#anyway gnight xoxo

[candycatstuffs]

The difference that taking 5-10 minutes to draw a thumbnail makes is so crazy

[tiredrobin]

your body is giving out on you

wdyd when youre dissolving from the inside cuz you were never meant to exist the way you do (they/them 4 this guy thanks)

[irl]

man. knowing this person is still talking about me behind my back and also spreading such viscious lies i just. damn

its reignited a paranoia i havent known in a long time. its so all consuming. the trauma i have surrounding all of this needs to be dealt with but not when its past 9pm and also when im in such a psychologically fragile place

i deserve better conditions to try to process in

[lokiid-on-ao3]

one of my favourite things about posting on here is seeing all the notes flood in at around 10pm lmfao. like i'm so glad we r all living the same life and reading fanfic before bed

anyways if ur reading this while lurking for fics gnight babes hope u enjoy the fic and also sleep well xoxo

[heartachebf]

i have im gonna fucking die disease :( (symptoms are my arm hurts a little too much for too long)

[yearofrestandrelaxing]

tumblr is like the only place left lol that i have to be able to be publicly anxious. i’m really mad @ myself for becoming that gross stereotype of the crazy jealous girlfriend but it’s!!! because!!! of my daddy!!! issues. why do i need approval in relationships the way i do. why do i get nervous when my bf is on his phone for literally no reason. i even get upset when he likes a model’s pictures like i really need to relax... therapy would be so cute except for the fact that i don’t have any fucking insurance god i love our government and our shitty president and capitalism and being POOR. life is just like so much rn and i like rly can’t handle it lol it’s rly killing me. anyway this is just what i cant tell anyone in my life bc i feel the need to put up this persona that i’m fine and am super happy but i also don’t trust anyone w telling them my personal problems bc i just think they’re a snake. anyway back to ur usual content gnight xoxo

[yomiel]

yawns anyways i’m going to bed now, gnight mutuals sleep well xoxo

[rinsbian]

ANYWAY im rly going 2 bed now gnight n if jikooks could fuck off thatd be great thanks xoxo

[possumcorpse]

Nightly Post

So my Filipino teacher said that we as a class should have recognized these terms/phrases as we “learned them already”, despite the fact she never taught half of them last year.

Either way, here’s a short phrase that you can share with someone you know and stuff. Two short phrases, technically.

Mahal kita - I love you (Platonically)

Iniibig kita - I love you (Romantically)

So yeah.

i made this post earlier at like 6pm and its 12 am now and im sleepy af and oh god i csnt think i failed to spell physics correctly rip i have to do a presentation later today and @xloy4lty its my beat up story notebook i gotta replace eventually lol well anyways gnight yall! hope yall have a great day or night or whatever time Mahal kita! .3. xoxo - sleepy Jedi

[itsniykeee]

May 31st, 2019

Hi guys. 

Same shit... again, long time no see. It’s been a while since I’ve been on here. And honestly a lot has happened since February 20, 2019. 

Let’s skip the rest of February and go to March. I went to Vegas to spend my birthday with Carly. Unexpectedly... I met a guy up there - Mike. 

You already know the drill, we met on Tinder lol. He tried hanging out my 2nd night there but I purposely went to sleep because I didn’t want to meet up with him by myself. The next day I was going to stay with Carly for the remaining of my trip and I met up wit him that night. We clicked instantly. We went to his house where he lives with his sister and we started off watching Netflix and well... you already know I ended up sleeping with him lol. 

This was the first guy that I’ve slept with since I was with Cody...

The sex was honestly fucking dirty as shit. I was spanked, choked, my hair was pulled.... it was amazing. And also, I was cramped for the first time LMAO. 

After we had sex, like he was playing with my hair and cuddling with me and the one thing that threw me off was that he asked me to sleepover. He was like “So do you want to just grab coffee in the morning?” and I was like “Okay, so you want me to stay over?” LOL so I texted carly that I was going to stay over and that I’ll see her in the morning. We fucked 2 more times after that, one in which he woke me up at 4 am for LOL. Then we fucked again when we both woke up. It was bomb as shit. The way that we were interacting with one another, it was so fluid. Like we’ve known each other for years. Anyway, after that he dropped me off and I was like omg this guy is never going to talk to me again, so I was like “Well, I’ll text you when I come back from Cali.”

That night he texted me “Miss u boo.” He wanted to hang out but his boys were coming into town so I was like “well you can come get me then drop me off before you see your boys.” and he was like “Yeah but I like sleeping with you.” 

Anyway, we didn’t really see each other the remaining of my trip. Another couple failed attempts to see each other, but unfortunately we didn’t see each other again. 

Honestly, I was stuck on this guy from a long time. And lowkey, I still kinda am. You’ll understand the more you read on. This was his text message to me while I was packing to head to the airport -

“Was very nice meeting you, I hope you enjoyed your vacation. Unfortunately it has to come to an end. Wish I could’ve been you one more time. Hopefully we cross paths again in the future. Forsure stay in contact send snaps and shit. Fucked with your energy from the beginning. Such a good girl, stay focused on school and the little things. Let life come to you baby.”

I fucking cried when I read this text message. It had me beyond fucked up. Like this guy was so sweet. He was so easy to talk to and we joked around constantly. 

So I replied back -

“Thank you for an amazing time. Meeting you was a breath of fresh air that I really needed. I wish you nothing but the best in your future. I can’t wait to see you doing it big out there. Kill it out there baby. Your passion and love for your craft will pay off. Looking at life a little differently because of you. & of course I’ll keep in contact. I’ll always be down to listen to your music. I hope we’ll see each other again one day. Until next time. xoxox”

I honestly didn’t expect text back, however I got one - 

“Made my day. Thank you so much. Means a lot to me. I hope you don’t feel like I used you for sex either. I respect love so much but I don’t want you to fall for me because I do that because i just want sex or whatever. I tend to push away people that really fucked with me because of whatever reason. I don’t want that with you. I don’t want a relationship obviously, and I’m not even talking with you just in general and I appreciate you seeing that.”

Honestly, till this day. I reread that text. I don’t want that with you. But in the moment this is what I was feeling and responding -

“Of course I don’t feel that way. I wouldn’t have kept in contact with you if I did. I definitely know what you mean, I just got out of a 5 year long relationship so I’m not really trying to be in anything like that anytime soon. I’m just trying to live my life before I sign my life away to law school. This trip was mainly for soul searching and I appreciate you adding good memories and energy to that. Your liveliness is so contagious. I’ll always remember you. Go out there and kill it. Gnight and goodbye baby.”

And that was that. I was honestly fucked up for a long time because of this guy. And lowkey, I still am a little bit. But just not to this extent. 

Mike ended up adding me on snapchat and he would periodically reply to my snaps. 

Oh also, remember Josh. Yeah fuck him. I got into a fight with him on my last night there and blocked him number because he was being a fucking douchebag. 

Anyway, once I came back I somehow got talked into another trip to vegas with Kiana and Shara. And I was down because I knew I would be able to see Mike. 

Come to a couple days before we left, I get this message from John on Tinder. Now John is this athlete that plays at the university. He was back in town and wanted to hang out so I left my house at 230 and went to his place. 

He was a lot taller in person lol. But I went to his place and we were laying down fucking around talking about my jeans and that led into us having sex. AND BITCH, when I say this sex was fucking nasty - it was fucking nasty. Like a whole other level nasty. I turned into this mega slut and it was fucking crazy LOL. I was choked, spanked, my hands were restricted. It was amazing. He could definitely get it again. 

Well technically, I tried but that bitch fell asleep. I was so pissed because i wasted gas driving to his fucking place. 

About a week after I had sex with John, I had sex with Mike. LOL and honestly, it wasn’t as good as the first time we hooked up; which is kinda what I feared. 

Oh also, i shoot my shot with the guy I’ve been checking out for 3 years so there's that.

A lot of crazy shit has happened and I don’t anticipate it to stop lol. Forever yours truly. 

xoxo, Niks

[nahlinn]

Day Two: Blog thingy

So this is my second day of updating you the person on your screen reading this boring life of mine.

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I woke up to my baby pup walking around, sure that it was 4 am i look at my phone. Its fucking a few mins before my alarm clock, and i feel like death from staying up past midnight the following night. Lucky my friend that i asked to text me in the morning did !! My best friend C couldnt call me for our daily before school call since shes visiting her girlfriend. Any ways i got J to text me in the morning so i wouldnt be lonely. I was so happy to see a text from him, & when i texted he responded so fuckin fast amen!! Any who i had to take my pup out to peepee while i did that i 1. Froze my butt off 2. Started my car ao it would be nice and toasty. :) i then proceeded to text J and get ready for school. My teacher whos husband had just past away during break was back. Seeing her mad me want to cry and just hug that life outta her. During that period we read the Cruisable which the main evil girl who is 17 my age has the sameee name as me only spelled differently. Soo that was KOOL. My other classes were lame up until my last class math, which CA bought me candy since i dont eat lunchh. He was a life saver. I almost passed out in math because of being sleep deprived. But i managed to stay awake. Although a good ass nap wouldve been fuckin g888. The walking around the track after achool to my car was miserable afff. Me and N were sooo cold. I got home and did nothing but eat and watch criminal minds of course since that all my fuckin savage ass grandma wants to watch. I havent done any makeup work like i shoulddd but shhh, lets not talk about that. Anyways i texted J and we had a good convo about him and i both being hopeless romantics. & how he should stay one even though his last relationship didnt work out. If only he was here id hop on that train if i had the chance. Although he gets on my nerves im sure i get on his. Anywaysss now im here chillin laying down. So gnight tumblr peeps.

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Uh so day two woohoo. I don’t even think anyone is reading this but I guess its mainly just for me. Well if someone is, enjoy. Xoxo

- Nahlinn