#and truthfully i don't really care because i'm posting this stuff because my blog is MY personal archive and it's stuff I want to catalogue

[sportsthoughts]

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[chloecherrysip]

Now that I've had a few hours of sleep and am marginally a human being again, let's talk about the mario movie some more! SPOILERS ALL THROUGHOUT THIS POST UNDER THE CUT (if you want to see my non-spoilery thoughts and the first part of my spoiler talk as well, here's that post from last night! Be warned that it's pretty all over the place because it was 4:30 in the morning and I was really tired lolol)

After thinking about it more, I truly do have some PROBLEMS with this movie (will talk more about some of that below and I covered a lot of the issues in my first post too) and I do wish it was better overall and not so painfully surface-level with all the character interactions - I can understand why some people REALLY don't like it while others love it! It's joyful and energetic and BEAUTIFUL but if you spent months and months theorizing and speculating about deep character interactions and a very emotional story, it does really sting to finally see how there is virtually NONE of that and the plot feels kinda empty as a result. :(

But! I'm definitely not upset or anything like that, and I'm still gonna see it two more times in theaters with a smile on my face! TRUTHFULLY (and if you've seen my blog before, you know this about me) what I cared about most in this movie was getting to see Mario and Luigi be adorable onscreen and have a good, healthy, loving relationship, and you do get that to some degree, even if it's nowhere near enough. I can make my peace (and write a lot of fanfic, LOL) regarding the rest. :)

Here is a list of moments between Mario & Luigi that made me happy:

FIRST OF ALL, SOMETHING THAT I'M NOT ACTUALLY SURE I LIKED BUT WAS CERTAINLY A CHOICE: Mario's nickname for Luigi is Lu????? He calls him that 3-4 times and at big moments, too. It started to be cute to me, even if I wish they'd gone with "Weegie" or something similar, but it's a little jarring at the beginning for sure.

In general, they are just very physically affectionate with each other! There are one or two quick hugs in the beginning scenes before we even get to the reunion. Also, I can't remember the specifics but the very last scene is them basically teasing/poking each other before running off into the day together and it's cute. :)

Mario is SO protective of Luigi in the Brooklyn scenes and let me tell you, as someone who cares DEEPLY about that, i was LIVING. He gets mad at Spike and tries to pick a fight only when he insults Luigi, and there is also a silly scene with an angry dog and Mario just instinctively puts his arm up in front of Luigi when things get a little scary/focuses on making sure he doesn't get hurt, and I was just having the BEST time. Honestly, I loved the Brooklyn stuff so much that I sincerely wanted the whole movie to just be about that, and things took a downhill turn for sure when the separation happened. :(

Someone definitely predicted this before the movie but Mario hates mushrooms as a food and Luigi likes them. During a dinner scene, Mario is slyly separating mushrooms from his food and putting them onto Luigi's plate in a way that suggests he's done that a LOT. Such a quick shot but I just liked the detail!

THE RUNNING THROUGH THE CONSTRUCTION SITE AND MARIO DOING RIDICULOUS PARKOUR BUT ALSO STOPPING TWICE TO MAKE SURE TO TURN BACK AND OPEN THE GATES SO LUIGI COULD COME THROUGH NORMALLY. There was just something SO funny and sweet about [crazy jumping and leaping] [quiet, thoughtful pause to open the gate] [MORE CRAZY JUMPING AND LEAPING, WHAT ARE YOU EVEN DOING, SIR] [another quiet, thoughtful pause to open the 2nd gate], I loveeeeee

Once again, just gotta be obnoxious about being right that the dialogue in the warp zone was "nothing can hurt us as long as we're together!" I HEARD THE LINE AS THIS IN THAT PREVIEW FOOTAGE AND EVERYONE CONVINCED ME IT WAS DIFFERENT BUT LOOK WHO'S LAUGHING NOW (i'm sorry, just let me have this win haha)

There is a sad moment where Mario and Luigi's dad clearly doesn't believe in their business and he even says to Mario something like "the worst part is that you're dragging your brother down with you" which is clearly upsetting to Mario so he leaves the dinner table - but then Luigi leaves the table too to come and sit with him and reassures him that he's not dragging him down and it's just a sweet, comfortable moment between them that I very much wish went on a little longer (the theme of the whole movie lol)

(Also, Mario and Luigi still live with their parents and share a room, they're clearly pretty young and are treated like the "babies" of the family. I wish we had seen more of their room other than a very extremely brief shots!!)

Luigi DOES immediately sell out Mario when Bowser goes for the serious mustache damage, LOL, but the way it's done is honestly so cute and once again, just reemphasizes how much Luigi loves Mario XD He's basically like "YES, I know him, he's my brother Mario and he's the best guy ever!" (And then Bowser, who is preoccupied with Mario = romantic rival for Peach's affections, is like "would a princess find him attractive???" and Luigi is like "if she has any common sense, she should!" (lol, that line could be TOTALLY wrong, I don't remember, but that's the gist of it, I promise) or something like that - just hyping Mario up when he's not even there, LOL

in Mario and DK's "darkest moment" scene where things seem hopeless and they're arguing, Mario says something like "well, at least your brother's not going to die because of you!" and noooo, bb, it's not your fault ;; (this scene could have been done SO MUCH BETTER with a few tweaks, btw, but I will get into that)

Luigi bringing coffee for Mario at the end of the movie in their respective cups :) :) :) So simple but I am a very simple person who just wanted to see little moments like this :) :) :)

I have GRIPES with the final battle scene but seeing Mario and Luigi work together and take care of Bowser as a duo was still good!!! Nothing can hurt them when they're together!!!

Also, already talked about this at length in my first post, but one more time: Mario saving Luigi from falling into the lava and their reunion hug is just my favorite moment of the movie, no contest, it goes by so fast and I wish it was longer but I can be happy with that alone and I can't wait for the screenshots/gifsets where I can see all the details of it more clearly and don't have to rely on my awful memory. Literally just going to think about that split-second of Mario holding Luigi's face with both hands in an unbearably sweet, gentle way forever. These brothers love each other very much, your honor ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

ALSO ALMOST FORGOT: FLASHBACK TO THEM BEING BABIES (AND THEY LOOK SO FAITHFUL TO THE ORIGINAL DESIGNS TOO!) AND MARIO PROTECTING LUIGI FROM A BULLY (lol I very much wish it was a longer and/or more creative flashback, but STILL sweet)

AND NOW THAT I AM DONE WITH BEING POSITIVE ABOUT MY FAVORITE BOYS, LET'S ~*~COMPLAIN~*~

First of all, still CANNOT BELIEVE that "I'm not afraid! I'll do anything for my brother" didn't make it into the movie, are you SERIOUS, it would have been perfect in SO MANY PARTS, they recorded it and everything, why???? IS THERE A DELETED SCENE??? ARE THERE SEVERAL DELETED SCENES??? I DEMAND JUSTICE FOR THAT PERFECT LINE, I WILL MOURN IT FOREVER

The editing in general is a little odd sometimes and it really DOES feel like a lot of scenes should be there that are missing. Another VERY weird cut is in the scene where Peach, Toad, and Mario are crossing the bridge with the Cheep-Cheeps and they just immediately cut the scene when one latches onto Mario's face and don't even include the cute stuff from the trailer with Peach trying to help him??? Like, WHY???? WHY DID THOSE FEW SECONDS NEED TO BE CUT??? I DON'T UNDERSTAND

I think one of the most painful things about this movie is that, as a writer/creative person, I can see SO many small opportunities throughout the movie where a couple of extra minutes and some tweaks in the writing would have made SO much difference. An unbelievable amount of difference! The overall structure of the story and the plot is good! The story of Mario wanting to reunite with his brother and Peach wanting to protect her kingdom (that took her in and cared for her when she was all alone in the world) is solid! But they never give the EMOTIONS surrounding these things ANY space to breathe beyond one line here or there, and that is SUCH a mistake and I can't believe no one thought to do something differently here.

FOR INSTANCE: The "darkest moment" scene with DK and Mario! It goes by so fast, but there is some good stuff there that, if the movie took a MOMENT and really let their pain/fear for their loved ones and their shared complex of unsupportive fathers BREATHE, would work SO MUCH BETTER. Like, I can easily imagine a rewritten version of that scene with very similar dialogue but just MORE of it (more pauses, more emotion, more reactions to one another's problems, more recognition of their similarities, etc) would have made it like a DAGGER in the heart. SUCH a missed opportunity. I am itching to rewrite it, LOL. (I am itching to rewrite a LOT of scenes!)

ALSO: Luigi is my LOVE and he is adorable throughout this, but I'm gonna be the first to admit that his scrap of an arc in this movie (if you can even call it that) is so lackluster and his heroic moment at the end genuinely doesn't feel that earned! AND ONCE AGAIN, WITH A LITTLE EXTRA WRITING/ROOM IN THE RUNTIME, IT'S A VERY SOLVABLE PROBLEM

And the solution is: build out the prison scenes and have Luigi actually talking to someone else who is locked up!!!!! Other than a couple of lines and jokes, the prisoners don't TALK TO EACH OTHER and Luigi just spends a lot of time looking sad. We don't get ANYTHING about his thought processes while he's captured other than he is thinking of Mario and hoping his brother comes to save him like he's always done.

WHEN CRANKY KONG AND THE OTHER KONGS SHOW UP, HAVE THEM SHARE INFO ABOUT MARIO'S APPARENT DEMISE WITH LUIGI!!! HAVE LUIGI TALK TO HIM (OR THE PENGUIN KING, OR SOMEONE) ABOUT HOW HIS BROTHER'S ALWAYS LOOKED OUT FOR HIM BUT MAYBE SOMETIMES, HIS BROTHER MIGHT NEED SOME SUPPORT TOO AND HE'S GOTTA BE STRONG FOR HIM TOO

It doesn't have to be a long or especially deep conversation, but some lines of dialogue like this would make that moment where Luigi realizes that Mario is right, nothing CAN hurt them if they're together and he's gotta be strong for his older brother too and he jumps in to protect him from Bowser hit SO much harder. That's all it would take!!!

I HAVE ACTUAL WORK TO DO TODAY AND CANNOT GO ON AND ON ABOUT THE MARIO MOVIE FOREVER BUT LAST THOUGHT FOR NOW: the more I think about the final battle, the more I'm conflicted, haha. The twist of everyone from the Mushroom Kingdom ending up in Brooklyn is definitely SHOCKING in the moment and pretty creative but I don't know, I had my heart set on a more classic version of Mario VS Bowser. It just doesn't hit as hard as it could in the end because of how silly the setting is. :( (But the Mario and Luigi teamup with the power star is great, and the music IS fire) (Also LOL at myself for thinking "Luigi won't fight at the end, that wouldn't make sense since Mario had to train" - he just knows how to fight, the movie goes with what's cool over what's logical and that's fair XD)

Also, the end of the movie is a tad confusing and has some pretty huge repercussions for this version of canon? ARE THE MUSHROOM KINGDOM AND THE REAL WORLD PERMANENTLY MERGED TOGETHER BECAUSE OF WHAT HAPPENED??? That's definitely what it seems to imply with Mario and Luigi waking up in their Brooklyn room and then walking out straight into the Mushroom Kingdom! It's pretty bizarre! (Honestly, what I was expecting was that the Bill would destroy the warp pipes and Mario and Luigi wouldn't be able to go home, which I might have preferred, as sad as that would be.)

That's all I got for now! I'm sure I will have more thoughts in the future, haha.

[joeywheelermyman]

Gone for a year.

So I'd like to start this off with an apology to people that seemed genuinely interested in my blog. I didn't log back on to Tumblr for a few months because all the negativity I was receiving genuinely disturbed and freaked me out. I was in a weird state of mind when I started writing and was freshly out of incarceration. By the time, I decided to log back on (sometime in summer 2023) I had lost access to my account, none of my usual passwords were working and I couldn't reset it, either. I really don't know what changed this time around if I'm being honest, it let me reset my password with no problem. I remember being scared to share this despite the bits of positivity I received, and I even deleted some of the negative comments because of how heavy they made my chest feel, but re-reading them, truthfully, made me laugh so hard just now. (my favorite is definitely "they should put you back in prison for making us read that" LOL) I'm glad I took some time off to get more integrated with society before I began letting those types of comments build and swallow my still-healing mind. Now, I would like to welcome both negative and positive comments, they all make me feel good! Anyways, after dropping a few posts, causing a little ruckus in this corner of the Internet, then disappearing, I'm back to continue with my posts. I still feel the interest in sharing them, but not as intensely as I did when I first started posting. I've gone through more stuff in the past year, as we all have, and I've decided if I don't care what people I know in real life say about me then, I genuinely don't give a fuck what people on the Internet have to say either. I'm just here to share for my own piece of mind and for those who are interested. So, welcome back to me! (also I probably won't tag any of my posts anymore, I don't know how to do it and I don't care to learn. Maybe if any of my writings have some extra heavy stuff I will, but for the normal stuff or letters to friends, I'm all good.)

[mokutone]

I don't know, I just wanted to congratulate you for this amazing blog, so much so that I don't have words to describe how much I love it

I've been following you for a while, and when I found it, I instantly fell in love

at least here in brazil, I almost never saw anyone paying attention to yamato (almost NEVER), he is like the ghost character of team 7 and that makes me very angry because I really always liked him a lot and they are not paying the attention that he deserves it, not to mention the ending he had in the anime that we won't even mention here because I was really disappointed

because of that, I never have anyone to share my obsession about tenzou or kakayama, but here I feel welcomed and I'm like "FINALLY PEOPLE WHO THINK LIKE ME!!!" (yes, this was just an outburst of a brazilian excited to finally find people who share the same neurons as her)

you are definitely my favorite artist, congrats on your work and tysm for being my inspiration!! I wish you all the best!!!

srry for any mistranslation

what a sweet message! it is incredibly flattering that my art is so enjoyed by you, and that you find it inspiring!!!

thank you! dsgkjhsdkghds i know the feeling of being like "why does nobody care about this!!!" and then finally finding a small community who does and feeling ur heart burst with excitement! i'm glad my art contributes to that.

there is truthfully so much good yamato content on tumblr, i got lucky that i started posting about it here and not somewhere else, i suppose! i reblog a very small amount of the TONS of really cool artwork, but there really is so much...there's a whole event just for Tenzō! and some great art and works come out of it! let alone the stuff that people just make throughout the course of the year as theyre thinkin about yamato...

:) ! :) !!!

[mccnstruck]

contrary to the last post a few days back, i dont know how long it will take me to write anything.

more utc! (cw: intrusive thoughts, illness)

truthfully, i havent been doing well the past few weeks mentally, and its showing in my physical state as well. i havent been able to get proper sleep, my face has turned pale and yellow from not taking care of myself, and my body is weak from a condition and just me not having energy.

additionally, my state of mind has gotten really bad. i have intrusive thoughts and getting through the day feels tiring. theres a lot more, but i'm not comfortable sharing.

i dont know whether this is because of the summer heat (most probably). but i know that as long as i feel this way, i know im not going to come out with my best quality works.

so i guess im on a semi-hiatus..?

i'll still be around! liking and reblogging stuff, in people's asks, maybe giving a few updates. but i don't know when i'll start writing again. it could be an hour from now if some miracle happened and my writer's block disappered, or it could be a very long time, considering this school year i have a lot of harder classes.

i dont think i'll quit writing. this blog is the very reason i've came back to writing again, and writing and this blog is very special to me. but i am letting myself relax. i know i haven't come out with anything in the past few months, but this is an update on what's going on and why i havent posted anything.

thank you for everyone who has supported me the past year (its been a year since June!!!), i never thought i would've met such amazing people and gotten such postive feedback.

i hope everyone is doing well, and staying safe!! my discord is always open if you want to chat, and i wish everyone well !! <3

[poohsources]

HELLO EVERYBODY! been a while since i did one of these, i hope you're all doing well, and have a great day / night wherever you are. i'm officially back from my vacation which means i'm officially returning to this blog. yay! now you might be wondering what exactly this means, and truthfully, i'm not too sure yet either. what i do know is that i plan on being around here more regularly. also, i'm planning to finally start working on the christmas giveaway gifts ( if you're one of the winners i've messaged previously, i'll message you again in a few days to discuss details ).

another thing i'm not sure i've mentioned here yet: i got a new job last month which means i definitely don't have as much time anymore as i did previously. it's also one of the reasons i've been so absent since the start of the year because i had to get used to it, learn some new stuff, etc. my schedule changes every week so i can't even give you reliable info on when i'll be able to be here and do stuff but i promise you that'll be something i'll figure out.

anyway, as for content i've planned, i really should start going through my inbox and try to answer as many questions there as possible. things have been really piling up in there and i'm very sorry about the delay in answers. there are also a few requests (primarily for certain kinds of memes ) that i will be working on slowly but surely. in terms of memes, i have some half-finished ones sitting in my drafts so i might just post these sometime soon. additionally, there are some other things i started working on a while back ― like some psds, templates, etc. ― that i might try finishing. so just a whole bunch of new content to use.

one new thing i might try out in the future is something one of you mentioned when i made that post about putting some very time-consuming or image-heavy templates behind some kind of temporary paywall. not sure how exactly i'm gonna do this yet ( i have a few ideas and websites, like patreon, in mind already, but i first want to see all the different possibilities i have on what site and what makes it the easiest and most user friendly for both you and me ). but that is something that's probably gonna take a few weeks / months still ― we'll see.

even though i could probably go on for a while and tell you about everything that's going on in my mind regarding this blog and its future, that's gonna be all for today. because honestly ― none of it is ever set in stone and while i do have some exciting things i wanna do here, real life can always get in the way so i feel back if i make too many promises i then have to delay. but i'm gonna try my best because i care about all of you people, the rpc as a whole, this stupid little hellsite i could curse multiple times a day, and although it's not much i do wanna contribute a little something to make this a nicer place for everyone.

so yeah, take care everyone, don't forget to drink enough water and get enough sleep, and i'll talk to you again soon. 🧡

[justagalwhowrites]

No pressure if you don’t want to share, but I’m so curious what you do for a living and/or what your educational background is. I’m so impressed with your storytelling skills that I feel like it cannot be accidental. I have a fair amount of experience as a reader/writer (though not professional) and have a college level writing/English degree and again I’m just so impressed. I wish I had the patience like some to bullet out specifics within a chapter but it’s like moment to moment you just don’t miss.

The exchange with Tommy and Joel in this chapter was superb. The way you write sometimes there isn’t much explanation needed, you do a beautiful job of showing vs telling. You let details unfold in such a subtle but very intentional way. I never feel like, “Oh, here’s the exposition”.

Beskar Doll and Lavender have been two of my absolute favorites and truthfully the initial plot around Yearling didn’t interest me but I trusted you based on the others. It’s becoming my favorite of the three. Like I don’t even care if it gets smutty (and… I usually want that), the story and character development are enough.

Anyway none of this to say skip the smut 😂 But please you how talented you are, especially considering your writing speed. You’re cranking shit out fast and nothing ever feels rushed or unintentional❤️

OMG Hi Bestie!

I totally don't mind sharing! I work in communications now (I write a lot of emails and blog posts, the occasional journal article, etc.) but I was a journalist for a decade before I sold my soul to the PR gods. I have a degree in journalism so my background is definitely all writing! And I have always done creative writing for fun. My mom went through boxes of my elementary school stuff like a year or two ago and found a little novella I wrote when I was like seven lol. I started writing my first novel (it's very bad though I did finish it) when I was 11 and writing novels has been my primary hobby ever since, really. When I got into fan fic earlier this year, I just kind of picked up what I do in novel planning and whatnot and plopped it into the fic space. It means so much that you think it's high quality work! I'm so glad you've enjoyed it!

And OMG this is so exciting about Yearling lol. Yearling has made me so nervous from the start? It was a story I really wanted to tell - trauma, recovery, finding home and family, forgiveness, growth - but it was the first fic I started writing that I thought people might be reading from the beginning and I didn't want to disappoint anyone. Every other fic I started writing thinking no one would read it so the stakes were INCREDIBLY low lol it was just for me! It's a little different now because so many kind, wonderful people have read these stories. Yearling is obviously a slow burn, which I know isn't what people always go for, and there's a LOT of plot - again, not always what draws people into fic! - so I'm thrilled that people have connected with it. I'm extra happy that you're a convert to it!! That made my day, for real!

Don't worry, smut is coming soon in Yearling lol! Smut is never the point in my fics, more just sprinkled in for spice (not that there's anything wrong with PWP!! I love that! I'm just AWFUL at writing it) but I love having it. I may not be as explicit when I write books but I find stories for and about adults unrealistic if it doesn't include sex or romance as some kind of driver (unless the characters are aro/ace) so it's a safe bet you'll find smut in my work! Also love that you think I'm writing fast lol I feel like I'm going so slow compared to Lavender but I really needed to have better balance between life and fic writing this time. While it's not written yet, I do have the whole fic story mapped so there's a plan for every major plot point. It's definitely intentional! I hope it keeps coming off that way and that you keep enjoying it!

Thank you so so so much for reaching out and for spending your time reading these fics. I loved reading your thoughts!! Love you!!

[onewomancitadel]

Honestly seeing all your speculation and theory-crafting and connecting narrative/thematic parallels and all that gives me a sense of security for next Volume. I'm personally very stressed and worried that Jaune might end up becoming a sacrificial lamb of some kind on the island, but seeing all your posts on Knightfall or how there's still unresolved themes that have to be followed and stuff like that make me realize it *PROBABLY* won't happen since it would leave everyone so unsatisfied narratively. I know my fear's probably a bunch of bull-crap, but it still gives me a sense of anxiety since Jaune is my favorite character (no matter what anyone else might say), and seeing your stuff gives me weird comfort.

Personally, I'm doubtful the island's gonna house the spirits of dead characters (despite how much I wish it so) or the Brother Gods. If you ask me though, I think the island's probably an "in-between" place, a sort of purgatory of some kind (maybe not in the religious sense?). Something I think that might happen is that Jaune might start seeing/hearing things, kind of like how the real Joan of Arc had visions of angels and God; his sword's broken and he's stuck down there with no real way out, so he's probably super stressed, and the island seems like it might have some mystical properties to it, so maybe it could inadvertently start messing with his head? I don't know how valid it is, but I think it would make sense if this is the point where they start leaning into the Joan of Arc parallels with visions/hallucinations.

Don't worry, Jaune is my favourite character too. I'm glad my blog is giving you some sense of security, but I would honestly be shocked if he dies. I'll say it again because it bears repeating: the characters who have died so far are not major characters (team JNR promoted to main cast in V4, I think), their deaths have been really thematically purposeful - take Clover, he's Qrow in the Bad World where you're not allowed to express how much you care, and Qrow deeply cares, and he's the one who dies, because the story rejects 'efficiency' - and most importantly, they've been relatively staggered out. Truthfully, if Jaune were to die, it wouldn't be until much later, but even then, if they actually commit to Knightfall it would be especially cruel to do that to Cinder.

I'm willing to entertain they'll break their patterns, but I doubt Jaune would have such extreme moral confrontation now to only die. I don't think he's going to be punished for helping give Penny her choice. Something I personally read into it is that he's a positive masculine figure who empowers the woman in question - meanwhile Ironwood is an oppressive patriarchal figure holding Winter down. By Jaune empowering Penny, Penny empowers Winter. It would be cruel to punish him for that.

I agree with you regarding the island. I have a theory on how the worlds of Remnant work which is kind of tinfoily. The way I see it is that there is the Real World, which is where the spiritual gains material presence and every colour is separate but must be harmonised. There's the White Place (Ozma meeting the God of Light, Penny transferring her powers), and white is the intersection of all colour at once. There's the Special World (the Fallen Place), where the colour is very acute, and it's sort of slightly surreal - it might be a place of dreams, visions, etc., colour can't be harmonised here but is very vivid. Then there is the underworld, which is no colour and can't be seen.

Four makes a lot of sense, given the rule of four. It's why it's odd there are only two brothers.

And yes I do actually agree with you, if they decide to play up the allusions any more (Ruby and her wolfiness, for instance, being Grimmified) than they already have, this is the spot to do it for him. With that being said, the visions are not negative for Joan of Arc, in fact they empower her. So I suppose the question is whether they decide to play with that, subvert it, etc. The relevance of allusions are not always clear and I think they leave themselves openings. Like, Jaune could die by flame or he could... well... I've said it before, I won't say it again.

Though they are more prescriptive with the allusions when it comes to the romance. The only pairing that breaks this pattern is Ren/Nora (the original Mulan poem doesn't make reference to a love interest which also fits Nora, and for Thor, well, his love interests vary), which is partly because team JNPR had the two anime-inspired romances, one of which ended poorly. It does lead me to cast doubt on the future of the ship for this reason, or if they're doing some specific pattern-breaking stuff with them for a reason. It's true of their colours too - pink/green is a different type of colour complementary system to yellow/purple, red/green, orange/blue, and Nora is only getting her own colour now (blue).

Anyway, off-topic now, sorry. Point is I think the Fallen Place being a distortedly magical world is more interesting.

On the note again of Jaune dying: if they do that I think it would be very silly, Penny's death was predictable to me because she didn't seem like she'd be sticking around, and her goodbye with her dad was very... it was the last goodbye. The deaths in R/WBY are intelligible and discernible, the real wound, again, is Ozma's absurd death.

I also doubt Jaune would die in the Special World. It seems like it would be a mistake to have a character death down there, because fandom would FOREVER speculate about his return. I think it's very likely he will be in a dark place and will be challenged, though. That's why I want Cinder there.

I also recommend just accepting that the story they tell is the story they tell. If you feel upset by it at any point, you are still allowed to be. I'm not even mad at Penny fans for being upset about her death - I just wish there were some more understanding of thematic consistency, and the importance of the Salem/Ozma conflict were more realised.

The reason I'm invested in Jaune and Cinder, one of many, is how they answer that, and that's why I think the two of them sticking around matters.

[asynca]

Hey asy, can I ask for your help with a really dumb fandom problem? someone in a fandom I'm part of has a blog that sometimes posted kinda mean and nasty stuff. I don't follow them anymore, but their avatar and username was a favorite character of mine from said fandom, and now it's hurting my ability to enjoy that character because every time I see the character's name or image, my first thought is of the nasty person. Am I just out of luck now? Is there anyway I can stop thinking about them?

You need to look up ways to break associative memories (google “break memory associations”). There’s loads of techniques out there and I vaguely remember at uni they taught us how effective of them can be. 

Truthfully I’ve never used them myself with clients - it’s just never come up in casework, so I’m probably not the best person to ask about them. 

I can also tell there’s some sort of unfinished business between you and the person you unfollowed. Perhaps if you finished that business it would help (whether that’s tell them you’re disappointed they turned out to be so nasty and mean that you needed to unfollow them, or telling them that you’re really upset they were mean about someone/something you really care about, or whatever it is)? Taking back power by confronting someone or discussing your differences with them can be enough to make that snap anger you feel at being reminded of that person a fading thing of the past

[kyunsies]

Hi mädch!!! I'm sending this after you said goodnight haha, but I'm glad you got to sleep early today :) you deserve a good night's rest!!!

I will definitely send you pictures of our plants soon so be on the look out for that 👀👀

About being a musician, I do have a degree in music and I studied for four and a half difficult terrible years to get it 🥲 but it was good, truthfully. It was difficult simply because college is hard. Listening to musical elements in mx or Mozart or soundtracks or t swift or literally any song isn't any harder or easier than another. Just different! Different layerings, sections, sounds, timbres, etc. It's very satisfying to be able to pick out sounds and point them out to my sister and maybe explain them a little bit! And I'll check out those shinee react video suggestions, I already know don't call me, so it'll be fun to watch that one!

I think it's really interesting that I've heard mx refer to All About Luv as a "US album" rather than an "English album". It might not mean anything, but more countries than just the US speak English, y'know? So it feels.. intentional? Anyway I will spare you from the extensive (and I mean super extensive) length of thoughts I'm having about their English songs vs Korean and just say a little bit skdjsh

From a musical stand point, Secrets (English song on a Korean album) is objectively just as or more simple than Middle of the Night (English song on the English album) or Sorry I'm Not Sorry (Korean song on a Korean album). Middle of the Night has lovely vocal harmonies and is very active rhythmically and has a lot of different textures. Secrets is just three chords, with a simple melody (a wonderful lovely simple melody), and a decent amount of clear layers with an acoustic feel with drums/guitar/bass/synths/sax/backing vocal ad libs, all of which are pretty active voices. Whereas Sorry I'm Not Sorry is so smooth and has such a chill vibe, with significantly less layers than Secrets (though just as clear) - it's just guitar and vocals at the beginning, and then some very simple drums and bass layer in, and a little bit of keys too (with some sweeet vocal harmonies in the second half that will melt my heart every time!!), but it's all very gentle. And then BEASTMODE (to stay on Fatal Love) has a much heavier feel (ALSO with some sweet harmonies in the opening "ohs" which are so so strong, and won't melt hearts in the same way the harmonies in Sorry I'm Not Sorry do), as well as stylistically different sections with a lot of different musical elements! Sorry I'm Not Sorry is just like.. one style the whole time, which they do beautifully!!! So like, there's already so much variety within albums, and within their entire discography! It makes being a monbebe so... rewarding and satisfying. Like, it feels like there's something here for everyone.

If you got through all that you deserve an award, it's a lot hsksjslsk I could go on and on and on about music, but I'll stop here for now haha. I'm considering doing a series of posts on my blog where I talk about music, but I'm a little nervous to go through with it 😅😅 my sister thinks it'd be awesome, but I'm not super confident to put myself out there like that hehe... we'll see...

Anyway long message!!!!!!!!!! I feel like I haven't told you lately, but talking to you is so so so nice 💖💖 I don't feel any pressure to say things or not say things, I can just.. chat freely! I feel so warm and loved when I read your replies 🥰🥰🥰 thank you for being such a wonderful sweet lovely amazing nice friendly superstar of a person 💖💖💖💖 dkbtho

HI PLS APOLOGIZE I TOOK SO LONG TO ANSWER THIS LKFDSJ but i'm finally getting to it, thank u for being patent with me <3 i've been getting good sleep ever since finishing those exams and getting back a good grade on that massive assignment yesterday so THANK U for checking in :)

about your education !!!! it just seems so hard ;____; like obviously when u are in a specific field for so long, the terminology makes sense bc you use it all the time (like how now one really knows what i'm talking about when i use medical terms lol) so i guess just from and outside perspective it looks hard !!! plus we were taught how to learn the basics of music reading in high school bc i was in choir for 1 semester and i was sooooo bad at it, it never really clicked for me ;_____; but i really look up to you for dedicating your livelihood for something you love !!! you seem to be very knowledgeable <3

and i know what you mean about them referring to all of their english stuff to 'US' stuff and i can understand how frustrating that might be bc there are many countries that speak english as well, not just the US ,,,,,,,,, to me it might just be bc their whole "english team" is from the US and everyone who works on their stuff is from the US, also i think the record label is from the US ? so maybe they're just so used to referring it that way bc those are the ppl they work with ya know? but i totally understand how isolating that must feel for a lot of other ppl, i can't really talk that much on it since i'm from the US myself lol but i totally get it and i think it's very valid if it irks some ppl !!!!

and ldskfjslkdjf i loved reading all of this <3 and i really agree with everything you say !!! and i'm glad u are able to pick apart the different styles for each song, for example i also think secrets is one of the more "simpler" songs on the album (not as simple as BEBE) but like, it works for me bc the sax has a nice improv at the end, and the song is pretty synth-y(?) which are elements that i like to a song lol ; you should really dig into mx's older discography tho!!!!! and although i love love love mx's new music (i think fatal love is one of their best albums) there is something that can be said about the timelessness of mx's older discography too <3 i know i've said this to you before, but one of my fav mx songs of all time is blue moon (composed by joo hehe) and like, ,,,,,,,,, i just still cannot believe that was on a DEBUT album ?????? the way it's layered and just the lofi vibes sound so sophisticated and honestly ahead of its time, and i'm not sure how much you've dove into mx already, but i would love to hear your thoughts on their previous music too <3 !!!!!!!

also you should def make that series on ur blog!!!!! i think it'll be nice for u to reflect on but also be a resource for ppl too <3 i think it's a great idea !!!!!! also , thank u so much for taking the time out of YOUR busy day to talk to me <3 it's been so lovely just chatting and im SUPER glad u feel comfortable enough to come here and spend some time with me bc it really means a lot <3 thank you !!!! and i hope u have had a great day today okay?? take care <3

[filmtrash]

Don't you grow anxious about the content of your blog with the number of your followers growing? I mean don't you feel kinda obligated to satisfy everyone's tastes. I'm asking bc more and more people are following me daily recently and I begin to feel anxious like what if they wouldn't care for my stuff? It's stupid I know bc the worst that might happen is they'd unfollow me,and once I had literally 5 followers feeling comfy about it. But now I start fretting what if I'm not good enough?

Yeah, I can relate. I normally just post what I want to. Obviously I mainly post about CMBYN and Timmy, but this blog is predominantly for all film as that is my passion. Truthfully, I don’t really look at numbers that much. My blog, like your blog, should be an accumulation of everything you love so you can find people that share those interests and you can view it all in one place. I do feel pressure though and have definitely stopped posting about certain things, I do censor myself and I don’t respond to most the hate/negative messages I get because I want this to be a happy/positive place and I have no interest in encouraging discourse and negativity. Honestly, my advice would be to try and stop looking at the numbers because then the motive behind running the blog changes and it becomes a service rather than a hobby

[ganymedesclock]

are you okay, clockie? i definitely don't know you personally well enough to read you so i'm sorry if this is off the mark or invasive.. but i've just noticed you've been a bit self-deprecating lately? you keep mentioning how you 'never shut up about' x theory and how you're 'unbearable' about y theory and i'm just a little worried, as it seems to be coming right up with a bunch of people tearing you down. i hope they aren't getting to you too much. (1/2)

(2/2) i really like your theories! it brightens up my day to see a new su post from you on my dash, and thats REGARDLESS of if i agree with your theory. i like the way you think, and the effort, energy, and care you put into your theories is tangible and honestly pretty inspiring. i hope it doesn't seem to you like everyone thinks about your theories the way those bullies do. theyre a loud and vocal minority, not representatives of the majority. i hope what they say isn't getting to you..

You know, I’m actually always super touched how many people check in with me after I make a more snide/frustrated post. Anon, your words are super sweet and kind.

Truthfully, it may seem like I get an inordinate amount of flack, but, I actually get way more sweethearts like you and good friends giving positive feedback! It just might not seem that way because I usually keep those messages in my inbox so I can look at them when I need a pick-up.

The “I never shut up about/being so annoying about/run my mouth a lot about” is kind of a... I’m a very talkative person in real life as well as online and, being autistic, I tend to infodump a lot about things. I’ve always been kind of a fountain of words, especially when I’m excited, so I guess I’ve developed some apologetic tactics that have become ingrained in my speech habits, a little? Even in contexts like Tumblr, where it doesn’t really make... sense to. I mean if people aren’t interested in my content they’re probably not following my blog and with readmores and such, people can just skim over stuff they don’t have the spoons/interest/what have you to read right this minute.

It’s less that I feel bad for taking up people’s time and more that, at least in personal conversation, I want to encourage people that it’s okay to tell me if they aren’t interested since sometimes people rely on me picking up subtle cues that they don’t care while doing everything they can to seem attentive so as not to be rude, and as long as someone superficially seems interested, I’ll keep on chattering.

At this point, though, it’s a bit more of a relic of my childhood than I think it is a functional element of me? But yeah, I can very easily see how it seems self-deprecating and might worry people. 

You’ve given me some good food for thought, anon, and once again, it’s very sweet of you to check in with me and see how I’m doing.

I don’t even feel like necessarily everyone arguing with me is a ‘bully’, as much as people like to be right and some people have a reflexive desire to share information and get everybody on the same page; I think a lot of them are well-meaning, even if that can potentially come across harshly- heck, I can sure come across harshly.

Have a wonderful day, anon; and you’ll be seeing some new theory content from me in a bit, because I’m going through my inbox right now :>