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shittywriterbrain · 10 months

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HE'S THE WEIRD BISEXUAL UNCLE THAT TELLS FUNNY STORIES WE HAVE WON. WE HAVE SO FUCKING WON

#at first i thought like. oh finally hes eating lunch with them like when donna invited him for christmas dinner #but then he called rose HIS NIECE #and i. god. i did shed a small tear.#my moms like yeah this opens up new possibilities whether they use it or not #but no i think this is rtds way of saying hey. hes going to be okay #he'll be fine. theyll all be fine #and ugh. UGH. IM CRYING AGAIN #doctor who #doctor who spoilers #i love how theyre making exceptions to regenration and shit just so the david tennant doctors can live with their loved ones #its great

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bluewlnteroses · 1 year

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i just keep thinking about harley getting to know the truth about why peter is alone and finding out why people don't remember him and for a moment thinking he's glad he got to meet him after everything went down and immediately feel guilt and shame because its not fair peter went through so much pain and had to leave everyone he knew behind but,,,, just thinking about meeting each other before and getting to know peter and then completely forget him makes his feel sick

#but harley my baby you did #there was another crying teenager at the funeral that knew exactly what you were feeling in that moment #you just don't remember him #i feel like the world could have ended right there and peter wouldn't have notice #theres a blank space since the moment tony died until weeks after the funeral so can u blame him for not remembering harley?#they met in one of the worst days of each other's life #i just can't stop thinking about them realizing they met before and being absolutely devastated on how close they were to losing each other #because yes they met they talked and acknowledge their bond with tony but they were grieving #they talked for a couple of minutes but they didn't keep in contact they didn't become friends just like that #but now they can't possibly think about not being in each other's life #and to think they were close to lose that without even realizing it..#ugh im sad don't pay attention to me #once again i do NOT care about the english language so dont bother i know there might be typos #harley keener #parkner #but platonic parkner works just fine too

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wintergreenoreo · 5 months

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Have happy Strollonso after Brazil 💚💚

#had a brazil 2023 watch party and i need to see this energy again or im gonna cry 😭#look at their smiles 💕😭#ugh this was such a good weekend #fernando alonso #lance stroll #strollonso

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moonspirit · 5 months

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A year and two days ago, I came back to the writing arena with Tomorrow Will Come, a post-canon oneshot that wasn't supposed to spawn four sequels after it, and the crazy talented and wonderful @annawayne gifted me this T_T

(anna pls, I'm overwhelmed every time, you can't keep doing this T_T)

I don't want to sound like I'm tooting my own horn, because fic writers come and go, and there are many who've been in the AA fandom for years - but all the same, I just want to say, I'm happy I started writing again and returned to Tumblr. I've met so many wonderful people on here (you know exactly who all you are), and it doesn't feel like a year, more like a lifetime, and there is nowhere else I'd rather be. So... I'm glad this fic was the one that half brought me here.

As for this... This BEAUTIFUL art T_T Anna. Your talent knows no bounds. This is beyond fucking magnificent, I'm so grateful, thank you so much T/////T

That said, holy fucking shit do I need to re-write the whole damn fic because 🥲 I'm wincing a bit at my prose from back then...

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alluralater · 8 months

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just finished moving around/reorganizing my entire bedroom. i have cried three times today but now i’m laying in bed, my room smells of roses, and i’m eating french bread. this was not the bipolar hot girl mania i was promised but damn if i don’t do it well

#i haven’t been sleeping well at all whatsoever for the past two weeks and it’s gotten to the point where my dreams are so vivid but not just #like ugh i can’t explain it on here because im not about to open a whole can of worms like that in my tags and be like revealing #family secrets.#essentially i am having normal dreams but they are horrendously vivid and of no real purpose.#i woke up fucking like completely upset this morning and then started crying #my roommate thinks it’s because i haven’t been sleeping + everything else going on #and like ya know what she’s PROBABLY right #but even still i just need my body to LISTEN TO ME and stop being all sensitive!!!#i legitimately almost texted the loml this long text today and thank fuck i didn’t because who knows where that would lead #but i’ve been having dreams about them too and it’s frustrating me. like the universe is trying beyond all measure to push us back together #and i just have to keep saying no. it’s like this test of morality except it never fucking ENDS and the consequence is actually pleasure and #relief beyond measure. like— to even just kiss them again? to hear them say my name again.#whenever we’re out at the same time i can feel them staring at me and i can see them in my peripherals watching me #just fucking forcing this love into me. the feeling of their hands on my body and all of their questions about how i’m doing #god i can feel all of it.#i nearly fucking threw up last time a few weeks ago when they kept watching me and i got so overloaded with emotions and my fucking stomach #wouldn’t stop turning. but anyways right like— i cannot be with them and i don’t want to be. like yes im still attracted to them and yes i #feel all of these feelings but it stops me dead in my tracks when i remember what they said and the things they did.#i am not the woman who bends my convictions because i love someone. i can’t be that person. i won’t be that person. not for anyone and #not for them. but i see them in my dreams anyways and it is all too real and too present. it’s hardly ever the present so why. why why why?#it makes me terrified thinking that i will one of these nights just say yes and they’ll kiss me and everything that means anything in myself #will virtually mean nothing. like i won’t be a good person because i’ve knowingly allowed them to have me.#so anyways yeah and the fact that my snapchat memories and everything else are just FILLED with pictures and videos of us is killing me.#i really am scared that i’ll just give in. and what worse is that i would just double down and not tell anyone. i wouldn’t fucking #tell a soul if we did anything because i just know it isn’t right. and the fact that i know i wouldn’t be honest means i KNOW it’s bad.#so what the fuck. the fuck am i supposed to do when i have all these dreams and even just the ones about my mom and my brother #my family- i want to talk to them about it. i want to fucking cry to them and tell them how much it hurts that they hurt people and i’m just #some occasional exception to that because they love me. and i want to fucking scream. i want to know why. i want to fuck them until they #can barely breathe and then do it all over again. i want to feel their perfect fingers inside me and i want their mouth on mine. i fucking #HATE that they couldn’t be a good person. ugh okay anyways why did you read this??

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opens-up-4-nobody · 16 days

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#my eyes hurt from the smoke. and also probably the crying #bc my life choices and all that #but tomorrow i have my 1st control freak class for lonely losers #v curious abt the demographics #like who tf attends a class like this #i am attending this class as i prepare myself emotionally to yet again exercise extreme control over my life. bc taking it easy isnt working #and i continue to b no thoughts empty head about every single paper i ever read. fun. fun. fun. lov that #did learn today that im more emotionally open than most people who r overly controlled. cool. great. i think that probably makes me less #intolerable than ur average contol freak 😎#also i just cant stand the idea of being wrong and so fucking inflexible i cant tell im the problem. therefore i must #believe i am constantly wrong #ugh. im sweepy. take me out to the river and let me drown #unrelated

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kinos-fortress-2 · 10 months

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does this even looks like a tf2 fanart anymore

#just experimenting!#i was gonna say im gonna delete this later bc i will ofc change the colouring here but just wanted to show bc i think is pretty #ONLY THIS ONE DRAWING bc is more... pretty me thinks but totally not from the way i wanted to go #but yeah little spoiler for something im doing bc i am so drunk and in love with them i cry a little bit but im fine now #i just love love #kino art #piss mauling #this looks very far away from my art style... but it reminded of my older style too... and like those 2016 shipp art if ykwim #this looks so personal im sorry i promise i will draw funny gore tf2 ugly art back again dont unfollow me bc im happy tonight is 1am buak #- i just wanna feel... happy and pretty and being in love space thats. how im feeling right now... dont drink wine guys my last words #watercolors dont go w my style i just realized that... but this looks pretty for me imo i feel kinda happy with this but is not the idea tb #ughhhh that sniperpauling playlist got me in the feels #really. this doesnt even looks like tf2 art anymore literally like. what tf2 game did yall play??#this two are basically my ocs atp #im so annoying with them ugh

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all-thestories-aretrue · 1 month

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Holy fuck y'all i should NOT be awake 😭

#p #i need to be up in six hours 😭😭#i had an awful exhausting evening #my hamster that i had before moving passed away #the car i bought not even two years ago is totaled and unfixable #i lost one of the gigs i thought i had secured for the school year #it is pms hell week for me and i keep swinging wildly between utter fully body rage and complete overwhelming despair and anxiety #i want to cry but ive done enough crying tonight thank you!!!!#please let tomorrow be kinder i desperately need it #please let the jobs ive emailed tonight email me back #and let the pay be good #i also have sooooo much to do before next tuesday oh my god #i need to prep for our session on saturday #finish lesson planning for the summer camp #finish character creation #grocery shop #quick clean of the house bcuz lord knows i wont be doing it while at the camp #i still havent received a v important piece of mail #figure out how to pay my taxes and insurance #prep for the meeting i have monday morning re new school year including some brain storming #reviewing the pacing calendar and handbook and looking at the google drive again #and im being social this entire weekend agh #plus look for jobs i guess??? bcuz money is needed #and theres family drama 🙃#ugh i should probably not be posting this on main #perhaps i will delete later ugh #life is just hard atm it will get better it always does #and i will not lose my rental nor will i be unable to pay my taxes and bills #it will be FINE #because i will make it fine

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zaynes-left-chesticle · 7 months

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YESS!! I just FINALLY just got through stage 40 of the Directional Ice trials with HIGHLY under-ranked memories courtesy of the memory pair... and beat stages 41 and 42 as well!!!

Now my next question is wHY T'F CAN I STILL NOT BEAT OPEN TRIAL STAGE 38?!?! FFS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#ash battle cries #ive been crying about this for 4 weeks now #lol and im going to cry about it until i finally get past it #love and deepspace #ive said it 10 times and ill say it again... there DOES NOT need to be a 3rd wave in that level with that short amount of time #i freaking did better without the memory pair but still nowhere close.... UGH #i got the POS wyrmlord down to 2 HP bars but ran out of time -_-

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junkartie · 10 months

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Ive literally spent a week in and out of the vet trying to make sure my budgie is ok this is exhausting fr. Promise im not back to my old ways of not drawing i just have a lil guy to prioritize

#:( idk whats up w him man #even the avian isn’t sure #he was fine for a lil while but hes back to being lethargic and throwing up(?)#hes a runt and is super susceptible to illness so ive just been so worried :(#hes 2 yrs old!! and has the body of a 4 month old #ugh #im taking him again tomorrow for more antibiotics but its so mcuh for his little body :(((((#bro is racking up my bills though #🐺 im gonna cry

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stormyrainyday · 1 month

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exam tomorrow i am so cooked - only studied half the bacteria on the syllabus - read 6/113 pages from the forensics doc and slept through every class - did not appear for any community health class and all the professors know everyone by name

#chat should i end it #it cant go worse than the neuro exam right #neuro exam i started crying during the anatomy verbal portion and i couldnt compose myself so the physiology teacher just kinda looked at m #and was like dude arent u gonna be a doctor can you get it together #AND THEN i got my period on the way home #and i was like I KNEW I WASNT A WEAK ASS BITCH #but it doesnt matter bc all my professors think im a weak ass bitch do you see my problem #theres only one exam i havent cried in and thats the 2nd year finals #bc i was sick the entire year i pulled the sorry i was on steroids for like 2 months #and incapacitated every night curled up sobbing with a heating pad #it wasnt in my control #this def was tho #so like i cant even have the fuck it not my problem anymore attitude #i almost wish i had debilitating migraines again bc at least then i could just sleep all day #instead of having a doctor pat my abdomen every month and ask me if i have anxiety #sorry tmi #ugh im so fucked for this exam

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fella-lovin-fella · 4 months

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what is it about nerve pain that makes you so icked and nauseous? like ow my leg hurts let me get crazy about it

#idk why today is so bad but i wanna cry :(#it's absolutely not the worst it's been #but idk i guess maybe im tired #of being in pain #and it is a Vulnerability Factor that makes me feel less emotionally stable #but ugh #bleh also #not mlm #dantes talking again

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antisocialgaycat · 21 days

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#just a load of garbage #dont mind me yall #i feel as though im fucking falling apart #i've been crying myself to sleep every single night for the past week #and its just getting worse #i think the whole thing with that boy has just been the thing that fucking ended everythign for me #and by everything i mean me not wanting to kill myself #its not even that deep i dont even care that much #i swear i dont #its just the whole #all my friends are dating other people or have dated other people who cared about them #and i know my friends care about me and love me #but its not the same bc theres always someone they love more #and it sounds so selfish but i just want a best friend again #i dont know what happened #but somewhere along the line i lost my best friend #and i havent had one since #im close friends with all of my friends #but it just feels so fucking lonely #thats the whole thing #im surrounded by so many people in my fg #and its just so fucking #lonely #bc theres always someone who is more loved #and i just #ugh #idk #and its also like #im so sick of getting crushes on people #i wish it would just stop

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delicatetaysversion · 1 year

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i yearn to say the words im bi, actually and be unafraid and angry at the other person for assuming im straight instead of being scared and hoping they won't tell everyone and they won't leave

#IM BI ACTUALLY #slay 😭#sorry it's i didn't choose this town i dream of getting out hours again #17 year old me fighting crying begging dad to let her go to college outside this state was so right this place is itni si and everyone is #the exact same yucky agarwal samaj person one hundred percent parent approved ugh i hate it i want to puke #i say i talked to a new person dad asks ob what's her surname im like oh um gupta and he smiles proudly like girl no she's boring and hates #barbie

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shortnsweetgf · 6 months

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#im fighting SO hard not to isolate myself rn #but my friends (irls) are not making it easier on me by ghosting me #i just wanna feel okay again :(#my brain has been so fuzzy and mushy and cloudy lately #i wanna cry #i shouldve talked to my doctor about getting new meds #but too late now #UGH #living in my brain is so fucking exhaustive idk how i survive everyday

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opens-up-4-nobody · 4 months

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#ay. i wish i wasnt such a cry bby. its so annoying #like pls just ignore my tears. i promise im fine. like probably #i did my target orientation today bc my background check went thru and my 1st full days starts tomorrow at 4.30am #and i just get overwhelmed by new situations. plus the humiliation being forced to take an academic break. plus i kept thinking abt how when #i moved to town my mom and i did a lot of my shopping there to fill out my room #itll b fine after a week or so. im just a lil overwhelmed rn. plus i filled out my resume for possibly getting a government job and asked #for recommendations. so it feels more real that i might not be going back to school in the fall and that's also overwhelming #and i have to focus on getting my masters stuff tied together this summer so im gonna have to meet with my old boss probably next week #again. just a lil overwhelmed. ugh. itll b fine #unrelated

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