#and I dont have that much time to even think abt ocs cause of irl stuff ^^; case in point- ive been struggling with CD a LOT

[spearxwind]

I have to figure out a way of getting more interest in my oc stuff without needing to draw as much because I dont have the time or energy to draw as much as I would like, which includes a lot of concepts and/or scenes that are in my head only but can't commit to drawing, but it feels like most people are only interested in visual stuff as opposed to just written stuff (and for good reason, visuals are flashy and all!) It just makes me a little sad that I cant draw and share everything Id like to show, and what I can do most is talk about it, but that barely ever gets responses unfortunately

[claymour]

You don’t have to publish this but I just want you to know that I would support you, I would stand by you as if we were brothers in arms if you decided to make self ship content LOL I love hearing you talk about how much you like your faves it’s so epic and I adore your art and you’re just so sweet, I would hype you UP. I just don’t want you to feel bad for wanting to make that content if that’s what you genuinely want to do ‘cause I think you should be able to make content that makes you happy!! Follow your heart LMAO Also side note: seeing you talk about Billy makes me so happy like I get emotional LMAOODDJ

IM. 66777777777777777777-++++++++ UVYVWHBAHBWHVVHWVHWBHWVHWBWBHWBHVWHWVHWVHVHWVHWVHWVHWHVWVHAAAAAAAGGGGAAAAAA!!!!! IIII II IIM IM ++++ THIS IS . THIS IS SO UNBELIEVABLY KIND IM ATCUALLY MELTING IRL RN HOLD ON I--I I HVQ HBQBHBABH THANK YOU SO MUCH... QHAHQBBHBJABHABJABJABAA ( I DONT LIKE MAKING POSTS TOO LONG SO I'M GONNA PUT THIS UNDER THE CUT VHVUWWUBWBY )

VYVYUBAVYAYVVAYVAVHAHVAYVAVHBYAVHABHAHBAYH I LITERALLY STOOD UP AND DID A BACKFLIP WHEN I READ THIS GAHABHAHB THIS IS SUCH A KIND THING TO SAY !!!!!! GAHAHABHHBA THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TAKING THE TIME TO SEND THIS TO ME.....GQGQHQ

IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME TO GET A MESSAGE LIKE THIS GEHEH!! TBH IVE ALWAYS LOVED SEEING PEOPLE'S SELF-SHIPS AND STUFF..IT REALLY MAKES ME SUPER HAPPY TOO SEE PEOPLE MAKING CONTENT THAT MAKES THEM SUPER HAPPY! WBHWBH ITS ALWAYS BEEN SOMETHING IVE WANTED TO JOIN IN ON, EVEN IF ITS JUST SILLY DOODLES OF ME LIKE.. SCREAMING WITH A CHARACTER BUT IVE ALWAYS BEEN SO SCARED ABT IT LOL!!...THAT BEING SAID IVE NEVER REALLY BEEN APART OR EVEN POSTED IN ANY ONLINE SETTING UNTILL NOW! GHEHE IT REALLY GIVES ME A BIG CONFIDENCE BOOST TO SEE OTHER REALLY COOL PEOPLE POST ABT THEIR SELF-SHIPS OR DRAW THEIR OCS WITH A CHARACTER OR SMTH GHEHEYG... * BREAKS MY HOUSE DOWN * OKOKOK THATS IT IM GONNA DO IT OMG GAVUVYHYYVH HVVY YV GAGAHAHAHAHA ++

ALSO OBJJ IM GLAD IM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO GETS EMOTIONAL OVER PEOPLE TALKING ABT THEIR FAVS??????!! LOLLLLLLLLLL HAHA IVE ALWAYS BEEN A REALLY EMOTIONAL PERSON LIKE SEEING PEOPLE GET REALLY EXCITED OR HAPPY LITEARLY HYPES ME UP SO BAD I GOTTA LIKE. KICK MY MATTRESS LOL! I THINK THAT'S APART OF THE REASON I LIKE SELF-SHIPS SM LIKE ITS JUST SO FUN!!!!! GAHA

Omg I'm so sorry this is so long GAHA I think I have a issue with making really long replys to things sometimes LOL!! this was just such a wonderful and kind thing to say to me IT MADE ME EMOTIONAL LIKE HBHHVH 😭😭😭😭 GRRRRR UR SO SWEET FOR SENDING ME THIS GRRRR GVVGVY VYVH THIS MADE ME SMILE SO HARD LOL I LITERALLY LOOKED LIKE THIS READING IT

OKOK ILL STOP NOW VGVVYGVVY BUT THANK U SM!! THIS MADE ME SO HAPPY AND EXCITED I LITERALLY HAD TO WATCH BLACK CHRISTMAS AGAIN TO CALM MYSELF LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL IM NOT JOKING I ATCUALLY DID HAHA HAHAHV

[wincore]

AGREEEE, WORKING OVER THE WEEKEND IS THE WORST esp since im in uni full time and i work 9-5 on the weekends which means... no breaks for me ever.. 🥲

MASSIVE CRUSH ON OIKAWA OMGGG I SUPPORT THIS!!!!! but i am unfortunately much older than 15 and still enamored by 2d men 😔 life’s rough like that HDJWKDJ YES ATSUMU CAUSES PROBLEMS ON PURPOSE.. HES THE WORST!! btw.. ive heard that the oikawa to atsumu stan pipeline is very real... so if u get to s4.. u may develop atsumu brain rot like me 👁_👁

OOO alright run on, extracurricular, vincenzo, true beauty, love alarm, & perfect crime. NOTED!! ive actually been meaning to watch extracurricular for a while now, it looks so interesting!! now that it has the wincore seal of approval i must watch 😤 OMGG SAKURADA DORI I SAW HIM IN ALICE IN BORDERLAND!! super good show but really gore heavy at some points 👁

ahh ok thank u for the reccs, ive been thinking about starting demon slayer too!! shoplifters sounds really interesting :oo crime??? i havent watched a full movie in a while so i will def check it out!! THESE R ALL GOING IN MY NOTES APP.

NEXT YEARRR omg it sounds far away but i know time passes so quickly nowadays so I WILL WISH U LUCK ONCE AGAIN 💛 i hope u update us when the time comes!!

UGHWHHD EVEN THIS SYNOPSIS IS MAKING ME MISS UR WRITING?!? I LOVE THE WAY U WORD IT... “given a choice to pretend, you find that jaehyun is the lesser of the two burdens to bear” AHHHHHHH omg “he’s in a relationship and doesn’t rlly care about the soulmate system” THIS IS ALWAYS SUCH A PAINFUL SCENARIO IN SOULMATE AUS PLSS!!! Wait is the soulmate of yn gonna be an oc/vague character or another member :O EITHER WAY... PAIN! THIS IS GETTING ME SO EXCITED AND U HAVENT EVEN MENTIONED ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT JAEHYUN’S LIKE IN THIS FIC YET

RUNWAY CHARACTER CAMEOOOS YESS I LOVE RUNWAY YN!!!! i actually reread it last night and ugh i was reminded how much i love yns personality... just the process of experiencing all tht self doubt with them!!! so real & makes u root for them :’)

“if jeno plays edward i need him to that apple scene like taemin did” WHHHHHWJDJJWJDBW THIS MADE ME CHOKE ON THE WATER I WAS DRINKING LMFAO

GODDDD THESE TROPE/MEMBER PAIRINGS, HARD AGREE HARD AGREE!!! HAECHAN AND RENJUN ARE E2L 100%!!!! i think bc the ppl in the bff2l category cant convincingly hate yn back LOL

“gets complimented on his lyricism often but like every song’s about you” STOPPPPP HES SO PERFDCT FOR THIS TROPE!!!!!

OMG I SEE EXACTLY WHAT U MEAN ABT SICHENG IN ROYALTY/CHAEBOL AUS... i think like u said it’s because of his poise & the way ppl are generally in awe of him but also bc of his reluctance to open up!! more reserved until he trusts u... funny and kind but sometimes perceived as aloof... those r some prince tendencies! “what are corporate businesses but modern day kingdoms” LMFAOOWJDJ SERIOUSLY THO

“mans really said i will not give you any onscreen idol personality to work with” HDJWJDJWJSJ LITERALLYYYY this is why i have trouble reading jaehyun fics sometimes bc sometimes they can feel “inaccurate” but its mostly just bc there’s no Standard Personality Stereotype to go off of. but a random & uncommon trope i think he’d pair well with is exes to lovers!! Yes im basically just a jaehyun + angst advocate.

“i think most of them would pair well with bff2l??” FACTTTTTTT and no im not just saying this bc its one of my favorite tropes.. heh... i think i told u this before?? but ur like the main reason i started enjoying e2l!!! i didnt like it before bc i love the PINING in bff2l but then i started reading ur works n was like OH SHIT! THERES LOADS OF PINING HERE TOO...

i think yangyang is not bff2l or e2l, he is in his own category which is Annoyer2Lover HDJWKDJ ex: troublemaker, wasted nights

OMGGGG I DID NOT EXPECT ROYALTY AU TO HAVE SUCH A LARGE LEAD IN THE SURVEY??? and cryptids is so low 😔😔 cmon guys, vampires r fun!!!

WE R LITERALLY WRITING ESSAYS TO EACH OTHER RN BUT I LOVE IT 🥺🥺 its a such a nice break to read ur response when im burnt out from studying!!

OMG IM GOING THROUGH #moonwrites AND IM LITERALLY AN IDIOTTTT IVE BEEN OFF TUMBLR FOR SO LONG I DIDNT REALIZE THAT ROMEO ROULETTE HAD A PREVIEW OUT????

“And I get what out of this?” “Me?” IM IN LOVE WITH THIS CHARACTERS PERSONALITY ALREADY LMFAOO

“—and when this whole game you’re playing is over, you’re going to say I rejected you.” ?!?!???? THE WAY JAEHYUN IS A LITTLE SHIT! THEIR PERSONALITIES ARE BOTH SO FUN PLSJWJDJEJ IM MORE EXCITED NOW!!

pls disregard the part in my last ask where i asked abt romeo roulette.... i had no idea all of the information i needed was sitting right in front of me 😔😔

- tata

WHAT 9 TO 5 ON EVERY WEEKEND???? the system has failed you this honestly feels like a villain origin story 😭 when does it get better???

ALSO let me answer the other asks separately for better readability lol we really out here writing essays GOOD THING i have practice writing but like. this is infinitely better to write 🥰

PLSSS SOMETIMES I WILL SEE AN EDIT/TIKTOK OF OIKAWA AND BE LIKE DAMN I REALLY NEED TO CATCH UP I MISS THIS MF also are you daring me to ruin my life for 2d men bc i will do it without hesitation. wait till i watch hq again and get that atsumu brainrot with you he seems annoying enough for me to like ^_^

AND YES PLS I WAS SO ABSORBED IN IT!! extracurricular was the most gripping show i’ve watched in a while like yes enough teen romance give me two unhinged teenagers doing crime 🤩 AND OMG??? THAT’S WHERE WE SAW HIM TOO and although niragi was literally vomit-inducing human trash, sakurada dori is like. a good actor. except i hated coffee&vanilla which starred him it was literally so cringe i couldn’t 😭 i blame the writers for that though. IM EXCITED FOR S2 OF ALICE IN BORDERLAND THO i really like horror (and i can tolerate gore if ive been desensitized enough) and like i read the manga too!!! the games were really interesting (although morbid).

😭😭 MY NOTES APP IS FULL OF RECS FROM FRIENDS ALL OF THEM HATE ME FOR NOT WATCHING THE SHOWS BUT LIKE. i binge 3 or 4 at a time and strike them off and then go 6 months without watching a single tv series hhh.

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I SURE WILL UPDATE !!! it’s so exciting to think about grad school sometimes :33

AHHH IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE IT AND THE PREVIEW TOO SGSDJKDS there’s a few differences in the actual fic i think bc i changed up the language (and i dont remember what else bc i refuse to look at my writing) JAEHYUN RLLY IS A LITTLE SHIT he’ll be like hm yeah im pretty chill :) and then proceed to beat yn at her own game at times. (she wins mostly dw) the fact that i made her soulmate cha eunwoo like girl if i were you i’d crash their relationship 🥱 (jk) but like. jaehyun too is 🤩 despite being dry af

ASDKDSKDS YOU REREAD ALL (ALMOST) 19K WORDS ??? IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE THAT FIC SM AAAAHHH IM FEELING LIKE AN ACTUAL AUTHOR 🥰 i loved runway yn too they were like boss attitude with 20% anxiety.

LOOK JENO BETTER BE PULLING MOVES LIKE THAT TO IMPRESS THE GIRLS 😤 if he hits himself in the forehead with the apple, bonus points bc that was true comedy (as invented by taemin)

AND YES. LIKE I KNOW MARK HATED DONGHYUCK SO MUCH HE WANTED TO LEAVE SM BUT LIKE HE’S TOO NICE WITH EVERYONE ELSE 😭😭😭 i cannot picture him pissed off apart from that summer fight </3

thinking about dejun getting rejected by a girl he wrote a song for. rip brother.

IM GLAD YOU PUT THAT INTO WORDS BC THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT IT IS!!! he’s got all of these regal qualities but he’s still human ykyk so it makes for the most amiable person on earth 😌 i love this characterization of him!!

oof exes to lovers with jaehyun... i had a similar idea a while ago (with theme song sincerity is scary by the 1975) that i discarded bc i don’t think i’m cut out to write that 😭 (YET) so i will keep this is mind. u r so right about jaehyun feeling inaccurate bc it’s like he’s very mild in personality onscreen sometimes?? so him having strong personality traits makes me go 🤔🤔 that man is overreacting. (jkjk but like you get the idea)

WAIT RLLY OMG BC OF ME???? i would never enjoy e2l irl bc irl dudes are 🤢🤢 and if they annoy me i will end them. but in fiction the mutual pining and initial disgust at yourself for liking the other??? helllooo 🤩🤩🤩 especially if it’s in a romcom style <3 bff2l is also better in fiction bc if the relationship doesnt work out irl and the person become uncomfortable with me i will just get annoyed jskshdl

LMAO YOU ARE SO RIGHT ABOUT YANGYANG HE’S JUST THAT™ DUDE skgkhs he feels like someone fun to hang out with but he would annoy you the whole time. also he is cute 🥰

AND EXACTLY!!!! IM HAPPY FOR ROYALTY AUS BUT CMON. LOOK AT THOSE VAMPIRE TEETH. feel like media ruined vampires for people 😔 

THIS IS SUCH A NICE BREAK FROM STUDYING HONESTLY!!!! im like working on two semi-large projects AND studying course and out-of-course material simultaneously so my brain is a little fried. thank u for this 😘

[gluttons]

13, 15, 18, 40

@antigifted    /     salt memes  ,,,  i think ?   ( not accepting ! )

13    //   Have you ever thought about leaving rp? What caused it? What changed your mind?

definitely !!  i’ve left the tumblr rp scene before tbh .  some times i wanna rp ocs  /  unpopular charas that don’t gain much traction on tumble so . i take them elsewhere !!  or i get a bit too overwhelmed or tired w writing that particular muse so i take a break from them  (  for 6 months  :v  ) .   but yeah generally tumblr rp is quite demanding ,  gotta format posts / choose icons / promo ,   etc and sometimes im just lazy sooo i admit i have explored other forums.   discord is close second, but the writing style on tumble is the one i generally prefer.    +  tumble rpc is quite friendly n always willing to reach out n chat in ims ,  so i always end up back here somehow dskfja

15    //   How has rp changed you personally?

it definitely changed my writing style .  i used to write very . plainly ??? think like, jkr in harry potter ,  third person , past . *  but i think w rp ,,i learnt the importance of developing a unique voice for the muse n think abt how they would narrate their own interactions ! it also had me thinking abt character design n motivations ,  which i never really considered at length when writing before  (  mainly bc i would write a lot of fanfiction w pre-est charas  ) ..  but i started rping in like . 2014-5 when i was ?? 15-16?? so idk maybe that was just my natural progression as a writer sfkjdfsa :/c

* just tacking this on here :  not that writing plainly is bad ok ( tbh sometimes clarity is desired over waffling !! )   i just enjoy descriptive styles a lot mor e !! even when i read general fiction dont @ me bls

30   //   How have you responded to popular slang used on tumblr? Do you use it in every day life? Do you use it at all?

popular ... slang ? ‘:/cc  honestly im not hip n cool enough to know what this means .   like tumblr rpc. terminology??  theres never really a context for me to use them honestly,  like i dont have irl friends that like to rp so.  it never rly comes up in convo ???  n like,  forgive me but phrases like “ sinday ” ... “ inbox memes ” ,,, “ muse / mun ”  sound eXTREMELY cringe to me said aloud hsdkfjsda  .   i dont think i really like these terms but t. they’re universally known throughout the rpc so. what choice do i rly have . sdhfkdjaf

[kakusboyfriend]

im sorry to hear youre feeling anxious! i was looking through your f/o list and i actually dont really know that much about them ^^; it would interesting if you could pick one and share more about them cause im curious about all of them, but you dont got to talk about every single one if you dont wanna! you can message me about them if you want to also bro idc (also fdsjhsdafsa your art is hella fucking good what the he ll??)

(*cries v v hard bc of the art thing*)kskakak ur so sweet oml,,, ok here goes Me being very gay and bad at my job of answering asks So like,,, lets talk abt Bucky (rc9gn) bc he's the main bf and I love him very very much,,(This is mostly a "how I Started to love him" thing sorry its not,,, exactly what u asked ,, ,, its just me rambling)The fun thing abt this one is that,, when I first watched this show (I was like 11 lmao) I found him kinda weird n ngl somehow gross?? Like,,, what's this awful dork doing here. I Already got a small crush on him back then but I buried it v deep and focused on the kinda attractive main character ,,,,I forgot abt this show for a long, long time but like,, even when I started watching it again he didn't shine as much like. Ok he's cute, nice I like him. That was it for a whileThen I started dating a boy who was SO, SO similar to Bucky that most of the people that I showed him to and that know my ex told me they look extremely similar And it's true,,, he's a pun lover dork and tries his darn best to b funny but he fails miserably and while most people seem to b annoyed by that I honestly find it really really charming??? ?? Like,,, he looks like he's the kinda guy who would try his best to make you happy and who would always be there for you, ,,At first I selfshipped w him as a joke w my fursona (kirie) back in April but it slowly started to develop into a deeper thing and I legit fell in love w the dork oh no,, As I mentioned before I was.,,, dating a boy when I realized I liked Bucky. We slowly started drifting apart and I held onto this dork w even more strength bc at that point I was just making up a better relationship that my actual, irl one so I could,,,, b happy We broke up and I was like. That's it. My 'bf' is Gone and now I might stop having a crush on Bucky bc I basically only like him bc he reminded me of my ex.I was,, extremely wrong?????? ??? Like,,, yes he's v similar to that boy but he,, means a lot more to me?? What am I doing.Anyways fast forward to July,,, I started dating another guy (online this time) and even tho he could b sweet I,,, still wasn't happy w him. All the while I was,, still selfshipping w kirie (FUN FACT every time I sent him a pic of Bucky x Kirie and he said 'that's us' I felt grossed out bc like no,,, that's my own thing don't do that. I didn't like him v much can u tell?)He's 18 and had Just started college so he said he'd be away for a while (mid September-ish, if I remember correctly.) and I understood like yeah take ur time.And yet again I found myself lost and only having Bucky to give me love and support. Spoilers that one didn't come back and it was,,, mid October when I broke up w him and blocked him (and started a new relationship but that's not. Important rn,,) and self insert made me realize that situation was not ok bc I was only receiving love from a fictional character so far. That was v creepy (keep in mind he,, left in august. As I had just came out to my dad, I guess. I needed support and he wasn't there. Bucky was tho, and that was v v v great.)Anyways,,, through this year, Bucky has been a huge help w relationships I was unhappy with. Even if it was just Kirie, I felt appreciated and loved. By someone I actually liked.I eventually made a rc9gn oc bc I was tired of Kirie getting all the love lmao,,,, Bucky's a really important part of me loving myself because he's happy with who he is and what he likes, he's himself and nothing can stop him from doing stuff he loves. He's outgoing and lovely and like,,, if he can love me then I deserve to b happy.He's,,, he's just very important to me bc he's there when I need to b lifted outta my shitty moods and when I need reassurance,,,,, ,,,,, he's my favorite dork and I love him,,,, ,,, very much This year has been kinda rough and I've been dealing w depression and anxiety but at least I,,,, had him to turn to when I felt alone. Thinking abt his awful jokes or his dorky smile is like,,, some of the things that keep me going bc if he supports me I can go on,,,❤