#and im left with my heart yoinked from my chest

[grapecaseschoices]

im so mad. im so not well. im so very upset over the orpheus-gate being reopened on infamous.

[realmflora]

Heavenblossom - Reunition

//Rp format will be slightly different because Im lazy lol// //word count: 1884// // post i yoinked the border from //

-Leia’s flight finally comes to a halt as she spots the presumed landmark that Sōngshū had pointed out before she took off.

{This nation does look beautiful from the skies.. though I doubt that many people have been able to see it from such a view.}

She simply hovers over the place for a while, before flying a bit lower to scan the ground below. Hm.. she can’t see anyone, nor can she sense anyone either. But ooh, is that a shiny fish in that river over there?

Leia momentarily gets distracted by— well, the fish in the river. She lets herself ‘sit’ on the ground so she could rest her wings. They still fluttered despite her not flying anymore.. more of a subconscious action for stimulation than anything.

“Hello, little fishy! Your scales are so shiny and pretty.” Leia says. The fish gives her a look that could be the equivalent to a glare. This makes her laugh.

-…They recognized that laugh. It makes their heart hurt.

Sakura had decided to check Liyue first because.. well, they don’t even know. It was just a feeling in their mind that told them that this was the place they needed to be. And it seems like their feelings finally decided to be on their side for once.

Did it take a bit out of them to get here so fast? Yes. They can’t teleport like Chero does, so they simply had to rely on jumping in and out of shadows. Getting out of Fontaine was the truly only difficult part, because of the annoyingly huge ocean in between the exit of Fontaine and the back entrance of Sumeru.

Once they had gotten out, they simply jumped from person to person, before spotting a blurred shape flying above and deciding to follow it.

..Maybe they should have napped before they left. But it’s whatever.

Now, after tossing different ideas in their head, they decide to use the same tactic they did with Cyrille- simply showing up and waiting for their presence to be reacted to.

So, their little shadow carefully slinks up next to Leia, and they carefully rise out of it so that they’re now sitting next to her, just out of her peripheral vision. They become slightly annoyed that Leia is still taller than them, even when sitting, after all these years.

“You flew all the way here just to get distracted by a fish who doesn’t seem to like you very much.” Sakura says, amusement spilling into their voice. “Very productive of you.”

-“Well, it is a very shiny fish, and it was practically asking for my attention. I can’t really control what my attention span latches itself onto, you kn-“ Leia stops halfway through her ramble, the voice of the other person registering in her head.

She turns to face.. Sakura. The always-tired, lovely face of Sakura, who has finally seen her again.

With no hesitation, Leia solidifies her entire body and wraps Sakura into a tight hug. All six of her wings wrap themselves around Sakura too, protecting them, holding them, never wanting to let go ever again out of fear that they’ll disappear from her arms.

-Sakura doesn’t even hesitate with hugging her back, letting Leia hold them tightly. It doesn’t take long until they burst into tears, all the pressure and pain and longing from these past thousand years finally deciding to manifest into a single emotion- sorrow.

-Leia rubs the top of Sakura’s head, rocking them back and forth as a comfort method. She missed them so, so much. Words couldn’t even describe how much overwhelming emotion she was feeling right now, but she figured Sakura was probably feeling so, so much worse. 

“I’m sorry. I should’ve listened to you. You were right.” Leia says, her voice low so that she wouldn’t overwhelm the other by simply speaking. It was her fault that they got separated so early. If she had just been more patient. If she had just waited..

-Sakura curls themselves into Leia’s chest, almost entirely hidden to anyone who may be watching from afar. They don’t respond in words- just more and more sobs. 

“I…m.. sorry..” They say in between gasps. “I.. killed… everyone..”

-“No, don’t apologize. Please.” Leia interjects, squeezing Sakura tighter. “I swear to- well, myself because I’m literally the embodiment of heaven- don’t blame yourself for my stupid decision. You were right, maybe we could’ve all made it out if I had just waited a bit.”

-Sakura cries for a bit longer before forcing themselves to a stop. They needed to know what happened. They knew Rhea did it, but..

“What happened after…? How are you.. here..”

And this is why they never cry. It makes speaking so unnecessarily hard.

-“..It’s a.. very long story.” Leia sighs, still rocking Sakura back and forth. Now it was to comfort both of them, instead of just comforting Sakura. 

-“I have.. at least another 600 years.. before I’m set to die. I can listen..”

-“Are you.. sure you even want to hear it now? It may make you mad…”

-“And we.. both know how I get when I’m mad.” Sakura finishes with a long, tired sigh. Hey, at least their speech is getting better again. “But you’re the only liv- ..the only other person here now.. I can’t hurt anybody if there’s nobody to hurt in the first place. Unless you’re not ready to tell me. I can wait.”

-…She sighs. 

“After I had died, I watched the entire thing that happened afterwards. You killing the remaining people at camp, Rhea revealing the truth.. and then I got mad, like you did. Not homicidally-mad, but just.. pissed. How could the heavens let this happen? How could such a gruesome, evil activity pass through the gate’s supervision unnoticed?” “So, there was a moment where I couldn’t follow you anymore and I decided to trek up to Heaven to see what the deal was. I told them everything- the murder, the gore, the psychological abuse, everything… and they..”

Can she even say it out loud to them? “..they didn’t believe me.”

-“They didn’t what?!” Sakura sits up, looking at Leia with a look of pure disbelief. “How? How did they not believe you? Were there not hundreds- probably even thousands of kids just pouring into heaven's gates? Did they not ever sit and wonder ‘Hey, why are there so many kids all of a sudden’? How-”

They take a deep breath. They were getting mad. They couldn’t get mad. Not again.

-”See, that’s what I was saying!” Leia exclaimed, which entirely caught Sakura off guard. “I brought up every single one of those points! And they still said I was spewing bullshit! The nerve!” -”....I’ve never heard you curse before.”

“Yeah, cause I never need to! But those guys made me so mad that it literally makes me want to destroy everything within the vicinity.” The wings hugging Sakura tighten around the other a bit more, and Sakura notices that the air around the two of them looked like.. it was being crumpled up.

-”Okay, continue your story before you actually destroy everything within the vicinity. This isn’t our world- we can’t just destroy it because of.. angry outbursts.” Sakura lays their head back on Leia’s chest, aware of how much of a hypocrite they sounded like right now. Luckily for them, Leia begins rubbing their head again and continuing with her story. 

-”Okay, so basically, I decided to reenact the Lady Timeflower dilemma and start a war in heaven because those guys were nerving me.” Leia loses her serious, somber tone and it’s replaced with a hyper and energetic one. One that Leia presumes Sakura is very, very familiar with by now. “And I fucking won. I got to be the one to kill the Overlord and then I assumed that I could go back down and find you- buuuut I didn’t realize how hierarchy works. So I. Uh. Became the new overlord? Oops?”

-Sakura sits there in silence for a good minute. Then, their shoulders start to shake.

-Leia is confused, patting Sakura’s head because she thinks they are crying. But to her surprise, Sakura starts laughing. It starts as a little giggle and then slowly turns into a full blown laugh. She.. hasn’t heard them laugh like that in at least a thousand years.

-”You tell me about a moment that was probably extremely traumatic for you-” Sakura tilts their head to look up at Leia with a lingering smile. “Not only because you had to be the leader of an army, presumably, but also because of the Vetwilia and Whitilio war- and yet you said it in such a hilarious, uncaring way, just to subconsciously brighten the mood.. I’ve always loved that about you.”

-Leia can feel her face heat up, and she turns away with a sheepish laugh. Her ear-wings were flapping in a embarrassed but happy way. Flappy ears. “Well, you know how I am. I’m just such a bright and fun person to be around.” Is her response. -Sakura lets their laughter die out, eventually sighing again. “You.. are okay now, right? At least a bit? I can’t say that I know that war is terrible- Rheflora has never caught even the smallest whiff of violence- but I’ve heard enough stories from Whitilio refugees that I do know that it.. certainly is scarring.”

-“I’m better now. Unlike you and Chero, I know that I need to actually process my trauma instead of repressing it and hoping that it just miraculously evaporates into a cloud of PTSD and magic amnesia.”

-”That’s just rude, now. It’s an effective coping  mechanism, and it worked until we landed on this idiotic planet.” Sakura closes their eyes again, savoring Leia’s small moment of flusteredness because they know damn well the tables are going to be turned on them the second the two get used to each other again. {At least I know she still loves me. And I still love her.}

-”Effective isn’t the same as healthy. Two very different things, actually, with their own separate meanings and ways they can be used in certain contexts.” Leia rolls her eyes. 

-”Please. Not another Language lesson. I’ve had enough of grammatical lectures. Look- I use at least half of the words you have forcibly taught me in my day-to-day speech. You can’t call me grammatically lacking now.”

-Leia laughs, and Sakura realizes once again that they could listen to this laugh forever and beyond, and still never get tired of it even once. They know that the two of them still have.. a lot they need to talk about. Leia simply skimmed over her troubles, and Sakura has yet to explain their own disappearance. One of the most crucial steps in the healing process is trusting each other with their issues. That, unfortunately, isn’t something that can happen in a few hours.

But hey, there’s no rush. Sakura has 600 years, and even after they die, they won’t be separated because they can just go back to the Heaven of their homeworld together. Either that or prank people as ghosts here. Both are appealing.

Relationships take time. And no one makes that time but you.

[hana-the-ghostieee]

hey hey heyyy! not your typical yorushika post here but does involve them. as in elmy and ojisuma. anyways

sometimes i feel like my interests just bleed and blend into each other, unless they can't. (like i literally don't know how the same person that draws a butt ton of cats and likes to radiate positivity and enjoys kawaii culture and decora and happiness listens to songs about literally just living for music, and having no purpose once you literally can't create anymore, or about losing someone close to you and just having this hole. this hole in my heart they left behind. they used to be the one that could fill the void but now that they're gone i can't fill it, it's this hole that keeps spreading and spreading in the middle of my chest)

i mean let's be real i physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually can't connect Perfume and this like danish pastel aesthetic. or Kyary Pamyu Pamyu with 8/31, the day Amy ran out of ink and oofed himself with the one gay ship i show my support on in the back of my notebooks. (those men. they can break up in front of my gravestone. and my spirit will float around. forever haunting this land. edit: i read The Moon That Breaks by TheHufflebean on AO3 and when i got to the breakup scene i lied on the floor and held my breath for like 5 minutes because well. i don't have a gravestone just lying around. but then i reread the tags and there was a make up scene (which WAS there thank whoever you'd like) and continued reading)

and before any of you people on the wolfstar tag yell at me for not putting any content related to them um click/tap Keep reading please thank you

thanks for wasting your time trying to read this! anyways

there's going to be so many more edits and tweaks and finetunes i can FEEL it

lemme take wolfstar for an example (though yorushika hasn't been bled through, thank whoever you'd like, i will list it as an example. edit: yorushika may have been bled through.)

edit: feel more than free to steal these ideas =w= i'd be a terrible writer, art is my strong suit (tho credit me i guess? idk do what you want i won't be mad if you just yoink it from wherever you see this)

japan? poof. modern au. they move to shinjuku niichome. (japan's lgbt city)

um what else what else what elseeeeeee (sorry brain is scrambled rn)

cats? poof. they adopt more cats than any reasonable person should have. (with minor disinterest from sirius but remus is just INTO IT LIKE HECK YES CATS OR I'M JUST PROJECTING IDK) bonus points if they end up running a cat cafe/cat library

yorushika?

poof.

(okay don't steal any ideas from this point on i'm working on a fic for this)

(go read Letters to Elma and Elma's Diary if you want to make sense of what's going on here! i'd recommend you listen to the full albums That's Why I Gave Up On Music and Elma first though. also trigger warning - the protag for Letters/That's Why oofs himself.)

(also please don't yell at me for making them not sound like themselves, i wrote this at like 1am, i probably suck at writing and i modeled them after the original elma and amy okay thankth)

elmy au, sirius is amy and remus is elma. both are also music creators, sirius suffers from depression, gets told by a seer (idk why. oh maybe remus has a seer friend he'd like sirius to see?? *shrugs*) he'd have less than a year left to live because of a "chronic issue", loses it and [insert Letters to Elma here]

so i'm thinking it's kind of a poa grim situation here, where a bunch of symbols saying he'd die within the year just appear out of nowhere, more frequent than before and then he gets a diagnosis for some heart disease and then above scene plays out

edit: don't know how i forgot this buttttt um in Diary 5/15 Elma says "Life surely has an expiration date. Those were the words I let leak out to him, a long time ago." (him being amy ofc) and im just imagining remus saying a bunch of poetic stuff cuz even though he doesn't do it often, he's a freaking good songwriter then this comes up and sirius just internalizes those words like no other

also i think i've moved on from my Kamisama no Dansu (dance of the gods) phase, on to Ame Haruru (after the rain) and i want to mention a few lines. "another summer without you is on it's way" - i'm assuming this is remus going welp. i guess no boyfriend. it's been a while. (back when they were in school they had summers apart but then they moved in together so they also spent the summers together but ofc now that sirius is somewhere in gotland/farosund/idk remus is just. i guess you won't be there this summer) "finally, the rain fell" - a reference as to how amy/sirius left town before writing what it's like after the rain. and it's counterpart, "finally, the rain stopped" - remus/elma experiencing what it's like, knowing he didn't

more edit: uhm completely forgot about the lycanthropy so assume remus found a forest or something (you know what. it's the forest referenced in the instrumental mori no kyoukai/church in the forest) all the while sirius is in the back (or well lord knows where in gotland) cursing himself for forgetting the thing he does w/ bf every. single month

back to 12am me :P

oh but instead of writing down all the letters and whatever and then getting a box and mailing it off, sirius sends remus letters like individually and consistently so remus also goes to sweden and hunts him down but remus doesn't have any spare paper on him so he can't respond in any way

don't ask me how he sends the letters and how he receives the letters

oh wait i got it nvm! um sirius sends the letters by owl (how could i forget) and remus has a diary (because Elma's Diary) but you know. he's not one of those people that rips pages out of their books (at least in this au that exists in the void that is my mind)

and then he chases after him. literally looking freaking everywhere. sometimes they're 3 days apart. sometimes they're so close you'd be sure they have dora the explorer eyesight but no they JUST miss each other like BARELY by a MILLISECOND like seriously remus can freaking SMELL him but thinks it's like a hallucination (cuz he has been getting those recently, see Diary 8/27) or yk becuz he stole some of sirius' clothes (though on 5/15 Elma also says she can't taste anything so rem can't either. also smell & taste are connected so he essentially just loses the function to smell anything. sign of severe depression =w=)

and then comes 8/31. (machIGAUTTERUNDAYO WAKATTERUNDA ANTARA NINGEN MO--)

sirius is on the pier, opening the bottle of Flower Verdigris/Paris Green/Emerald Green/take your pick.

remus stands at the base (?) (what do you call that part on a dock/pier where you just get on) of the pier. he could recognize that black hair anywhere.

okay googled it

oh wait no that's for a floating dock

i googled it again

...found nothing. anyways

he stands at the base of the pier, at the silhouette sitting on the edge. he could recognize that curly, dark hair from 50 miles away.

"SIRIUS ORION BLACK!!!"

sirius' head turns. he seems to be crying.

"re...?"

anyways remus runs up to him and [insert nautilus mv epic outro here but instead of the guitar it's sirius and instead of elma crying the liquid water out of her... being it's remus who is also crying the liquid water out of his being][...also nautilus is a wip until they get home][to clarify things remus does not pick sirius up like the guitar. they're hugging so hard you'd think a spine would break and they're maybe kissing and definitely crying]

edit: i sat down and thought about it so um sirius is sitting on the docks like one would sit on a bench (legs dangling off of the surface) and remus just runs to him and drops on the floor, kneeling position similar to the epic guitar/piano outro in the nautilus mv with the thrown papers and they're still crying and the sun is rising because even though amy oofed himself on the dock around the evening on 8/31 here sirius tries to oof himself at dawn, cuz the line "someday, the dawn will break, so try and open your sleepy eyes, because i've pictured them so many times" and then they stand up face each other and then collapse onto each other (like lean onto each other) and then cue passionate kissing (finally) (ooh as the sun rises and parts through the clouds. someday i will try my best to draw it. and um put it here. be prepared for the ultimate pathetic. something idk.)

and right now they're just gay sobbing messes :P

yet another edit: i'm thinking i can find a way to incorporate the lily/remus friendship. so you know the old lady that first appears in Diary 7/5, right? i'm thinking she's at least a representation of lily, though of course in this au she's swedish (along with the other peeps. yk james and peter and severus mhm) so remus understands. nothing. in this au they first meet because lily needed help w/ baggage ig? it's on the ferry to gotland and well her first husband/bf passed on (shown in Diary 7/22, elderly woman says "Man" and smiles, implying she looks back on the memories fondly, and we're expected to believe this was her husband. i'm thinking in this au maybe??? snape/lily was a thing. not sure. write some ship in the comments/rbs i guess) also i'm pretty sure she thought remus was straight and that he lost his gf/wife and is trying to move on too (in case you forgot, he's looking for a certain sirius, which is in fact alive, who is his bf) and on the ship home on 9/25 (i like to think they as in r/s stayed in sweden for a bit longer, taking more pics together and enjoying whatever they missed while looking for each other) they see lily/elderly woman again with her child harry supported by the man she loves, james (aww that would be sweet tho. fluffy jily and wolfstar stuff at the end) (in canon Diary, the elderly woman with her children and the new husband is kind of a symbol for Elma, saying she'll move on and heal and potentially find someone else)

okay i thought about it and sat a bit more. and. remember 8/27? (the blend of fantasy/reality whatever where Elma finds Amy's stuff?) uhm i'm thinking something like that would happen here on 8/31, but ofc with more intervention from miss nice old lady (represented by lily). so she's moved on from her grief and found another love (james) right? well turns out james is still an animagus in this au (how helpful =w=) and lily is just. unsure of what the heck happened. (tho she does get some "help i'm looking for my boyfriend" vibes) until she connects the dots. they're fronking looking for each other before sirius' life reaches it's "expiration date" (though let's be real. throwing away that life would be like yeeting a loaf of freshly baked bread into the bin) so she tells james the master plan. she thinks on the last day of his life, remus would go out and look for him again, unaware of the fact that his boyfriend is literally at the lowest point of his life. so she'd sent out james for remus to follow (under the pretense that that was sirius' shadow, before leading him to the docks where sirius would go like once every like two weeks since coming to gotland to regret whatever he did) and then cue the scene from "and then comes 8/31. (maCHIGAUTTERUNDAYO WAKATTERUNDA ANTARA NINGEN MO--)" it's basically just saaaaaaaaaaaayonaaaaaaaaaaaaaaraa no haYASA DE KAOO WO AGETE. ITSUKA YATTO YORU GA AKETARA, MOU, ME WO SAMASHITEEEEE, MITEEEEEEEE, NEBOKE MANAKO NO KIMI WO, NANDEDATTE EGAITEIRU KARA (yeah i put some lines from nautilus, your point is?) all the while jily are just watching the gay sobbing messes™ from afar, in the forest or hiding in a bush near the base, high-fiving and cheering or something idk

ohkayee back again to me from 1am

oh also remus does write the responses to the songs sirius sent him, and they show each other freakin all the songs they wrote (so sirius shows him the summer grass gets in my way and a loser doesn't need an encore in the "original" notebook Elma finds on 8/27 but again this is wolfstar. so rem runs to siri and then they go back and take all the other stuff. and then remus shows him the pre-8/27 but in this case pre-8/31 songs and then writes ame to kapuchiino/rain and cappucino, kokoro ni ana ga aita/a hole opened up in my heart, yuu ichijou/only sorrow and the wolfstar version of amy because well. he wrote responses to almost the entire album. so close yet so far. and sirius is in the back reading the lyrics remus wrote and is just crying the liquid water out of his body because did he really cause his boyfriend that much pain? IM SORRYBDJSJSBDB DJSJSHEHDHDHDHEVRHFIKSJSJSJEGEUDHSHRJRIDJX DNDJE DDKAJWBBDJDISJABSDN9W72URIROAQHENNSOAOWIWKSKSKWKWKKAAAALSOWKMRRFIUY)

also sirius moves to the inn/room where remus stays in while doing the looketh for boyfriend and songwriting thing. remus doesn't realize how salty his pillow smells until now. (one of the downsides of crying yourself to sleep =w=)

i do realize there are some continuity errors in the way the songs are written, like in this au everything's supposed to happen within the same year, whereas in canon elmy everything happens assumably in two consecutive years (it doesn't explicitly state) and because it's written under two consecutive years assumably the songs would have to be written and sent at different times (especially august, a certain place, moonlight and evening calm, a certain place, fireworks.)

edit: so i'm thinking before the events of any of these. sorry if this ruins continuity in this au or something but like before the events of this remus co-wrote the summer grass gets in my way and a loser doesn't need a encore's songs (the first two eps by yorushika), specifically the ones with music videos except for The Clouds and The Ghost (for the summer grass - Say It. & Fireworks Beneath My Shoes and for a loser doesn't need - Hitchcock, Just a Sunny Day For You & Semi-Transparent Boy) and then when he finds the notebook they sit down and review the non-mv vocal songs thus far (Cattleya, Blooming In That Summer, A Loser Doesn't Need An Encore, Compulsive Bomber & Hibernation and they're all bops)

alrighty back again to 12am me :|

moreeee editttttt: so about the song Dance of the Gods. (because i've been freaking obsessed with it since like August) um there are a bunch of lines i want to include so. in the song at the end of the choruses, there are variations of the line "I don't care, I'll go even further, to a place no one's ever heard of, searching for the moonlight" (being "I don't care, I'll go even further, to a place no one can see, and put up an imitation of living" and "That's right, I'll go even further, to a place no one knows of, searching for the moonlight") and i think that's Elma giving up on creating music to give it "value" and "a life of it's own", and creating music because well it's fun but in this au i think that's remus going I WILL FOLLOW BEEF TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH IF THAT'S WHERE HE IS (not sure why remus would call sirius moonlight tho cuz well he's moony) (okay you know what. sirius looks down upon his ability to compose while calling remus' songs his moonlight and that he was jealous of his skills. remus, being the self loathing person he is thinks it's like a light hearted joke or something. now that his boyfriend is gone he's trying to find this "moonlight" boyfriend saw that he couldn't see, wanting to live out his ideals)

and another edit: so the August, A Certain Place, Moonlight and Evening Calm, A Certain Place, Fireworks problem. the thing about the Elmy story is Elma's story takes place a year, i think, after Amy's, so all the songs would be written at completely different times, not necessarily within a few days of each other. i'm thinking sirius wrote August and sent it out to remus and then remus wrote Evening Calm because they sound similar and at first canon Elma imitated Amy before slowly moving on to her own style so these gay messes do too

same issue between Let's Dance and Dance of the Gods - but this time i think Dance of the Gods was written shortly after Let's Dance

and then they go back home which is in Sekimachi i guess (that's the town Elma met Amy so ??? i guess r/s lives there now??? they (elma and amy) met in the cafe (that has since closed down) shown in the rain and cappuccino mv which is allegedly in sekimachi) and live long enough for me not to be able to think about how their lives end because now that i ship them so bad, reading ootp and tdh again would practically (and effectively) traumatize me. i'd be scarred for life. it's like that one scene in nakineko where Kento says he hates Miyo and rejects her in front of the whole class and then she starts tearing up and runs out of the class and Yori follows her and then Miyo is just numb to the pain. she got hurt so bad she can't feel anything. flash forward to when she gets home. *face buried in pillow* [LOUD SOBBING NOISES]

more edit: i just realized. okay so on the last Letter (from 8/31, when Amy runs out of ink) Amy states he quit music once, but Elma brought him back into it, after she showed him some songs she wrote and sung and he described it as (wait lemme pull up the doc) "unerring, faultless light that can only illuminate the night. unimaginably soft, dazzling beyond my wildest dreams, pale moonlight" (ink fades away at the word moonlight) and um now i feel like that's what sirius would sometimes call remus (besides moons or moony)

like no. honey we're gon kill no one today. thank yu. (maybe this is why i read fanfics)

another edit: so you know how i listed here they go home and share the songs they wrote and whatevers?? um now im thinking. remus finishes writing the last 4 songs that in Elma's Diary were written after 8/27 (rain and cappuccino, a hole opened up in my heart, only sorrow and the wolfstar version of amy in case you forgot) and sirius shares his thoughts

so um here

(also i feel like the "still grieving" thing would be remus. just being scared about the fact that bf might just run out the door and disappear again? and feels a lot safer when he wakes up with bf in his arms)

rain and cappuccino:

[first verse] pretty innocent

[chorus] *voice shaking* wow, keeping in track with the theme i see

remus: to be fair, what i responded to had a similar message. ...as if i could let memories of you fade away (no literally like i can't even if i wanted to)

a hole opened up in my heart:

[first three lines] MOONLIGHT BABE STOP IT PLEASE I SWEAR ON THE EXISTENCE OF EVERYTHING I WILL NEVER HURT YOU AGAIN

(for context, the song sirius would've written is false night, whose main line is "I want to open a hole in you", and this song is the response to that, with the main (and first) line "That's why a hole has opened up in my heart")

[end of the song] *lying on the floor, indistinct but very loud sobbing noises*

remus: well i did have to capture what i felt then. more grieving and crying up ahead

(this is by far the most painful song ever it's like a knife stuck in your chest and you take the handle and keep twisting it deeper into yourself just AAAAAAAAA LET ME CRYYYYYYY)

only sorrow:

[reads title] do i bring out the tissues or...?

[first verse] okay wow this sounds nothing like the song i wrote pretty ironic since you tried to literally "live" my life but okay

remus: wait for it

[chorus] okay i sound about ready to cry

amy (or the wolfstar ver):

(before reading/listening) if this is another song about grief i swear im going to go cry alone for the next 5 hours

(after reading and/or listening) *5 second delay* *goes and hugs remus*

(amy as in the song is one of the sweetest songs yorushika has made like ever in their 8-ish years of existence. it responds to the song elma and was written when elma (the person) finally moves on from her grief and now looks fondly back to those days. when her lover oofed himself and she went through sweden crying and looking for him. ...yeah not that sweet but idk)

all the while remus is just writing this and showing it to him like how i do with my art when talking about it with my friends. just "alrightyyyyyyy i did a thing. here. *smacks paper down on table* any thoughts???"

and then [insert healing and fluffy romantic stuff here]

okay thats all for the edit continue reading the thing 12am me wrote

oh shoot now i can't unthink this why T^T

um oh well i guess? i'll probably forget this was a thing anyways

oh but since we're already hereeeeeeeeeee

poof.

ojisuma au

(okay you can steal this one)

(read the novel Plagiarism for context here! the album isn't as important here, it kind of serves as a background noise and also expresses oji-san's experience. oh also yes, the album takes melodies, beats and rhythms from actual songs (as well as their own, in the song plagiarism) so yeah go listen to the album too i guess :D)

sirius is oji-san and remus is tsuma but tsuma doesn't die and they also work together to produce music but what rem doesn't know is siri has been stealing???? all of these sounds??? for the songs he thought was original??? and eventually siri comes to the conclusion that the only original thing he can create is his downfall as a musical artist (essentially just goes through what oji-san does but no dead wife but this is a wolfstar au so no dead husband.) so he does. this is my pathetic replacement for the prank and them not trusting each other. and rem is not happy. (he no trust him no more) but siri then goes and creates the two songs night journey and ghost in a flower because i think oji-san wrote those songs after he destroyed his reputation cuz they sound so different from all the other songs in tousaku (or maybe it was because of nakineko. not complaining it is still my fav movie. there's CATS. there's drama. there's CATS. there's romance. there's CATS. there's magical island with cats. there's CATS. did i say CATS. anyways)

um society as a whole just hates on siri. honestly can't blame society as a whole.

and then he releases sousaku/creation without stealing a thing (applaud for him please. i cant hear you clapping CLAP HARDER) and then *cue redemption arc*

yet. another. edit. : um i feel like adding some stuff so sirius would've written the songs Ghost in a Flower and Spring Thief to celebrate the relationship he had (and will get back) with remus, Night Journey and The Lying Moon as the break-up (but not the like "I'M DONE GOODBYE D:<" kinda songs, more like the "I'll remain here, as you go to the other side" or the "Rain has fallen, flowers have scattered/I still think about your rosy cheeks/as I keep drinking love from a bottomless ladle/It's true, it's tasteless, this thirst that's never satisfied, but you can laugh all you want and say "Is that so?/but I'll be here, just waiting for you") um and the instrumental creation would be a filler, and Robbery and Bouquet would be an allusion to his past self with the plagiarism and the sound stealing and i'm not sure what Eat the Wind would be

and then they get back together ^.^

(ooh but hold on. i feel like making a plagiarist remus and a tsuma sirius)

if the ojisuma au didn't sound as in depth or something know that Dakara Boku wa Ongaku wo Yameta (basically elmy) is like the most iconic yorushika lore

therefore more people are more interested in that (and i am part of more people :P) (also there's more context in elmy than ojisuma)

wow how the hekk did i connect wolfstar. a fanon (that deserves to be canon) gay ship about two friends in a group at a wizarding school that end up being more with... yorushika. a band that constantly hurts me. as in it hurts GOOD. like go listen to yoru magai and then kokoro ni ana ga aita. (with translations cuz im pretty sure barely any of you guys on the wolfstar or sirius x remus tag know japanese) LIKE STOPPPPPP THAT SONG IS THE DEFINITION OF GRIEF AND PAIN AND I DON'T KNOW HOW N-BUNA, A PERSON THAT SAID HE WROTE SONGS LIKE THESE TO EXPRESS HIS VIEWS ON LIKE LIFE AND DEATH CREATE A SONG THIS PAINFUL. LIKE HOW DO YOU WRITE SONGS LIKE THESE???

edit: i didn't connect them i practically forced another universe onto them (also i may be one of the first people to do this idk i have no idea who else is a big yorushika fan and a wolfstar shipper)

okay that is all i think have a nice dayyyyyy/nighttttttt/timezoneeeeeeeee

wait WHAAA

okay im typing this on mobile and??? you can freaking DRAG PARAGRAPHS???

...why don't they make this with tags i had to use little asterisks when i posted that apparently bots keep following me thing

wow this is like the LONGEST post i've made ever what the hell

wow the amount of times i've edited this GOSH

uhm anyways *hand on hip* *thumbs up* woo! *collapses face-down on floor*

[philograce]

Truly

(Not my gif obvi)

Pairing: Eren x fem!reader

General info: modern au, just a little random thangy wangy

Warnings: smokin cigarettes?, Mentions of sex!, fluff

Summary: The friend with benefits relationship you and Eren had was long gone, crying over how you two felt about each other.

Proofread: Absolutely not it’s 2am soRRY

(Honestly this is so bad but Imma still post it🧍‍♀️ I’m still so salty about the story that got deleted I lost motivation :( but okay hopefully u enjoy mwah)

(Also if u listen to this song it’s JUST MWAH)

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You were captivating, luring him in with that small sweet grin of yours paired with a mischievous gleam, he couldn't resist. You seemed mysterious, like an enigma, he couldn't wrap his head around it but his heart constantly ached for more. You were dangerous for him, everything about you seemed to tug chords in his chest that had long be forgotten. No one had made him feel so vulnerable before. Now his heart was captured by you, taking his time and placing his heart gently into your hands. Letting your previous so called "casual" relationship crash down and turn into something more.

Opening the sliding glass door that reached to the porch, he was instantly met with a cold breeze goosebumps littering his bare arms, eyes catching the beautiful sight of you smoking a cigarette. Reaching down he grabbed your cold hand kissing it, sending a playful look back at the man who bewitched your heart, giving him a big warm smile. The two of you sat together, wrapping each ones arms over the other, watching the twinkling lights that flickered in the city.

Eren remembers the first time he noticed that you l liked him back, you and him just had sex that you both kept saying to yourselves was just "casual", but when you sat across from him in the small diner booth, he couldn't help but notice how you looked at him. Your sweet lips curled into a smile, eyes glimmering with affection, you reached a hand out to him cupping his own and warming it instantly. A new emotion pooling in his chest, one look into your eyes and Eren could feel his cheeks tint red in embarrassment. Afraid you could see right into his heart.

But, now sitting with you hearing the steady rhythm of your heart beat, he couldn't help but watch your face. Eyes shinning from the street lights, the warm glow spreading across your face after you took a puff, bites and hickeys trailing down your neck reaching your collarbones. He truly was happy, he loved when you were just with him no one else in way.

But no matter how much he loved you, the cold winter wind still nipped at his exposed skin, sitting up slowly to go inside and grab a blanket for you both. But, a small hand grasping his wrist pulled him back down, right down next to you. You're puppy eyes looking back up at him a small pout forming on your lips.

"Stay with me."

Those three simple words from you sent him falling down a deep blissful hole filled with love, he stretched his arm around your shoulder letting your head rest against his chest. The low hum you let out letting him know you were content with the position you two were in. Looking up at Eren you see his pretty face, lit slightly from the dim lights, brown hairs resting erratically against his cheeks, his lips were bruised and pink and so were yours, but nonetheless you were happy to stare at such a serene view.

His eyes left the city before him, your restless stare pulling him out of his calm thoughts, staring back down at your face. Astounded wouldn't even began to describe what he felt when looking at you, face glowing in the dark light, hair pulled back giving you an almost angel look, Eren was in awe over how simply beautiful you could be at any given moment.

Kissing you softly on your lips, relishing in the feeling of you on him, letting his mind sense the taste of your mouth, the subtle smell of your perfume. He wanted to give you all his love, have you touch him with a gentle kiss, your touch was so sweet and heavenly. You wanting him all the same, the sensation of his skin on yours sent chills up your spine.

Even these small moments the two of you couldn't help but cherish, both feeling like you couldn't live without each ones love inside them. Him just watching you watch the city, he couldn't stop but play each thought he had of you inside his head over and over. The recurring visions he had of you from past sweet days, picturing the way the sun sat perfectly on your face, or how your laugh filled an entire room from his one measly joke.

He could feel a unfamiliar burning sensation in his throat, wet tears brimming his lash line falling carelessly to his soft cheeks. A familiar warm hand gripped around the back of his neck, your face filled with concern aligning with his in an instant.

"What's the matter baby", the love dripping from your every word, the sight and feeling of you was enough to send Eren into a crying blubbering mess. This was the first time he had cried in awhile, he was never good at expressing his emotions, but you made him so so damn vulnerable that he fell apart in your arms.

Unable to give you a proper explanation, you comfort Eren rubbing a hand on his back, brushing his hair in continues strokes letting him sob on your chest. Eren felt gross with himself, his snot dripping from his nose the tears he was leaving on your chest, you probably found him disgusting. But when he looked up to see your face once more, it was filled with nothing but concern and tenderness.

"Are you feeling better now?" Eren gave you small nod still resting his head on your chest, he was breathing in and out slowly calming down with your touch and comforting words. "I was just... thinkin bout' how much I love you".

That wasn't what you were expecting, the sudden fondness hitting your chest heartbeat quickly picking up. The man who you held so much adoration and passion for was crying over his love for you, not a cry in a bad way but tears that held so many beautiful emotions. Your own tears quickly pushed past your lashes, a hand covering your mouth to keep the cry from coming out.

"What's wrong (y/n), is...is it what I said", the insecurity leaking through his words made you quickly pull yourself together. Quickly shaking your head over and over, placing both of your hands on his chest.

Now it was Erens turn to comfort you, his head rising off your chest pulling you into his warm strong arms. He didn't want his sudden explosion to be too much for you, trying to rub your arms in the same comforting way you did.

"What's wrong (y/n), is...is it what I said", the insecurity leaking through his words made you quickly pull yourself together. Quickly shaking your head over and over, placing both of your hands on his chest.

"Nono, course not babe. I just love you s'much."

And with that Erens heart was quickly filled again.

The cold winter breeze not even affecting the two of you anymore. Just staring into each other's eyes was enough to warm your chests.

You loved each other, and that's all what mattered. Loving, touching, breathing each one in. Days could go by but neither of you would be bored with ones touches.

Loving each other truly.

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(Yoinks it’s super late or I guess early so sorry if this suck🏃‍♀️ MY LAST STROTY DELTED ITSELF AND IM SO MAD ABOUT IT. Kay I calmed down, you get this trash:) SORRY! But likeeee kinda cute ehhhh?)

[randaccidents]

Demise attack 4

Im sorry Skye, I didnt want to backstab, but snitches get stitches.

Plus, I only swore on AOW, not Arson

Attack on Skye

TW: blood, gore, stitching, body horror (eyes and mouth), piercing

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> psst randa

> I need you to kill skye

> which skye?

> the void skye

> the one on many teams

> hh I dont want to backstab this early in the game

> they’re a snitch

> wait what

> wheres the rat

> they snitched on me, YanDan, and Alex

> and who knows

> they might’ve snitched on team Arson as well

> >:( time to plan a murder I suppose!

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> I wanna ask you

> If you backstabbed me, a FOUNDER of this team, is it a bad deed?

> mm well in my opinion, this is all fun and games

> we all knew that backstabbing was in the deal somewhere down the road once there were less threats

> although I am aware most people would backstab a snitch no problem

> yea lol but please dont attack me

> cause you were planning to, weren’t you?

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> im only willing to shelve the backstab, but if I find out youve backstabbed us… the hit goes on the board

> dude I wont

> pinky promise

> swear on the blood of the orphans not to snitch on us

> cuts open orphan by vein Fuck this blood aint fresh

> yoinks a jinx Yass fresh blood

> signs phone Fuck my phones bloody now

> good, smash someones head in with it

> sure

> so you swear not to snitch?

> on aow

> swear

> on my fucking heart

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“I do believe I never promised not to stab you on behalf of my other two teams now did I, snitch.”

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When Shbloop came up to her, Skye didn’t run. What reason did she have for that, she knew that the slime golem was friendly towards her. They were on the same team after all, and what first time Demise player would want to backstab their teammate this on the second day?

Lying trapped in a pile of spiderwebs at the bottom of a pit, Skye realised her mistake too late. The perpetually smiling neon yellow face loomed over her, somehow more menacing in the dim light, with her trapped under it. Whenever she made a move to escape, it simply pushed her back into the webs, smile never faltering, waiting. Eventually realising that it would simply wait until she starved, she gave up, hanging limply in the webs. “....what do you want Shbloop, I thought we were teammates.”

Finally, finally, the slime golem took a step forward. She could hear it kicking aside her fallen hat as it stood over her, stone pickaxe taken from its inventory and lifting her chin. She could feel the broken tip from when it had killed Welpbot, the slime golem having refused to replace its precious tool. The slime golem’s warbling voice rang through the pit. “Friend said you snitch. Bad.”

“You know that already! I swore on the blood of orphans not to snitch on Artists of War, and you promised not to get back at me for that!”

That neon yellow smile seemed to glow a sickly hue as the golem leaned closer. “Only Artists of War.”

Skye could hear the stress on the first word, the colour draining from her face. Only? “Wh-what are you on about?”

She could feel the pickaxe leave its dangerous place under her chin, and she let out a sigh of relief that was broken when dirt hands grabbed her face, holding her still. Fingers wedged themselves between her lips, holding her mouth open even as it filled her mouth with the taste of grass and oil. She tried to trash, the webs effectively holding her down. She froze as the unbroken pickaxe tip was lightly placed on her upper lip, staring up fearfully at Shbloop. Its voice was cheerful as it stated, “Snitches get stitches!”

The pickaxe tip pierced her lip, causing her body to jerk at the sharp pain. Her screams were muffled by the dirt clogging up her mouth as the pickaxe slowly pierced holes through her upper and lower lip, the slime golem over her humming a jaunty tune as it went about its gruesome task. Once there were two lines of holes, Skye could just barely see Shbloop fish out a length of string before the pain sharpened, the thread being woven through the holes and stitching her mouth together. Everything was agony.

All too soon, yet not soon enough, the dirt hand released its hold on its lips. She barely managed to gasp in a pained breath before the string was sharply tugged, causing her to scream through her suddenly stitched up mouth. Eyes watering, the feel of bloody liquid flowing down her chin, she breathed heavily as she limply watched Shbloop tie off the thread, sealing her mouth shut. Seeing the slime golem move back slightly, she closed her eyes, glad that the ordeal was over.

-only to have her blue left eye forced wide open, staring at the tip of a stone pickaxe. “Snitches get stitches~” sang Shbloop, and Skye realised that there was much more pain ahead of her. The Arson pin on its chest reflected the bright yellow of its eyes.

“Don’t worry bad friend, half your clothes already red!”

[DEFLECTED]