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The Cost of This Freedom.

I don’t think I can begin to explain the grief I have been going through over the last 3 years. And I can’t begin to fathom the grief that still awaits me. Grief because change requires Loss!! Everything that I worked for. Everything I thought I needed. Everyone that I grew to love. Everything I attained and dreamed of attaining. The character development. The challenges I endured. The fights I…

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Not again😤

Sitting here in the dark thinking to myself, I can’t possibly be going through this again. This pain. This heartbreak. This exact same place… And not even 2 years later. Everyone is expecting me. No! I’m expecting me to break down and surrender defeat but I can’t. I’m just numb. I vowed to myself never to be this weak again. To never require that kind of help and support again. Yes, I will admit…

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The Strong Independent Woman👑👸🏾

In honour of Women everywhere!! 💪🏾

Originally this post was supposed to be about my understanding of Strong Independent Women. But the last month, the year 2020 has taught me that my understanding is limited to my own experiences and being a strong women is more than an experience but a lifestyle. From reading Gabrielle union’s life story to Michelle Obama talking about being depressed (…

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Memories 💭

Previously on the Lorrie Diaries, I mentioned a new style of writing which is unfamiliar to blogging (my definition of it that is), that I will be trying out. Well, here is the first of many posts of this new found voice. So happy reading…. 😖🙂

Last night, I stumbled on some old conversations with an old lover. An old boyfriend. Believe me, I wasn’t looking for them neither did I know I had…

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Writer's Block : Redirection 🔙🔛🔝🔜

Writer’s Block : Redirection 🔙🔛🔝🔜

It happened. I have the dreaded writer’s block. If you haven’t noticed, I haven’t been blogging for over a month now. It’s been frustrating 😶

It’s not that I haven’t been writing. I havent😆. I have been revisiting drafts and editing them, starting new posts, writing down ideas and even just headings but nothing solid. I haven’t actually completed an edit or finished a post. I got plenty of…

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Unattractive Qualities - Panic at the Disco

Unattractive Qualities – Panic at the Disco

I am an over-thinker and used to be a borderline self-sabotagor 😄.

I laugh now, but the self-sabotaging thing was a real thing. I say ‘was’ because that’s long gone. But the overthinking – I’m still dealing with that.

Overthinking and panicking are good friends I tell you. Best friends. Scenarios, assumptions, blurting out unnecessary words, self preservation and 🤭 oops now I am just…