#and im so happy to see kalos get a bit of love

[isot1ne]

🇫🇷🇫🇷🇫🇷FRANCE🇫🇷🇫🇷🇫🇷JUMPSCARE🇫🇷🇫🇷🇫🇷

[summerandfall]

u said to egg your inbox so what if....reguri.......love confession without explicitly saying the words "i love you"

OR WHAT IF!!! regrurrurir .... green gathering the courage to tell red how handsome he is!!!

or WHAT IF REGUGUGUG!!!! red struggling to tell green he's going to miss him before he leaves for kalos

h hiiii minnie 🥺💖

and ohhh these make for some really good prompts! watch me.. watch me put this all in one fic....

cause i can see it happening like this: green coming up to see red to tell him he is leaving for kalos but when he gets there, red's all neat looking after having cut his hair (i imagine red let it grow for a bit!! ! so it wasn't just his hat covering most of his face anymore, it's also his hair! he still looked super good 🥴 but green wasn't really into it at that time!) so when he finally sees red's face (those eyes!! he loves those eyes!!!) again even more clearly.... he just short-circuits! he stutters and stumbles and forgets why he was there in the first place lol. red is so handsome and that takes priority. so he retreats back home to think about why he feels that way.

on the other hand, red ends up hearing about green's plan to leave from someone else and is a little upset about it cause green didn't say anything about that last time! he doesn't know if green has a reason to keep it from him, but he would at least like to communicate that he WILL miss him. so when green comes by again, acting a lil weird and kinda nervous, red hesitates too. it goes like that for a bit. green realizing he still hasn't broken the news to red, comes up to him, gets distracted, goes home a mess, repeat. hilarious.

somehow, red finally asks green about it, who tries dodging the 'how could u forget each time???' question but is taken aback by red suddenly being so genuine and open about how he's gonna miss him. and idk!!!! i think green just kinda blurts out what;s been on his mind lately! and red just kinda pokes and inquires further until! until somehow it turns into an awkward, kinda sweet love confession???? im, im so...

my head is melting rn. i love this so much cause it sounds so ridiculously hilarious. your prompts are really tender and sweet and i can only think of them being stupid about it 😭😭 i can't bring justice to this.... but i will try to... write it... or make it into a quick comic cause that comes faster to me.... ha, happy pride....

[jils-things]

skips in hello hi jil i'd love to talk abt them im so sorryy i've been thinking abt them too much teehee ty soso much for letting me gush abt my loves eek ♡ random bit of lore but ? marianne moves and when she's getting her trainer card changed over at the lab sina mentions they've been studying fairy types and since it's a ' new phenomena ' marianne goes ' what ? ' - she has . . no clue what that is months later when marianne's having catchup w augustine abt data on mega n stuff she mentions she loves flowers and has a flower press handed down from her grandma from galar but hasn't had a chance to go out and do anything yet since she came to kalos - kind of like a side note - and he goes ' oh i'm actually double checking this field work sina and dexio did out on route 4 - bunch of flowers there do you want to come ? ' and she's super shy but says sure , i wanna see what fairy types are anyway i still don't really know ? ( she's not a dex holder so she has like no way of . . . being that knowledgable ? ) they go there and she's like v nervous because he's just going over notes and looking through his tablet or whatever but encourages her to go ( vulnerability ? huge lore theme ) and she starts collecting flowers and opens her press and he's like ' oh so this is what you do ? ' and she's so nervous and is like ' yeah . . v_v ' and he's basically completely forgotten abt what he's there for bc he's just v interested in people anyway and his main focus / passion is mega not typing matchups so starts asking her abt flowers and she's so so happy to talk abt flower language and turns out he knows it too ( he loves lavender it turns out since - although its different in kalos ( ' french ' lavender ) it reminds him of home + he also has fond memories of floaroma back in sinnoh so he really really likes flowers ) and they sit there talking about ' i think a persons favourite flower reveals a lot abt them ' and it's one of their first like , one on one moments thats not at a cafe or at the lab and she has this cute interaction w the flabebe obv bc they ride on flowers ? she's totally smitten w them and he's like ' oh yeah fairy type ! look - it's a bit like you ' ok thank you thank you so sorry this was super long forgive mee . . i should be asleep hehe ; bye bye + niniii ! ( priv or not up to you ! )

CHARM HEWWO... omg dude im so... i just learned the deeper meaning of marianne and her flowers this is so.... homaGAD.... NONO IM SO SPEECHLESS IN A WAY THAT IM JUST AMAZED HOW IT PLAYED OUT.... what was supposed to be a little visit to see the fairy types ended up being sycamore slowly learning more about this kind lady and her little interest with flowers... and given how he's reminded of the flowers in sinnoh OHHGFO IT JUST PIECES TOGETHER NICELY IM SOOO EEEEEE 💚💚💚 he even FORGOT what were they here for (silly man.. silly silly)

i appreciate people who are more fascinated in the person they're talking to its just shows they're super attentive and im sure this little flower fact will come in handy for him when he wants to... dare i say, impress her??? 🤭 egads... do you think at one point in their relationship she makes a pressed flower plate or something for him??? or maybe the other way around???? 😳 me brain wanderin oopsie....

UEUEUEUE I LOVE FLABEBES SO MUCH (i had one in my xy gameplay and im. very overprotective of it) I LOVE SEEIN THEM INCORPORATED IN THEIR WIDDLE LOVE STORY EHRHRHHEHRD sycamore would absolutely just... watch her with a flabebe in silence and realize how similar they are... in beauty and gentleness wiwiwiw (also now it just hits harder for me cuz i remember one of the sycamari comms you shared had flabebes in it im hrujrururr 🥺🥺🥺🥺)

[pyonzzz]

Dude you have pokemon OCs? THAT'S SO COOL! Can I hear about them?

YES YES YES okok so they dont have official designs yet because i actually kinda . struggle with character deisgn but i LOVE WRITING FOR THEM

small warning for like ?? child endangerment ??? its pokemon and theres mew science involved par for the course www also theres a dead mom mention skdbwksbsj

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okay this is post-writing robin this is SUCH A LONG POST AKDHSIDBD IM SORRY I LOVE THEM SO BAD i wrote such extensive lore

so barkley ( 27 ) is a scientist on the mew project and had some hand in the mewtwo experiments ( his partners ars a ditto and a zorua ) , and hes already a bit of a mess . he loved science as a young boy and met his sweetheart in college , and they bonded over their adoration for science and nature . they were even engaged !! but once his partner found out he was going to be apart of the mew experiments , the engagement was broken off and barkley had to move all the way across the world basically to work on the project since hes from kalos . his family , being his older brother ( 35 ) , his baby sister ( 6 ) , and his sickly mom , also didnt agree with the mew experiments , so when he moved out of the family home , they told him not to return unless he had burned his labcoat and never spoke about science again . barkley finds out via email while still traveling that his mother succumbdd to her illness , and it just solidifies to him that he really cant go back even if he wanted to

barkley is already really disillusioned and cynical , so when the other scientists tell him they want to mix human dna with mews dna to create a pokemon / human hybrid , he agrees only because he has nothing left to lose . he doesnt agree with the experiments on a moral level , but his bridges are burned , so what the hell

blah blah science things happen and tadaaa !! a cute baby girl is born !! purple pink hair and bright blue eyes , like mew as a human , except yknow . kinda but not really . but hey !! success !! the scientists have fuck all idea of what to do now

so the baby is raised until preschool age ( around 3 to 4 ) in the laboratory facility , but the mewtwo experiments have started by now . things are getting dangerous . the team decides that the mew child needs to live elsewhere , but nearby , and everyone chooses barkley for the job since a few of them knew he had some childcare experience prior to taking care of the lababy

so he takes the baby girl home and is told not to come to the lab unless its for the girls checkups . shes also not to go in public , as a human with pokemon dna wasnt actually accepted by anyone ( shocker !! ) , so she grew up only seeing barkley and other scientists

as the girl grows , they discover shes severely anemic , and her legs are weak . a side effect of the mew dna , they suggest , so they give her some leg braces until shes old enough for things like canes and walkers . by 10 , the girl prefers a wheelchair , as her legs are just . shot like they hurt too much for her to walk on for long , they completely lose feeling inconsistently , and her knees buckle a lot . mew side effects the scientists say

but other than the mobility issues and supplements for the anemia , the girl is a very happy little thing , always smiling and reading and happily playing with her toy teddiursa . though theres another issue — as another side effect of the mew dna , and the fact that shes so isolated , the girl gets overwhelmed very easily . she has some psychic abilities , such as telekinesis , that she cant control very well . thus , when she begins to get overwhelmed or stressed , anything small within a 3ft radius will start to levitate and shake . the worse her emotional state is , the wider her ramge expands , and the more violent things get . her largest episode happened on the day of mewtwos escape , due to a faint psychic link she shares with it , and the effects of her meltdown were seen in shattered windows and overturned cars within a 25ft radius of barkleys apartment

after that phenomenon , the research lab in its entirety was exposed , and axed of course , we all know that story . the girl , being 12 by this time , was allowed to live freely with barkley by decision of all champions and government officials . she was an innocent party , and barkley had spent so much time and dedication raising her that they declared him innocent , as well

so they move to unova , where they live for a while , and the girl finally gets her name here . you see , even the government didnt name the child , and barkley was only allowed to call her by her lab-given title of mew-c 04 , or just 04 ( said like zero four ) . so while in unova , they visit the renowned ferris wheel , and there they meet n . due to her mew dna , the girl can also speak with pokemon to an extent , although she still struggles with it at times

with barkley still watching over her , the two end up visiting that area often so n and his pokemon can help the girl hone her psychic abilities . she even learns how to use her telekinesis to help hold herself up until she can get to her mobility aids and / or move them closer to herself , and she ends up being able to move things up to 100lbs ( around 45kg ) with her abilities . she even learns a bit of telepathy , so she can communicate to barkley even when apart in case of emergencies . n because an older brother of sorts to the girl , and he asks barkley to give her a real name

thus , the girl was further known as fherris !!

n refers to fherris as barkleys daughter , although barkley himself disagrees , as he still just views himself as nothing more than a nanny , and fherris calls him " mr . bar " . but dont worry , that changes with time ! they never really got to bond before the mew labs were closed , so over the course of their story , thats when we really get to see them bond ^^

theres so much more to their story , like how in my storyline there is no ash , so its actually fherris and barkley who get mixed up with yveltals reawakening when they eventually move back to kalos , but thats the big stuff out of the way !!

[chidoroki]

Me: *causally reading manga as usual*

Serena: *makes her first appearance since 2016*

Me:

[shiir00oo]

This is an alternate version of he masterclass episode where Serena sprained her wrist and where instead if Palermo,Ash notices her movement,idk just Thought it would be cute lol

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It was the semi finals of the masterclass and Serena was performing her last part of her performance.

She called out for Sylveon to use fairy wind and when it did she grabbed her Pancham's hands and took her with her floating to the top,eventually they starting floating back down,their descent much slower due to the fairy wind remaining.

As Serena and her pokemon neared the ground they prepped themselves for a handstand,her pokemon did it without a hitch,Serena however positioned her hand poorly causing her to lose balanced,spraining her wrist while doing so,the girl winced at the sudden pain erupting in her wrist as she began to slowly fall forward,however Sylveon was quick on its feet and used her long feelers to grab hold of the girl's waist and flip her over to instead slide forward in a kneeling position instead of a handstand.

The crowd went wild,Though Ash from the seats by the back was concerned of the face she made once she made that mistake,Bonnie and Clemont however hadnt noticed that small detail.

Serena was happy the crowd liked her performance,and eventually the time came where the audience would have to vote for the best performer to compete against Aria.

Small glowing specs of dots floated towards the crystal keys of the performers.

Pink,Blue and green and other colors floated towards the varying performers,each hoping to move on to the final round.

Soon the lights shut dark "And now the moment you have all been waiting for,the performer who will move up to the final round is..." silence cut in with an anticipating atmosphere covering the whole stage "PERFORMER SERENA!" Monsieurr Pierre exclaimed with a heavy french accent as a spotlight shined down on the said honey blonde who was flushed red by the news,eyes sparkling in joy while her pokemon beside her cheered in delight as she hugged them both.

Soon her friend and rival Shauna walked up to her,the brown haired girl had a look of sadness in her eyes as she looked at the ground while standing infront of the honey blonde "Shauna?.." Serena muttered feeling a tinge of guilt from taking away her best friend's dream of becoming Kalos Queen, "Will You hold on to my dream for me Serena?Atleast for now?" The girl said looking towards Serena,small drops of tears evident in her eyes with a crumbling smile "Of course i will Shauna.." Serena assured her then all of a sudden she was tackled into a hug by the said girl who was crying against her "Please win this Serena,Because your the b-best out of a-all of us" Shauna muttered as he cried more unto the honey blonde who comfortably hugged her.

"I will..I promise" she said.

It was time for a short break for the performer before facing against the current Kalos Queen,right now she was being lead by a stage monitor to a room where waiting performers lounge in as they get ready.

The girl went in and sat down at a couch where her Braixen waited at.

"Braix?.." her fox like pokemon cooed in concern as she looked at the girl's wrist.

She hesitantly pulled away her silk white glove to reveal an evident sprain on her wrist,it was beaming with red in color,she tried to make a fist out of it but instead she winced once she tried to.

Meanwhile in the bleachers where the audience sat at,there was a raven haired boy with a concerned look in his face as he looked at the honey blonde exit the stage,knowing what happened to the girl he stood up grabbing the siblings attention "Ash where are you going?" Clemont asked as he looked at the boy "Serena,i have to talk to her" He simply said and with that he was walking out of the bleachers and going backstage to visit Serena,his pikachu was accompanying him on his shoulder as he was let in behind the stage.

"Im a friend of Serena Yvonne?" Ash said hoping to be let passed behind the guards towards a hall where rooms for performers were "Reason?" The man dressed in black said in a husk tone "I have to talk to her" Ash said simply,after a second of thought the two guard let the boy pass while letting him know where the performer's room was at.

He reached a big door painted in beautiful violet and golden colors lined the door,he knocked.

From behind the door the honey blonde heard the sudden knock she immediately put her glove back on and hid her sprained hand behind her back hoping it wouldnt cause any worry for anyone "Serena?its me Ash can i come in?" The boy said his voice muffled from behind the door.

Upon hearing his voice the performer blushed lightly "Uh yes!" She exclaimed her voice reaching the door as it was swung open revealing the raven haired trainer with a pikachu perched on his shoulder "How are you doing?" Ash asked walking towards the couch where the honey blonde sat.

Confused she said "Wh-what?" A bit worried about his question "Your wrist." The boy said simply as he looked down at the hand hidden behind her "I-im fine really!" She said shaking a hand in denial,Pikachu jumped off from his shoulder to go the girl's pokemon partners.

Ash sat down beside the honey blonde earning a noticeable blush from her "I s-swear Im fine" the girl stammered as he tried to tuck in her hand in more but all her actions were in vain when Ash gently took her arm and slid his hand under the girl's wrist earning another shade of red on her face, the boy took away her glove and set it beside him as he examined the red mark beaming from her wrist.

He placed both his hands on the the girl's hand and gently squeezed her fingers to see if she could make a fist without wincing.

As he did that he earned a noticeable flinch while trying to make a fist of Serena's hand "You can barely make a fist.." he said in a hushed tone "You know pulling that move out there was really dangerous..even for you and your performance " Ash stated as he looked at the flushed girl "I pulled it off during rehearsals but, i guess i placed my hand in the wrong position" She reasoned as she looked down looking quite guilty for no reason "it happens,though you should really be more careful Serena" Ash said earning a little giggle from the girl.

"Whats so funny?" He asked "I-its just,your saying i should be careful when you were the one who jumped off prism tower on television Ash" She said, the boy blushed a bit recalling the memory "I,uh thats different..Anyway,i think i can make it hold for your last performance" Ash said quickly changing the subject as he gently rested the girl's hand on a pillow nearby and he stood up walking towards a vanity with a drawer,he opened it in hopes to find a roll of bandages,fortunately he did and he picked it up and walked back to the honey blonde.

He gently lifted up the girl's hand with his own and started lightly wrapping the bandage around her sprained area "How'd you know bandaging the sprain would work?" Serena asked curiously,a small blush still evident on her pale cheeks "trust me,when your as reckless as i am im bound to get atleast a few bruises and scratches somewhere,my mom taught me" Ash answered.

Soon after he finished wrapping her wrist with the bandage he then cut the ends off with a pair of scissors,and slid her glove back on.

"There, that should be enough to get you through the finals" He said "Thank alot Ash!" She said with a smile that managed to make his heart race "U-uh no problem..Pikachu and I should get going,wouldnt want to miss your performance"Ash said smiling back and stood back up,his pikachu running and jumping back on his shoulder as they walked towards the door,but before he could turn the knob he was stopped by the voice of the honey blonde girl a fee steps behind him "Ash I uhh..i " the girl stammered as a blush crept up to each sides of her face.

Confused and curious he turned around to look at the girl waiting for what she had to say,and the next thing she did truly did catch him bug surprise.

Serena was having the time of her life on that stage,her wrist sprained or not she was genuinely happy but Ash in the stands however was acting quite strange,perhaps a bit love sick(?).

The boy didnt seem to be focused on anything else rather than just the honey blonde dancing on stage with a goofy smile plastered on his face while a noticeable blush was painted on each side of his cheek,although that part was concealed by the dark lighting where they sat at.

Clemont was confused at his friends behavior as he started waving a hand infront of his face while Bonnie was merely giggling in her seat

-flashback-

"Ash..I uhh" The honey blonde stammered as she fiddled with her gloved fingers "I just wanted to thank you..again.." Ash arched and eyebrow in curiosity "For what?" He asked "For my wrist and, supporting me all the way" the girl said blushing a bit more of what she was about to do next, Ash beamed bright "Well no problem Serena!Ill have you know that ill be rooting for you on and on nonstop" He said rather bluntly "Oh! And before you go i just wanted to give you this" Serena said,the last part of her sentence rather quickly as she stood on her tippy toes and pecked Ash lightly on the lips, the boy was caught by surprise but nonetheless enjoyed the sudden warm sensation.

The girl stood back up and smiled,her cheeks flushed "T-thank you.." She stuttered while Ash could feel a smile creeping up to the corners  of his mouth "I,uhh your welcome S-serena.." He said with a hint of nervousness as he rubbed underneath his nose with a finger "N-no problem..." He said again and Serena giggled "I should go" He cleared his throat and replaced his cracking voice in his somewhat normal raspy tone and stiffly walked out the door with his pikachu giggling on his  shoulder "Good luck on your performance Serena!Youll do amazing!" Ash exclaimed happily as he ran down the hall as Serena waved him a small good bye with a smile on her face.

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[3000yearmonarch-archived]

anonymous submitted:i didn’t want to send this as multiple asks and risk one of them getting eaten, sooooo an anon submit it is~! Wings, something i’ve always wanted to say to you is that i love you so very much. i know i’ve said it countless times, but i can never say it enough. you are so wonderful, you brighten my day and you make my dash a happy place. it doesn’t matter which blog you’re on, or whether you’re posting ic content, ooc content, memes, or something else. seeing you on my dash, in my notifications, and my im’s makes my heart do a little ’!!’ every time. i know it sounds cheesy and silly, but it’s the truth. i love you so very much. you mean so very much to me, and the world would truly be a much darker place without you here to light it up. i know things are hard right now, but please hold on. please hold on just a little longer. i promise you it will get easier. i promise you things will get better. it might not be over night, it might not be today, or tomorrow, or the next day, but it will get better. and i know that words don’t always do much, but please. please believe me. there will come a day where you will wake up and things will be how you’ve always wished them to be. i know it’s not easy to always believe such things, especially coming from someone on the other side of a computer or phone screen. i know sometimes you might feel invisible, but i promise you that i see you. you’re one of the first people i think of when i wake up, and one of the last when i go to sleep. whether i’ve been on tumblr or not, i think of you. i’m reminded of you when i see the little birdies outside, when i see one of my neighbors walking their dogs, when i see anything pastel colored, see or smell roses, when i think about x & y, when i hear any of the music from kalos, and even when i hear songs from pete townshend, but that last one’s for a really specific reason that would take quite a bit of rambling to explain. i am being completely, truly honest when i say you have a light that no one else has. you bring something special to the metaphorical table that no one else can offer. your sense of humor, your beautiful way with words, your amazing characterization, your ability to breathe life into any and every character you write, your sweet and gentle voice [and if you don’t mind me saying, you’re absolutely gorgeous, physically and personality wise], your lovely art, and a caring mind. you have a drive to help others that i don’t often see irl anymore. that being said, i do think that sometimes you might stretch yourself a bit thin for others, and i think maybe you should practice a bit more self care, but only you know your personal limits. it’s always okay to take some ‘you time’, and just be self indulgent. please remember that. if you feel like you need some a specific reason / permission to do some self indulgent self care in order to not feel bad about it [because i definitely get like that]… just tell that thought that i said you should do it. [insert heart here, because a text one might make tumblr eat this] i admire you. i admire your strength, your determination, your way with words. i’ve seen you at high and low points, and while i don’t exactly understand empathy due to having very little naturally, i’ve never felt more.. something? i can’t really describe this feeling? toward and for anyone else. i don’t know if what i feel is truly empathy, i don’t know if i’m describing this properly. but i feel something that i can’t recall feeling this strongly for anyone else. when you speak about things [good or bad], i feel something, and it’s overwhelming, but in a good way. i hope this all comes out correctly, i’ve gone over it a few times now, and re-wrote it once, just to be sure i got the words right.i’m sure you might know by now who this might be. i love you. i love you so very much. thank you for being my friend, thank you for being here, thank you for everything. i wish you only the best, and i’ll be here with you as 2020 approaches, and once we cross that barrier into the new year. let’s make this the best it can be, yeah? i never promised to be good at the words thing, but i did my best. imagine that there’s a giant heart right here, all for you~!

💙

[1358456]

Review Response, Destiny #041

... Huh. ... Just ONE day after updating... 10. ... For the first time since May 2016...

Well then, I guess it’s time to make a review response. Even though the system has changed... 10. I’ll just cover whatever’s left on the 24th.

... Let’s see if this chapter also does what hasn’t been done since May 2016, which is NOT drag the average down (current story average: 12.34).

1) That end to the chapter though was not what I was expecting but it was very interesting, that deltarune hint thought

I will admit, this confused me greatly. I was like “WHAT Deltarune hint?!” So I read over the entire chapter like 3 times, scanning to see if my sleep-deprived, delirious self put in Deltarune references without me knowing. I put in quite a few game quotes this chapter, but not Deltarune. And upon not spotting any, I looked through all the Deltarune posts that I made, because I wondered if I forgot the events of that game so I couldn’t recognize the references.

And THEN I saw...

... Ah. THAT hint. ... Yeah. Hehehe... I decided to have Crystal shredded by the 10% Zygarde formes like... a year ago? And I just had to play Deltarune before that chapter occurred. Heh. I was also expecting people to ask about that but I guess either no one cared or thought I was joking.

2) WoW this was really cool So Crystal died and did gold die too? Thats an... interesting way to break up A pairing you didn’t care for anymore. Looking forward to the next one

Eh, I didn’t kill Gold and Crystal to break up a pairing I didn’t care for anymore. I had Crystal killed because she has never died in any of my stories yet... as far as I know. Thus Crystal was killed. The brutality of it... ehn. Why not. I was originally going to have her actually torn apart but... that felt like a little much. For now.

And as for Gold, it seemed like the logical result, upon seeing Crystal getting pretty much eviscerated like that. Given his personality, upon seeing someone he really cared about getting killed like that, chances are, he would snap and charge towards the enemy. But hey, because of that, Emerald doesn’t die. Gold saved his life, in a sense, by beating him to the reckless charge that killed himself.

3) R.I.P. Johto. I mean people could just evacuate Kalos and have Groudon Hiroshima the place. Or even without the evacuating part. But I guess that wouldn't be interesting. Also, couldn't Latias/Latios just fly to Dex Holders to warn them, like without Ruby and Sapphire? Eh I guess there's some ulterior motives going on here. A pleasure to read as usual, keep up the good work.

Hehe. Evacuate Kalos and then have all three Primals obliterate the whole region. “Zygarde cells are hiding all around this region? Let it burn.” Primal Groudon glasses a third of the region, Primal Kyogre floods another third, and Primal Rayquaza bombards the remaining third with raining meteors.

Yes, Latias or Latios could’ve flown over to Emerald and warn him while the other looks over Ruby and Sapphire. But they wouldn’t have really had the reason to do that. Like, they wouldn’t know whether the Dex Holders were struggling or not against Zygarde. And given their (offscreen) conversation with Emerald, they would’ve heard the plan of action and figured the Dex Holders would’ve been fine.

4) C'THUN! C'THUUUN! C'THUUUUUUUUUUN!

Heh. That minion only ever says ONE thing. ... And then it dies. I miss C’thun decks. Even if I have to draw 25 cards first on average to draw that f*cking thing. Part of the reason why I put in so many C’thun quotes into Zygarde. Flee... screaming.

5) 1st: YAY AN UPDATE! 2nd: DAMN IT DID YOU REALLY HAVE TO KILL GOLD?! HE WAS ONE OF MY FAVORITES (ASIDES FROM GREEN WHO IS ALREADY DEAD!)

Yep! Update! For the first time since July! ... And... heh. I’ve heard THAT before back in SA when I killed Gold there.

6) You had to kill them...

Crystal, yes. Gold, ... cause and effect. I’m kind of trying to kill the Dex Holders who have yet to die in my stories, who are NOT protected by plot-immortality.

7) Oof rip all the Johto dexholders, I have a feeling I know what the solution Latios and Latias were talking about is and now that's zygarde is 100% is there really any chance for a happy ending?

Happy ending? Sure. ... For some of the Dex Holders, anyways. Heh. This is like a branching path. Like those games that have multiple endings depending on what you did. The good ending: everyone lives from this point on. The neutral ending: ... probably what’s going to happen. The bad ending: ... f*cking everyone dies.

8) Lots of action this chapter! I loved it, bit i was still sad. Dang that super zygarde is bad news, and what happened to the mega hunter? The cliffhanger is going to kill me!

The johto trio is now completely wiped out . I get the feeling that ruby and sapphire are going to die because of what was said between latios and latios.

No mention of soneone from the sinnoh trio dying but i doubt you’ll let them remain untouched. Finally im almost certain that either black or white (or both) will die since thats your favorite duo to torture.

While I said that I probably wouldn’t update Destiny again this year... given, well... 10, I probably will. IF the average gets raised by this chapter... then I might even update before December. So you won’t have to wait too long! ... Maybe!

The fates of Ruby and Sapphire have been set long before Destiny itself has existed. In fact, their fates were an idea that had been lingering since the days of SA.

Ah, do I want to kill the Sinnoh Dex Holders? Or Black and White again? In Destiny, there are 3 types of Dex Holders: those who are guaranteed to survive due to plot, those who are guaranteed to die due to plot, or neither. Obviously, the first two are set, but those that fall in the third category, like Gold, I can just... toss away in the final battle. Now, where do the Sinnoh and Unova cast fit in? ... That is the question, isn’t it?

9) Oh there's the Complete Zygarde! I was wondering when it would show up and RIP Gold and Crys. Though I guess it wouldn't be surprising if it ended in a way where Red and Blue were the only survivors (and maybe Dia and Platinum). Loved it as always and can't wait to see the next chapter and what the Mega Hunter will do now that he's slowly breaking free~!

The 100% Zygarde that had been planned since the game’s reveal WAY back has finally appeared! Hell, it’s about time. Heh. Spare only Red and Blue? What is this, that show that I used to watch back in Korea when I was like 6? Everyone died in the finale except for the first three characters. ... But I already killed one of the first three, didn’t I? ... Whoops.

10) Gah, my heart. My poor babies TT

Poor Crystal. Just like Sapphire in our collaboration chapter, she was jumped by a pack of wolf-like things. But Sapphire had the plot-immortality and brute strength to survive. Crystal... did not. Thus Crystal gets her neck broken, arms and one leg broken and almost torn off, and even got her heart physically shredded... ouch.

[musubiki]

Hc about conflictedshipping visiting another region? Sinnoh maybe???? Love your work ❤️!!!

hoOOOOOOO BOI LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THEIR TRIP TO KALOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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im making it MANDATORY THAT THEY TOOK A SEMESTER ABROAD IN KALOS DURING THEIR TRAINERS SCHOOL TIME

(also this is where that one line of diaglouge in xy comes from. that one chick who tells you that green was there studying and only ever said smell ya later)

i was thinkin about giving them pokemon for this trip but. i think its better if their first pokemon come from prof oak later.

(gd i wish pom and vee were here for this that wouldve been amazing)

when they first got there leaf was worried that he was irritated he had to spend the whole semester with her there. he kinda scoffed and smirked at her and said something like “Are you kidding? I’d be angrier if you DIDN’T get the scholarship.” cuz they’re rivals. and he expects no less from her. he tells her something like its bad for his image if his rival isnt as good as him. he’s actually kinda happy that she’s there with him and he’s not gonna be all alone. 

this actually makes leaf really happy and kind of. sets the mood for the whole trip there

so they end up staying with this older couple who live in the heart of lumiose city and usually house the students every year. ofc they’re thrilled tho have leaf and green there. the wife owns a bakery/cafe and the husband works at the docks down in coumarine city. as a condition of them staying there, leaf helps with the bakery and green helps at the docks

when they first go there. they find out that. the kalos school doesnt require uniforms and theyre both kind of “???? so you just wear whatever??” greens perf fine with this but leafs kind worried bc she didnt bring THAT much clothes, so the couple takes both her and green shopping for kalos-style clothes. this is where leaf gets this outfit from and she LOVES IT shes adorable i love her so much

when green first sees her in it hes a little surprised because WOW what. “shes actually. kind of ok looking.” hes blushing shut up you idiot 

so they get to their new school and everyone intrigued by them oooo new transfer students whaaaat??? green right off the bat is all confident and doing his usual thing. winks at like 3 girls and they’re all fawning over him first thing.

but the school is very welcoming to them!! they get a lot of transfer student from all over the place so they have a lot of different people from different places!!

they actually have a pretty good time. a lot of the kids from school drop by the bakery just to. see leaf. same with the girls for green and business is good. amen. the couple is actually shook because they have so many profits

on weekends they get to go see kalos!!! its pretty.,. nice actually like esp traveling to like cyllage and laverre and anistar(leaf loves anistar city) 

and green is actually really enjoying theyre time there. it kind of feels like.,. dates.,. kind of.,. and he never voices it and STILL ACTS LIKE A JERK BUt.,. spending time with her here in kalos is actually kinda cool,,. we should do this more often, he thinks

they go to all the little cafes and explore that big mansion with the gardens, they actually get to go rollar skating around a couple times and ride gogoats like they live kalos life to the fullest

sometimes when they study at night he goes to her room and just chills with her on her bed (she has a huge bed and it’s really comfortable compared to his). they take turns reading the material out loud and leaf. really likes it when he reads she just lays there and stares at him and he. has a great voice shes dying a little here guys //

leaf always felt a little bit homesick. once when they were chilling in her bed she asked green if he missed home. he kinda sat there for a bit before answering with a “no, not really. it’s actually kind of nice to get away from everyone. there no real pressure to be anyone or do anything.” 

she wasnt exaclty sure what he meant but lowkey. he was actually talking. about her and him. because in kanto they’ve been rivals for so long it’d be weird to hang out with her and go see places like they do there. but no one in kalos really know them so hes just.,. ehuhhhhhh i dont wanna go home

okay ANOTHER THING THAT HAPPENED IN KALOS WAS THIS: at some point, one of the students at their school fell desperately in love with leaf and she. didn’t even like him at all. like he was just some persistent rich creep so yes. im doing this. no one can stop me. to get him to give up she asked green to pretend to be her boyfriend for like. a day or two just so he’d leave her alone. 

OFC GREENS LIKE SMIRKING THE WHOLE TIME SHES ASKING HIM THIS AND SHES BLUSHING AND EMBARRASSED BUT SHES TRIED EVERYTHING ELSE. 

greens actually a little irritated by this and is kinda ehh at first because. he doesnt wanna fool around and then actually catch feelings by accident (he doesn’t want to temp god like this hes already enjoying their time together) 

but shes. desperate and so after a few more pleads he.,. agrees and she kind of feels bad. so she apologizes for dragging him into this and then. she asks him “Can…can you handle it?” she didn’t mean it as an insult or anything she MEANT ARE YOU COMFORTABLE ENOUGH TO DO IT

but what HE HEARD was a CHALLENGE so he just. stops. and turns to her. and he grabs her by her waist and pulls her REAL close to him and leans in and just “Can you?” with the widest smirk and like. the sexiest voice. and she just becomes this blushing terrible mess and shes stammering over all her words and he just fokijnff laughs because god. this is gonna be fun. 

fhjkf this is horrible okay so. the next day at school ofc hes true to his word so here we go. they pretend like theyre going out. and its the biggest scoop of the whole place. girls are crying, teachers are shocked. in the distance, sirens.

green is a pro at this bc he teases her enough as is, now he just needs to take it a little further and he’s actually enjoying the reactions he’s getting from her. like he can fuckin gently grab her hand and she turns into a mess like why did i ask him to do this i am an idiot

when they get home that night green is just laughing his ass off because she., is terrible at this and he cant believe it. she makes up some excuse and after some banter and making fun of her, green tells her that if she really wants this to look convincing, she gotta get better control over it. hes smirking the whole time. so she gets even more flustered and asks if he has any great ideas, to which he replies yes.

lets practice, he says. and she if confused and honestly a little scared. she asks how and he actually. sighs and sits down in front of her and for once, is actually smiling instead of smirking. so he adds a “Don’t freak out.” before,. gently taking her hands in his. 

shes trembling and takes a deep breath before lacing her fingers with his and this. actually turns into a nice kind of moment. the whole time hes watching her eyes. and he can see shes still nervous so he tells her. “How about we pretend like… we’re actually together for a while.” 

and shes blushing like hell because oh my god shes liked him for so long and this is so nice with him but it actually hurts a little that its not real

so he,. slips his hands around her waist and pulls close and presses her against him and slowly nuzzles his nose in her hair 

and hes. actually kind of enjoying this. 

and this feeling boils in the pit of his stomach as his lungs fill with the scent of her hair and it sends shivers over his skin and he feels his hands tracing over the small of her back and the warmth of her body on his and through the foggy blurry haziness in his head the only thought that comes out is ‘Oh no.’

and then BAM one of their caretakers slams the door open with a “Hey kids, dinner is ready!” and green IMMEDATLY grabs her arms and pushes her away and his face his red. She responds with a shocked quiet “Oh, I hope I wasn’t inturrupting-” 

and they BOTH CUT HER OFF STAMMERING AND STUTTERING WITH “No it wasn’t what it looks like-!” “We were just- uh- practicing-!” “FOR THE SCHOOL DRAMA COMING UP-” “YEAH-” and shes just. giggling and a little surprised with an “Oh! Could’ve fooled me!” before she leaves. 

and green and leaf are just standing there in awkward silence and leaf is rubbing her arm while green is rubbing the back of his neck and she leaves with a brisk “I-I think we should go get dinner-” before they both go downstairs

the next day it turns out that rich creep was too heartbroken from seeing her with green the day before that he transfered schools entirely, so oh, I guess we don’t need to keep up the act anymore, and green answers with a yeah, cool, and ignores the small feelings of disapointment and covers it up by going back to his usual snarky self 

he forces himself not to think about this for a long time because he doesnt wanna get caught up in the feels. Leaf, however, thinks about it all the time because it was really nice, but green doesnt bring it up and they were just pretending anyway hes just used to being a flirt it wasnt a big deal for him

(it was)

that was the first time theyd ever been that close and also. the last time until saffron

they have a lot of adventures here that i cant. fit it all here but they had a really good time

[snoozelocke]

oh man..... your comic is so cool bro. i love the vibe I'm getting from it. Pretty angsty with a bit of a hopeful undertone. I'd love to see more worldbuilding stuff from you because man... i wanna imagine myself into your gijinka world. Your art is floofy and makes me happy to look at and boy do I want to see more of it. Also the new design for Roman is so beautifuuuuullllllllll and his new, longer tail is so swish swish ya feel? And the longer hair suits his face really well

aw shit thanks my dude!!! and no worries, i’ve been meaning to make little worldbuilding extras about like kalos history and magic and gijinka stuff i just need to find time to do it inbetween making the actual comic lmao but i’m hoping to start those pretty soon! and i’m always chill to take worldbuilding questions here on tumblr if anybody ever get curious :y

also thank u again omg ;;; im honestly sooo happy to finally get to draw braixen!roman bc i was really getting tired of his fennekin look t b h

[jadephoenix]

(another) Ibu Dian Post

making a new friend is easy, maintaining always becomes a hard part

Bagian yang sangat saya syukuri ialah, saya mengenal ibu Dian bukan hanya sebagai praktisi atau pembimbing semata, namun juga sebagai teman, wanita karier, dosen pemula. Maksud saya, saya mengenal ibu Dian as a person, sebagai Ibu dian, bukan hanya seorang dosen atau pembimbing yang semata-mata mengenal karena tugas beliau saja untuk mengajar atau membimbing. sometimes I saw her sadness, her happiness, her maximize effort to balancing between a mentor and a housewife, and I am grateful that I can learn much from her.

It’s okay to express your feelings freely, even “some lil bit childish” expression. Before I met Ibu Dian, somehow I’m a kind of person that hide expression, even denying. Mungkin ketika ada orang bertanya “kamu sedang marah ya?” saya dengan juteknya menjawab “enggak kok!” dengan tampang juteknya dan intonasi yang ngga ngenakin. Namun setelah mengenal Ibu Dian saya belajar untuk memperbaiki cara saya untuk mengekspresikan emosi. Sekarang ketika ada orang yang menanyakan “kamu marah ya?” biasanya saya jawab “menurut kamu gimana ketika blablablabla (saya mendiktekan penyebab saya marah) kamu bakal kesel ngga? kalo saya sih iya”. Menurut saya lebih baik dibandingkan hiding that’s feeling and praying that person who made me angry know I was angry plus the reason (eh hello mereka bukan dukun kali). 

Begitupun ketika ditanya “kau suka sama blablabla ya?” ah I think you know that kind of question that will make you blushing all the time. Dulu saya dengan tegasnya billing “apaan sih lo? engga la yaa” padahal bayangin yang nanya itu temen se kost saya yang hampir 24 jam tau aktifitas sehari2 kamu, plus tau aktifitas sosmed kamu. It’s nearly immposible kalo dia ngga tau lah. Tapi jika saat ini saya ditanya pertanyaan yang sama, saya bilang “mungkin karena blablablabla kali yaa jadi keliatan gue minat sama dia, but lets see next”. At least I’m honest dan ngga ngeboong sama teman saya dan diri sendiri tentang apa yang saya rasakan. Seriously, lying and hiding your feeling its a bad habit, because you ignoring the sign that your mind has sent and affect to you, either your body. and it needs double effort to ignore your feeling rather than accept it and seek the catharsis to pour it up. 

Another thing that I’ve learned from Ibu Dian is, be humble and control yourself. It’s okay to approach people first, giving her smile, asking simple question, even you didn’t know that person week, or pleased with that person. There is a big different with your professional relationship and your hablum minannaas relationship. Maybe you’re getting anger because of that person words or behaviour towards you, but It’s a big different when it comes to personal relationship. About bad mouth or bad behaviour, its her responsibility. That’s why it shouldn't affect your behaviour towards her. Emotion was somehow shaky, so don't let her brief emotion affect your feeling and your behaviour. It takes time tho! and Im still exercising too, but I think It gets better day by day hehe. 

One moment that I clearly remember from her was in November. at one sunny day after finished and signed my final paper, we had a quite deep conversation about her story marrying her husband and her problem towards faculty. At end of her story about marriage I’ve learned that your family, your background, your abilities and achievement, even your alma mater shouldn’t affect your decision towards your preference of man whom you will married with (it seems so rubbish, but it really happened in our society). It’s all your accomplishment, and by seeing ibu Dian I believe that it’s okay if you hold higher and more prestigious degree than your husband, seems more educated and sophisticated, as long as your partner didn’t feel it as burden, and you can get along well with your partner. and she says “Yun, Nikah itu bukan kyk kamu masuk kuliah, ada waktu pendaftaranya. If you feel that you’re ready, go for it” dan saya ketawa dan mengaminkan doa baik beliau. 

Then something happened when she told her feeling towards faculty. I cant tell specifically about that. but at the end she says “kamu cepetan deh ambil magister, buka praktek, nanti saya yang jadi pasien kamu privately” gosh, that sentence takes a special place in my heart. It just like “okay, I think I really have a good skill as a psychologist. I’ll go for it” (haha). but really, become a psychologist, meet a different person, hear their story, and discussing about the solution is just like my future checklist. If I were a nature-science pupils, I would love to choose medicine as my priority. Since I was a social-science student, I’d choose to taking care of other’s feeling rather that other’s body. 

I think students who ever met ibu Dian love her, as the way I love her much. Mungkin Ibu Dian ini ngga beda jauh dengan Ibuk Retno mamanya Kirana yang jadi trending topics di instagram (really they shared some similarities!). This Idea of sharing about Ibu Dian comes when I met fellow 2011 Psychology classmate at coffee shop. She told me that it was such a big loss for faculty, to let her go. I was lil’bit shocked and pondering. Somehow it was loss, even in 2017 with a Skype, or FaceTime, It cannot change that feeling. That meeting feeling in her room (I hate stairs, but I climb over that stairs to 4th floor every week to meet her), her excitement about her student sight, her expression of emotion, her inspiring stories. And I would say never ending thank you for her, for unconsciously change me to be a better person. May Allah gives me chance to meet her again, in a better place and in better time, Allahuma amin. 

Below attached is a video from fellow psychology students that (really) feel grateful to meet her.

[weasterned]

Kim Yongsun.

1. Solar Unnie is so— sighs. Tumblr-ish outside but dagelan-ish inside. Would never get over that moodboard dare ;  _____  ; she looks like someone who always smile in order to not making everyone worried about her. And she did good at promoting Mamamoo ! 2. Nearly nothing ! She did very well on promoting Mamamoo and look just like the real Solar ♡ 3. Hewwo hewwo Unnie ! Christmas is neaar ! Uh I hope Mamamoo will release a christmas single ㅋㅋㅋ I wanted to get closer with Mamamoo rp-ers and that’s my bad, I’ll try to talk with you more ! ;  ___  ; I hope you will be having a gooood year on 2018 ! ♡

1-5 coin 8) 2. kurang-kurangin recehnya sekali-kali jadi dollar kek biar ada yang nyangkut 8) 3. unnie sering bikin aku ngakak diam-diam, thanks unnie, btw nggak usah dikurangin recehnya, aku bikin gitu supaya bisa ngisi no. 2 aja 8[

1. Sankpah, Sunkpiece, Meme collector saingand queㅡ kind, curhatinable, best adviser. 2. Noona, aku tuh suka khilaf kalo liat noona. Otak mendadak inget Renjun dan cerita tentang Goblin. Apakah Renjun dan Goblin jodoh? (Tidak). Sumpah ya males nulis pake english. Kita pake bahasa saja nde? Apa yang harus noona improve? Hm, apa ya? Mungkin kita harus memisahkan diri dengan cara mimikri karena semakin dekat kita semakin dekat pula jarak antara bulan dan laut hindia. Gug deh wanjy, , , , :D noona udah ngupil belum hari ini? Kalo belum, yuk challenge ngupil bersama? 3. Dear my Yongsun noona. The only Yongsun noona that exist on my timeline. I’m happy to meet you here. Mahunya ya ketemu sama Monbyul noona yang pecinta berondong jagung kaya aku, tapi ya ketemu noona juga gapapa. Hmm…. noona punya harapan untuk kita di 2018? Apakah noona berharap kita jodoh? Atau noona masih ingin mengharapkan yang lain lain? Noona, thank you so much for listen to my story. You’re such a good adviser. Nih orang2 yang butuh saran coba datang aja sama kimyongxun, sarannya jitu lebih dari dukun dan ki Kusumo. Noona, I love you.

1) Mature, so lady-like?, kind, fun and pretty! 2) Maybe she should talk to me more? 3) Yongsun unnie, hello! Wishing you a happy time with your family on holidays and happy new year. Have a great 2018! ❤ 4) Plus : I like just the way she is~ Minus : I can’t think of any. RT or Tweet more about MAMAMOO I’d like to see them!

#1 - Funny - So bright - Talk a lot - Really friendly - Kind #2 Keep being funny and loud eonni and bright up WST family’s mood! #3 Hi Solar eonni! I hope you’re doing well this past year. It’s really nice to meet you here. You’re so kind and so bright! I like it. But it seems like you’re starting to get busier. I hope we can talk again and being loud together💓

gloomy girl, good rper, savage, kind, friendly

1. Kind, warm, noona-vibes!, attractive, girlcrush! 2. Talk with me more often! I’d love to get more and more closer and closer to you! 3. Hello! I dont know Mamamoo that much, would you mind to introduce me to them? :( Anyway I often see your pictures and oh my- youre so adorableeeee! Let me be your cutie dongsaeng, unnie. Anyway, enjoy your xmas and new year!

1. funny, nice, goofy, laughs a lot, receh 2. i dont know about this, but i found that you always receh for my jokes im so thankful of that : D 3. Dear solar eonnie, we didnt talk that much but i found that youre easy going and receh as well so i think we could get a long more more more well later! !

1. Moonbyul’s girlfriend. Absurrrrddd. Crazyyyy. Weirrddd. Prettyyy. 2. Please be a normal girl eonni. 3. My messege for this end of 2017 is…. give Moonbyul oppa for me !1. Cute, kind, swag, on hiatus, know her chara well /lyke wgl? /slapped. 2. Havent talk much, no comment about it but you’re good! 3. Annyeong Yongsun! How was your 2017 so far? I hope lots of good things happen on 2017 and more to happen on 2018. We are rarely talk but we will, anyway. Lets talk after you done with your hiatus. Stay warm and stay health on winter, okay?

he’s good looking ofc because every man are good looking haha, interesting. let’s have a talk with me bruh

Yongsun nuna.. she’s nice and i’m your fans nuna!

1. Mommy vibe lol, kind, weirdo, nice yet pretty 2. pejuang WGL 2k17 ya noona haha, semoga cepet dapet jodohnya, kidding. just stay the way you are, okay! 3. let’s make another convo in the future, noona!

1. kind, pretty, friendly, sometimes hyper, sometimes random 2. i can’t really think about the improvement you should do since you did well, sorry sunbaenim hehe 3. hello sunbaenim!! you’re the first mamamoo and solar rper that i have, it’s amazing to see you around, and you’re portraying your chara well! i’m very happy to be able to meet you and i really want to be close with you. Please always be who you are right now! I hope you will have a nice day and keep healthy till 2017 comes to an end!I haven’t talked much with you

1. i rarely talk to her, so maybe i just can say she is a nice person 2. please talk more with me in the future! 3. hello, solar noona. idk what to say, seems we rarely talk nowadays- and i rarely see you too? i hope everything okay with you. lets have a good convo again!

1. Funny, funny, funny, funny, funny. 2. I hope she’ll be more active. 3. Hello, Solar-ie! Please enjoy the rest of 2017 happily.

1. kind and friendly i dont know why but mamamoo rper always give that gay feeling 2.lets get more closer 3. Marry christmas and happy new year, ah lets get more closer next year so we can have fun year together.

1. Intimidating, cool, elegant, nice, fun. 2. I forget if i ever had a conversation with you i hope i can talk to you and know you more 3. dear yongsun nuna, you look nice and friendly. I see you sometimes on my tl but i dont why its hard for us to talk. Maybe because of that i think youre a bit intimidating hahaha mianShe is nice, friendly, talk a lot, pretty, but sometimes a bit weird. Not that weird in a bad meaning but….sometimes she tweeted random things…ㅋㅋㅋㅋ but she is nice! And sometimes funny too. I talked a couple times with her and I enjoyed that. To Solar unnie, Hello unnie! It’s a bit early but happy new year! Hope next year will only be filled with good things. Let’s talk more next year too!

1. Coins, kind, fun, joha. 2. Nothing need to change from my MatSolar unnie! 3. hello, Solar unnie since 2017 almost over which mean new year will bring a new hope also. Please stay healthy because the weather is not so good lately, keep warm. Xx Loves♡

1. doremifaSOLA~ 2. Let’s talk more with me ㅎㅎㅎ 3. Happy New Year , solar ♡1. Kind, mommy able, unnie able, miss able, lovely 2. I! Miss! You! 3. I hope you will always be happy, lately I’ve been seeing you down and I don’t like the view of it. I hope 2018 will be your year later unnie, don’t lose hope and fighting!

1. Unnie is so polite, kind, has a really good personality, but she is not really online that often and we didnt have much time to talk more hehehhee 2. Online more unnie! And lets make a good convo with me 3. I hope next year we would hear the news about Mamamoo’s comeback. Maybe…. You will have a solo debut hahah but nah its just my wish since i support mamamoo a lot especially you 😂

1. - kind! - a bit byuntae - ambiguous - sexyyyy! - retjeh 2. i rarely see you know unnie, where are you? are you taking a hiatus? i miss seeing you on my timeline. please comeback soon, i hope we can talk more in the future! 3. [💌]  just wanna say, thank you for staying in WST. i’m happy that i have such a kind and caring members here. it might be pretty hard when you feel left out in agency, but i didn’t feel like this here. thank you ♡ thank you for being kind to me, let’s make another memorable memories in the future!

1) nice, kind, mature, funny, koin saram?? 2) no need to, i guess 3) let’s talk more in the future and get along well! + i hope 2018 will be much much better year for you!

✨Penyulingan chingu,  crazy,  funny,  so kind,  really 꿀 쨈. Penyulingan chingu.  Let’s not take our own oath just bcs of anime,  let’s get crazy together lol. aku belom pernah mentionan hehehe, dan jarang nongol juga (atau aku yg jarang nongol?😂) semoga ke depannya kita bisa lebih deket lagi. Messagenya: Semoga apa yang terjadi di tahun 2017 bisa menjadi pembelajaran buat diri kita masing2 dan kedepannya kita bisa selalu mengucap syukur dan selalu dilingkupi rasa bahagia♡ Mak Solaaaar ! hihihi 🙈 makasih loh moodboard ber-partai nya/? my mak is a calm and cool but zonkiee girl ! CAN YOU DO THIS ? ? ? Eonni ayo kita chatan yang puanjang kali lebuar/?

1. We. Never. Interact. To. Each. Other. I’m. Really. Sorry. 2. I STALKING YOUR PROFILE FOR A WHILE. I’M REALLY SORRY. Are you on hiatus period? I’m looking forward for our interactions in the future! 3. Happy new year! Santa claus is coming to town~ *chuckles* You should take a good care of yourself, keep smiling widely, and be happy as always.

1. pretty af, my bias! Lol, kinda talkative, (skip), (skip) ; 2. Can you reply my mention? ; 3. Solar noona, we rarely talk. Let’s talk more!

1. VERY VERY KINDLY! Noisy, crazy, fantastic, care to everyone, friendly. 2. Nothing! Eonni is an example IC rp of solar. and I think she do well all the time. Well, even though sometimes she want to talk as a writer of solar’s rp but its fine. she’s really kind and always appear in my timeline whenever I open my twitter hahaha. Just be yourself eonni and dont change your chara please! You’re the only one solar on my timeline ;;;;; 3. 2017 is coming to end and I hope eonni stay healty and success for whatever you do. Also I’m really anticipate your upcoming smstation with SJ sunbaenim! Let’s be good friends as we can do eonni. I know you are a nice person and definitely wont hurt others. SARANGHAEYOOO!

-1. MIA and not really active on timeline or dm, tho… so I don’t really know what to say. 2. Talk to me more, unnie! 3. I like Yongsun unnie so I wish we could talk more in the future! God bless you.

1. Jarang muncul(?) 2. A kind person I don’t really know how to say much about this noona since we don’t really talk a lot and she rarely appears nowadays…but I wanna get closer heheh It’s the New Year’s soon and we’re gonna pass the 2018 together I hope. With this sentence I hope we can be more closer in the future!

[conniefelicia]

Him.

Hello, it’s been a while. I hope whoever read this have a great day.

There are a lot of events that have been going on since the last time. And this is one of them. I will remember him for the rest of my life.

This story isn’t a fairytale. It’s imperfect and tragic.

It all begins, a year ago. May 27th, 2016. We met on the bar. I was with my ex-boyfriend and his friends, we introduced ourselves as we drank. I didn’t have any attention at all that time when I saw him. But all I know is that he is super tall and funny. We drank all night then I got a bit tipsy so we just dance and dance. My ex wasn’t really happy about it. He was pissed the whole time. We started to follow each other on social media since that night.

But life goes on, we never contact each other again.

One day, he unfollowed me on Instagram. And it’s strange. But I was like, okay, whatever. Maybe he forgot about me.

And so life continues…my ex surprise me on my 20th birthday on July, then after that day we never keep in touch anymore. Because I wanted to get rid of his negativity out of my life and that I’ve found someone else who can love me better than him.

Short story, I dated another new Guy for around three months but we never actually fit to each other, we did not fight as much, because I chose not to speak up when something is wrong. When I’m in the middle of this shitty relationship, he messaged me on Path. Yes, him.

He explained everything. And now it becomes clear to me that he has a long-term girlfriend. Around two years or so and still together, even back then when I met him for the first time. They’re on a long distance relationship. Hell. That even explains more. The reason why he unfollowed me on Instagram and other social media is not according to his own will. But his girlfriend’s. She blocked every potential girl she could find interesting for him. Overly possessive much kinda girlfriend, huh?  But I get it. She’s just too afraid of losing him maybe, I thought. But she’s doing it in a wrong way.

After since that day, we talk and talk every single day for weeks. He calls me every night and he never fails to put a smile on my face. It was such a relief from stress that I encountered from my relationship at that time. Don’t get me wrong, yes, I do feel guilty, he has a girlfriend and I have a boyfriend. We shouldn’t be talking to each other so often. Cheating is cheating. But he makes me happy, and that is something valuable for me. He, on the other hand, often fighting with his girlfriend, they argue a lot. And maybe that’s why we feel so comfortable to each other and creating strong bond. One time he broke up with his girl, she said that she doesn’t want him anymore and stuff. I was in tears to know that. I don’t know why, but I do care so so much for him. I don’t want him to be depressed. It’s just too hard to know. So I was there for days.

It didn’t last long.

Just around 2-3 weeks of everyday talking and calling/video chatting, in the middle of deep conversation, he disappeared. Just like that.

On that same day, I finally have the courage to broke up with my boyfriend through pretty long talk. I cried.

I tried my best to call him. But he didn’t pick up my phone.

From that moment, I knew something is terribly wrong. The next day I tried to text him again but still, no sign. My brain just couldn’t stop thinking about him. Where is he? Is he okay? Is he and his girl got back together again? He’s not sick right? Omg please be fine.

I wait. And wait. Every night I cry and calling out his name. Why he do this to me?

But few days later, I found on his path that he is with his girlfriend. So, at least now I know. The reason why he just vanished. What an asshole. But it’s okay, I thought to myself, as long as he is happy then I am too. I won’t bother their relationship no more. Along the way, I stumbled, and fall. I went looking for someone to numb my pain. Losing a boyfriend and a best friend at the same time is indeed a pain in the ass. I met strangers on the club, get high, and ruining myself, I was stressed out. I was lost. But the pain never go away, this type of release is temporary. And the after effect sucks. I get more and more pain and loneliness.

But I have to gain my strength again and get the fuck up. My life won’t stop here. Not just yet.

Months and months pass by, ups and downs. I’m trying my best to survive. And I think I did. I’m stronger than before. I live my life. I am happy without a boyfriend. I made promise to myself, 2017 is the year of no serious relationship. It’s been a frustrating life of always being haunted by insecurities and mentally abused in a relationship. I've had enough. I need to be alone at least for now, to improve myself. I have plans for my future, but I live in the moment. I cherish every single details of it. I have only one life, average human lifespan is only at 79 years anyway.

So everything is fine, right?

Not really. He contacted me again, after couple months later. I wasn’t sure how to react, I do miss him, but upset too. He can’t just leave me like that without explanation and had me wondering, worrying for nights. But his explanation is valid as ever, turns out, his girl went to see him suddenly and staying at his house. So he couldn’t reach me and he feels really really sorry about it. He admits how sorry he was, and somehow he told me that not a day goes by without him thinking of me. And that makes me feel something.

We’re starting to talk again anyway, and it gets more intense. We get super close, and even develop feelings towards each other. I don’t know how. We all know, this is a love affair. I realized that, and I just want to die. He has a girlfriend, and I’m just his side chick. I know, it sounds so naïve of me. I just know that we won’t work. But we just go with it. At least what I feel is real, and I’ve never been so in love with someone far away without even seeing each other in person since the first meeting. He isn’t that cute, but he is funny and somewhat attractive to me now. I love seeing his face and his voice. For the first time, I never want anyone else this big but him. I just want him. I want to hug him to kiss him to feel him in my arms and never let him go away. I want to live with him. I don’t know how much he feels for me but all I know is that he loves me too. He doesn’t want me to see other boys, go to club, do bad things. He cares about me and he explains well why he forbids me to do so.

However, I know that he will eventually marry that girl, not me.

I obey most of his rules but then this brain starts to saying things like, who are you anyway? Who is he anyway? He has a girl. Is it unfair that he can have both girls at the same time? what a jerk! Fuck it. Just live your life the way that you want. So I went to club once without his acknowledge.

Back to the story, we still call every day and he told me that he wanted to come here, in Jakarta just to meet me again. He promised that he would be here in the middle of February 2017.

But he never did.

You see, all those great times we’ve been together online, we laugh, we share. But he’s the type of guy who will not tell any internal/personal shits to other people, even his closest friends. He told me that you can never trust anyone because you don’t know how long your relation with them will stay, once you crash, you’re done. Secret exposed. And I totally respect his decision. I never ask about his personal life with his girl. Since I already know that he won’t tell anyway. But it is sad. I can’t help him, I can’t do anything when he is fighting with his girl. I feel like a useless piece of crap. 

This affair can’t be known. I’m hiding a secret and it’s not nice at all. It’s like carrying a dead body in your bag then you go to school with it. Alright, maybe I exaggerated. But you get the point.

Now back to the reason why he didn’t make it to Jakarta. This part is pretty fucked up. Trust me. Just when you thought this whole love affair is bad enough, think again.

Monday, February 13th 2017, he asked me how I feel for him. So I explained in long paragraph. See down below as I copy the chat I sent to him.

“Km org yg bkin ak baper disaat aku orgny jarang cpt baper, awalny ak cm sekedar interest but ga ad  pemikiran apapun buat penasaran sm km pgn dketin ato apa, aku pikir awalnya oh ya udah, cm stranger yg ketemu sekali di bar, mau harap apa? Dia jg pst lupa sama aku anyway. But time goes by, lost contact. Then km tb2 hubungin aku disaat aku lg stress dan di dalam suatu hubungan yang berantakan, and for that moment, i feel happy. Ak merasa lega oh ternyata kamu itu orgnya kayak gini, he has character, he is funny, oh, dia care bgt. And somehow idk why dari situ mulai develop feelings. Tp blm banyak. Then u left me, aku nangis waktu tidur, tapi habis itu aku sadar, kamu punya kehidupan kamu sendiri. Km udh punya pacar yg serius, aku gak bs apa2 dan bukan siapa2 kamu. Aku gak duga kalo km blg km baper sm aku, krn aku gak show my feelings at all to u sejak awal, biasa2 aja cm tmn ngbrl. Yasudah. It grows. Aku jd sayang sm kamu. Which is stupid. Aku tau aku bodoh, sayang sm org yg bukan punyaku, yg ud pasti gak akan milih aku. Aku merasa bersalah Aku sedih. Aku gaenak. Tp aku berusaha ya ignore itu pemikiran negatif semua, let it flow. Kamu byk bkin aku belajar, dikasih nasihat2 yg gak aku duga itu bs keluar dr kamu. Im sorry… klo aku udh bkin km tertekan terus menyulitkan kamu. Aku jg gatau hrs gmn, ak bnr syg sm km cm ak gbs apa2, but it’s ok Pertanyaan km, “km anggep aku apa skrg?” Ak anggep km sbg my super super bestest friends yang aku sayang pk bgt maaf lebay, gak mau liat km sedih, gk mw liat km dijahatin orang, pkokny all the best for you. Please just be happy, no matter where when who you are with💕”  

So it ends there. Then he called me. That night, he told me that he was arguing before with his girl. And I kinda insist him to tell what the hell is going on. What is happening? I just feel something is not right here and I need to know. Turns out, 

his girl is pregnant.

.

“SHIT.”

That was the first word that came out of my mouth as soon as he told me about the news. I am beyond speechless. I have nothing to say. I just don’t know how to react.

“Are you su..sure?”

“Are you sure it is yours?”

“When did it happen?”

“How many months?���

I just have so many questions but my legs are shaking. My stomach feels like they’re about to explode. My heart is beating rapidly like a drum. Holy fuck. Why. She’s late for two weeks. I told him to see a doctor for professional help. And that she will come to check. She will meet him on February 16th. This, is going to be my last day to keep in touch with him before they meet.

I feel terrible. I feel numb. I don’t want to lose him just yet. At least what I feel for him is real. I want to be there for him even though he is in a really awful situation right now. I promise to carry this secret with me for him. 

I’ve seen so many stories similar to this, married by accident and some shits. But to actually be a part of it, it’s devastating. My heart broke into gazillion pieces right now. I can’t bear watch him suffer. Maybe he is in love with me but he knows that it can’t be happening. He is soon to be a father. Can you imagine that?

I just hope for all the best for him, he needs to be strong. And I believe he can. The future is unknown. But I would like to tell my children one day, about him. About how much I love him, and I will always do. No matter what, I will always remember him till the end of my life. Someone that is never be mine. I wish I had the chance to be with him in this life. I will never forget our first and last meeting, Felix.

“In another life, I would be your girl.”-Katy Perry, The One That Got Away.

Finally, he left me again for the second time. No matter how hard I tried to prepare myself for the last day, I can never be ready. But I have to.

May we cross our path again soon if the odds be ever on our favor.

[weasterned]

Luna Park.

1. Lunlun unnie ! She’s so kind, approach-able, humblee ! ! And and also lobely ! ♡ 2. I rarely see her these days or is it just me— and uh what else— updating, perhaps ? ;       ; 3. Lunlun Unnie ! So sorry that we rarely talk these days, that’s my fault— I’ll try to approach you okidokii ? ♡ I’ll be your santa thumb ! ㅋㅋㅋ

1. baik, baik, baik, baik, baik 2. I was starting to worry about you. You’re online so rarely. Please, tweet a little bit more often;) 3. i love you 🙆

1. Kind, Humoris, Laterep, bisa nerima aq apa adanya. Bias: ㅡlahanjay kenapa jadi krit WGL. 2. Noona keseringan MIA ya sama kaya aku? Jangan jangan kita jodoh? Tebak coba ini syp? Kalo tau nanti noona dapet hadiah iphone 8 dari undian Indomie. WQWQWQ noona, lets jangan keseringan MIA biar kita bisa dekat dan dekat. 3. Sebentar lagi 2018, jadi kapab f(x) mahu kambek frinz, , , , ???? Omo omo jeongmal gidarilgeyo >:“D

I love me 😘❤💙💚💛💜

#1 - Quite - Kinda mysterious - Calm - Cool - Friendly #2 I wish Luna eonni can show up more because I wanted to talk and get closer more to her! #3 Hello Luna eonni! I don’t know if we never talk before or we just rarely meet each other. But I would like to approach you and be closer to you! I don’t know if I ever greets you or not, but I think I have. But I’m not sure. I’m sorry if I never. I hope we can start to be more closer~!❤

judes, nice, rarely here, quiet, cool

1. kind, warm, attractive, pwetty, cutie! 2. Talk with me more often! And update your chara’s activity more often too! Me would like to see them mhihi. 3. Hello, sunbaenim! I’m your fan. So pretty please, talk with me. `sobs. Please enjoy this year’s xmas and new year!

1. i only know this one : receh 2. the first person who said im handsome hAHAHAHA, IM SO HAPPY- but hng i wish we could be more closer :C 3. Dear luna eonnie, luna means moon then are you my moon? eak eak tratakdungcess

1. Lunaemon eonni. She is sooo kind. Funny. Care. Gorgeous. Her voice is soo beautiful. 2. You have nothing to improve eonni. But lets talk more! You seem very busy. 3. Do you want to accompany to celebrate new year?

1. Friendly, kind, a bit quiet (doesnt talk much but doing lots of updates), good, mysterious(?) 2. Eventhough we’re rarely talk, i could see that you’re sometimes rarely talk and do lots updates, lets talk more with people (especially meㅋㅋ) 3. Hello, Luna-ya! How was your 2017 so far? A good year? Or.. Of course i hope 2017 is a good year for you.. Have you did all things on your bucket list this year? If no, dont worry there is 2018 in front of our eyes. Stay warm on the winter luna-ya!lol this luna i thought she’s cold person because she mentioned me to not to over towards others in the first meet. but someone told me, u’re soft inside lol let’s get along well luna ssi

She’s nice, mungkin jarang ngobrol jadi i can’t talk about her much

1. i dunno much about her personality, but as long as i know she is a nice person. 2. resembled as Luna as well, so no need to change too much haha. just be the way you are, 93mate! 3. Let’s make another convo in the future, since i haven’t see you in timeline again.

1. kind, cheerful, friendly, cute(?), cool! 2. I really hope i can see you more often, because i’m your fan! and i would like to get your sign when we meet again soon /no 3. hello luna!! i’m very happy to be able to meet you and i really want to be close with you since you are one of my favorite idol hahaha. Please always be who you are right now! I hope you will have a nice day and keep healthy till 2017 comes to an end! don’t forget to be happy and always smile! fighting!

Such a nice person!!! At first we kinda didnt talk a lot but lately we did and i just found out you are so fun to talk with

1. sweet, nice, kind, cool, adorable 2. please talk more with me in the future! 3. hello, luna noona. its nice to meet you. i’ve never meet luna rper again, and i found you (?) lol are you just taking rest? please have a good life while taking rest! will see you again soon, right?

1. Gorgeous, attractive, kind, sweet, caring. 2. Please mingle with me, bubz. 3. Hello, Luna! Please enjoy the rest of 2017 happily.

1. i dont know since i dont meet her yet 2. hope we can talk more 3. Marry christmas and happy new year, ah lets get more closer next year so we can have fun year together.

1. Sweet, kind, nice, gentle, friendly 2. i dont think you appear that much? Lets online more and talk wimme nuna haha 3. Dear luna nuna, nuna youre radiating a warm vibes! Haha stay like that,  i like it ^^She is nice, kind, not that talkative but not quite either, she’s a fun person to talk to. To Luna unnie, Unnie, happy early new year! Hope 2018 will be a good year for everyone!

1. Kind, calm? 2. Unnie it’s been a while I didn’t see you around. Nothing need to change just let’s be more active! hello, Ambreu unnie since 2017 almost over which mean new year will bring a new hope also. Please stay healthy because the weather is not so good lately, keep warm. Xx Loves♡

1. My Baby Lulu💕 2. Lets share about anything in our dm group ㅎㅎㅎㅎ 3. Happy New Year baby😆

1. KIND, sweetheart, lovely, fun, SO LOVELY 2. Lately we don’t talk much, so I’m hoping for more convo with you unnie!:( I’ve missed you. 3. I hope everything will go well till the end of the year and you will have a great year in 2018. Lovely things would come to lovely people, I believe.

1. Luna is such a cutie yet so polite, has a warm personality, and such a sweet person. 2. Dont be to polite 😭 i want to be more closer to you since are such a nice person. 3. f(x) COMEBACK JUSEYO!!!! I hope to hear another solo songs from you hahahaha. And i hope we can get a lil bit closer.  Be happy always , dear. You deserved to be happy.

1. - kind - mature! - a bit cold - classy - always muncul hilang muncul hilang (?) 2. we haven’t talk much! but i remember that i thought you’re my unnie, i thought you’re 92 liner lmao. let’s talk more in the future, i rarely see you on my timeline lately :c 3. [💌]  just wanna say, thank you for staying in WST. i’m happy that i have such a kind and caring members here. it might be pretty hard when you feel left out in agency, but i didn’t feel like this here. thank you ♡ thank you for being kind to me, let’s make another memorable memories in the future!

1) nice, kind, humble, friendly, potray her chara well 2) online more often? 3) luna my 93mate, where have you been? i hope you’re doing well. me miss you!  let’s talkeu talkeu with me again and i hope 2018 will be much much better year for you!

✨Kind,  polite,  cool,  cold(?), idk anymore.. Let’s talk more with me!  Hahahaaaku belom pernah mentionan hehehe, dan jarang nongol juga (atau aku yg jarang nongol?😂) semoga ke depannya kita bisa lebih deket lagi. Messagenya: Semoga apa yang terjadi di tahun 2017 bisa menjadi pembelajaran buat diri kita masing2 dan kedepannya kita bisa selalu mengucap syukur dan selalu dilingkupi rasa bahagia♡ Luna eonnni T    ^    T please comeback from your rest/? I need my winkeu tutor noooow … . I promise I’ll come to private with you … I won’t kabur again/? And also … Luna eonni is really nice person— good at winkeuuu ♡

1. Are. You. On. Hiatus. Period? 2. YOU’RE N HIATUS PERIOD, THAT’S WHY I RARELY SEE YOU ON TIMELINE. LOOKING FORWARD FOR OUR INTERACTIONS IN THE FUTURE. COME BACK SAFE (???) 3. Happy new year! Santa claus is coming to town~ *chuckles* You should take a good care of yourself, keep smiling widely, and be happy as always.

1. Cool, mysterious, pretty, cold?, talkative ; 2. Noona please reply my mention next time ; 3. I hope we can get a proper convo

1. always on MIA! sometimes appear sometimes not :p. friendly, kind and humble. 2. I know I aint a good one, but I just want to tell you that you’re one of the best luna’s rp. tbh we just met few months ago through weast, but since we’re under same group… I feel like that I know you for thousand years (ok I know it’s too much xD). please show up more! I know two of us are busy recently, but I think you will come back asap! 3. Hey Lun.. I know we just met few months ago. but like I said before that I feel like we know each other for about thousand years lol. it means I’m really like you! 2017 is coming to end and you know that we’ve been through during past 2 years with MeU and our group as well. I hope your upcoming solo will hit daebak later. also 2018 will coming.. as you know that everyone waiting our comeback. I hope 2018 is for us.. for f(x) and MeU. love you!!! and please lunaaaa stay healthy and dont change your chara! hahahaha. keep it and do more better in the future :).

-1. Cute, adorable, squishy, smart and good 2. Unnie should interact more with the members! 3. Unnie, my precious unnie, I’m looking forward to talk more with you later!

1. So kind 2. Memeable 3. Overall just cute 4. Pretty… 5. Caring! Luna noona I miss you a lot where are you really… I don’t see you often as Edward or as Mingyu so please comeback soon, I miss seeing you on my timeline. Qark noona, it’s 2018 soon so let’s be happy together shall we? Let’s bring up the good things first!