#anyway. stop censoring tags its triggering

[brokentoasterrr]

ok listen this has been on my mind for DAYS now so i’m going to shout it into the void and we’ll see what happens.

i have a note on my phone that says “exclude tags ao3” where i have written down every single tag i don’t want to see when i scroll through my favorite ship tags. this means that i don’t see what i deem gross on my feed, because every time i go scrollin’ i make the choice to curate my online experience.

the ONLY time i have ever reported a work on ao3, it was because there was a fic rated teen with tags that were clearly explicit. i didn’t want to read it, i didn’t want to leave a comment on content i wasn’t going to read, so i reported it for the sole purpose of the creator getting a little nudge so they could rate it appropriately.

the amount of posts i see about content being reported because it contains a squick of someone’s is BAFFLING to me. it’s insane that people feel the need to censor content that presumably wasn’t meant for you anyway. you cannot go online expecting the world of fandom bending over backwards to make sure that you’re safe, because guess what! the internet isn’t an inherently safe space! in order for it to be a safe space, you need to curate your own online experience, and if you’re not mature enough to do that, you should not be online. if you cannot see a piece of fiction or art or video edit without feeling squicked, grossed out, angry, or even triggered, then you have to ensure that you do not see it again. not reporting content that is “problematic” or inappropriate or offensive.

and on that note, fiction is allowed to be problematic. it’s fiction. it is not real. i have read fics containing infidelity, age gaps, murder, drug abuse, what have you, and it does not reflect on me as a person, or what i do during my time offline. i have written violent, disgusting fics; fics containing drug abuse, toxic, abusive relationships, but never in my life would i want to embody or experience what i write. i don’t want to bang a married, muscular silver fox as someone who’s much younger, but reading it? why the fuck not, it’s not about me.

i absolutely do not want to read underage stuff, or incest, or mpreg. it’s stuff that i personally think is disgusting and, to some degree, problematic (incest and underage, to be precise, i find very problematic—the rest is just personal preference). in order to avoid it, i filter those tags out. what one person thinks or feels about one certain topic should not affect other people wanting to read/write it.

the lack of nuance i see in younger people when it comes to fandom and content is frankly insane. they seem to draw such a large parallel between the fictional world and the real world, to the point where they’re incapable of seeing and understanding that the two are not one and the same. you can like a character who killed a bunch of people, write fics about it and explore who they are and why they are the way they are, without agreeing with their actions, beliefs, and values. (coincidentally, the same people who despise problematic content like graphic violence or non-con, will also take the murder character and make it into an uwu smol soft boy who just suffered trauma so its ok he’s doing this loki regulus barty crouch jr need i continue but we don’t have to unpack all of that right now)

sometimes it’s fun to be a problematic little rascal and that’s okay, because the outlet isn’t real. the fic isn’t real. it doesn’t reflect on any personal feelings, desires, beliefs, etc etc etc. the art isn’t real. if it feels too real to you, then????? don’t consume it??????? you can’t watch hannibal and then write to the show producers telling them that they’re horrible people because the show about cannibalism and murder contains just that, when you could’ve just stopped watching hannibal and done something else instead.

curate your own online experience.

[damazcuz]

Man this is a petty complaint but sometimes I'll see a post i would have otherwise reblogged and then hit the bottom and its got a huge dni banner listing off every shitty kind of person possible and it's like yeah I don't fit this dni and i dont disagree with you op but 1. This isn't stopping anyone in those groups from interacting with you 2. I don't want "terfs pedophiles and nazis!" In a big glitter graphic on my blog. Like how is it hard to grasp that. The same people who "censor" trigger tags like "tw n//z!s" because they're terrified of posting the whole word will then go on to post stupid little banners with the word on em anyway? Anyway I think it's a really tacky trend.

[nafeary]

I have seen you fetishizing gay ships, and I’d politely ask you to stop. This fandom has many fujoshi, and we don’t need another one. It’s deeply insulting to the lgbtq+ community.

Considering that you’re accusing me of fetishising gay ships politely, lemme try to be as polite as possible, too.

Well, I actually had to search up what a fujoshi is first, and???? Courtesy of urban dictionary:

Uhm... I wouldn’t consider myself a fujoshi, but what’s so bad about liking and enjoying gay relationships? I seriously hope I’m not misunderstanding anything here, but you saying that this fandom has too many fujoshi... is not a bad thing? Why would it be? Ikemen Vampire is a game with 15 amazing guys, and some of them are bound to have great compatibility.

Also, about me fetishising gay ships—

Sure, I ship Vincent and Arthur, Napoleon and Jean... but I’ve never fetishised it. I simply enjoy the dynamics of their relationships.

And on that note, I’m going to answer some anons that have felt the need to tag these gay ships specifically as gay.

I’ve said it before and I’m going to say it again. No. No I will never ever include “gay”, “bl”, or anything like that in my tags. I’m not saying you shouldn’t, nor that it’s a bad thing—my blog is still in its renovation phase rn too, so I have to fix some a lot of tags anyways. If you want to use these or use these tags, that’s totally okay, and I don’t have a problem with that. But I still won’t label the same-sex ships that I myself post about and reblog as just that on my blog.

Why? Do I tag things as straight? No. I don’t think I do, so I don’t see the need to tag other sexualities. What is that? You don’t want to see content based on other sexualities? That’s fine, you can unfollow and block me. If you have issues with any of my decisions, morals, etc. and you’d rather not talk to me about it, I understand that you’d want to unfollow/blog me.

I don’t want anyone to feel uncomfortable, but I’m also not going to give you the ability to censor something that’s completely normal. nsfw and angst/trigger warnings are a different story. Once I fix my blog I’ll tag everything I could find in my archives brrr. It’s 2021; if you haven’t learnt to accept and tolerate things you don’t like, then please, follow Squidward.

Take care everyone, drink your water, and try to catch your 8 hours of sleep 💜💜💜

[isa-ghost]

yk what i was gonna remain anonymous in the tags bc i dont have the competency for this discussion as someone who doesn't read this stuff & generally hates it actually. but tumblrs editor crashed and i lost all my tags explaining my thoughts & there was a lot of them, so now im gonna say it outside the tags with my whole chest bc im pissed off. hopefully i can recall everything i was talking about. expect coherency to be even worse than it already was in the tags and i might lack even more nuance than i already did maybe i guess idk, but bear with me here.

also disclaimer in advance, i'm gonna be saying minors here but i am fully aware the perpetrators of this phenomenon are not Only minors and vice versa. you'll see what i mean

anyway this post is super fascinating to me bc i never thought of torture/gore/whump/etc as non-sexual kink. i never even thought of "kink" as something non-sexual at all. to me these darker angsty topics just are what they are and you just tag it correctly to avoid triggering/squicking people out. its just angst to me, nothing telling about a person (bc kinks can be very telling about a person)

and on another note i usually hate romantic or sexual shipping in mcyt/mcrp bc the line is so blurred between real ppl and their cubitos most times and i loathe real ppl shipping (we'll come back to this point in a sec) (Phil's harem has been a recent exception for me and i think following blogs like Medusa lately is slowly detoxing me from whatever koolaid i've been drinking maybe, idk)

but this post made me realize a lot of the reason for all the disc horse around this brand of stuff in a fandom is bc of the rampant purity culture. and overexposure to that culture taints people like me who just want to respect ccs and their boundaries (and would personally crave toaster bath if this brand of stuff of me existed whatsoever), so their warped way of thinking has been framed to people like me in a way that boils down to "this shouldn't be a thing bc its disrespectful and you wouldn't want someone to do this to YOU"

but to them it's more than that, and i'll unpack that here:

i think a large part of why purity culture is so rampant is bc this fandom is (seemingly) dominated by minors (at least on tiktok and twitter?). and these minors (esp the tiktok kids) have grown up in a capitalistic online society in which everything is heavily censored for the sake of being ad-friendly, so all mature content has been framed to them as evil and immoral or whatever (bc obv they aren't gonna get taught that it's only "immoral" bc it's not savory for making money, that's an awareness they have to obtain themselves). so in their minds 18+ (read: mature) people are evil and immoral by default. it's, at least partially, where the whole "if you hit 19 you're ancient, and if you talk to a minor when you're 18+ you're a predator by default" bullshit comes from.

and to them, these "evil immoral" 18+ people are the *only* ones making all the ship stuff or w/e with the malicious intention of sexualizing ccs and making them uncomfortable on purpose

WHICH comes from the fact that these minors are so parasocial and don't even realize it. they think ccs deserve or NEED to be in the same spaces as their fans. no!!! ccs should NOT be in your group chats or dms!!! especially not consistently!!!!! but bc they think they should/deserve/need to be in those spaces, those spaces need to be squeaky clean and obey a ccs every boundary to a T. and anyone who doesn't do that is an evil little purposefully nasty monster

and like i said, i HATE real people shipping. if i was a cc i would be extremely uncomfortable if stuff like this existed of me, whether or not i ever saw the content myself. i would not want it to exist PERIOD. however, i begrudgingly acknowledge you can't control hundreds of thousands of people online globally for all eternity (bc even if you stopped being a cc and fell off the face of the Earth the content would continue even if in smaller amounts). so the only way to keep a cc comfortable is to keep the stuff that will make them uncomfortable far away from them and never remind them that that stuff exists (aka: keeping them out of fandom spaces).

and i'm not gonna get into it in detail but bc minors don't realize this separation is necessary & healthy, they often run all fandom stuff past ccs (often on stream via tts,,,) as if they're asking permission, or reporting business to a boss or some shit, which shoves all the uncomfortable stuff right in ccs faces, making them uncomfortable, which is exactly what they're arguing needs to NOT happen. fans should not be asking ccs how they want their fandoms conducting themselves, there are a handful of unspoken rules (ie: no bigotry, no doxxing, etc which... not gonna poke any bears here but. yknow) but otherwise there should not be any heavy policing in fandom spaces at all from anyone. period. fandoms should exist with the least amount of awareness of the cc possible. the cc should see the surface level fanart & stuff, and the rest, like the stuff being talked about in this post, should be nowhere near their radar, and generally speaking, the people who make the stuff that shouldn't be anywhere near a ccs radar a) are very careful about tagging effectively to avoid such, and b) would probably crave toaster bath if that stuff DID end up on the ccs radar bc it's meant for other fans, not the cc. which is another issue with purity culture koolaid drinkers shoving stuff in ccs faces for permission. they're not only making the cc uncomfortable by enlightening/reminding them this stuff of them exists, they're making the creators of the stuff who just want to be in their mature fandom corner doin their thing uncomfortable too.

and these minors just. don't think about any of this or believe in it. so this whole confuckled clashing of ways of thinking happens and perpetuates. and to me both sides have a point, but the minors obv are a) lacking tons of nuance and self awareness and b) going about it for the wrong reasons. it's not only, and in most cases not even primarily, about the comfort of ccs, but about eradicating the "evil impure" mature content.

"creative freedom in fandom is essential and you can't control what infinite numbers of people create" and "you shouldn't do things that make ccs uncomfortable, etc etc" are statements that can and should coexist. like how above i acknowledged i dislike the stuff (rpf mostly but cubito based too sometimes) and wouldn't want stuff like that of me to exist, but also acknowledged you just. can't control it and it's unhealthy to try. it all boils down to classic "don't like don't look" type rules, tbh.

hi saw your daddy kink post discussing the phenomenon of giving grown characters surrogate parental relationships, and I understand where you’re coming from, but i really feel like it’s just a matter of the circles you run in, and the assumptions that you might make because of that. you mention how platonic reads of these dynamics are more uncommon than kinky reads, which i just don’t think is the case, and I think that arguing that people don’t even realize that they’re writing a kink is a little bit bizarre, and sort of assumes that you know more abt them than they do by projecting your own experiences onto them.

it isn’t inherently sexual to crave protection or a parental relationship that you may have missed out on, and it is certainly not universal. in my own family, my “grandpa” isnt my biological grandfather (nor do I really consider him to be my grandfather), but he’s my mother’s surrogate father and has been since she was in her twenties. an adult. he sees her as a daughter. she sees him as a father. there’s absolutely nothing kinky about it. and anybody who automatically assumes that must have their mind deep, deep in the gutter and/or the stranger side of the Internet. really, i find it a bit of a strange argument to randomly post in the first place—as if it’s a problem that so many people enjoy non romantic and non sexual relationships, and that these people must, in fact, have a daddy kink that they are unaware of.

that said, i do absolutely agree that fans bringing any part of that into phil’s chat is weird and they should Not do that, and that infantilizing characters is also very weird, and personally i dont even see him as being father figure to anybody on that island except his eggs, wilbur, and MAYBE an argument could be made for tubbo (which other cc’s on the island have joked about), but to each their own and all that.

sorry this is so long. TLDR, i get where ur coming from in terms of “warning , some people might read your stuff differently than you want here” but really not everything is a kink and paternal dynamics can easily happen in regards to adult characters, particularly young adults, without there being any inappropriate connotations. i know nothing i said will change your mind, obviously it’s set, but ykno diff perspectives and all that. hope ur doing well

Thank you for the ask! I see you were on mobile, I believe. :D I am also going to push the character limit with this response, I fear.

I agree that it isn't inhernetly sexual to go after a parental relationship that you missed out on, and there are many such cases. I'll even go so far as to say that it's not inherently kinky to go after a parental relationship that you missed out on, because there is such a thing as non-sexual kink, and heaven knows that MCYT writing is full of non-sexual kink. Lots and lots of stuff that is platonic that is kinking on fear, or being drugged, or kidnapping, or hypnosis, or familial relationships, etc— there's lots of people who aren't doing that. There are tons of people out in the real world (and in fiction), who are simply just expanding their family as an adult, and that's awesome. When I was in college there was this older couple who kind of adopted me and invited me over for thursday dinner, and they were awesome. There was nothing untoward going on there.

But look. I am an emduo fan who likes to see my guys be murdery, and because of that, I've ended up reading a bunch of Dark SBI. I've ocassionally gone "this cannot be what everyone is doing" and I've read stuff tagged as "family fluff" that I find recommended. I am aware of where the genre is going, particularly with the rise of "dadbur" and "dadnoblade" interpretations.

And look, you have just got to trust me on this one. People are writing stuff that in any other fandom I would be recommending they put kink tags on the work so that people who liked that trope could find it and people who didn't like it would avoid it, but that comment in DSMP would just lead to people getting doxxed, so I just grit my teeth and go "i guess that's baked into Dark SBI or Tooth Rotting Fluff now, I sure hope that doesn't hit anybody's triggers".

Like I PROMISE you. The first draft of this response included excerpts of fics that I've read and I was like "can YOU pick the ship fic from the /p fics here"? But I have a horror of ever leading to someone getting cancelled on twitter, so nothing that could possibly be identifiable of these writers. But like—

Some of the ways that Tommy gets treated in the narrative are almost indistinguishable from a bodice-ripper romance. Some of the tropes being used— within DSMP we've all clasped hands and agreed to interpret it being platonic, but in any other fandom, you are going to start getting comments that you might not want to get. The tag is FULL of stuff that is DD/LB in everything but name. Maybe my mind is in the gutter here, but if you move out of this fandom, you are going to move into circles where a lot of people's minds are in the gutter, and you are going to get a very different response from your comments!

And I was talking about daddy kink here specifically, because I see that one come up a lot and it's gotten egregious lately, but this also applies to dehumanization, and fearplay, and predator/prey, and "instincts" (in every other fandom that's gonna get people in a mashup of A/B/O, Hypnosis, and sometimes Agere responding to it), and kidnapping/drugging, AND the way a bunch of "piglin instincts" stuff is just a BDSM au now where the Brute (dom) needs to be callmed down by their Runt (sub). The SBI tag is super kinky right now. And I don't have a problem with that idealogically, write your truth, but a) please don't bring that up in front of the streamers, b) if you move to another fandom you have got to be prepared that not everyone is doing their kink platonically.

Like I'm assuming that people don't know what tropes they're playing into, they're just building them from first principles, because the other alternative is that they are deliberately and knowingly writing kink and posting it in the & relationship tag with insufficient trigger tags, and I prefer to believe that people don't know.

I'm glad we agree about people bringing that into Phi's chat, or Pol's, or Luzu, or any of the other streamers that people have decided is So Old. A lot of people aren't comfortable even being assigned dad, as we saw with Felps, so bringing it even further is just— uh oh, no.

I do not have a problem with people liking non-romantic and non-sexual relationships. I find it a bit odd that much of the fandom can't concieve of a non-romantic and non-sexual relationship without making it familial and specifically lately father-son— don't you have close friends?— but I am fully in support of gen writing. I primarily write gen! I'm an avid commentor on gen fics!

But some of the tropes at play in the fandom are kinky, there is no way to avoid that. The fact that they are set in a familial relationship doesn't negate that. Some of the ways that the DSMP characters get treated would be distinctly non-familial if you ever brought it out of that context. And I am just warning people, if you bring it out of that context, be prepared for the response you get.

You cannot take DSMP tropes and apply them one-to-one in other fandoms, with other streamers swapped in, and expect them to be read the same way. Like i'm sorry, but that's just true. If you are posting the same sort of stuff that for Cellbit & Phil that you would post for Tommy & Phil, people will assume that you have a daddy kink, because usually when a relationship between a adults that are actually similar in age is refered to with paternal language it's a kink thing. That is how the broader internet works. (And anon, if I had a daddy kink, would I be complaining about the fact that I can open any SBI fic and have about a 40% chance of hitting it and I'm seeing signs of this appearing in QSMP? I assure you I'm not "projecting [my] own experiences onto them" here.)

[afrosarah]

On God, the users who are always showing up on queer people's posts to tell them they can't call themselves (and only themselves) that bad word are almost always users that have uncensored slurs right there in their fucking USERNAME or else first thing in their Tumblr bio.

Like, just say you think different rules apply to you because you think your reclaimed slur, which you know full fucking well has been and will be weaponized just as if not MORE than "queer", is valid, but ours is too inclusive! Just say you're an exclusionist, block the word, or block the user, and go away lol! If you're so distressed by seeing this word, why are you taking so much time to scour tags to seek it out???

I have so much more respect for people who don't try to justify themselves with transparent bullshit and are just honest.

Do not dare derail this post with "queer is a slur" or "some people are uncomfortable with that word 😬" like yeah bitch! Don't I know it! I know a thing or two about slurs - I'm a queer black chick in Kentucky lmao! Speaking of which - it seems all you non-black folks on here suddenly have a perfect understanding of slur reclamation and identity politics when you know not to cone onto black folks' posts to ask us not refer to ourselves as "nigga" 🤔

I use the word "mulatto" to identify myself despite its history as an offensive term for mixed black/white people. Like - that's me, baby! That's an important part of my identity! It's a good word because I'M good, homie! I love being mixed, I love being mulatto! But I'm not gonna label other mixed people that way, because they might think it's offensive, and that is ok! But if I'm on the internet talking about myself and somebody asks me to stop referring to myself that way because it's a bad word.. FUCK OUTTA HERE. I'm not calling you that word! - if you don't want to see it when *I* call *myself* that word, then you gotta block the word using the tools given to you, or you gotta block me. But I will not censor that extremely important part of me for your comfort, I'm sorry.

It is perfectly valid to be upset by the word "queer" and I hope everyone who is distressed by it is able to curate their Tumblr experience in a way that they will be protected. But! You should not rely on others to protect you when the tools are in your own hands. There are certain sounds and subjects that trigger my PTSD and I am careful to block and filter out posts that might contain them. Please correct me if I'm wrong, but I don't believe there is any good faith reason to need to ask someone to tag their posts "q slur" if they are uncomfortable doing that, when "queer" or "q word" will be content-filtered just the same. The ONLY reason would be to scold them and remind them of the negative aspect of that word, when for them it is a positive word, just like how "mulatto" is positive for me.

Anyway, I'm not gonna sit here and see teenagers fresh out of clown school graduation with "fag" and "dyke" and "tranny" in their USERNAME and plastered all over their blogs try to police the word queer on account of it being "harmful to see UwU". Either you realize you only have a problem with "queer" and aren't actually trying to protect anybody's feelings from being hurt by seeing certain words, or else your lack of self-awareness is borderline clinical. Fuck outta here.

[fleetofshippyships-archive]

WIP tag meme

aaah, I was tagged over 2 months ago by @parkkate O.O sorry for not doing this sooner @parkkate​ XD I’ve been offline for a few months! Just now catching up on everything I missed! but I’m ignoring asks for now because my inbox is a mess

The Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous.

I’m gonna cheat and only do this for my drarry wips, since I post everything else on another account now, and tbh I have so many drarrys it’s still gonna be a long ass post XD

Oh man *sweats nervously* I’m a bit of a hoarder in all aspects of my life...I don’t even know where to begin! 

I’m not tagging anyone cos I was tagged 2 months ago and I have no idea who has and hasn’t done this and don’t want to be a pain. But if you wanna do it, go a head, and please tag me so I can be nosy and hopefully find someone with a wip problem as bad as my own so I can be less embarrassed XD

Also I’m putting this under a cut for reasons

1. 4th year au idea 

Sooooo, right off the bat, I often open a new file to jot down an idea even though I have docs specifically to dump ideas...and then at some point during the process of jotting down basic details of the idea...I start writing it....? This is one such occurrence...but I had to open it to check...and now I want to keep writing it XD

But also yikes it’s super dark

2. ... 4th year au idea

I swear, this is an entirely different wip and I am going ‘wtf’ at myself because wtf that’s confusing! I had also totally forgotten the existence of this before opening it....probably because of the name of it and the only reason I apparently have 2 files the exact same name is that one is a word doc and one is a libre office doc XD

3. drarry character death idea

Soooo, I need to stop turning idea files into wips without changing the names because I actually forget they are wips apparently

Also, I really want to finish this RIGHT NOW IT HURTS SO GOOD GIMME GIMME GIMME

4. Veela fic followup

LOL LOL LOL I’m rewriting my veela fic so I don’t know what the fuck I’m going to end up doing with this XD I might have to try and merge it with the re-write if the story has a similar outcome when I’m done. or maybe I’ll just turn this into its own thing....

5. Veela fic present tense

I really need to get back to working on this, this is actually the full re-write that re-doing the tenses spawned...I was binge writing this before my life went to hell but then my life went to hell and I went offline for like three months and didn’t do any writing or anything XD

although, the last time I looked at it I got the itch to change it back to past tense so who fucking knows what I’ll do with it now

6. Veela fic Draco pov

Curse my obsession with alternate povs of the same story and Draco for being such a good angsty pov

7. Veritaserum idea start

At least this one has ‘start’ in it so I know it is in fact a wip and not just an idea outline XD

7. Veritaserum

So, turns out I started that fic over in a new file and just left the old one lying around XD I do that too often. I should delete that other one...

Also...this better not turn into another ‘Amortentia’ with me unable to think of a fucking title and going with the file name because lame

This is also my first time trying to do god’s eye 3rd person instead of 3rd person pov...also first time trying to do this weird structure thing...I dunno but I like it XD

8.  CTS followup

9. CTS sequel

Two separate followups set at different times in the same story verse... I hate myself. I love them both. I can’t pick which one to stop writing so I’m gonna keep them both around and try and make them merge at some point...

10. MMB saying sorry

11. another erase the shame

12. next erase the shame

I work on followups and lose interest so often (usually because people bug me for followups and I get very ‘fuck you’ about it and stop writing them...but I keep them around and tinker with them every now and then soooo they’re still technically wips

13. Tea and Coffee oneshot series (Tea and Coffee, Coffee and Dark Marks, The Cottage Kitchen, next untitled one)

There’s also a present tense version of the first one of those *sweats nervously* first 3 are finished, of course, but my original purpose is lost to them becoming a long fic soo....gonna merge them into one long fic soon...once I decide what tense I like better......kill me now

14. Communion of the Soul (folder name)

This is the sequel to One Touch and this is spread across 5 files because apparently I did that and even though each time I got to work on it I have to figure out which file holds which part of the sequel timeline and which I feel like working on...I have yet to merge them into one file to make my life easier...

15. Crumbling Facade

ugh working on this always makes me want to re-write restraint and actually put in the major plot line, or what was supposed to be Harry’s major plot line before the relationship crap got away from me and I had to cut out all the plot stuff because by the time I got around to addressing it, it started reading like a completely different fic and I had to cut a huge chunk and end it instead, because back then I sucked more than I do now and couldn’t juggle

sooo...I still work on this in starts and stops and then get frustrated for having to stick to Restraint’s chain of events when I have better ideas now for working in Harry’s plot about his damn magic problem and ARRGEHGEHGFVEDHDBVUIOFNBFKDB EFBVJ

I should just let Crumbling Facade take me where it wants to take me and fuck Restraint

16. Potter’s Insatiable Heart

This is my longest wip at 130k XD and I’m stalling now because if I keep going with it where I was intending to go it will end up my longest fic and I’m getting intimidated by the length and how much work it will be to edit that long of a fic so I just go in and write a few paragraphs now and again, get scared of the length and move on to another wip XD

I also periodically binge read this bitch because I love it to death even though it’s severely flawed XD

17. Corset Drarry

oh boy, when I started writing this this I was weirded out by writing a kink I didn’t understand and kind of tailed off and left it...then I did kinktober for voltron and now I’m laughing at myself because corsets and lingerie is so fucking tame after that kinktober list and all the the crap I wrote for it XD

18. Music in the Periphery

Emily bugs me about finishing this a lot...I bug me about finishing it, progress is non-existent because I have a clear plan for it and when I have a clear plan I can’t write for shit

19. Saying Sorry (Round 2) (MMB)

I gotta kick that habit of starting over with something but keeping the first attempt and still working on it parallel to the second attempt, because then I wind up with 2 fics too similar to each other to post both and I’m completely unable to pick which one I like more *facepalm*

Also, MMB is dead if I can’t stop turning the next fic attempts into angst, I just look at that big fluffy mess and want to angst it all up

20. scrapped MMB ficlets - theo’s letter

not technically drarry thought the greater series is drarry...torn between making it mmb or making it its own fic for a rare pair

21. Weather the Storm

*cries* my 6th year war au, I have such plans for this, but the plans get in the way of writing =(

22. Soulmate AU (folder name)

fucking hell, this is 10+ files and I’m not naming all of them, current count is 5 completed versions 60k+ each, 1 incomplete alternate version, all of which I’m seriously unsatisfied with, none of which I can bear to delete, all of which I periodically go and tinker with, thus leaving them all wips i’m such a fucking hoarder but also I have never gotten over all the awful comments that were on the original soulmate fic on ffnet before my purge and now I can’t ever be satisfied unless it is perfect and wont result in such horrible comments again

23. Turnabout (folder name)

Once again, multiple wips in here of the same 60k finished fic I’ve been unhappy with since the moment I finished it and keep trying to fix by starting over and changing things here and there to change the course of the story. Honestly ready to hit the delete button with this one unless my latest attempt pans out, liking it so far buuuut I’m a mess about my writing so who knows

In the Ways that Matter was based off this fic XD

24. Dependency 

Oh boy, I abandoned this cos it was so dark I got too uncomfortable writing it...I’ve since started revisiting it after being in the Voltron fandom gave me a new tolerance range for dark content XD

Plan on posting this on anon if I ever finish it, obviously changing the title XD it stopped being relevant after the first 30k anyway 

25. Dependency V2

LOL light version of the above that removes most of the dark aspects while maintaining the core plot, but I’m finding it a bit dull XD not sure how long I’ll keep trying to chug along with it

26. *censored title*

hahahaha omg why is this in a different subfolder, this is actually one of the soulmate au ones only it’s actually a spin off au of the original soulmate one I from ffnet and therefore it’s new ground and I’m less unhappy with it

.....I’m probably going to stop working on turnabout today and work on this instead now

(censoring the name because I might post this on anon because I’m too scared to post another drarry soulmate fic under my own name)

27. Retrospection

Sooo, I’m always on and off this fic cos it triggers my anxiety and depression, but fuck that I want to write it so I keep trying XD

I’m also thinking of splitting the two main plots and only going with 1 and using the other to write another story....see if that eases how difficult it is for me to write without self triggering

28. Sequel to mornings

29. Sunrise (loose prequel to mornings)

30. Surrender

I had no idea what this was, opened it and then holy shit THIS BITCH, THIS SLOW BURN FRIENDS TO LOVERS PIECE OF BULLSHIT. I DON’T WRITE SLOW BURN! I DON’T WRITE FRIENDS TO LOVERS. I REFUSE.

but also I really really really love what I wrote so far and now I’m itching to write more *cries* making this list is leaving me with so many open files to work on

31. day 2 ass worship

32. day 3 sensory deprivation

*laughs nervously* the kinktober oneshots that starting turning into a long fic hahahaha cos I really needed more wips

33. Perception of Angels

*wistful sigh* one day I will be able to finish a heavily plot driven story full of fantasy elements and creatures and magic I made up, and when that day somes, Perception of Angels....or that timetravel war au drarry fic idea I have sitting around.....which isn’t on this list only cos I’m not stupid enough to start writing it

So that’s all the drarry files in my wip folder.... I also have heaps more for other ships and fandoms, but I’m keeping that separate =)

And...now I have some writing to go do, cos after 2 months of being unable to write thanks to the bullshit in my life, I started binge writing again 2 days ago =) and opening a few of these to remind myself what they were has a lit a fire under my ass

[sevdoesnotexist]

No???? Tagging is literally enough, its goes BOTH ways actually and children should stay out of the places that are clearly marked ADULT ONLY. We shouldn't have to password protect our already restricted nsfw blogs (that CANT BE VIEW EXCEPT IN THE DASHBOARD) when we have a million disclaimers up of "we block you if there's no age in bio" "minors dni" "this place is not for kids" like fuck, OUR consent needs to be respected too. It's not fair when children seek out things you've told them not to, you've explained WHY not to and they do it anyways. I was a kid once, people did a whole hell of a lot to keep me away from shit that could scar me. I still ended up on sites like lemonparty and bestgore... Because I looked for them. Because I actively looked for them.

Just fucking admit you don't want kinky people to have kinky places to be online. When you add on all these fucking modifiers of "you need to trigger tag all your kinks on every post, but that's not enough! You need your header and pfp censored and you shouldn't be able to find your blog in a search! But, actually, I think that's not enough! Think of the kids! You should password protect your blog!"

How tf are we supposed to find each other if our blogs are hidden, our tags are hidden AND you don't want anyone to see our blogs AT ALL without first reaching out to ask for it- thus creating situations that would make a LOT of people uncomfortable...

I swear to god I hate y'all and your purity shit. We do enough already. Nobody wants to put kink around children, stop acting like we want to fuck in front of your kids so bad.

"adults should be mindful of minors online" is a perfectly reasonable statement!

however. "being mindful" means:

adequately tagging/warning for non-child-friendly content to ensure that minors are able to avoid it

not discussing inappropriate topics with minors or in spaces that are supposed to be safe for minors

"being mindful" does NOT actually mean:

never ever creating content rated higher than PG even if it's all properly tagged and warned for because it's still possible that a minor might potentially see it

[beanymachine]

A Post About Fairy Tail (Series)

Warning:

This post will mention the word “porn,” and ”nudity”. If you want me to tag as #nsfw I understand, but please understand I am not describing anything and am simply having a discussion. If this post makes you too uncomfortable and/or mentally triggers you and you wish for the post to be deleted, I understand and will immediately delete it. I do not want to do any harm on anyone.

Hey, I know a lot of people are loyal to Fairy Tail and I get it, I’ve been there. But I just wanted to talk about and ask some stuff to you the community. So please know I’m not trying to be rude or mean. With that being said, I will start.

I used to like Fairy Tail a lot. I loved it. It helped me during middle school and had everything I loved: Magic, friendship, adventure, and transformations (like Erza’s armor). And as I kept watching the anime, there were some inappropriate parts (like when some female characters didn’t have anything covering their boobs or barely had anything on there). Looking back, I see I always tried to look around it, deny, or just say to myself since because there was still a little clothing left, it still wasn’t nudity. In truth, I was just trying to find a way to look around it to stay loyal and read what the story had to offer.

It had a good beginning, much better than the end. And when I caught up with the anime, I read the manga. It was right before the last chapter of the series I found out something.

You see, during the Tartarus Arc (I think that’s what it was called) I skipped the part where Lisanna and Nastu were tied up naked. There was a time before I caught up to this arc that while I was on the wiki for Fairy Tail, I heard of this and maybe saw a photo of them being naked, but I couldn’t believe it. I told my mom and she told me it might’ve been fake, or it was my decision if I wanted to stop reading. I can’t remember which was which, but I think I forgot at the time and took a break from reading it. But after hearing numerous people who read the manga talk about it, I decided to skip the part. After all, they are just naked and nothing inappropriate was going to happen right? Just jokes right?

Looking back at it again, that was also denial. And them just being naked and making jokes was inappropriate in that fact.

But what I also skipped was the torturing scene for Erza.

Apparently, (and I think they censored it in the anime which is good) Erza is tortured while naked, and some tentacle creature also tortured her. And I remember once watching an Anthony Bourdain documentary on Japan that there is apparently some genre of manga or illustration of tentacle porn. And I remembered this when I discovered what happened to Erza.

That was the moment I really opened my eyes. I think Hiro Mashima sexualized torture.

Women have whatever opinions or feelings on how women are depicted in media and their thoughts on feminism. At the time I discovered this, I thought as a woman I was disgracing what pride or self respect I had. I shouldn’t read or support something that a person created that’s demeaning to women, and sexualizes them. Not only that, but this is a shōnen manga. Women and girl teens can enjoy it, but this manga is aimed at male teenagers. These teens shouldn’t be taught it’s okay to sexualize women like this, or see what’s going on is okay. I mean sure in Fairy Tail it was shown wrong, but I don’t think the writing did a good job on showing the everlasting effects the torture did on Erza. Also, maybe it’s different in Japan, but in the US, young men or male teens can interpret this wrong. Also as a woman I am disgusted. But those are my thoughts, you can have your own opinion.

So for some weeks I dropped the manga as I felt it was my duty as a women. Which today I think it shouldn’t really be a duty. It just depends on how it affects you. And maybe it didn’t affect me as much as it did to others because I was still REALLY curious on how the story ended. Because that’s what really kept me going.

I liked some of the art, and I also wanted to know what would happen to the characters. Would Lucy and Nastu end up together? Or would the become very close best friends? Would Gray have a moment telling Juvia his feeling towards her or no? How will the story end? But I think I mostly held out because I still had hope that maybe, somehow, Hiroshima would turn around and start writing well and actually give accurate character development to he characters. It also helped me realize I really like character development.

The manga taught me on what not to do when writing or drawing a story. Because there was so many ways I thought on how he could make some good out of the last arc, or how he could’ve written it, or ideas on using the logic of the manga and it’s magic he could somehow make a somewhat well written or at least good ending.

But he necessarily didn’t.

In the end Nastu was the one to KO the evil dragon guy and not all the dragon slayers. Lucy and the rest of the group had there moment, but it was mostly support. Also, the manga made it seem like one day Lucy would end up with all the celestial keys and become a powerful wizard. BUT IT DIDN’T HAPPEN (I guess it’s my fault for hyping up myself).

Back to the topic, I finally decided to read the last chapter to stop making myself curious and just finish what had helped me out all the way in middle school. I felt bad and disappointed in myself since I failed my duty as a woman, but eventually I got over it. I also see how it shouldn’t really be a duty.

So when I read the last chapter after my break I finally saw... how bad the manga is.

There were a lot of things tied up sure, but maybe it would’ve been better if there was a longer time skip and Levy and Gajeel were a bit more older and had children. But it’s fine if that’s what they decided. But another thing is how Mavis and Zeref got reincarnated and Mavis was still in a little girl’s body! Let the lady age man! Let her finally be an adult. Not only that but it made me realize how creepy it was for Zeref and Mavis to have a kid. I mean sure she was an adult stuck in a kid body but maybe Hiroshima could’ve said that they combined their magic to make a child but... that’s not what happened. Also Gray shouldn’t say Juvia’s body is his. People aren’t property, and that is not how love works.

This was also the last chance for Lucy and Nastu’s relationship to finally show how deep it is. And I’m not saying anything shippy. It can just be deep best friend stuff. But when Lucy got emotional, you know what Nastu did? He just stayed in character and basically said “it doesn’t matter since we are always together!” The thing is, it does matter. Best friends who have been together in times near death should talk and be emotional and comfortable Around each other to talk about each other’s feelings. How did they feel fearing the other one possibly died in the war? And I know it’s Natsu’s character to not be too deep but, every person is deep. They are deep in something, at least slightly. Natsu just stayed as a 2 dimensional character and dissed on Lucy’s feelings. 

So you are probably wondering after reading all my feelings why I have brought you here. I just wanted to ask some questions and see how you feel about all this. Did anyone ever ask if Hiro Mashima thought he was sexualizing women too much? Or did anyone tell him what he draws and writes might be offensive too some or many? Did he ever apologize for anything he might’ve done and has done wrong? Did fans ever ask or confront him about this?

And how do you, as a former Fairy Tail reader, feel about all this?

So yeah, that’s really what I wanted to ask for this post. It’s always been in the back of my mind how things didn’t end well with this series for me. A part of me always wanted to rewrite or redraw it, like a reboot kinda, but you shouldn’t change the original source. You aren’t really fixing the problems it has. It’s just I loved all these characters so much and I saw how it could change and make things better. But that wouldn’t change the situation in reality. I also am now wondering if it’s because I live in the US that I feel differently than some women may feel in Japan and if it’s more of a cultural difference.

So I guess I just wanted to ask if I’m missing something or don’t have enough information on stuff, and how you feel about all this. Anyways, thank you for reading. Have a nice day.

Good bye!

P.S. I remember that there was a spin off series called Fairy Girls. It was focused on obviously the main female characters. It was nice and gave them moments to shine, kick butt, and actually do stuff. I don’t recall it being as fanservice-y as Fairy Tail. So if you still like Fairy Tail despite all its flaws I recommend reading it.

[msalexiscriss]

My girlfriend just sent me an old article about the use of the word f** or f***ot and I would like to share it with you guys as a way to give closure to what happened yesterday with Dom during Matt’s takeover.

I know he apologized and addressed the problem, for some of you that may be enough, but for me it isn’t. I think he still needs to be educated and, by extension, all his fans, who since yesterday, have tried again and again to defend him saying things like, “it’s just a word,” “friends call each other names all the time,” “people make mistakes.”

Yes, people make mistakes, friends call each other names all the time, but none of that is an excuse for his behavior. I know that technically speaking f** is just a word, but what Dom and his fans need to understand is that the word itself isn’t the problem, it’s the implication behind it. So I really hope that this little text help you all to better understand its meaning and why many of us took what he said on a personal level.

The article is under the cut because some words aren't censored and I don’t want to trigger anyone. Also, after this, know that I won’t talk about him ever again, if for some reason he is in a picture or scene that I really, really, really want to reblog, I’ll tag him accordingly, but as of this day, this a Dom-free blog. It already was, but now I can be vocal about it.

Anyway...read, learn and try to be a better version of yourself every day.

Much love, Alexis.

An Open Letter to People Who Still Use ‘Faggot’ as an Insult (by Casey Cavanagh)

I understand that terms like “fag” and “gay” are often used in a “joking” manner. When you use them, you probably don’t do so maliciously — and certainly not in a way to purposely offend or insult homosexuals. You, like many, may use the words without even thinking twice about it. Sometimes it just slips — it’s an easy, long since accessible insult. It’s almost a habit, right? Well, even if this is the case, it doesn’t make it okay.

First of all, let’s start with the obvious fact that “gay” often doesn’t even make sense in most contexts in which it is used to describe something or someone. Take for example when you are hanging around with your friends and you say something along the lines of, “Why won’t you come out tonight? Stop being gay.” There is nothing gay about staying in. You mean stop being lazy? Anti-social? Lame? Is there really no better adjective you can find in your brain to use — one that is not only more politically correct but also more accurate for the point you’re trying to make?

Justifying your use of these words by saying “I didn’t mean it offensively,” doesn’t make it okay. Not only does it show ignorance, but it also shows a concerning lack of intellect. Yes, context is important.

But it’s the implication behind it that is the problem.

If you are calling someone a faggot or gay, you are still using the term in a condescending, demeaning and often insulting manner. You never say, “This new guy I am dating is so fun and sweet! He always acts like such a faggot.”

“But it’s just a word!” Some people argue that by rejecting the word you could potentially give it more power, making it taboo or more controversial, and that they choose to use it as a means of “reclaiming” it. I am not suggesting you ban these words from your vocabulary; I am suggesting you don’t use them if you are doing so with the intent to insult.

You don’t get to impose your own meaning on words and use them on, or against, other people... at least not while holding the ignorant belief it will go without ridicule — that the context you’re using it in is excusable. You can’t reclaim something without a thorough understanding of where it came from and the problem surrounding it. And the fact that you use it so carelessly leads me to assume you don’t have that thorough understanding.

To you, it may be “just a word.” If so, you are fortunate. A lot more fortunate than others who have a lot of pain and suffering tied to it. Sure, it’s not a big deal to everyone, but just because it doesn’t affect some people doesn’t mean it isn’t your obligation to care about who it may — and why.

The best depiction of the problem with this word, and one that forever changed the way I view it, was a scene from comedian Louis C.K.’s show, Louie. The particular scene is of him and his friends playing poker, poking fun at their gay friend, and asking a number of questions about “gay things.”

Louie asked him if he thought he shouldn’t be using the word “fag” on stage during his routines. His friend responded by saying:

“I think you should use whatever words you want. When you use it on stage, I can see it’s funny, and I don’t care. But are you interested in what it might mean to gay men? Well, the word ‘faggot’ really means a bundle of sticks used for kindling in a fire. Now, in the middle ages, when they used to burn people they thought were witches, but they used to burn homosexuals, too. And, they used to burn the witches at a stake, but they thought the homosexuals were too low and disgusting to be given a stake to be burnt on, so they used to just throw them in with the kindling, with the other faggots. So that’s how you get ‘flaming faggot.’

“...You might wanna know that every gay man in America has probably had that word shouted at them while they’re being beaten up, sometimes many times, sometimes by a lot of people all at once. So, when you say it, it kind of brings that all back up. But, you know, by all means, use it. Get your laughs. But, you know, now you know what it means.”

Be responsible. Hold yourself accountable. Pay attention to the words you use, the way you articulate yourself, and be aware of how the things you say may affect people around you. At the very least, take the time to understand the origin of a controversial term you use and the meaning it has for other people in our society before deciding not only whether or not you have the right to say it, but what feeling entitled to do so says about you.

You may not be homophobic. But saying you are “just joking” or only saying it to people who aren’t gay doesn’t absolve you of blame. You may not be able to solve the issue of homophobia in our society. But what you can do is make sure you aren’t — consciously or not — contributing to it.

Link to the original article: https://www.huffingtonpost.com/casey-cavanagh/an-open-letter-to-people-_b_8011324.html

[freedom-of-fanfic]

okay so i want to say, that yes i'm an anti, but like i get that ao3 allows the works and i'm completely fine with that, ao3 was made to not censor the fans, and that's what shippers are using it for and i'm grateful for that. Just, some shippers have the other same mindset as me, if it's a minor ship, you don't tag it because the "relationship" tag is for the Main Ship, (like why go in the k/ance ship tag to find it as a side ship). And a ship does trigger me (i was the "k/eth" in the (1/2)

(2/2) “sh/eth” equation, but Not In A Good Way), but sometimes it’s a Gen fic, tagged as such, with side sh/eth. like it’s minor, maybe a few lines, but its still triggering. So, my question is, that even though it’s Fandom Common Curtesy not to tag minor ships in a fanfic, should age difference ships with a minor (such as sh/eth for example) be tagged, no matter if implied/a few lines in the fanfic?

What I mean about "i'm grateful for that" - i'm grateful that ao3 lets the shippers be uncensored. sorry fi that bit was comfusing i'm half asleep rn and trying to convey all my feelings before i forget them so the message was probably all mushed up i'm sorry - the anon with the two part message about tagging minor ships (minor as in not The Main Ship/Focus of the fanfic)

you’re fine. and listen: disliking, even hating, ships doesn’t make you what I call an ‘anti’. even hating ships on moral grounds doesn’t make you an ‘anti’. It’s actively setting out to create an environment that’s hostile to shippers of the ship you hate - by harassment, abuse, ‘vent’ posts in public spaces intended to be spread around, etc - or encouraging that behavior that makes you an ‘anti’. (at least when I talk about anti-shipping this is the behavior I’m talking about.)

In my opinion, you are ‘a person who has a NOTP’. (and there’s nothing wrong with that.) I wish there was a way to distinguish but these days I’m not sure how you’d express ‘I loathe this ship but you do you’ differently.

anyway.

You’ve hit on a problem that AO3 has had since forever. some people tag every ship, even if it has one line of mention - but that can be frustrating for people who are looking for fics about a pairing that is often ‘on the side’ of another pairing. Other people don’t tag anything but the main ship - but that can be upsetting for people who encounter surprise NOTP in the background of an otherwise enjoyable fic.

I’d love to see AO3 come up with a solution for this by offering the option to designate a ‘main’ pairing, allowing people to tag all the ships that show up but still indicate which pairing(s) is/are getting attention in the story. (I understand this may be difficult to code.) But in the meantime, what do?

My suggested stop-gap would be to do the following:

tag only pairings that get significant amounts of attention in the fic.

in the summary or in an author’s note at the beginning of the fic, list the ‘side’ pairings that get a story mention.

This would allow people with NOTPs to avoid their notp when it appears as a side pairing, while people who are looking for fics about a pairing don’t encounter a million fics where their ship is only mentioned on the side.

If anyone else has any ideas for possible solutions, please do share in a reblog!

[ventidrama]

I have spell check on but you should try typing on an iphone 4 with farsighted eye issues. It's hard :(. But anyways i censor v*sh for the comfort of some of my mutuals who want it tagged and im kind of conditioned to typing it that way so i just leave it ren though i don't have to but at the same time my mutuals also read this blog so i don't want to trigger them. I don't know why my mutuals are pussies but whatever

oh my fucking god please tell me who are these mutuals i am losing my mind how can the name vash trigger you. its 2018 can we stop making a joke out of triggers and ptsd. - mod ryu