#and all that baggage like...stop
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Stardew Valley Discourse: A Summary
shane: i have depression
person: aww poor sweetie im so sorry ily im always here for u
shane: *exhibits symptoms of depression*
the same person: ew there's no excuse for that
#some of yall.........#i have been in this fandom for like a week n im already sick of folks doing this man dirty#“but he doesn't even keep his room clean after you marry him” he has DEPRESSION#“he should fix his problems before getting into a relationship” if we all waited for our messiness and struggles to magically disappear#we would be waiting for the rest of our lives.#do people with mental (or otherwise) health struggles not deserve love and understanding too?? did i miss something???#like bruh if you personally can't deal with someone's baggage that's fine you don't have to sacrifice your own wellbeing for theirs#but at least stop blaming people for HAVING A MENTAL ILLNESS#sdv shane#shane stardew valley#shane sdv#stardew valley#.....but also relevant to real life.#my yapping
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i think the internet would be a much better place if people could dislike art normally instead of trying moralize their dislike into "oh this art is problematic and bad actually" and just accept that art they dislike & think is bad has a right to exist despite their opinion of it
this isn't about anything in specific, it's just a trend i've noticed :p
#like idk personally there's a lot of art that i have a deep dislike for and think is “problematic” or whatevs but i don't make it into-#-a whole fucking thing#sometimes art is bad and says stuff that's bad. that's just what happens when you let humanity with all of its flaws create art-#-that by default reflects all of its flaws#art just naturally comes with all of that baggage i think#cos humans are complex and none of us are perfect and as such none of our art will be perfect#so we need to stop acting like “OH NO THIS IS PROBLEMATIC” really means anything. no shit it's problematic!!#all art has flaws and flawed art has a right to exist#i'd much rather have messy & bad art that actually reflects the human experience than having everything be sanitized & perfect#just pick thru it carefully & critically and every1 will be ok!!#ocelotrambles
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I love how you're all (all 10 people who interacted with my Jimmy Mushrooms Last Drink lyric post) fuck with me about Will Wood. I mean I haven't had this much fun being in a musician's fandom since like... Four years ago when I was for a year or so listening to 5 seconds of summer and got really into the fandom.
Omg I just remembered this really cringe 2014-esque that surely came from Tumblr about 5sos that is like sexual stuff about the band members which is like "drummers do it harder, bassists do it deeper..." And some shit like that.
#I can't believe I was 13 four years ago#am I getting old#I'm so glad I'm not twelve anymore omg#worst year of my life#would've been even without covid#also I'm so glad I didn't listen to Will Wood when I was younger because I needed to lose my mind over shit like wether Louis Tomlinson's#baby is really his (and he is! I'm sorry for the emotional baggage I helped create#Freddie)#I would've been such an annoying fan of him at 12-15#genuinely#15 year old me would have tried to be so anti drugs#and like I'm still not fucking doing drugs but like whatever it seems like he used to enjoy it and then he realised#they ruin his quality of life and now he stopped. cool. great for him.#I'm getting so sidetracked here#it's a quarter to 2 in the morning#I don't have anything tomorrow since it's still Passover break but I still have that math assignment for the end of the break#btw I only listened today for the first time to In Case I Make It#yeah boo me all you want#go ahead#cicada days feels like Kelsier's thieving crew iykwim#like I feel like this would play in the adaptation when vin elend and spook leave the rest of the crew behind in The Well of Ascension#the whole album is just so... intimate#I feel like I'm sitting down for a cup of coffee with Will#I don't really understand anything he's saying#and the parts that I do highly concern me#but I'm sitting down to a cup of hot tea (I genuinely just forgot I don't like coffee)#ok goodnight#will wood#5 seconds of summer
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(NOTE: just to be clear I'm not bashing any of the three characters I mentioned. I just found it interesting how she's been pushed away from the family members that she has a lot in common with.)
Isn't it crazy how Mirabel is connected Alma, Bruno, and Pedro? All three of key figures in the Madrigal family plotwise?
Mirabel has Alma's loyalty and love for the family, which emboldens her to have the courage to make hard decisions that no one might agree with, and yet this trait that she shares with Alma is—ironically enough—what drove them further apart from one another throughout the length of the movie.
Like Bruno, she's treated as the black sheep of the family due to her lack of gift. This shared connection of being the "dirty secret" of the family causes Bruno to go into hiding for her safety, but despite his best intentions, him hiding away is actually what makes Mirabel's situation worse in the long run because he disappears on top of everything else that was going on with her.
And with Pedro, she is referred to as his "gift" to the family, their one last miracle from their savior. They share the same courage that urges them to protect the family, but it is this same courage that causes Pedro to lose his life.
What I'm trying to say here is, despite having so much in common with these people, they almost always end up leaving her behind. And while it's true that Pedro's death isn't directly connected to her, Alma feared the implications of Mirabel's giftlessness because it could be a sign that the Miracle is fading—that the thing that gave Pedro's death meaning would one day disappear. In the end, this causes her to isolate Mirabel from the family due to her strange lack of connection to the Candle, which Alma connects back to Pedro.
At this point, Mirabel has already been disconnected to three key figures in her family from childhood. If Encanto had been a different genre, Mirabel would've been a character doomed by the narrative 😔
#encanto#character analysis#mirabel madrigal#i love her a normal amount#but i cant stop thinking about the implications of her every interaction with these characters#(except for pedro)#like??? all of the baggage that they carried has been passed down to her#she was the one who had to bear the brunt of their trauma and grief#she didnt even stand a chance from the beginning#im firm in my belief that her story wouldve ended in tragedy if this wasnt a kids movie#cause her place in the narrative practically solidified when she didnt get a gift#what could a little girl do against all that? :((
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Been crying regularly since June last year but these last couple of weeks damn, specially this one that just ended.
I dont think I've ever cried so much in my life
#not even when i was fresh out of whatever the fuck that was with that guy#and this time is like a lot of things crashing out#its a lot of stress response too imo#but still like obvioisly a big part of it is still my season#i guess im grieving like normal ppl grieve their parents/spouses/kids#but im grieving a dog so ofc it looks like too much for a lot of ppl#but im a bit of a psycho so my feelings for ppl arent like that#but that dog was almost my whole life especially during the pandemic when he started to get sick#and just before i was able to secure a bigger income to look after him he dies#and the fact that he waited for me to pick him up and waited for me i. the morning after i had gone exercise#i loved him so much and he loved me so much and im so certain ill never have a love like that in my life again#and a part of me just cant wait to reunite with him again truly also bcos world is ending literally#so the future is this thing i do out of obligation/need/social duty but its not something i believe in at all#and then my other dog and my head fucking with me in health related issues/anxieties#so i wouldnt be feeling all sensitive over this issue with thos guy (clearly this is too much emotional baggage hes up for fun times)#and seems to be having fun elsewhere which sure and again if his missus is fine who am i to feel like that#idk i feel like im putting more emotions into it than i should and its making me feel bad/stupid#sprinkle what would be completely irrelevant and whatever if it wasnt for my current stew of emotions and yeah#i feel stupid bad and pathetic#lmao at autocrrect for season i meant my son#the fact that mohini is all abt opening the hips is helping to this too i guess#i started bawling my eyes out at 8:45am at the fucning bus stop#and it all started with the rtp guy not stopping when i was running late which sure id had been mad abt and talk shit abt the guy#but this time i started crying so hatd and ????#feeling very tempted to do what mo ameer did in his comedy show abt going to church for confession#cheaper than therapy and honestly i just need to talk to someone and let this all out#should i go to therapy? duh we all do genius but i have no interest in sparing money for that atm#also matching with a therapy would take multiple tries and not willing to spend 4 times over 1000 pesos for that#that money has to go to other places that are actually more important#and god willing I'll finally be able to start doing it at the end of this month or beginning of the next
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it's not that i'm an ungrateful asshole it's that every trip i've been at was a nightmare and i can successfully hold back tears only for about a week
#after a week of having to hold back my tears every day i just can't do that anymore and the threat of me crying rises tenfold#which is uh. bad. i need to learn how to hold back tears more effective. or how to forcibly remove myself from perceiving reality.#the option to 'stop having trips that aren't fun' is unavailable#i mean i can cry at night in the hotel. quietly#it's fucking uncontrollable! why is it uncontrollable! it's stupid body response that i don't want to have!!#i know i've been bottling my emotions for 20+ years and it sure does work out for me (no)#and i definitely won't have any serious physical health problems from barely processed emotional baggage (i will)#maybe it's my fault i focus on the bad things.#and the better memories and experiences keep fading away in the wake of. like. all of that shit#interstellarvacuumcleaner
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My hot take is that some of you who live vicariously through fictional familial relationships yearn for "a healthy loving family" the same way a lonely person yearns for the perfect boyfriend/girlfriend/partner who will sweep them off their feet and dote on them and love them always and only focus on them and take care of them and protect them and provide for them and give them a fairytale wedding
And it shows
#i just be ramblin#if this post isn't talking about you then it's not talking about you#All I'm saying is that some of y'all's fantasies for the ideal sibling or parent/child relationship are near indistinguishable from the#classic romance fantasies of having a partner who loves you and only you and only ever focuses on you and lives for you#And maybe perhaps we need to stop pretending that behavior/fantasies between 'family' which play out like the folger's incest commercial ar#completely normal and healthy relationships for regular family members to have#Like my brother in christ. If you have an older sibling who gets jealous when *checks notes * other people dote on you or consider#themselves an older sibling to you. So jealous that they try to keep you away from others because you are *their* little sibling and no one#else's to love and take care of and dote on. If they are that possessive. That is not normal healthy sibling behavior#At some point you have to ask if you're really yearning for a loving family or if you're yearning for a partner who will play all the roles#of a classic life partner (romantic or platonic) who doubles as the family you never had#And that's not any more normal than guys who marry women so she can be his partner and surrogate mom.#Maybe you have some shit to unpack#and that's fine if you do. It's fine if you need to heal and you need to unpack your baggage a bit#It is just helping no one to pretend this kind of behavior is normal and healthy and something to strive for in irl families#Or I guess more succinctly. If you're gonna have fantasies or make fictional scenarios between 'family' that are near indistinguishable from#the folger's incest commercial‚ own that you have a fauxcest kink or something#At the very least don't insist that it's completely normal and healthy behavior for nuclear family members. Own up to your methods of#coping and healing#Indulge in your harmless fantasies without acting like other people are terrible people who don't know what it's like to love your family#because *checks notes* they said that your comic/fanfic where two siblings pledge their lives and unconditional love and decide they want to#live together forever and can't live without each other reads like a sibling complex#vent post#fandom wank
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randomly looked at this account to update my age and holy shit it's been a while since i posted here..........i have a small pile of art i have yet to post but hbhbshdbshbd too lazy
#part of it is that i haven't posted any of my recent art but in addition#i haven't made new art in a WHILE (abt 3 months) which is highly unusual for me but the reason for that is#3 months ago i suddenly remembered that i tried learning mandarin for three (3) days before forgetting about it for 9 months#(amusingly the reason why is not because of danmei......i did not even know danmei existed when i first decided to learn it)#anyways i have been insanely fixated on learning it for the past 3 months#however since art is primarily a way for me to process my interests and that only really be done when i'm fixated on media........well#let's just say i have not been making art at all#that might change soon tho#rn i'm reading 撒野 (saye) in chinese bc it's at a level i can read and i fucking love it so far#idk why i picked a book longer than svsss (which took me a week to read in english)...u would think there's no chance of me finishing it#or even reading it#especially when the only novel i've read before this is a chinese translation of the fucking magic finger by roald dahl LMFAO#but it's been a week and i'm a fifth of the way into it which i was not expecting at all#it was initially an exercise of “i will get as far as i can and try my best to read a chapter a day” but i've been zipping through chapters#last night i was up until 3 AM reading it and i was so tempted to read more but had to stop myself#of course this is all aided by pleco which lets me quickly look up words that i don't know yet. pleco ily#that being said...this all does mean i know words like 收銀台 before i even know the word for “orange” (the color) which is pretty funny#but idk considering that the sum of my time spent learning chinese is just 3 months..........i think i am doing pretty damn good#i thought it would be a LOT longer before i could finally start enjoying some interesting things#god but it really has been a while since i last read a high school romance...but i am quite fond of the leads and their respective baggage#sorry for the whole tag ramble.........i haven't really had anyone to talk abt this stuff with#oh also it's my birthday#that is why i am even here to update my age in the first place#happy lan wangji birthday#actually the only reason i realized it was gonna be my birthday soon is because i saw chinese artists posting lan wangji birthday fanart#and then remembered that we share the same birthday#also re: the art i haven't posted yet.........a good chunk of it is misvil fanart...song qingshi my beloved#and there's also a luo binghe drawn on an art app i PROGRAMMED MYSELF (!!!!!!!!!) in there#actually that piece is the main reason i haven't posted the art i HAVE made. how the fuck do i explain that i drew it on an app that i made#sorry this is genuinely the most off the rails tag ramble i've ever done. okay i'm done
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Sorry to vaguepost, but I saw a poll about whether sex scenes in movies bother you, and one of the options was "No I think it can add to it (how?)"
And that "how" makes me sad. People are so twisted up and freaked out about sex that they can't see how it is an action that can tell you a lot about a character – just like all other actions:
Do they have sex with a man or a woman (or someone who doesn't fit into either category), are they in a relationship or strangers (or something more complicated), are they rough or gentle, are they experienced or inexperienced, what sort of position are they in, is there foreplay or roleplay, dialogue during, does it lead to further plot points such as pregnancy, etc etc etc.
You can show (not tell) a lot of things about characters by what they do and how, and in this aspect sex is no different from any other action.
If you want an example of a movie with a sex scene that adds to it, The Shape of Water has at least two. The boss guy having sex with his wife, and the protagonist having sex with the other protagonist.
So why is there a "how" and why does it make me sad?
It betrays the fact that people put sex into this weird category separate from all other activities (whether elevated as the be-all end-all human activity, or cast down as the deranged freak activity we should never even think about) and! people think that somehow your identity and sexual preferences should play a part in this all too, somehow!
Like another option in the poll indicated that it is an accepted idea that someone sex repulsed wouldn't want to see non-pornographic movie sex scenes. But no one would suggest that non-murderers wouldn't want to watch a movie where people are killed. I don't kill people and am really repulsed by murder, but I don't mind watching movies where characters kill other characters.
And I know its all because American conservatism and its disgust-based purity politics influences online queer spaces under the disguise of something else, and the people doing this shit don't even realise they're doing it. And thats the thing that makes me sad. You are building the walls of your own prisons without even realising. These sorts of hangups about sex can cause all sorts of problems.
And like, I don't want that for me, but I also don't want that for y'all. Please try to unlearn this stuff. :/ Sex is not dirty. Sex is not the ultimate connection between two people who love each other so much that they fuse their bodies into one. Sex is an action that some people do and some people don't. There's infinite variety to it. There are infinite reasons to do (or not do) it. Depending on the story it can be used in fiction to explore characters and further the plot etc.
#and thats not even a steven universe reference. at least not solely.#that is the attitude the mormon church preaches about sex.#they talk it up like 'once you are married in the temple and sealed for all eternity you can enjoy the holy union with your beloved...'#and then young people get married (after growing up developing all these hangups about premarital sex and dirtyness etc)#and try to have sex and its not at all a holy experience! its very bodily and physical and there is sweat and other wet nasty things!#like you are supposed to do things to this person you love that you have been taught for years is a bad thing to do!?#but now suddenly its supposedly okay?!#paging dr freud because your mind cannot find a way to think its okay.#im a convert so i didnt come with this baggage. but i know plenty of lifers who are actually able to identify this issue and talk about it.#there are psychologists and sexologists in utah that are very employed because of this mess.#stop putting sex on a pedestal.
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drowley is so good because i read a fic years ago and instantly fell in love and proceeded to imagine them getting together and getting married in my imagination/daydreaming and proceeded to have them as my favorite ship for years.
#drowley#idk whst it is man but drowley...... it proceedes to have a hold on me even though i eant to get rid of it sometimes#Like NO it wouldnt realistically be rhe best ship because of all the baggage#the fics i read i should not have been reading at yhe age i was#and overall its not yhr superior ship from an objective pov.#But. i cant get rid of it.#i cant stop thinking about deans favorite thing being crowley slowly running his fingers up and down his back.#i camt get over dean loving to be laid on top of because it grounds him and crowley likes to use him as a pillow#i cant gr over late night dates to crappy bars or to the famciest restaurant to ever exist#i had years of thoughts on them to the point the thoughts will never go away and I'll always have the headcanons and ill always be stuvk#shipping them. Like other people this is destiel#right? and dont get me wrong. i also LOVE destiel but like.... the way others sre eith destiel is how i am with drowley#because i spent gears imagining them together and literally cried shile imagining them getting married YOU WILL NEVER UNDESTAMF THE EXTENT
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substack but for your beta readers, one chapter a week, easy to get feedback, you get to feel like charles dickens doing serial fiction, is this anything
#i am. possibly going to start floating the idea of beta readers#even tho asking people to read my shit now has Emotional Baggage#so i'm working on Not feeling like asking 'hey no pressure at all if the answer is no but would you ever want to read one of my Babies'#'if the answer is no that's totally cool and you can crush my head in with a doc marten if you want'#is actually a grave relationship-ending sin#every author on the planet has an acknowledgements page full of people who beta read their shit so like. that's normal#i just have to stop feeling like i deserve crucifixion for asking#but yeah i think maybe i could assuage some of my own guilt by not sending ppl a 150k-word word document all at once#aster chat
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the thing is even as my version of the ace attorney universe is heavily modified to fit the themes of the characters within it, idk if thats even the right choice for the place to put them in bcos its not quite working. but also sooo much of it plays on aa status quo that id have to entirely reinvent parts if i wanted to preserve that effect
#like ive been playing dgs and i read a Really good oc insert kh fic recently#and im like holy shit these r so good... n then my ocverse is kind of incoherant and not cohesive#and logically i know that the only way to get to it being good is to work on it#but thats haaard and these characters have literal years of baggage in my mind that i cant divorce them from#+ if i were to ever actually write their story itd have to Feel like ace attorney with like cases and banter n shit#and theres parts of my changed worldbuilding that would actively make that difficult to work with#let alone my lack of faith in my ability to emulate aa stuff#sigh. ok first ill move the puzzle pieces around in my head a bit more and try to get it all working#first stop is working more on ames bcos even tho shes the protagonist shes so underdeveloped...#like i remember a time when occult yamamoto (yes that used to be her name i was 13) was my favourite ever ever she was all i drew#there are pictures of her onmy bedroom walls i threw her and her twin sister an irl birthday party#and now the tone of the post has switched to mourning the loss of passion i used to have for ocs and stuff. great#maybe i need to get into oc roleplay again. fangan discords were my old hunting grounds so mayhaps...#tho that would necessitate like. messaging and stuff. and im bad at that (friday seven im Sorry i see your dms ill get back to u soon)#shrug idk... ANYWHOOOO ill thonk on it
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my life became genuinely better once i stopped pathologizing everything i do. officially undiagnosing myself im just slightly neurotic is all
#literally like. i still do think theres some shit going on there. mild autism probably. or whatever. however i decided to stop thinking#abt my inner world and focus on things that really matter. and thats just letting the soft animal of my body think what it thinks#and do what it does#also to me. i think. saying ur neurotic is a better catch all for 'theres smth up w my brain but idc' than neurodivergent bc#neurodivergent comes with certain baggage. i dont want it.#piksla.txt
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anyone else simultaneously super anti-gender labels but also feel insane over the fact you have no words to define it. the struggle continues on
#GENDER IS SUCH A BAD OBSESSION FOR ME I CANT EVER STOP THINKING ABT IT ONCE THE THOYGHTS GET TRIGGERED WEH#not a vent btw im jsut like. 😔 man gender hard am i right fellas#im very much I NEED TO USE THE RIGHT WORDS FOR THIS while also knowing yhe words dont matter at all#but also how ppl will see me based on however i choose to define myself has so much baggage that comes with it. i need to choose carefully#oh well!!!!!! such is yhe life of a queer#💾
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why tf would shuffle play renegade rn? like i really fucking need to listen to renegade?
#are you really gonna talk about timing in times like these? let all your damage damage me#carry your baggage up my street. make me your future history!#is it really your anxiety that stops you from giving me everything or do you just not want to?#ugh i fucking hate this song lol#in a way that only someone who loves this song more than anything can lol#it's simply toooooo relatable. which is a disgusting genre.
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