#angst zadr

[thegargantuangourdii]

It speaks for itself.

[butter1knife]

COLOURS

[kleksky]

Imagine

After Dib dies, Zim replaces his computer AI with Dib's AI. He is more annoying than the previous one, but at least Zim gets to talk to Dib again

Then Zim leaves earth, because he understands that Dib is gone, and the computer is not really him. So he leaves his base to rot, and Dib to go low-key insane

[shinetheweirdo]

Silly little traditional sketch

[water-scum]

scared to lose you

[fizzzledout]

Dont really like how this turned out but needed the angst

How to draw blood? Idk

[simping-invader]

I've tried to post this 5 times/d

Fuck every else. Straight to the fic

You're not Defective

3rd person pov

It was a typical night in zims, now shared base. Gir was being...well, gir, zim was down in his lab, and Dib was at work. Despite finding out his mission was a lie, and that his 'all mighty tallest' send him out hoping he would Parrish, zim was just so used spending his days down in the lab, even if now he's only playing games on Dibs 'X-station'.

After dying about 7 times in 'blockcraft,' zim decided he had enough, all but slamming the controller down. "zim is too good for this stupid game anyway!" He huffs as he hops up from his chair. The irken pauses momentarily as the irken Armada symbol suddenly flashes on his screen. It's been years since he's heard from the tallest. He still remembers what they told him, their cruel words suddenly ringing throughout his words. ' You're Defective '.

The screen flashes, a message reading aloud through the room, but zim couldn't hear it. His thoughts consumed him as he's basically transported back to that day.

The day zim realized his tallest..his plannet ....they all wanted him dead.

It was 10 years ago in earth time. Back when zim and Dib were still in what was called 'hi skool', zim had captured Dib and called the tallest to report about the information he stole from the earth boy. The irken child stood proud as he waited for the all mighty ones to pick up, a proud smile on his face. This was the first report he did in years, and he was positive his tallest would be thrilled to find that ZIM! Their most capable soldier, is infact alive and well!, but when the line was answered, he was faced with the undeniable look of annoyance from both of his tallest. Zim couldn't even get a word out before they began to dig into him.

Even to this day, zim can still feel the stab of their words....

"When will you get the hint zim!" Tallest red said, venom in his words as his image glared at zim. "My tallest! I-" zims excitement would fade to confusion "what hint my tallest?" Purple would then cut in as red just groaned."There is no mission! We don't care about earth! We don't care about you! You're defective zim. Just like that stupid robot we gave you! Stop calling us. You were supposed to die! How you manage to survive is beyond me! The fact that you consider yourself an irken is pathetic. Leave us alone." And with that, the line was cut, and zim was left with the harsh reality. After that day, he didn't leave his base for months, only found by Dib when the teen broke into his base, assuming zim was planning something. Instead, what he found was an utterly defeated zim, in a horrible horriblely messy base. That day began the twos friendship, one that would develop into much more. But in this very moment, zim felt like he had all those years ago. Alone, useless, and Defective.

Irkens are raised from the time they're smeets till they reach the age of 'usefulness', which in earthling years is only about 10 or so, to be the perfect irken soldier. They are trained to blindly follow their tallest, to invade, and to only exist to aid the tallest. Zim was 'Defective'. He tried to be the perfect soldier, but no matter what he did he wasn't enough. He still remembers his first mission 'impending doom 1'. The screams still keep him up some nights. He tired to be a good invader, but it wasn't enough.

Zims thoughts swirl through his mind as his legs give out on him, causing him to fall onto the hard lab floor, tears now welling up in his magenta eyes and rolling down his face "i- I'm not Defective- zim can't be! Zim- zim is trying his best!" His words echo off the walls, making him feel even more alone.

Zim is left there for a good 30 minutes before Dib comes home, gir greeting him at the door "HAIII DIBTHING!!!" The faulty sir unit calls out cheerful "inside voice gir, where's zim?" Dib questions as he shuts the door behind him. Typically his alien boyfriend would be on the couch waiting for him, so only being greeted by gir raised some questions "he hasn't left the lab! And I made waffles" gir points over to the mess in the kitchen, making Dib grimace a bit "I see..." Dib hangs up his long white coat and slips off his boots before walking twords the elevator, which is luckily no longer a toilet "computer, take me to zim please" he calls outz the elevator door opening immediately, followed by a robotic voice as Dib steps inside and the doors close "zim does not seem to be in the best of states.."

Dibs face twists at the computers words "what do you mean by that?" The elevator doors suddenly open "see for yourself " the computer says. The signs infront of him makes his heart ache. Zim was curled up on the floor, his small body shaking from how hard he was crying. His pac legs were practically caged around him in an attempt to hide his 'shame'. Dib slowly stepped closer, not wanting to accidentally scare his irken partner. As he approached, he could hear zims shakey voice repeating the same phrase over and over again. "I'm Defective"

Dib slowly crouches down beside zim "zim...zim what happened?" He askes softly, his voice laced with concern. Zim looks up at his boyfriend, his face splochy with tears. Seeing Dib, his pac legs retract and he almost immediately seeks out his embrace, to which Dib grants, scooping the irken into his lap and holding him close. "You're not Defective zim..." Dib dint need his question answered as he looked around, seeing the irken symbol still flash on the large computer screen "the system is what's Defective..you where practically a kid..."

The two sat there for a good hour, Dib simply holding zim as he cries into his chest, eventually calming down enough to steady his breathing and calm down "i..I should be over this..zim shouldn't hold onto to these...these puney feelings ."

zims words earn a small sigh from Dib "it'd good to have feeling zim..and no Matter how much time has passed, it's ok to be hurt by what they did.." the irken looks up at Dib, wiping the tears from his eyes "I'm supposed to be a soldier..a mighty irken invader! Not...not this!" His voice rings with defeat, making Dibs heart nearly break.

Dib genently cups zims face, a soft expression on his own "..well I'm glad you're not...I love you how you are...what would I do if my space boy actually took over earth instead of just my heart?" He places a soft kiss to zims forehead, earning a small smile from his 'space boy'. "You would have been my pet, Dib stink" zim smiles "an irken ruler would need something stupid to entertain him"

happy to see zim smile again, Dib rises to his feet, still holding zim close to himself "You're only getting away with that because you're cute, I hope you know that" he smiles, capturing zims lips in a soft kiss "let's go get dinner started...gir made waffles so we have that clean up to look forward to." He rolls his eyes a bit, zim resting his head on his shoulder "oh how very fun" the irken says sarcastically as the two head up in the elevator to deal with the monstrosity gir had caused.

-the end <3-

Ignore any grammar or spelling mistakes..I have no excuse, I'm just stupid. 💀

[strangeharmonystarfish]

:')

[ultradeathfang]

I am thinking about making an archive Tumbler page just to Archive invader Zim related stuff which may or may not have ZaDr related too

[cornymember]

copying thru kisses

[treel]

DAY THREE- BLOOD

But now, here he was with that...thing. Kneeling over its prone body in the snow, his gloves smeared with its thick red blood, fretting and making tiny noises of panic. The...what had Zim called it? Human. The human had stared at them, at Zim, up at the sky, eyes roving wild and confused...and then they had fluttered shut, and he was still.

Art loosely based on this scene from Nullified! because I didn’t know what else to draw. 😂

@alt-zadr-b1tch3z

[its-elsy]

Love your art! And I have a question about the Royal Pet AU. Zim grows to miss Dib, but does Dib ever miss Zim? Or realize that Zim misses him?

Dib resents Zim and for good reason. He took away his planet, and he gave him away to his tallest’s (though he grew to like). However, Dib still misses his old life on Earth especially when his old nemesis. He won’t admit it but Dib misses Zim and their dynamic. They both gave each other purpose when they were on earth after all.

[zimsrightantenna]

Alt zadr week Day 4: Rot

In which Zim becomes a grave robber out of grief.

Almost forgot to post this too! owo;

[cipher-the-sidhe]

This was just supposed to be the warm up but my eyes quit on me so no more drawing today 🥲

Something something self sacrifice something something the inherent homoromanticism of dying only to live on as a ghost/parasite within your lover something something paks are cool and vampiric in a way

Please click for better image quality, tumblr murdered it

Day 4: Rot

@alt-zadr-b1tch3z

[skyskyskyart]

Day 4 @alt-zadr-b1tch3z :Rot, Goth fashion, BlacknWhite,Death,Angst

[simping-invader]

PART 3~

So not going to lie there's probably a lot of inconsistency throughout the story just because I'm writing each part on a different day and I don't really read through the last part to remember the details I put in so some things are shoehorned in ignore those <3

ANYWAY

Onto part 3

Zims Pov:

Dib's actions make my head spin. does he know what he's doing to me? not to mention how he won't give me my own shirt back! And to make it worse he even has my pac! most confusingly why is he insisting to 'hang out' as he put it.  "You still haven't explained why you think you can just 'hang' around my base, Dib-stink" I huff, having to almost speed walk to keep up with him." Because I'm bored." dib only briefly looks back at me when he speaks, thankfully so. my mind won't get out of the gutter. "How is that my problem, go find some humans to bother. I have much better things to do!"

 hopefully we get to my base soon...these 'swim shorts' are clinging to my skin and driving me mad.  not to mention if Dib keeps being so...Whatever he is! I'll have a... bigger problem other than my antenna.  It's not helping that Dibs shorts are also clinging to his skin, and that on its own is making me feel all sorts of ways. Dib laughs a bit, snaping me out of my filthy thoughts. "Better things like what Zim? it's been years since you've done anything. you're just locked up in your base all the time doing nothing." How DARE this stupid human claim to know what I! ZIM have been doing! " I'll have you know I'm simply waiting for my tallest! soon enough I'll bet off this blasted rock and your EaRtH will be part of the great Irken empire!" I yell, much to my Suprise Dib stops in his track. good. maybe that stupid human is going to beg for Zim's forgiveness.

dibs pov:

Zim's confident proclamation catches me by surprise... there's no way he really believes they're still coming. i turn around, expecting to see some look of sarcasm, but instead Zim's body language actually matches his voice for once. Then smaller alien was glaring at me, his antenna Stright back, and looking sharp enough to stab me if he wanted to. I feel my face Morph from amusement to pity and shock. "You... Zim you actually think they're coming back?" Zims anger only seems to grow from my question, his glare now shooting daggers at me. " OF COURSE, THEY ARE" he yells at me, a real yell, for the first time in years. " My tallest are simply preparing the armada!" I take a step towards him "Zim...I've heard them... On my radio... they're not coming." Zim looks like he's ready to attack me as I get closer to him...Luckly, I have his Pac, so if he decides to lunge, he won't have any machinal advantage. not that he really needs one. I may tower over him Hight wise now, but I know his irken strength can still out match me. " Shut up! you know nothing!" he spits out, his words filled with venom. 

I can't help but sigh, the harsh sun beating down on us starting to annoy me. " Zim, I can prove it to you. when's the last time you even heard from them?"  Zim pauses, clearly having to think about it. " Well, when i last called them was at the Hiskool graduation. I reported that I had collated all the information we needed for the invasion and would stand by for their instructions." I just look at him. god he's fucking oblivious. " That was almost 5 years ago Zim. 5 years. Don't you think they would have at least updated you by now?" Zim's antennae drop down briefly, almost as if he's considering the truth, but they almost immediately shoot back to their angry position. "They're just busy!" His absolute stubborn obviousness' starts to piss me off, the heat not helping. "Zim oh my god. if you're so sure about that, why don't we call them. " Zim seems happy...Ish about that suggestion, his body language relaxing and his antenna going into a more neutral position. "Fine. let's go call them! then you'll see!" I can't help but roll my eyes as we start heading to his base once again. part of me want to laugh at him when his 'beloved tallest' confirm that they want nothing to do with him...the rest of me worries about how this will completely destroy him...

After not too long of a walk we reach his base. Zim wastes no time to push past me once we get inside, almost marching towards the tv.  "Computer!  call the tallest!" with his command, the tv switches from the random show Gir had left on, to a standing image of the irken symbol with 'calling the tallest' in bold letters across it. the line rings for far too long before it's finally picked up and the two leaders of irk appear on screen, immediately looking annoyed to see it was Zim who called. the red one smacked the purple one as Zim turns around to look at me with a ' i told you so' smirk. "What did I tell you about answering transmissions from earth!" red scolds, not even attempting to whisper. Zim doesn't seem to pick up on the clear annoyance towards him, that smirk still on his face.  "My tallest! it is Zim! I'm called to ask about plans for earth, when will i be taken off this soon to be part of our great empire!" I sit back on the couch as the red leader sighs in annoyance "never Zim." his words are short and his tone his blunt.  Zim spins around to face me with a cocky smirk" see Dib! I told you they-" his antennae drop down as his face shifts to one of shock. he slowly turns back to the screen, facing his uncaring leaders. "What?" he mumbles out, only getting two annoyed looks back " we're not coming. stop calling us. you're not an invader and we want nothing to do with that pathetic rock." reds voice was full of hate as he spoke, and with each word Zim seemed to shrivel into himself. "Congrats on at least growing some. " The purple one adds sarcastically. over the past 10ish years Zim has been on earth, he's only grown about 2 and a half feet, still leaving him rather short. both cracking up in laughter before the line is dropped.

My 'I told you so' suddenly self when Zim faces me once more, looking betrayed and crushed. "Zim..." I say softly, wanting to comfort him. "Get out" he utters, his gaze looking towards the floor. "Zim I'm sorry... i tried to war-" Zim cuts me off glaring up at me, his eyes filled with rage and hurt. " I said GET OUT! leave me alone!" my lips part as i go to speak but i decide against it, sighing as i get up, leaving his things on the couch before heading to the front door. before i leave i turn back to him "you know where to find me if you need anything..."  with that I leave, heading back towards my house, feeling guilty about shattering his illusion, even if reality needed to be brought to his attention.

3rd person pov:

A few days pass with neither boys hearing from, or seeing the other. After the reality check from the Tallest, Zim hasn't left his base, nor has he left his private quarters, allowing his s.i.r unit to run rampage around his base. After 5 days of not seeming Zim leave the house, Dib started to get more worried about the alien then he already was, and on the 6th day he decides to go see him. 

Dibs pov;

once again i was woken up before my alarm, my thoughts making it hard for me to sleep. its's been days since last saw Zim...I don't know how he'll react to seeing me, but i just...i need to make sure he's ok. i look out my window, seeing that the sun slowly raising across the Horrison, its golden light softly lighting up the sky. maybe an early morning walk can brighten Zim's mood... yeah...I'll do that. I nod to myself as i swing my legs off the bed before slowly getting up and stretching.  I throw on a random pair of blue jean shorts and a tank top before heading downstairs and out the door. I hope Zim won't attack me on sight... after a short 10-minute walk i find myself at his door, and with a bit of hesitation i knock. much to my surprise the door immediately opens.  when the door opens i can see the absolute mess that is currently Zim's base, and equally messy Gir smiling up at me " HIIIIIIIIIIIIIII." the state of the base makes me more worried for zims mental state. "Hey gir...where's zim?"

 i gently push the robot to the side, letting myself in. almost instantly my nose is assaulted with a combination of smells, almost none of them pleasant. " He's sleeping SHHHHHHHHHHHHHH." i look around at the mess surrounding me " how...long has he been asleep?" Everything about this is..so concerning... " few days. he must be reaaally tired." days?? zim hasn't left his room in days???  I walk past gir, my feet moving on their own as i walk towards zims bedroom. Without knocking i open the door, slightly relieved to find the room clean. The room was completely dark aside from the slivers of sunlight filtering in through the window. in the middle of the room was a large, round green and pink bed. the walls were bare side from the now ripped up irken flags. zim was laying almost lifelessly on the bed, his back towards me.  his irken uniform was thrown onto the floor, and it looked like he was wearing some old gym shorts from skool. "zim..." i speak softly as i walk into the room, slowly approaching the bed. When i don't get a response i get closer. "Zim it's been days...are you ok."

ending this here because its long as shit <3-

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