#art doesn't die. or do cocaine

[fireworkss-exe]

I WOULD HAVE DONE TONS OF COCAINE WITH YOU, AND KEPT YOU ALIVE FOREVER.

[thursdayschild76]

"I’m Thinking That It Must Be Love"

198*: Love at first sight. About thirty years later: A two Soulmates conversation.

Remembering the eternal David Bowie. January 10th, 2016.

"Apparently, we get lost between conversations even before we see each other: yesterday you didn't tell me about Bowie thing anymore!"

"F*ck! Since today I've been thinking the exact same thing! Proving that we are the absolute masters of digression, we then got lost in a thousand other conversations! Well. Since David Bowie is your "religious orientation", I will now tell you how it became mine"

"It’s not the side-effects of the cocaine, I’m thinking that it must be love" ... directly from "Station to Station!"

"Oh my God! I die for this song! I love it, not only for the lyrics and the music, but also for the love it gave birth to!"

"Oh... Tell me!"

"Well. And when I start like this, you’re finished!"

"Hey! That's all I'm waiting for!"

"Well. Let me start by saying that I already knew David Bowie, but more as an actor than as a singer. Just think that, at the time, I didn't even know that it was him who sang the famous "Let's Dance". I think I was about twelve years old, because was in the middle school. One day, an amazing teacher came to my school for a drug addiction prevention project. The teacher told us about a German little girl who, years earlier, had become a heroin addict at almost our age, and he strongly recommended reading her book. But fate would have it that, in those days, the movie was broadcast on TV and I rushed to watch it. I still remember the beginning... "Piss and shit everywhere!" and Christiane getting a tattoo on her hand. Well. Since I'm already digress, because I have a billion things to say on the movie and the book too, I'll skip straight to David Bowie!"

“You know, the first book I bought in my life was “Christiane F. we kids from Berlin Zoo”. Then I watched the movie, again and again”

"Oh my God! It's incredibile... "

"Yes... we're talking about a book and movie that are very, very important to me. Continued!"

"Then, comes the scene when Christiane goes to Bowie's concert with her toxic friend. I was already all excited because I had just listened "Heroes", in that memorable scene where Christiane, Detlef and their friends run like crazy in the deserted Europa Center, laughing and doing a thousand stupid things! The scene ends with Christiane and Detlef together on the terrace, watching the sunrise. Unforgettable! "Heroes" had driven me crazy, but it was still nothing compared to the shock I had afterwards!"

"Sure, I guess! Continued!"

"Now imagine: about 198* - 198*, I was already listening a lot of the music that you and me love, but also a lot, a lot... metal! Forgive me, I know you hate it! 80s hair and glam metal too! Big hair, heavy makeup, motorcycles, spectacular shows, strippers, and various exaggerations! WELL. In the growing emotion before the start of the concert, suddenly the lights opens and HE arrives, with his red jacket!"

"Eh... "

"And what does he do? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Just his entrance and presence on stage is enough to hypnotize the audience. Gently touch the microphone and start singing. It almost doesn't move! Sublime!"

"Immense charm... you said well, very, very well. It's the same effect it had on me! I swear. The same..."

"Station to Station"… all Bowie's songs are masterpieces, but this is the favourite, because it introduced me to Bowie's immense and genial universe and made me fall in love with his art"

"The elegance, the mangnetism is had, was inexplicable!"

Even today it's not the side-effects of the cocaine, I'm sure it's True Love.

[sobremesavpetrichor]

Regulus Black headcanon

if he wasn't sorted to slytherin he would definitely be a ravenclaw

11 year old regulus is probably smarter than every seventh year (can and will beat you up)

is a chaotic dumbass bastard

smokes on a daily basis but only like, 3 people knew

caught a snitch in less than a minute once??? mf just break a record

the true slytherin ride or die

knows it's a bad fucken idea but doing it anyway

"so you're telling me we have a test in 3 hours in which i haven't study at all but you wanna sneak into hogsmeade? absolutely, let's go"

is the only person in history to ever got an O AND a T in McGonagall's transfiguration test

somehow still manage to be the top of the class

sirius' first ride or die soulmate

long fringe and its v v v pretty

just imagine,,, he's playing quidditch and his hair was held by bobby pins

while sirius' are steel grey, regulus' eyes are mercury

study dark arts bc its fascinating to him but doesn't want to practice it

emotional range of a brick

but also compassionate and understanding

probably do cocaine once or twice

long slender legs he could strangle me w his legs and I'd thank him

nails are on point bitch look like he live in a nail salon

has the urge to laugh in inappropriate times

his silk robes collection could feed the whole hogwarts

bff w evan and barty

speaks like 7 languages

sarcastic and savage

but also chill and laidback

can play violin (viola???), cello, and piano

angelic voice but doesn't sing that much

it's easier to name a thing he CAN'T do rather than a thing he can do

regulus?? not knowing things?? impossible

Hogwarts uniform who?? i just know a soft yellow knitted cardigan i stole from evan

can do roundoff back tuck

spilled vanilla milkshake all over sirius' lap once and then walburga walks in and thought sirius jacked off

"I'M SO SICK OF STUDYING jk i don't wanna sleep on the street"

drink his respect women juice

master duellist

THE og bamf. baddest bitch on the block. sirius kneels before him

soft-spoken. is an actual softie

i like timothee chalamet as his fancast bUT HAVE U SEEN TIMMY + ARON PIPER???

yep that's regulus

okay i have to sleep so feel free to add more!

[riflewounds]

[ last update : 23 Jan '22 ]

Hm.

Never really introduced my characters here.

I have a big-ass character doc which lives here:

But here's some quick character profiles, condensed into a few sentences. Wall of text incoming.

Norman Corey - the character you've been seeing here a lot (including in my icon), main whumpee, but also a caretaker and whumper. Essentially a swiss army knife character. Also ex-military, high-grade mess, can barely function and just wants to be held and feel okay for once. Blackmailed into working for some shady government organization. Hasn't managed to die yet, despite his best efforts. Consistently fails at keeping any sort of intimate relationship, but he's trying. Relies on alcohol, cigarettes, gummy vitamins and Gatorade to survive. Has a bit of an issue with blackjack. Easily bribed with Skittles and a poncho liner. Believes (Assorted) Charms are cursed. War criminal (allegedly. well, spoilers, not so allegedly).

Mike Rivera - bartender, enables Norman's alcoholism and generally provides respite when shit hits the fan. Owns and runs an entire dive bar, often jokingly called The Rat's Den. Has ties to organized crime, probably involved in some drug business (specifically cocaine, keeps several bricks in the bar's storage area). Bit of an asshole. Scared he'll kill someone on accident. The dependable friend. Had a band with Norman many years ago.

Lena Schwarz - art student, mostly clueless, jokingly says she should've studied physiotherapy instead because of her massage skills (well that sounded wrong... anyway). Vaguely interested in Norman (while he's debating with himself whether or not he should try another relationship.)

Ira Briggs - helicopter pilot, essentially a glorified truck driver. Operates in Alaska. Can't drive. Not exactly friendly or approachable, yet tries his best to be nice. Afraid of bears. Reckless anytime and everywhere, except when he's flying, then there's no time for mistakes. Caretaker.

Alexander Wolf - originally from Czechoslovakia, emigrated just after the Velvet revolution in 1989 (if he didn't, he would've been jailed because of his affiliations). Ex-ŠtB, currently working for a very shady government agency that may or may not be some branch of the CIA. Scary, cold, needs complete control of a situation. Frequently manipulates people. Has... stalkerish tendencies, it's work-related. Has no qualms about removing people who stand in his way. Has an uncanny ability to blend in with any crowd, while also making his presence known. It's hard to explain, sorry.

Mason - the quiet kid doing whatever Alex needs him to do. Doesn't exactly obey orders, frequently deviates from instructions to do things how he sees fit. Alexander doesn't care about the means, only about the result. Walks very quietly, to the point he's hard to spot if you're not aware of him.

Rafale Dragunov - cheery kid straight out of high school, excellent marksman, and unlike Norman, he's actually paid by the mentioned shady govt agency. Naive and sort of ignorant, unaware of the dangers lurking around him. Whumpee, barely capable caretaker.

The Sokolov brothers, Grisha and Artyom - ah yes, the two russians. Grozny vets, had their fair share of fights when they were young, especially Grisha, who has somehow managed to whoop most of a small youth gang because they sent Artyom to hospital. Grisha is very protective of his brother, while Artyom is just a being of pure rage, but that's masked by his cheeriness and generosity. Grisha is a warrior poet. Artyom... well who the fuck knows, I think he can sing.

Avis de Falco - hardass lady fighter pilot, initially called Wedge, later called Valkyrie (the first nickname is pretty much derogatory, it changed after her nearly impossible feat which saved a lot of lives that day). Knows several languages, but not particularly well.

Jack - oh boy. Norman's recurring hallucination. Don't ask. Or, you know, go read the character doc linked above. Too spicy for tumblr. Name borrowed from Norman's poison of choice.

Jameson - another of Norman's hallucinations, this one is actually kinda nice and helpful. Balances out Jack. Continues the trend of naming recurring humanoid hallucinations after liquor.

Elbrus - a deus ex machina, essentially the reason Norman cannot die. Bound to him by blood. Keeps him alive because it studies human suffering, usually appears when there's significant risk its subject may die. Managed to keep Norm alive through a bad case of acute radiation sickness. Weird, I know.

Wothdan- bound to Mason. Trades knowledge and wisdom. Same species as Elbrus, may be distant relatives.

Soryuu - hasn't appeared anywhere yet. Half-dragon whumpee, glows when angry. Has minor illusion powers, mainly for self-entertainment. May be able to shift into a full dragon if desperate enough. Was captured for almost a century, now he's enjoying his freedom. Pescatarian. Allergic to soy.

Durant - wip. Another Swiss army knife character. Used exclusively for roleplay, but I've written a few things to flesh out his character.

Welp, that's all of them. Sorry for the lack of pictures, they're in the linked doc. Along with a terrifying number of moodboards.

Hope you enjoyed this crash-course in Moose's Terrible Fictional People :)

[givemewritingorgivemedeath]

An Analysis Series Pt. 2: Dancing with the Devil... The Art of Starting Over: Prelude

**TRIGGER WARNING**

This post contains language depicting addiction, drug use, trauma, sexual abuse, and rape which may be triggering for some. Please feel free to skip.

I have decided to do a reaction and slight analysis of Demi Lovato's new album Dancing with the Devil... The Art of Starting Over. It was released on April 2nd at midnight.

I will be doing the Prelude (first 3 songs) in this post. Then I will likely do The Start of Starting Over 4 songs at a time. This will be to avoid overly long posts. For some background on Demi Lovato or for a quick analysis of her Dancing with the Devil music video, you can read the first part of this series.

Dancing with the Devil... The Art of Starting Over (Prelude)

Track 1: Anyone

While Demi wrote "Anyone" before her overdose, she mentions in her docuseries that, ironically, this song describes exactly what she was feeling when she was in the hospital AFTER her overdose in July of 2018.

For me, this is almost the sequel to "Sober" released in April 2018. In "Sober", Demi admits that she is no longer sober and has been drinking alcohol; she mentions that it is becoming a problem and that she will be getting help. However, we know this didn't go to plan. In fact, after the song's release, Demi began singing "Sober" on the "Tell Me You Love Me" tour that she was on prior to the overdose. Days before her overdose, Demi "forgot" the last words of the song during a show, including "I promise I'll get help"; her docuseries alludes to the idea that she didn't forget, but was in a dark place and wasn't sure if she would be getting help from her addiction.

"Anyone" describes the state of mind that led to her relapse. She feels totally alone; she is desperate and needs help from a higher power, but she feels even God has abandoned her - "So why the fuck am I praying anyway?". She doesn't feel like she has any control of her life - "Nobody's listening to me". Demi is miserable (for many reasons discussed in the album and docuseries.) She also discusses how she used to crave everyone's attention, but she realized that what she was looking for is affection. Looking for attention only made her feel worse about herself, whether the attention is positive or negative. As she goes on press junkets about recovery and happiness, she is the most miserable she has ever been - "I feel stupid when I sing". During a show on her "Tell Me You Love Me Tour" (different from the one discussed earlier), you can hear Demi getting choked up about how important it is to live your truth and get help if you need it. At the time, the audience did not know she was no longer sober. At a show closer to the time of the overdose, Demi mentions that she no longer wants to talk about mental health during the show. While she justifies by saying that she has done it way too much, her docuseries mentions that she felt like a hypocrite preaching through a crowd about this while she was spiraling and unhappy.

She continues: Demi tries to wish on stars and pray to God to help her with this moment, but she doesn't seem to find the strength anywhere...

Track 2: Dancing with the Devil

This song, while describing the day of the overdose and how she felt, is in the perspective of the person that survived the overdose and is recounting the events. This is unlike "Anyone", which is in the perspective of before or during the overdose and is just describing her current feelings.

Verse and Chorus 1:

"Dancing with the Devil" starts with her mentioning that she started drinking, saying that if she only drinks a little, she will be okay. She didn't actually believe this, but she used this to justify her drinking because she thought that maybe she could control herself. We know from the docuseries that Demi relapsed on her sobriety because she didn't know why she was sober anymore given how miserable she still was even without the drugs. She did not mention her drug use to friends, but she did tell them that she would only do light drinking; she said she wanted to try what other people her age did, especially since she had yet to turn 21 before she got sober in 2012. We know now that she picked up the bottle and pills because she was dealing with emotional pain, not because she wanted to have a little fun; the push to drink is a big indicator of how things may turn out, especially for someone with a history of addiction.

Demi continues to try to convince others: "not like I want to do this every night." She justifies starting to drink again by saying that she's been good for 6 years and has earned the chance to have one glass of red wine. "Feels like it's worth it in my mind" could be describing that she thinks that some alcohol is worth it given what she's been going through emotionally (and physically with her eating disorder). We are explicitly told that all this is BS, and she KNOWS that it is when she says "I told you I was okay, but I was lying." She knows that this coping habit is the enemy and that she is gambling with her life and the health of her soul by falling into her addictions.

Verse and Chorus 2:

Demi begins to sing about drugs here instead of just alcohol. While verse 1 seems to be her convincing the people around her that the end of her sobriety is okay, this verse finds her trying to convince herself. We know this because her friends did not know that she was doing any kind of hard drugs during the months leading up to the overdose. She mentions how one "white line" can quickly turn into smoking a glass pipe. This verse also gives us a look at the types of drugs she is using: "tinfoil" can be used for drugs like heroin and methamphetamines. We also know from "white line" and "glass pipe" that she could also be using cocaine. Demi admits in her docuseries that she used crack-cocaine, heroin, and more during this period.

Demi continues by saying that doing these drugs already almost got the best of her. This is not the first time she thought she was going to die from doing too many drugs; Demi has come out to say that she was surprised she did not overdose the first night she relapsed after mixing drugs that she had never even done before. It is common for addicts to turn to even heavier drugs after relapse from sobriety. In the song, she says she hopes she doesn't reach the end of her life but continues doing drugs in her "twisted reality, hopeless insanity". The chorus has even more meaning after this verse: "It's so hard to say "No"" to drugs for a former addict trying to just do a "little".

Ending:

Demi mentions how she truly thought she was going to be able to stop once she started if she wanted to without getting carried away, but she knows that she is wrong and in trouble. She, again, mentions God. But this time, instead of wondering why she should even pray to Him for help, she apologizes to Him for giving in to her addictions again. Once again, she prays that he will help her find "better days" without the pain that brought her TO her drugs and the pain brought BY the drugs. She sings one final chorus, ending on and emphasizing that she is still struggling with her addiction: "It's so hard to say 'no' when you're dancing with the devil."

Track 3: ICU (Madison's Lullabye)

This track gives me so many emotions. Demi dedicated to her baby sister as a promise that she will always be there for her. It is in the perspective of Demi when she woke up in the ICU following the overdose. She heard someone calling out to her but didn't know who it was, not even recognizing the voice. Doctors realized that Demi was legally blind after suffering from 3 strokes caused by the overdose, and she wasn't able to see her little sister Madison sitting at the side of her hospital bed. For a little background, back when Demi went to rehab the first time when she was 18 years old, she was told that she would not be able to see Madison if she didn't get herself together. It ironically came full circle: she did not stop doing drugs and ended up literally unable to see her sister.

Verse 1 and Chorus:

The song starts with Demi saying that she never wanted Madison to "watch [her] fall from grace" or relapse and overdose again. "Fall from Grace" normally refers to losing admiration and respect for someone; this is the last thing Demi wants. Demi always wanted to be better for her sister; Madison says that even with all the things Demi has been through, Demi is her role model and hero. Still, Demi's lyrics mention that she wants Madison to be able to look up to her and make sure that Madison doesn't fall into the same patterns of addiction that she did. She also wants Madison to know that she wants to be by her side and be her support no matter what, even though she struggles with being a "good big sister".

The chorus begins, and you hear Demi's promise to Madison explicitly:

Tuck your hair behind your ear Until you fall asleep I'll say a prayer and keep you near You're always here with me I promise, I'll be there, don't worry

Demi mentions that Madison is always there for her, so she intends to do the same. She continues saying that she "was blind" but now she can see clearly. This is both her saying that she was wrong to make the choices that she made and that she lost her vision. She follows that up by saying "but now I see clearly, I see you." This could allude to the fact that Demi has regained her vision, though she still has blind spots. It could also mean that she recognizes where she failed and how clearly she can see how much her sister means to her and how amazing she is/how much she is to lose. The "I see you" is also, obviously, a play on ICU (or intensive care unit, the hospital unit Demi was in after the overdose.)

Verse 2, Chorus 2, and Outro:

This begins with Demi saying that although she sees herself in Madison, she knows that Madison is strong enough to not fall into Demi's destructive patterns. She believes that not only can Madison "overcome anything in [her] way" and "change the world", but she can continue to give Demi strength. She begins her promise/chorus again after telling her that Madison will always be her baby sister.

"ICU (Madison's Lullabye)" ends with Madison telling her big sister "I love you, Demi". We hear Demi respond: "I love you, too". And then in the remix, you can hear my sobbing and crying into the ether because I am so fucking emotional right now.

Side note: the Visualizer for this song is beautiful. It contains blurry and double-vision-like images of the ICU, brain images, and more, representing Demi's damaged vision following the strokes.