#anyways this was my grieving process was making this

[sapphosclown]

you’re the greatest thing we’ve lost

You’re Gonna Go Far by Noah Kahan

[grimfantas]

you can call me heartless all you'd like, but it won't bring her back and it won't help you heal.

[catgirlreisuwa]

While I understand that people are disappointed about the backstory re: Kazuki’s wife and blame the writing for making her yet another bland, soulless side character who fades into the background without leaving so much as a strong imprint on us, the audience, I have been thinking about it and even though it can be because of poor writing, falling into clichés that make the story progress easily without delving too much into things… I can also see why Karin described her sister as “happy” and “she loved flowers”. At the end of the day, when we experience loss, all that remains are the memories we have of that person. If we do not move on, or until we move on, like Kazuki, those memories will be rooted in grief. And, don’t get me wrong, the grief will always be there! But with time and conscious effort, it will get easier. Karin has moved on, and she remembers her sister the way someone who wishes to be happy without her does.

At the end of the day, isn’t those things the sort of things people say during wakes and funerals? She was always so happy and full of life. She loved flowers and long walks on the beach. She lived for her family and friends. She was always nice to people. Sure, they’re things people say about those who are no longer with us, that do not really have much depth to it. I’m not denying the lack of profoundness in those statements. But, at the end of the day, it’s the trivial, menial things that get said about those who left us. And I think it’s important to remember that.

[talentforlying]

i've got stuff to do tonight but i am thinking about how it absolutely fucking pains me to see the joy and energy and love of living sapped from constantine's spirit over the initial run of hellblazer. like he goes from this spirited, wisecracking, life-loving, bully-punching, fastidious little guy to a man so disintegrated by decades of grief and being used and never being good enough for anyone that he was willing to be buried alive to serve a cause he didn't even care about. thank god they gave him back some friendly connections and some semblance of hope by the end of "red right hand", because that late-hellblazer constantine was utterly unrecognizable and it broke my heart.

[canonkiller]

I can only really draw on an iPad right now because of the vision problems, but let me be entirely clear: I hate everything I draw on it and loathe the entire process of doing so. this is a device whose intended audience is people who build their existence around looking minimalist on instagram and I can feel it in every single line. the art I make on it isn't mine; it's a commodity at best. I miss it.

[coffincoitus]

every time someone (or even myself) jokes about the "it's not dead it just went to live at the farm<3" classic lie, I remember the time when I was a kid and my family hid the fact that my grandfather had died for like a whole month by saying he was at the hospital recuperating 😭

[dallonwrites]

beau is sooo messy i'm obsessed with him. him being happy to see felix seemingly flourishing and being more confident etc but also feeling weird and almost jealous at the fact that it used to be just him that got to see felix that way. that he used to be the only reason for it. and like he KNOWS that's a messy and kind of fucked up way to think about it but he also knows he's in a really weird spot emotionally and can't help it

[nebulouscoffee]

Friends I crave distraction. Please feel free to send me random Star Trek asks - about the shows, the characters, hot takes, theories, your fics, my fics, someone else's fics- anything is fine, I would very much welcome it

[hecckyeah]

in case you’re wondering why the most insane star wars blog in town is so quiet on star wars day. 👇

[pathologising]

I feel slightly sad as I rely less on my alters for survival I know it's because we are not in as traumatic a situation as we used to be and I don't need to escape or black out but it's sad because they have been my best friends (most of them) my entire life so a part of me misses their frequency but I know it's just part of healing

[charlottedabookworm]

#9 - Fair

feat Rihnn

still struggling, still way too humid here, have to drive myself to my induction for work tomorrow and i'm stressed about it. i may possibly be taking it out on rihnn

It is a fair morning when xir entire world shatters.

Z'rihnn wakes and the room is empty. Xir friends are not crowded around xir bed, battle scorched and worn, and there is no sign of their presence. Beyond the door there is a bustle of a busy hospital, the background murmuring of dozens of people. The air, even so far away from the battlefield, is heavy with smoke.

Xe swallows.

They're alright, xe tells xemself. It would take more than a dragon to defeat them, they're alright.

Even within xir own mind, it sounds like a lie.

Behind the closed lids of xir eyes xe can xe the flames of the night before. Xe can remember the screams as Bahamut had broken free, the rubble that had shaken the earth and-

"Excuse me," Rihnn calls out, trying to gain the attention of whoever is past xir door. They will be busy, xe knows, but surely they can tell xem-

The chirurgeons will know if they are here.

Beyond the door, the bustle and murmuring continues uninterrupted.

"Excuse me!"

"Did you see them?" Someone asks from past the door, their voice hushed. "The heroes?"

Heroes? Xe startles, heart pounding a drum against xir chest. "Please-!" Xe calls out.

"Didn't everyone?" They continue without seeming to notice xir interruptions and xe frowns. "Do you remember their names? I try to think of them but I only see blank faces."

"Mere silouettes," the first person replies. "It is like grasping at mist."

Why can they not hear xem?

Rihnn opens xir mouth to shout and-

"Still, even if we do not know their names, we will honour their sacrifice."

It is a fair morning when xir entire world shatters.

[fexicoded]

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[0tul1ss]

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[marklikely]

hey you know what's kinda fucked up is when you do the whole "massive shared universe with dozens of ocs and complex storylines" thing with another person and then the other person fucking dies and youre like great! now what do i do with all this inside my brain.

[loumauve]

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[not-another-robin]

Guess who's gonna be way way too earnest with a self insert again