#another bride's wedding was a month away and she didnt have a dress!

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not to come out as a vicious capitalist for the wedding industry but if you want a traditional wedding dress from a traditional wedding store...........go there At Least 3 months before your wedding..................please.

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2014 Testimonials

Nurain & Muhammad Razifwedding Date of Event: 6 & 7 December 2014 via Email

Salam Kak Juls,

Razif and I hope you and your family are well and is in the pink of health.We have finally managed to find time to pen down our thoughts after a month of being blissfully wedded. Apologies for this much delayed testimonial.

Where do we start..

We can never thank you enough for the amazing service rendered during our 2 day event. Even before it all started, you were always very much there for us.

Our first meetup was when we got to know one another. Afterwhich the second meetup was to choose our outfits.

No doubt the beautiful array of outfits made it difficult for us to make a decision. Without compromising to our requests and added with your valuable expertise and inputs, we selected our outfits eventually and were very ecstatic to wear it. Special thanks to Kak Rosita for accomodating to the needed alterations and for the beautiful outfits.

The solemnization is where all the jitters began. Kak Juls helped me calm my nerves and makeup was a breeze. There was never an awkward moment as there was always something to talk about.

Kak Juls will listen to your preference and willingly work around with it. Like how she decided to change my lipstick colour from her original choice when I mentioned that i liked a certain type of look for our outdoor photoshoot.

The fact that we exceeded her working hours for the photoshoot; she never once cringe.

The reception day, she had her assistant along and both of them delivered with much enthusiasm. She prioritised us before herself and even our family members are aware of it.

Kak Juls is not only excellent at what she does, she exudes charisma and is an optimist. Brides and grooms needs someone positive on their special day and Kak Juls would be the perfect person to be with!

No regrets having you as our Mak Andam! We would like to extend our apologies for any shortage on our side.

We would recommend you to our friends and family indefinitely!

Regards,  Nurain & Razif

Noorasmidah & Muhammad Irsyadwedding Date of Event: 27 & 28 December 2014 via FB Message

From Noora Mido on 29 December 2014 at 10:24pm

Dearest Kak Juls, I had waited over 2 years to be the bride you will care for. And finally, Alhamdulillah, the days arrived and passed. I was always attracted and impressed by the transformations you did on your brides and I love how the make up does not look "scary". I never regretted moving away from Ratu to Juls Abdullah. We pretty much clicked right away from the 1st appointment. Laughing, joking, etc. From there, I knew I had made the right choice. We had more than 3 appointments prior to the wedding due to us being fickle-minded of the chosen outfits. Kak Juls never stopped us from getting and trying on the ones we wanted and always give her suggestions and is also always open for our suggestions.

Kak Juls has the energy of early 20s. She never failed to crack me up with some if her wrongly said phrases. Her professionalism is really top notch. She doesnt stop me from being myself as a bride. I was really hyper upon seeing 2 of my girlfriends who were supposed to be overseas I definitely didnt look elegant or a queen like I should. Thank you Kak Juls.

She worries more about my make up more than her own sleep!! Having a super active oil glands on my nose and below the nose, my make up gave way numerous times. She tirelessly touch-up those areas each time she sees them off. The wedding day was much better. My oil glands were tamed for the day with her foundation creams. Lol! Thank you Kak Juls for solving that problem. The dresses were beautiful. 2 were alr aimed even before I went for selection and she knows exactly which one after briefly describing them. Masya Allah... There are so much dedication she puts in her career.

To the florist who did my fresh bridal bouquet: the flowers are super pretty la kay, arrangements and decoration is simple and elegant - just what I needed to complete my looks. Beautiful. Thank you so much.

I would also like to thank abang Imran Bin Marjuki for advising us, joking with us and helping us transport the outfits before and after wedding. And thank you to Kak Liza for assisting Kak Juls and carrying my trails and ensuring I'm drinking plenty of water.

Alhamdulillah... Irsyad Jamaluddin and I am married. We wanna thank JulsDsweet for their awesome services.

If there are any slips or miscommunications, I would like to apologize in advance.

May Julsdsweet continue to strive in many more years to come.

100% recommended to brides-to-be.

Yasmin & Mohammed Hafiz wedding Date of Event: 29 & 30 November 2014 via Email

Salam Kak Juls,

A month passed but seemed like only yesterday we had our 2 days event. Hope it is not too late to thank you.

Knowing Kak Juls years ago while attending your Personal Make Up Workshop, I was and is still attracted to your make up skills. I fall in love with the eye make up! Since then, I told myself if I ever get married, I will want to book you without hesitation. & the time came, so I did. I had my make up done as how I preferred. Kak Juls really take note of what her customers want.

What is so lovely about having you as my or anyone's Mak Andam is your positive aura. You are just so down to earth and bubbly in person that makes it much easier and fun to work with on the event day. Patience, definitely you have it at number one! Not many people can do a job with so many noises and disturbance in a room but you definitely nailed it. & definitely an awesome time keeper. You made sure the bride and groom were on schedule. I am that particular on timing and you did well.

Would like to thank Kak Ita too for the beautiful outfits. We loved all the outfits for our wedding especially the Baju Songket. It stands out and we really felt like the King & Queen walking in them. Kak Ita and yourself did great and making them fit our size perfectly. Received quite a compliment from people. 

Not to forget, your assistant. So sorry I forgot her name. Very helpful and was always there to assist and keeping my stuffs safe. Heh.

Nurulain & Zulkifli wedding Date of Event: 18 & 19 October 2014 via Email

Dearest Kak Juls,

Just where do we begin? Our orang kuat for our two-days event who was responsible for our outfit and makeup and making sure both of us looked perfect on the pelamin. I knew it was not an easy task managing the two of us as both bride and groom were so stiff and awkward most of the time. However, you definitely did a great job in making us feel comfortable. I love the way you made me feel relaxed especially while doing the eye makeup, as i love to blink way too much. Kak Juls has been my number one choice ever since the day i saw her took good care of my sister-in-law on her wedding day. Firstly, she was punctual on both days. Obviously a very important factor to consider. She's warm and friendly, the traits i look out for in a mak andam. And lastly her skills and her magic touch will create beautiful transformations. I love all of my looks for both days. Not forgetting the beautiful costumes from Kak Rosita and the beautiful flower bouquet! From the bottom of our hearts, both me and Zul would like to thank you for your excellent service and for all the advices you gave us. We have no regrets and of course, we will see you again next year for my sister's wedding. ;)Regards,  Zulkifli & Nurulain

Siti Mariam & Ithnin wedding Date of Event: 8 & 9 November 2014 via FB comments

From Merah Jambu on 19 November 2014 at 4:57pm

First of all sorry for the late testi and a lil bit draggy cos i have too much to thank with.. 

Nevertheless, My Husband & I would like to say a huge thanks to our families, relatives & friends for the great support and energy spent throughout the events!!! Words can never express how truly grateful we are.. TQSM

Juls Abdullah , i just cannot express how happy i was with your service sis. Your make up lasted all day n u do perform magic touch which made a wonderful makeup on my wedding day.. i just wanted to thank u again for the amazing work. I suker2! Nk lagi bole.. oh ya to the brides to be out there.. i would recommend her service for ur big day..you wunt regret it! I swear.

Liyana & Muhd Taqiyudin wedding Date of Event: 25 & 26 October 2014 via Email

Dear Kak Juls

Taqiyudin and Liyana would like to express our deepest gratitude to our OHSEM mak andam, Kak Juls.

I feel so lucky to secure your service as I always wanted to be dolled up by Kak Juls and only her on my special day. Thank you  Kak Juls & Kak Nora for taking care of me for the two days event (25 & 26 October 2014) and have been extremely helpful, friendly and very patient towards this cry baby bride & also the tak tau diam bride sebab terlalu suka sangat dengan the sanggul lintang atas kepala!

Your organisation and time management absolutely alleviates any stress for any bride. Your artistry and passion for makeup leaves you looking and feeling great, which in turn, makes one enjoy the event much more! I am sure all bride will agree with me that make up plays a huge factor on this day and it's perfect.  You are amazingly talented! Thank You!

We would like to sincerely thank Abg Imran for the help that you have rendered and for all the advises given during our last fitting. Thank you for the tips and tricks, I believe it will be very helpful for both of us to walk through this stage of life together.

Your sincerely, Taqiyudin & Liyana

Marsita & Nirwan wedding Date of Event: 11 & 12 October 2014 via Email

Salam Kak Juls

Kindly find the testimonial requested below:-

When it came to deciding who to engage for our bridal wardrobe, we had no qualms in agreeing on Kak Juls. Seeing my husband's group of friends had engaged her & witnessed the results for ourselves, she was our first stop to go to. She is an investment for an unforgettable, amazing experience. Word of mouth assured she will be your best friend for your once-in-a-lifetime occasion.

Kak Juls is punctual. This is essential as bridegroom has to beat the clock to be on time for solemnization & sanding (reception). She also has a great collection of costumes for petite sizes.

Like a true makeup artist, she comes prepared with her extensive makeup kit & tricks to tackle any situation. 

I was specific how to complete my vintage 1930's look with my red gown. I was swept off my feet when she made it a reality with the tight ringlets hairstyle. 

Kak Juls entertained me & my bridesmaids with small talk, jokes and was there by my side at my most vulnerable moments. I panicked when my hair bun sank. The sanggul had hooked on to the low roof of the Alfa Romeo car on the way to the event place. It was right before the sanding entrance. While I was worried sick we would be delayed any further, Kak Juls calmly came to my side, took a good look at the sanggul & fixed it in a minute.

People forget every other detail of their wedding. They will only remember the event as the photos tell the story. Even 50 years down the road, photos will preserve how gorgeous/handsome we looked & felt as we donned the outfits.

Best Regards

Mars

Farhanah & Muhiyuddin wedding Date of Event: 5 & 6 September 2014 via FB Page Comment

From Farhanah Samat on 5 October 2014 at 12:52am

When Kak Juls Abdullah arrives for her makeup assignment, she comes prepared with a (very large) arsenal of products and tools, along with a remarkable wealth of experience and knowledge. She knows what will work for you and what will not. And when she tells you to trust her, you should!

If you were to browse through pictures of her work, you will see that no two brides look the same, and that for me was the biggest pull factor. I did not want a template look and I also had very specific ideas on how I wanted my makeup and hair to be. All Kak Juls needed was a short discussion and a few pictures as reference. She nailed it - all three looks were on point and I loved every single one. 

Thank you so much... 

For making me look fab on my big day - I totally understand why celebrities have their own makeup artist and hair stylist.

For entertaining my 1001 questions and requests - I would clobber me if I had to deal with me.

For keeping me calm and composed on the day of my solemnization - I probably would have been forklifted out of the room.

For assuring me that it is okay to look straight into the camera and it is also okay to have a centre part despite having a fivehead - I never thought I could do both, and at the same time too!

Thank you also to Zahidah for wiping away my many tears and for helping clumsy, trippy me with the train - I would have tumbled down and impaled myself with the sanggul many times over if it weren't for you.

Here's wishing you all the best for the future and may you continue to bring joy to many more brides (and grooms) in the years ahead, amin!

Nuraishah & Arman wedding Date of Event: 16 August 2014 via FB Page Comment

From Aishah Ali on 17 September 2014 at 8:01am

Salam Kak Juls,

Sorry for the testimonial that is coming a month late?! Haha I would like to thank you for your presence & magical hands on our special day. Everyone keep commenting that i look beautiful. In the morning,you made me feel at ease with your nonsense despite telling me to close my eyes & rest. So, thank you lah! The husband want to thank you too for helping him with the bunga for the samping though you poke him with a pin..haha! Thanks Kak Juls. I couldn't have ask for anyone better to lighten that stressful morning.

Xoxo Arman Aman & Aishah Ali

Serena & Farhan wedding Date of Event: 7 September 2014 via WhatsApp

From Serena on 16 September 2014 at 10:48am

Dear Kak Juls, many thanks for your hospitality and your professionalism in graciously agreeing to make up for me even though you do not attend to two brides in a week. Much appreciated! Your friendliness and bubbly personality really make everyone around you feel at ease! Thank you for also accommodating to my request as much as possible to not have my make-up too thick. Thank you! Lastly, your dedication and professionalism really speaks volume of your passion and I would like to take this opportunity to wish you all the very best as you continue to take your business to greater heights, insyaAllah:)

Juriah & Iswandy wedding Date of Event: 23 August 2014 via FB Page Comment

From Ria Lit on 4 September 2014 at 11:22am

Dear kak Juls Abdullah,  Torquey Isz & myself wld like to thank u for an amazing job u did to make our wedding day an unforgettable one! I love how flexible & easy it was to work with u n there was never a moment of difficulty at all. You are so talented & professional u made me looked stunningly different on that day. What u did was absolutely brilliant! Everything turned out more than i expected. Once again, from e bottom of our hearts, THANK YOU.

Farhana & Taufik wedding Date of Event: 8 & 9 August 2014 via WhatsApp

From Farhana on 18 August 2014 at 5:43pm

Assalamu'alaikum Kak Juls! Before I start this praising note, I apologize first if this came late! It has been a week plus since the wedding and I still feeling2 pengantin! Nak lagiii! HAHAHA. Anyways, lets get on to my thank you for YOU! Where do I even begin? You were not only my MUA but a dear sister to me. You not only me make beautiful on my special day, but you gave me wonderful advice and share make-up tips with me. U took care of me so well til the end. My family love you for being so amiable and bubbly! Thank you so much for making me look my best on my wedding day and for being the best MUA I've ever met. For all future brides out there, you will never regret taking Kak Juls for andaman because she will make you look gorgeous from head to toe! Love you Kak! Mwaaah!

Khairunnisa & Noryusman wedding Date of Event: 7 & 8 June 2014 via FB Comment

From Khairunnisa Binte Ali on 7 July 2014 at 8:47pm

Testimonials for Kak Juls.

It’s been a month since the day you did my makeup on my big day. Till now I still remember how happy I was, to be looking very gorgeous on my big day and it was all due to your magical touch and experience in handling things with having a keen eye in every details. You’ve given me options to choose what accessories and hijab styling is best for me for the different outfits. However, I choose to leave everything for you to decide as I am very confident with your years of experience and friendly approach, everything will turn out great in shaa Allah.

On the day of my solemnization, I was feeling very tense and nervous. However the words of wisdom that you shared with me had helped me to calm myself down. Not forgetting, your jokes and teasing have never failed to make me laugh till I felt so calm and totally forgot about the nervousness that I felt deep within me. I was also anxious to see how the makeup will turn out on my face and on the photograph. Never have I thought I would be commented by many of my friends and my husband’s friends that I look very beautiful on that special day. Thank you for putting up to all my requests (no shaving of eyebrows and hijab covering the chest). I am totally in love with your hijab styling. Despite my teary eyes, you are always there to assist and company me along the way till the end. Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly. I have never regretted choosing you as my Mak Andam. I love every moment I spent with you during my wedding. Now, not knowingly you are somehow related to my husband in the end. What a small world after all. Heehee.

Ps: My husband also wishes to give his special thanks to your husband in guiding him and giving him advices during his bridal fitting moments. Your husband has been a special booster of confidence for my husband in the preparations and overcoming the fear during the big day.  Jazakillahu khairan kathiran. May Allah swt reward you for your hard work and kindness and bless your family with happiness and good health. Amin ya rabbal alamin.

Lots of love,  Nisa & Yusman

Nurul Huda & Muhammad Fawzey wedding Date of Event: 21 June 2014 via FB Comment

From Nurul Huda on 28 June 2014 at 10:30pm

Kak juls, words cant thank you enough for everything you have done to make my wedding a blast! I've known you thru my cousin's wedding and since then i told myself, kak juls will be my MUA for my wedding and nobody else.. I had a small engagement only with presences of direct related family.. which means no special make up and i cant afford to have even the slightest mistake on my wedding day.. i was so anxious on how my make up will turn out to be like, if the colours will be able to suit me, will the shawl make my chubby cheeks look even chubbier.. a lot of worries in my mind yet you just patiently soothe me by saying everything will be ok.. we only met four times before the big day.. yet you know my personality, my taste and my preferences.. the colour palette you used on me wasnt too loud yet the thick dark black eye make up you used on me kept my husband eyes glued to me.. i received a lot of compliments from guest saying how beautiful i look... I wish you were by my side to receive those compliments yrself as i wont be that beautiful if it wasnt for your hardwork and creativity.. Then comes the mabok bride.. Thank you for still keeping me beautiful and elegant while i vomit my lunch out.. You managed to calm us all and give me time to slowly recover.. Which after the whole event then we knew, you're actually just as worried as us too! My testimonial is abit lengthy but my last thank you is for the time that you double up as a photographer! Thank you for helping us capturing our beautiful moments.. I nvr fail to smile whenever i see my pics on yr fb page... Thank you kak.. May Allah and Rasul reward your kindness and patience.. And bless yr family with forever happiness, joy, health and wealth...

Noor Aslinda & Muhammad Shalihan wedding Date of Event: 3 & 4 May 2014 via FB PM

From Linda Latiff on 28 June 2014 at 3:33pm

Sorry kak juls for the overdue reply..i set ma mind to have kak juls as ma mak andam for my special day the moment i saw her pictorial in fb..furthermore ma hubby knew both u n ur husband...it was really smooth frm the day of i stepped in ur shop till i ended ma wedding..u even had to stay till after 6pm for the event..the makeup was absolutely stunning n pple commented tat it was flawless..me n hubby never regret hiring u for our special day..ever so sweet n friendly thus there is not a pinch of awkwardness ard...may u have an even more successful blooming career...

Nor Aisha & Balakrishnan wedding Date of Event: 14 & 15 June 2014 via FB comment

From Aisha Rahim on 17 June 2014 at 4:35pm

Dear Kak Juls, I dont know how else to say this but you TOTALLY ROCK!! Your patience, dedication, love and talent with your work is incomparable and may Allah bless your kind heart. You took note of all the small details on the wedding day and you were on our side all the way thoughout the outdoor shoot. You cater to my needs beyond the requirements of a makeup artist. There was no discomfort at all when the make up was put on and both you & Abg Im made our outdoor shoot so much more fun. Thank you for making me feel and look beautiful. Our 2 days were more special cuz you were there... Thank you Kak Juls. Huggs! May Allah grant you more business! InsyaAllah!

Nafisah & Amran wedding Date of Event: 20 April 2014 via Email

Salam Kak Juls 

Nafisah and Amran here apologised for the delayed testimonial as you know, newlywed couple, so many things that we need to settle.So heres my love letter to you:) 

I was first found out about  your FB in 2010 and i followed thru every updates about your bride. And i  fall in love with your makeup. It really had make an impact transformation on all your bride. Alhamdullilah, I was excited when you were available on my wedding date. True enough, never did i regret having you as my MUA. 

From email replies, appointment meetings till the big day you were so professional, dedicated and passionate  in making sure that everiting goes smoothly. I was totally in love with the makeup on my face.Many people were awed with the different transformation.  I was like, "Jambu pe aku!! ";) Thanks to your magical touch.

And also you were always there to touchup on my makeup, together with Kak ikah attended to me and amran and ensured everiting was fine. That  really shows the dedication and enthusiasm a mua should have.Truly feel like a princess;).Not only with your makeup skills, you got an excellent photography talent too. You helped us got the poses and great shots in all our outfits.Thumbs up!

Once again, Sincerely from the bottom of our hearts, im so thankful having you as part of our wedding, not to forget to Abg Imran, a loving and supporting husband to Kak Juls, thank you so much for all the advices and jokes. It was indeed beautiful memories.

May Allah bless you and family and continue to bring joy to your brides and prosper in your career.  Amin.

With lotsaa loVee

amraNafisah

Nurdiyanah & Rosridhwan wedding Date of Event: 18 & 19 April 2014 via WhatsApp

From Nurdiyanah on 4 June 2014 at 11:35pm

Salam kak juls... my thousand apologies for this late testimonial....(you know lah as newly weds byk benda nak kene buat) :)

I would like to thank you for making me looked soo pretty on my special and big day with ur special touch.  Also, the way you calm me down during the akad nikah as i had burst out with tears, took good care of me (like a princess. hahaha) during my sanding and the jokes than we cracked on that two days.  Your the best that i could not say any further.  Once again thank you soo much.

Nur Diyana & Haikal wedding Date of Event: 24 & 25 May 2014 via WhatsApp

From Nur Diyana on 3 June 2014 at 7:26pm

Kak Juls!!!! Thank you for making me a pretty princess on my wedding day, especially my third outfit.  Only positive comments from my family & friends.

Thank you for being there when I had to climb into the car, when I had emotional moments and telling me how to pose for the camera. Thumbs ups.

Thank you!!!! -Diyana & Haikal-

Jamaliah & Hamzah wedding Date of Event: 1 May 2014 via Email

Salam Kak Juls

Thank you once again for the beautiful transformation on my big day. Couldn't believe my eyes when I saw myself in the mirror and I had so many compliments from family, relatives and friends.

I'm truly grateful that everything went smoothly though there was an initial delay of 45 minutes as we had forgotten to bring the shawl to be used during the solemnisation. Despite rushing for time, Kak Juls handled everything in a professional and swift manner to prevent any further delay throughout our event. 

I would highly recommend Kak Juls to all bride-to-be as she will ensure that you look gorgeous during your wedding. Also, should Amazing Race decide to come up with a MUA or Mak Andam edition, I'll definitely nominate Kak Juls and am very sure she will be the winner.

Wishing you all the best in your future endeavours.

Lia OMAR

Salfariza & Sharizal wedding Date of Event: 5 & 6 April 2014 via FB comment

From Fariza Naz on 28 May 2014 at 2:19pm

Salam Kak Juls,

This is my long overdue testimonial. Apologize for the delay as I have too many things on my plate lately and didn’t have the time to sit down and start working on my testimonial. So here you go……………

You are 1 of the few mak andam I took noticed way back in 2007. Fast forward to 2012, when I started to look around for my wedding service providers, I shortlisted you in my list. And after discussion with my then fiancé & after looking through your makeup portfolio (which saya suka skali dgn your makeup skill!), I contacted you and you were available on the dates I wanted.

And I had made a wise choice in taking your service. You have the qualities I looked for in a mak andam – friendly, warmth, funny, keeping me calm especially when I was a nervous wreck, advised me on certain matters, professional, & committed. You were even came to my house early to make me up & I was very pleased by your punctuality!

Not forgetting your assistant, Zahidah. She was a great help & a pleasant person to be around with. Please send my warmest regard to her.  Thank you so much on your excellent service you had rendered & thank you for dolling me up till I even exclaimed out aloud to myself “jambu kepe aku!” You are bestowed & blessed with great skill & personality.

May you & your andaman business soar to higher and greater heights. Last but not least may Allah blessed you and your family always (kirim salam kat Abg Im).

 Ameen.

Sincerely, Salfariza — with Ej Robson.

Nurfaezah & Mohamad Yazid wedding Date of Event: 22 & 23 March 2014 via FB comment

From Nur Faezah on 16 April 2014 at 10:10pm

Assalamualaikum Kak juls

Firstly, mintak maaf ye for the delay in sending this testimonial. Tanpa berbuang masa, lets get it started...

Many thanks to u kak Juls for making me the beautiful bride for 2 days.. Da macam princess.. Hahahaha.. Comments from hubby, friends and relatives saying i looked so different on that day. It was a totally extreme makeover la sei.. Words cannot express how happy i was with your makeup and hairdo. You were prompt and professional in the lead up to my wedding day with any questions that i wanted to make. Not forgetting, Zizie Ziema for being there to help out.

Once again, dari hati ikhlas kami, we would like to thank u again and also abg imran for the help and advises given to us by both of you. We really appreciate it. We wish both of you all the best for your future and may your business succeed.

Lastly, kalau ada salah dan silap dari pihak kami, please forgive us

Lotsa love, Faezah & Yazid

Nazlinah & Sultan Iskander Shah wedding Date of Event: 9 March 2014 via Email

Dear Kak Juls! & Abg Imran!

This is Shah & Naz…. And here is a short note from us to you both, the lovely and super frenly couple!

We would like to express our heartfelt sincere THANK YOU to you both for being our wedding’s most perfect bridal services & mua! We couldnt have gotten any better! You both have made this sail a memorable one! From queries, to bugging in watsapp, meeting at your shop for trial and final fitting til the big day itself and even after the wedding! amazing!

I was truly amazed at your work in FB…. When my fren first mentioned of you. I would say im very much lucky to have gotten your slot available! Alhamdulillah.

Kak Juls! You are a simple amazing and marvellous woman who does her job with so much passion, dedication and the determination for perfection! I admire that drive in you! Masha Allah! You are very professional in your work and give your best in what you do in the most cheerful personality and that truly would calm any jittery bride!!! The way you and your assistant attended to me and shah I saw enthusiasm and dedication a MUA should have. I never knew a MUA can be this awesome and fun. One with excellent photography skills & knowledge too! You made me get the poses & pics which I wanted… esp in the gown!

I remember reflecting on the wedding day itself several times, considering myself lucky and thankful that I made the right decision in choosing you as my MUA! Alhamdulillah! Even now, I feel the same, which I believe will last a lifetime cos such precious moment it is…a wedding day.

I received a lot of compliments and everyone who got to interact with you and saw how you worked said that you are a very nice, sporting and fun person! Esp my mom and bridesmaid!

May Allah bless you and family with the abundance of the best! Stay awesome and may you be bestowed with success more and more. Ameen.

 With lotsa love, thanks & satisfaction,

ShahNaz.

Best regards,

Naz

Rafisah & Mustafa wedding Date of Event: 8 March 2014 via FB Page comment

From Fis Hamrah on 18 March 2014 at 6:25pm

Salam Juls,

Positive compliments from families n frens assures me that i am in good hands.

Thank u for the wonderful and beautiful experience.

From Rafisah & Mustafa

Nur'Ashikin & Abdillah wedding Date of Event: 1 March 2014 via FB comment

From Didi Ashikin on 16 March 2014 at 12:54pm

Alhamdulillah its been exactly 15 days since our big day!

First and foremost, i would like to THANK the awesome lady who transformed me with her magic fingers Kak Juls, @julsdsweet! She was always looking out for me, making sure I smiled, comfort me when i was stressed and she always cracks me up with her jokes! It was a joyful time with you and Aida..

Thank you for always making me laugh & smile.. Me and Didi will always pray for your success!

Hasrianty & Mohamad Ezuandy wedding Date of Event: 22 February 2014 via Email

Kak Juls, the amazingly talented M.U.A that will forever be the best in my eyes. Do you know, readers, that even before I planned for my wedding, I would dream about having Kak Juls as my M.U.A and guess what, my dream did came true! And it came true beautifully for me. I couldn't ask for more.

The first time I got to know about Kak Juls was through my sister who got married 6 years ago and engaged her as the M.U.A. Even back then her touch was as magical and brilliant because 6 years later, I wanted her badly as my wedding M.U.A.

Unlike other brides who have a list of M.U.A on their list before their ultimate decision, mine has only one :) Alhamdulillah Kak Juls wasn't booked during that weekend because we made the booking quite late into the wedding preps.

Ok here are somethings about Kak Juls that I personally came across.

Her soft, delicate touch: Yes! These are some of the qualities of Kak Juls, I still am amazed at her. She is so so gentle, graceful and careful when she does the make up on me. During the transition, I am never bored or anything like that because Kak Juls is a jovial and funny person in reality who would make uncomfortable situation a breeze and I really had so much fun with her and her assistant too!  She is also concerned about her bride's health and wellness because I had sinus in the early morning and bad flu in the afternoon of my wedding day. And she would remind me to drink up water and even if I didn't ask for it, she just sort of knew that I needed water to ease my little discomfort. How nice :)

I should also say that Kak Juls is a really multi-talented and informative person that will give you advise whenever you need it. Not only that she transforms you into a beautiful bride, she also takes great pictures! You WILL LOVE them!

Oh and also I am not a natural in front of the camera and don't really know how to pose for a photo. Senang kata in malay I am very the kaku! This being said, Kak Juls had made me feel relaxed because I was really tensed the moment cameras were all over me! She would also teach you how to pose naturally for the cameras and it is really ok if you are the kaku type like me because Kak Juls' personal experiences and calmness will eventually loosen up your uptight nerves. (TELL ME ABOUT IT KAN)

Kak Juls is the gerek type of M.U.A and is always joking/laughing and cheering on me till the end. She is patient with me and is professional at work in all sorts of circumstances. At times she would share a tip or two about make up with me while donning me. Seriously I really couldn't ask for more. There is nothing bad/awful that I would say about her.

I believe Kak Juls does her work in the most amicable way which makes you feel the trust in between. :)

Before I end, I would like to thank Kak Juls for her amazing M.U.A service and I would also recommend her to all my friends who haven't got married YET but I will still do that hehe because she is just awesomely talented lah :))

I hope in future if I plan to have a photoshoot of some kind I would definitely look for her. Inshaa Allah. Till then, Assalamualaikum WBR. :)

Nurulain & Muhammad Farhan wedding Date of Event: 15 & 16 February 2014 via FB Page

From Nurulain Suwaimi on 25 February 2014 at 9:05am

Salam Kak juls!

It has been a week since you make up for me! I love the way you interact with your brides esp me! Hehe. You make me feel easy when the situation was lil bit tensed. You and your assistant made the situation more relaxing with laughters while doing the makeups and all.

Never once did i ever regret having you as my MUA. The outcome is so gorgeous! Your wide range of wedding dresses are awesome!

You help me to build up my confident in smilling. So thank you!

So! To all brides to be! Please consider Kak Juls as your MUA. You sure won't regret having her!

Lots of love, Nurulain Suwaimi — with Muhammad Farhan.

Azlina's makeover Date of Event: 8 February 2014 via FB comment

Dear Juls Abdullah

1st of all I would like to say thank you for accommodating to my last minute request.

Secondly thank you for the wonderful work you've done. I'm very satisfied with the end product. When I reached at the venue, none of my colleagues could recognised me till I approached them. Every1 gave me a great compliments & comments. Even my boss told me that I should put on the make up when I come to work.

Lastly, from the bottom of my heart thank you for making me feel beautiful on that day.

Thank you & hugsss... Azlina

Nuranizah & Mohamad Fauzi wedding Date of Event: 4 & 5 January 2014 via FB album comment

Sorry for the late testimonial. Was so busy with honeymoon and then back to work.

First of all, me and hubby would like to thank a million to you and your assistant for your service on both days of our wedding event! You transformed into a beautiful and gorgeous princess with your magic touch! I just cant believe that it was me after the makeup and all!

Thank you for being there from the beginning of the solemnization until the end of the wedding. Alhamdulillah everything went well!

Thank you so much once again kak for everything! I feel like want to makeup kahwin kahwin again by you! Hehe!!

[wolferals]

JUST PRETEND TO BE MY DATE

jack o‘connell x reader🌷

„Hey Anna its so great to see you, its been so long!" You hugged your old classmate tightly before grabbing a mini hamburger from the buffet. Without even knowing the bride you were invited to their wedding and were supposed to be this guys date, but he hadnt even had the nerve to show up.

So you had a short small talk with her until you decided to get a drink at the bar. You walked through the big hall on your extremely uncomfortable heels just to take a deep breath before sitting on one of the bar stools.

„Hey sweetheart what can I get for you?" The attractive bartender smiled and cleaned a glass meanwhile.

„Could I get a cocktail? Any kind. Something sweet though."

He chuckled before nodding and getting to work.

While he was busy mixing your drink you looked around the room. Happy couples were dancing, people were laughing, kids were running around. And you sat here, stood up by your date and all you wanted was to go home.

Suddenly you spotted a familiar face in the crowd. How could you forget the brown curly hair and the mole he had under his eye. You panicked, you had expected everything but seeing your ex that night.

So you basically jumped up from your stool before he could see you and grabbed the first man to be standing close to the bar. You held onto his tux and said:"Hey! How are you? Whats your name?"

He was tall, handsome, big blue eyes and a bit of facial hair.

He looked confused but for your luck, answered:"I'm doing amazing. What about you mystery girl? My name's Jack."

His accent made you smile a bit. You hadn't expected him to have such a thick British accent.

„Please pretend to be my date, my ex is coming this way. Please."

He turned around to spot the man you were talking about but your ex and his partner were already in front of you.

She was pretty. Really pretty.

„Hey y/n, I wasnt expecting to see you here. Who's that?"

He spoke with a certain undertone of „you're actually here with someone?"

You put on a fake smile and hooked your arm with Jack's.

„I'm Jack, nice to meet you mate." The two men shook hands before your ex Daniel scanned Jack and spoke:"I'm Dan, nice meeting you too. So you two are?"

You nodded immediately.

„Yup, its been a while for me with that lady. A really special girl my y/n."

You smiled at Jack as he intertwined your fingers and sent you a smile real quick.

„Well then have fun you guys." Dan spoke and said goodbye to the two of you to walk outside.

You let go of Jacks hand and took a deep breath while digging your fingers into your hair.

„Oh god, I'm so sorry. He and I uh, we dated for a bit and then he cheated on me. I just didnt want him to think I cant find a new boyfriend or something."

Jack nodded at you and answered:"No don't worry, It was kind of fun even. And I'm sorry he cheated on you, you dont deserve that."

Sitting down at the bar with him you finally got your drink and started telling you about how Dan always made you feel like he was better than you. With all his money and his charme he got everything he wanted and you just struggled a lot when you two were dating. Jack listened carefully and kept on telling you that he didnt deserve you and how much better you were than him. He made you smile a lot. „Ugh and I also dont even know anyone here. No idea why I was invited."

Jack nodded again and sipped on his drink.

„Well come one, you wanna dance?"

Gladly you took his hand after putting down your glass and he walked you over to the dance floor.

Some soft music was blasting through the speakers.

He insisted on you laying your head on his shoulder and he placed his hand on your lower back.

He smelled really good, you thought to yourself. A mix of Alcohol, cigarettes and aftershave.

You never thought, you'd like that kind of combination but on him you did.

„So tell me something about yourself. All I know so far is that your ex was a cock to you."

You chuckled against his neck and whispered back:"What do you wanna know?"

He pulled you slightly closer and spoke up:"Everything. I want to know every little detail about you."

Blushing you dug your face against the soft fabric of his tuxedo.

While you lightly swayed your hips to the song you started telling him about your life. You started with some lame childhood story that eventually had made him laugh. Then you had continued with some fun facts about you and at the end you told him about your future plans.

He had not interfered once as you were speaking. He had nodded and hummed inbetween but all he did was listen carefully to your words.

Yet suddenly a more upbeat song came on and you two broke apart. „Do you want to sit outside for a while?"

He asked and you had accepted smiling at him.

You two made your way to the backyard of the building and sat down on a bench. Your light blue knee length dress had maybe been a little too cold so you crossed your legs and started rubbing your arm to warm up.

Jack noticed right away and took his jacket off like the gentleman he was. He carefully wrapped it around your shoulders and smiled softly. „Better?" You nodded and leaned back to look at the sky.

„Your turn mister." You then spoke and gave him a quick glance.

„Alright. Uhm my full name's Jack O'Connell and I'm an actor. I'm originally from Derby, which is basically smack bang in the middle of England."

You started to smile at his choice of words.

„I like your accent." You couldn't help but tell him.

Softly he chuckled and looked at you. „Thank you. I suppose thats how we speak."

You smiled as well and let him continue.

„I've been living here for a month now because I'm currently shooting a film around here. My mate John and I've been friends forever though. We went to school together."

He referred to the groom when he mentioned John.

„Yeah thats all I can tell you, my life isn't that interesting i guess."

You couldn't believe what he just said. „Not interesting? You're an actor, thats much more spectacular than anything I've ever done."

He laughed out loud, showing his beautiful smile once more.

„Alright. But your life seems a lot more nerve racking than mine so far."

You nodded and then started grinning after thinking about how much weird stuff you had told him that night.

„So y/n, am I gonna see you again?" He spoke into the darkness after a bit of time.

You gave him a quick glance and replied:"Maybe."

He looked disappointed for a second until you continued:"If you promise me you'll show me how you guys party in Derby. Because your friend over there seems to be having it."

You pointed at the puking groom who was leaning himself up against the wall and took another sip of his beer right after he had just thrown up into the grass.

Jack started laughing while you both stared at John who laughed at his own stupidity.

Jack then smiled at you and scooted a bit closer to your body.

„Deal. I'll show you how we do it in England."

[imma-new-soul]

Friend to the Bride

Summary: When your friend Natasha is finally getting married she introduces you to everyone whose going to be a part of the wedding. When she introduces you to her friend Bucky things get a bit interesting

Pairing: Bucky x Reader, Natasha x Steve, Wanda, Scott, Sam, Thor, Shuri, Hope, Pepper, Tony (platonic)

Warning: probably spelling error cause I didnt proof read

Words: 3k (oops sorry not sorry)

It was nearly 6:30am and your plans to sleep in for once was interrupted by an annoying knock on the door. You grabbed the pillow from under you covering your face trying to block out the sound of the knocking but it just became louder and more frequent. Throwing the sheet that covered your body off and aside you placing your feet into the slippers you had kicked off before hopping into bed last night. 

Shuffling lazily through the living room you arrived at the door. Whoever was at the door was very persistent in their attempt to get you out of bed. Swinging the door open you were greeted by a way to energetic, Way to a wake Natasha Rominoff. Although she was your bestfriend you wanted to kill her for taking the only day you could get some well needed rest away from you. 

“I called like a million times what were doing?” She said shaking her phone in your face 

“ I was trying to sleep in like a normal person does on their day off, only psychos like you are up this early Nat” you say walking to the kitchen to start to make a fresh pot of coffee. Natasha grabs the pot from your hand and places it on the counter behind her. 

“Get ready we’re going dress shopping, we can pick up some coffee on the way over” she says pushing you towards your room.

About 4 months ago Steve finally asked Natasha to marry him and it was about time they were dating for 5 years and everyone figured it would never happen, even Natasha had her doubts. ever since then Nat has been going crazy planning everything herself. Her wedding dress was already picked out and she was so excited to start looking for dresses for all her bridesmaids. last week you went with her when she finally said yes to the dress and you balled your eyes out because she just looked so stunning. 

You couldn’t protest and beg her to let you crawl back in bed no matter how much you wanted to,  Besides you were her maid of honor and knew you couldn’t skip out on this. Nat waited for you on the couch while you got ready. Finally you stepped out in a gorgeous summer dress, hair in perfect curls, and pretty white wedges. 

You decided to take Nat’s car because you were to tired to drive anyway. After getting your well needed coffee you arrived at the dress shop at around 7:30am. 

“So why do we have to be here so early?” You say stepping out of the car.

“Because it’s the only reservation I could get, This place is ALWAYS booked. Now hurry up everyone’s already here waiting for us” Nat said rushing out of the parking lot heading to the entrance of the shop.

Even though you haven’t met all of Natasha’s friends you met some of the girls a few times throughout the years and they adored you. They thought it was cute how quiet and shy you were, Wanda and Shuri took an especially strong liking to you always making sure you felt comfortable and included.

 Walking into the shop you spotted the rest of the bridesmaids right away and they all got up hugging you and Natasha and took their seats back on the couch. Hope, Wanda, Pepper, and Shuri all beaming with excitement, everyone couldn’t wait to pick out their dresses. The dress shop was beautiful and way bigger than you expected. One side has gorgeous dresses hanging from the racks and a few mannequins wearing stunning gowns and on the other side was a giant red curtain dividing the room but you didn’t quite know what was on the other side. 

After about an hour everyone picked out their dresses and was already fitted, it couldn’t have gone any smoother you thought smiling at how happy Natasha was. After everyone was changed into their original clothes Natasha sighed and grabbed your hand leading you through the curtain to a separate room and the rest of the girls joined a few seconds later. The room you were now in look similar to the one before but the dresses were replaced with suits and tuxedos. Steve and a group of men you never seen before were scattered around the shop some still in their street clothes and some in there suits. You figured these must be his best-friends and groomsmen and clenched your awkwardly coming to the realization that you now had to meet new people when you were just getting use to Natasha’s friends. 

The rest of the bridesmaids walked past you greeting the men, hugs and laugher exchanged for a few minutes until Nat pulled you over so she could introduce you to the guys. You already knew Steve so there was no need for introductions. She swung her hand around Steve’s waist and started to call out their names. “This is Scott, Tony. Sam, Thor, and Bucky, everyone this is my Maid of Honor y/n” she said each of them turning to look at you.

Scott stepped towards you bringing you into a surprising, tight hug and you giggled a little hugging him back

Thor gave you a wide smile bowing his head a bit “Nice to meet you Lady y/n” he said in a low deep voice 

Sam reached out for your hand and placed a small kiss on the back of it, winking at you 

Tony was to busy checking himself out in the mirror to pay you much attention 

Lastly Bucky stepped forward towards you extending his hand out for a handshake but not making any eye contact with you. You noticed his hand was soft but sweating a bit and he cleared his throat before walking away awkwardly keeping his eyes on the floor. 

You had to admit they were a strange group of individuals but the way everyone talked and laughed with each other you knew they were one big happy dysfunctional family who loved one another to death and you wished you had something like that for yourself. After a few minutes everyone settled in waiting for the rest of the men to try on here suits. Sam strudder out of the dressing room confidently in an all black fitted suit and shiny flat black shoes. He smiled sticking out his tongue and did a dramatic spin so everyone could see him. You couldn’t help but laugh at his actions and everyone joined in clapping and whistling feeding his ego a bit. 

A few seconds later and Bucky came out in the same all black suit. His large shoulders and arms wrapped in the black material and as he turned to look in the mirror you couldn’t help but notice how good his butt looked in those pants. The suit fit him perfectly hugging just the right spots and you couldn’t take your eyes off of him. Natasha looked over her shoulder to see you practically drooling over Bucky, she smiled and went back to talking to Steve. 

When you were done in the shop Nat and Steve invited everyone over for lunch at their house and everyone one accepting their offer and got into their separate cars. On the ride over Natasha took one hand off the steering wheel smacked your thigh lightly to get your attention. 

“You know Bucky is single” she said smirking keeping her eyes on the road. 

“So.. what does that have to do with me?” You said squinting your eyes

“ C'mon y/n I saw the way you were looking at him” she said holding back her smile

“I don’t know what you mean” you said back to her

“Don’t give me that If your jaw was any more open it would have touched the floor” she was now smiling at you containing her laughter 

Your cheeks blushed bright, she wasn’t wrong but you hoped no one noticed. You sat there in the passenger seat not really knowing what to say feeling so embarrassed you wanted to sink right into the seat.

“Just promise me you’ll try to talk to him y/n he’s a sweet guy I think you’ll really like him.” Nat said hoping you’d say yes. You sighed a little rolling your eyes.

“ Fine I’ll try to talk to him, but I’m not making any promises.” You said finally giving her what she wanted to hear. Nat smiled childishly giving herself a mental pat on the back.

Lunch at Steve and Nat’s was a blast all of their friends were so funny and made you feel welcomed. After the meal, some people were crowded around the couch watching a rom-com that Wanda picked out and others broke off to their own little groups. You saw Bucky leaning against the wall and turned to look at Natasha nervously, she gave you a nod and you took that as her way of telling you to go for it, so you did. You walked towards Bucky till you were standing right infront of him. You had no idea what you were going to say so you blurted out the first thing that came to your mind.

“Hi I’m y/n” you said 

“Yeah I remember.. Natasha’s Friends” Bucky said in a friendly tone 

You wanted to slap yourself, of course he knew your name Nat already introduce you. You wanted out of this conversation already and it had just begun.

“Yeah” you said awkwardly nodding your head 

“ umm so how do you know Nat?” He said trying to keep the conversation going. 

“ We went to the same high school she was pretty much the only person I talked to my whole 4 years.” You said not realizing that that sounded kind of pathetic but you went on to ask Bucky how he knew Steve and he replied saying that he couldn’t remember a time where he didn’t know Steve and you found it sweet that their still so close. Surprisingly Bucky was very easy to talk to, he asked you lots of questions and you were more than happy to answer them. The two of you actually had a lot in common. He loved reading and science and watching old movies ,all the things Nat use to tease you about saying it was geeking. 

You couldn’t believe you could talk to someone who was so hot and be able to not make a complete fool out of yourself. After a few hours of talking with Bucky you started to see him as more than just a pretty face, he was interesting and sweet and very respectful. Somehow the conversation turned to a discussion about your relationship status and you couldn’t hide the blush on your cheeks 

“So are you taking anyone as your date to the wedding?” Bucky asked cautiously 

“ No I have too much stuff to help Natasha with I mean it’s not like I have anyone to go with anyway.” You say looking down and away from Bucky 

“Yeah I don’t either, if that makes you feel any better.” Bucky said laughing lightly and placing a hand you upper arm. 

Your heart started to beat fast and your skin started to heat up at his touch. You giggled a little with him trying not to let him notice how his touch was affecting you. You felt crazy for it but just in these few hours you were developed really strong feelings for Bucky. It was getting late and everyone was starting to head out and so was Bucky which disappointed you cause it felt like you could talk to him forever. So he said his goodbye to you giving you a quick hug, sliding one hand around your waist and leaning into you. The warmth of his body and smell of his cologne set tingles all down your spine. You signed and frowned to yourself watching him leave Steve and Nat’s house before you remembered a few minutes before he left he asked for your phone putting his number in it and telling you to text him whenever you wanted someone to talk to.

A few weeks past and the wedding was tomorrow. Bucky and you texted everyday, it wasn’t anything flirty you just talked about work and errands and the wedding of course. You were so excited to finally see your best friend get married but first you had the rehearsal dinner tonight that you had to attend. You were more than nervous, this was the first time you were going to see Bucky in weeks. It took you 3 hours to get ready trying to make sure you look your absolute best.

Arriving at the venue a little after Natasha you where in awe. Everything was already set up for tomorrow morning and it was breathtaking. When everyone arrived the first thing you had to do was practice your walk down the aisle with your partner. Nat figured it’ll be fine to not rehearse any of this till today because she knew no one needed much practice walking in a straight line. All the bridesmaids and groomsmen took their place wrapping their arms around their partners arms waiting for the queue. You were a bit confused you didn’t have a partner until you felt Bucky’s arm wrap around yours. 

“Hey y/n” he said with a million dollar smile. You could just melt right now! 

“Hi… umm you’re my partner?” You said a bit confused as to why he never mentioned it to you when you two had texted all those nights.

“Yea I’m Steve’s best man Natasha told me to keep it a secret, that it was a surprise for some reason.” He said still smiling at you.

You snapped your head around to see Nat waving and smiling at you giggling like a little kid. You wanted to scold her but you couldn’t contain your smile. The music started right away and as the couples started to walk Bucky leaned down to your ear 

“You look beautiful” he said leading down the aisle not giving any time to respond. 

You blushed the whole way down the aisle and you were pretty sure everyone noticed. The rest of the rehearsal went perfectly and as everyone sat at the tables to eat your mouth hurt from how much you smiled. Bucky sat right beside you telling jokes and funny stories. God he’s so perfect you thought to yourself as he went on and on. A few minutes into the meal you felt Bucky’s knee graze against yours and you bit your lip trying not to smile. Steve and Natasha was talking to everyone about the plans they had made for their honeymoon when you felt Bucky’s hand reach out and grab yours that you had resting on your lap. Your heart pounded in your chest and you let your smile spread across your face. He held your hand the whole dinner as he talked to you about any and everything 

When dinner was over, everyone started to pack up and leave. Bucky let go of your hand and stood up pulling the chair out for you to stand up. 

“Well I’m going to head out” he said you could hear the tiredness in his voice

“Ok It was really nice talking in person again” you said smile up at him 

“I’ll see you tomorrow beautiful” Bucky said leaning over to place a kiss on your cheek. 

GOD DAMN!! Is it hot in here? Or is it just you???

You were in shock. Did that really just happen? Did he call you beautiful? Gosh his lips are so soft? All these questions and thought ran through you head. That night you couldn’t sleep, you were up all night thinking about all that needed to be done for the wanting and most importantly you couldn’t stop thinking about Bucky. Morning came and you hopped out of bed ready for what was to come. You got dressed in some comfortable clothing knowing you weren’t going to be in your bridesmaid dress for another few hours. Nat picked you up and you both arrived at the venue early enough to get your hair and makeup done. 

The morning was chaotic for you, you ran all over the place making sure everything was perfect until it was time to finally start the ceremony. All yours and Nat’s work paid off everything was perfect. Bridesmaid and groomsmen arm and arm, you and Bucky where last before Natasha walked down the aisle and she was stunning. She took everyone’s breath away. You and Steve couldn’t help but tear up at the sight of her. After the ceremony was over, it was time for the PARTY. You could finally relax and have fun with your girls. 

The wedding was turning out even better then you expecting and it made your heart swell to see how happy Natasha was. After a few up-beat songs the DJ started to play slow love songs for all the couples. Every pair stepping out on the dancefloor to slow dance to the music. 

It was sweet seeing everyone in love, you watched as they cozied up to each other the women’s heads on their mans chest swaying to the rhythm. You were taking away from your thoughts when you looked up to see Bucky standing in front of you with his  hand stretched out 

“ Can I have this dance?” He said, taking his hand he lead you to the dancefloor, holding your waist with his hands. 

It felt amazing to him having you in his arms, he looked down at you with heavy eyes filled with passion. Without thinking he inched closer to you kissing you lightly, your hand wrapped around his neck pulling him in closer deepening the kiss. He pulled his head back after a few moments and spoke

“I was going to ask you this yesterday but I kind of got to nervous,… can I take you out sometime… like on a date" 

"Yea I’d like that” you said smiling at him and kissing again. 

When the song was over you looked over to see Natasha clapping for the two of you and you smiled in complete happiness 

@mushyjellybeans @sebbbystaaan

[minjoonalist]

Better Than Before. | KSJ 18+

pairing: Ex!Seokjin x Reader

genre: smut, BDE!Jin, a pinch of Angst., what is Humor?

words: 3.1K

warnings: none :)

summary: why is that everytime you attmept to be a social butterfly your ex-kim seokjin appears and you’re suddenly a raging alcoholic. AKA- seokjin is on a persistent mission to get you alone again.

song inspiration: “Always” by Arin Ray

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You’ve never been the type of person to attend big celebration or even stay afterwards for further socializing. But you either had to choose between another Saturday spent watching re-runs of old sitcoms or actually going out to do something with your life and seeing as you were a full fledged nurse with barely enough time to take a piss… yeah it was probably time to interact with others.

The soft spot for your closest coworker had took it place once she asked for your assistance as a bridesmaid. An unfortunate event of one her friends getting extremely sick due to a spreading Flu had only ended with the poor thing being short just one person. Little did you know the sweet natured girl had actually considered you to be another close pal of her own and couldn't think of any other to put above asking you next. Originally you had planned to miss the event all in itself , even when you were just a guest. Practicing in your mirror to give the sweet girl a stern ‘hell no’, but it's Fairly obvious to see by now that, that didn't go as planned.

The air felt hot, you were sure your dress had a huge sweat stain on the back and you couldn't control the throbbing need that was slowly making you delirious by the second.

“You may now kiss the bride” the words spoken by the elderly priest that stood only a feet away from you. You looked to him. a firm smile placed on his slightly chapped lips that had everyone cheering, including the beautiful couple who were currently leaning into each other to seal their vows of commitment. It was perfect to say nonetheless, all white spreading throughout the pure rustic styled garden and the sun was shining throughout the clear blue skies showcasing the Event in all it’s beauty . You wanted to bask in it and soak up the rare moment you were apart of , but there was no use .

No, Not when there's a pair of dark occupied eyes staring your body down throughout the entire celebration.

“ I dont know whats more messed up. You- attending the same wedding as me or the fact that the next time I ever see you it's when you're in the same wedding as me” the undeniably gorgeous man that you’ve known as your Ex- Kim Seokjin- or well Jin pressed you into his side tighter just as you were following the groom and bride down flower filled path.

Wild light brown hair, pouty plump lips, and mischievous black eyes- If there was anything that made you regret going along with this decision, it was certainly him.

“Seokjin. Let. me. Go.” the venomous words slid through your teeth just as you waved towards the ederly woman in one of the rows and whom you could only assume was the groom’s grandmother.

“sheesh , still bitter I see” He glances down at you, a firm smirk still in its place when he does not-so-exactly as you wished. His long arm that was pressing you rather possessively into his waist loosened its hold and only came to grab your soft empty hand. It gave everyone the simple illusion that you two were a perfect couple when really you were anything but.

It was a couple of years ago in a situation similar to this one, you’d ended up attending a special occasion for an old colleague. It was a birthday party that your classmates happened to be throwing for seokjin and you’d reluctantly allowed your roommates to drag you there. There wasn't really much else to it since you could barely remember, you caved into downing 5 shots as you tried to drown out your boredom and completely blacked out. The only thing you could recall after that mysterious night , was waking up naked and sore next to the birthday boy himself. You’ve both only dated for a couple of months, when rumors of the popular boy’s conquests arose and you were in no mood to deal with them.

In other words- you dumped him.

“Shot of whiskey and make it dark please” you smiled innocently towards the cute dimpled bartender who busied himself cleaning cups. He nods back at you, his blonde hair falling forward as he momentarily slid his eyes over you and you vice versa. He then rolls up his crisp white button up to lean towards you, your eyes running quickly over his name tag that read ‘namjoon’ on it. “Sure thing miss” he sends you a wink , just before turning to prepare the requested drink.

“I wonder. are you going to keep batting your lashes at Virgin- juice boy over here or are you going to keep downing shots until I convince you to let me fuck you somewhere private? Preferably the latter but without the convincing part.” Seokjin’s velvety voice mumbles shamelessly into your ear making you shudder.

“As if that’ll ever happen” you scoff , just as the bartender namjoon hands you the small glass making sure to flash you his dimpled smile one last time. You raise the liquid towards your mouth, downing it in one go. Already the calming sensation spreading up from your legs and throughout your body, making the annoying Ass next you a bit more bearable . Only when you finally notice the long and intimidating gaze he has set on you. You decide to go in for more “ Another please.”

Seokjin’s nearly evil smirk never falters “ If I do recall and I truly do. Pretty little y/n downed 5 of my birthday shots and let me lay between her legs” he says way too loud for your liking. Your cheeks blushed and not from the fact that he just aired your sexual history in front of namjoon (who was handing you your next shot), but that the man had just called you pretty. Even more so that the simple compliment actually had you pressing your thighs together.

“I think we both can agree that years ago pretty little y/n made a huge mistake”

“You’re right about that” he chuckles with a nod. In return you roll your eyes, reaching for the next shot in front of you and downing that one as well. You make eye contact with namjoon once again, his soft eyes connecting with the empty glass in your possession “just one more please” you sheepishly smile and he bites his lip, silently laughing at your cuteness.

Once again a shot glass is slid your way. It was then that you noticed seokjin had moved significantly closer towards, the smell of his intoxicating cologne running up your nostrils and a large flat palm resting on the small of your back. When the hell did he put it there?

“ g-good so we agree. Maybe now you’ll finally leave me the hell alone” you attempt to ease away from him. The familiarity of the situation , bringing lost memories of how you once tried to resist the highly convincing man before.

“I never said that I agreed with what you said y/n…” he says , voice becoming husky and soft. You hated to admit it, but it was pulling you in just like the sensual gaze he never failed to keep on you. You didnt know whether to blame it on the alcohol or that you just havnt had sex about 2 seasons of big bang theory ago.

“Bu-but you just did-”

You were reaching for what was going to be your last shot , when seokjin comes in and snatches it from your grasp. You pout in return , not wanting to have to ask the dimpled boy for another. “I said you were right, only because you did make a mistake. You broke up with me when all I ever did was make you happy. Even worse, you did it right before we graduated and then you blocked me ” the slight sadness in his voice would have had you wanting to console the man had it not been for the fact that he was the one who messed up.

“Seokjin, you cheated on me. Did you really think I was going to stay with you after finding that out?” you sputtered out.

He was midway through downing your shot, when your words had caused him to gasp and choke on the harsh drink. Immediately his cool is lost, the poor man doubling over to hack his lungs out before he oddly finishes it anyway. “I did not cheat on you. Where the hell did you get that stupid Idea?” he frowns rather disappointedly at you.

“Oh please you're just saying that so I’ll let you slip your excited little hands up my dress” you shake your head but a small part of you just can't get over the sincerity that was in his stare. A silent second passes by and seokjin’s trance is broken before he asks you “how did you find out?”.

Your heart skips a beat. His soft voice riddled with no such guilt but he wanted to know how you discovered his unfaithfulness. In his eyes , he now seemed a bit curious more than concerned and it made an unsettling feeling appear in your stomach “I was told.” you swallowed “by some sorority girl - actually she was at your party” you then confessed.

“Blonde hair? Pouty lips.. And a permanent bitch face right?” he lists easily and the description matches the exact culprit who informed you of all his hidden lies. You guessed he must’ve gone off the way your eyes had wavered with uncertainty because seokjin had then let out an incredulous huff of disbelief. He hangs his head , his shoulders shaking from the small laugh that escapes his mouth “y/n. That was my ex” he says finally.

You gasped.

“You let my ex-girlfriend get into your head. If there's one thing I remember about her, its that she’s very manipulative, but also bitter and anyone with common sense knows thats not a good combination” he looks to you, only to see the disheartened look on your face. Your eyes full of guilty sadness now that you easily pieced two and two together.

“I-I dont know what to say-....I’m sorry seokjin” you managed out.

Sure you felt bad but your relationship was years ago. In-fact you’ve barely thought about him since honestly. He smiles tenderly towards you, the warmth from his brown eyes seeping slowly through your guarded shield but only now , you almost don't mind to let it down a bit.

“ Its fine, to be honest I should've known she would try something like that. You were probably too innocent for me anyways- I could’ve ruined you” he jokes though you don't laugh, your mind staying stuck on the innocent part.

“Remember I'm the girl who stole your shots and took you back to her dorm” you say catching both him and yourself completely off guard. Your eyes then widen from the risky remark, heart hammering in your chest when seokjin quirks a teasing brow at you.

You then turn back towards the bar, the dimpled blonde smiling your way when you tap the empty space in front of you “ a double would be great” you say but then for the first time seokjin acknowledges him as well. “Trust me. No it wouldn't.” he smiles a bit too sweet at the poor boy and you notice namjoon’s own smile falter from the slight animosity. Seokjin then grabs at your hand, his thumb slightly stroking the inside of you palm as the other finds its place again on your back. The intimate actions bringing your attention fully back to him when he speaks again.

“Now that the convincing part is done. Lets go somewhere a bit more private”

Honestly if you were shocked by the fact that you’ve once again allowed seokjin slip under your skin...well…that would be perfectly okay. It didn't take a second thought for you to let seokjin lead you to what looked like tiny shed, the both of you slipping in easily unnoticed as everyone else focused on the beautiful couple dancing away into their new marriage.

You're bent over slightly, Seokjin’s hands coming towards your hips to pick them up and raise your ass towards him. Immediately he groans in his spot. the delicious sight of your pussy lips glistening with your arousal reminds him just why he was so fucking whipped for you back then. You were gorgeous...everywhere and his mouth was watering just to get a taste of you again.

A finger swipes gently at your exposed slit, sending a cold shiver down your back from the subtle friction.

“You were always so sensitive for me weren't you baby?” He whispers, but by the way he confidently pushes the Long calloused finger into your unsuspecting hole, his own question is already answered.

“-J-jin…” you grunt out the broken moan in appreciation. His finger is pulling away and pushing right back in , causing you squirm and whimper from the much needed pleasure. “I can't wait to fill you up” a tiny squelch is heard as another finger is added to his torturing movements. His body coming forward onto your bare back and you could honestly melt just from the way it arched perfectly into him.

The tight knot in your stomach begins to loosen as you try your hardest hide your loud whimpers from any outsiders. Your legs trembling and you so badly want him to just fuck you already.

“P-please…” was all you could manage.

Seokjin’s fingers that were once pumping into you at a moderate pace turns to a more vicious route and you can't help but to squeal when the two lengthy digits forces your quivering pussy into its first orgasm in months. It leaves you breathless, weak and you were just about ready to collapse onto the neat shed’s floor.

“ Tsk, You haven't gone soft on me have you?” Seokjin chuckles down at you, a wicked glint prominent in his midnight eyes and when you shake your head in return. you could only shiver as the smile drops and the tiny space goes cold with his next words

“I’m not done with you yet Pretty girl…”

Next thing you knew you were being flipped onto your back and seokjin’s. strong hands had reached greedily for your underwear only to slide them completely off.

He then meets you on the ground, his body leaning back just a bit to unbuckle his black slacks. A noticeable swallow from your end driving the man a bit more mad with lust and he would swear he could cum right then and there just from that cute innocent gaze you were giving just when he pulls himself free.

“O-h…” you could barely say, your mouth completely dry. Your watched anxiously, a bead of precum already oozing out through the thick red Mushroom head of what you could definitely remember was his above average cock. The hard veiny muscle not having any shame to rub said cum swiftly down your exposed slit.

“You’re so fucking pretty baby, did you know long I’ve held this for you?” He growls out, deep carnal lust stuck in his voice as he inches closer above you. You weren't given the chance to answer him because as soon as you could , his fingers had wrapped within your once neat bun to pull your head back even further.

You could only then let out what sounded like a breathy moan. Your lungs almost giving up on you when you feel the head of his cock prying it’s way into you. His mouth laying open mouth kisses onto your exposed neck ,making his way up to towards your chin and finally landing on your mouth.

As much as you wanted to resist his kiss, the way Seokjin’s tongue had begun to dip swirl onto yours had your toes curling just from the passion of it and your entire body melting in pure bliss.

Your legs are spread out a bit wider for him, his hands latching onto the back of your knees to do so. “So cute. So good for me” he whispers out his praises into your ear, his hips jerking forward to shove his member deep into you and you nearly scream from the intrusion. Instantly you feel full, your body humming with pleasure as seokjin finds his paced rhythm. His hips slamming down onto yours with such a force that it has your eyes rolling to the back of your head.

“ so good! Yes just like that!” You exclaim out to him when the change of his angle only ends with your g-spot getting rammed into over and over.

“Look at pretty y/n. taking Daddy’s big cock like a good girl” he says, each sweet thrust matching his words. It was at this point where seokjin’s hand had ended up slipping from under one of your knees only to drop one of your legs. During the slight mishap seokjin was mid-thrust into you when you yelped and jerked your hips from the even more intense pleasure.

“Oh? Did that feel good baby? Maybe I should make you feel like that some more hmm?” He chuckles when you shake your head. Ignoring your response to switch you on your right side and sit himself on top of your right thigh, your left thigh being pushed against you as he proceeds with his wreckening.

What once was a difficult task had become impossible to withhold your loud moans. The new position allowing him to fuck further into your walls, burying himself to the hilt and maybe even deeper than he probably should be. It has your body jumping, your hands instantly bracing themselves on his highly active hips as tears started to leak from your eyes.

“So fucking cute. Pretty y/n don't ever run from me again - let daddy take care of you.” He pleads and praises you in your ear as he leans forward. “O-Ok-kay!” You unthinkingly gasped trying to catch your lost breath, his surged strokes turning your mind to mush and you could feel your orgasm climbing terrifyingly fast.

“Angh! Jin! Im go-ing to c-cum!”

You didn't have to tell him for him to know. Seokjin could feel his balls tightening with every brutal squeeze of your core- it was like you were trying to milk the man’s dick. He chuckled from the thought, his harsh grunts being masked by an unbelievably deep sexy laugh “thats right baby, milk me. Make me cum S-so I can fill that pretty pussy of yours.”

As if on cue your body gives out. Sweet burning pleasure pushing up throughout your entire body while you thrashed uncontrollably under Seokjin’s relentless thrusts.

“Mmmm!” You screamed, but your mouth is immediately muffled under one of his hands. The grip of it suddenly becoming unbearably tight once seokjin finds his own release in you.

You hold your breath, his body collapsing next to you once he slips out with a satisfied sigh.

“That was....even better than before”

[i-am-your-dragon]

Its time to meet the King of the dragons: Bio Roark

Human form:

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Dragon form:

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Name: Roark

Species: Dragon

Age: over 600 years old

Gender: male

Sexuality: Straight

Looks:  Roark is a 6'0"tall over 600 years old dragon.

In his human form he is a bald muscular man around 50 with wide shoulders, six-pack(Face claim is Bruce Willis) His eyes are bluish green with brown spot in his right eye, his nose is straight, his face masculin and his lips full. He clad his body in suits red, black sometimes grey without a fly or tie. His only jewelries are three massive golden rings with his kingdom sign and a ring with a drop of the a lock of his queen in it a gift to his 500 birthday.

His dragon form has three heads, three personalities, one is calm and polite it has ocean blue eyes, one is wild and rough one eyes dark golden and one is neutral and the leader of both deciding wich head to listen to has green eyes. Kinda like Angel and Devil on shoulder.

Scars: He has many scars from many battles with humans and other enemies. The worst is decorating his back after he was struck by lightning as child thought.

Clothing: Like said above he is wearing mostly suits and casual clothes like button up shirts, shirts and mostly long pants.

Weapons: He fights with one sword a gigantic one because if he fights he fights in his dragon form. Not that his human form is any weaker but he likes to scare his enemies with his gigantic sword and dragon form.

Personality: Roark is a strongwilled fair and calm ruler. He who would do all for his family and folk. He loves children and is popular with the kids on his island. Beside his age he is still a modern man and likes the inventions of humans. Even thought he rarelly leaves his castel to see them for himself because he need to keep an eye on his folk.

Relationships: He only fell in love once with his queen and had two daughters and three sons with her. Sadly the queen and princesses died on the virus who is killing the female dragons.

Thats why he is forced as the young male of his folks including his sons to search for a bride in his case a queen to safe his race.

Likes: -Roark likes fruits he has a weakness for sweet fruits like strawberries.

-He is satisfied when his folk is happy and trys his best to please them.

He loved his queen over all and his daughters and visits their graves every day.

-He likes to go climb the mountains on his island, it keeps his body beside the training with his much younger royal gards healthy.

-He is a romantic deep hidden inside and enjoyed to go on walks under the starlight with his queen or have picnicks under the moonlight.

He loves children and is a protective, strict big teddy bear father.

-Roark loves music and sometimes sings with his folks at little festivals. His voice is and and raspy voice makes the female dragons falling in love with him.

-He prefers baths over showers mostly using them at the evening to relax and think over the day.

Dislikes:

-The king of dragons dislikes lies! Honesty is important for him even if the truth could be rough. He would never lie.

-In many battles he surivived he took lifes but he hates to kill and only does it if there is no other way.

-Roark hates hunters and he knew they are still out there trying to find his folk.

-He dislikes any violence against woman and childrend punishes it mercyless.

-He cant stand it if someeone calls him old king. He does not feel old and always tells them to wait until he is over 1000. He does not planning to die anytime soon.

-Roark hates traitors and knows no mercy for them. Traitors are in his eyes are dragons who hurt humans who didnt started the battle. Killing out of hate who is sadly still living within the hearts of many of his people.

-Hurt one of his children thats how he sees his folk and you will feel his wrath. Mercyless he will hunt you down no mattr where you hide he will find you and take revenge for his child.

Background Story:

Roark was born over 600 years ago by Queen Regina as the youngest son of King Seoras. His older brother Neacal who was born to become king over the kingdom sadly was killed by dragon hunter as Roark turned 2 years. To soon his childhood ended four years later as his father left their kingdom for war. His days where endlessly filled with many lessons and hard training to make a strong king out of him. Only his mother took care of it that he sometimes could be a child and took him out on walks through his kingdom to be closer with the folks and learn from them as well. With eight years old he was almost killed by lighting striking him as he run away from the castle after a fight with his teacher. To his luck and all of his folks, he could be saved but a scar where the lightning hit him was decorating now his back. The young dragon king met his queen Rhiannon as teen when he was sixteen. She was one of the lady’s daughters who where friends with his mother. He just saw her and knew she was it. But she had eyes for another dragon at that time. That didn’t stop Roark to fight for her heart. First he tried to impress her with this title and spoiled her with gifts. But soon he realized the red haired beauty was not touched the slightest by it. Only as he showed her his true wild, kind hearted self he managed to win her over and after his father return he asked for the blessing by his and her parents. Three years later he married her and was pulled in to his first battle. He disappeared for one and a half year missing the birth of his first son prince Alasdair. In the war he lost many of his loyal men. It hardened him and almost filled his whole heart with hate. Only his queen Rhiannon could save him from it by introduccing to him his son Alasdair and only two years later making him the gift of twin boys Keane and Seoras. He soon began to teach them how to read, to fight and climb. His three boys are his pride. Alsadair is more like his mother while the twins come after their father. As the war with the humans became worse the dragons made horrible decision what still haunts Roark until this days. They find out that a human bride who was burn to ashes while giving birth made the dragons become stronger.

But the horrible act made the humans fight back with wizards and witches. Making Roarks father their traitor through mind control spell. His father and he had to fight but it ended as the father broke out of the spell and attacked the hunters. King Seoras found it end through their hands as many dragons.

Arman a dragon who kept his bride alive showed the dragons too late that human and dragon could live in happiness together. This made now King Roark decide to save the rest of his folks by calling one of the first dragons for help through a old wind ritual, after all was said that the soul of a dragon became one of the many colors fo the sky and can be seen carried by the wind. The dragon appeared in his dreams that night and showed him a island made grown on his bones and told him old forgotten words of a spell to hide this island from humans and any other beings. After he woke up in the deepest night he ordered his folk to build ships. He worked side by side with them driven by the hope in a better future for his kind. From over 40 big ships only 34 arrived safely at the island. Where Roark immedatly put on the spell like the old dragon told him letting his kind disappear for the rest of the world. Many, many years later the queen gave birth to his two daughters: Jovia, and Junia. The kingdom was blessed the folk started to grew more and more. But the king didnt liked how they where cut out from the rest of the world and decided to send young brave dragons out from time to time to visit the human world and keep an eye on them. Soon he danced on the weddings of his twins and after them his oldest son finally find his mate. It made the much older dragon King happy to see his family grow and his folk with them. Roark also decided to give festival every year for the many human brides who where killed so horribly by his kind. It was build a statue of the last bride who was killed in such a way and beg their forgiveness with flowers, salty pastery as symbol for the tears and red wine for the blood that flown. Sad songs will be carried through the whole island on this day. Also to remember how they forced the human to give away their beautiful virgins they have a special wedding ritual the dragon man is waiting on the island while the bride with her family is on a ship prepared clad in her white dress traditional jewelry. She is put in to boat to lay down and sing a song. An old song who humans sang to call the dragon in to their village to take away his bride. The bride and her family will sing it and the dragon male will take her with the boat in his dragon from to the island there they will be awaited by the priest. Roarks kingdom was growing through the inventations his spions brought to it and it seemed like he really brought his kind in to the perfect paradise... Sadly a few years ago a horrible virus started to take away the female dragons lifes. His heart broke as his queen and daughters fell to the virus. He himself carried them alone in his dragon form to their family grave to put them to rest beside his mother. Who was one of the first dragon women who fell to this horrible invisible death. As he saw the hate growing inside his young dragon men and his sons hearts, the dragon king decided to send them out in the world to find their happiness and see the human world for themselves. He gave them three months to find a bride or the cure for the virus.

But after almost the end of the third month he grew tired of waiting and decided to visit the human world himself.

To may find some help for his kind and a new queen.

[com-persion-blog]

11 + 30 = ???

DAY FIVE JUMINXMC WEEK. WEDDINGS/MEMORIES. ANGST.

Everyone had warned her. Everyone had shaken their heads at her. Everyone had told her that she was making a mistake.  Everyone knew that you couldn’t propose to someone after 11 days of knowing them. Everyone knew that you simply couldn’t marry someone after a month of dating. Why didn’t he? Why didn’t he understand? 

She had been so wrapped up in the romance of it all. It was every women’s dream to marry a rich, handsome and kind man. At first, she thought it was the drama of it all. He suffered extreme paranoia. It drove him to do crazy things, like trying to keep her locked up in his house or proposing in public right in front of a hundred cameras. She knew that she did love him. She had been exposed to every aspect of his nature. His biggest fears and his greatest desires.She had learnt more about him in those eleven days than most people learn in ten years. She knew he was broken, she knew that she could help mend his wounds. She also knew that she wanted to help him. But, did that mean she wanted to marry him? 

M.C. reached her hands up to massage her temples, almost as if she was trying to rub those thoughts out of her brain. The soft satin against her forehead reminded her of where she was. Which just so happened to be a garden near a church where a wedding ceremony was about to be held. Her wedding. A runaway bride was so cliche that she literally laughed aloud at the thought. Every aspect of their relationship had seemed like a soap opera. Why stop it now? 

She knew why. She pictured Jumin's face. His cool exterior shattering at the thought that, once again, someone he loved so much wanted to escape from him. He'd panic. He'd do something ridiculous like call a national manhunt or go searching for her day and night himself. He'd be heartbroken. He'd be broken beyond repair. 

Could she really do that to him? No. Could she really marry him to prevent that from happening? 

Footsteps. 

Someone was approaching her. But who? She hastily wiped her tears from her face and graciously thanked her past self for being smart enough to buy high-quality water-proof make up. That would have been way too cliche. Finally, the mysterious figure approached her and took a seat on the bench beside her. She didn't have to look at him to know who it was. She immediately leant into him and he instinctively embraced her. "I'm sorry. . ." She muttered the apology almost inaudibly, but he still managed to catch it. 

"No. I'm sorry. Sorry that I didn't give that jerk a smack and tell him what's what." Normally his comments would irritate her to no end. However, looking up into his warm eyes, she couldn't help but laugh. "Don't worry about it. Jumin wouldn't have listened to you anyways, Zen."

She knew why he was here. He would ask her to run away, be with him instead. He would fill her head with promises of romance and true, honest, normal love. He would tell her that he could treat her way better than Jumin ever could. And she'd deny his offer... right? "Are you here to take me away?"

"No." His reply was so simple, so casual. She pulled away from him in alarm and narrowed her eyes at the actor before her. Did he not like her anymore? Was that beautiful, poetic confession a lie? “Don’t look at me like that. I will always care for you. But, you aren’t supposed to be mine. Despite being better than him at everything, Jumin is the one you love. Every chick gets nervous on their wedding day. It’s normal. Yes, it all happened really fast. Yes, you may be wondering if you did the right thing. And, heck yeah you may be thinkng that you’re living in one big cliche. But, cliches are cliches for a reason. If you really don’t want to marry him, I’ll support you. But, I don’t think that’s the case.”

Her expression softened as she pondered his words. Quickly, she realized that he was right. Of course he was! And if even Zen, who practically hated Jumin’s guts, was telling her she’d be dumb not to marry him then that surely meant she was making a mistake. Not only that, she really did love him. As quickly as they had come, her doubts melted away. M.C. stood up from the bench and tried to smooth down her dress. Luckily, she had chosen a mermaid dresss over a puffy big one. It still cost a lot of money though, she was glad she didn’t ruin it any.

So, with Zen trailing behind her, she made her way up the wedding ceremony. She slipped into the heels she had left outside the door (who wanted to be a runaway ride in six inch heels), returned to her bridal party and went on as though nothing had happened.

She smiled at Jumin’s awe-struck face as she walked down the aisle. She cried at his vows that he had made with the help of Jihyun, who also cried as he heard them. She laughed at Jumin’s embarrassed face as Jihyun told the Spoon Story as part of his best-man speech. She kissed Jumin as much as she coulld, with as much passion as she could. She hugged him as though she couldn’t let him go.

She married the man she loved with no regrets. 

“I love you more than Elizabeth loves diamond encrusted food bowls. More than Zen loves his face. More than Yosung loves games. And more than Saeyoung loves being an absolute cretin. Oh, and more than Assistant Kang loves coffee and holidays.” They both laughed at his lame jokes as the car pulled awayfrom the reception. They didnt say another word the entire journey. They just sat together, in absolute blissful harmony. In that moment, she knew. She knew she had made the perfect choice. She thanked her past self for being smart enough to listen to Zen. As they got out of the car, to start their new life as a married couple, Jumin uttered another sentence that erased any possible shred of doubt that she had. “I love you, Mrs. Han.”

[happys-crazy-queen22]

Hell On A Angel- Happy Lowman

Song- Hell On A Angel By Brantley Gilbert.

They said I was baptized in dirty water By the hands of the devil himself Between the banks of a Whiskey River Beside the Highway to Hell I got scars on my heart and knuckles I got debts that I can't pay Yeah but I got a blessing sent down from heaven Baby you're my saving grace

Pacing the room, waiting for time to go by faster. This day was going to be the best day of your life, you were finally marrying the love of your life. She was amazing, she didnt care about your job or how you made your money. The only thing she cared about was that you came home alive and that you were loyal. You fell deeply in love with her the first time you saw her three years ago. She was like a drug that the high was so great that you kept taking it and over dosed. Your mind and heart racing, you didnt notice Kozik coming in the room. "Hap..Happy". "Huh". You chewed on your fingers. "Its time brother, you're getting hitched". He gave you a bear hug. "I cant wait, I'm so fucking nervous". You looked at your hands shaking. "Dont be, she loves you and you love her, thats all that matters". He smiled, slapping your back. "Lets get this party started and get you a wife". "Here we go". Kozik and you walked outside to the tent that was set up for the wedding and reception. Feeling the wind blow, the sun shining on your face, you new Y/N picked a great day for your wedding. She worked so hard to get everything she wanted and you wanted to be in the wedding. It was a classic biker wedding but with alittle hippy style to it. "You look good Brother". Said Chibs as he gave you a hug. "You nervous, you look like your sweating". Jax grined. "Nah, I'm good". "Cant wait till shes finally mine". You played with your kute. "She looks real pretty, we just came from her room". Tig smiled wide. "Guys, I think I'm gonna throw up, to be honest". "Dont do that, then Y/N will have to find someone else to kiss". "I so volunteer". Tig laughed. Happy shook his head. Chibs smacked Tig on the back of the head.

Girl you got an outlaw Ready to lay down all my guns A dirty old hound dog Learning new tricks like cuddlin' up You've got a hellcat purrin' like a kitten You've got a sinner down on his knees It had to be hell on an angel Lovin' the devil outta me

Smiling at Gemma, you couldnt stand still. It was taking to long to get ready. "Y/N hold still or I'm going to be sick". She laughed. "Can I just run out there and just get this over with". "I hate waiting". "I think your having trouble waiting for is the honeymoon". Lyla giggled. You smirked. "Is it that obvious". "Yeah it is, its like your in heat or something". "Your not right". Gemma laughed. "No Gem I'm not". "I just cant wait for husband and wife sex". "Is it different"? "Not really". Lyla said. "Its alittle more exciting tho". You blow out the breathe you were holding in. "Can we start"? "Yes, I'll tell them your ready". Gemma got up, walking to the door. "SHE'S READY, LETS START THIS WEDDING". She yelled . "I could have done that". You laughed. Hearing the music, you picked up your flowers and grabbed Juices arm. "Lets get you married".

You'd tell me how did I get under This leather skin I wear Beneath the callouses and tattoos Around the walls I've built down there To this heart I've broke and guarded All alone out on the street flyin' Yea it takes an angel to fly with a free bird Baby we've got the sky You heard the cabin door slam, it was finally happening. She was stunningly beautiful. Her dress fit her to a tee and showed of her amazing curves. Looking from head to toe she was so..you lost words. Walking down she was passed to Tig, then to Chibs and last to Kozik to give you away. It was her way to get everyone in the wedding. "Hey Handsome". "Hey Gorgeous ". Happy smiled from ear to ear. "We are gathered here to day to bring Happy Lowman and Y/N Y/L/N together for eternity and beyond. "They have prepared their own vows, Happy would you like to go first"? Happy nodded. "Y/N, your are the most amazing person I've met". "You make me smile, when things are going bad". "You make me a better person, the way I live and the things I do, you still love me. "I love that your a spit fire and you can hold a drink". He laughed. "You're not like other girls I've been with". "You take such good care of me and I love you for that". "Mom loved you, I feel her with us today". "She always told me that you and I would get married but I didnt believe  her". "And I wish she was her to see this and our kids grow up". "You were there when she was in the hospital, nursing home and when she died". When I was broken you were strong". I cant tell you how much that meant to me". I love you and nothing with change that". "You are my one and only". "I love you Mrs. Lowman". You, the club and Happy wiped away tears. "Wow Hap". Tig said. "Its your turn". "Happy, when I first met you, you tried to be this big bad biker but I guess I wore you down". "You turn out to be a soft, warm, caring, loving person". "I couldnt ask for a better husband and father for our kids". You sniffled. "You make this spontaneous person come out of me, you get these amazing ideas and your so creative". "Our children are very lucky to have a dad like you". "You will teach them to defend their selfs, love their selfs and mostly be loyal to one another". "Family comes first and I love that about you". I wish when our child is born, your mom could have been there, but I know she will be in spirit". She raised such a wonderful human being". "I hope that I could be just like her". "I love you Mr. Lowman". "If anyone objects then do so at this time". "Umm, Hap you for got something". Kozik piped in. Happy rolled his eyes. "I promise to treat you as good as my leather and ride you as much as my harley" Happy and the guys chanted. You laughed. "You may now kiss your bride". Happy pulled you close, gentle grabbing your face and kissed you deeply. All you heard was clapping and whoos. Your mind was blank at the passion that came from his kiss. "I would like to introduce Mr. and Mrs. Happy Lowman".

Girl you got an outlaw Ready to lay down all my guns A dirty old hound dog Learning new tricks like cuddlin' up You've got a hellcat purrin' like a kitten You've got a sinner down on his knees It had to be hell on an angel Lovin' the devil outta me

The reception went off with a bang. Drinks, food and music was flowing. You sat at the table and looked around at your family. You couldnt be happier. "Hey Wifey". "Did I tell you how stunning you look today". "Hey, Hubby". You laughed. "I think maybe four or five times but whos counting". "I really hate those names". Happy said as he took a sip from his beer. "I do too, let just go back to our old names". "Alright Little Girl".  Happy smirked. "Yes, Daddy". You giggled. Can we get the bride and groom on the dance floor. Happy grabbed your hand and lead you to the dance floor. Swaying back and forth, with Happys hands on your lower back. You were in heaven. Never wanting to leave this moment. "Y/N"? "Yes, my Love". "I was wondering, in your vows you kept saying our kids". "Yeah so". "Are you trying to tell me something or what". A smile cam across your face". "That I am". "You are going to be a dad in eight months". Happy danced speechless. You new he was excited, his grip on your lower back pulled you closer. "I cant wait". "Your going to be a great dad".  You laid your head on his chest. "Your going to be a great mom". "Mom would be proud of us". Tears rolled down your cheeks. "Yes she would, we came so far and our lifes are just getting better". "I love you". You both said at the same time.

Hell on an angel, on an angel Girl you got an outlaw Ready to lay down all my guns A dirty old hound dog Learning new tricks like cuddlin' up You've got a hellcat purrin' like a kitten You've got a sinner down on his knees It had to be hell on an angel Lovin' the devil outta me

[mybodyliberation]

Wed2B Edinburgh Bridal Review

It would be foolish for me to say that every little girl dreams of trying on wedding dresses because that's simply not true; and to be honest it wasnt until I was about 17 that I would lose myself in hour long day dreams about my future husband and my dream dress.

But those day dreams started when that iconic tv show Say Yes The Dress aired and I found myself fascinated and captivated by satin, tulle, ball gowns and boho sheaths.

So needless to say after years of having not so secret pinterest boards I was prepared and exited to embark on the adventure of finding my dream dress.

Now a few pieces of information about me to get the ball rolling and for reference for the rest of the post and future wedding dress posts.

• Leading up to visiting Wed2B Edinburgh, I had never tried on a wedding dress before.

• My everyday clothing size sits between 18/20

• None of this is an AD, gifted or sponsored in anyway.

• All of these views are my own opinion

• I will also have a short vlog series in the next few weeks documenting my my wedding dress shopping experience for both dress and accessories.

Now that we've got that out of the way let's get down to business, obviously not to defeat the huns but in fact to discuss wedding dresses, any Disney nerds with me?

Now I did all of this in my most recent week off from tour and I did that because if it so happened I needed to order a dress from scratch waiting even an extra 6 weeks until I finish tour meant less time for ordering and alternation etc and keep in mind that with a wedding date of 4th April 2020 only 8 months away that doesn't leave as much time as you think.

Depending on the store and the designer you could need an entire year to order to a dress in advance and so really the earlier you look the better.

This isnt to say you could find something with limited time but it also does mean your limited in your options.

If you are planning to leave things a bit later then actually Wed2B could be an option for you. The reasons behind this are to follow.

We visited the Wed2B Edinburgh store on Wednesday 10th July 2019. As I said it was a perfect time to go because it was my week off and it meant we could go during the day.

I honestly can't recommend this enough because truthfully with a set up like Wed2B going later in the evening or at the weekend is guaranteed to be extremely overwhelming.

This is because this is a no appointment system. You turn up, wait to be seen my a stylist and the process begins there. I can imagine that during busy periods it could take hours to be seen, but we arrived at 2pm.

We were greeted by the lovely Esther, who explained a little bit about the store and what would be happening.

I imagine each stores layout will be different but in Edinburgh each rail represented a size and they start from a size 6 to 30. We were told that depending on the style and cut of the dress it could mean you would need to size up so unfortunately if you're a size 30 and up, I dont know how accessible the dresses will be but it's always worth turning up and trying the dresses on to see.

The rail that I needed was one that had the size 18s onwards. It was one singular rail and there actually wasnt that much of choice. I had named to Esther the dresses I specifically wanted to try on because I had seen them online but they were sold out.

That's another thing there is definitely a demand for their collections which has a lot to do with the fact that the quality is actually great and the prices are low and they do cater to a large amount of sizes. This means that brides will be doing their research, finding the store that has the dress they want, tracking it down, trying it on and purchasing it on the day because theres no guarantee that the dress you try on will be there the next day.

They have deliveries every week but it doesn't mean it will be the specific dress you're looking for or your size. Also their limited collections tend to sell out within weeks especially if the design of the dress happens to be what is popular at the moment. For example they have a design that looks very similar to Meghan Markle's wedding dress that was in the shop window, this was sold out and within two weeks and that's that.

When we got to my rail it seemed there wasnt that much in terms and options, and considering three out of four of the dresses I had seen online and wanted to try on weren't available, I wasn't too hopeful but I used this as an opportunity to try on a dress in each style.

You have a four dress try on maximum which seems like it wouldn't be enough but for an first bridal appointment turned out to be perfect. Anything above four dresses for your first time in hindsight would have been way too overwhelming if I'm honest with myself.

So knowing I could pick four dresses I decided to try something in each style. Ballgown with sleeves (my preferred style of choice), A Line, fitted (mermaid), and another ballgown but with off the shoulder straps. I didn't try on any sheaths because there were none in my size but also it felt too far from what I wanted.

Once we picked the dress it was explained that the way it worked we would come back in an hour. You see because it's no appointment, it means that the stylists work with brides on a sort of rolling system. While one bride gets welcomed and makes selections, another bride is trying dresses on with another stylist. It's not a perfect system but we weren't too upset.

Esther took my number and myself and my mum and sisters went to go and have some tea while we waited and there was only one bride in front of me anyway so it didnt seem like the end of the world to wait.

When we came back we were greeted by Esther again and introduced to MC Ruth who ended up being the stylist actually putting dresses on me.

She was such a sweetheart and out the gate asked me how I was and if I had any major concerns which as a bride I think is important but as a plus size bride is even more important because there might be a lot of insecurities and fears at play.

I was blessed to not have any in that particular moment, I was just excited to get trying some on.

As I said they suggested sizing up from your everyday clothes size. So we decided to start with the dress that I liked but they only had in my regular size of 18 (this was star) I wanted to see the off the shoulder style but was also curious to see how small a size 18 in bridal would actually run.

Now we were actually able to get in with not much trouble and I think that honestly had a lot to do with the corest back which gives a lot more room than something with buttons or a zip might have. Though keep in mind if you end up in this situation and loving the dress, you might have to get the panel extended in the back.

I loved the sparkle and the tulle and though the off the shoulder was cute it just wasnt what I envisioned myself walking down the aisle in.

I'm glad I tried it on but it wasnt what I was looking for.

The next two dresses I tried on were the ones completely out of the style I wanted. One satin A Line with with lace embroidery across the waist and then a fitted mermaid dress with rauching across the bodice. Both....were just not what I wanted.

The first A Line dress instantly aged me because of the high neckline and the boxy cut over all. I got in trouble with Pastor J for joking and saying it was like I was a divorcee wanting to get a no fuss dress for a registry. This was probably my super un-PC way of saying it aged me. I felt like someone else entirely in that dress and I honestly couldn't wait to get it off me.

The latter dress was a surprise because in my head I was adamant I wouldn't like a fitted dress for a wedding (though I love them in any other circumstance because I'm here for a bit of body-ody-ody) but I thought I looked great. I just didnt look bridal. In fact it reminded me a lot of one of my costumes from my time in Aladdin and I didn't want to say yes to a dress that reminded me of playing a part.

The last thing you want to feel on you and future bae's special day, is like you're playing a version of yourself you dont feel comfortable with.

NOW the last dress, Kate. That was a contender. It had so many qualities that I had considered. Beautiful lace sleeves, a tulle skirt and the waist line fell in just the place I wanted it to.

When I put it on we all gasped because it was so beautiful. I felt beautiful and bridal and got a bit teary...but I also felt really overwhelmed because as much as I loved it....it just wasn't the one.

I truly felt beautiful and I loved how much my mum and my sisters loved it but in that moment I felt so strongly that it wasnt it. I thought I cant find THE dress is one shopping experience but in hindsight it wasnt what was holding me back, I just didnt feel like myself yet.

It was so so close, close enough for me to put a deposit down, close enough for me to know that if I had to end up tracking it down in my size in a different Wed2B I would....but I felt strong in my gut and my spirit that my search wasn't yet done.

I knew that if I left feeling settled and not second my guess that it wasnt right and that rang true as I got home and looked at the pictures again....the search was still on.

[artislifeevans]

Chat Para → Say No To This

Tagging → Sam Evans and Mercedes Jones featuring Mila 

Time Frame → March 15th around noon … 

 Location →Evans Enterprises in New York 

General Notes →Mercedes goes to visit Sam and they try to end things between them.

I wish I could say that was the last time I said that last time, it became a pastime A month into this endeavor I received a letter From a Mr. James Reynolds, even better, it said Dear Sir, I hope this letter finds you in good health And in a prosperous enough position to put wealth In the pockets of people like me down on their luck You see, that was my wife who you decided to (fuuuu) Uh oh, you made the wrong sucker a cuckold So time to pay the piper for the pants you unbuckled And hey, you can keep seein' my whore wife If the price is right, if not I'm telling your wife I hid the letter and I raced to her place Screamed how could you in her face, she said No, sir Half dressed, apologetic, a mess, she looked pathetic, she cried Please don't go, sir So was your whole story a setup I don't know about any letter (stop crying God dammit, get up) I didn't know any better (I am ruined) Please don't leave me with him helpless (I am helpless how could I do this?) Just give him what he wants and you can have me (I don't want you, I don't want you) Whatever you want, if you pay You can stay (Lord, show me how to say no to this) I don't know how to say no to this 'Cause the situation's helpless And her body's screaming, hell, yes No, show me how to say no to this (whoa) How can I say no to this There is nowhere I can go (go, go, go) When her body's on mine I do not say (no) yes Say no to this (Yes) say no to this (no) (Yes) say no to this (no) (Yes) say no to this (no) Say no to this I don’t say no to this There is nowhere I can go (go, go, go) So? Nobody needs to know- “Say No To This” From Hamilton

Sam: had been in office all day trying to get his presentation ready to show to Mr.Wong and their investors. This was probably one of the biggest deals that he had to prepare for in a while and it had to go well. Because if he didn’t he was putting his family in more danger then they already were. He was suppose to have lunch with Mila, and honestly Sam was looking forward to it because it had been awhile since they have spent time togetherness. But at the same time all he could think about was Mercedes was doing. He was pulled out of his thoughts at the sound of his assistant beeping in. “Mr.Evans.. Ms.Parker is here to see you” said Kendra. Sam sighed looking down at his work load there was no way he could go to lunch for two hours. “Okay let her in”he mumbled, standing up from his cheer as she walked in “Hey baby.. um I can’t go to lunch.. I have all this shit to do. An-” he said seeing the disappointment in her face “I’m sorry. I have to work.”

Mila: was really looking forward to having lunch with Sam. She had so many ideas to show him for planning the wedding, especially after talking with Charice and she was eager to show him. But as soon as she walked into his office, she could tell he was busy and that meant he was stressed. She tried to hide her disappointment but before she could he was apologizing. “I know you’re busy and I’m trying really hard to be understanding about that I just… I feel like I haven’t seen you. You work late, you aren’t home most weekends. I mean last weekend I didn’t even see you for days and I know, I know Mr. Wong is an asshole but I dont feel like I’m a priority…"

Mercedes: had to end things. She decided it after talking to Charice. Hearing how excited Mila was about the wedding and how she wanted to include everyone Sam cared about, it was eating her alive because she was getting in the way of that. She loved Sam. So did Mila. But sleeping with him wasnt going to change the fact that he was marrying someone else. No matter how much fun they had and no matter how she felt about him, she needed to end things. Which was why she needed to talk with Sam. They couldn’t keep this up and she knew if she suggested they meet in private, at her place, she wouldn’t have the courage to push him away. And right now that was what she needed to do. Mercedes walked out of the elevator and headed towards the front desk. She smiled thinly at the receptionist, drumming her nails against the desk. “Hi. Is Mr. Evans in? I’m here to see him. Um I’m Mercedes,” she said shakily.

Sam: felt his guilt hit him hard. He hated seeing her so upset and more importantly he hated that he was hurting her in the worst way possible. Yes he loved Mercedes with everything in him. But he wasn’t good for her, she deserved so much more. And he could see that it was time to let her go completely. Sure it would be hard but was for the best, he couldn’t do this to her anymore. Sam walked over toward Mila, cupping her face “I’m so sorry baby.. you are a priority.. it’s just…” he sighed, knowing that he couldn’t tell her what was going on with Wong. He didn’t want to worry her. “I promise.. tomorrow my day will be all about you and our wedding. We can do whatever you want.” He suggested. Kendra smiled up at Mercedes and nodded “Well he is with his fiancee right now. But I will see if it’s okay for you to go in.” She said reaching over to buzz Sam “Mr.Evans.. Mercedes is here to see you.” She called into the mic. Sam tenses up and not quickly telling himself to get a grip “oh okay! Tell her to come in” he replied. Kendra hung up the mic “You Can go in now.”

Mila: hated quilting him into anything. She knew he was busy and she didn’t want to whine but she also didnt want him to think him completely ignoring her was okay. She looked up at him as he cupped her face and sighed. “Babe don’t make a promise you cant keep,” she said with a frown. She winced when the intercom came on and smiled because she’d been wanting to talk to Mercedes, she just hadn’t found the time. “We can pick this up when you get home okay?” she whispered, standing in the food of her toes and kissing Sam.

Mercedes: flinched when Kendra mentioned Mila was there. She went to tell her never mind but before she could, she could already hear Sam saying it was okay. Mercedes nervously walked into the office, feeling her heart drop when she walked in as the engaged couple was kissing. It broke her heart but she needed to see it. She needed to see that they were in love and that she couldnt get in the way of that. “Sorry. I didnt know you were here Mila. I can come back,” she said with a shrug.

Sam: sighed “I-I can keep this promise.. I just have to move somethings around. That’s all”he said realizing he was making things worst. He hate disappointing her or making her feel like he didn’t care. He was glad that Mercedes Was there because they needed to talk and with Mila about to leave this would be the perfect time. He looked over as Mercedes open the door and smiled nervously “Hey.. no come in.“ he said motioning her to come.

Mila: shook her head as Mercedes spoke. "No I was just leaving. Actually I’m glad youre here. I had a question to ask you,” she said glancing back at Sam. “Sam doesnt know this but I am actually one bridesmaid short and I know youre more his friend than you are mine but if it hadn’t been for you, I wouldn’t have given him another chance. So I was wondering if you’d be my last bridesmaid?”

Mercedes: honestly wanted to leave. She felt uncomfortable and she knew she’d intruded on an important conversation. She started to feel even more uncomfortable as Mila asked her to be her bridesmaid. “What?” she asked, shocked. She suddenly felt dirty all over again. Here was this woman who was kind to her, looked at her like she was some kinda old friend and now was asking her to be her bridesmaid. Mercedes felt like a bitch compared to Mila because here she was, sleeping with her fiance. “I.. Uh…” She glanced at Sam before turning back to Mila. “Honestly that is so sweet of you. Really. I just… I wouldn’t feel right. I mean I wouldn’t wanna take someone’s spot…”

Sam: was shocked that Mila wanted Mercedes to be her bridesmaid and honestly he thought it was a bit weird since he was once engaged to Mercedes. And besides he knew if Mercedes was there he didn’t he could get through the wedding “um honey. I don’t think..” he trailed off nervously not wanting Mila to get suspicious. He glanced over at Mercedes seeing just how uncomfortable she was and he wanted to save her from this but he didn’t know how with out making Mila feel bad or hurt her feelings. “You don’t need a lot of brides maids I mean it’s a small wedding”. He pointed out.

Mila: waved her hand. “No you wouldn’t be taking anyone’s spot. And I know it might be weird because you two were engaged before but… You guys are friends and you saved our relationship Mercedes. We wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for you.” She looked up at Sam and shook her head. “Sam you have one more groomsmen than I do and I’m not gonna tell you to choose between your friends because I couldn’t make one more bridesmaid. Besides the only person in our wedding party on the bridal side from your side is Allie. And I’m sorry but I cant take no for an answer,” she laughed. “Please Cedes? At least say you’ll think about it?” She glanced down at her watch seeing that if she wanted to grab a lunch and make it back to class she had to go now. “I should get going. Let me know what your decision is okay? Charice is designing the dresses and she needs final measurements and everything. Just… Let me know. I’ll see you at home,” she said pecking Sam’s lips once more before leaving the two friends in his office.

Mercedes: felt like she had swallowed a frog. This wasnt happening. This all felt so surreal and all she wanted to do was beg for forgiveness, especially after seeing him overjoyed Mila was about this wedding. She nodded her head tensely as the woman spoke, practically begging her to be in her wedding. What was she supposed to say. She couldn’t say no without raising some suspicion. But she couldn’t very well be in the man she loved’s wedding. Mercedes waited until Mila was out of the office before letting a breath out she didnt realize she was holding. “Oh my god,” she gasped, finding it difficult to breathe. She placed her hand over her chest and dropped her head, gasping for air. She hadnt had a panic attack since leaving the hospital but now it was like the worst one she could remember. “I c-can’t..” She was trying to say that she couldn’t breathe but the words wouldnt come out. She stumbled over to a window and opened it, the cold air hitting her face and filling her lungs. She inhaled deeply, steadying herself as tears filled her eyes. “We’re gonna kill her Sam,” she turned around and spoke. “She’s gonna find out and it’s gonna destroy her.” The wind blew her hair out of her face and she sniffled. “We cant do this anymore… I cant be the reason that your marriage fails before it even starts. I’m sorry… I can’t…” she trailed off, walking over to the door.

Sam: could tell by the look on Mila’s face she wasn’t going to take no for an answer. He sighed softly glancing between them as Mila spoke. Mercedes literally look as if she was going to pass out. Sam smiled weakly when Mila kissed him, nodding his head “okay..” he said watching her leave. He was getting ready to apologize to Mercedes but before he could she was already in freak out mode. He raised an eyebrow at her comment about not wanting this affair anymore “You don’t?” He asked as his eyes followed her to the window. “Cedes.. I can’t either” he said but he was pretty sure she couldn’t hear him over her freaking out. He wanted to talk about this and assure her he felt the same way. But she was already trying to leave. Sam quickly grabbed her hand, turning her around to face him “Hey! It’s okay… I agree.. I can’t do this anymore either.. I can’t hurt her.. she’s been great and if we don’t stop it’s gonna be the end of all of us” he said softly.

Mercedes: spun around when Sam grabbed her hand and quickly pulled away. A part of her was happy that Sam agreed with her. She wanted him to but another part wanted him to fight for them. She wanted him to tell her that she was all he wanted and that he was going to tell Mila as soon as possible. But it dawned on her that Sam didnt want her. She was sex and that was all. She was a pleasant distraction that just happened to spread her legs for him. She felt nausea take over and took a giant step towards the door. “Good… we’re agreed then. I wont use you to forget my bullshit and you wont use me for an easy lay or whatever the hell you were using me for. You got me out of your system and now you know what you missed after these years and I know too… goodbye Sam,” she said, leaving the office before another word could be spoken. She practically rushed to the elevator, jamming her finger against the button as she fought tears. “Stupid, stupid, stupid!” she hissed at herself as she got on the elevator. Of course he didnt want her. Why would he? He had Mila who was perfect and she was just fucked up, so fucked up. He didnt need the work. Mila was easy, she was everything anyone could want. And Cedes was a mess. She pressed the closed door button and felt herself shake as a sob escaped her lips.

Sam: looked down between them sadly. He loved Mercedes he really did and everything in him was telling him to tell her that. But he couldn’t, he had to think about what was best and he wasn’t the best for her. He licked his lips and nodded his head in agreement. What she said was Partially true. Being with her helped him forget about his problems, but what she didn’t know was that he was also with her because he loved her. He winced at her words hating the way that he came out “Shortie I-” he tried to say but before he could she was already out the door, heading to the elevator to leave. He didn’t want things to be like this, he wanted to make sure that they still could be friends because he couldn’t live without her in his life. He thought maybe he should give her space. But he knew if he did that the next time they spoke things would be awkward and he didn’t want that between them. So he grabbed his coat walking out of the office “Kendra I will be back in an hour” he rushed out, running down the hallway. He could see the door closing and started to run even faster “Shortie” he called after her.

Mercedes: could barely see through the tears in her eyes. She always thought she’d avoid this pain if she never was in a relationship again but here she was, feeling like her heart was cracking and her ability to breathe was leaving her. She placed a hand on her stomach, inhaling deeply as the doors got ready to close. She could do this. She could live without him. She’d done it before. She just didnt want to. She looked up, hearing her nickname and frowned in confusion as Sam ran to the elevator, stopping it just before it closed fully. “What’re you doing?” she asked, her voice cracking as she wiped at her tears angrily.

Sam: finally got to the elevator stopping the door before it could close. He slide in, hearing the door shut behind him. He turned to look at her, seeing the tears running down her face “Y-You’re crying” he whispered, feeling like his stomach was dropping. He didn’t know why she was crying, they ended things as far as the affair went, but she would always be his best friend. And it was killing him to see her cry “Shortie” he said sadly seeing the anger in her eyes “please don’t be mad at me. I can’t handle it” he said honestly reaching over to thumb away her tears. “Please talk to me..”

Mercedes: shook her head. “I’m not, I promise,” she said, wiping at her eyes shakily. She didnt want him to see her like this. She already felt pathetic as it was and crying in front of the person she wanted more than anything after he’d just said they shouldnt be together was a low she didnt want to reach, even if she had agreed with him. “I just.. I want you happy. That’s all I want for you. i want you happy and Mila makes you happy so…” She sniffled as he wiped away her tears and nodded. “I could never be mad at you. You’re my best friend Sam. I’m mad at me. Just me. I promise. Seriously, go back to work. You looked busy… I’m fine I swear. I’m okay.”

Sam: smiled sadly, knowing good and well she wasn’t okay. She could lie to anyone else but he knew her, just like she knew him and she was far from okay. “I know you want me to be happy and I want that for you too. You have to know that.” He said not wanting to leave her like this. He needed more time with her, so he could figure out what was wrong. So he turned around pressing the emergency stop button. Jerking toward her when the elevator stopped. He reached out to her to keep himself from pushing hard into her. He looked into her brown eyes, seeing the tears that were threatening to fall from them. He knew he should be this close to her not after they both promised to stop this. But he just wanted her to be okay. He swallowed thickly, running his fingers down her face “You know you don’t have to be so strong with me Cedes.. you can tell me what you want or what you need and I’ll do my damnest to make it happen”.

Mercedes: opened her mouth to tell him that she was fine, one final time but before she could, he pressed the emergency stop button, halting the elevator in placing. She felt her heart skip a bit as he nearly fell into her at the sudden motion of the elevator and looked into his eyes, her cheeks growing warm and her chest rising and falling quickly. He was so close that if she just angled her head a little bit more, they would kiss. But they couldnt, they’d just stopped whatever this was and she needed to have a little bit more self control. “Oh but I do,” she whispered, trying not to fall under his spell once more. “Sam what I want, you cant give me…” She let out a shaky breath and leaned into his hand, her lips grazing against his callous fingers. She wondered how many paintings he’d done with this hand. How many sketches had he started and torn out of his sketch book out of frustration with this hand. How much paint had covered this hand that was so lovingly on her cheek. She reached up, taking his hand from her face and placing it over her heart. “You once told me your heart only beat for me,” she whispered, staring at his chest. “You said no matter what it would always beat for me. That I was the reason that you got up in the mornings to face this awful world. That I was the reason that you didnt just drive off the road sometimes,” she scoffed with a shake of her head. “You said before I broke up with you when my dad found out about us and I never understood. I never… I never got it until right now. Until I realized that I wake up happier on days when I know I’ll see you. I think better when I see you. Hell, I write better songs when I see you.” She finally looked into his green eyes and felt a tear drop from her own. “I didnt realize it until now that my heart beats for you.”

Sam: didn’t understand what she meant. He didn’t think she had feelings for him again, sure she told him a few times that she would always care for him. But he didn’t think it was on a level of falling for him again. But he was wrong, he was dead wrong. She loved him, just as much as he loved her and it made him feel like shit. Because he didn’t think he was good enough for her and he didn’t want to hurt her again.But from the looks of it he hurt her anyways. “Cedes I-” he trailed off, closing his eyes at her words. He did love her and he did feel as if his heart only beated for her. That has never changed and it never will, but he didn’t think he was right for her. He looked down as she placed his hand over chest. “It does” he muttered feeling himself on the verge of just spilling everything to her, his feelings, his love for her, everything. He stepped closer to her, running his thumb over her softly lips. Damn it to hell if he didn’t love her with everything in him. He felt his own tears forming, not knowing what to say or what do at this point. All he knew was that he wanted to kiss her. “I’m not worthy of you” mumbled, leaning down to kiss her lips softly, feeling her how fast her heart was pounding against his hand.

Mercedes: went to tell him that he was wrong. Whatever he thought about himself and whatever he though about how good enough he was for her, he was wrong. He was right for her. He was the only person right for her and if he didnt believe it then she would prove him wrong. She met him halfway as he kissed her, pushing upward as he leaned down to kiss her. As horrible as it was and as much as she knew this was wrong, this was all she wanted. All she wanted was to stay right here with Sam and never leave. She could feel her tears falling from her eyes as they kissed and she brought her hands to rest on his cheeks, pulling him closer.

Sam: knew this was wrong and that he should move away from her. Especially since he now knew how much she felt about him. He wanted her, just like she wanted him, but he didn’t deserve her. She deserve so much better than he could give him. He moved closer to her, running his hand down her body, lifting her up without stopping the kiss. The more they kissed the more passionate it became. He was kissing her as if his life depended on it. He couldn’t allow himself to tell her that he loved her but maybe she could feel it from his kiss. He broke the kiss, running his lips down her neck as mindlessly grind his hips against her “I need you” he whispered against her skin.

Mercedes: let him kiss her like there was no tomorrow. Her head felt light like she was floating each time their lips passionately glided against one another. She sighed heavily, trying to catch her breath as he broke the kiss and trailed down her neck. Her head lifted with a small groan of encouragement before she nodded. She didn’t ware that this was an elevator. She didn’t care that this was wrong. She wanted to be selfish. She wanted him for herself.

Sam: continue to assault Mercedes neck as he ran his hands to the hem of her shirt yanking it off her. His conscious was telling him to stop, this wasn’t right. But he fought against it, he couldn’t stop, even if he tried. He locked eyes with her, never looking away while, he dropped the shirt on the ground, taking off his own doing the same. He cupped her face, searching her eyes for a second. All he could see in them was love, and he so badly wanted to tell her that he felt the same. But before he could push himself to do it, he was quickly reminded why he couldn’t. Sam leaned down to kiss her lips heatedly but gentle, running his hands down to the he buttons or her pants, to unbutton them.

Mercedes: was aware that her shirt was coming off. She was aware that Sam was kissing her all over, making her head fuzzy. She was even aware when he reached for her jeans and started to do that but all she could do was close her eyes and rest her head against the elevator wall. She wanted this so badly and she was sure she’d feel the guilt when this was over but right now all she wanted was to feel all of him. She moved her own hands down his bare chest and started to undo is belt blindly as they kissed. His slacks came undone with a quick tug and she pulled him closer, her body aching for his touch.

Sam: tilted his head, deepened the kiss, gently probing his tongue past Mercedes lips, brushing the tip against her warm tongue. His hands skimmed down her neck, running over her shoulders, traveling down the side of her breasts before resting them firmly on her soft hips. He grunted softly against her mouth as she pulled him closer to her. Sam usually wouldn’t have sex like this, don’t get him wrong he likes being adventurous but he thought they would be better off in a bed. He just always thought that it was a quick way for a guy to get laid and he didn’t want to ever treat a woman like that. But they were in an elevator and there was no way he was going to stop touching her and he from the way Mercedes was acting she would kill him if he did. Sam ran his hands down to her pants, pulling them down a little. “You’re a bad influence on me Jones” he breathed, kissing the side of her throat. He slid his hand in her pants, moving it between her hot thighs, rubbing his fingers over her wet slit. His thick fingers slowly teasing her puffed lips apart to brush over her slick clit. He pushed his thumb down hard on her throbbing clit, rubbing the nub in slow teasing circles. He kissed the corner of her jawline, reaching up with his free hand to squeeze firmly to one of her beautiful breasts. He groaned against her neck as he worked his thumb quicker over her clit. As much as Sam loved to tease her, he wanted to taste her and bring her pleasure. His mouth moved down to her collarbone slowly traveled his lips lower down her torso as he dropped to his knees. He stopped his movements long enough to pull the rest of her pants and underwear off, jerking her forward a little as he did. He looked up to look at her giving her a grin, he could literally smell her arousal from where he was, and it was making his dick twitch. He growled against her hips, he moving his mouth right in front of her hot cunt. His tongue flicked out, grazing it over her damp slit. “Mmm.” He licked his lips, savoring the sweet taste of her juices.

Mercedes: could only manage a small scoff as he whispered into her neck. “Me?” she breathed, her words being cut off by his hand in between her legs. Her eyes instantly closed at his teasing fingers and she reached over to grip the corner of the elevator, her head against the wall. She let out a small hiss, trying her hardest not to fidget, but soon failing as his thumb started to move faster. Hearing him groan in her ear damn near made her knees give out as she tried to catch her breath. “Oh god,” she breathed, licking her lips. She could feel him moving down her body, his lips kissing a trail down until he pulled her jeans fully off. She knew what he was going to do but she didnt think he was actually going to do it until she felt his warm tongue right where she wanted him most. She gasped, her hand sliding off the wall and landing in Sam’s hair, gripping it tightly. “Shhh,” she hissed, her eyes fluttering open and closed. “Dont… stop…”

Sam: Listening to Mercedes moan, letting out a sigh each time his tongue and finger touched her clit, made Sam’s dick twitch hard in his pants. He groaned deep in his chest when her fingernails pulled his hair . She could get as rough as she wanted with him. He locked up at her as he continue to pleasure her with his mouth drinking in the sight of the woman, writhing above him, her breasts rising up and down with her panted breaths. His calloused thumb was still rubbing her damp clit in fast, vigorous circles. He didn’t want to stop as he watched her glistening arousal glaze over her warm folds. Sam grinned hearing Mercedes’ rushed out words of don’t stop, enjoying every little sound she was making from his touch. He leaned in closer, breathing hotly over her pussy before his tongue licked both sides of her puffy lips. He wanted to tell her how amazing she tastes, how after all these years he still couldn’t get enough of her. But Sam knew if he stopped or try to tease her Mercedes would get annoyed. He finally slipped a thick digit into her entrance. “Fuck…” He groaned as she tighten around his finger. He slowed the rough circles on her clit, now taking his time to push the swollen bud back and forth while he thrusted his finger deep into her wet heat.

Mercedes: felt feverish. Her body shivered quickly, her eyes rolling to the back of her head as she let out a few strangled moans and dug her fingers through his hair. She let out a small gasp at the introduction of his fingers, her desperation growing. They were going to fuck in this elevator unless one of them stopped it and frankly, she didn’t want to stop it. She bit down on her bottom lip and moved her hips in sync with his fingers. “Ugh,” she groaned, feeling her orgasm building. She adjusted a bit, to feel more and winced when Sam’s fingers hit her spot.

Sam: slid his hands up to Mercedes’ thighs, feeling her them shaking against his cheeks, as he continue to work her over with his mouth and his tongue. She had to be close to her climax just from the way she was loudly moaning. Sounding as if she was going to burst in any minute. He moved his head away from her pussy, adding a second fingers into her entrance, looking up to watch her as he increased his fingers, making a come here motion. Sam wanted to make Mercedes crash hard into her orgasm. He knew that the security would eventually see that the elevator isn’t working and will more likely call from the speaker. But he didn’t care he wanted to finish each at he started. While he kept moving his fingers in and out of her tight hole, he took one of her leg with his free hand, resting them over his shoulders so he could have better access to her pussy. He sucked roughly on her throbbing clit, grinding his face between her slick folds holding her tight so she would fall over. He was going to make her cum first with his mouth, hand and then he was going to make her cum with his dick.

Mercedes: arched off the wall once her leg was draped over his shoulder. Her breathing became labored and she stared up at the ceiling of the elevator, blinking quickly as her orgasm crept up her spine. The faster his mouth and fingers moved, the closer she got to falling over the edge. She hissed as he sucked roughly on her clit. “G-gentle,” she inhaled, finding her breathing become shakier and shakier before she tumbled over the edge with a slow howl. “Oooohhh,” she cried, dropping her head.

Sam: couldn’t help but chuckle against Mercedes clit at her words, removing his mouth from her, letting his fingers bring her over the edge. He thrust a few more hard strokes into her pussy, smirking as she hit her orgasm head on “good girl” he whispered. He pulled his wet fingers from her tight hole, dipped his fingers into his mouth, sucking her arousal clean off his fingers. “Mmm.” He licked his lips gently putting her leg down, standing up completely.. While Mercedes was coming down from her high, Sam unzipped his pants, pulling it down along with his boxers. He wanted to ask her if she was okay but he knew that would be a stupid question and that it would ruin the moment they were having. So he simply moved closer to her and without saying a word, he wrapped her leg around his waist using his free hand to wrap around his dick holding it at her entrance. He kissed her lips softly, moving his hips back a bit before thrusting his dick deep into her “shit!” He growled against her cheek. He could feel her walls clenching around his member already. He slid his hands to her ass, squeezing hard as he lifted her off her feet.. He pressed her back to the elevator wall as he began thrusting hard into her into her.

Mercedes: felt like she was floating and the only thing that brought her back was Sam’s lips on hers. She breathed sharply through her nose as he entered her unexpectedly. Her body sang as they connected, his warm breath on her cheek. She wrapped her arms around his neck as her feet left the ground and swirled her hips in match to his. Every time they were together it just felt like it got better and better and while she wanted to come once more, the rails on the elevator were digging into her back and distracting her. “Wait,” she breathed, climbing out of his arms. She was silent as she spun around and brushed her hair over her shoulder. She took his hands and placed them on her waist, lightly bending over.

Sam: was so wrapped up in the feel of Mercedes pussy wrapped around his dick that he didn’t even hear her tell him to hold on. It was only until she climbed out of his arms that he realize that something was wrong. He gently pulled out of her as she turned around, adjusting herself before grabbing his hands to place them on her hips. He moved closer to her, bending his legs as he entered inside of her once again. Sam pumped his hips hard against her bare skin, thrusting forward into her heat. He hold on to her tightly, jerking her forward and then back onto his dick. He groaned in pleasure each time she sucked him back into her warmth. “shit” he muttered.

Mercedes: licked her lips and closed her eyes, her hands clutching the rail of the elevator as she used it for balance. A moan escaped her lips as she squeezed her eyes shut even more, her breath shaky with ecstasy. Her body was already buzzing and she knew it wouldn’t be long before she completely fell apart. Just as the thought crossed her mind she felt her thighs tighten instinctively before she dropped her head with a growl. “Fuck!” she hissed. This was dirty and wrong but she liked the way she felt. She wouldn’t admit it But being Sam’s dirty little secret was better to her than being nothing to him at all.

Sam: squeezed Mercedes waist harder when a loud moan escaped from her soft lips as he continue to fuck her from behind. His dick felt so good buried in her pussy, hugged tightly by her smooth walls as he pumped in and out of them. His hips jerked into hers faster on instinct. He a loud grunt came out of his mouth. “SHIT” he groaned running his hand up Mercedes’ body cupping around her throat. Sam raising her up to where her back was against his chest, kissing down her her neck, nipping at her skin as he did. Sam couldn’t help but think about the fact that he was engaged to be married yet here he was having sex with his ex fiancée. Being with Mercedes yet again in this was was a reminder that with her he always felt an unparalleled closeness to her, holding her securely against his body like this, their bodies fit together like pieces of a puzzle. And some would ask if this is the perfect for him why doesn’t he just end this and be with Mercedes. Hell he was thinking the same thing. But then he remembered exactly why that could never happened. He couldn’t allow himself to go back down that road with Mercedes. Especially with his habits of always hurting her, unintentionally, but still some way he hurts her. He was pulled out of his thoughts from the feel of Mercedes leaning back on his dick “fuck” he huffed moving his hips at faster place, pushing her harder on his dick. The way she would go down his dick at a fast pace, tightening around him tightly caused a loud whimper “Cedes”he breathed hard against her skin. Sam could tell from the way she was moaning loudly that she was so close to her orgasm and if he was truly honestly he was too. But he was trying to hold on, long enough for her to cum first. But if she kept pumping her hips harder against him, he was going to lose.

Mercedes: could feel her hair covering her face as she dropped her head I’m pleasure. She moaned and writhed against Sam, her legs shaking as she pushed back against him. Her breathing was shaky and her heart was pounding as she got closer and closer to her release. She breathed Sam’s name and could feel her toes curl in her shoes as they continued to move in sync. She couldnt allow herself to think about how wrong this was or how she had lowered herself enough to have sex with her engaged ex in a stalled out elevator. All she wanted to think about was how Sam made her feel and right now he made her feel good.

Sam: moaned loudly feeling the constant, intense squeezing rhythms of Mercedes’ pussy around his dick made his green eyes roll back underneath his lids. Pumping his hips more diligently against hers, his orgasm was quickly approaching and he didn’t think he was gonna be able to hold back much longer. He ran his hand down Mercedes’s body until it reached her clit, running his thick fingers down her slit. He massaged her clit at the same paced of their hips, letting out a long heavy sigh. The pressure building between his legs, was more than he could bare at this point . He used is free hand to hold on to the rails of the elevator “fuck!” He choked out.

Mercedes: felt herself finally tumble over the edge as his fingers gingerly teased her. Her heart was pounding in her chest, her throat felt hoarse from moaning and her skin felt prickly from the heat coming off of her. She let out a screech and felt her body go limp as warmth burst from the center of her body all the way to her fingertips.

Sam: continued to massage her clit, while moving his dick deeper inside of her. It only took a few more thrusts before he slammed his lids closed and bucked his hips hard against her’s,cumming right along with her . “Fuuck!” He growled, leaning his body against hers, panting hard against her skin.

Mercedes: dropped her hands from the wall and felt her body go still as Sam finally came. Her head felt light and she wondered if maybe she was floating. This was what she always wanted to feel. She wanted to be close to Sam, to feel safe in his arms and floating. And if that meant being with him while he was engaged to someone else, then so be it. She’d spent her entire life doing what other people wanted her to do and right now, she was going to do what she wanted for once. She said she was going to take control of her life in 2017 and she was actually going to do it now. She wanted Sam and if this was the only way she could have him then so be it. She slowly stood up, her legs feeling like jelly. She really wished she’d thought this threw and brought a napkin because she was honestly a mess. It was worth it though just to have this moment with the man she loved. She pulled up her jeans, not bothering to buckle them and sighed, leaning against the wall. “God,” she breathed running a hand through her hair. “I guess you can say you had sex somewhere weird now.”

Sam: stood there for a seconded as he collected himself. He silently told himself that he knew he couldn’t stop sleeping with Mercedes, even though he knew he was wrong and that he should end it. But he loved her and at this point he was addicted and he couldn’t stop what they were doing. He sighed, stepping back a bit so he could pull his boxers and pants up, leaning down to grab his shirt. He chuckled nervously at her comment, buttoning up his shirt, tucking the hem inside of his pants “Yeah I guess so”.

Mercedes: watched Sam get dressed and bit down in her bottom lip. “Do you hate me now?” she whispered, feeling herself shake nervously. She hated how she constantly feared his rejection or that one day he’d end whatever they were doing, especially now that she felt so vulnerable. She knew she wanted him, even if he wasnt fully hers, she’d take it. But she didn’t know what he wanted. She never really knew what he wanted. “I’m not asking you to run away with me or something stupid like that but… I need you…”

Sam: was getting ready to fix his tie but stopped what he was doing, when she asked him if he hated her. He locked eyes with hers for the longest time and he hated that she wouldn’t even think for a second that he would hate her. He walked closer to her, running his fingers through her hair “Don’t ever ask me that again” he said softly shaking his head “I-I could never hate you Cedes.” He said honestly. He wanted so badly just to tell her how he felt about her, how much in love he was with her and how he never stopped loving her no matter how hard he tried. But she deserved better, but yet he couldn’t 100% let her go. He smiled sadly as she spoke, thinking what life would be like if they just picked up everything and left this life behind because right now it sounded like the best life ever. His heart was pounding so fast when she told him that she needed him. He looked deep into her brown eyes,“I-I need you too..” he whispered, running his thumb a crossed her beautiful face.

Mercedes: let out a breath she didn’t know she was holding as Sam touched her face and nodded at his words. It was a relief to know he wasn’t going to fight this. Whatever ‘this’ was. “Good,” she smiled softly. “If you want… I mean if you can. You should come over tonight? Sammy misses you.”

Sam: returned the smile and nodded “Well I usually sleep at the gallery on this day, just because I have to be there so early the tomorrow. But I can stay with you tonight.. I miss Sammy too and plus I want to be near you.” he said honestly, leaning down to kiss her lips.

Mercedes: smiled, standing on the tips of her toes to return the kiss. “Good because I was using Sammy as an excuse. I’ll even make dinner,” she said, earning a look. They both knew she couldn’t cook. “Okay I’ll order take away. Besides, you’ll need your energy.” She kissed him once more and licked her lips. “We should stop hogging the elevator. I’m sure people have been waiting for it.. And I have to get back to running my errands. Not all of us are big shot CEOs.”

Sam: squinted his eyes at her playfully “Should have known you would use our dog against me.” he chuckled against her lips, running his hands up and down her shoulder. “mmm that sounds really nice and I can’t wait..” he said returning the last kiss. He sighed dramatically, as he stood back, reaching over to press the button. “It’s a tough job but someone has to do it.” he winked, jerk forward a little as the elevator moved down.

Mercedes: rolled her eyes playfully and reveled in the last few seconds they would spend together in this elevator before taking a step back. “You better delete the footage from the cameras,” she nodded towards the ceiling before raising a brow seductively. “Or use it…” The elevator doors opened when they got to the ground floor and Mercedes picked up her bag and adjusted her jeans and shirt. “I’ll see you later Mr. Evans,” she smiled, giving him a nod and walking off of the elevator and into the lobby.

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Wedding Regrets

Let me just say now, no. I do not regret marrying my husband. I love him more than anything and he is no where near a regret to me. 

Now onward. 

I got married back in June, just a couple of months ago okay. And even though things did go smoothly which I am so happy about, there’s several things that are coming to surface that I am having a bit of trouble with. I’m just going to make a list. 

1.  I originally wanted to get married sometime in September. Originally September 22nd. We ended up settling for June 13th because we found a venue we really liked and the original date was too expensive for us. It was $5000 for a weekend wedding. The lady helping us was explaining to us that if we did a wedding on a weekday, it would be $2900 which was still a little pricey but more affordable for us. We were paying for most of our wedding out of pocket so we didn’t have much to work with. We also didn’t want to wait another year or two to get married. We narrowed it down to what day we would like to have which would be a Thursday since it was as close to the weekend as possible without the weekend price. I also had months that were an absolute no for me. I didn’t want any months that had major holidays in it. So there goes January/April/July/October/November/December. I also didn’t want to get married in May because my parents were married that month and its already a full month of birthdays/anniversaries/etc., meaning barely anyone would come i’m sure. So really the only months that would be an option were February-March. June/August/September. We decided that the beginning of the year would probably be difficult hence being right after all the holidays. And it being too cold. So there goes February-March. Literally left with June, August and September. She named off dates and June 13th on Thursday was one of them. We ended up just saying “sure.” not really giving time to think about other days in August or September even. I really wanted a fall wedding. I’m not much of a summer person. I think we also decided on June because we went on our honeymoon to Colorado. Thinking it would be a good time to go with it being summer. Our honeymoon was still relaxing though. So that was fun. Anyways, I still always felt off about our wedding date and i almost changed it with our venue but I was worried we wouldn’t be able to, or that it would be extra to change so I never did it. Though it always upset me in the back of my mind that I wasn’t getting the date I originally wanted. A time of year that I felt happiest at. I just think I was overwhelmed with the wedding planning process to begin with, I just wanted to have a date set in stone so I just said yes to whatever. And I do feel stupid that I am so bothered by a date but it’s probably because its a time frame I originally didnt want and now the date is forever. I should focus on the fact that it’s a day I vowed my life to Traven and that’s what is important. I just feel like I missed out again on something I really wanted originally and I fell under pressure to myself. Though I just found out that our venue we got married at is closing permanently at the end of this month. So we did dodge a bullet not doing a wedding in September. 

2. I desperately wanted to have colored hair for my wedding and had it done differently. My hair style that day didn’t look as neat and clean as I was imagining it to be. It looks like an average low bun with nice bangs and shit ton of bobby pins. Also I had made a promise to my mother and great grandmother that I would have my natural hair for my wedding and now I’m regretting it. I look at my photos and I feel like they’re not me. I love having my colored hair and standing out in a positive way like that. I just felt it was boring. I felt like I was just another typical person and I don’t want to do that. I want to be unique or be someone that people are like “man, I wish I would have done that for my wedding!” or “look how gorgeous she is not being a traditional bride!” It’s not me. It’s not who I am for sure on that. I wanted to be an alternative bride. I originally wanted a blue dress or just a different color besides white. I got a white dress with tan underneath. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVED my dress. It was absolutely beautiful and I felt beautiful in it. Just wish it was maybe a grey, blue or black even! But overall I just wanted to a different style of bride but I went for traditional even though I am not traditional. This also comes into play with having no self identity security if that makes sense. I just don’t know who I am but if I could go back to the day of our wedding again, I would have dyed my hair the night before the wedding and been colorful. I’m regretting so hard because I feel like I am now getting uncomfortable with looking at my wedding photos. I can’t recognize who is in the photos. It doesn’t feel like me. 

3. I didn’t get as many photos as I wanted. Everything was rushed and I actually lost on chances for certain photos. I wish I had more time or was more stern with time frames and organizing. I wanted more one on one shots of Traven and I but I didn’t get many. I have several of the same angle and I like them but I just wish I had more angles and poses you know? I also wish I would have gotten more photos of just myself as a bride. Picture of my bouquet by itself because it was so pretty. The colors and how it was arranged was gorgeous. These little details I really wanted but it slipped my mind to get them because I was so focused on everything else that day. 

4. I’m really upset about how big i was planning my wedding. I originally invited 150 people and only had 120 RSVP up til the wedding. The day of the wedding comes and literally only 70-80 people were at the ceremony and 60-65 people at the actual reception. I had so many empty chairs and so many empty tables that it made me feel like a lot of people didn’t want to celebrate this day with us. It made me feel lonely for some reason. I didn’t get to see Traven a lot during the reception because he kept wondering off after our dance and such so he could talk to people. Which is fine. But I didn’t really have him with me so people could celebrate us together. Idk. Is that wrong to say?? I ended up letting the wedding end 4 1/2 hours earlier than our time booked because mostly everyone had left. Our wedding was only 4 hours long. I just don’t think that’s a lot of time for such a wonderful day like this. You hope to only get married once, I wanted to celebrate. I was devastated. I wanted it to last much longer with my friends and family. I wanted them there. I had low expectations though for my mothers side of the family. They all left within like an hour and half into the reception because they have better things to do i’m sure. At my mother’s wedding, there were there for maybe 30 minutes before they all left. Yet if it comes to any one else of them getting married or hosting an event, they’re there until the very end. Still hurts though you know? Makes me resent them more. I’m just really upset about how empty our wedding felt. Seeing pictures from the ceremony and seeing there maybe be 70 chairs empty, it looks pathetic and embarrassing. 

5. I also wish Traven would have picked a better time to propose to me. We had just broken up a couple of months before. He left me unexpectedly. Ended up having both of us be moved out of the house we were living in with roommates, moved back into our parents house, didn’t talk to each other and I had a mental breakdown resulting in being admitted into a mental health facility. It was an awful situation. He reached out to a few months later asking to talk and told he had life crisis and just was scared of a lot of things and plus was out of his mind after taking a dab. After talking for a long time, I forgave him and took him back. His family was not happy about it and were pissed at me even though I wasn’t the one who broke up with him. He was the one who did and left. My family was forgiving. Few days later, unexpectedly he proposed to me at a golf course that he last minute saw and decided it was an okay place. We don’t golf at all or have no reason to go to a golf course so it gave it away with what he was doing because it is not something we ever did. He proposed but instead of being excited, I felt fear. I knew his family would be furious. I didn’t know how my family would respond. I also didn’t know if this was a good idea because we just got back together after he fucking left me. So I was scared that this was some sick joke and that he would just up and leave again. I didn’t want to hurt his feelings so I did the face covering “omg i’m so happy” pose and said yes. Now, part of me did want to say yes, but not at all in these circumstances and ESPECIALLY at a damn golf course. Not to mention in the middle of him asking to marry me, a guy on a golf cart told us to leave because we couldn’t be on the property. I was humiliated. Also not to mention, I wasn’t showerd, had no bra on, my hair was a mess, I had been in a dark basement in bed crying all day and just I looked like absolute shit. It is not in any way how someone imagines being proposed to. Hey, at least he got the ring right. It was gorgeous. I love my ring. But just like I feared, his family went OFF. His mother kicked Traven out, isolated him from family. His dad screamed at him. His parents didn’t want to see me and basically said Traven was crazy. My idea of a proposal was that it would be planned out, I would look nice, I would have someone to take photos, my family and his family and all of our friends would be excited for us. Instead we got a shit show. We had to hide our engagement for months. I didn’t get to be happy about being engaged for the longest time. I lost friends, I had people saying “didn’t you guys just break up? This is stupid.” I also had other people saying I was making a huge mistake. it hurt so much to hear all of this. It still bothers the hell out of me and I want to get past it but how? Now so many of my friends are getting engaged and married. My best friend just got engaged right after my wedding and I’m so happy for her. But i’m also so envious. I wish I would have gotten that excitement from my engagement. I wish I would have pictures. Instead I have a posed photo of him “proposing” to me at our engagement photo session because I wanted to feel like i had something. I just feel so awful for complaining so much. I just so badly wish things went differently. So many things in my life always ended up being a shit show or I missed out on something. It makes me fear about having a child. What if I miscarry, have a stillborn, they die on me, or they have a disorder that ruins their quality of life and I have to watch my child suffer? I’m so scared. 

I do want to point out some positives though. 

1. I got to marry my best friend and if it counts, our day overall went smoothly. I didn’t have any issues with family/friends or the day itself besides people leaving early, not showing up and missing out on photos. 

2. Our flowers/cake and decorations/ the venue looked wonderful. I was so happy. 

3. Our honeymoon was fun. It was nice to be back in Colorado and even go to a spa. it was so relaxing. 

4. I do like my photos that I have besides the fact that I don’t like looking at myself. I have some photos that I will definitely cherish. 

5. Majority of the people that were there at the wedding were people that were most important to me. My great grandmother couldn’t make it but I know she wanted to be there. It broke my heart to hear her cry about not being able to be there. But that she loved me and she couldn’t want to see photos and hear all about it. 

6. I loved my dress. And I was so happy wearing my converse bright orange shoes under my dress. I showed them off. I felt like i stood out a little bit. 

7. My brother walked me down the isle and I knew he was proud. I was too. 

8. All my bridesmaids and groomsmen looked wonderful. I was so relieved to know everyone matched and it came out good. ( I was worried for a while since everyone went at different times to get their items) 

9. I got to dance with my brother, my dad, my mom and step dad. I cried a lot that day. Which is normal obviously. 

10. I had the colors I wanted and it came together. 

11. Traven’s family, especially parents have been supportive with us and really accepted me back in their family again. It’s such a nice feeling. 

12. I get to go on this new adventure with Traven and I think I did make the right decision with him. He’s been so patient with me and does his best to help support me when i’m in over my head with anxiety. 

If anyone has advice or can even relate, feel free to message me. It’s nice to know i’m not the only one who feels this way 

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17 Celebrity Bridesmaids That Looked Incredible but Didn't Show Up the Bride

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17 Celebrity Bridesmaids That Looked Incredible but Didn't Show Up the Bride

While we often look to celebrities for wedding dress inspiration, we seem to forget that even stars are sometimes the bridesmaids and not the bride. So today we’re rounding up our favourite famous wedding attendants (think Cara, Jessica Alba, Kate Bosworth and the Olsens), along with the stylish, not-so-bridesmaid-y dresses you need to get each of the looks.

But there is one thing that every A-lister has to bear in mind when being a bridesmaid for a friend (especially one who isn’t a celeb themselves): Don’t show up the bride. Thankfully, all these bridesmaids have managed to look elegant and pretty without taking away the spotlight, which is good news if you’ve got a famous friend. Keep scrolling for our guide to the best celebrity bridesmaid dresses.

We don’t need to ask if you think this is the chicest bridal party you’ve ever seen because we know the answer. As well as the Olsen twins being a part of Gomelsky creative director Cassie Coane’s big day, Harley Viera-Newton was also one of many bridesmaids all wearing incredible gowns. We can’t even start to pick a favourite.

Emily Ratajkowski was a bridesmaid in October 2016 for a friend’s wedding. Fun fact: She designed the dress herself with Christy Dawn. Only 75 were made, with all proceeds going to Planned Parenthood.

When you have a lot of bridesmaids, having them stick to a theme (but not wear the exact same dress) looks incredible. Rachel Bilson was part of this team of bridesmaids this year (if you need help spotting her, she’s in the top right). 

Yep, Rachel has been a bridesmaid for a few of her friends. This light blush gown was a chic way to not upstage the bride. 

Last year, the actress was a bridesmaid to chef Megan Mitchell and wore a gorgeous Reformation frock.

As one of the coolest brides of all time, Rihanna wore a lilac dress to her assistant Jennifer Morales’s wedding in 2015.

At the end of 2016, Miranda Kerr’s brother Matty Kerr married Jimmy Wright. The model wore a gorgeous white lace gown.

In her brother’s 2011 wedding, Keira Knightley and the other bridesmaids opted for a shorter hem in purple. 

Serving as maid of honour for her sister Poppy’s wedding last year, Cara stunned in a white Chanel gown.

Back in 2008, Kate Bosworth was a bridesmaid for her former assistant’s beachside nuptials.

At her best friend’s wedding, maid of honour Kirsten Dunst looked boho-chic in a pink slip dress and flower crown.

As maid of honour in her sister’s wedding in 2012, Katharine McPhee took the plunge in a pale pink halter gown with a deep V.

As part of the wedding party for a friend’s 2010 ceremony in Beverly Hills, Jessica Alba opted for a blue chiffon dress which matched husband Cash Warren’s tie.

For her friend’s wedding in Ojai in 2014, Lauren Conrad wore one of her own designs—a long, cream-coloured gown from her Paper Crown line.

Back in 2007, the twins went barefoot as bridesmaids in a Cabo San Lucas beach wedding.

The actress, along with the other bridesmaids, wore a chic, satin strapless gown for her friend’s 2006 wedding in Montecito.

For her sister Chloe’s wedding in early 2014, Cara opted for a simple and flattering black sheath dress.

Just one month before her own wedding, Poppy also played bridesmaid in sister Chloe’s wedding, wearing a mermaid-shaped gown with white embellishments.

Long before her nuptials to Justin Timberlake, Jessica Biel was a bridesmaid in another Italian wedding, wearing a strapless, plum-coloured gown with a matching shawl. Next up! 29 of the best wedding guest dresses that stand out from the crowd.

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