#and its like I gotta do tgings his way not bc he wants me to but bc my whole life I was made to believe i shouldn't do things my way
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Aaaaahgdh im overwhelmed
#spent 8 days w my bf and im upset#not bc of him#just. he wakes up at 12 and I followed him on that and now im upset im a morning person and have so much to do#he doesnt pay bills he doesnt do grown up shit and I do i have to clean and he is so loud#im just overwhelmed by the 5 hours of travel we just did and not following my routine#and the noises it hurts my ears so much when we watch tv and its loud#and its like I gotta do tgings his way not bc he wants me to but bc my whole life I was made to believe i shouldn't do things my way#and after a week I cant keep applying what I learned in therapy so old habits come back#like I said i wasnt gonna let him make me sleep in again and he said sorry sorry sorry and I'm like tf you apologizing for I agreed to sle#and then he said its bc I got mad so I said i didnt just like my mom used to deny bad feelings#so when I said actually I did get mad I apologize but it isnt a reason for u to apologize over and over#he said I sounded like his mom.#im trying to be emotionally mature.#goddamit#also im sexually frustrated hungry and overwhelmed by lack of routine and alone time and noise#so.#.#vent#vent in the tags#relationship#BUT HE ALSO TAKES CARE OF ME SO WELL#like he understands my triggers is super careful and gives me so much love. his family is also awesome and he does do things when I ask#but it seems our daily needs are very contradictory and it overwhelms me thats all#also his mom is so sweet.
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