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#and my only class rn is japanese which until now ive been consistently GOOD at so if i fail that my mom'll probably get Extra pissed at me
ff2-soda-pop · 1 year
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having. bad moment today alright-
#everything in class was too overwhelming to the point i couldnt even talk anymore and i couldnt leave and i didnt wanna stim because then#people would See Me and stuff so i just sat there suffering with that.#and then ig we're preparing for Finals but i barely have understood this whole class because it goes Too Fast for me and im scared im gonna#fail and i cant fail otherwise im gonna get the help w/ the financial stuff taken away and thats basically gonna screw me over big time but#idk what im doing!! and then the teacher said things about like 'oh if you say you're not taking this again next semester i'll take off#points' BUT IDK IF SHE WAS SERIOUS OR NOT?????? like shes generally pretty nice but like i cant tell if she was kidding or not at all but i#dont wanna ask because no one else seemed confused by it and i dont wanna stick out so i just. am confused#also im scared if i fail this class my mom'll get pissed because shes very insistent that i am the 'normal' one and so i 'have' to go to#school ad basically live life like a Normal Allistic Person which. is bullshit but thats besides the point#and my only class rn is japanese which until now ive been consistently GOOD at so if i fail that my mom'll probably get Extra pissed at me#for it because of that. also trying to ask for help hasnt worked so good so far because i tried and the teachers like 'you're doing fine!#dont worry about it :D' and im like 'i have barely understood anything for weeks on end but idk how to argue you on this and it feels rude#to try and be like No Actually Wrong' so then i just. dont say anything#also i still have no accommodations because i still havent gotten copies of papers i need and they wont let me do anything until i have#those copies of things from older schools before i went here. EVEN THOUGH IM LITERALLY DIAGNOSED AND AM STRUGGLING BUT APPARENTLY PAPERS#FROM OLD SCHOOLS ARE THE ONLY THING THAT CAN 'PROVE' I NEED HELP???? WHICH MAKES NO SENSE TO ME BUT ANYWAYS-#anyways everything is too much and i wanna curl up in a ball and just kinda stay like that forever#vent
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avpdpunpun · 7 years
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I have a lot of questions for ya, soo if it gets overwhelming you can skip some! 3, 8, 20, 22, 27, 30, 48, 69, 78, 94, 110, 145, 149 :~)
thank you for sending some anon!! i always love receiving messages 
im procrastinating sleep lol so its no problem that its a lot!
3: Do you have a favorite clothing style?
hm im into fashion and i have a lot of styles i like! i think korean street fashion looks very good on most people! its a pretty broad category with a vague definition tho so i feel like thats to be expected. 
8: What is your Greek personality type? [Sanguine, Phlegmatic, Choleric, or Melancholic]
surprisingly despite being big into personality tests i dont know this one! i think one of my friends said i seemed like a melancholic one. time to google it and take a test or two tho bcuz i love this shit
ok according to these tests which im 100% sure are accurate and true, my results were......... all over the place! im just gonna go with a mix of mainly melancholic, and choleric
20: Do you like space or the ocean more?
i love both but im gonna have to go with ocean, i really wanna live somewhere near the ocean someday and water is just so pretty in general.
22: Pet peeves?
i have... too many to list, im petty and annoyed very easily tho i know it’s unreasonable most of the time ha ha. i guess right now its people not doing their bare minimum of work or trying to use pity/guilt tripping to manipulate others since it’s most relevant in my life rn because of work and shitty co-workers. also when people are condescending i will rage. quietly, but i will rage
27: Any phobias or fears?
bugs, heights, and not to get too deep but inadvertently ruining my life or being lonely 4ever
30: Favorite movie?
honestly i forget movies really easily uhh... i remember logan was good, and i had a lot of fun watching battle royale with a friend. 
colorful is one i always forget but it was a really nice watch
48: A sound you really love?
this isn’t something i think about a lot hm. the violins in toxic maybe?? honestly i like silence a lot and white noise, lakes/oceans, etc
69: What is your star sign?
I’m a taurus! i dont know shit about astrology but i know my full chart always sounds really fake
78: Is swimming or ice skating more fun to you?
I LOVE ICE SKATING ACTUALLY!! its really beautiful and takes so much effort and also. thicc legs haha. im trying to teach myself some basic moves since i cant find any classes not aimed at children ): every time i go i have so much fun and every little thing that finally “clicks” im very happy, im such a beginner (im working on 2 foot spins rn) but honestly i love being on the ice and im always thinking “ :/ wow wish the rink was open rn id rather be skating”
i dont really keep up with professional skaters at all and i probably wouldnt know a lot of their names if anyone mentioned them, but i really like johnny weir
94: Would you rather be able to fly or read minds?
i feel like being able to read minds would be devastating, but id also be able to use it to be more likeable and thats appealing haha! i want to know what im doing wrong! at the same time though anyone would feel like its an incredible invasion of their privacy on the most basic level and i feel like having that power would be a bad idea, despite me knowing this is just a fun question im taking it too seriously haha. flying could be fun but like what if government aircraft shot me?
110: Nosiest question you have ever been asked?
honestly everything this one coworker has asked me, including if i’ve ever tasted cuM I STILL LAUGH ABOUT IT? but also he deeply disgusts me and makes me uncomfortable. i reported him twice and we still work together ha ha
145: How many languages do you speak fluently?
only one and im sad about it! ): 
since my school only ever offered a few courses ive taken 1 and a half years of spanish, a year of french plus a decent amount of time on duolingo afterwards, i tried to learn japanese in middle school and i still wouldnt mind learning more, i’ve been interested in finnish since i was 11 but never tried learning until recently and then i discovered theres 0 decent online resources, free or not!
i can’t keep up with one thing consistently over a long period of time though and it makes learning a new one very difficult. there’s so many id like to learn though my motivation comes in small, very infrequent bursts
149: Favorite thing about your personality:
self love machine broke
uhhhhhhhh id like to think im pretty open minded i guess? and self reflecting? both those things i absolutely did not used to be
ive grown a lot over time, and i still have tons of problems and issues with my personality, but ive still grown and id rather have these current problems than be the gross person i used to be
thats all the questions i hope i didn’t miss any!! i always feel like my answers tend to be too long a;osihf;asof
dam i should sleep
BUT once again thank you anon ;o i always appreciate even just ask meme stuff!
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