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mattybsgroupie · 1 day
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misbehave | matt sturniolo
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contents: cursing; established relationship; edging; handjob (m receiving); p in v; creampie; mommy kink; sub!matt
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notes: i feel this is a bit too much but here’s matthew calling you mamas mommy momma ma etc, enjoy!!! if you dont think matt has mommy kink fuck you cause he does. also not proofread so i apologize for any mistakes! part 2 of “late night rides” coming out next week, we’re fucking matt in the van <3 love you guys
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matt was leaning against the countertop of the kitchen, laughing about something i did not hear with his friends. i was thirsty and he wouldn’t read my messages, so my only solution was to walk through the living room and grab some water for myself.
i tried my best to not interrupt the so called boys night and decided to ignore him, just like he did to my texts. as i was making my way to the fridge, i felt matt’s huge hand slapping my ass followed by a “grab me a drink as well mamas”.
i couldn’t believe his boldness.
i stopped for a bit and stared at him before opening the cold device and grabbing myself a bottle of water and a root beer for him. i got closer to matt to the point our noses were touching, and he looked at me with a cheeky grin growing on his face.
“you are fucked” i whispered, slamming the soda can next to him and giving him a peck, so his friends wouldn’t know what we were actually talking about. i left matt standing there, his blue eyes widening as he realized he was, indeed, fucked.
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around 1am, matt said goodbye to the last guy leaving the house, closing the door and resting his back on the wall. he smiled as i walked to his direction, opening his arms to a hug that i didn’t give, resting my hand on his shoulder instead.
“what was that?” i asked, innocent look on my face.
“what was what?” he played fool.
“uhm, slapping my ass in front of everybody?” i questioned, frowning my eyebrows.
“i have no idea what you’re talking about”
“oh yeah? you don’t remember calling me mamma either?” he gulped, finding the ceiling interesting to stare at. “say it again.” matt shook his head in disagreement. he was trying so hard to piss me off.
“baby, you really think you’re getting somewhere behaving like this?” i asked, my fingers tickling his neck.
“i was, actually. gonna get ready to bed” he teased, loving every second of it.
“sweetie” i cooed, caressing his hair. matt melted into my touch, snuggling against my hand. “you’re not. only good boys are allowed to sleep with their mommies” i pouted, pretending i was so upset at his behavior.
“so you better fix that attitude of yours and behave for mommy, or you're sleeping on the couch.” i smiled before leaving a peck on his nose and quickly making my way to his room.
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i woke up in the middle of the night to matt’s whimpers and small cries. i didn’t notice exactly when he came to bed, but as our bodies were glued together, i could tell it had been a while. matt was burying his face on my back, our legs tangled, humming something i didn’t understand. 
when i fully woke up, i realized why he was actually crying - i could feel his boner poking my thigh, matt’s hips moving in such a slow pace, torturing himself while humping my leg. i slightly turned myself to him, allowing my hands to rest above his sweaters.
“please mommy” matt whispered.
“hm? what is it baby?” i asked.
“wan’ you”
i fixed my position in bed, sitting by the headboard. matt did the same, following me with eager eyes. i couldn’t help but caressing his cheek, slowly traveling my hands down his naked chest and sealing our lips together. matt got desperate with my touch, breathing heavily and deepening the kiss. i palmed him through the cloth, receiving a whine in response “hurts, mama”.
i shushed him, instantly putting my hand inside of his pants and wrapping it around his cock. poor thing was leaking, pre-cum covering his whole shaft. this only made my job easier, pumping matt’s length at a quick pace while i placed love bits over his jaw. 
“c-close”, matt suddenly said. i stopped right away, his blue orbs widening in confusion.
“you really think you deserve to cum? after acting like a brat all night long?” 
matt loudly whined, frustrated with the lack of contact. my fingers made their way to his cock once again, but barely touching where he needed the most. “mommy f-fuck, please. i need you so bad”
i moved my thumb to his tip, circling it before teasing his slit. matt twitched in my hand, bucking his hips upwards to get some friction. i allowed him to get off on his own, holding his dick while he desperately pounded into my fist.
it didn’t take long for his thrusts to get sloppier “w-wanna cum”, he said whimpering. “wanna come for you”
i paused once again, loosening my grip. “not until you tell me why you did that earlier”. matt threw his head back, realizing that if actually wanted to come, he would have to answer me.
“fuck!” he cried before speaking again “i-i misbehaved!” matt finally let out, putting his left arm over his face, covering his shyness away. “because i wanted momma’s attention ah-!” he was cut off by me grabbing his cock one last time and quickly stroking him, not planning to stop this time.
“is that so, sweetie?” i whispered next to his ear, kissing throughout his neck.
“uhum, fuck” he moaned. “wanted mama t-to look at me”
“oh, my pretty boy. you just gotta ask next time. no need to put on a show to get mommy’s attention”
“b-but mommy was talking to- fuck, g-gonna cum” matt whined, his forehead coated in sweat. “can i? please?”
“are you gonna be a good boy for me?”
“yes” he nodded frantically, looking at me with puppy eyes. “matt good for momma”
“that’s right, matt’s so good for mommy. you can cum babe, make a mess on mamas hand hm?” with a few more pumps, he finally came. matt wouldn’t stop whimpering, finally being able to reach his orgasm after being edged for way too long. he covered my hand with his release, jointing his hips forward as he came from his high.
i gave him a kiss on the lips, moving the hair away from his face with my free hand and quickly cleaning us both with bed sheets. i knew matt would often get overwhelmed when in such headspace, so i made sure to hug him, letting him snuggle on my chest and rest for a bit.
as his breath calmed down, i kept running my fingers through his brown locks. “ma” matt muffled. “‘m sorry…”
“what for, baby?”
“misbehaving…”
“shh, it’s okay” i shushed him. edging him was already too much, but hearing his cries only made my cunt ache the whole time. “wanna make it up to mommy? think you handle another round?” matt nodded furiously, quickly getting up.
i could see he was half-hard, but i knew exactly how to get him going again. “oh” i complained. “my breasts are so sore”
“i can help with that!” he firmly said, hands already travelling to my tits. matt's fingers brushed lightly against my hardened nipples, as if he was waiting for permission to keep going. i nodded and got closer, making my way to his lap. sitting with both legs by his waist, i took my shirt off and soon my shorts were gone as well, completely exposed to him.
matt put his tongue out, licking my nub and making me gasp for the sudden contact. i placed both palms on his shoulders, getting near him as he squeezed my left boob and sucked the other. matt was so good and i always let him know that by moaning loudly and praising him for fucking me so well.
matt's hands moved to my ass, strongly groping it and opening my cheeks. his fingers tugged my skin, grip tightening as his tongue still worked on my breasts. it didn't take long to matt's fingers reach my entrance, teasing it slightly. he was fully hard again, cock lazily rubbing underneath me.
i positioned myself downwards, nearing my lower lips to his still wet tip, full of previous cum. pulling my hair aside, i kissed matt to cover his moans as i lowered myself on his shaft. matt was huge, but his sticky spurt made it easier for me to slide in, his veiny cock opening my walls as he burried himself inside of me.
“m-matt, gosh!” i whined once he was in, trying to adjust to his size.
“so tight mommy” matt breathed heavily, closing his eyes and thrusting his hips forward. i bounced on his dick, my tits shaking along with my body as i threw my head back. matt reached my spot, making me arch my back and moan loudly, clenching against his shaft.
“momma i’m-” he said, blue eyes watering.
“babe, be a good boy hold it in for mommy hm? you can do it” i cooed as i kept on riding him, my hands now placed on his chest as i tried to reach my orgasm.
“uhum, yes” matt nodded, grabbing me by my waist and pounding deeper into me.
as i got closer, i couldn’t shut my mouth. i kept on groaning, the knot on my lower belly getting tighter each thrust. “matt, im so close” i cried.
“wan’ inside ma” matt whispered “please, let me cum inside you mommy”
“fuck i-” my own words were cut off by matt filling me up with his release, bringing me to the edge. my whole body trembling, i collapsed over him as i reached my orgasm, completely out of breath.
as we both came from our highs, i heard matt giggling. “what?” i asked.
“nothing” he kept on smiling as i got up, challenging him with my eyes. “don’t make me do that all over again…”
“oh” he laughed, letting me snuggle against his chest. “i'm definitely calling you mammas in public again”.
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sgiandubh · 22 hours
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To your previous anon. When this side and mordor side are in 100% agreement about this latest stunt gone stupidly wrong, you know it's gone stupidly wrong! We don't agree on many things but with this we're all in agreement.
Dear 'Previous Anon' Anon,
Well, he screwed it up BIG time. He could have thought things better than reacting knee-jerk style in the spur of the moment. Holding hands was completely unnecessary, as it made him look as a disingenuous consumer of cheap company AND a fool.
His Mommies are, for the most part, Christian conservatives (this is a simple, but reliable descriptor, not a judgement) who came and stayed for the book first, then for that innocence. Of which they ALL wanted a part of. They wanted a part of the dream. But oh, now JAMMF (the confusion and the struggle are real, for the aging Onlies) canoodles with hookers in the streets of London. This is not 1744, there is no Bonnie Prince Charlie, no Murtagh, no Fergus and they are no Claire. I feel for them. And it is not the first time I am telling myself the whole agitation down here eerily mirrors particular book tropes - as if fiction seeped into their lives, somehow. Strange, to say the least.
How is he going to come out of it? I bet he hopes for the effective virtues of collective oblivion and prays for small mercies. But this is Season Eight in the making, already and both he and C are running out of time.
No underpants twisting from the *Ur-Troll will make this palatable to that public and the people still buying that particular brand of bullshit in shining wrap paper WANT to LIE to themselves. For the sake of the above fantasy only.
The Disgruntled Tumblrettes will snarl on. It is their moment of dubious grace, Gay Brigade included. At least Liberace had Sonja Henie, the Norwegian figure-skater Olympic champion. That woman is no Olympic champion (her discipline is not included in that club) and this will seal the deal to them.
What about us? I do wonder. Don't worry: I am not about to jump ship. I have better understanding of human nature than that and I am anything but shocked by what happened. However, I also do think that this man cannot go on like that, from blunder to blunder, from OL to LOL.
I will not post anything else about that woman. Anything about that woman, reblogs included, will give her traction and a raison d'être. My inbox is full with pleading Anons I am deleting. Go somewhere else for gossip, ask yourselves what happened to you in the process and why you are interested by a hooker.
I am still considering Landcon 7. I have not made my final decision and I think it's understandable. There is a fine line between being benevolent and being an idiot with one's own time and money. I will tell you very soon what my final thoughts on this are.
Tell yourself they are people like me and you. Good people make mistakes. This is a horrible mistake I am not finding excuses for. His problem to solve.
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Lighten Up
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Dean has a panic attack when Micheal suddenly appears out of the blue and distracts him from stressing thoughts.
Pairing: Dean Redding and Micheal Townsend
Word Count: 753
Book: The Naturals
Author's Note: the bromance guys!!! this was interesting to write since i rarely write from a guy's pov, especially in 1st person. anywho yeah i love my boys so writing about them and their dynamic was fun. had to cut some words cause it came down to just a bunch of yapping lol. also im kinda proud of this one!
taglist: @nqds, @reminiscentreader, @urbanflorals, @art-of-fools, @deprivedofbraincellsandsleep, @lxvebelle
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The heat on my chest was brewing. I needed air. The doors stood at the end of the hall taunting me, so close yet so far away. I stumbled forward, getting closer to my goal. I finally made my way outside, breathing in the night. I took a moment to compose my shaking hands, counting as I stared at the moonlit pool. The panic in my chest only rose. I stood there, trying to make sense of how I’d let myself break. 
Again. 
Sterling was ordering Agent Locke to take me to visit my father for a new case, something about patterns. But every time I walked into that interrogation room, all I wanted was to shoot him in the head, his eyes on me. I’m not like him. I repeated the thought to myself until I half believed it.
“Y’know, I’ve never seen someone so pouty while staring at the moon.” My back straightens at the sound of Michael’s voice. “Fuck off, Townsend,” I grunt, not having the energy to deal with his bullshit. “Why the long face, Redding?” Michael teased, his grin seemed to have a presence of it’s own since I felt it before I saw it. He came to stand before me, two beers in hand and glinting eyes.
The tension between us was palpable; about a dozen arguments and unresolved fights helped make that. I stumbled forward, sitting on the familiar cobblestone steps, getting away from his figure.
“What do you want, Townsend?” I snapped, not bearing his company. My hands still trembled; the cool night breeze helped, but not enough.
Michael quietly came to sit beside me for a long moment before offering me a beer. “Thought you might need this.”
I stared at the bottle, temptation running on my tongue, before silently laughing. Only Townsend would offer the solution of drinking away my problem. “No? Ok, more for me I guess,” He says uncapping a beer and taking a chug. “Look man I know that Sterling has you going to see your dad again, it must suck ass I’m just trying to,” He lowered his voice to a whisper “Make sure you’re ok.” “What no way the Micheal Townsend cares about me?! This can’t be” I feigned sarcasm not caring to put a single inch of emotion into my words. “Shut up, I’m just doing it 'cause if you fall apart so do the girls and I don’t need to be taking care of three sad wimps.” I stare at him and take a beer out of his hand temptation winning over. 
“Y’know you shift your shoulder when you lie, Lia must be bored with how easy it is to figure you out.” 
“Shut up” He retorts with a snort,
A long silence seems to settle itself between us, leaving us to drink and drink. “I can handle it y’know” I take a moment before continuing, ignoring the sting in my eyes. “I don’t need you worrying about me, especially not Sloane or Lia,” I say with finality, not wanting them to worry about me, it was bad enough when Sterling looked at me like the same broken child I was so long ago, I didn’t need to see the worried glances from the girls every time I went out. “Can you? Handle it I mean?” He takes another swig from his beer before pointing to where I was standing just 20 minutes ago. “Cause from over there it looked like you were losing it.” 
I knew what he was saying was true and yet I couldn’t let myself admit it. “Every time I see him I feel so helpless. It’s like i’m back in that house” I cut myself off  taking a shuddering breath. “Don’t worry Redding, whether you like it or not you’re stuck with the lot of us, we’ll help you get though it and then when we go through our shit you’ll be there for us too.” I nod stiffly to his words knowing the truth behind them. “We’re a team, and if one of us breaks, well we can’t have that happening” The familiar word of Agent Locke sound through my head as Micheal stands up finishing up his beer. “Hey you notice how much calmer you are with my presence? It’s almost as if i’m a relaxing thought for you” He backtracks to the door his cocky grin back on his face. I give him my middle finger, happily confirming that no amount ‘heart to heart’ could change our relationship.
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mulloey · 12 hours
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dom!ateez headcanons ♡
warnings: bdsm dynamics & terms, heavy kinks at times, dom!ateez and sub!reader, member-specific warnings under the cut. skip those if you wanna be surprised!
word count: 5.5k!
everything is warned about and 100% consensual even if the consent is not shown. if you choose to read despite the warnings it is not my responsibility if you get triggered and i will not waste my time defending myself. hate or 'why did you put this when it's triggering' comments will be deleted and blocked. i have triggers too that i work to avoid, so can you ♡
warnings:
seonghwa: rules and punishments, strict mommy dom, slight infantilisation if you're looking for it, spanking, crying, dollification, bimbofication & dumbification, he could come across as manipulative but not really, nursing
hongjoong: oppa kink, punishment, spanking, public stuff but you don't get caught, mentioned pet play, jealousy
yunho: most extreme part of this, mean dom, psychological domination, mind games & control, conditioning, fear play, sadism, consensual non-consent, stalking & chasing as part of that, rope bondage, overpowering, degradation, begging, forced intoxication (with consent)
yeosang: dirty talk, degradation, punishment, naked female clothed male, shoe grinding, humiliation, yeosang in a suit (that's a warning), minor pet play (he calls you a puppy), cum eating sorry
san: biting & marking, spanking, crying, overstimulation, punishment
mingi: rough sex, he's a bit mean, experimentation & exploration, bondage, free use, mentioned publicish) stuff, detailed aftercare, passing out
wooyoung: pet play, humiliation & degradation, leashes, collars, boot grinding, he steps on your head, cocky annoying dom, gagging, titles (mama and sir)
jongho: strength kink, being held down, bondage, slapping, biting, begging, exhibitionism, throat training
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seonghwa
strict dom strict dom strict dom
not particularly mean, doesn’t like seeing you cry or fear him (we’ll leave that to the others (you’ll see))
he just has a high standard of behaviour that he expects you to meet
and will come down hard when you don’t
because you’re his girl and he won’t be made to look weak or a fool by a disobedient sub
also because he loves control, particularly over you
so it’s very important to him that you’re able to follow every direction instantly
world champion of dollification
he’s pretty and he thinks you’re pretty so he wants to make you perfect looking
will buy you pretty things constantly
he’s always coming back from tour with clothes and accessories that he refuses to tell you the price of
then he’ll dress you up all pretty, do your hair and makeup to look like a literal porcelain doll
only to ruin you after
see also: bimbofication
see also also: dumbification
these two often go hand in hand in hand in general and especially do for him
he loves having a hot, brainless gf for him to show off and completely control & protect
again, expensive gifts that you wear while he destroys you
seonghwa said THE HEELS STAY ON DURING SEX
the dumbificiation is very apparent in our next section
you guessed it
mommy!hwa
the mom jokes might be corny at this point but i believe in mommy hwa on a spiritual level
like i’ll fight god over this
not that he ‘mothers’ his members or whatever but he is definitely YOUR mommy
regardless of who first suggested it (probably him) it’s his absolute favourite
he loves the way it makes him feel so powerful, like your carer and protector and disciplinarian
like he can do whatever he wants to do because mommy knows best, baby
this is where the dumbification comes back in
“my poor baby is just so so stupid. what would you do without mommy, hm?”
yeah
always reminding you how lucky you are to have mommy do all the thinking for you and make all the impossible big girl decisions that you’re too dumb to make
when you argue with him he just tilts his head and smiles fondly at you
think the expression when a toddler is fighting u over something ridiculous and they’re just soooo cute and stupid ur just like awww
that’s seonghwa
but there’s a line even when you’re being cute and once you cross it you’ll be over his knee, panties tugged down to your ankles while he spanks your bare ass
and pussy if he’s feeling whimsical
his spanks are hand n fast, there’s no counting with seonghwa
he’ll hammer them down with precision until your ass & thighs are an angry red
maybe even purple
he’ll hug you after, pull you into his arms and rock you, telling you how sorry he is that you just couldn’t behave
“you know mommy hates doing this, baby”
but you need to learn and ur sooo lucky seonghwa is nice and patient enough to teach you
but if you won’t calm down after & are still raging and sulking, then no hugs for you
there will be at some point ofc (aftercare is mandatory) but for now no
this is a man who WILL send you to the corner
facing the wall with your panties still at your ankles
hands on your head so you can’t rub your ass cus only seonghwa gets to do that duh
usually he’ll sit and watch you until time’s up, making sure you’re ok and not trying to sneak away
but if it was just a quick spanking, he’ll leave you there while he goes back to what he was doing
will give you a few more swats whenever he walks past
but after that trust, it’s cuddle time
the only merciful thing about seonghwa’s spanking is that he only uses his hands
bc his baby is too precious and fragile to be hurt with some dumb inanimate object
she deserves the best only so only seonghwa’s hands get to make you cry
his other favourite punishment is overstim
seonghwa is very strict about masturbation
he makes a big deal out of you being his pure, precious girl who should never be tainted by dirty thoughts
only he is allowed to sully you with those kinds of touches
so when he finds you with your hand on your clit
oh boy
it’s beat down time
he ties you in place, usually on the bed, and overstimulate you for hours, making you cum over and over until you’re wailing
full on thrashing against the restraints and begging him to stop
but he just looks at you and turns it up
mock sympathy as well
he’s SO patronising
“isn’t this what you wanted, baby? to have your dirty pussy used like a slut? well now you’re getting it”
i might get flack for this but i think u suck his tits
not sexually, when you’re overwhelmed or overstimulated, crying n whining over everything with the watery eyes and wobbly lip that makes him melt
he’ll pull off his shirt and pull you into his arms
“come to mommy, baby”
gets you all comfy and safe in his arms and and lets you suckle him
the most precious sight is when your eyes start drooping shut while he nurses you
ugh
anyway
um
big dick btw that’s my final point
prettiest in ateez u could paint it
hongjoong
DAD ALERT
not majorly
the only time i feel like that’d be a big thing is if you’re with him and seonghwa as a throuple
bc they’d def want to be your mommy and daddy
but bfs matz is another thing entirely
i might make another post abt that and will definitely write a fic for it bc that dynamic is a little different
and so special TO ME
for some reason i think hongjoong would prefer to be called oppa
he’d be a real brat abt getting called daddy
it makes him feel old
but oppa joong is cute, it makes him feel strong n powerful and protective of you but not like an ancient elder
you can def call him that strategically bc it affects him so much
esp because i don’t think he’d be too fussed abt getting called that in normal life
he’d probably prefer joong or baby
but bc oppa is a normal word to use so people wouldn’t suspect the way u n joong use it
u can say it in everyday situations and just enjoy his reaction
his jaw would clench n he’d probably ball his fist
pull you closer to him and tell you to behave yourself
“i’m warning you, angel”
oh yeah he loves pet names
angel, kitty, bunny, the classic baby are all in regular use
when you fuck up i can’t imagine him spanking you
it’s happened before but not regularly n it’s usually been in tandem with other punishments
he loves slapping you during sex definitely, and if you’re acting up in public he’ll do it once as a warning but its not a big thing like with seonghwa
he just doesn’t usually like striking you in a disciplinary context
but that’s not to say he doesn’t discipline you bc he absolutely does
he just uses more… creative methods
overstim is a fav & his collection of bullet vibrators and vibrating panties (and u prob found out that those are a thing the hard way) never fails
he’s cocky especially when he’s punishing you
“who else makes you feel like this? just oppa? i thought so”
i don’t imagine him being massively into more extreme stuff
but occasionally he’s down for some petplay
overall he’s just horny and youre horny and he just wants to use you and play with you however he wants
not necessarily in that he’s a switch
but he can be a service top
he’ll dominate you however you need to get off
also
kim hongjoong certified lover of public stuff
he’s not an exhibitionist
no one gets to see you like that but him
but he loves the rush of it
and he loves the thought that you’re both so desperate for each other you won’t even wait
he has fucked you in every area code
but speaking of no one seeing you like that but him
one of the only times he’s ever spanked you was when you got too cozy with a man in the club
he dragged you out of there and he was so mad he couldn’t even wait till you were home
he got in the backseat of his car and dragged you across his lap right there in the parking lot
yanked your dress up and tore open your pantyhose and panties
and they were cute panties too
you were all like “wtf hongjoong!!!!!” but he slapped u hard on the ass and growled at you to shut up
“don’t make this worse for yourself, slut”
and he spanked you black and blue in the parking lot
you were fully sobbing by the end
you’d tired yourself out kicking and squirming but he had a lesson to teach and he was gonna teach it
so yeah i think that’d be the times when he’d spank you
when he’s jealous and angry and needs you to know it
but so sweet after
touching the burning skin and apologising
“i’m so sorry baby. did i hurt you that bad?”
but you just smile and tell him that was the hottest thing he’s ever done
then he’s speeding home to get you naked in his bed immediately
he’s not MASSIVE massive but when it comes to the motion of the ocean he’s a pioneer
call him a DeWalt 18V Li-ion Brushed Cordless Combi Drill (1 x 2Ah) because he’s drilling into you from every angle
crazy positions
he has it down to a science
precision thrusts i’m telling you
cus if there’s one thing hongjoong will not tolerate it’s an unsatisfied girlfriend
basically at any given time you’ve just been fuck, are being fucked, or are going to be fucked
trust me
yunho
meanest dom
yall know my thoughts on this AND you all egg me on so it’s your fault too
big on psychological domination
subtle things to emphasise his status over you
he loves mind games
he has complete control of your mind and he loves it
loves using it
but i don’t think he was like this at first
when you met him he was pretty vanilla but you could just tell there was something beneath it all
eventually you managed to provoke him enough t in find out and you almost regret it
bc holy hell this man is sadistic
sets a rule for you to be naked at all times when you’re at home together. if he sees you even wearing panties you’ll be bent over and disciplined on the spot
definitely the most evil dom lol
a little bit of dacryphilia but crying’s not massively his thing. fear is what gets him off
there nothing sweeter than the sight of you cowering under him with frightened eyes, your lip wobbling as you whimper for him to please be gentle
but it very rarely works
only when you’re particularly cute (or afraid)
he’s just so large and can have such an intimidating aura
like that clip when mingi tells him not to joke around in the hospital and he has him apologising just by looking at him
he’s practically conditioned his own members to fear him like cmon
and that’s an example of how he is with you
just his presence is enough
aura shifting when he walks in a room
cus u know what he can do to u and is probably planning to
cnc? cnc
fear play is a must
u can read my drabble ‘predator and prey’ to get a taster of that
he loves setting up elaborate scenes for him to hunt you
through the house and garden, through the city streets, in a forest once
he’d set you free with a one minute head start
he always knew where u were ofc, had to make sure only he could hurt you, and he knows this forest like the back of his hand. everything his by design
he likes to follow you, stalk you, make sure you know you’re being watched and hunted before he strikes
he takes you down easily but he loves it when you fight back
makes it even sweeter
he doesn’t act like it though
grunting and cursing while fighting off your scratches and bitches as he tries to get the rope around your arms to subdue you
“stay fucking still, bitch”
he loves ‘prey’ nicknames especially
think bunny, lamb, even little deer
the kind of animal that would tempt a big bad wolf
no alpha shit though
you called him alpha once as a joke and he didn’t talk to you for an hour
there’s a lot of names he likes
daddy and sir are classics
when you’re really into the prey role you’ll whimper our a please, mister and watch his dick swell up instantly
he’s not a big talker but likes when you do
not when you just start talking tho
he likes to force it out of you
forces you to beg; for him to speed up, for him to stop, for him to be gentle
“beg me not to hurt you, baby”
“be a good little lamb and beg for your life”
he could live off the fear in your eyes when he catches you
i think he’s also into forced intox, i.e. making you drink so it’s easier to take advantage of you
he’ll wrap his arm around your neck, holding you in a headlock and forcing a bottle of vodka down your throat
you trip to push and wriggle away but his grip is iron
big hand pulling your mouth open and holding it there
“come on baby, just a little more. a little more then you’ll be nice and pliant for me”
he just loves you so much and he loves the trust you put in him
and he’d never hurt you more than you want him to
this is getting too long but i wanna say he is one of the best at aftercare in ateez
bc this man will put you THROUGH THE WRINGER so the least he could do is dote on you afterwards
i need him
bye
yeosang
ive actually done a dom yeosang headcanon post before
but always happy to share my passions
so lets go over that again and build on it some more
DIRTY TALK KING AND ITS NOT EVEN CLOSE
not just bc of that voice
which could kill god btw
but also
he comes across as quiet but he’s well spoken
so he knows exactly what to say
will absolutely ruin you without laying a finger on you
simply by talking to you
that’s his go to punishment actually
part of being a dom is knowing your strengths and he knows that his is his words
so when you’ve been a real brat he’ll just tie you up
or make you stay in position yourself!! that’s almost worse
and he’ll sit in an armchair just out of reach
lazing back in it like a throne
and a completely blank and emotionless expression
just read you for filth
he’ll tease, mock and degrade you until you’re crying or cumming or both
just a few sentences and you’re light headed
he’s very observant too
notices your reactions especially to his words
sometimes you’ll hear him go ‘ah’ or ‘i see’ and you know he’s making mental note of what he’s just done to get you going
his favourite thing is how transparent you are
he can tell easily what he’s doing to you and he uses it
“are you really that weak?”
and you’ll whine and protest but he shakes his head like he’s disappointed when he actually just wants to tear your apart
“i didn’t know you were this pathetic. i thought i trained you to be better than this, baby”
probably the cockiest dom in ateez just bc he manages to seem so disinterested
he acts like this is all beneath him
like it’s a waste of his time insulting you cus you’ll just get off on it anyway
yeosang is a big fan of clothed male naked female
he’ll have you completely strip off, no panties allowed and he won’t even take of his shoes
it just reinforces for both of you who’s in charge
his fav thing is wearing a suit when he dominates you
like he’s dressed to impress and you’re fully nude? how humiliating
another thing he loves is shoe grinding
he’ll have u desperate on your knees while he’s standing or sitting on the couch
and he’s looking down at you like you’re nothing and he won’t touch you
“why would i touch you? i don’t want anything to do with this display of yours”
eventually you’re so desperate that he just sighs and tells you to get off on his shoe if you need it that bad
you protest and beg him to just touch you but he doesn’t pay you attention
“aren’t you a puppy? that’s what dogs do. now grind.”
so you shuffle to rest your pussy on his shoe and start grinding against
it’s so humiliating but also the hottest thing ever
he stares down like this is tuesday for him
which it kind of is cus he knows maybe better than you do that you’ll do anything he tells you
but this is still pathetic and he lets you know
“are you seriously not embarrassed? this is so embarrassing, y/n”
like everything he talks you through it until you’re cumming all over his shoe, clinging to his leg and panting as you come down from your high
he just points at the mess and tells you to clean it up
lick it up, to be more specific
and that’s even more embarrassing but it is your mess after all so you do it
he finally touches you afterwards
pulls you into his arms and tells you what a good girl you are
doing anything he says
forever and ever
love u yeosang give me a call sometime
san
wife guy
biggest one in ateez
and as a dom that translates into possessiveness and worship
he worships every inch of you
kissing, licking, touching every part of your body
PLEASURE DOM!!
google it if u don’t know the meaning
but that’s san
he may be the dom but he’s here to please you
cuddle fucking
clinging to each other while he stretches you open
LOVES hearing you whimper
or scream or make any noise because of him
missionary is his favourite
cus he gets to look at you, see the pleasure on your face and your eyes tearing up when he hits the spot over and over
the other reason he likes missionary is that when you’re really overwhelmed by the pleasure
you wrap your arms around him and sink your teeth into his shoulder
using it to muffle your cries
that’s the hottest and sweetest thing ever
feeling your nails digging into his back while you scream into his shoulder cus he’s making you feel so good
a big fan of biting
but he doesn’t rly bite you
no he wants you to bite him
when it feels so good you can’t take it anymore just sink your teeth into him and it spurs him on
he loves the possessive side too
he’s quite possessive so he loves knowing you want people to know he’s yours just as much as he does
suck his neck, biceps and pecs until he’s bruised all over
he doesn’t punish you in the traditional sense
but if you want him to, he’ll make you cry
sometimes when you’re really stressed you’ll come to him and ask him to punish you
and he’ll happily haul you over his lap and spank you
makes a big show of baring your ass
slowly taking down your shorts and underwear
he loves the slow reveal of your cheeks
gets him off tbh
he makes you count each hit and thank him
because he’s doing you a favour after all
“say thank you, sannie”
if you don’t do it he’s starting over
it’s a game for him and a stress reliever for you
and he’s strong so it doesn’t take long for you to start crying
but sometimes you don’t even know you need it
you’re being really irritable and rude and he’ll just stare at you for a moment and ask if you need to be spanked
it sounds like a threat but it’s not
he’s offering
and if you say no he’ll find another solution
but you never say no because he knows you better than you know yourself at this point
he can tell what you need almost instantly
so when you need to be hurt, he does that for you
everything he does is for you
again, pleasure dom
when you actually piss him off he’s not above overstimulating you
pleasure doms gotta pleasure after all
he likes showing you that just bc he lives to make you feel good doesn’t mean you’re in charge
and that he can torture you even through making you feel good
but he doesn’t use a vibrator
just himself
it’s amazing actually
he can spend hours on end pleasuring you with his hands and mouth and not get tired
we know he’s a munch i don’t need to get into that
and after he finally shows mercy and you come down from your high he’ll be so gentle but condescending
“learned your lesson, baby?”
sweet but still a little demeaning
“you need to listen to sannie baby, you know that now right?”
i need him
mingi
biggest lover boy no questions
he can definitely be dominant but he much prefers to just enjoy every inch of you
so id say he’s a very soft and loving dom
however
on occasion the beast comes out
for example
after a performance
or long day in the studio
where he’s pent up and tired
i can see him taking it out on you
he’d be fully animalistic
holding you down and grunting while he pounds into you
he’s practically in a trance
the only time he speaks to you here is when you’re not staying still or whatever
he’ll slap you and put more weight behind holding you down
“didn’t i tell you to stay fucking still?”
he can be quite cruel when he’s in this mood
“do i need to use my belt to tie you up are you gonna start fuckin’ listening?”
he may not be the most extreme member but he’s the most explorative
he wants to try everything once
always coming up with something new to try
you’ve done everything
you even tried being the dom once but seeing you on top of him struggling to know what to do set him off
and he grabbed you and fucked you from beneath til you were screaming and gripping onto him for dear life
this is another man who likes to be called oppa
it’s romantic but also hot for him
loves hearing you scream and cry it
he knows he’s doing a good job
the only actual kinky thing i can see with him is free use
he LOVES free use
the idea that he can just grab and use you at any time? yes
makes him feel something
he doesn’t know what but something
you’ll be watching tv or reading or even walking by and he’ll grab you, bend you over the nearest surface and slide into you without a word
he doesn’t need to explain what he’s doing
you’re his to use
so you take it like a good girl and he loves it
he loves when you suck his dick while he’s doing something
reading, gaming, watching tv, even writing music
he campaigned to be allowed to do it while recording music but he was shot down like a war plane
seonghwa made him swear on a bible “not to bring that shit in here”
he shrugged and went FINE!!!!!! then took you home and fucked your mouth for an hour to make up for it
yeah mingi is a free use fiend i’m sorry
he loves having you there to take his stress out on
then being so gentle with you after
he definitely gives you baths
when he’s fucked you so hard you’ve passed out after he’ll run a warm bath and hold you carefully in the water
gently rinsing you clean and kissing your hair and face while he does so
it’s precious
but he’s careful you don’t pass out during
you told him it’d be hot if that happened but to him it’s scary
it happened once and he phoned hongjoong like OH MY GOD I’VE KILLED HER
so yeah let’s not repeat that
mingi sweetest boy <3
wooyoung
pet play
calls you puppy
and if you’re being really bad
he calls you mutt
leashes
not rly into walking you around the house on a leash
cus you’re a good puppy so he expects you to follow him anyway
but he loves hitting it from the back and tugging on your leash to pull you towards him
he likes you to wear a collar
he got a really expensive black one made for you
with wooyoung carved into the inside
it’s pretty innocuous looking though so you can wear it like a normal accessory
EXCEPT it has a clip to attach a leash to it
sometimes that’s how he initiates
you’ll be sitting there and he walks up to you, clips the leash on and tugs you towards the bedroom
he prefers to do it in the bedroom i think
it’s better set up and more private
he’s not super into public stuff so he feels more comfortable knowing no one’s gonna walk in on you two
especially because u KNOW he gets down and dirty
his big thing is pet play but he loves anything related to that
boot grinding like we saw with yeosang is a big one
also humiliation and degradation
he loves reminding you that when it comes to him
you’re just a dog
so he probably has a nudity rule too but it’s probably only when you’re playing
i don’t think he’s too fussed otherwise
also stepping
he’ll make you kneel and put your head to the ground
then he’ll put a foot on your head and push it further into the ground
degrades you the whole time
acts surprised when it makes you wet
“wait, do you like this? that’s disgusting”
laughs at you
a lot
cus he’s a bit of a dick when he doms
he wants to push you & your dignity to the limit and giggle the whole time
refuses to use human terms for you to add to the humiliation
for example
calling your hands your paws
if you’re touching him without permission he yanks your hand away
“keep your fucking paws to yourself”
keeps threatening to muzzle you?
he claims to own a muzzle already but you’re not sure if he’s messing with you
that’s the thing abt wooyoung
sometimes he’ll just say things
just to see you squirm
he loves having that effect on you
very cocky dom i think
but not super formal
call him mama or sir, he’s not fussed
both sound beautiful from your mouth
but when you’re his pet, don’t call him wooyoung
that privilege is for humans smh
the only time he allows it is when you’re right at your limit and you’re whimpering ‘woo’ over and over
and that’s only bc you sound so cute
he LOVES aftercare
not even bc it’s necessary he just loves doing it
like it’s so intimate and special for him
plus seeing how fucked out and exhausted you are because of him
that’s also a plus
you’ll never be unsatisfied or unloved with wooyoung
he knows what you need and you’ll get it
jongho
STRENGTH KINK STRENGTH KINK
(chanting)
STRENGTH KINK STRENGTH KINK
ik he’s joked a few times about being shortish (he’s not even short though he’s just in a group with yungi like) and that might be part of it for him
regardless of your height compared to him, he loves seeing your size difference in this regard
in the gym every day keeping his muscles pristine so he can absolutely dwarf you
anything to do with strength kink he adores
throwing you around? yes
manhandling? YES
jongho doesn’t tell you to move or change position. he just grabs you and gets you there himself
he loves pinning you down while he fucks you
keeping you in a headlock while he hits it from the back
tying you up is also an option
that way he can put all his strength into his thrusts
i’ve always felt jongho was a dom, i think it’s his aura
his gaze maybe
the way he looks at people just to puts me on my knees it’s perfect
so i don’t think the whole dom/sub thing was something he specifically brought up i think it was just a natural thing you both slipped into
but once you realised what it was he made sure to have the proper discussions with you
cus you’re his baby and he wants you safe and happy
i don’t think he’s rly into bdsm he just likes throwing u around
he’d definitely like slapping you too
purely to see the effect it has on you
he loves seeing your eyes well up from his hits
again that’s part of the strength thing
he loves knowing he can do that to you
in terms of names i think he wouldn’t mind daddy or sir but his absolutely favourite is just jongho
he loves hearing you moan or scream or whine it bc it reminds him that he’s doing this to you. no one else makes you feel like this but jongho
it makes him go a bit crazy tbh
this is the one time he can be a bit subby because he’ll literally beg you to say his name while he’s fucking you
“fuck, say my name again, please baby”
but it’s not THAT submissive bc he’s still demolishing you while he says it lol
one thing about jongho is he can go a bit feral at times
not chasing you through the woods feral like a certain someone but you just make him lose control a bit
the way this manifests for him is MARKING
he fucking loves leaving marks on you
it makes him so proud seeing you covered in bruises from his mouth and hands
so when he does hit you, he’ll keep going until there’s blooming purple across your skin
and of course he bites you
A LOT
when you met up with the boys after the first time he’d gone really feral, hongjoong had seen the bruises on your neck and collarbones for a moment before turning to jongho and asking if he needed to be muzzled
you’d laughed at that which jongho had made sure you’d paid for later that night
but you loved every second of it and so did he
and he felt strangely proud knowing his members had seen you all marked up like that
now they know you’re his and they know what he can do
it’s satisfying
i don’t think there’s any rules or punishments going on
if you catch an attitude jongho will just fuck it out of you
“is it funny now, baby? do you still wanna talk like that?”
you do not
will put his fingers in your mouth btw
while he’s fucking you he’ll just shove them in to gag you and let you suck on them
no warning either
“choke on them baby, good girl”
btw jongho is very thick
idk about the length but you’ll definitely be stretching your jaw a bit
so yeah
enjoy
there’ll def be some throat training at the start of the relationship
learning to open your throat properly for him
breaking you in essentially and that’s how he treats it
he’s very patient but he pushes you
“can you open it up a bit more? yeah i knew you could, good girl”
big praiser especially when he’s pushing you
loves how you’ll do hard stuff like throat training just to please him
“fuck, you’d do anything for me wouldn’t you? that’s so precious”eventually you’re a pro at sucking him
he’s taught you exactly how he likes it
i can see him OCCASIONALLY letting another member watch (not touch) just to show off how good you are and how well he’s trained you
again it’s an ego thing for him
he’s not into multiples so the other member will be watching then leaving
he just wants to show you off
and also show the members that he’s not a baby anymore
oh my beefy boy
i love you sm
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just spent almost two hours manually inserting bullet points cus i was a dumbass and wrote this in google docs, so please reblog and comment with your thoughts! let me know what you think, i read and appreciate all feedback! requests (drabbles & fics) are OPEN. love🖤🖤🖤
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popping-greenbean · 1 month
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there are so many things that i could do so well,,, if only i could like.actually do them
#ok to rb or comment on if anyone wants to ??? i just want to ramble a bit#this post is about everything at once and nothing in particular but also very much about my art career wtf#i miss school already.having structure and clear immediate tasks to focus on and surrounded by people who i can tell myself can understand#like id still be feeling the raging imposter syndrome and self hatred but then at least i can still bury myself in schoolwork and#tell myself that its the best that i can do at the moment and i make excuses to forgive myself undeservingly for not doing more#back home with same old people into same old habits and i am once again 14 hiding in my closet writing edgy poetry plotting murder and#trying to ignore the yelling downstairs and trying to convince myself that its not my fault but at the core of it all it really is isnt it#and out of sight out of mind its harder to convince myself that i am still loved or worthy of it or even capable honestly#and craving the academic validation hearing someone say that what comes from my mind has any value at all any real meaning#and maybe then im still just trying to fool myself because what i want is for someone to believe im capable because i cant do it for myself#craving someplace i can distance myself from being who ive been all my life and guilt for not wanting what ive been lucky enough to receive#ok going to stop before i incriminate myself even more#prob will delete later but if i forget to haha hi#greenbean talks to plants
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chilapis · 25 days
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Last post before I crash and no-one hears from me until I return from my first final the morrow’s eve (a changed man no doubt) but there’ll never be anything funnier to me than consistently being viewed as a composed and calm saviour by peers while I’m, actively and uncontrollably losing it.
#not said sarcastically or as a vent by the way I genuinely find it so terribly amusing. you think I have it together ? aw <3 you fool.#i’ve been pacing around my room like a starving lion since the past week in whatever free time i’ve had.#and i keep getting people in my messages begging me for last minute help ? which is endearing but. i’m hanging on for dear life myself#helping isn’t foreign to me; i have 4 (?) people in my class who almost exclusively refer to me as ma’am and even refer to me as a teacher.#but helping last minute is so. deeply chaotic.#and I have this issue with me where having others around me makes me immediately drop into a ‘role’ of sorts?#i’ll be freaking out but then someone else starts freaking out around me and my immediate response is to just.#hey. we are going to make it out of this. it’s easy as pie. do you see me worried? no right? <- on the verge of hyperventilating#there’s this one guy in particular who got so excited to find out we have the exact same examination set-up tomorrow.#i gave him like basic pointers and i don’t think i’ve ever been thanked so earnestly and desperately in my life.#i remember during mocks my friends would message me what I wrote in questions and then they’d immediately go oh thank Fuck.#they’d literally just act like they’re absolutely going to pass now just because we had points ​in common.#as if i’m some sort of fucked up correct answer sheet incarnate.#it’s genuinely really sweet to me though; like i’m not posting this ranting or such.#having so much faith in another to the point that you can put yourself completely at ease says. alot i think.#and i’m glad i can be that person for so many.#and I feel like it helps me in a way too because i become so concerned with others that I forget to drown myself in my worries.#i forget that I’m worried because there are others to care about and console and help. so i suppose they help me in a way as well.#but also who is going to be that person for ME. who is going to console ME. im going fucking neurotic /jest#<- woman with ego issues & control issues who would rather die than accept help.#sigh. oh well. I’m sure we’ll do just fine. cannot wait#🥀🍷 — colloquy.
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angeltism · 21 days
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oh to be part of rentarou's massive sapphic polycule
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mustlovesteve · 10 months
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I’ve read some excellent one-shots but… Are there any longer Steddie fics where Steve doesn’t tell Eddie about the Russian torture trauma and agrees to be tied up but gets triggered by that?
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adore-gregor · 2 months
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study smart not hard (altough both is best actually) this saying is so true
#my advice#but this saying is sooo true#i know some people at uni who study for exam so long and hard but then fail or just barely make it :(#like what are you doing? i don't mean this in a mean way but it doesn't have to be this difficult#i don't understand how some people can study for an exam for 2 weeks or even a month and still fail and i don't think they're stupid#or i don't see myself as particulary smart#but i guess they just waste their time a lot and i realized studying effective is so important#now everyone is a bit different and has to find what works best for them but there are certain techniques which are proven to work well#there is so much information on the internet on this look it up seriously#it made my life sm easier i never struggled in uni like i did in school and i get good grades#and if i ever struggled a bit it was because i started so late it was almost impossible to pass 😂#which is why to do both is still best 😂#but i actually always made it and i never failed an exam at uni (which i studied for)#(two i was fooled into to just try without studying bc it's easy lol)#i mean i shouldn't speak too soon but i already made it through some of the most difficult of my studies#ofc it depends on what you study how well this works but i'm speaking for myself#i once passed an exam with a B studying only 2 days as one of the best students while others studied 2 weeks#and got worse grades or failed#still studying only 2 days is stupidity don't do it 😅#so the techniques i find very helpful are ofc exam questions probably the best one#if there are none make your own#then blurting for which there are different ways but i like to just go over a topic and then write down everything i remember#then fill the gaps#quizlet is also great it's an app which allows you to create cards and then tests you in creative ways#videos can be helpful as well for summaries and using summaries in general is normally enough it saves you sm time#normally you don't actually need to know everything but you should be careful it's not a bad summary leaving out too much 😅#and i also like mindmaps bc i'm a very visual person#but all those tipps are mostly for remembering information so it doesn't work so well for other fields of study#well i hope this is somewhat helpful idk 🙈#oh and reading texts over and over again is the most useless in my opinion i don't remember much at all and it takes sm time
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trashbaget · 2 months
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tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, i’ll go first: today i said “get out of my way” forgot to say “i’m kidding” then immediately said “bye”
#it is awful having feelings for someone you know and have an established friendship with#but crushing on someone i barely know is knew to me and i legit feel like an idiot every time i do something stupid like this#i can’t just. talk to the guy#if i say hey and he says sup i say ‘sup indeed’ like what the fuck is that#i can barely even say hello to him#don’t get me wrong i’ve DONE it but most days i’m like#ah fuck there he is#okay you can do it just say hi#just say what’s up#and then he’s already gone#also. like. the setting we’re in is soooo not good for talking or flirting realt because um. it’s work he’s my coworker.. so um. do i fuckin#ask him for his number?? or to hang out??? but like. he’s kind of a stranger to me what do i want to hang out for 🧍#but like. ​i dont want to do that until i have at least one successful interaction#or like. an actual conversation.#which is gonna be really hard to manage because he doesn’t talk much at all to anyone and i really only talk if someone talks to me first or#i’ll say something absolutely idiotic and ridiculous (and honestly i do that no matter what)#anyway so um. i guess i’m just gonna keep making a fool of myself until i get it right and hopefully i don’t screw it up 🥴#i lost all my confidence in the last year and i cant do anything chill or smooth anymore (i was never that good in the first place but at#least i could PRETEND i knew what i was doing. like i could sell it. the whole weird and lost bit.)#anyway. i felt better for like 5 minutes when some guy at the gas station flirt failed with me on the way home. but that’s partly my fault#too oops. in his defense he probably could not see that i had headphones on bc upon mirror inspection they were well blended with my hair#but i was waiting to cross the street and this guy tried to like nod and smile and i did not know it was to me until i got to the other side#where the gas station was and and like. tried again and i awkward half smiled and saw his face get all mushy and confused like mine FELT 20#mins before when i’d flopped so hard trying to flirt and by the time i’d processed WAIT i think he was FLIRTING WITH ME i was already gone 🤡#but at least it ended better than the poor 14yo who very confidently asked for my number#who. i shit you not. SCREECHED for a solid 44.5 seconds and bolted the other direction when i said sorry im 21#his friends were standing there like wtf too and one was like i am so sorry about him 🤦#cheers to being fools universe
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mewtwo24 · 19 days
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You know reading vol 5 of mdzs before all the rest (don't ask me why I'm a clown and there were Circumstances) has to be the craziest experience of my life. Because it took all of ten minutes of wwx talking to literally hit me so hard in the gut I had to sit down and listen to really loud music for a while to calm down.
Who needs therapy when mxtx is alive and writing, I guess????? 🤡
Can't wait to get to the actual tragic parts I just know I'm gonna be that "help" frog phone meme
#mdzs#i was really out here thinking svsss would be my fave bc of lbh#and then i finally get around to reading mdzs and it blows my expectations out of the fucking water holy actual shit#and i just had this feeling the first time i read parts of it like 'oh. this series is going to kill me. im not coming back from this.'#and here i am booboo the fool getting my clown ass make-up on#idk how to explain it like i just fucking LOVE mxtx's takes on arrogance#that wwx is constantly being perceived as a show off and an incorrigible flirt and a know it all#how wwx cant always help the ways he acts out the desperation that has embedded itself into his very bones#how wwx only ever wanted to do the right thing and that having been so much of his downfall#how his worth and talent would always be eclipsed by virtue of his circumstances#how he's above needing recognition at his core but at the same time longs for an ounce of good will and positive recognition ->#how human he is despite his brilliance. how he never gets it no matter how hard he tries to be worthy.#like to me wwx is emblematic of what it means to be poor/an immigrant in high places#always villified always alien always wrong always unwelcome#no matter how clever or capable or kind youll always be an eyesore because you don't 'act right'. not 'one of them.' you never will be.#i just...the way he just wanted it all to be over by the end. the way he didnt even want to come back to life. that he was sick of it all.#im rattling the bars of my cage i love him I LOVE HIM i love him#i understand you lan wangji (and i love lwj too)#and even lan wangji too like. the way so many of their issues in the beginning stems from that self-same problem#how lwj couldn't live with his out of control feelings how he too couldn't quite lay down his pride#how lwj was also trapped by the expectations of his clan in his own way how so much of their separation was a form of penance#that the calamity of wwx's loss forced him to reconsider everything he thought he knew about himself and his life#how he was left with nothing but regret. how when wwx returns--lwj refuses to leave anything to chance this time#he refuses to let wwx be alone anymore--refuses to let him hurt himself for the sake of others refuses to just let it all happen#even if it means overstepping a boundary or propriety it doesn't matter--as long as wwx stays with him. pride be damned#god i just can't i just can't do it im biting im ripping things apart GOD#will also say the jokes about lwj being like. 'strict moral compass or BUST.' and then wwx literally committing like 17 felonies in the bg#while lwj is like 'crimes? what crimes. nothing to see here.' NEVER stops being funny. like i was pissing myself laughing#i know its a known trope but by god are they hilarious about it#also. lan qiren how many times do your nephews have to go catatonic for you to stop with the catholic guilt and repression
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kingdomoftyto · 1 month
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...BIG FEELS AND BIG PLOT DEVELOPMENTS AT THE END OF THAT BOOK, HUH
#Tyto reads WoF#i know it's not the most pressing issue what with the vengeful ex-Queen and the murderous sister and all#but I still want to point out how alarming it is that the new crew are all going to be wearing seemingly radioactive rocks as jewelry now#Turtle please don't pick up strange rocks that give off their own heat for the love of all that's good#ANYWAY yeah what the actual frick is going on with Darkstalker huh. I genuinely do NOT know whether he's trustworthy or not#desperately lonely and unfairly demonized? absolutely. truly cares about Moon as a friend? I think so.#capable of integrating peacefully into modern dragon society without letting his own ego turn him into the monster he denies ever being?#....... 😬 remains to be seen#god and there's Scarlet's mysterious new accomplice(?) with the maddeningly vague physical description and also THE SCROLL(!!!!)#and i just realized we failed to get resolutions in this book for EITHER the vision of Turtle attacking Anemone OR#Flame's unique and frightening ability to sense and/or attack mindreaders????#where the HECK are we going with Flame I am going lowkey INSANE over him#ugh frick and Umber and Sora are both on the run too...!! this book is nearly as cliffhangery as Dark Secret#(though thankfully i prepared for this by checking the next book out ahead of time so i wouldn't have to wait LOL)#uhh buhh final thoughts before i force myself to go to sleep:#I love Moon and everything going on with her but I do feel like on some level it's even more of a slap in the face for poor Starflight#that the only tribe to get multiple POV characters in this first. like. extended arc(?) appears to be the NightWings#and Starflight himself doesn't get any of the tribe's unique defining features or abilities#i mean i guess the same is sort of true of Sunny and yes i know it was the POINT of book 4 that the tribe had no powers#but still idk it just feels like kicking the poor boy when he's already down. in addition to him literally getting beaten up again#(... now watch me be a total fool and the arc actually extends past book 8 or something making this point moot lol)#(I'm only assuming it ends at 8 bc that's where the previews in the back of the previous books have stopped)#EDIT: LOL yep turns out this arc does extend out to book 10 and the other POVs are Turtle and Qibli so I stand corrected.#that's what I get for nightblogging
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bmpmp3 · 1 month
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dysgraphic artiƨts risɘ UP!!!!!
#raise your pencils!!!! and erasers. to fix the backwards letters 😔#sorry still thinking about my weirdness with my art professors. yknow a lot of em have been really pushing us as#students to make our personal identities a major part of like our 'brand' as artists#which. well from an art history major perspective thats a very contentious and nuanced topic. i love a lot of artists who live this way#and i think its great seeing my peers who focus on identity thrive. but also as an fine arts major (double major fool LOL)#i keep getting pushed by teachers into like. specific '____ artist' identities???#specificaly woman artist. which is a little bizarre because im a bit fat and a bit gnc so im generally like. ungendered? in day-to-day life#(which doesnt actually matter to me directly that much honestly LOL people tend to view me as like. buddy? buddy or pal.)#(not man. not woman. not anything human. sometimes i remind people of a beloved dog. which. hkdsahjk thats its own can of worms)#(a can of worms that also doesnt matter much to me directly because im a wannabe furry who chose to be the dog when playing house as a kid)#(LOL so um. well. theres that) but yeah i dunno i dont really consider myself a woman artist. its been. shockingly (and sometimes luckily?)#irrelevant to most of my life and experiences and art (although dont get me wrong misogyny is very real and very present) so i dont#have a whole lot to say about it from an art perspective. you could also call me all kinds of things. a queer artist. a mixed race artist#again technically correct. some aspects more visible in my work than others. but also very technical. i focus on race a lot in in my#art historical work but i dunno how much my drawings have to say. except that i keep making too many mixed ocs LOL#i dunno i just think my professors gotta focus that energy away from tokenizing me and over to supporting like actual#capital W Woman artists capital Q Queer artists capital A Artists of Colour who are doing far more interesting things than I#far more thought out and engaged in these topics directly. i just kind of stumble into my art blindly and confused <3#sorry that was a long tangent WHAT IM SAYING Is despite all that: i do consider myself a capital D Dysgraphic artist#i think its an unmovable constant of my art and the way i draw and the way my hands move. the untrained eye doesnt seem to be as aware#of it directly. but those who are familiar can probably see it. the dysgraphia LOL if not just from whenever i write a letter or number#half of them are busted and frantically fixed HDKJSDJDS but its in all my art. if u can see it <3 ive been trying to embrace it#dygraphic artists raise your pencils indeed!! and throw away the eraser!!! make the legibility of your words everyone elses problem!!!#what does that say? what is that sketch? none of my business! none of your business!! its the business of my hand and the pencil alone#motor skill and spatial issues take the wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel
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gaypiratebrainrot · 1 year
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it's prob not the best thing that whether or not i have a good day rn is totally dependent on whether or not i have a good writing day, but at least i'm having some good days
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@omgcheez I loved your improved Bruno so much I had to draw myself with him hope that’s okay 💕
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angeltism · 7 months
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man i WISH having a fp was just "haha i really like you :)" like so many ppl seem to think of it
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