#angst no comft

[sannasruins]

it didn't hurt, right?

bakugo katsuki x reader

type: angst

warnings: cheating (on reader), smoking, f!reader

a/n: hi it's been a while, got writer's block but then something bad happened to me which always makes the writing juices flow, also i didn't proofread, i will never proofread

word count: 2k

The strike of a lighter lit in front of your face, you weren't one to smoke, in fact, you had never smoked a cigarette before. After all that had happened to you today though, you thought you needed a vice. You needed something, anything, too dull, to numb, to take your mind off what had happened. What you had heard, and now this dull ache refusing to leave your chest. You let the flame go out.

Leaning against the cold brick wall in the dark, in the alleyway of the convince store where you had just bought a pack of Marlboro's, the pretty sad girls always seemed to smoke those, and a matching red lighter. You huddled into yourself, hands stuffed in your jacket pockets, fist clamped around the box you had just bought. Your chilled body illuminated slightly by the neon lights of the city that spilled into your hiding place, you shakily take out the box, struggling for a second on how to open it before, with shaky hands, successfully ripping into it. You tapped out a single thin white stick and brought it to your lips, before restriking the lighter and bringing it to the tip. 

You inhaled deeply, and paused before you began coughing, it felt as if you were going to cough your lungs right out of your body with how hard they were wracking your entire being. You bent over, hands on your knees as your whole body shook with the motions of your coughs, the cigarette, forgotten and extinguished on the ground by your feet, while this was a miserable feeling, you thought to yourself, it did replace that horrible knot of anxiety in your stomach for a few moments. Maybe it was worth it. 

You thought back to what had caused this rash change in behavior for you, it wasn’t too long ago, just a few weeks, maybe even a handful of minutes if you didn’t count the foreboding feeling leading up to it. 

You had been dating your boyfriend, Pro Hero Bakugo Katsuki for 2 years now, but had known him since the days that he was an upper classman for you at UA high, you in the support class a year under him, got semi acquainted with him as he frequently was breaking his equipment. After he graduated you both lost touch but when you graduated and found a job as a hero equipment repair apprentice at the same agency he was working at, the two of you began to interact once more. 

You had had a crush on him since your schooling days, your girl friends always calling you crazy for liking such an abrasive boy, but you liked his candor, and his mental fortitude. The two of you found your quick wit in common and you could sympathize with him in a way that it seemed that a lot of people could not, which you didn’t fully understand but you didn’t let it get to you.

He asked you out 2 years after you had started working at the pro hero agency, he had brought a bouquet of your favorite flowers, you were surprised he had known them, but you happily said yes with years in your eyes. Your girlhood crush had been realized; how many people can say that. 

You asked him later what made him ask you out, what he liked about you. He told you he liked your sweetness, your kind eyes, and maybe it was a red flag that he didn't mention how brave you were, or your quick hands, or your impressive talents. But maybe not, it’s hard to tell at this point. 

He was sweet for a while, attentive, present, though it did drop off eventually, maybe after a year, maybe a bit sooner. You could shrug that off though, he was a pro hero, he was busy protecting the city and the entirety of Japan.

The two of you moved in together on your one-year anniversary, you thought it was so sweet when he presented you with the key to his apartment in a little box with a bow. Though was that just lazy behavior? Did he do that because he didn’t know what else to do or didn’t care to do anything else? You were questioning everything about the of your relationship at this point. 

You hadn’t brought much from your apartment, just a couple boxes of stuff besides clothes, since his place was already furnished with things much nicer than yours. You didn’t think you would be needing any of your old furniture again, no point in paying for storage for things you don’t need, so you sold it off for a little bit of money to put into your savings, you secretly had the thought of ‘wedding’ when saving the money. 

You chuckle bitterly in the alleyway you’ve been reminiscing in, “stupid” you murmur to yourself.

It was definitely dumb of you to sell almost all your belongings when moving in with your first serious boyfriend, but you were young and dumb and in love. 

You were happy cooking lunches for the both of you, and then making breakfast, before going to work an 8-hour shift, often having to put in overtime due to unexpected or urgent repairs needing to be done, and then coming home, cleaning your shared living spaces, and starting on dinner before he came home. It became a routine, and you didn’t mind, he worked hard, and you loved him, so putting in some extra effort didn’t hurt, right?

You loved him. He loved you. It didn't hurt, right?

He had been acting a little more distant than usual in the last few weeks, you had tried talking to him, getting him to open up, letting him know you were there for him, giving him his space, but no matter what you did, nothing seemed to work, he just seemed to be getting further and further away from you, coming home later, pushing his dinner around his plate but not eating, and even when the two of you slept in the same bed, side by side, it was as if you were worlds apart. You had no idea what was going on, you equated it to his job, it was hard, he had to watch people get hurt, he had to watch people die, he had to bear the guilt of not being able to save those claimed by death. You felt helpless sitting there watching him drift away but you tried everything, there was nothing left for you to do.

He came home earlier than his new normal that day, the sun was still in the sky, albeit, setting, the orange fingers of light stretching out through the clouds as if grasping onto the day, not wanting to leave the bliss of unknowing. 

“Oh, hi honey!” you greeted him as you heard the door unlock and swing open, “you’re home earlier than you’ve been, so I don’t have dinner ready quite yet,”. 

You continued to happily babble as he took off his shoes by the entrance and closed the door behind him before making his way to the kitchen where you stood and took a seat at the dining table. He ran a hand through his hair, tousling the spikes slightly, in a way he did when he was anxious, but you didn’t see the movement as you had you back turned, happily stirring away at a pot on the stove.

“We need to talk.” He stated. 

You felt your stomach drop in anxiety, you didn’t like his tone of voice, it was curt, it was clipped, it was cold. It was unfamiliar. 

“O-” your voice caught in your throat, “Okay Hun, well dinners almost ready so, like 10 more minutes and we can talk over it okay? Thats fine, right?” you asked, more trying to reassure yourself than anything else. 

“Y/n,” again, the unfamiliar tone, “turn off the stone, that can wait, we need to talk now.”

You slowly released the iron grasp you didn’t know you had on the wooden spoon you held in your hand, a sizable lump growing in your throat, before you inhaled through your nose and acknowledged him.

“Okay, Katsuki.” you turned the burner off, and whipped your palms quickly down your jeans once, steeling yourself before you turned to face him, sitting at the table, which suddenly looked alien to you. 

You walked stiffly towards the chair you always sat in, opposite him, and looked at his face, there was an indescribable expression on it, but it was stern, and chilly. His lips were pressed into a hard line, and his eyes had a storm of emotion in them, determination, but behind that, maybe, guilt. 

You pulled the chair out and sat, dread already filling your stomach as your mind filled with 1,000 ideas as to what he had to say, though nothing could have prepared you for the words that were about to leave his mouth.

“I found someone else.”

Time slowed for you.

He continued, “and I think I love her, more than I love you, I think more than I could ever love you.”, every second felt agonizing as you processed what he had just told you, someone else? You had a million questions, and they all started falling out of your mouth, tumbling and choking you along with your tears. 

“Why? Who? For how long? When did this start? Where did you meet her? What do you mean? Can’t I do anything to fix this? Why are yo-,” You were stuttering and stumbling over your words before he held up a hand to stop your onslaught of questions.

“I can’t say why, I didn’t do it to hurt you, I still care about you, I do still love you, I just,” he paused and put his head in his hands, sighing, “I love her more.”

“I can’t tell you wh-” you stood up, the sound of your chair scrapping against the wooden floor cutting him off. Fat, hot tears ran down your cheeks and you walked past him and towards the front door. 

He stood up as you passed, the sharp sound of his chair on the floor abrasive in your ears, and you flinched, squinting your eyes closed.

He grabbed your arm tightly, perhaps he didn’t know his own strength, but the force was bruising. You tried once to shake him off, but he didn’t let go. “Y/n, sit back down and listen to me,” he tried to command you.

You tried again to shrug him off, and when he again refused to release you from his grasp, your voice, raspy and harsher, and in a tone, he had never heard escape from your lips, confronted him. 

“Let me go Bakugo.”

His hand loosened and you were able to finally shrug your bicep out of his fisted hand.

He stood there silently watching as you made your way to the front door, shoving your feet into the first pair of shoes you saw and grabbing a jacket, before opening the door and heading out, slamming it behind you. 

That is how you had found yourself, now sitting on the ground in the alleyway on the side of a convenience store, knees to your eyes as you shook silently with sobs.

You lowered your knees and again reached into your jacket pocket, pulling out the little box and lighter, deciding to try again. You brought the cigarette back up to your shaky lips and repeated the steps, click of the lighter, bring the flame in close, let the flame die, inhale. Ignore the burn in your chest, exhale.

It didn’t hurt, right?

a/n: there will not be a part two, this was lightly based on an experience that happened to me, and i won't want to write a fake future. even if his actions end up coming and biting him in the ass though, i have moved past it, as i am not going to spend my youth full of regret and rage, it doesn't hurt anyone but me. I hope all of my readers understand. <3

[tinkerbelle05]

Masterlist for ATWOW

Map:

Angst = ☔️

Fluff = 🎂

AU = 👽

Hurt/Comft = ☂️ —> ☀️

Hurt = ☂️

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Lo’ak

Five Things He Loves About You 🎂 (Headcanon)

Loving You 🎂 (Fic)

I’ll Fight for You ☔️, ☂️ —> ☀️(Fic)

Just go to sleep 🎂 (Fic)

Neteyam

Five Things About Loves About You 🎂 (Headcanon)

Modern!Neteyam x Reader( Headcanons)  👽

I'll teach you 🎂

Kiri

Coming soon...

Ao’nung

I See You ☔️, 🎂

Ao’nung x Neteyam

Afpawng ☔️, ☂️

Sully Family (Familial)

Nìsoaia  🎂

Modern AU Headcanons 👽

Just Loc It! 🎂 (Fic)

Unwanted Protection

Tuk

Coming soon…

Jake Sully 

Coming soon...

Neytiri

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Neytiri/Jake

Coming soon…

Rotxo

Coming soon...

Ronal & Tonowari’s family (Familial)

Ronal/Tonowari x child!reader 🎂 (Headcanon)

Experiencing your firsts 🎂 (Part 1)(Headcanon)

Experiencing your first 🎂 ☔️ (Part 2) (Headcanon)

Ronal/Tonowari

Coming soon…

Tsireya

Coming soon…

Multi

The Way They Love Their Drinks (Headcanon) 🎂

We’ll Protect You☂️ —> ☀️ (Headcanon)

Series

You Are Enough Series: Part 1, Part 2 ☔️, ☂️ —> ☀️

[rphunter]

currently on season 2 of Shadow and Bone and i'm absolutely dying for an ocxcc (open to doubles!) rp! 🏹 - i'm open to almost any and every idea that we come up with, hurt/comft, angst, different tropes, possible nfsw, ect! - please be literate to advanced literate (a good 3-4 paragraphs minimum) like myself because i do love details! it makes the story more alive. don't rush me for replies though because i do work and go to university and just have a life outside of roleplaying in general! - i haven't completely read all the books yet so i'd like to keep the rp more on the show than anything. as for where i am in the show i'm on episode 4 of season 2! at the moment i'm dying for someone to play Nikolai for my oc and i'm more than happy to do a double up where i can play just about any character for your side!

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[findyourrp]

🏹 hi! i’m a 21 y/o literate to advanced literate roleplayer looking to rp in the fandom 'The Boys'. i'm currently rewatching the show for a second time and i'm dying to do an ocxcc (will happily double up) story at the moment! i personally have no triggers other than one or two we will discuss in private but please know that there are some triggering topics that may come up in the rp so please let me know what makes you uncomfortable so we can both enjoy the rp! that being said i'm more than happy to include dead dove topics as with some canon characters dead dove may come up 🕊️. some extra info and rules to know: - right now i'm in season 2! - i will happily double up and play any character (except Stormfront, she's the one character i won't ever rp for a pairing) you'd like for your side but please keep it fair for both sides and i will do the same. - i'm open to almost any and every idea that we come up with, hurt/comft, angst, different tropes, ext, anything! - please be literate to advanced literate like myself because i do love details! it makes the story more alive. don't rush me for replies though because i do work and go to university and just have a life outside of roleplaying in general! - i haven't gotten around to watching Gen V so don't ask for characters from that show, ik it's the same universe and what not but i just haven't really cared to watch it soooo don't ask for characters i don't know please :). - will only rp here on tumblr or discord, no other platforms. characters i'm looking to pair with my oc (no specific order): - Billy Butcher - MM (would kill for MM rn😩) - Queen Maeve - Homelander - Black Noir like and i'll get to all the likes as soon as possible :)

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[prpfs]

🏹 hi! i’m a 21 y/o literate to advanced literate roleplayer looking to rp in the fandom 'The Boys'. i'm currently rewatching the show for a second time and i'm dying to do an ocxcc (will happily double up) story at the moment! i personally have no triggers other than one or two we will discuss in private but please know that there are some triggering topics that may come up in the rp so please let me know what makes you uncomfortable so we can both enjoy the rp! that being said i'm more than happy to include dead dove topics as with some canon characters dead dove may come up 🕊️. some extra info and rules to know: - right now i'm in season 2! - i will happily double up and play any character (except Stormfront, she's the one character i won't ever rp for a pairing) you'd like for your side but please keep it fair for both sides and i will do the same. - i'm open to almost any and every idea that we come up with, hurt/comft, angst, different tropes, ext, anything! - please be literate to advanced literate like myself because i do love details! it makes the story more alive. don't rush me for replies though because i do work and go to university and just have a life outside of roleplaying in general! - i haven't gotten around to watching Gen V so don't ask for characters from that show, ik it's the same universe and what not but i just haven't really cared to watch it soooo don't ask for characters i don't know please :). - will only rp here on tumblr or discord, no other platforms. characters i'm looking to pair with my oc (no specific order): - Billy Butcher - MM - Queen Maeve - Homelander - Black Noir like and i'll get to all the likes as soon as possible :)

like if you're interested and op will reach out

[findroleplay]

🏹 hi! i’m a 21 y/o literate to advanced literate roleplayer looking to rp in the fandom 'The Boys'. i'm currently rewatching the show for a second time and i'm dying to do an ocxcc (will happily double up) story at the moment! i personally have no triggers other than one or two we will discuss in private but please know that there are some triggering topics that may come up in the rp so please let me know what makes you uncomfortable so we can both enjoy the rp! that being said i'm more than happy to include dead dove topics as with some canon characters dead dove may come up 🕊️. some extra info and rules to know: - right now i'm in season 2! - i will happily double up and play any character (except Stormfront, she's the one character i won't ever rp for a pairing) you'd like for your side but please keep it fair for both sides and i will do the same. - i'm open to almost any and every idea that we come up with, hurt/comft, angst, different tropes, ext, anything! - please be literate to advanced literate like myself because i do love details! it makes the story more alive. don't rush me for replies though because i do work and go to university and just have a life outside of roleplaying in general! - i haven't gotten around to watching Gen V so don't ask for characters from that show, ik it's the same universe and what not but i just haven't really cared to watch it soooo don't ask for characters i don't know please :). - will only rp here on tumblr or discord, no other platforms. characters i'm looking to pair with my oc (no specific order): - Billy Butcher - MM - Queen Maeve - Homelander - Black Noir like and i'll get to all the likes as soon as possible :)

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[ao3feed-izuku-midoriya]

Known Unknown

Known Unknown by Juliopuu

They say a man who knows every thing but says nothing is the highest act of cowardice.

Or in Izuku's case, everyone around him is as thick headed as bedrock and refuses to believe some schlemiel.

Words: 2886, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: Gen

Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Bakugou Katsuki, Midoriya Inko, Tsukauchi Naomasa, Sasaki Mirai | Sir Nighteye, Todoroki Shouto, Class 1-A, Uraraka Ochako, Shinsou Hitoshi, Monoma Neito, Nedzu, Original Characters

Relationships: Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead & Midoriya Izuku, Bakugou Katsuki & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Inko & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku & Tsukauchi Makoto, Class 1-A & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku & Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Midoriya Izuku & Todoroki Shouto, Midoriya Izuku & Uraraka Ochako, Midoriya Izuku & Shinsou Hitoshi

Additional Tags: Midoriya Izuku Has a Quirk, Midoriya Izuku Does Not Have One for All Quirk, Vigilante Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku Needs A Hug, Dark fic, Like seriously messed up shit, Filicide, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, gonna take a hot minute to get to the comft part though, Angst with a Happy Ending, It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better, Midoriya Izuku Angst, Parental Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Protective Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Protective Bakugou Katsuki, Protective Midoriya Izuku, BAMF Midoriya Izuku, BAMF Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Self-Harm, Bakugou Katsuki is Bad at Feelings, POV Multiple, yes beta because i'm a pussy, Kidnapping, Attempted Kidnapping, Murder, Crimes & Criminals, Midoriya Izuku Has a Bad Time, aizawa shouta is so done with him, Graphic Description of Corpses

Read Here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/32242240

[ao3feed-dadzawa]

Known Unknown

Known Unknown by Juliopuu

They say a man who knows every thing but says nothing is the highest act of cowardice.

Or in Izuku's case, everyone around him is as thick headed as bedrock and refuses to believe some schlemiel.

Words: 2886, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: Gen

Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Bakugou Katsuki, Midoriya Inko, Tsukauchi Naomasa, Sasaki Mirai | Sir Nighteye, Todoroki Shouto, Class 1-A, Uraraka Ochako, Shinsou Hitoshi, Monoma Neito, Nedzu, Original Characters

Relationships: Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead & Midoriya Izuku, Bakugou Katsuki & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Inko & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku & Tsukauchi Makoto, Class 1-A & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku & Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Midoriya Izuku & Todoroki Shouto, Midoriya Izuku & Uraraka Ochako, Midoriya Izuku & Shinsou Hitoshi

Additional Tags: Midoriya Izuku Has a Quirk, Midoriya Izuku Does Not Have One for All Quirk, Vigilante Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku Needs A Hug, Dark fic, Like seriously messed up shit, Filicide, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, gonna take a hot minute to get to the comft part though, Angst with a Happy Ending, It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better, Midoriya Izuku Angst, Parental Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Protective Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Protective Bakugou Katsuki, Protective Midoriya Izuku, BAMF Midoriya Izuku, BAMF Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Self-Harm, Bakugou Katsuki is Bad at Feelings, POV Multiple, yes beta because i'm a pussy, Kidnapping, Attempted Kidnapping, Murder, Crimes & Criminals, Midoriya Izuku Has a Bad Time, aizawa shouta is so done with him, Graphic Description of Corpses

Read Here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/32242240

[rphunter]

🏹 hi! i’m a 21 y/o literate to advanced literate roleplayer looking to rp in the fandom 'The Boys'. i'm currently rewatching the show for a second time and i'm dying to do an ocxcc (will happily double up) story at the moment! personally have no triggers other than one or two we will discuss in private but please know that there are some triggering topics that may come up in the rp so please let me know what makes you uncomfortable so we can both enjoy the rp! that being said i'm more than happy to include dead dove topics as with some canon characters dead dove may come up 🕊️. some extra info and rules to know: - right now i'm in season 3! - i will happily double up and play any character (except Stormfront, she's the one character i won't ever rp for a pairing) you'd like for your side but please keep it fair for both sides and i will do the same. - i'm open to almost any and every idea that we come up with, hurt/comft, angst, different tropes, ext, anything! - please be literate to advanced literate (a good 3-4 paragraphs minimum) like myself because i do love details! it makes the story more alive. don't rush me for replies though because i do work and go to university and just have a life outside of roleplaying in general! - i haven't gotten around to watching Gen V so don't ask for characters from that show, ik it's the same universe and what not but i just haven't gotten around to watching it soooo don't ask for characters i don't know please :). - will only rp here on tumblr or discord, no other platforms. i'm mostly looking for MM because he is my underrated king, like i would do anything to have MM right now. but i'm also happy to pair my oc with Butcher, Soldier Boy, Noir, or Maeve!

,

[prpfs]

currently on season 2 of Shadow and Bone and i'm absolutely dying for an ocxcc (open to doubles!) rp! 🏹 - i'm open to almost any and every idea that we come up with, hurt/comft, angst, different tropes, possible nfsw, ect! - please be literate to advanced literate (a good 3-4 paragraphs minimum) like myself because i do love details! it makes the story more alive. don't rush me for replies though because i do work and go to university and just have a life outside of roleplaying in general! - i haven't completely read all the books yet so i'd like to keep the rp more on the show than anything. as for where i am in the show i'm on episode 4 of season 2! at the moment i'm dying for someone to play Nikolai for my oc and i'm more than happy to do a double up where i can play just about any character for your side!

like if you're interested and op will reach out