#Mental Illness

[crippledpunks]

my heart goes out to you if you're a disabled person who has a complicated or negative relationship with sleep. if you need to sleep a lot but can't due to life circumstances, or sleeping extra causing other symptoms to flare up. if you can't sleep enough due to pain, or nightmares, or psychosis, or bipolar, or depression. if you sleep way too much and find it hard to stay awake. if you can't fall or stay asleep. if you need medication in order to be able to sleep. if you don't feel rested from sleep. if you wake up a lot in the night. if you have bladder or bowel accidents while asleep. if you twitch or convulse or move too or get injured in your sleep. if you can't control your sleep schedule no matter what. if you can't sleep during "normal" sleeping hours. if you can't sleep for 8+ hours straight but can sleep for shorter amounts of time. if sleep is what you need but for one reason or another you just can't or refuse to do it.

i care about you. your disabilities deserve to be seen and acknowledged

[animentality]

[schizopositivity]

Oh you love that musician that wears a strait jacket in a music video?

Oh you love haunted house attractions that are 'insane asylum' themed?

Oh you love that horror movie where the villain is portrayed to be psychotic?

But do you respect and care for mentally ill people who have been restrained because they were a danger to themselves or others?

But do you respect and care for people who are constantly in and out of psych wards, or have to live full time in psychiatric facilities?

But do you respect and care for people who have psychotic disorders, especially if they are poc and/or homeless?

Do you see us as real people, or do you just like the aesthetic of our suffering for your entertainment?

[randomreasonstolive]

Reason to Live #10549

  Seeing really pretty clouds. – Guest Submission

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[pastel-hazey-dreams]

[claypigeonpottery]

sold

my sad boy. he’s personal to me, but I love that he speaks to other people

there’s a few cracks ☹️ though honestly that seems like great symbolism

but his tattoos and piercings turned out great

and the back of his head is suitably horrible. I had originally covered his hands in blood but I wiped it back when I didn’t like it, and it turned into such a nice (and unplanned) effect to just have a little red staining his hands

[soberscientistlife]

[autopsyfreak]

people when i warn them my mental illnesses cause me to have inappropriate emotional responses: 👍🏻

people when i show those inappropriate emotional responses:

[hustparovoz]

Simon Henriksson

[ineffectualdemon]

If you read "loudly" "noticeably" or "visibly" mentally ill and assume that equals being a problem for other people...

Then you're part of the problem

Unless you're mentally ill and struggling to get treatment you don't realise how much support is determined by how much you are a problem for other people

I have hallucinations and delusions but because they don't cause problems for other people I get told they aren't a problem and get no support from mental health services for it

Doesn't matter that it's scaring or upsetting me or causing me to hurt myself as long as I'm not making a problem for other people

Our treatment is not about us it's about making us more palatable for others and that means us being noticeably mentally ill even if we are no risk to anyone else or causing any harm in anyway is considered "bad"

And I'm fucking sick of it

I show distress in public and have a panic attack or meltdown and cause a scene - that's a problem even though I'm not hurting anyone and am just communicating my distress. Because it's bothering others

But quietly think I'm chosen by god to suffer for humanity which causes me to not talk about my pain and be secretive about any harm I cause to myself because telling people is a sin? - that's not a "real" delusion or problem because I didn't upset anyone else during my episode because I didn't tell them those thoughts during it. Even though it's causing me real harm and I want help to stop it from happening again

Do you see how fucked up that is?

[franksthoughtdaughter]

Is it female rage or am I just my mothers daughter

[randomreasonstolive]

Reason to Live #10550

 Cats need someone to knead! – Guest Submission

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[schizopositivity]

Hi, sorry for bothering you. Could you explain the "grippy socks" phenomenon thing? I have tried looking it up but the only thing I found were actual socks so I think I'm missing some context.

It's an online term that refers to the type of socks they give you in psychiatric hospitals (with the rubbery bottoms to prevent slipping on the hard floors). This goes over the origin of this as a meme:

But with that has come plenty of sanist memes as the socks are a visual representation of people who have been in psychiatric facilities, and will use "grippy socks" and terms like "crazy" interchangeably. People also try to make it cute sounding by calling a stay at a psych ward a "grippy sock vacation", belittling what the experience is actually like for a lot of people. The meme has also been used to restate the old, misogynistic "joke" that "crazy girls are better at sex" with the new saying "grippy socks, grippy box" (eww). It's also worth noting that a lot of people using this phrase in memes haven't actually been to a psych ward themselves, they use it to describe their mental state like "I'm afraid to be too honest with my therapist, I'm afraid they'll put me in grippy sock jail". Which is a little frustrating as someone who has had psych ward stays, it's weird to see people use it to describe themselves when they haven't actually had to go.

[defiantcripple]

Okay, breaking out of the crippleposting to do a Mental Illness Post rq:

On top of depression and anxiety, I have BPD, CPTSD, OSDD-1b, and Bipolar II. I experience delusions, psychosis, and severe dissociation. I am a *severely* mentally ill person. Because of all of this, I require several mood stabilizers and an antipsychotic to keep myself grounded to reality, let alone functional.

I swear to GOD, if one more person with depression looks at me and says some shit like "yeah, I'm sure medication would help me, I just don't want to be dependent on it." I'm going to fucking scream. The sheer ableism in y'all's attitudes towards people who can't just opt out of medication and who ARE dependent on it is fucking crazy. The way they hit the word "dependent" in that sentence always holds so much judgment and distain, like they don't even consider that some of us don't have the luxury of choice. Being dependent on medication has literally no moral weight, and for me it's that or dead. So.

***and before someone goes off on me, this is NOT about people who can't afford medication or who medication doesn't work for, and I am not saying that depression can't be debilitating. I am only referring to exactly the situation I described, so don't try and gotcha me***

[morsobaby]

The reason I'm so opposed to designing "Monsters based on mental illnesses!" aside from the obvious (really really easy to fall into stigma, stereotypes and risking generalizing an entire group of people) is. Because simply put even among two people with the exact same diagnoses they'll have Wildly different experiences with said mental disorders /neurodivergencies / illnesses. It simply will always be so.

Instead I'd probably just moreso approach it by having each of the persons mental illnesses/diagnoses be represented by their own personal entity. Like a guardian demon or similar. Because even though I know maybe three people with ocd, we all have differing experiences and compulsions in our day to day lives that can't be swathed over by just one representation of and "Ocd monster". And this goes for everything.

So yeah maybe more like. Everyone having their own monster, some of which belong to the same classes (so people with the same diagnosis but still differing experiences)

[voidic3ntity]

beneath the surface of myself, something much dark lurking,

forever positioned within the recess of my tongue & my mind,

& continuously seeking to destroy any remnants of lightness:

I swallow down those pills, shrooms, resin, smoke or liquid;

suppressing the depth of hurt I felt as an innocent child...