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ginwhitlock · 5 months

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men suck so bad and i do not think they know that. like i dont think they have a clue how much like four little things are actually huge big things and it causes girls (me) to have to blog on tumblr.com on their dying eighth grade laptop bc she (me) said something so cringe and pathetic to try to smuggle out even a hint of affection or care that she cannot physically use her (me) phone because she (me) is terrified of what he will respond, or better yet! not respond to at all. i am twenty years old and in a matter of hours i am reduced to my fifteen year old self who just wanted the hot guy to call her pretty and endured three years of torture for it

#and everything with this dude had been going great #like a whole year of on and off talking #and then we sleep together out the blue #and it all goes to shit #and now im crying in my bed #at the big age of twenty #over a boy #ive met once #and im tired of it #and i just want im to like me #and i want evryone to like me #and no one does!!!#at least enough to mean it #mine #ignore i guess sorry dump

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 9 months

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people practice w Them <3

#posting this and then shoving my head into a hole Bye #i am! Not Confident!!! in my people scribbling abilities!!#but im trying!!! im fucking trying!!!#i already see improvement #not enough to make me go 'wee the masses are gonna love this'#but enough that i can fathom posting. i can handle it. i can do this #if i dont do it now then i never will!!!!#im still gonna scream into a pillow rip it apart and then eat the stuffing!!!!#ah... the mortification of Existing... of Being Perceived...#it is ever present and inescapable! youd thing id be used to it by now!!!#ill be on my death bed asking people to leave the room so that i can die w/o feeling horribly self conscious and Seen #no seriously every time i think about my potential death and or coma should that happen #i prematurely cringe at the Attention. people potentially crying at my bedside Eugh No Thank You Please Do That Elsewhere #either call me a loser and drop off a single flower or leave me be <3 #THIS IS A WELCOME HOME SCRIBBLE POST. IM SORRY I FORGOT #scribble garnish #uh um uh so uh wally and barnaby am i rite fellas-#in my mind they're picking up takeout for dinner <3 #yeah no im not tagging it with a fandom tag. i dont want to be perceived As We've Established #im somewhat satisfied with that first wally.... swag <3 #& do i have major gender envy for barnaby? yeah #im not used to drawing people but i should be... i need to be...#THERE ARE GUYS I WANNA DRAW! mine and others!!! ngl mostly mine!!!

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swordbreakerz · 6 months

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DO U EVER THINK ABOUT HOW THE WHEEL TURNS. CAS'ALEAR

#f@tt #palisade #do u guys rmr in counter/weight where cass attends a state funeral #and then later becomes apokine when sokrates steps down #and how cas'alear chose cass as their patron eidolon and now. theyre next in the line of succesion #bc brnine killed their sibling. ans theyre gonna have to attend a state funeral #what is even the fucking state of the apostolisian homeworld rn!!!!!#like u rmr how in c/w during the funeral austin was talking about how itnwas the first time someone hadnt been buried on whichever planet #its nearly 1:30 excuse my impreciseness my wiki diving js rly failing me here #but like what is the fucking state of the historic apostolisian planets right. whwres dahlia gonna be buried #u ever think about how cass and cas'alear are both younger siblings. or at leas im believing that they r bc its never specified #in cas'alears case #fuck man. fuck man!!!!!!!#and z speaks #im going to bed #u ever make urself cry thinkin about fish

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silverscreenlipstick · 1 year

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alrighty so i about thought my day couldn’t get ANY better after indi’s lil ask doodle today but it turns out i was proven wrong when i went down to check my mail and saw that my order from them arrived. :’)))

you can absolutely find me grinning like a fool the rest of the day and crying happy tears. <3333 ily Indi!!!!

#LOOK AT SIRIUS AND MOONS #LOOK AT THEM #ALL CUTE #AND LOOK AT JEGULUS #I LOVE THEM #THE STICKERS??? YOU KNOW ME TOO WELL #IM CARTWHEELING SCREAMING CRYING JUMPING AROUND DANCING ALL OVER THE PLACE #ILY INDI WITH MY ENTIRE HEART #MI AMORE #my keychains do not deserve them so now they live by the flowers by my bed #ily ily ily #soph’s indi tag #<3333

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flowercrowngods · 6 months

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writing who did this to you pt. 2 and i wanna cry about how much season 4 will take from eddie, like. god he’s. he’s just a boy.

#who did this to you #iykyk #i also wanna cry about wayne and how gentle he is #This was always a safe space. Always void of everything terrible. And now there’s a broken boy on his doorstep who’s not Eddie.#<- don’t think about eddie watching chrissy die in his own home in his own safe space in this town who hates him challenge #“But I don’t want a hospital.” Again with that tiny fucking voice. Like there are Monsters hiding under hospital beds.#<- clawing at my own skin actually like. i’m loving this outsider pov dancing a tango on this blurry lines of a reality he’s not part of #okay i won’t keep annoying you with things i just wrote but know im going insane over the subtlety of this POV

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911multimadney · 1 month

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#this is actually THE PHOTO OF ALL PHOTOS #how do they look like actual family #im dead in tears sobbing crying in my bed now #chimney han #911 abc #911 #madney #maddie buckley #kenneth choi #911 spoilers #maddie buckley han #madney wedding #howard han

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duskandcobalt · 1 month

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wip wednesday 💕

i'd like to take a brief interlude from my depressive spiral to present a small excerpt from the slutty elriel fic i'm working on, still hoping to get this out this week but taylor swift put a pin in my plans and i've been wallowing in bed for like 96 straight hours.

no warnings here bc im saving the actual slutty content for the full published piece.

hope everyone's having a good week 💖

Elain blindly wandered down the dark hallways.The echo of her heels on the stone floor was menacing, causing the already frantic beat of her heart to rise to an almost worrisome crescendo. It didn’t help that she could barely see and was relying solely on the occasional flickering fae light and the cool, insistent shadow pressed to the small of her back to guide her towards her mystery destination.

It felt like she’d been walking for hours, turning this way and that in the labyrinth that made up the various chambers of this unfamiliar place but finally, the pressure of the shadow on her back eased as she approached an arched door right at the end of the seemingly never ending hallway. She paused in front of it, unsure what to do until the shadow slid up her arm and along her neck, wrapping itself around her ear.

Go.

Elain swallowed, her gloved hand reaching out for the doorknob.

Subconsciously, she knew where that shadow had been guiding her. Knew that the neat, dark interior of this room was the perfect match for what she’d always imagined in those salacious dreams of hers.

She’d been ready to see him. Aching to see him. But to open the door and get her first glimpse of him… she hadn’t quite been ready for that.

Azriel was reclined in a leather chair behind his desk. The jacket he'd been wearing earlier had been discarded and left to drape on cabinet at the far end of the room. The first few buttons of his crisp white shirt was undone, providing a glimpse of the tantalising tattoos hidden underneath. He had one long leg folded over the over, one ankle resting on his knee. And on that knee, cradled by his large, scarred hand, sat a short glass of amber liquid that perfectly matched his honeyed eyes.

“I’ve been waiting for you.”

#elriel #yes this is the under the weeping willow follow up hehe #elriel fic #wip wednesday #my writing #anyway if you're reading this pls tell me what your favourite ttpd song is #or what the one you relate to the most is #my fave is guilty as sin? for obvious reasons #the one i relate to the most is the prophecy lmao #hence the depressive spiral!#but also the bolter so good luck working out how both of those things can be true #ALSO down bad is a bop and i really do be crying at the gym teenage petulance and all #ALSO loml but i actually cant discuss that one yet for the sake of my sanity #thanks for coming to my taylor swift ted talk im going to bed now

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bylrndgm · 5 months

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DOCTOR WHO (2005 - ) 2.03 School Reunion

#doctor who #tenth doctor #david tennant #mine #mine:gif #oh well so i guess now i will post all the scenes from S2 that got me crying all curled up in my bed #i'm completely normal about these lines.#(im a liar) (im not normal about this) (still processing)

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synthshenanigans · 10 months

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Took the words heartburn & mindfreeze literal and now I have these

Might draw the lines better later but am tired atm and wanna [attempt to] finish the art I have for the recent songs

But also might make more unstable(?) forms for the two. [Also maybe attempt to design soul lol]

#but unstable forms would be like #hearts more magma-y? like maybe a more human silhouette looking thing that's all lava with lil rocks on em idk #also might make designs less human like in general #mayhap these are how they look before they get a less human look #cos they look too human atm for what i was goin for #idk if this makes sense #mind might be a tall more spikey creature thats all ice?#had an idea for mind like that already but COULD use it here #add in like a snow storm effect #idk we'll see #i really like the first two tbh #the 3rd is meh and the 4th is p nice i think #actually confident in my art for once wow #i mean confident is a lil strong maybe content fits more #also thanks to avi who wanted me to do these they were rlly fun to make actually #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj mind #cj heart #alright KJ is going back to bed now cos SOMEONE uploads early and made me CRY so now im EXTRA tired #wonder who that was smh/j #-atlas art-

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pothospant · 3 months

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his default recall is so cool..........

#not me arts tag #ive never used his default skin so i didnt even know what it looked like until now....ough #i wish u could mix and match sounds or recalls with skins................#i honestly forget half the time hes supposed to be like. Cool and Suave and a Competent Badass #because my brain is always like. god hes so small and floppy and will die if you breathe on him wrong #also hes always crying and breathing heavily in my ear so im just like. poor guy #he should be at the bed taking a nap not fighting....... who made him fight.... stop that he doesnt belong on the battle field #he might be a badass hitman or smth but my brain is like #this is just a sad theatre kid who took gymnastics #''aphelios how is your assassin training going'' aphelios who has only been reading the acrobatics textbook: my what #is there anyone still reading these tags. hi there #i have a lot of thoughts on him. im very obsessed with his animations #like he has a laugh animation for every weapon.......#all the various weapon animations...#maybe the real reason we wont have a legendary for 10 more years is all the animating they have to do #i mean his base animations are so good id honest be like OK if they reused them #cant rly do much better than already Top Tier animations #unless we get an alune legendary.....#hope alune is super awesome and badass and all the aphelios voicelines are a really shy awkward guy or smth #like you look so cool and awesome fighting and the whole world doesnt know ur listening to a lil guy in your brain the whole game #the contrast would be very funny methinks #if anyones still reading this. yes i know riot made up some reason about budget or whatever for voices #but i choose to believe aphelios is head empty no thoughts and thats why he doesnt talk to alune #(STILL GOOFY OF A REASON... lots of VAs can do both genders of voices.... like. what about kindred and kayn....)#then again wouldnt be surprised if they were overbudget on the animations but still smh my head into oblivion #can relate to a guy who simply doesnt wanna talk #(said after 10000 tags of talking to myself)#i should really put my thoughts onto a separate post or blog or something #anyways have i mentioned i think hes really cute

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cheeriochat · 13 days

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GAZE UPON MY FACE

Im finally posting the cosplay stuff!!

Comiccon was fun and im sad that it's been a week already since it happened. I'll get the professional photos I had taken next week so I'll post those when I get them!

I actually didn't take too many photos, the only other being someone's Rosie cosplay from hazbin hotel which I took for a friend and don't wanna post without asking. I'm sad about it because I saw a super cool Ranni cosplayer and also an Azul cosplayer!!! But I let them be because I was waiting in line. There was also a leon cosplayer but he seemed a little mean so I was scared to ask in case I got yelled at.

Thats it though!!!!

ALSO TO THE NAGITO COSPLAYER WHO ATE THAT FUCKING CAN OF PEAS I WILL FIND YOU

#also i found myself in the backgrond of a furries youtube video at the drawing wall lol #i saw them walking around and thought they seemed cool #that nagito cosplayer scared me #ok im going to bed now im tired from cleaning my room #devil may cry #dmc #dante #dmc4 #dmc cosplay #cosplay #comic con

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glittergroovy · 22 days

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#going through an absolutely uh heart wrenching breakup right now and #i need someone older and wiser to tell me how this goes #we live together. she wants to be single. i want to keep her as my lover. i wanted to live with her like lovers for the rest of our lives.#we want to stay friends. we're best friends. weve dated for 6.5 years. im nauseous in denial i don't have people who know how to help me #dumb putting this bs on glitter blog but just in case anyone has survived something like this and can DM me hi #how do you live with someone youve had the best times of ur life with when they don't want you to be more than friends #i want to hold her forever. she doesn't want to be beholden to anyone in this point of life.#im deleting this post later just hoping someone might see and help bc i am absolutely lost and dont know how on earth to act #im in fuckin nyc and it hurts being alone somewhere so big. crying on the subway and shit.#we live together. we live together. the lease ends february 2025. what the fuck. its a studio apartment. its one room and one bed.#op barks

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bunnihearted · 1 month

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