#angelversary

[nikkiserenity]

Mackenzie Breann Naylor ( @relatableemo / @gloupyall ), you left us 4 years ago today. We love and miss you so much. 💕 I’m so thankful I got to know you. We may not have been super close but we got to model together, got published in your first magazine together, worked on a modeling reality show together, and we even got to hang out once or twice outside of the show. It was a blessing to know you and I’m looking forward to seeing you again someday. Photoshoot by: @brad_prime Other friends featured: @nikkiserenityartist , @chelsimckeal13 , Jessica Dawn Lewis Production/show: Local Ambition by @alwayslatetv Magazine: @modernmodelmagazine #model #models #modeling #stlmodel #stlmodeling #stlmodelingnetwork #stlouismodel #stlouismodels #stlouismodeling #saintlouismodel #saintlouismodels #saintlouismodeling #angelversary #imissyou #missyou #iloveyou #weloveyou #friend #friends #RIP #restinpeace #bestie #beautiful #bestfriend #bestfriends #besties #restinheaven #wemissyou @stltvchannel @stlouisfashion @stlmodelingnetwork @alwayslatetvapparel @_friends_pics @stlouisgram @stlouisonly @stlouisfashionpage @stlouismag @stlouisamerican @reprsntstl @creativestlouis @saintlouisradio @saintlouisevents @saintlouiselite @_.friendsphotos._ @lafayetteparkstl @stlcreatives @stlouis.mo @stlouis.missouri @beautifulpeoplestl @stlwonders @explorestlouis (at Worldwide) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cmo_RKkO7Pc/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[cindy-chu]

Three years today. 🖤🖤🖤 Sandy, sometimes you’re in my dreams and when I wake up, I lay there trying to hold onto that feeling of your presence. You are missed every day. My meimei, I’ll always be your big sis no matter what lifetime we’re in. Your ferociousness and energy are things I will try to embody and teach to my future children. Whiney forever, munchkin. 😭😭😭🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 #angelversary #sisters #siblingloss #grief #griefjourney (at 𝓣𝓱𝒆 𝓤𝒏𝒊𝓿𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒆) https://www.instagram.com/p/ClRycawSWP0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[anderson-residence]

Dates of Note

18th - Chocolate Cupcake Day

26th - Howl at the Moon Day

30th - Candy Corn Day

31st - Halloween

Important Dates

11th - Cole's Angelversary, the date Cole died in his death/ghost verse

15th - Mayson's Birthday

Dash Icon

Lana Vampire, my current icon.

And Lana Candy

Anticipated Theme

Halloween time! Time for all the spooky and fall related threads and things! Casteel makes his grand return as well!

Drafts and Threads

4 drafts. 3 written. 1 Partially written. All need to be queued. Accepting random tags/starters/plotting/ect.

Inbox and Memes

My inbox is currently empty so feel free to come poke the muses. Send me random prompts for headcanons or drabbles or send meme/prompts for drabbles or starters. Memes can always be sent in no matter how long ago I reblogged them! Here are my meme tags for you to look through: meme, memes, sumo stop barking at the mail man: memes

Here is also links to some memes I'm currently really feeling/wanting for quick reference:

Fall activities prompts

Your muse finds out mine is a vampire

Your muse finds out mine is a werewolf

One of our muses guards the other

Make my muse smile

Childish activities

Who are you? My muse meets yours in the past

My muse sends yours a farewell letter

Rainy day prompts

My muse is dead

Feel free to send these or any other meme I have reblogged or anything else!

Tracking

See my new thread tracking post for thread tracking info.

This is a monthly updated post of general thread details to keep track of which threads we have going. Check it out here.

Muse Levels

How active each muse is expected to be. Even if I’m really feeling  one muse over others all muses are open for interactions. The level  just means how likely I am to be the first to start things with that  muse. (random  asks, memes, starters, randoms starters, drabbles,  plotting, etc) but I’ll be more than happy to answer asks or plot things  for all my muses. I just tend to forget which muses I have sometimes  and need a reminder from those interested.

Mayson - High  Lana - Very High Cole - Medium Sarah - Medium  Ava - High Niles - Low  Neilos - Low  Carter - Low to Medium Connor - Low Hank - Medium to High

Verses

How active ideas for each of my verses is expected to be. All verses are always open to plotting and new verse ideas are welcome. This is just how likely I'll be to start something on my own.

Vampire - Very High Werewolf - High Royal - High Alien - Medium Merperson- Low Ghost - Low to Medium Black Eyed Children - Medium Lab Born - Medium Android - Medium Demon - Medium to High

[leticiahewett]

Looking back at my early stages of grief (taken from my journal)

This will be all over the place because my feelings and thoughts were all over the place back then (from my journal).. I’m writing this in May 2024 approaching the 3 year angelversary..

My house felt eerily quiet, it was once filled with love, laughter and noise..

I’d get Waves of crying and sadness wash over me

My head and legs feeling heavy

An occasional ache around my heart when I thought of Isiah

my stomach feels like it’s constantly stuck on a rollercoaster..

thinking of eating something doesn’t come to mind I remember people forcing me to eat because I’d gone 2 days without food..

sleep was scarey, night time was scarey while the world slept the thoughts and feelings began.. some nights I couldn’t lay on my back cos a thought like “this is how isiah is laying in his coffin” or when it was dark I’d think “what if isiah woke up all he’d see is darkness” these thoughts would send me spiralling and give me anxiety so until I was able to control these thoughts I’d sleep when the sun came up or whenever my body got exhausted

Some nights I’d cry myself to sleep either in my husbands arms or when everyone was sleeping.. sometimes I’d just lay sobbing quietly so I didn’t get heard I wanted people to think I’m strong and I’m okay I didn’t want them to worry about me..

connecting with other people including my Husband was far from my mind too but I did want family around me..

I’ve grieved for many family members but never to this extent, being this vulnerable was scarey and weird.. I felt like I was a sook every time I shed a tear and then I’d remind myself I’m allowed to cry, my tears show my love for isiah

walking into his empty room was too real it was scarey walking In there for the first time after his departure..

On occasion it felt like isiah was still in Sydney with his aunty..

so many times I clutched my chest full sobbing or howling.. the heartache was unbearable my head was a cloudy mess some days I couldn’t think straight..

I have many questions why did he die? why didn’t he msg for a ride home? why didn’t he get a ride from someone else? is there a way I can bring him back? why did this happen? did he know how much I/we loved him? could this have been prevented? how could he just be left like an animal?, did he know his time was coming to an end? if they stopped could he been saved? how will I cope when this finally hits me properly?

Some days I just stayed in bed and only moved if visitors showed up..

I’d carry Isiah’s shirt around with me cos it was a connection to him

I shut down a lot and stopped talking to people.. I was scared of breaking and crying in front of people or thought people didn’t truly want to hear my thoughts or feelings it would make them feel uncomfortable..

I became a complicated person.. I was weak but yet I was strong.. I was tough yet I was sensitive.. I was scared of many things like a lil child..

I wanted to be with isiah but yet I wasn’t suicidal.. I stopped caring for myself cos what was the point..

I watched babadook and other YouTube movies or series surrounding death, grief or loss.

I even downloaded apps such as spirit talker and ghosttube.. I did everything I could think of to help me try to understand death and what happens in the afterlife

[kiwipit]

happy angelversary to my favourite uncle. I wish my baby sister met u tio i miss u so much

[amothersgriefjourney]

Struggling

I sit here today and I seem to only be able to cry. You being gone for 21 months has hit me harder than any of the other angelversaries. I do not know why. It snuck up on me and it has pushed me back in my journey. Is it that your being here is fading? Your being here, your voice, your smell, your laugh – I cannot recall these things anymore. You are now becoming only a memory and it is so hard.…

[emotionaldumps]

new year...new me?

jk, maybe not so much a new “me” but i will be continuing my gym sessions to be more confident and get healthier and my last name changes this year! new year means new goals, one big one i plan on achieving is continuing to get back into reading, and maybe read 2 or 3 books a month.

we’re leaving 2022 behind and entering 2023. 

this new year will hold so many memories, adventures and emotions for all of us, but especially for me personally. 

i’m going home in february for a short weekend and again in june for a week. c& i celebrate 5 years together in april. my nephew turns 18 and graduates high school in june. i turn 30 in july (hello potential dirty thirty? lol as if! also how am i almost the same age as my sister when she died?). my son turns 10 in august. c & i get married in october. in the midst of that will be more family time with our families. i will get to see family and friends i never see often more than once.

this year also marks a decade since our lives turned upside down. 10/27 will be ten years since we lost grandma, which that date is also our rehearsal dinner for the wedding. i have no doubt that she’s okay with sharing her angelversary date with us beginning to celebrate our wedding. 

my birthday (7/1) marks 10 years since i heard my sister’s voice and 11/1 marks ten years since she left us. it’s surreal it’s been this long already. it’s been a decade since i’ve physically seen her and got to hug her tight and tell her i love her to her face and having to come to realize it’s now been the same length of time since any hope for a possibility of rekindling our relationship has died with her sucks...it hurts. 

30 years young and i’ve lived almost more than half of it without my sister in my life. she’s missing out on so much while also being spiritually present for everything at the same time. i have to get married without her being there for every single part of it. i’m so thankful to have her childhood best friend there to be with us, as a “stand in” so-to-speak. 

here’s to continuing to make my angels proud of me this year, to physical and emotional changes, potential (hopeful) new job, soaking up every second of wedding bliss and everything in between. 

here’s to 2023 being better than 2022. cheers. 

[melye1981]

I Hate Liars... Just Be Straight Up!

So, my windows get busted out on THEE day of my mom's 1 year death angelversary, and my next door neighbor has one of his wondows busted out, too. Well, somehow, he gets his window fixed quickly, and mine still have boards in place of the glass, and he said it's gonna take a MONTH to get my windows in, because "They're double paned, and the glass company had to special order them", yeah right. We have the same landlord, yet his window is fixed immediately, and it's been nearly a month, this happened on Septermber 23rd this year, my mom died on that same day LAST year, and I have a funny intuitive feeling that my landlord isn't gonna replace my windows, and that the boards are gonna stay on them until I move. I'm so done renting from a slumlord, but I can't afford to move anywhere else. Where else am I gonna find a private landlord who'll rent me a 2 bedroom single family home for $600 a month? NOWHERE!!! That's what I'm living in right now. My landlord and his daughter decided SIX MONTHS after my mom dies, that they're "selling this house" and I have to move out. This was in March when I was told this. I've been on realtor.com looking for places and there is NOTHING in my price range. I know that idiot next door is lying about my windows, I guess my safety isn't important. Lovely neighbor I have... NOT I'd like to smack him in the face with a tire iron. But jail is a thing, and I'm not tryin' to go that route, so instead, I grin and bear it. This is so unfair. I always get treated like shit by the landlord, and he's not getting rent next month until the glass is in my windows and the boards are taken off. This is bullshit and I don't like liars. Why can't he just admit that they're not gonna fix the windows until I leave? Because he thinks he's slick, that's why. Bitch, Aquarius has DAMN good intuition, and I know when I'm being lied to. I don't like that feeling. Grrrrr lord help me please. Everyone reading this, please keep me in your prayers for a new place to live that isn't run by a slumlord. I need a nice landlord who actually will fix shit when it needs to be fixed. I'm mentally drained, and I'm starting to feel the effects of the decline in my mental health from all the stress. I'm bipolar and I can't take anymore bullshit from anyone. Ever since my mom died a year ago, I have not had ONE whole day where someone isn't tryin' to fuck with me. I need space, and nobody wants to respect that. What would you do in this situation?

[enter-the-phantom]

HAPPY ANGELVERSARY 🎉👀

~ starshine-selfships

AHHHH THANK YOU BESTIEEEE 😭🥺🥰

[jtcool2022]

Today is both a good and bad day for me. Good: it’s my godbrother Courtney’s birthday today and it’s also me and my boyfriend Marwan Kenzari’s anniversary. Bad: it’s my brothers angelversary he died all the way back in October 2016 on the 3rd. So happy birthday Courtney happy anniversary Marwan and happy angelversary Julian. 😎😘😟. @firstofhisbloodclaatname @marwankenzari @jmckitty_813 @girlpowerincolor @jademckenzari. https://www.instagram.com/p/CjRGiNPgFJ8/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[bionicbasil]

Basil Remembrance Day ~ 4th Angelversary ~ Come Sit A Spell With Me And Let's Reminisce A Little.

[runawaywidow]

Summer in Florida is - Hot

Summer in Florida is – Hot

[grieve-and-bereave]

Today marks one year without you. That’s the longest we’ve ever been apart. I miss you like crazy and I just wish you were here. The world is not the same without you at my side. My partner in crime, my buddy since day one. My big brother. How could half of me be gone? I just can’t wrap my head around it.

[fightingxdragonsxwithxyou]

I miss my best friend everyday, but I didn’t realize what day it was or why my heart was so heavy with grief today. Realizing the date made me feel so guilty for not putting it together sooner.

I swear I will never forget you or your legacy, I’m sorry I couldn’t celebrate you more today.

[amothersgriefjourney]

21 Month Angelversary

My beautiful amazing boy. It has been 21 months. I still cannot describe what it felt like to lose you to others. It was excruciating, and I felt numb at the same time. My heart screamed and yet my mind was silent, covered in a fog. I cannot seem to put it into better words, I know that what I am describing here most likely does not make any sense to someone who has not experienced the gravity of…