they did have to go. Felix was the last one leaving and he kept on yelling “I love you STAYs” and it was just really wholesome. 

Anyways I love them a whole damn lot. I still can’t believe I saw them live. I didn’t really know how to feel, when the concert was done lol. Surprisingly I didn’t cry at the concert or anything, cause I think I was in lowkey shock lol. I was yesterday too, but now, writing this long post, I am suddenly really emotional and touched lol. This was a big day and I enjoyed every single second of it (even though my buttcheek kind of hurt from the hard seat lol)! 

I love Stray Kids and Lee Minho a whole damn lot. That’s just the end of it. 

Oh, someone posted a fancam of THE WHOLE DAMN CONCERT on youtube.. damn

[dazz-linglight]

Hiii, I'd like to ask for a Stray Kids reaction if possible :) I hope it's the right section. My request is: skz confessing their feelings for you!

(hii cutie, thank u for requesting ❤️)

(edits are not mine)

Bang Chan

You've been friends for a while and you knew about his habit of staying on the studio till late at night to work, so you wasn't surprised when he asked if you could come over on a friday night. He's been stressed all week dealing with the boys and a song that wasn't coming out as good as he wanted it to. You stopped by his studio door and as soon as he opens the door he drags you in, practically ignoring your hello and pulled you on the couch. You sat first and dragged him down to rest his head on your lap.

"I'm glad you came." He laid and turned his head to look you, his hair fell out of place in a adorable way.

"Whenever you need me." You could see every detail of his face, his eyes as soft and gentle you’ve ever seen. The edges of his lips turned up slightly and squeezed your hand gently.

"_____"

"Hm " He don't know why but suddenly he got the courage to admit his feelings.

"I like you. A lot." You were surprised but also happy to hear those words from him, so you couldn't help but smile and tell how much you like him too.

Lee Know

You were walking back home and started raining on your neighborhood. You love rain so you stopped and stared at the sky, admiring it and enjoying the moment. Little did you know your handsome neighbor was looking coming with an umbrella towards you.

"Hey, what are you doing outside in the rain? You should get in before you get sick." He got closer and put the umbrella overboth of you, little space left between you. He got mesmerized by how beautiful you look even though you're soaking wet, how your hair sticks to your face perfectly.

"Concerned much?" You teased with a smile and accepted the walk back to your door. Right before you could insert the key, Minho held your hand to pull you close and you look at him puzzled.

"You can't get sick, brat." He said cupping your cheek with his other hand. "How will I take you on a date if you get a fever?" He asked looking at your eyes and you giggled

"Then you better pick a good movie today." You reply chuckling and he let out a scowl, quickly replaced with a warm smile.

Changbin

Changbin had absolutely no problem in letting his crush on you obvious since the day he met you and asked for your number, but he had yet to say it clearly that he likes you. He took the opportunity during a casual hangout and tried to keep his cool exterior and he was actually freaking out inside.

"Are you free this weekend?" He asked nonchalantly and you nodded.

"Yeah, why?"

"Would you say yes if I ask you out for a date?"

Hyunjin

He wanted to make something sweet and cute to stay on your mind, so he decided to include Kkami. He asked you to meet him at the park and tied a handwritten note on a visible area around Kkami's neck, so when he got close enough he releases Kkami to go on your way. You saw Kkami approaching you first and kneeled to pet it, immediately noticing the note and took it to read.

•You see that human with long hair coming over to you? He may look like a dork, but he’s a cute dork who likes you very much. Very loyal and trustworthy like me. He's spending too much time on me and I think it’s about time that I set him up with a pretty human like you. If you agree, please take him off of my paws and go out to dinner with him so I can have a peaceful night. Love, Kkami.•

Han

Jisung didn't know if he should tell and how he should tell you. A lot of things are going through his mind right at this moment, talking to you on a call on his way to the studio. When he getting in he told you he would call you back later after he finishes work, but somehow he got distracted and left the call going and you could listen the following conversation.

"Was it ______?" Chan asked and he confirmed with a shake of his head.

"Have you decided when are you going to tell them your feelings?"

"Maybe this week? I don't know, I need to make a good plan for it."

Felix

You reunited with Felix in the kitchen to bake cookies together. He prepared the dough while you cut the chocolate in little pieces by his side. Soon he gave form to the raw cookies and you helped placing the drops of chocolate and put it in the oven. Now you could stop and look at him fully, observing every little thing about him, including his adorable freckles. You zoned out for a minute until he snatched your attention with his deep voice, closing the distance.

"Enjoying the view?"

"Yes.. I mean-" You stuttered at the sudden confrontation and he laughed pulling you by the waist and placed a simple peck on your cheek.

"You're too cute to resist."

Seungmin

Seungmin asked for your help to go shopping, saying he needed your help to pick a gift to give to someone. What better than a plushie?

"This one looks like you!" You pointed out to the puppy and Seungmin laughed by your side, taking the plush from the shelf and to the cashier to pay. Once out of the store, he gave it to you, which you received with a surprised expression.

"For me?"

"The puppy wants to know if you want to go on a official date with me?"

I.N

Jeongin decided to for the classic and traditional way to confess. He was obviously nervous since it's his first time doing something like this but managed to keep himself at bay and knocked on your door, hiding the red bouquet on his back.

“H-hey, _____” He greeted nervously when you opened the door and you stared at him with confusion for his unusual behavior.

"Hi Innie, are you okay?”

“Oh yes, just.. I’ve never done this before and I hope you won't hate me but I've been thinking about you a lot lately and I came to the conclusion that I like you. I like the way you talk, the way you smile, your personality and we get along really well..” Your jaw dropped as he showed you the flowers he bought earlier. “Do you want to be my girlfriend?”

[quokki]

if your bias loving hours are still open, i would love to talk at length about lee felix and the perfectly sane and normal amount of love i have for him. i love him a regular amount. yes i just spent about £20 on a single photocard of him, but that's fine. i'm fine 😃

so i fully started stanning skz a little bit after noeasy came out, but ages before that i'd heard god's menu and back door and before knowing anything about them (names, faces, how many of these guys there even were) felix's parts were my favourite parts of both those songs. deep voice made my brain go brrrrr and then i saw the pretty pretty pretty face that voice was attached to and i've never been the same since. obviously i'm used to his voice now, but sometimes i'll like see that "wakey wakey" clip or i'll rewatch his tiktok of him doing his (perfect amazing immaculate) verse from muddy water and i'll just be like..... wow he really just sounds like that in real life huh? good for him

anyway i could probably write an essay about how talent this man is but i think it would quickly devolve into me just sort of crying and screaming and spamming heart emojis because felix is very good at breaking my brain like that, ult bias privileges ❤

but he's just SO TALENTED and i feel like it's really been hitting different this comeback because of his injury (and don't even get me started on that, i have been "like i know him personally" levels of worried about him 😥). he's been so limited by how much he can do for the maniac stages and at first it was breaking my heart to see him having to walk off to the side of the stage instead of dancing with everyone else (especially that one fancam that didn't even follow him off stage hello??? doing my boy so dirty). but he was actually able to do So Much with the little but of choreo he was able to do and it was just so impressive. like this part??

the part when he does the thing with his fingers?? i can't describe but it's SO GOOD, he's the only member who does it like that and that little detail is just so eye catching and so satisfying to watch and those little details are just So Him and i love it 😭❤

i also saw a comment on a tiktok that said felix this comeback invented walking and yes he did i mean

the presence. the intensity. doing the least but still completely owning that stage. he didn't waste a single goddamn SECOND he had in the centre even when he was just walking THAT'S MY BOY 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾

anyway.... my absolute favourite dynamic in all of skz is the relationship between felix and changbin, not just because they're both my biases but because they're both just so incredibly sweet with each other. like felix admires and respects binnie so much and isn't afraid to be totally upfront about it (just like with all the members honestly, lixie has so much love to give 🥺💖), and binnie is really emotionally intelligent so it just feels like they understand each other so well. their 2 kids room episode is my absolute favourite, it was just 15 minutes of them complimenting the shit out of each other with visible hearts in their eyes, intercut with the other members talking about how much they love each other. my two favourite guys 🥰❤💕

anyway this is getting incredibly long, so to close out here are some of my favourite images of my favourite guy and thank you for allowing me to ramble about him 🥰❤

felix  felix  felix  felix  felix  felix  felix  felix FELIXX FELIXX FELIX FEELLIXXXX

pls he makes me so happy it’s stupid, he has my entire heart

this is obv but YES his voice is INSANE OFF THE CHARTS WTH DUDE

felix is THE most iconic period. NO ONE DOES IT LIKE HIM PLS

i swear i would be drawing him (and hyunjin) every single day if i could

oh god yeah im so worried about his injury... and i can’t help but think that he’s probably so upset he can’t do everything like the rest and it must be a burden on him and that’s just heart breaking

but you’re so right, for the small parts where he’s in the choreo he’s got all the attention because ofc IT’S FELIX

he’s literally love shaped 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗 i love how affectionate and loving he is sooo much

i love every single pic you sent!!!! great choices!!!

now here’s my special selection for you 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

send me a love letter about your bias 💌💌💌

[binniesthighs]

hello stranger | reader x changbin |

a/n: hehe hello cuties, before i get to the chapter, I just wanted to say thank you so much for all of the support and lovely messages you that you sent to me for the last chapter. as I said, it was one that was super personal to me and for it to be so relatable and emotional for you all makes my heart feel so, so full. these themes are going to continue, so please read the warnings cuties. as always, thank you so very much for reading my stories <3 

Part 6 

Pairing: self insert, female reader x seo changbin, female reader x han jisung 

Genre: strangers to lovers, fluff, smut, angst 

Tags: (of this part) college au, rapper!changbin, rapper!jisung, establishedfwb!jisung, artist!reader, skz side characters, bestfriend!chan, bestfriend!felix, roommate!minho, explicit language, HARD fluff to HARD angst, some sensual-azz fuckin’ (muhaha), unprotected sex (stay safe cuties!), lil bit of breath play, nipple play (f), cumshot, mentions of food, changbin has a cute butt (that’s the tweet) 

CWs: aftereffects of traumatic experiences, mentions of past toxic relationship, self sabotaging tendencies 

Word count: 6.6k (remember when i said i wasn’t gonna write long chapters? wellllll...ooP)  

Chapters 

PART 1 | PART 2 | PART 3 | PART 4 | PART 5 | PART 6 | PART 7

When you were back in high school, before you knew a thing about what love was, your Art teacher had given you an assignment: what do you think that love looks like? At first, all you had really known love to be was the kind that you shared with your friends and your parents, and maybe with your family dog. You had read about love in your favorite books and seen it in your favorite movies, but you had never really considered what it looked like. Obviously, the assignment was all up for you to decide, but there being a million and one things that you considered love to be, to put it to paper with your own hand was something different entirely. 

At first, when you thought of love, you thought of the typical: hearts, hugs, the colors red and pink. But, this was too simple. 

“What are you drawing?” You had sneakily whispered to your classmate. 

She shrugged, and continued scratching away at her sketchbook. You had peeked to see what she was putting together, and for her, she had started to draw what looked like a house on the edge of a lake. The house was in the middle of nowhere and it was surrounded by trees of all different kinds and there was a single bench that sat at the edge of the water. 

You figured, love can be a place, so you started drawing that. 

Your pencil swiped over the paper in strokes big and small, and the lead rubbed off on the side of your pinky as you outlined the corners of your apartment building. 

You thought, I love the people who live here, therefore, this must be love. 

It made sense. People and places could make up love. 

When you turned in your drawing of your apartment building you were surprised to see the variety of other paintings and drawings that the other students had turned in. One student had turned in a whole piece that had been drawn with oil pastel. It was a jumbling of colors: mostly red, as you had expected, but it also held streaks of gold, black and teal. You remember your teacher really liking that one. 

Today, if you would’ve gotten that assignment, it would’ve been completely different. 

It was a sunny afternoon when you sat at your easel with your pencil in hand. Drawing out the mere outline and rough draft, tears welled in your eyes. A long time ago you had promised yourself that if your art didn’t mean anything, what even was it?

The sun filled your room in the golden hour of the day best it could from your frosted glass window. The warmth that the rays held made your whole body swell with a warmth, and it gave your shaking arms the power to keep going. 

You brushed lightly over the rough canvas with your pencil, tracing out the lines as if they were the very memories that you had kept painted in your mind. 

You drew a snowy night, not much unlike the ones that you had been seeing recently. You drew an empty alley, not lit by much light. You drew the way that the oil slicked in potholes mixed with the snow. You planned out the way that the industry of the city lit his back as he stared out into that dark expanse where you knew that darker figures were hiding. You drew him. You drew him on that exact same night that you had fist seen him: a dark outline, who would become full of color. 

╚ ——————————————— ╝

“What’s that?” 

Changbin pointed to your easel with a sheet draped over it. 

“A surprise.” You answered. “I know that I’m not good with surprises, but, are you?” 

“I don’t mind them.” He chuckled. “For me?” 

“Mmhm. Its not ready yet so you’ll have to wait.” 

“I’m fine with waiting.” He sighed out. 

You nuzzled closer into his bare chest, right up to his heartbeat. Both of you were admittedly a bit dewy in your sweaty afterglow, but this was of no concern to you. These past few days, this had been your preferred way to drift off to sleep. Even on the occasional times when the both of you would be too busy to make the time, when you finally could see him, it was everything to you. In his large and muscled arms, there was no place else where you had felt safer. You too wrapped your whole being around him with a feeling so close it must’ve been unreal. If you could hear the muffled little rhythm of his heartbeat, you were sure that he could hear yours. 

“Soon, all this snow is gonna melt, and then I can take you to loads of other places. I’m just getting started.” Changbin’s airy breath tickled your scalp. 

“Really? Taking me to all the usual places?” You mocked. 

“No.” He said seriously. “I want to take you to places I haven’t taken anyone before. My secret places. I...you know...wouldn’t mind if you could draw them for me either.” 

You giggled, “Ever heard of taking a picture?” 

“Hey! It’s not the same.” 

“Fineee. Okay, okay. I’ll draw them for you.” Your fingertips traced down the muscles of his back. “Maybe I should start charging if you’re gonna keep being like this.” 

“You don’t do pro-bono?” He ran along with your joke. 

“If you ask nicely, maybe I’ll consider it.” 

He tsked, “Could you please draw for me?” 

You masked another adoring chuckle. “I do like it when you say please.” 

Everything about the one moment felt so sickly sweet, it was like you must’ve dreamt it up. In between the swaddling of sheets, you tried your best to enjoy the one moment: it was just enough to keep the doubtful whispers away. After all that he had done, said, all the pain that he had kissed away, or compliments he had hushed into your ear, the creeping feeling that you hardly deserved it all would rear it’s head time and again, even when you didn’t expect it to.

The two of you were quiet for a moment as you fell into the serenity of just existing together. After a while, you would narrow your focus best on the way that his breaths would rise and fall and the way this his body heat would melt into yours under the mess of sheets that neither of you bothered to fix. He would use his thumb to rub reassuring little strokes into the back of your neck where he had you. 

Your hand would fall down his arm, all the way down this wrist where his scar lived. Ever since you had noticed it, you couldn’t stop looking at it. Every time that you did, you were given a tangible reminder of everything that he had been, and was, to you. You rose the uneven skin to your lips to gift a little kiss to it. 

Changbin tried his best to hide his giddy smirk at the action. 

“Do you have to leave tonight?” You settled his arm around you once more. 

“No. Not tonight. But, for the next few days I don’t think I’ll be able to. They put me on the matinee shifts at the theater. I fucking hate those. No one comes in at all so it’s like I’m just sitting there.” 

“Wanna sneak me in some time this week? I should have a break.” 

“I would but...I’d prefer to keep that job. As much as I hate it.” 

“We could do something this Thursday? You aren’t busy on Thursdays as much right?” 

“Ahhhh I think so.” Changbin rolled the two of you over, allowing himself to lean over top of you. With a sly smirk he lowered his voice to say, “You know, my ribs really aren’t hurting as much any more.” 

“Oooh? Good to know.” You ruffled his curly strands. 

“I’m trying to say that I can go for another round if you would like to?” He bowed his head to kiss lightly into your neck and the fading love bites that he had put there himself. 

Your eyes wandered to your clock telling you that it was nearly 2 in the morning. If you had better judgement, you would’ve said no. But, these days, judgement wasn’t something that you took too seriously. 

He kissed down deeper, and pulled at your skin just in the way that he knew you liked it. Changbin knew the ins and outs of you perfectly, as well as exactly what to do send you quivering under him. All he had to do was press his body into yours so you could feel his weight, and it made you fold just for him. He followed his kisses up your jaw where he then lead them into your bottom lip and over every angle that your mouth would crave him. He often didn’t mean to do it intentionally, but between your parted mouths, his tongue would sneakily find yours, and he would slowly slide it against yours. 

“Do you want to?” He muttered between kisses. 

Under the covers, his hand cascaded down your side in a way that tickled slightly, but also made you shiver. 

He broke from his kiss to hold your eyes seriously. “We don’t have to.” 

“No, I want to.” You reached up to hold his sleepy and puffy face in your hands. 

Changbin said nothing more, but instead returned to weaving kisses back down your neck. Under your waist, you felt him angle up your hips higher and the heat of his tip teased at your entrance still slick with your arousal from before, and now renewed. He bowed his head down to your chest to pump himself with a few muffled grunts. After, he rose his head to hold your eyes with his own. The muscles on his arms flared where he held himself up, and those adorable little stretch marks in the corners of his arms moved with them. 

“God, you’re so beautiful.” 

You melted under his compliment. No matter who many times he had said it, you still weren’t use to it. 

“So are youuuu.” You said with a dreamy tone. One other thing that you had figured out about him was that returning such comments to him made him a flustered mess. It was utterly adorable for someone as stoic as him at times. 

“Psh.” He scoffed, then lowered his voice once again. “Beautiful how I fill you up sweetheart?” Changbin angled your waist up higher, then spread your thighs, finally pushing them into your body to tighten you. He aligned himself over you, then pushed himself in agonizingly slow. “Beautiful how I can fuck you so deep? How I can m-make you...” 

He had given up on talking, but rather thrust himself further into you with his shaking breaths and little “mmm’s” getting caught on his tongue. 

“B-Bin...fuck, f-feels s-so good--”

He pushed your legs up closer to your body, allowing himself greater access to graze your g-spot. Your busy fingers found their way around his back to claw all the way down. He still relished in taking his time with you, and would never rush fucking you--it was as if he had all the time in the world to unravel you. You returned around him, tightening has he fucked in and out with his own pace. After a while of doing the same, his hand crept around your neck to give you a couple choking squeezes that made you whimper out like a kitten. He would never keep it going for long however, but rather indulged himself in the way that your gasps would remind him of how good it all felt. After, Changbin dipped his thumb into your mouth to run the pad over your tongue. 

The tip of his teeth caught the skin of his lip which he bit into hard. 

“You feel so good baby. F-feels so good on my cock. It’s all for you angel.” 

An unrestrained groan escaped from your mouth as he continued and your orgasm pooled steadily. In and attempt to steady yourself you clawed back into your pillow supporting your head. 

He swiftly changed your position, taking both of his hands to turn you on your stomach. Without a pause he lead his swelling head back into your pussy where he kept on going at his favored slow pace. Your face smushed into the pillow with hips raised in the air. The fluffy fabric muffled your helpless moans. 

“Louder for me princess.” He growled. 

With one hand he arched over to tweak at your nipples with force: twisting and pulling, then he wet his hand with his own saliva to let your skin feel the cold and wet sensation. His other hand he used to reach around and rub circles into your clit. He was gentle at first, but worked your bud harder and faster. Your knees and legs shook the faster he rubbed, and you spilled your loudest and most unapologetic moans into the room that had risen in temperature. 

“Fuck...” He swore. Changbin allowed himself to quicken his pace inside of you. The action alone sent you spinning wildly into your orgasm: a tear of white hot heat that shook your whole body and turned your swollen bud into a sensitive mess under his fingers which did stop, even when when he knew that you had just cum all over them. The harder he pressed, the more wonderfully painful it felt, and you let your tears fall hot from your eyes to the sheet. You attempted to call out his name, but no words that left your mouth made sense. 

He turned your body once more, using brutish hands on your hips as he pulled you overtop of the sheets to fuck you into the bed once more with your sweating back stuck to the comforter. Your body shook with your orgasm still, and you needily brought his lips down to yours to kiss him with your thank you’s as he milked himself out in your tightening walls. 

Changbin was animalistic in the way that he finally let his hips snap over you, at last reaching his orgasm mere seconds after he had pulled out and jerked himself over you. Ribbons of his white cum came spilling out over your gasping chest and stomach and dripped lazily from his pink and flaring tip. He took in shallow inhales as he did, and kept rubbing until the very end and he had nothing more to give. Even as his hand dropped, you took his dick in your own hand to just twist lightly and ride out the last of his orgasm. He softened in your hand with eyes closed in his focus and came down. 

The combination of your lust held in the air for a few silent moments, then he collapsed back down next to you into a blushing and exhausted mess. His pink chest shook, and his soft heather eyes found you. 

“We should...probably take a shower right?” 

“Probably.” You grinned. 

Changbin leaned over to plant even more sugary sweet kisses on top of your lips. He always was one to admire his work, so he chuckled lightly seeing the way that he had properly covered you in his cum. 

“I can help you clean that off.” 

The bed shook and he rose to get you something to clean up. You wished that you could’ve moved to see him saunter around your room without a single piece of clothing on. It was no secret that he had one hell of a cute butt. 

Changbin helped you out of the bed, finding that your legs had started to shake and betray you a bit more harshly than you had intended. He ran the water for you both, inviting you in to take the task of cleaning you to himself. He took the suds in his own hands to brush them all over your body and took careful and gentle attention to the more sensitive parts of your body. He giggled a little at the way that even under the warm water, your nipples would still harden when he ghosted his fingers over them with soap. 

“Don’t look at me like that.” You scolded him. 

He took care of the little bruises on your neck and collarbones, giving them kisses under the clear stream of water as if he was healing them. After he was done, you did the same and cleaned out his hair with your shampoo. He always let out happy little groans when you would massage his scalp. He still had a couple scrapes on his face from a few weeks ago, so you kissed all of them too. 

Changbin’s favorite part was how he could mess up your hair with the towel afterword and make you look as ridiculous as possible. Of course, you would do the same. You would brush your teeth together, and dress somewhat all of the way back again. A while ago he decided keeping clothes at your place was a good idea, but you ended up wearing them more than he did. You blamed it on dirty laundry, but you really did just like the way that they would smell all tangled up in your blankets on your nights alone. 

With bare legs, you would tangle yourselves all up in eachother once more, and not even bother to look at what time it was then. 

As it had become his habit, before the two of you drifted to sleep, Changbin would kiss into your forehead “l love you. You know?” 

╚ ——————————————— ╝

Chocolatey goodness wafted up Felix’s nose, and he let out a happy little squeal. 

“~Thank youuu~” He beamed to the waitress. 

He took a careful sip not to burn his tongue, then turned his head to watch the way that the snow had started to flurry outside of the diner window. Minho flipped the pages of his book and pushed his glasses up the bridge of his nose. 

“Whatcha reading?” Felix said with a little tap of his feet under the table. 

Rather than answering, Minho sighed out and closed his book. “Nothing now. If you’re gonna ask questions, then I’ll get distracted, so, nothing now.” 

“Oh. Sorry.” Felix frowned. 

Minho rolled his eyes, suddenly becoming exasperated over his new friend’s dramatic reaction. 

“It was something that I’m assigned to read for one of my classes. It’s about economics or something like that. I’m kind of just skimming; reading because I have to....” He took a sip of his coffee. “Y/n should be reading the same book considering that we are in the same class...but I haven’t even seen you with it yet.” 

You prodded at your plate of half eaten waffles. “About that...” 

“If you think that I’m gonna give you the SparkNotes you are sorely mistaken.” 

You writhed in your seat a bit like an upset toddler. “Come onnnnn, Minho, you know that I don’t have time for that, working at the library and such...”  

“--More like stealing my roommate from me. I hardly see him at our apartment anymore.” Minho made his remark with a type of snark, but knowing him, he was still just as sarcastic. 

“Yeah,” Felix piped up. “The three of us haven’t hung out in a while either!” 

“...Sorry, I’ve just been getting...caught up in things.” 

Minho cleared his throat. “I’m not saying that its a bad thing. It’s just something that I’ve noticed.” 

Felix nodded, “Me too! I’m really happy for you!! So is Chan, don’t get me wrong. We haven’t seen you so happy and like, not serious in such a long time. Really, I’m so so glad that you have someone like him for a boyfriend.” 

Your fork scratched your plate. “--Boyfriend?” 

“Yeah!” Felix beamed. “Isn’t that what he is?” 

Minho too held an expectant gaze. 

“I-I don’t think...we hadn’t really talked about what it is that we’re doing...or are.” 

“So you’re saying that he’s not your boyfriend?” Minho cocked his head in his confusion. “Well, you ask him and he’ll think that it’s a different story.” 

“H-he talks about me?” You sat up straighter. 

“Well, he hasn’t explicitly said anything, but the way that he never shuts the fuck up...” Minho suddenly became much more interested in his coffee. 

“What? You don’t want him to be your boyfriend?” Felix looked just as confused. 

In your hands, you crinkled up the napkin that you had resting on your lap. You hadn’t in fact, ever thought of such. Merely, you had thought that you loved him, and that you enjoyed being around him and that he had made you happy. Was it odd that the thought had never crossed your mind? 

“And he hasn’t said anything about it either?” Felix leaned in. To his side, Minho nudged his arm in the most non-obvious way possible. 

“...No?” 

Your heartbeat quickened in pace. 

“Af...after everything that happened back then? Didn’t you say that he like, confessed or something and you did the same? You’ve only been hanging out with eachother for weeks?” Felix pushed his cocoa away from himself to lay his hands flat on the table. 

“I...don’t think that we should press the issue.” Minho patted down the boy sitting next to him. 

It was the feeling that you had been avoiding for weeks: that kind of uncertainty and fear that you had pushed down so far after the night that it all came together, but you didn’t expect it to manifest like this. In your chest a knot tied itself together tightly and in a way that you couldn’t explain. 

“I...just like what's happening right now between us, I didn’t think that he would want--” 

Felix nudged Minho by the hip, motioning for him to let him out of his side of the booth. Minho rolled his eyes, but did so muttering, “I said we shouldn’t press the issue but here you go...” 

Felix slid over to your side of the booth, nearly shoving you up close to the wall with how near he scooched to you. Carefully, he removed the napkin that you had scrunched up into your palm. 

“Relax okay? You’re doing it again. Just calm down.” While his tone was sweet, you couldn’t help but find some condescending edge--real or not. 

“Doing what? I don’t think that I’m doing anything wrong??” 

Felix let you squeeze his hand tight, as patient as ever. 

“Do you not want him to be your boyfriend?” He repeated. “But he treats you so nicely? There’s nothing to worry about.” 

At first you were angry at yourself, angry at yourself for feeling the hot tears well up in your eyes in public, 

I’m so fucking pathetic. 

Secondly, you were furious at yourself for feeling anything less than the happiness that had made up your whole world for the past few weeks. You had worked so hard just to make something that made sense, and he made sense. Why did it have to be much more complicated than that? 

“Y/n?” Felix bowed his head down with his softening gaze. 

“F-Felix, I don’t want to talk about it.” 

“I’m just trying to understand so I can help you out with this. Clearly there’s something that’s upsetting you about, I don’t know, putting a label on it? If that’s the right word--” 

Minho sucked at his teeth, “He’s too nice to say that you’re self sabotaging again. Listen, you don’t have to have the answers right now, we’re just saying you’re getting in your own way at having something that could be really great.” 

Felix shot daggers in Minho’s direction. 

“I wasn’t gonna say this, but Bin’s been going through shit right now with his family that I’m sure he isn’t telling you about. Someone tipped them off about what he’s been doing and they’re furious. He’s been telling them that no one knows that he’s tied to them when he raps but they aren’t listening. Literally when he goes to see you it’s like, what’s helping him forget all that shit. He cares about you a fuck ton, and I’ve heard about it all. He wants you to be his girlfriend. Believe me. Don’t know why he hasn’t brought it up yet, but...” 

Felix took in a shaky breath, then turned his attention back to you. “Besides all that, I think that you should at least talk to him about this all. I had no idea that you felt this way. I’m sorry for making assumptions. At least, if you and him talk about it, you can figure something out right?” 

You took at the papery and crinkled napkin and dabbed it harshly on your eyes to dry your tears before they had a chance to run further down your face. 

“Why the fuck doesn’t he tell me anything?” Your voice wavered. 

Minho folded his hands on the table. “Knowing him, he probably thinks that it would be burdening to you. Selfless dick. He thinks that putting that shit on you somehow makes him seem like a handful or some shit.” 

“B-but I don’t feel that way?” 

“Then tell him!!” Felix’s volume rose. “When you talk to him, tell him that.” 

“What the fuck is this, a drama?” Minho laughed a little. “These communication skills are god-awful.” 

“Oh fuck off Minho,” Felix rubbed your back to soothe you. “This is real life, and we’re here to help out Y/n.” 

“That’s fuck off Minho-hyung to you.” The older boy stuck out his tongue. 

You wiped your nose against your hand, then Minho threw another napkin from the holder in your direction. 

“I promise that things will get better when you talk to him.” Felix nodded. “Talking always helps.” 

╚ ——————————————— ╝

Thursday afternoon came, and the forecast had called for snow, but none had come. Rather, the atmosphere had turned to be dreary and grey the whole day long, and the temperature dropped so low that some local schools had to cancel classes for the day. Your university had decided to do the same. While you had been thankful and decided to spend the day working on your various projects, you couldn’t bring your hand to the canvas. 

All day long you had spent figuring out what it really was that you wanted to say to Changbin, and you still hadn’t figured it out yet. Even you didn’t know what it was entirely that scared you deeply. But, you knew that somewhere you did. 

Why her? 

You could do better. 

Isn’t she...boring? 

You hugged your legs to yourself as you waited on your couch. The memories seeped into your brain like some kind of poison diffusing its way. 

No, no. You’re wrong. You tried your best to banish them. 

You’re all mine. No one else’s. Don’t you ever forget that. Tell me. Who’s baby are you? 

You squeezed your eyes shut, and dug your nails into the fleshy part of your knees where you held them. 

You don’t own me. You don’t have the fucking power. 

Three knocks clicked at your door, and you knew that it was Changbin. Your chest shook with a type of anxiety that felt like prickling thorns. You rose to open the door. 

“Fuck. It’s so freezing out there.” Was the first thing that he said. “I wouldn’t mind not having to go back out there if you are?” He slung his coat over one of chairs to your two person dining table. As soon as he was undressed, you were overcome with the desire to be as close as possible as you could get to him. It had been your safe place. 

Changbin let out a little surprised noise when you launched your body at him, but he just as quickly held you back firmly. 

“Is everything okay?” 

For a moment you let his rosemary and cedarwood cast aside all the ideas and words that ate away at you. 

“Can we talk?” You mumbled. 

“Yeah, of course. Can we sit down? Get a blanket maybe?” You nodded and let him do the work of going back to your room to get back your knit blanket that he knew you liked best. He threw it over his shoulders them beckoned you to join him in his arms. You snuggled right up into his chest where he had tucked himself into the corner of the couch. “Want to talk about it now?” 

With glistening eyes you tried your best to look up at him. His cheeks were still bitten pink from the cold. 

“Why didn’t you ever tell me about your parents? Or about what’s going on right now?” 

Changbin sighed and bit at his lower lip in his discontent. “Minho said something didn’t he?” 

“You can tell me, you know?” 

Changbin shook his head. “It’s not your problem to worry about, so I don’t want you do.” 

“But you’re my problem to worry about. Don’t you get that?” 

He sighed once more, then rested his head atop of yours. Where he held you around your arms, he rubbed gently.  

“And if...being with me helps you...I’ll come around anytime alright? You don’t just have to come here.” 

He laughed a little. “My place isn’t as private as yours is.” 

You toyed with the fraying fabric of the blanket. “You know that I can be quiet if I need to be. Or if you just want me to sleep over, I can do that too.” 

“I don’t want you going out of your way--” 

“--I don’t mind.” You nuzzled a little deeper. “So, your parents are giving you a hard time?” 

He tsked. “Yeah. It’s just...stupid is all. They care so much about what I do and don’t do when I left so it wouldn’t bother them. They’re trying hand out some kind of threats to me like they have the right to do so....they don’t.” 

“What are you going to do?” 

Changbin helped you up a bit higher up his body so your head could rest on his shoulder. “Nothing. Keep doing what I’ve always been. No one knows except the people I have closest to me. They’re worrying over nothing.” 

You formed a “oh” with your lips. 

“But, it’s nothing to worry about. I promise.” 

Already, you had forgotten what you really had decided to talk to him about. It had slipped from your mind just as quickly as you had let it arise. The two of you grew quiet, and you let yourself become overcome with the feeling and warmth that his body and the blanket gave to you. You wondered if he would’ve gotten mad if you had fallen asleep just then. It didn’t seem like the worst idea.

“As long as we’re talking about things, do you mind if I ask you something?” Changbin asked after planting a small kiss on your forehead. 

“What’s that?” You said with a sleepy and cracking voice. 

“You...don’t have to have the answer right now, but I just thought it would be worth it to ask, since we’ve been doing you know, this, for a few weeks now. You already know how I feel about you, I think that I’ve made it pretty damn clear, but, I was thinking that we could make things exclusive between us? Like, it just becomes me and you?” 

Drip by drip, the drowsiness that had swept over your eyes dissipated. 

“Would you be up for that? I just, it seems a bit odd to me that we haven’t talked about it yet considering...well, I think that it would be easier if we knew what we were so then we could, I don’t know, plan or something like that? It’s kind of a commitment, I know, but I want you to know that I’m willing--” 

“Bin...” You pulled yourself up from his chest. 

“What? Why are you looking at me like that? Did-did I say something wrong?” 

Who’s baby are you? 

“You want me to...be yours?” 

“Well, not exactly, you know what I’ve said before, but, I would like you to be my girlfriend--” 

A sob clogged your throat. Now that he had finally said it, the realizations came flooding over you like the deathly winter chill. 

“Angel, are you scared again? I told you that you don’t have to with me, I swear that I don’t ever want to hurt you or anything like what happ--” 

“--Like happened what? Back when I was so fucking stupid to get myself locked up in something that I thought would be good for me? Why is it that you want me to be your girlfriend, huh? I-is it because I-I fall over for you? I can’t run away from you? Am-am I just a good fuck for you? What is it?” 

“What the fuck? Where is this coming from? Y/n, you know that I love you, I fucking love you like crazy and I don’t think any of those things!! I’m not trying to restrain you our use you or anything like that, I don’t know why the hell you would think that!” 

“B-because you might not now, but what about later down the line...when I get boring or you figure out that I’m not as exciting like I used to be or--” 

“--What?! No! That’s not gonna happen!” Changbin reached out to pull you back into his arms, but you shook him off. 

Salty tears filled the corners of your mouth. “The last time that I-I did something like this, I--” 

“--Well this isn’t last time, this is this time, okay? It’s different! I swear to God that I’m not that fucking asshole. I get that you’re scared, okay, that’s totally understandable, but I’m asking you to trust me alright? Can you trust me?” 

Part of you wanted to trust him. In fact, a much larger part of yourself wanted to trust him so bad, it hurt. But, a smaller part of you, a much smaller part of you still screamed into the abyss that he was the last person in the world that you could trust; and that voice, was much louder. 

“I want you to be my girlfriend, and I want to give you everything that I have. All my fucking time, my attention, hell, just minutes ago you said that I was your problem, can’t you be mine? Is that not allowed? I’m just...I DON’T get you!!!” Changbin growled out the tail end of his sentence and only after he had said it he realized it was much louder than he intended. “Oh God, I’m so sorry, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean...please. I’m not mad at you.” 

Your body had weakened, so when he had reached out for you, you let yourself fall into his arms. 

“Angel, can’t you see that what I’m trying to do is the complete opposite of what you think I am? Yeah I mean, it would be nice to call you my girlfriend, but not because I’m trying to control you or anything, but because...fuck, you make me happier, made me feel like I’m less lonely in this fucking crazy-ass world. I want to be that for you and you only.” 

Poisonous thoughts. Why were they even more alluring than the antidote that you had right in front of your face? 

Your limp body mustered up the strength of push yourself off his chest. Looking into his eyes you felt numb. With all the care that he held for you, you felt as if you didn’t deserve one single ounce of it. 

Why her?  

You figured that in some parallel earth, you would’ve been able to have said yes. In that parallel earth, nothing bad would’ve ever happened, and you wouldn’t have been crouched in that alley with snow melting into your dress. You would’ve lived a normal life without pain and doubt. Maybe you would’ve met him there too, and you would’ve been able to say yes. 

“You...don’t have to have the answer right now, but can you please consider it...for me? I meant everything that I said, but I...I also can’t wait forever.” You heard his voice grow thick. “I know that if...you can’t do it, or iff you don’t know, then I can’t just make it happen. There’s not a lot else that I can do. But at least I want to try.” 

You could do better. 

“I-I think that I need to be alone...right now--tonight.” Two more hot tears fell down your cheeks with a sting like a papercut. 

“Right now?” 

“Yeah, just--there’s things that I need to think about, I don’t..I don’t know. I’m sorry.” 

“No. I understand.” Changbin sniffled. 

Slowly, your two bodies seperated, and the heat from his body faded. You thought to yourself, it wasn’t yours to keep in the first place. 

You lead him quietly to the door where you watched him lace up his shoes and throw on his coat. His eyes had become puffy, as much as you figured you had looked as well. His grey eyes looked tired, just like the dreary day that you had spent all day hiding from. Still, he smiled. 

“Y/n. I know that you think that you’re hard to love. But you’re not. If you take away anything from this, I hope you know that your past doesn’t define you, and that you can have happiness after it all. I want to be that for you. If you’ll let me. Only if you’ll let me.” 

Your clogged nose made a horrible stuffed sound and you nodded. You had listened to his words, but had you heard? 

He sighed with finality, then bent down to kiss at the salty taste on your lips. 

“Call me, okay?” 

You closed the door after him, then collapsed down the door. Your pent up sobs flew out of your chest with loud and ugly sounding sobs. Each one hurt more than the last to get out. You crumbled against the wood door, and didn’t even mind the cool draft from under the crack. Your world became a blur in front of your watery eyes and your hands shook as they took your phone from your pocket. 

Words of self loathing filled your ears as you searched up the name, but it was the only one that you could think of in your blind emptiness. 

If only things could go back to the way that they were. 

╚ ——————————————— ╝

The walk to his apartment was cold, freezing even. You had worn the shoes that you had been scolded for, and the coat that provided you with barely any warmth. You knew the way to his apartment well--it was almost muscle memory by now. Streetlights passed you overhead, and finally the snow that was promised started to drift from the heavens and before you. 

Your hands cracked with the cold when you pushed the button to his intercom, and he buzzed you in without saying a word. You showed yourself up the staircase with empty sounding footsteps echoing against the walls. Your eyes had welled with tears once you reached his floor, but you blinked them away harshly. It was a futile attempt considering that he would see how red your eyes had become. 

His door was cracked with old paint, and the number had been scratched off with age. You knocked one time, no more than that. Somewhere a tiny voice had hoped that he wouldn’t hear the knock at all, and figure that you hadn’t even come up, and that you could quietly slip back away. 

But he didn’t. He must’ve been waiting. 

He too looked to be a mess: his cheeks and eyes had puffed up and he looked as if he hadn’t slept in days. He wore minimal clothing that hung loosely on his frame. 

“--Jisung--” 

Before you could say any more, he had leapt into you, and wrapped his arms around you so tightly that he could’ve rid you of all your breath. 

“Baby, thank you so much for coming. Thank you so much. I’m sorry how I acted at the concert. I just missed you so much....I missed you so much.”