#anyway 🥺 dominick is so nice

[aleksa-sims]

RL Simself-Story (18+)

CW: adult themes, addiction, drugs

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Pic 1: I had a date with Daniel. I wanted to surprise him and somehow recreate our wedding night. Afterall I had a lot to catch up with my cute husband… So I spent most of the day in the bathroom. I put all that nice stuff on my skin, to be especially….. pretty for him. 😏

Pic 2: D. wasn’t home. He had an appointment and had to go to his therapist. But Daniel knew I wanted to surprise him. He didn’t know exactly what I was going to do? He just hoped it was about sex. This is actually all he wanted from me, after we haven’t really slept together for 3 months, but I had something else for him too.

Pic 3: I wanted to look exactly like on our wedding day two months ago. But I didn’t want to wear my wedding dress. Would be a bit too much & stupid to walk around in my wedding dress at home. Anyway, I couldn’t wait for him to come home. I was so happy that he married me.🥰 I wanted to show him how much I love him and how much he means to me. The last weeks were really hard, but Daniel was always there for me & supported me in everything. Nevertheless, a feeling of insecurity haunted me constantly. The fear of being abandoned. But you know, I’m always scared. So yeah, it’s not really something new.🤷🏻‍♀️

Pic 4: IRL I never use powder, except in summer maybe, to fix my make up. I don’t like that matte look on my skin. That’s why I use tinted moisturiser, bb/cc-cream, or a sheer liquid foundation with a glowy finish. BUT with SPF, of course!!! Agh, yea. I’m a total freak when it comes to skincare & make up. I could give you a 2 hour talk about retinol and some other important anti-aging ingredients and you would think I was some kind of skin expert. But my fav is glycol!! It makes your skin so perfect. Sorry! I shut up now! 😶‍🌫️😳

Pic 5: Where is he? Why doesn’t he come home to me? He knew that I had prepared something for him. I called him… I was so disappointed with Daniel...... He ran into Jacob and somehow Daniel got high. He couldn’t drive his car and barely move. And now he had to wait for Dominick to pick him up and bring him home.............. I don’t want to lie. Two days ago Daniel and I took something, I think we started to relapse. He didn’t want to, but I was so mad about this damn thing with Mr B., so I couldn’t sleep with Daniel again. But Sex wasn’t really the reason why we did this shit. We were both kind of depressed. We have learned that we’ll have to face/see the 4 men who did this terrible thing to us 3 monts ago. And Idk, but everything came up that day. And since we still had some of that drug left, we just…. took it.😔

Pic 6: I framed our wedding pics and put them on the wall. Although I wasn’t planning on hanging our pictures, I wanted to keep them in a photo album because I don’t like weddings. But I did it for him and I knew he would be happy about it, but that night….. he didn’t really care.

Pic 7: He knew he fucked up. I wasn’t mad at him because he was high, but because he secretly did it and thought I wouldn’t notice. I know he just wanted to prevent me from relapsing, but lying makes me sick!! Especially in a relationship. But Idk? Daniel just didn’t get it?! He was constantly trying to keep things from me secret just to protect me. That’s exactly why I thought he left me forever, when he-….. decided to go away for a while. I just didn’t trust him in the end anymore. But I was wrong! Really wrong!😢💔

Pic 8:

Daniel: I’m so sorry! I screwed up! I really messed up.🥺

Me: I don’t believe you were just with Jacob! Who knows what else you did. I’m not like Irena! I’m not gonna wait for you at home, while you’re hanging out with some bitches you don’t even remember.

Daniel: Irena was just bullshitting! I never did this!

Me: YOU, don’t remember it!! But she does! However! I don’t care! I’m gonna piss off!

Daniel: Yea? And… where the hell you wanna go?… Philip? Your comfort toy.🤨

Me: Ugh! 🤦🏻‍♀️

Pic 9:

Daniel: I swear, I’ll never leave you alone again. And now come to me babe…. I don’t to wait, I’m gonna do you right here…. You make me so hard, you like this? 😏

Pic 10:

Daniel: Come on, I just touched your tits! You don’t have panic attacks anymore! So what’s your prob now? We’re married, damn!… I think you’re just playing with me! 😠

Me: I want you too! But not that way! That’s not how I-…. wanted that night to be! I You’re acting like a horny dick! Like Mr. B.! And I’m not playing with you, I slept with you yesterday even though-…

Daniel: What? What now? Should I wait another 3 months? You’re my wife! Why can’t I touch you? What have I done to you? And why are you comparing me to your fucking boss? 😡

Me: No, I can’t talk to you about it now. I want you to calm down first! And besides, you know everything, I don’t understand why you react that way? You fucked up tonight, not me! Think about it before you talk to me. 😔

Pic 10: I left him alone. I think he had another outburst of anger, which has been happening a lot lately. I mean, since he was discharged from the hospital! Actually, he’s been doing quite well since our wedding and after our honeymoon, but maybe I was wrong? He was always so busy helping me because of my panic attacks and now, he was slowly losing patience. Which I could totally understand. Still, he KNEW, he was NOT the trigger for my panic, so Idk why he thought I was playing with him??.... I guess he was just frustrated because he screwed up tonight.

[serpenfilium]

@mugglestudys​  //  PROFESSOR CROWLEY LOGGED: i’m sorry for what you’ve been through. i’m really, really sorry. / MIDNIGHT MASS SENTENCE STARTERS.

                       IT FEELS BAD — THE SYMPATHY.  scorpius never asked to be pitied, maybe a little understanding would be nice, even a little leniency, but the pity is something he could do without. he knows his teacher means well — professor crowley has never been anything but kind to him, even amidst all the drama && uncertainty surrounding his family name — but it takes everything in him to not SNAP. it’s a defense mechanism, the only thing that keeps him from breaking down again.

“....thank you.” his voice wobbles slightly. “but it’s fine.” scorpius brushes hair out of his face, squaring his shoulders. stand tall. be proud. don’t let anything slip through the cracks. THAT’S WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A MALFOY. “we’re strong. we’ve survived worse.” we. the family. not him, scorpius, the boy. the boy alone, without a mother. “but if it’s all the same to you...” he glances toward the door, to where he knows albus is waiting for him in the hallway. “can i skip the homework tonight? i need to, um—” he fiddles with the hem of his sweater, “send an owl to my father.”