#as far as im concerned the video confirms it. like for most of it it's just think ppl

[eightw]

that dumb victoria secret song has way too much hype. “body positivity” anthem, sure, if you’re a thin woman who needs to be told she isn’t fat

[darlingpwease]

as per bastardly thoughts, i really want to see how yuuta would react to his current beloved, no matter how significant their prowess in strength and skill is, succumbing to their end far too prematurely. im not too sure how irrelevant this is to the topic of my drafts but i love me some good ole' angst... would he end up with a rika 2.0? find out more at 5! now, a word from our sponsors; raaaaid shadow lege--

BWAH sorry-

you know what? I knew you had sadistic tendencies. I approve of that.

DISCLAIMER. I promised that I wouldn't let Yuuta suffer, but all the witnesses: it wasn't me who proposed this idea, I'm just a gear in this system that performs its functions.

you and me

... are drowning in love

content warnings: slowburn between me and the main idea. my unrequited love to stop being sentimental. not a detailed mention of death. unhealthy relationship. mutual obsessiveness. mild interspecies relationship.

overpowered!reader implied. cursed spirit!reader (or dead!reader).

The poor boy is too dependent on others, too sensitive, as if his skin disappears whenever it concerns his loved ones. The reason for his stress — according to the fanbook — is 'being unable to meet his classmates'; literally after you accept his awkward chaotic confession (or catch him using your clothes), Yuuta sticks to your hip, even if he doesn't know at all what to do with these overwhelming feelings.

He just loves you so much that doesn't know what he can do with his feelings — which are so many that he suffocates from the pressure. It was completely different than before — it feels strange; so unusual and frightening to have someone you've been dreaming about next to you, as if you really love him and want him, considering him good enough and cute.

He's not one of the desperate ones- a blatant lie, he's one of those; you give him an extra hint of what you want, and he wags his tail when he brings it to you. He's a good boy, right? So longing for human warmth and love that if Yuuta had the confidence that you want the same, he would not leave you for a minute, no matter what sacrifices he would have to make.

... Not that your relationship is still stable, though. His wild thirst, unaccustomed and hungry for attention and love, and his timid sweet desire to curl up — jumps around you, trying to explain to you what he wants, but can't even find relatively similar words, as if his head is empty. There are many attempts to touch and predict where Yuuta can ask, and where it is better for him to shut up and swallow his desires, even if you try to convince him that you will listen to everything, he simply cannot ask for something for himself, fearing that it will push you away. Wasn't it his lack of selfishness that attracted you?

As soon as he stops being like that, you'll... push him away, right?

It's okay, you don't have to treat it that way, he understands — you love him for something, don't you? He just wants to keep this love, you are too perfect for him, definitely "out of his league" — definitely a lot of problems and attempts to contact in the most comfortable way before Yuuta can relax and accept your love as something natural that he does not need to constantly confirm. Just assume that you can love him in the same way that he loves you.

Surely this will be the second year of study — the time when you have already got used to each other enough and will behave like an old married couple; enough time has already passed to discuss, get under each other's skin and wander around compromises — his phone is obscenely full of your photos and joint videos, with a calendar and marked "special days". Have thousands of notes about you so as not to forget anything, starting from small habits (which Yuuta is still afraid to forget, although if you wake him up at one in the morning, he will repeat each one perfectly) and ending with ideas for gifts or holidays.

(he's on the more planning side, probably doing this almost a year before the right date to make everything perfect.)

Surely it is these cute sweet moments — hidden in the room, in the phone, notes, messages, “I really miss you... how about spending a few days alone together?”, hidden gifts, "secretly make a favorite dish to celebrate", "massage or bath?", "very cute laughs. not forget to remind about this", "a few days off as a surprise? maybe sea or lake", "we need to spend more time together", "I didn't even know it was possible to love someone so much...", photo on the home screen, the keychain that you chose together, video and audio files — all these moments become his

nightmare

for one.

That 'something is wrong' he understands with his heart even before that, how this "wrong" happens.

... In fact, although his personality has to develop, being separated from others, I'm sure it would break him. The first time it was so painful and traumatic that he couldn't let go of Rika's soul, forcing her to follow him and guard him, which is why his social life was thoroughly spoiled.

When he finds out that you — person, who for the first time in a long time got under his skin and took his heart with him, died, — he doesn't believe it to the last, even if his common sense says it is; he just can't accept it. Didn't you promise to be with him until the very end? Didn't you say that you would never betray him and leave him alone anymore?

Didn't you swear that now he would never feel unloved and cold?

Refusal to accept becomes a shock, shock becomes aggression, aggression turns into attempts to convince yourself that you could not — or that you can still pass something, at least something, if only you would not leave, if only you would not leave him.

The boy has the most violent hysteria, but Yuuta can't even take care of himself, too fixated on you — or on what's left of you, if there's anything left of you. And he tries to recover as quickly as possible, but he can't neither get rid of things that remind him of you, nor accept the fact that you are no longer around, as if everything around him froze at the time when he thought it was better to buy for the anniversary.

Even the way he is now is thanks to you, all thanks to you, you helped him become like this, but at heart he is still that Yuuta, sweet sweet Yuuta, who was easily nervous at any social interaction and counted on your help, looking for your presence, like your dog.

And such thoughts only worsen his already broken mental state. Because the only thing, the only thing he promised when he tried to keep up with you, that one day he would protect you. One day he will save you. One day you will understand how he feels when you help him.

And he couldn't even do that with all the power he had in his hands.

What would hurt him more? To see your death and know that he did not have time — too weak, still weak, still insufficient, even just to save you, or to know that when you were dying, he was not there?

It doesn't matter, in fact — his heart hurts so much that it's hard for him to breathe, suffocating from the influx of thoughts telling him that he didn't have time, that it's his fault, that you warned about it. You knew — he just didn't pay attention. In the end, when you break away, all this security built around family life and relationships collapses like a house of cards. Yuuta is one of those who gives himself completely — and finds himself knocked down again and left alone.

Perhaps it will be even worse only if it was you who saved him, but any outcome leads to the loss of his feelings of tenderness, love and security, as if he was a traveler whose only shelter was destroyed with his silent consent — if he wanted, he would not have allowed it, which means he was not against it.

"You can't run away from responsibility and blame only others" — he admits that it's his fault, only his fault... would you be happy?

I mean, some powerful sorcerers were able to continue to exist as curses. Considering that you were both powerful and drowning in love... let's be honest, it's probably going to end badly-more for the others than for the two of you. You promised to keep him safe and protect him, didn't you? Maybe you are not quite the same as you were before, but your feelings are still burning, and you know what you are staying for, giving up rebirth to stay with your beloved.

You promised to grow old together. Everything will be fine as long as he holds your hand. A cute keychain, a joint photo, maybe even paired earrings (or pendants), memories, secrets, hobbies, interests, holidays, an almost intuitive understanding of each other, feelings — you had so much in common and so much created together.

How can you leave him alone?

How can he let you go?

After all, he's so hopeless that he'd be waiting at the door for you to open for him.

Yuuta had only one ideology — to fight not for himself, but for others. His life is not important as long as his loved ones. We need to save everyone who can be saved. We need to help everyone who can be helped. The strong have the power to protect those who are weaker. His meaning is to try to make the world a better place.

You hum that this curse is a promise.

But if you are a curse, then why is it like a blessing for him?

[survivor-north-sea]

Episode Five: "i will not relent!!! u will like me!!!" - Bethany

Hairie

I am not happy with the tribal council but I am also not entirely mad. I’m sad to see Chelsea go. Someone flipped from ex Tromoya and I have a strong feeling it was Zach

-

I partially feel guilty for not choosing Chelsea for tribe swap. She was my alliance and now she’s gone.

Esteban

idk what to expect on this round. I am hearing that bethany is rallying the non-women again and staining my name that I did pushed aj and trinica that much on idol hint. Wth! I would never respect that move. But good for you. Now you are givigng me much time to think and a fire to probably play the game still til the end.

Raffy prob is neutral on which way he wanna go with either bethany’s story or i. Brandi profess that she wanna work with me and she thought jayjay would love too. Jayjay is so welcoming on me and said the same way that she wants me to stay on the game and she is skeptical about bethany and that it make sense she is saying she is like pulling all the ladies again in this new tribe and on her own words she said, “let vote bethany out the first time we will get a chance.”

Hairie, i am still in doubt of him. Idk where he is on this thought process but i told him my truth may it be wrong or not but i am not lying to what i felt is right. 😅

Tyler hopefully he is still on my side. He told me that bethany was caught on the act when she confirm that there is a non-men alliance when tyler was confronted her lying that jinx leaked that information.

On the lighter note: i look horribly crazy in my lip sync. And please let that video just stay here in this ORG. 🙈🙈🙈

-

Late confessionals (strike 1)

Sorry been very busy lately.

We’ve won the music video challenge. Kudos to tomoya 2.0 for giving all the effort and it is worth it.

The vibe went positive in the camp. People sharing thought about have kore advantages so we can win another round of challenge.

I am loving this tribe more than the old one. I hope we will not see the tribal earlier before merge happens.

So far i feel like jayjay and brandi had my back and tyler too. Hoping hairie too. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

That tie vote of the hidra tribe is crazy. And chelsea going home i hope will give the og tromoya a chance for us to infiltrate the group.

Cheetos we are holding on. Take care!

Jayjay

Im pretty shocked that it was Chelsea who got voted out this tribal council! I’m sad to see her go she was such a great person! Wondering how the dynamics and alliances are working over on hidra considering I thought the vote was going to be for a male with the info I got from ex hidra team members.

Arvin Bentonon

Oh noooo! My survivor cool mom was voted out. Now I'm in the bottom.

-

I really want Julia to be the gesturer. I think in the music video, Julia showed everyone that she communicates well with actions by giving us nice clean movements.

-

I told Julia that it's either one of us should be the gesturer. So I nominated her in the GC and seems like everybody is on board with it. I'm just so afraid that if one of the rest of them would gesture, they might throw the challenge by confusing us. So I really need to try hard and guess what Julia is trying to act. Just in case they want to throw a challenge, to even out the numbers.

Raffy

Is it weird that I don't really want to win this game? I thought about it and realized that I just want to have fun and meet the newbies. My feelings will probably change sooner or later. But, for now, I'm content with going whichever which way.

Tyler Frazier

So I’m growing a bit concerned about my relationship with Esteban. Prior to the swap he mentioned wanting to work with Raffy and that plus the fact he was able to seemingly instantly integrate himself into the old Tromøya makes me feel like I’m no longer a main priority for him

AJ

I'm honestly pretty hyped for charades. I feel like it's the one in which we have the most even odds. I'm honestly so proud of the femmes and thems alliance rn. Highlight of last round was Zach "uniting" us. Anyway just a short confession until I can give a larger one after the challenge

Raffy

I found an idol! That climbing gear finally came in handy haha. In any case, I think I'll keep this to myself. No use telling everyone and having me be a bigger threat than I already am. Though it does make me question just how many idols are in this game.

Brandi

I’m really hoping to just ride the tromoya train and stay low until the merge - tribal is scary

Arvin Bentonon

I have to made up an advantage, like a legacy advantage if they will believe it, I will be saved by this vote.

Trinica

At this point, Jay's gotta be sick of seeing us at tribal. AND YET.

These advantages/disadvantages are really killing us. We came so close to winning charades!! Julia honestly did an amazing job, and I told her that she doesn't deserve to go home after that performance. I hate to send Arvin home, but I'd feel awful sending Julia home after how well she did.

There are no more idols to be found in the game anymore, which is nerve-wracking. Arvin or Julia could very well have one, so this next vote is going to be tricky. And I'm assuming we've as well as lost the next challenge because AJ and I both landed us with 10% disadvantages. It's not looking good for Hidra (but when is it ever...?)

Esteban

When you thought you don’t care anymore and that you are gonna voted out early then here comes the gods of the seven kingdoms blessing you a safety. Congratulations to tomoya 2.0. raffy did well tbh

Champ

So nervous about losing a challenge! I need to make sure bethany and Tyler stay in this game! If we lose I’m assuming Esteban tyler or bethany will go, and I really want to make it to merge with my entire tribe! Once we merge I feel like I’m in a really good position to make it far

Hairie

We won ... AGAIN! I'm so happy that we did. On top that, the idol or idols has been found and someone or a couple of someones has it. The game is elevating yet again!

Tyler Frazier

So I have the weird sword advantage which would be great if I was certain I’d make the merge but…I’m not. I mean if things go really wrong and Bethany Champ or I get booted then obvi it can be played (I think for them im gonna need to re read) which will be great if we can get out of our current position

Bethany

slayyyy tromoya wins again!!!! im very happy with that because i still dont feel safe here lol but im hoping esteban is starting to see the light and is going to not immediately try and flip on tyler and i

so tyler, champ, and i have a little trio going called brayden's angels which is so cute and tyler and i went idol hunting together today and everything that was good was sold out so like no slay EXCEPT for the 100 coin item

tyler and i had 70 coins combined so we decided to go beg champ for her money too and ms girl is way too loyal and just handed them right over

so tyler bought the sword and it forces a battleback if one of us is eliminated once jury starts which is so fun i love it and im excited because im usually good at comps so that would be perfect if i get voted out lolol

hopefully we can keep the winning streak going and then at the merge i can reunite with all of pink venom and play both sides mwahaha we will see though not trying to get ahead of myself, i just want to try and keep social gaming when we don't have tribal because i don't think tyler is trying as hard with people but it's hard when they leave me on read all day *cough cough* jayjay. but i will not relent!!! u will like me!!!

Arvin Bentonon

Right now, I don't want to talk too much. I just really want to enjoy the process, and maybe someone would talk to me and possibly save me from this vote. The former old hidra tribe thinks I'm running the show with the former tromoya already because I want to talk to almost everyone of them. Now I'm definitely in the chopping block.

Esteban

i don’t know if i am only one of the few people who is happy that the hinting is over. Respect to the host and the fun twist but i still stun a back to basic game where it seperate people who are playing a social, strategic and amazing game to those who are just hoping for luck. 😅.

Do you agree?

Now that it is all over let the survivor back to basic game start! Sorry i was born to play back to basic games. 😂😂😂🤞🏻No more hiding.

AJ

So bad news and even worse news lmfao. We lost the challenge, all idols in the fucking idol hunt have been found, and now idol hunt is closed. Which means we're probably losing up till and into the merge. I can only hope the other tribe has a bunch of disadvantages. We're most likely going into the challenge after next with a net 20% disadvantage unless someone was able to find something. I have my 10% AD at any time, but I will not be using it when we'll still be in the negative and probably still lose.

This next challenge is going to be a 24 hours challenge. What does that mean for AJ? If you guessed zero sleep, you'd be correct!! No matter what it is I'm going to do my absolute best to get us to win it. We NEED a break at some point, honestly, and if it weren't for the advantages we would have won that last challenge. Being on a losing streak isn't fun, but we'll get through it. We always do.

Jayjay

The last charade challenge was a lot of fun. I think Raffy killed it being the gesture, you could tell he definitely gave it his all! Super proud of our team and winning all these challenges. Tromoya strong forevaaaa!!

Hairie

Solidifying my number 1 and we gonna make it to final 3 I’m confident!

-

Strong feelings that either Arvin or Zach going home this next tribal. I’m also thinking Julia might have flipped more so than I initially thought it was Zach. I could be wrong but my guts telling me just that.

Zach🤠

Cant believe we’re going to tribal again. Not a slay. Love that our little panic alliance has stuck together after that one vote to save my ass. AND we have an in with AJ. I have no idea how Julia and Arvin still trust AJ after that last flip, but here we are. I asked Julia why not try to take me down today and she explained to me how similar our games were and how she thought that made us closer and stronger together. And I agree. I can really see myself going a long way with AJ and Jinx.

Arvin Bentonon

I'm not going home without a fight.

Julia

Welp I was blindsided last time and it’s my time to go here. I tried so hard during charades but it wasn’t good enough and I’m heartbroken

jinx

imma keep it so real right now i will ride and die for my alliance but i think we might be the …bad guys…like…we’re really about to be THAT majority alliance huh….erm….chile anyways…did anyone have the chicken?? the chicken was lovely! like we’re girlbossing gaslighting and gatekeeping but at what cost? anyways. i swear if pink venom is reading this post season ITS ONLY BECAUSE WERE A MAJORITY ALLIANCE MAKING THINGS BORING 😭 but we’re a majority of minorities….like WIG!!!!! taking the power back!!!! but are we taking too much??? who’s to say! anyways no jinxcast this round simply because i aint got shit to say! saving it for my actual journal. love y’all! xoxo gossip jinx

Toni

Theme: Anxiety and Alliances

Hello World.

What a shaky Tribal we had on Sunday. We were still strategising by the initial tribal time - thank god it was delayed. The feeling of having my name out there is a feeling I did not enjoy. If anything had gone wrong I would have gone home. The game is getting harder. I started this game confident in my gut feeling but even though I've never been on the wrong side of the vote I can feel my anxiety rising.

I'm grateful for the alliances I've built here and over on the other tribe but the game is getting harder. You do genuinely connect with some of these people and it starts to creep into your heart when you choose to vote them out. We're voting Julia out today and even though I initially misunderstood her I've recently really connected with her on our mutual love for the WNBA. I'm sad. I do have to stay true to my word and loyal to my alliance. Still I'm sad.

Signing off safe but sad.

AJ

Can't remember if I've submitted one of these this round or not. Better safe than sorry so I'm doing that now. We're betraying Julia which is sad because I do really like her, but there's been some good points made for her vote out. Julia when this comes out ily, sorry for my vote

[mlm-mod-taka]

Hi! It's me again, I really enjoy your hcs and I was wondering if I could request again some hcs for Byakuya, Ghundam, Chihiro and, (If you want), any character you choose x GN reader who has a hard time falling asleep and hardly sleep because of that, thanks and sorry if my English is bad, I hope you have a nice day <3

INSOMNIAC READER • byakuya, chihiro, gundham x gn reader

of course, anon! i didnt proof read, so im sorry if there are any typos in this. im somewhat in a hurry to finish this since im not used to answering anything below 3 requests a day, so i hope its decent! also, please get enough sleep, it'll really help you! i hope you enjoy these.

tws/cws: he/him pronouns for chihiro.

|| -> mod taka <3

he finds out that you do this when he got up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, and he sees you in the kitchen, eating chips and watching a video on your gadget.

is very surprised and almost had a heart attack, thinking that someone broke into his house when he doesnt see you next to him and when he hears the strange sound of plastic rustling in the kitchen.

will ask why youre not in bed in a very exhausted tone. its not directed at you, the man just needs some peace and quiet. he has a pretty stressful life, after all.

when you tell him that you have trouble sleeping, and that you just dont sleep at all for some days in a row, he looks at you like you just grew 3 extra eyes. you... dont sleep for days on end? is that even possible?

he just, drags you to bed silently and tells you to just wait until you fall asleep. 2 hours later, he wakes up again. this time, to you playing a game on your phone with your earphones on.

you'll explain again how really nothing has helped you so far, and that waiting around while waiting for them to be sleepy is useless.

okay, this is serious. he finally got enough sleep, so he commands one of his servants to get a bottle of the strongest melatonin they could buy. he'll also issue a doctor appointment to make sure its not some kind of side effect for an illness.

once they can confirm that youre okay, but you just need ALOT of sleep, he'll nod, making a promise to himself that he'll fix your hurrendous sleeping patterns. not only for your sake, but for his too. he really doesnt want to wake up constantly because you made an unexpected noise when youre awake.

the first step to his plan is by making you eat/drink things that are known to help people sleep. even if you dont like the taste, he will probably still feed it to you since he knows its the better good. both you and him need beauty sleep.

after he makes you eat one of those things atleast once everyday, he'll also make you take a melatonin pill atleast 30 minutes before you go to bed.

when you start to have a better sleeping pattern, thats when he'll start letting you refuse your daily sleeping food. all he asks is that you take the melatonin.

as the weeks go by, he'll gradually start to leave you alone, and you notice that your sleeping is back to normal! you can now actually fall asleep without being up for atleast a few days.

byakuya is very happy about this result. he probably improves your health a slight bit as well. hes just glad that he could be of assistance to someone he loves.

honestly? he probably feels the same as you do. since he's a programmer, chihiro probably has a terrible sleeping schedule too, and he doesnt do much to change it.

you'll be the couple that'll be up until 4am. there was one time where mondo messaged the class groupchat because he couldnt sleep, and you and chihiro messaged right away.

the rest will probably have to take care of you two, most of the class is very concerned whenever you both answer in exact unison because youre always up together.

mondo and taka probably have to force you two to go to bed. they themselves don have the best sleep schedule, but yours is definitely worse.

you and chihiro most likely stay up doing the classic stuff. playing multiplayer in your favorite games, watching vine compilations, cooking cupcakes in the dorm kitchen that will probably make someone sick since you both cant cook, the usual.

you always wake up someone during your antics, and its most likely makoto and taka since theyre very light sleepers. makoto probably just gives you two a look before going back to sleep, and taka gives you a gigantic lecture.

eventually, he does start realizing that its probably unhealthy to stay up until 7am every single night until youre so exhausted that you collapse on the dorm bed and sleep for a good 19 hours. thats not good at all, so he starts encouraging both of you to go to sleep later.

asks for mondo and takas help, so what do they do to help out? they take all of your gadgets and only plan to give them back when they see you in school the next day, after having a good nights rest.

you guys probably have to do a massive amount of things during the day so that you can just knock out afterwards, and finally get your gadgets back. chihiro is the ultimate programmer, he needs his computer back.

after doing that every day for a good few weeks, you both finally start to fall asleep on your own measures. taka and mondo are so proud, that they finally give you back your gadgets for good.

now, you both sleep at the exact same time! it all comes full circle. he really likes staying up, but also going to bed with you. he just wants to do everything with you, and hes glad that you can also fall asleep together.

now, this man wouldnt try to correct your sleeping pattern, but hed actually try to do the same as you instead. he definitely wants to spend as much time as he can with you, but he just.

he cant. he cant stay up for as long as you do, and its very obvious that hes trying so hard not to fall asleep when youre trying to make conversation with him and 3 am.

he yawns whenever he opens his mouth to speak, whenever you speak he starts to doze off and you have to shake him awake when he does, plus he also scratches his eye every 5 seconds to keep him awake.

"me? tired? non sense!" he yawns. "the supreme overlord of ice can never go to slumber that easily!" a hand reaches to scratch his eye. "what makes you think of tomfoolery such as that?" the dark devas are sleeping in his scarf while he talks.

eventually gets to the point where he cant do it anymore. you look over to him, since he hasnt responded to the topic in awhile, and you see him knocked out, snoring very loudly.

its cute to think that he cares so much about spending time with you, but it is effecting him a little. he often sleeps during lunch, and whenever hes finished with his work.

sonia finally asks whats wrong with him when he falls asleep in the middle of eating his food, and nothing can wake him up. shes tried to shake him awake already, yelling in his ear, etc. etc... nothings working.

when you do finally wake him up, you decided that you have to fix your sleeping pattern. he will really stay up for as long as he can to spend time with you, you've already tried to convince him to sleep, and the man is stubborn.

so, you put matters into your own hands. you put alot of effort into helping yourself get into a regular sleeping pattern. you practically ask everyone else to help you out because you dont want gundham to sacrifice his own well being just for your sake.

gundham is secretly really greatful. he didnt know how much longer he can stand staying up so late everyday, so its a relief when he gets to sleep at his usual time again.

in a way, being in a relationship with him actually was the reason that you finally fixed how you sleep, and you will forever be thankful for that, since your habit would probably catch up to you later on in life.

[sanchoyo]

danny phantom, season 3 episodes 3-6 thoughts!

see prev episode thoughts in this tag <3

-johnny was actually pretty civil with danny and left when he asked! thats nice. also, SKULKER?? HAD A FRAMED PICTURE OF EMBER?? oooo fuck wait had they established they were a Thing Before?? I dont think so. thats weird. its like that country boy/goth girl meme lmfao. I think i am going to choose to ignore this new info and pretend I didnt hear it. 100% unrelated to the jazz/ember fanart I already drew and posted....😳

-LADIES NIGHT EPISODE THIS IS WHAT ITS ALL ABOUT. wish it didnt really center around the guys or them being pissed at them, but. willing to bet this was written by men lol

-THEY ERASED ALL THE MEN??? meanwhile, jack and danny are fishing at. silent hill or something. im glad jack is trying to read a parenting book and making an Attempt. (theyre at lake erie, but, they made it actually eerie...thats fun)

-the girls alt outfits...cute. EMBER MADE A NEW SONG TOO!!! kinda. jazz being one of the backup singers and being AWFUL. NOOOO

-'how are we going to get kitty to blow a kiss?' 'she'll have to think there are still some males in town!' ...i dont know how to break it to you, but I dont know that a 100% het girl would wish for all men to Begone. I think. I mean im not a het or a girl so I dont really know for sure. she Is probably Bi tho. esp having the other ladies in town chanting NO MEN!!! excitedly............(then again, the kiss is to get Rid of men, so, she probably would have blown it at the ladies only if they were actively trying to attack/stop them, so...I MEAN. THE DRESSING LIKE DANNY BIT WAS SO EXTRA)

-I feel like an all female cast ep couldve been way way way way cooler than that was. like. why was it still somehow all about Men. ...anyway. (where was valerie...)

-next ep opens with the observants, and, way way more of them than I expected...existed? I mean I guess them being a council/jury of some kind is what I expected from their first appearance (bc at that time they were basically TELLING clockwork to kill danny, not asking,, so I figured they had SOME kind of authority) but. there were so many. anyway, here goes vlad! letting his own hubris go brrrr. releasing a weather ghost for political gain! #justvladthings

-okay say what you will about him (he IS an asshole) but having an umbrella with his own face on it and more prepared to share is SUPER FUNNY. and him being fanned by huge wads of money by his bodyguards. SO ineffective but so Dramatic. He UNDERSTANDS that if youre rich you need to be. you know. obnoxious and kinda eccentric about it! fuckign hate when rich people are boring about it. I would trust vlad with nothing except to not be a boring rich asshole who wears...fucking khaki or some shit. man knows his Presentation Skills. and that 'V' chair in his mayoral office. is that fucking embroidered?

-maddie get your MAN PLEEEEASSSE. IM SO EMBARRASSED FOR HER. the way jack stays simping for this man. in FRONT OF HIS WIFE!!!! ...my god its like a love triangle. jack clearly loves vlad, who loves maddie, who loves jack. jack fenton is at the very least bi, right................. this is an OBSESSION . 'THE V MAN COMETH'???? i...my god. (also, on a serious note, to have a friend THIS SUPPORTIVE...and still be SUCH A DICK TO HIM (TRYING TO KILL HIM AND STEAL HIS WIFE??) NOT COOL VLAD. JACK IS YOUR 1 AND /ONLY/ HYPE MAN. if someone loved and supported me THIS HARD...LIKE. CMON DUDE.

-STOMP the fucking GAS, JACK

-this would make a great shirt design, looks like a metal band design! we love The Maelstrom

-oh, so vlad did in fact get a mansion in amity park. and its purple! good color choice! not as flashy as a CASTLE or MURDER CABIN, but still pretty eccentric, which I appreciate.

-...vlad knows the difference between picasso and da vinci? in the ep last post where we were watching him fail at conquering every historical time ever he didnt seem to know history well enough to like. be effective...was vlad taking art history at college?? (was he an art MAJOR??? we never DID KNOW WHAT HE WENT TO SCHOOL FOR. I kinda assumed business because in the masters of time ep he was still rich without ghost powers so he had to have..known something about business or something, right...but also, art and or theater FITS HIS PERSONALITY. possibly also something science-y, I guess, but I always felt like he got roped into that, esp how pessimistic he was about the ghost portal in the flashbacks to college, like, i felt like he was just there for maddie and was uninterested/un-invested at the time...)

-THIS GHOST JUST ELECTROCUTED MADDIE (THE CAT) BITCH!! THATS MY FAVORITE MADDIE!!! vlad going after vortex and being ~shocked~ .....WHEN. WHEN WILL YOU LEARN. THAT YOUR ACTIONS. HAVE CONSEQUENCES!!!

-the way this random man with a camera sees the mayor laying in an alley covered in TRASH AND DECIDES TO TAKE A PICTURE HAHAH

*snap* this ones going in my cringe compilation!

-vlad 'if we're going to defeat vortex, we're going to have to do it together!' *immediately dips after dropping danny off in front of vortex* JKASDFHKJHJKN

-DANNY CAN DUPLICATE!!! ...he couldnt even attack with it, but he DID IT!!! INTO (4) OF HIMSELF!!! SO PROUD!!!!!!!!!!

-'THE ROLLER COASTER EMOTIONS OF A TEENAGER THREATEN MY PLANS!' ...0 self awareness of his own dramatic moodiness. incredible, how dumb this man is. its very close to circling around to endearing, if he was less of an asshole. at least its very very funny to see danny shooting him with tiny lightning bolts anytime he's even slightly irritated! vlad you should be nice to danny anyway. this is what you GET

-...making sandwiches and ice cream and playing video games with your nephew is a totally normal thing. WHY is vlad acting like this is the end of the world. if you were a GOOD UNCLE YOU WOULD ALREADY BE DOING THESE THINGS!!! bitch I make my nephew food all the time and dont forget what he does and doesnt like. if u didnt know danny didnt want tomatoes, thats on u. if u, a grown adult, are gonna piss of the 14 yr old by not letting him win, u deserve to have to pay for the arcade machines he ruins because he now has uncontrollable storm powers because YOU THREW HIM INTO A FIGHT WITH THE STORM GHOST. fuck u vlad. paypal me $400,000 while ur at it tho. (also, gamer vlad confirmed)

-VLAD CAN COOK THOUGH???! I assumed he had...people working for him that did that. I mean. billionaires usually dont do that. then again, we've only seen those vultures working for him (and I guess the dairy king was AT his old mansion, but it was never really clarified if he worked there...I think he probably just Hung Out and they Enjoyed Cheeses Together. thats what I think, I dont think a KING would be working for anyone and also the dairy king was nice <3) but then again he would be a private person and we cant have anyone accidentally finding Ghostly Things, so...still, that's hilarious. pour one out for that really cute banana split that got ruined 2 seconds later

-vlad just fucking picking danny up and THROWING HIM AT VORTEX TWICE WITHIN LIKE A MINUTE. JUST ABSOLUTELY LAUNCHING HIM. BITCH THATS MY SON BE CAREFUL!!! HES GOT ORGANS AND THINGS!!!!

-danny seeing those animal commercials and feeling sad is the biggest 2000s throwback so far. i legitimately had to change the channel or walk out of the room when those came on bc id CRY AND BE SAD ABOUT THEM FOR DAYS AFTER. fuck those commercials and fuck that IN THE ARMMMS OF AN ANGELLLL song 😭

-'vlads ego almost got the town destroyed!' yes danny thats the entire episode. the entire series anytime vlad shows up honestly. this episode was just him being really embarrassing the entire time, and, me laughing about it. 10/10 would laugh at him again

-NEXT EP WE HAVE A SHAPESHIFTING GHOST?? I've said it before but shapeshifting is the power I would want when asked those 'what superpower do you want' questions...its the Best power! this guy looks like a homestuck character. ive never read homestuck but thats the vibe

-I love every time we see tuckers family, they are by far the most functional family. and dash has a lil chihuahua!!! named pookie!!! i am crying (I've had 3 chihuahuas, so I am very biased, but...) AND HE WATCHES THE ROMANCE CHANNEL WITH POOKIE. POOKIE I WILL DIE FOR YOU YOU SWEET LITTLE BABY.

-danny can lift a bus! I shouldn't be surprised, but i am proud of my son. hes got lil kid fans. i am going to cry about this

-JAZZ KEEPS A SCRAPBOOK WITH DANNY'S LIL HEROICS AND NEWSPAPER CLIPPINGS!!! we've actually seen it on her floor before, but I didnt realize it was a scrapbook!! thats sooo cute.

-...and danny has to stand there listening to his parents saying danny phantom sucks and is a 'filthy ghost' and calling him egotistical...i am once again stealing their kids!

-THIS GHOST RIPPING JAZZ'S SCRAPBOOK!!! ILL KILL YOU. SHE WORKED HARD ON THAT!!! BITCH

-yes, maddie, the one with red eyes is For Sure Actually Your Son. ignore the, red eyes... (CLEARLY she hasnt watched the other 2 eps where danny has been evil, she doesnt know red eyes= evil!!!)

-'billy fenton'.......................

-danny being stuck as phantom in his own house, no way out is a fucking NIGHTMARE. his parents pointing giant weapons against him and SHOOTING AT HIM. THIS IS A HORROR MOVIE.

-NINE INCH NAILS POSTER.

-this is the most screenshot of all time

-amorpho turning into mr. lancer because hes 'someone no one will want to be around' BUT HES WRONG, I WOULD BEFRIEND AND HANG OUT WITH MR LANCER SO FAST.

-tucker dressing as danny, now I have the full Tucker set of him being sam and also being danny. also saying 'the ghost...uh...RIPPED MY FACE OFF.' and then running. SMOOTH. NOT AT ALL CONCERNING TO ANY PARENTS.

-sam accepts the toast from jack. and then 2 seconds later is like 'why am i eating this.' THIS SHOWS HUMOR IS SO UNEXPECTED SOMETIMES ITS REALLY GOOD. and then the scene after, mr lancer running into his ghost doppelganger and being like 'YOURE GORGOUS' THEN FAINTING. I AM CRYING. AND DASH FAINTING TOO.

-sam disguising herself as danny again to help tucker run from the fentons. but leaving him shirtless in the streets. incredible. 'plEASE DOnt NOTice MY FACELessNESS I MUST LIVE IN EXILE' this episode is destroying me the humor in this show is exactly my brand of corny and cheesy

-the impromtu story made up by danny and amorpho to explain stuff to the fentons. my god they are both such bad liars. but amorpho is a good egg. wish danny wouldnt have said he didnt wanna see him in town again!! I want him to be reoccurring. not that thats gonna matter since I'm almost done with the series, but the idea of this being the Only Time We See him is :(

-NEXT EP SAYS STARRING MARK HAMILL??????!!! hello ! mr . joker....mr. star wars.... I feel like I should be. idk. taking off a hat im not wearing in respect. I shouldnt be surprised tho bc hes in a lot of cartoons as a very good voice actor, and dp has already had a lot of talented ones so I've been looking out for ones I might know, but....mr. hamill....

-sam has her own greenhouse, names all the plants, and says thank you to them (in the languages from where the plants are from) whenever she harvests from them. thats SO cute. and her lil gothy lunch box...

-and danny's lil red fuzzy lined jacket!!! ive said it before but every time the characters get alt outfits im like :D

-danny has ice powers now!!! THATS WHAT FROSTBITE MEANT. HE KNEW SOMEHOW WAY BACK THEN

-THIS SHOW NEVER LETS YOU FORGET VLAD IS A BILLIONAIRE, HUH.

-danny's lil 'holy hibiscus!' first off the 50s batman swearing is hilarious. 2nd. my username is from the flower sanchoyo hibiscus, so, shoutout to ME this ep. hi :)

-EURGH UNDERGROWTH MAKING EVERYONE PLANT ZOMBIES. HIVEMIND PLOTS SCARE THE SHIT OUT OF ME. and this dude made the city SO overtaken so quickly like how long was danny asleep?? oh god

-evil fucked up sam! now the whole trio has gone evil at some point! the voice actress did a really, really good job with making her sound like a zombie...

-frostbite's paws are so so so big compared to danny. oh my god. i want to hug the snow dog...

-the far frozen has an advanced medical stuff!!! very cool. very smart snow dogs

-im so glad danny has a friendly ghost snow dad to explain this new power and teach him!!! this is so sweet. DANNY'S GHOST SENSE WAS A PART OF HIS ICE POWER?? OOOH. COOL. we love a training montage!!!

-danny saying if he cant defeat overgrowth, that he'd want to stay with frostbite...oh my god...do you think this is the first real supportive adult figure in his life (I am NOT counting his parents because they threaten him on the daily even if they dont realize it.) I mean mr lancer is a Teacher, but he was also nice but this is different, but this is a GHOST WHO IS WILLING TO HELP HIM with his powers and also will help him when hes injured and is so so nice and comparatively so much more mature than 90% of the adults in this show!!!! god. dad frostbite is my everything.

-the framing and lighting this episode, and all the angles...they went all OUT and it looks really really good. this is my nightmare scenario, tho. like, FUCK zombies and dead city zones and hivemind shit. and using the humans as 'nutrients for the children' i am going to THROW UP.

-MALEFICENT VIBES WITH THE HORNS AND GREEN EYES! this costume kicks so much ass. sam is now mark hamills daughter, I guess.

-danny's ice powers making his eyes blue!!! thats neat. and him going for the roots underground was SO SMART. i will not stand for danny ever thinking hes stupid, hes SO smart.

almost done with the show... :"( thats a sad thought!!!

[valeriethepussycats]

Assemble

Chapter 9

Pairing- Loki x Reader x Steve (one side)

Warning- cursing

Your thoughts and other characters are in italics.

Fury gathers Tony and Steve back into the briefing room everyone there has a look as if in a daze. A look of numb shock is shown on their devastated faces.

“These were in Phil Coulson's jacket.Guess he never did get you to sign them.”Nick throws Coulson's Captain America trading cards  on the table towards Steve. Steve picks them up, stained with blood.

“We're dead in the air up here. Our communications, location of the cube, Banner, Thor and I don’t know if Y/n will recover from this....I got nothing for you. Lost my one good eye. Maybe I had that coming.Yes, we were going to build an arsenal with the Tesseract. I never put all my chips on that number though, because I was playing something even riskier.” Nick told Steve and Ton. “There was an idea, Stark knows this, called The Avengers Initiative. The idea to bring together a group of remarkable people, see if they could become something more. See if they could work together when we needed them to, to fight the battles that we never could. Phil Coulson died still believing in that idea, in heroes.”

Tony gets up and walks off, not wanting to hear it anymore.

“Well, it's an old fashioned notion.” Nick finished.

○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○

Thor walks out far into the meadow. He looks down. Mjölnir.

○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○

Banner wakes up, in human form with Y/n words echoing in he’s head. He looks around and sees he is in a pile of rubble and looks up at the open ceiling he crashed in and is completely naked. A Security Guard stands there, amazed. “You fell out of the sky.”

“Did I hurt anybody?”  Bruce asked coming to.

“There's nobody around here to get hurt. You did scare the hell out of some

pigeons though.” The Security Guard  answered.

“Lucky.” Bruce replied.

“Or just good aim. You were awake when  you fell.”  The Security Guard told Bruce.

“You saw?”

“The whole thing, right through the ceiling. Big and green and buck ass nude. Here...”  He throws Banner a pair of big pants. Banner pulls on his pants. “I didn't think those would fit you  until you shrunk down to a regular size fella.”

“Thank you.”

“Are you an alien?”

“What?” Bruce asked.

“From outer space, an alien?” The Security Guard wondered.

“No.” Bruce answered.

“Well then, son, you've got a condition.”  The Security Guard disclosed.

○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○

Barton is strapped down. Natasha watches over him as Barton tries to shake off Loki's mind control.

“Clint, you're gonna be alright.” Natasha told him.”

“You know that? Is that what you know? I got...I gotta go in though. I gotta

flush him out.”  Barton stated.

“We don't have that long, it's gonna take time.” Natasha stressed.

“I don't understand. Have you ever had someone take your brain and play? Pull you out and send something else in? Do you know what it's like to be unmade?” Barton questioned.

“You know that I do.” Natasha replied.

“Why am I back? How did you get him out?” Barton asked.

“Cognitive recalibration. I hit you really hard in the head.” Natasha answered.

“Thanks.” Barton stated then Natasha unfastens the restraints. “Tasha, how many agents?”

“Don't. Don't do that to yourself,  Clint. This is Loki. This is monsters and magic and nothing we were ever trained for.”  Natasha explained.

“Loki, he got away?” Barton wondered.

“Yeah. I don't suppose you know where?”  Natasha asked.

“I didn't need to know. I didn't ask.  He's gonna make his play soon though. Today.”  Barton answered.

“We gotta stop him.” Natasha declared.”

“Yeah? Who's we?” Barton questioned.

“I don't know. Whoever's left.” Natasha replied.

“Well, if I put an arrow in Loki's eye socket, I'd sleep better I suppose.” Barton  remarked.

“Now you sound like you.” Natasha sits next to her partner and friend.

“But you don't. You're a spy, not a soldier. Now you want to wade into a war. Why? What did Loki do to you?” Barton  asked.

“He didn't, I just...”

“Natasha.”

“I've been compromised. I got red in my ledger. I'd like to wipe it out.”

○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○

Y/n is in Coulson’s office or more like he’s room trying to calm the raging storm inside of her revenge and anger is never a good combination with her. She Angrily swipeseverything off of his desk breaking the laptop. Automatically feeling guilty Y/n been down to pick up the laptop and sees a briefcase under the desk Curiosity taking over her she pulls the briefcase out and sees that it has her name on it.

“What are you?”

Y/n opens the briefcase and see A sticky note that says play me. Y/n then moves the sticky note and play on the video. At first all you could hear is rumble and the  screen is black. Giving up on the video Y/n  moves to pick up the stuff she knocked off the deck. 

“You should cover up because it’s going to Rain.” Said Coulson’s voice.

Y/n turns to look back at the briefcase and see Coulson on the screen.

“No um time to bundle up because it’s going to rain no. Ohhh how about the  Red Wing Black bird soaring through the sky. Get it  because of the color of the wings  it reminds me of you and the Phoenix....The point is I had this uniform made for you because your a hero and every hero needs to dress the part and have a name. Now go save the world.”

The video stops an a Second part compartment from the briefcase opened up revealing a bodysuit that’s Blue, Red, with a Yellow. It’s like Funky and Radiant. The base of the suit is blue and it’s had a red vertical line going down the middle and two yellow diagonal lines on each side of the vertical line, and the sleeves and legs have the same design as the stomach but the sleeves go all the way down to Cover the two middle fingers. The top of the suit makes an ‘x’ separate each side of the chest, leaving the neck and a little cleavage showing.

Oh Phill this is beautiful

When Y/n turns the suit around to look at the back she see a Metal plate on her upper back.

What are you for?

Just as the thought ran into Y/n’s mind a small Wood sheath attached to the Metal plate. Y/n gaps in shock. She knows exactly what that is

Y/n goes to pull the handle of the Sword out of the Wood sheath  and see a small dagger that slowly start to unfold into a 65 cm Katana Sword.

“Oh my god...how could he had this made.” Y/n wondered as a slow smile creeped on to her face. She knew she could do it and so did Phill.

Red Wing has a nice ring to it

○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○

Tony look at the hatch. He stands not saying a word. Steve walks in.

“Was he married?” Steve asked.

“No. There was a uh...cellist, I think.” Tony answered.

“I'm sorry. He seemed like a good man.” Steve  answered.

“He was an idiot.” Tony remarked.

“Why? For believing?” Steve asked.

“For taking on Loki alone.” Tony stated.

“He was doing his job.”  Steve voiced

“He was out of his league. He should have waited. He should have...” Tony said looking at the spot where  Coulson die.

“Sometimes there isn't a way out, Tony.” Steve started.

Tony walks away from Steve. “Right. How did that work for him?” Tony asked sarcastically

“Is this the first time you've lost a soldier?” Steve asked.

Tony turns around sharply. “ WE ARE NOT SOLDIERS! I am not marching to Fury's fife!”

“Neither am I! He's got the same blood on his hands as Loki does. Right now we've got to put that aside and get this done. Now Loki needs a power source, if we can put together a list...”  Steve trailed off.

“He’s in Manhattan and if I’m not mistaken I think he’s at your tower Tony. It’s the only power store in Manhattan that I can think of.” Y/n chimed in.

Tony and Steve turns around and see Y/n standing in the door waring a black and white suit.

“Y/n.” Steve said staggered.

“What do you think Phil had it made. I’ve never had a suit of armor before but this is kind of bad ass.” Y/n proclaimed while she was checking herself out.

When Steve saw Y/n’s suit he had to check himself. He know of Y/n’s powers before the rest of the team so he knows if he let’s he’s mind wonder it would go to ungentleman like place  and Y/n could pick up on that and he doesn’t want to make things awkward between them. Steve can really see Y/n being an important person in his new life. Steve clears his throat then asks. “Where you going?”

“To stop Loki but first I’m gonna find Thor.” Y/n answered.

“What about Banner?” Tony asked.

“I sent Bruce to Manhattan.” Y/n answered.

“Are you sure your ok to do this?” Steve asked in a  concern voice.

“Yes. Im 75% sure I can do. I just  had to take some time to clear my head because before fighting Loki To keep my emotions in check.” Y/n answered.

“Or you’ll  go Super Saiyan got it.” Tony remarked.

“I am so sorry about that...” Y/n trailed off.

Steve waves his hand. “It’s ok we understand anyone would be upset finding out that kind of news.”

Y/n smiles at Tony and Steve then opens the hatch. Clueless to what’s going on Steve and Tony backs up from the hatch.

“What the hell are you doing?” Tony questioned.

Y/n smiles. “You guys need to suit up I’ll see you there.”  

Y/n jumps in the hatch then it closes behind her. Steve and Tony look at the hatch wide eyes and their mouths slightly open.

“Did she just?” Steve asked.

“Yes. Yes she did.” Tony answered.

○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○

Erik works around the CMS device that has already been set-upon the rooftop of Tony's tower.

○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○

Steve walks in full uniform. Natasha looks at him, unprepared.

“Time to go.” Steve announced.

“Go where?” Natasha wondered.

“I'll tell you on the way. Can you fly  one of those jets?”  Steve asked.

Barton walks out of the restroom. Looks at Cap. “I can.”

Steve looks at Natasha and she nods her head to confirm Barton's on their side.

“You got a suit?” Steve asked Barton.

“Yeah.”

“Then suit up.”

○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○

Y/n is flying in the sky searching the ground to see where Thor landed until a massive lightning bolt all most hits her, Y/n flys out the way and looks down and see Thor.

“Really you couldn’t killed me!” Y/n shouted as she flys down to Thor who is standing in a meadow of flowers.

“I know about Phill.” Y/n said with a hint of sadness.

“I’m sorry. I know he meant  the world to you.” Thor said as he gives Y/n a hug then placed his forehead on her for a moment of silence.

“I’ll deal with Loki I gave you my word.” Thor declare.

“What happens if you get hurt?” Y/n asked.

“You will not risky your life me Y/n not again.” Thor disclosed getting upset for his friend.

“I won’t but I won’t yet you get hurt knowing I can help...come on I know where Loki is.” Y/n voiced leaving  no room for an argument.

○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○

Captain America pulls on his Helmet and Shield. Tony welds his Iron Man helmet. Light slips down over Iron Man's eye holes. Black Widow attaches a glove gauntlet  with her rounds on her wrist and a blue light charges. Hawkeye slips on his quiver of arrows.

○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○

Cap, Widow and Hawkeye walk towards and into the Quinjet. A Young Shield Pilot looks and stands in their way.

“You are not authorized to be here...” The Pilot stated.

“Son... just don't.” Steve told the The Pilot.

○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○

Fury looks the window of the ship, contemplating. Agent Hill

walks up to him, knowing. “Sir.”

“Agent Hill?”

“Those cards, they were in Coulson's locker, not in his jacket.” Agent Hill disclosed.

“They needed the push.” Nick said  holding Coulson's cards.

A loud noise screeches. Fury looks out to see Iron Man flying off as well as the Quinjet.

“They found it. Get our communications back up, whatever you have to do. I  want eyes on everything.” Nick ordered.

“Yes, sir.”

Part 10

Kuddly Krab: @aesthethickks​

[fangren]

2020 sure was a year for me... started it off sick as hell with what i know now was almost certainly covid-19. got over it just in time for The Pandemic to start actually being A Thing in public consciousness, first false confidence in it mostly being in China, and surely it isn’t a big deal and will all blow over, to the first few (confirmed) cases in the US, to the dams breaking and panic washing over us...

to the world beginning to change, to people complaining and complaining and complaining about being stuck working at home and not knowing what to do with their time while meanwhile me, my coworkers, and countless others found their own jobs busier than ever (and others still found themselves on the brink of disaster...)

(what shutdown? what quarantine? it seemed like damn near half the county was shopping in my store, especially early on. no thought, no protection, bring the whole damn family because why the fuck not?)

the masks and directional markers and cleaning and all the other new rules that people largely didn’t ignore (though they do mostly wear masks now, at least...)

nobody that I knew died, fortunately. lotta people that I liked ended up quitting or otherwise leaving the store, tho. which... sucked, in its own way. I hope they’re doing well for themselves right now.

hell of a backdrop to a hell of a year, tho. a lot more horrible shit happened to a lot of people that weren’t me. most of which i can barely remember, because i’m terrible with that stuff.

(always reblog, never donate. that’s... me.)

but, hey! there were some good things too. the new Animal Crossing game released this year, remember that? (gotta spend the evening with the town...) also the Sword and Shield DLC. plus Among Us suddenly became a thing, which was pretty cool. played some good games of it earlier. also been enjoying a Digimon game, and also Civ 6 recently. all in all a pretty good year for video games as far as I’m concerned.

didn’t, uh, didn’t get to write nearly as much as I wanted to. started a weird fic that nobody wanted, then got sidetracked editing and reposting an older series. until, uh, I got kinda tired of that. so.. haven’t done much since then. so many WIPs, so little time and even less energy.... so that’s a bummer.

didn’t really make any progress with my, like, personal life? i guess? still living alone, closeted, with my shitty parents. still no driver’s license, still in a shitty retail job stocking dairy.

still single. still honestly kinda crushing on that one girl I’ve mentioned before with the two small children. still barely been able to talk to her since we’re usually so damn busy and don’t have much chances to interact.

(still have mixed feelings about the prospect of actually dating her. I don’t hate kids, honestly, i just don’t have the patience/energy/attention span to spend extended periods of time with the young ones. give me someone i can play or chat with briefly before we go our separate ways.)

i don’t think i can blame the pandemic for any of that. i know myself too well. i’d have spun my wheels doing nothing all year even without it, because even an uncomfortable rut is still hard as hell to get out of.

i don’t know where i’m going with this. i don’t think i’m going anywhere. just reflecting on things because im lonely.

awkward transitional phrase also the election! that sure was a thing that happened. it’s probably bad, but i can;t help but think the horrible plague that’s killed thousands also had our back by forcing this country to make voting easier, thus allowing That Shitty Old Bastard to narrowly beat The Orange One. even if, uh, the losing man-baby is throwing a temper tantrum about it that may or may not end in a coup.

also a show i never watched and don’t care about ended! that sure was a fun distraction for a little while, right? right?

um...

but anyway the year has to end, and so does this post. I have no New Year’s Resolution, because I don’t feel like setting myself up to fail again. especially at something so meaningless.

anyway, Fuck Off 2020! and just for good measure, Fuck Off 2021 because you’re probably gonna be shit too.

night all. I hope someone reading this enjoyed themselves at some point tonight.

imma go play animal crossing and try to have fun.

[peachesforjae]

Neocity in Vancouver

Hey so I wanted to write a little “the vibe I got and what actually went down” for each of the boys from the vancity show! No one asked for this but my extra ass wants to do it anyways so enjoy!! Also it’s a given but all of this could be false so please don’t come for me.

TAEIL

this mans vocals oooooof i mean we been knew but hearing it live ?????? 10/10 confirmed that this man really has been blessed by an angelic voice. probably the most stable voice i’ve ever heard live

his singing voice and talking voice are the same irl, same with visuals (there was this one part were he was trying to be sexy and lemme tell u that my heart started beating faster and i started s w e a t i n g)

he didn’t talk much during the ments (i really wished he did, even if it was in korean) and i personally felt like he didn’t get as much cheers as the other boys (NCTZENS YOU COWARDS HOW DARE YOU 😤)

would sell my soul to have a mini taeil in my pocket. i can tell that he has the sweetest heart and is the most humble guy, he would be the greatest husband ever u can’t fight me on it

JOHNNY

looking for the embodiment of the word flirt?? well look no further. he is really out here thinking our lives are a joke acting like your typical boy next door crush saying all the things that make your heart MELT

he is a tol boi (even tho i was sitting far away I could still tell that he is a giant) he probably was a sequoia tree in his past life or something idk but he is mr.tall and big

i haven’t seen anyone talk about this but his voice was a higher pitch irl,,,,,, like the videos will never catch it but it’s not as deep and omg his little lisp is QT. singing/rapping voice (sm give him more lines u hoes) was the same and his visuals were ever better

he did a body roll at one point and everyone LOST IT (i for real started crying) he is so handsome and ugh every time he came on screen/talked he got the loudest cheers (next to mark) he is such a genuine and heartwarming person i wish he could just be my friend that’s all i want in life

TAEYONG

no surprises with this amazing person he really is THAT beautiful HIS EYES AND SMILE AND FACE I DIED and is a rap god. it was a little surreal seeing him standing there talking cuz like is he even real ???? was he actually a hologram ????? WHO KNOWS MAN WHO KNOWS

he is one of the best performers ive ever laid my eyes on. the charisma and aura that he has stunned everybody and all i had to say was woooooow, he left me shooketh. sm really hit the jackpot with him. he is one of the pillars that nct stands on and im thankful for it

voice and rap voice were the same irl nothing surprising of course we already know that he’s talented but the crowd did love and cheer for him lots. he started the show strong and ended it strong (also let us see his shoulders thank you sir)

when he wasn’t performing he stood back more to let the other members shine and do their thing (ooooof what a leader) but I did wish that he talked a little more during the ments that’s all i could’ve asked for. he gave me a chill but nervous(?) vibe idk how to explain it

DOYOUNG

this man is GORGEOUS irl his eyes were so mesmerizing and sparkly,,,,,,,he had the cutest smile ever and the vibe he gave off to me was a little intimidating but definitely confident. he knows that he’s talented and isn’t afraid to show it

like taeil his voice was the same irl and he is a vocal powerhouse too. stable and clean. really blessed my ears and soul whenever his mouth opened. his falsetto is NOT to be messed with👀 im not saying that he is a male version of ariana but that’s exactly what I’m saying

he really interacted with the fans during the ments and he was so funny (at one point he said something and we missed it and he started laughing and then said it again so we could scream for him,,,,,,,,,,,his ego im- skskskskskshd)

most iconic thing he said was that he wanted to keep going and going and going and that he didn’t want to leave like BOI JUST STAY THEN i can buy you a house and you can just stay in Canada sksksksj i wouldnt mind if he was my neighbor

YUTA

my fellow scorpi(h)o(e) birthday buddy loml person *insert gif of me crying* he really has a resting bitch face (same here) BUT HAS THE SWEETEST HEART AND SMILE i was falling so hard and fast for him. he would probably be my best friend if i ever met him

he was honestly like a little kid,,,,had so much energy and was laughing and jumping and acting all crazy, he joked around with us so much. but then when he performed it was all ✖️🔪☠️✖️💀 and I was feeling like 527273 emotions at once i didn’t know what to do

his voice sounded a little different irl but singing voice was beautiful *cough* sm give him more lines or i will come for you *cough* and his dancing is off the charts you can really tell he puts so much effort in to be an amazing performer. i’d say hes the next best dancer next to taeyong/haechan/mark

yall this boy deadass wore a toque and said that he looked like a canadian university student and kept saying “didn’t you guys know???” with the cutest little expression ever im DEAD INSIDE and ugh he is so caring for the other members and went to mark so many times during the show

JAEHYUN

ok yall know he’s my bias and can I just say that i died, went to highway to heaven, and came back every time he did ANYTHING ????? like anything. im a whipped bitch phew. my deadly crush on him got even bigger after this - bc he really is just a 21 y/o hot dude that i would fall for irl if i met him on the streets skdhcgljsdfg 

singing voice ???? perfect. visuals ???? astonishing. hotel???? trivago. skskskks stop me. anyways lemme just say that this man goes HARD when he performs i was so concerned for him like pls chill a little. he kept milly rockin and pointing to the cameras and doing shoulder/body rolls and being a lil hoe (aka this was the best day of my life)

his smile is something to die for, there is a charm to it. also he is flirt no.2 after johnny. he knew EXACTLY what to say to get the attention and everyone gave him what he asked for. he kept on saying how he loved vancouver and had a crush on it. also called us HOT a few times😪

anytime he talked and came on screen he got loud cheers and he would soak it all in (meanwhile I was having a mental breakdown,,,,,the girl behind me kept looking at me every time like sis just let me die sheesh). he gives off chill but confident vibe - i would be terrified to approach him irl. really is a people pleaser and does things to earn him attention and love

JUNGWOO

babyboy.com ......... he really is the CUTEST member all I wanted to do was hold him and pat his lil head and tel him that everything was gonna be ok. he seemed really nervous but did an amazing job performing nonetheless but i do hope that he becomes more confident in himself when he’s on stage cuz he’d get more attention than he already does

they way he talks and acts is actually baby boy culture but i can tell that that’s just a mask to hide his true side, whatever that maybe, all i know is that we aint prepared for it. his eyes sparkled every time he talked and i know this is annoying but he really is snoopy. i won’t take it back.

like taeil, he didn’t talk much during the ments but still received lots of love and cheers when he did. i personally feel like he could be ncts secret weapon in some way but that is tbd. his vocals, voice, and visuals were the same irl he really couldn’t be anymore perfect.

he tried his best to talk in english and i want to thank him for it, IT WAS SO CUTEEEE. he started crying a little at one point when he was talking about touring and performing and my HEART BROKE like no bb come here I’ll just hug you and everything will be ok.

MARK

canadas boy. canadas treasure. canadas pride. canadas ass👀 and nctzens everything. he got the loudest cheers (obvi) and i swear every time he started to talk/rap/exist everyone would loose it and it made him flustered. he felt really touched by this show and im glad that we were able to make him feel like that 

he gives off that typical high school boy crush vibe. he’s really THAT awkward young adult that has it all and doesn’t know what to do with it (you’ve definitely met someone just like him) he seemed a little nervous for the show which was a given and was so clueless when we started chanting his name😂 jaehyun had to take his in-ear thingy out and his face when he realized what we were saying KILLED me

his voice is the same irl but i personally felt like his looks stood out more. he looks more mature (?) in person. his eyes also SPARKLED like he really holds galaxies in his eyes. his smile and laugh really brought joy to my heart. i just wanna thank his parents for creating such a beautiful human being. also cheek bones

he talked about his day in vancouver and started to go down memory lane and was taking about how his school was closed on the day sm was holding auditions and how it’s been a decade since he’s come back (SM LET HIM VISIT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD) he also told us that he’s proud to be a canadian and that we’re lucky to live in such a beautiful place😭❤️ i- someone come hold me

HAECHAN

babyboy numero 2. he has the babiest face out of all of them but the SOFTEST voice legit sounds like an angel i assume. his hair and skin were flawless and people better stop wh*tewashing him LET HIS BEAUTY SHINE THROUGH PEOPLE

vocals sounded the same but the pitch of his talking voice is a little different. his smile got my heart racing and he has the cutest cheeks i wanna squishem so bad. he seemed a little shy and didn’t talk a lot during the ments. his stage presence really surprised me i legit started screaming “heee heee its haechan jackson” ksksksksks i hate myself

after they performed jet lag he straight up -no warning given- went “doesn’t it feel like we just went on a date?” LIKE BOI DO I LOOK- if you think I cried you’re absolutely right. he’s definitely johnnys son he’s LEARNING from the master of flirting. but he flirts in the most adorable way possible like how ????????

i would 12/10 die for him and also wouldn’t mind having a mini version of him around for emotional support and love. sm also hit the jackpot with haechan and i also feel like he’s another secret weapon in the group watch out yall i keep forgetting that he’s so young and that the best years are still ahead of him i can’t wait to see what the future has in store for such a talented person

Other Comments

i could really sense the exhaustion from the boys. they’ve been go go go from the beginning and i truly hope that they get a well deserved rest. nonetheless they put on a great show, hyped up the crowd, and made us fall in love with them even more. also they performed jet lag for us and lemme tell you that it was a B O P.  i wanna say that i died when jaehyun called out the fake fans bc they didn’t know the album release date i LOVE his savage and petty ass😘, this was my first ever kpop concert and im so blessed to have seen nct127, as Johnny said, i can’t wait to see what our journey together has in store for us. im so glad they enjoyed their time in Canada (they kept saying how beautiful it was and how they want to come back to more cities hekwishehsos catch ur girl dying over here). 

[beeyeah]

Jikook: Appeal to Logic

Title: Appeal to Logic

Summary: /Jikook/ Two-shot/ Canon/ Where Jimin tries to convince Yoongi why he was positive Jungkook likes him and Yoongi asks him, “What would you do with that information?”

Indeed, Jimin wonders what the point was to all this.

Notes: I wanted to post on Valentine’s but I guess my calendar is ten days late hhhhh Anyway, I lurk a lot in Jikook tags (like I’m here everyday) and I’ve read long discourses regarding the legitimacy of their relationship. I thought it’d be interesting if one of them begins to share his proofs too and joins the hot pot of convo his own way. TLDR; enter this fic lol I promise it won’t be 20 chapters this time. 

Chapter 1 under cut or you can read at Ao3

Chapter 1: Points Were Made

It was an on and off thing.

Like a passion project that you know you just would figure how to complete someday but needed time because life would get in the way.

Today though marked the moment Park Jimin was ready to lay out his cards and tell someone that definitely… maybe… with a little more sprinkle of confidence that --

“Hyung, I think Jungkook likes me.”

There was silence in Min Yoongi’s room when the statement was pronounced. It made Jimin squirm on his seat as he tried to understand the non-committal stare directed at him, right behind the bond paper that held Jimin’s scribbled notes for lyrics.

Ah, that was right.

His initial purpose was to hear Yoongi’s feedback on a thing he'd been working on. Somewhere along the way, his thoughts drifted to another which inevitably led to his bold declaration of Jungkook’s far from familial, alleged infatuation for him.

Yoongi reached out to his left where his mug of coffee sat.

“I don't know what you want me to say. Of course, Jungkook likes you.”

Jimin frowned, wrapping his head around how he should explain himself. “No, hyung. I mean Jungkook likes me.”

Yoongi’s mouth was slightly gaped and his eyes were blank. His hyung looked lost while he attempted to blink his confusion away.

Well, his observations go way way back, two years worth of evidence. Right in the hallway of their home, an evening in October.

“Jungkook treats me differently,” he told Yoongi, legs crossed and under him as he put up a finger and discussed his first point.

It wasn't as if it was only him who questioned it. Jungkook only gave Jimin a birthday present in the span of the past years, no one else and that got to mean something.

They were all tired from shoot that most of them were tempted not to shower. Hoseok was pushing him around and urging him to a quick bath before lying on his bed because that was what Hoseok was. He liked things clean and perfect and that same rule applied for his roommate. But then Jeon Jungkook, his beloved dongsaeng, appeared out of nowhere and blocked him from his merry way to the bathroom. A little awkwardly might he add because he stood there, hand fiddling with his fringes and eyes searching the floor in trepidation. At that point, both Jimin and Hoseok unlatched themselves from each other's grip to attend to the youngest who seemed to need some attention.

To his surprise, and perhaps his hyung’s too, Jungkook held out his hand and shoved Jimin a paper bag. Hoseok curiously peeked from his shoulder as Jimin tried to open it while muttering, “What's this?”

Jungkook answered with a shrug and he waited. He waited there and watched Jimin opened his present.

It wasn't even anything grand. In this stage of their career, they were just beginning to gain traction from their first win and as Namjoon had put it, at breakeven, to finally enjoy the fruits of their hard labor. Knowing how their earnings were distributed based on performance and royalty fees, Jimin was pretty sure Jungkook received the same profit he did. To be honest, it wasn't exactly much. The only difference was that Jimin was prone to lavish it on people while Jungkook would save it for practical and grander things.

The practical, grander things in Jungkook’s head was Jimin. Bought him a sweatshirt which costed around 44,000 krw. Jimin researched the price because he was curious how much the maknae was willing to spend on him.

No greeting cards. Not a high end brand. Just plain white paper bag from the department store where he bought his first gift for a Bangtan member.

Needless to say, Jimin was ecstatic and made sure to rub it on everyone's face.

“Jimin-ah,” Yoongi tried to interrupt him but he shushed the older with an afterthought.

“It wasn't the gift that's strange. Jungkook's face was really weird when I thanked him.”

Jimin knew Jungkook well enough to know when he was happy. Whatever gratefulness he saw on Jimin’s face translated on how satisfied Jungkook was on what he did. There was a sense of pride and innocent glee in Jungkook’s eyes similar to the way they would twinkle when he was offered cheesecake or lamb skewers. It was odd how he was comparing himself to food but Yoongi would probably understand the reference. He would bring Jungkook to lamb skewers so often that the maknae even vowed to stay with him forever if he would agree to become business partners.

That was beside the point.

Back then, Jimin thought he was onto something but the idea didn't linger because it was indeed a special occasion. Jungkook was a good dongsaeng and treated his hyung well even outside their birthdays so, on a second thought, it wasn't really much of an evidence.

The hand that held Jimin’s lyrics now dangled limply over the office chair’s armrest.

“Jimin-ah, just get to the point.”

Jimin pursed his lips. As far as he was concerned, he was straightforward from the get-go. He thought Jungkook likes him and he stated the fact right on, now presenting his evidence.

“Number two,” he said after lifting another finger. Perhaps Yoongi wanted him to speed things up and he should. He certainly didn't have all day with their comeback looming around the corner. “Jungkook thinks I'm beautiful.”

Yoongi’s confusion had more color to it this time. Beyond his blinking eyes that questioned where this conversation was headed, his brows met when he spoke, “Should this really be coming out of your own mouth?”

“It didn't come from me. Jungkook told me,” he replied, voice defensive.

“Jungkook thinks you're cute. But so do I. Might as well tell me that all members like you.”

“No,” Jimin answered, tucking his arm in and across his chest. His eyes narrowed, teeth worrying his lips, trying to recall the exact moment that prompted him to ask the youngest. “Ah, that's right,” he muttered when the epiphany came. He searched his pockets for his phone and scrolled through countless and countless of albums of selcas and videos of him with Bangtan.

It was somewhere in there.

“Hyung… this,” he finally said after almost five minutes of sifting through his files.

Yoongi’s back was facing him after he stopped talking to look for his proof. He really should've prepared it beforehand. Now his hyung seemed to have completely lost his interest. He was typically patient to listen, but Jimin interrupted him when he was in the midst of editing a melody submission.

Though Yoongi said it was fine. Jimin would be his breath of fresh air because the team would so rarely go out during crucial period right before their comeback. He knew better not to push the limit but it was tempting and he needed someone to listen to him.

He pulled the bean bag next to his hyung’s leg, lifted his phone so that Yoongi would be able to see what he was referencing to.

His hair was pink, the clip a mere six- seconder. He was staring at the camera, trying to appeal to ARMY. He needed it. There was this greedy part of him that wanted to know how they would react to his flirting. Tell people, ‘Hey, Jimin is right here and this is how he looks right now. His hair changed.’ That kind of drill right before their comeback and their response would in a way boost his confidence. A conscious tactic to keep his fans interested in him perhaps?

“What do you think?”

Yoongi made a face and pulled back to a cringe as he'd expected. Highly likely, he would've done the same thing if any other member showed him a video of themselves. So he merely nodded in agreement. Bangtan wasn't the audience for this video. ARMY was.

“Do you know how Jungkookie reacted when I showed this to him?”

Yoongi sighed. “Would I want to know?”

“He replayed it, hyung,” he said as a matter-of-factly. “He told me I should post it because our fans would love it. Which I did, if you remember.”

“I don't,” Yoongi admitted and turned his chair so that he was facing Jimin, a leg over the other while he waited for him to continue.

“I posted it on Twitter and do you know who posted afterwards?”

“Jungkook?”

It wasn't a wild guess.

“Yeah,” Jimin confirmed the obvious. “After 10 minutes, he posted something and you know what it said?”

No response.

“He posted a song.”

The title was right on the hashtag #ILYSB by Lany.

When it came to music that wasn't in their own language, Jimin would seldom take efforts to find translation. So long as he understood bits and pieces of what little English he knew, he could work around it. Namjoon said to be careful of listening to artists that might cause uproar by association, so he would still have to check it out if he'd want to share it with the fans. But for as much as he believed that lyricism was a key ingredient to any good music, Jimin preferred to feel rather than completely understand and analyze. That job was for their leader.

However, he decided that he wanted to fathom the youngest’s thoughts that night.

The noob part of him thought the title was some secret internet code popular in the west so he searched naver only to be greeted by a simple yet telling I love you so bad. His mouth formed an ‘oh’ when he realized that it might've been an intense confession. It invariably piqued his curious mind so that later he would be listening on loop to… and you need to know that I'm hella obsessed with your face.

“You're reading into it too much,” Yoongi told him with a shake of his head as he reached again for his coffee. “I'm not one to judge who you want to date, but think how this appears to other people.” Yoongi paused, seemingly debating what he should and shouldn't say next. “Jimin-ah, a lot could happen in ten minutes. Like you, Jungkook might be sending that message to the fans. Namjoon recommends a lot of songs. It wouldn't be about us.”

“I know, so I asked him directly.”

Yoongi almost spat his drink on him. He tapped his chest as he drowned out his cough to reaffirm. “Ya, you what?”

“I asked him if the lyrics were about me.”

“And?”

“He laughed,” Jimin confessed.

Truth be told, his ego was slightly hurt to see Jungkook’s initial response to his question. He was serious about it because he was just about more than a quarter sure about his theory. It didn't feel good to have this kid finding amusement to something he pored over. He could've just said ‘no’ outrightly and Jimin wouldn't have minded.

Jungkook’s laughter died down when he saw Jimin’s expression transform and he was reaching out for his hand in apology before he knew it.

Jimin let him hold him.

“It was…” he almost sounded uncertain. “Hyung, why are you being like this?” Sounded almost helpless and then relenting, “Yeah, it was about you. I was nervous so I laughed.” Instinctively, his free hand reached for his fringes like the night of Jimin’s birthday.

When he saw the younger fidget, Jimin felt relieved. Ah, he still knew Jungkook better than anyone. Mindful to see every little shift in the air, Jimin wasn't wrong in reading the situation.

He ruffled Jungkook's head and returned the wide staring with his own curled eyes in amusement. “I knew it,” mumbled to himself and turned once he got the confirmation that he wanted.

“You just left?” Yoongi asked him, tone surprised that it nudged some bafflement at the back of Jimin’s head.

He bobbed his head yes because, well, what else was he supposed to do? He already proved he was right. Yoongi hadn't even heard the rest of his evidences yet.

“Three,” he said to share what was left in his folder.

“Stop,” Yoongi said, planting a foot on Jimin's thigh to emphasize the urgency of his demand.

Jimin slapped the foot away and dusted off his pants.

“Do you even like Jungkook?”

He tilted his head sideways. “Of course,” Jimin answered simply, wondering why it was even a question in the first place. He liked Jungkook. Jungkook was and still is his favorite dongsaeng and BTS member. He'd take care of him even if he grew his muscles and grew taller than him.

Yoongi shook his head. “I don't think we're talking about the same thing.”

“For the third one… ” Jimin took in the opportunity of minute lag on Yoongi’s response to divert the conversation back to the task at hand. He really didn't understand what Yoongi meant but better to finish this off before his momentum dried and faltered.

He picked up his phone again and browsed through his apps. It was quite a long memory lane down Vapp’s timeline until he found the correct reference. He slid the video right on the important moment, him in his bathrobe with Taehyung’s voice singing in the background. The camera was on with Jungkook in his white shirt’s glory, sitting for all ARMY to see.

“That's right… Jimin-hyung is bad at playing games,” Jungkook said to echo his claim.

Back then, the staff berated them silently to turn off vapp. Jungkook was too loud. Jimin wasn't kidding when he said he was hearing him across the hallway. They were only given five hours to eat, take a bath, and nap before they reconvene for post-con review and plan out the adjustments in their set list but this kid chose to do an hour of live for the fans.

Jimin was out his room because Sungdeuk wanted to talk to Hoseok. They needed to work on spacing for Not Today. Their hyung thought they didn't maximize the stage well enough and he was also keen to give feedback on blockings for medley so they could properly execute group choreography for Bultaoreune.

Hoseok was too tired to get up his bed so he texted Jimin if he could get the notes in his place. Which Jimin was happy to do. He loved the fact that Hoseok trusted him and it gave him a sense of pride.

He and Sungdeuk were just about done talking when the older guy stopped him from his tracks by grabbing his arm.

“Can you tell Jungkook to tone it down a little? I heard he opened vapp but everyone's tired.”

Jimin honestly didn't want to deal with it. He was wearing his bathrobe without any make-up and only rushed out in the middle of his evening skin care routine because he wanted to be a useful dongsaeng to Hosoek and let him have an early rest. If he so much as spoke, audible for fans to hear, people were going to ask and he'd have to show himself on camera. Jeon Jungkook, really this kid should know when to stop.

“You know Jungkook listens to you well.”

Jimin jutted out his lower lip, “He doesn't.”

He could already imagine the maknae turning the volume up further for the sake of raising his hackles. Sungdeuk knew this but he was asking Jimin to do it because he knew Jimin couldn't say no when it came to Jungkook.

“Alright, alright,” he said, bobbing his head weakly and dragging his feet towards Jungkook’s room.

Across the end of the floor, he saw Taehyung towing right behind their leader who whispered him something. It made his friend glance at his direction and the next thing he knew, Namjoon was off his room and Taehyung was walking the opposite direction.

Taehyung got hold up by Sungdeuk who was midway his own room and right then, Jimin pressed on Jungkook’s room’s bell and twisted the knob open.

“I heard you from the neighboring room. Let me sleep,” he said, trying to keep his tone annoyed and nagging even when Jungkook was beaming at him so widely. “Stop singing in the middle of the night. Go to sleep.”

“You're losing me here, Jimin-ah. This is just you trying to discipline Jungkook. I would've scolded him the same.”

“Hyung,” Jimin replied sternly, eyes determined and a hand squeezing Yoongi’s thigh. “Did you watch it? Jungkook wanted my attention.”

Yoongi leaned back on his chair, challenging.

“Well, it wasn't even about that.”

His proof went beyond Jungkook's childish yet so endearing attempts to make Jimin come back and join his live. He slid the video right back to the moment and handed his phone in Yoongi’s hand.

When he crashed Jungkook's live that evening, Jimin had every intention to make an impression. After how people disregarded his precious, scant hours of work reprieve, he believed he deserved the screen time. It was tempting to test the waters to say the least. Not just with Jungkook. He wasn't dumb, well aware of his effect when he tried to appeal to someone.

“I don't know why you go to those lengths. They like you already,” Yoongi interrupted him mid-explanation, referencing to their fans. “What's more to prove?”

Jimin wondered to himself why but decided against it. “That's not the point, hyung,” he offered, not wanting to divert from the case at hand. They could ramble on about his insecurities later.

After confiscating the speaker that agitated Namjoon down to coordi noona who just finished fixing damaged buttons of their Blood, Sweat and Tears stage costumes, he went back in Jungkook’s room to greet their fans. A hand comb through his blond hair, cute sounds, zoom the bare face closer to the camera when he knew he just applied mask so he'd look good.

More important than that though was to stare at someone far longer than what was necessary that he’d be conscious to repay the attention. So he did what he knew would work, lure Jungkook's eyes to him and whisper. Mumble because that required someone to pay better heed and read his lips.

“That's not right, I was good at playing games a year ago.”

Then Jungkook would nod absentmindedly and whip his head towards his direction as Taehyung sang Chandelier in the background. Jimin wouldn't say it was the perfect song for the moment but it was good to have a song. Cause Jimin was aware they were recorded. He could go back to this, a song would help with epiphany and drama.

“What do you think?” he asked Yoongi who was squinting at his phone. Doubtful but probably a lot more convinced than he was five minutes ago. “I can be convincing if I want to.” He extended an arm to retrieve his phone.

He fell forward when his hyung suddenly pulled back to keep the small device out of reach. “I don't know if you're being serious about this.”

Jimin titled his head. “I am,” he said. “I am serious. Jungkook really likes me.”

He wasn't unreasonable. The kid had a habit of staring when someone would talk. He observed these things, sometimes obsessively, because it helped him understand the maknae better. So he knew why Jungkook would do it. He found it difficult to focus and physically directing his attention to someone would help him catch what they were trying to say better. It wouldn't be a deal then if Jimin was talking.

But when it was Namjoon who was put on spot to answer an English interview, their leader who still strove to speak a foreign language to represent the group, Jimin quite expected for Jungkook to listen… ogle.

“The korean teacher asked me a question, ‘What are the hardships of being a leader?’”

It wasn’t the first time Jungkook was caught. There was one at a fansign, then at the backstage of a music show, also during that one gayo episode and probably instances he wasn’t aware or the others he couldn’t remember. If Jimin wasn’t so busy overthinking things, he would have found it funny how Jungkook would play it cool and avert his gaze elsewhere. 

“There are hardships when we take positions, specifically being a leader...”

Namjoon continued his answer in the background while Jimin thought to himself what actually goes through the maknae’s head when he would look at him. Was the need so compelling that he’d do it or was Jimin really just that. Beautiful?

“Ya, do you hear yourself?”

Jimin giggled, his head falling back to comfortably rest on the loveseat. It was funny to call himself beautiful. Even he wouldn’t be that shameless.

The point still stands though. Jungkook would stare at him, and he would call him beautiful.

“It has to mean something right?”

He wanted to confirm the motivations behind the not-so-subtle attention. However, he didn’t want to do a repeat of the last time when he confronted Jungkook about the song. It made the air between them strained and the youngest would agonize in his presence. Jimin thought he was being shy so he’d hold back.

But then what about his own curiosity?

“You’re curious, that’s it,” Yoongi said plainly. “What would you do with that information?”

Jimin pursed his lips as he thought about it. 

Good point. Where was he leading with all these? He didn’t think that far enough. He wasn’t even done with his final proof.

“What do you think, hyung? What should I do about it?”

...To be continued

[papikakashikahn]

Jaebum/Serenity AU/ Request

Word Count: 4,378

This request is for @cutiepjy. Before you read, it’d be good to know that this relate’s to Jaebum’s song, Rainy. If you haven’t heard it before, I posted just the audio on my Tumblr, and the video is bellow this paragraph. Anyways, theres a part where he sings it (lol spoiler who?), and I put the English lyrics instead of the Korean obviously. Anyways though, just know it doesn’t rhyme. Other than that ENJOY. PS: To anyone just now reading this: Basically I have a list of 27 lyrics from several GOT7 songs. You can chose one or two, as well as a Member you’d like the request to be with, and dm me 😊. To read the forum click here! ANYWAYS! Hope you enjoy !!!

here’s rainy by Im Jaebum

se·ren·i·ty

/səˈrenədē/

noun

The state of being calm, peaceful, and untroubled.

  Spring was one of your most favorite times of the year. The weather was always fairly nice, being neither too hot or cold. It was the season where love was in the air, and the world was becoming lively since it’s winter hibernation. But this spring, you had felt oddly the opposite of lively. You and your group had just debuted two months ago, and although it should have been an exciting time for you, you were absolutely exhausted. It felt like the days were passing by monotonously. Maybe it was the stress, maybe it was insomnia… maybe it was even both, but you couldn’t sleep at night for the past 3 weeks. And when you did, it was for only a few hours past 4 am, just to wake up at 7am the same morning for practice. You just felt ready to faint at any moment, and you knew that obviously wasn’t a good sign.

   There were so many things going on lately that could be the source of your stress. Other than your debut, your distant ex-boyfriend had suggested the two of you see “other people”. You expected to be stress-free after debuting, but that was certainly not the case.

  At the very moment, you were standing at a bus stop, in the rain. But you hadn’t really cared to bring an umbrella with you today. You had come from dance practice, waiting for the bus that took you straight to the dorm you shared with your members. You must have looked like an absolute idiot to anyone around you, but you couldn’t have care less. You were indifferent to everything around you, you were just so tired. It was almost as if you were in a never-ending dream state, and after awhile that just becomes depressing. You leaned your forehead on the cool metal of the stop sign beside you, imagining going home and taking a nap. In your head, it was the thing you wanted most. You imagined going home on a rainy afternoon, curling up with a heating pad and a blanket, and falling asleep for hours on end. You were so tired you thought you might just sleep on the bus. You yawned at the thought of it. Maybe you wouldn’t even make it on the bus, maybe you could just fall asleep against this pole right here, right now.

  “Y/N?” a familiar voice prodded.

  You noticed the rain had stopped pouring on you, which was strange because you could still hear it. Your eyes fluttered open slowly to see a close friend of yours was standing before you, holding an umbrella over you.

   “Jaebum!” you exclaimed confused as to why he was here, although you really were happy to see him.

   “What are you doing out in the rain without an umbrella?” he asked, concern laced in his voice.

   Jaebum was always so attentive to you. For the past 3 years, the two of you had been very close friends, but you hadn’t talked to him all too much lately. It wasn’t because you didn’t want to, in fact, you really enjoyed Jaebum's company. But really, you hadn’t talked to anyone lately because of your situation.

   You shrugged slightly, leaning your head back onto the pole.

   “I just got done with dance practice.” you explained to him simply.

  “Ah, no wonder you look so tired.” he observed with a laugh. You glared at him. I mean, sure you knew you hadn’t been having a great sleep schedule, but why’d he have to say it like that?

  He probably realized that what he had said might have came off as offensive as his eyes darted elsewhere. “Ahem, anyways how have you been? We haven’t talked lately...” he said, sounding slightly disappointed.

  “I’ve been better. Sorry… I haven’t been feeling so good lately.” you muttered while twiddling with your fingers. You felt Jaebum staring at you, in that kind of concerned way again.

  “Are you hungry?” Jaebum asked suddenly. You looked up automatically at the mention of food. “Ah-um- no I just ate actually.” you explained trying to give a forced smile. Just then, your stomach began to growl. The two of you both looked down at it.

   “...Your stomach says otherwise.” Jaebum stated slyly while pointing to it. You rolled your eyes and crossed your arms.

Stupid stomach

  “I was heading to my studio, do you wanna come? I’ll make you ramen.” he suggested with one of his sheepish smiles. 

  ”Plus you could hear the song I’ve been working on! I’d really like your opinion on it actually...” he told you in an uncertain tone, while looking to the cement.

  There was no way in hell anyone could say no to Im Jaebum when he looked like THAT. And neither could you.

  You nodded your head simply, trailing beside him as he led the way.

  “So a new song you say?” you smirked, looking to him.

  His ears became red at the mention of it. 

  “I’ve been trying to write a song to show JYP, but all the ones I’ve already shown him, he’s shot down.” Jaebum explained with a sigh while rubbing the back of his neck.

  Your mouth naturally formed a pout at seeing how disappointed he looked.

  “It’s getting really frustrating if I’m being honest.” he sighed, twirling the handle of the umbrella. He then proceeded to look at you, slapping on a cheery smile.

  “But I have a really good feeling about this one I’m working on. It feels like my best work, I’m proud of it so far.” he confessed. You smiled at Jaebum as well. You thought he looked the most attractive when speaking about his songwriting. When Jaebum talked about his passions, it was almost so beautiful it could make you cry. His positive energy was refreshing.

  “I can’t wait to hear it.” you smiled at him genuinely.

  At first, you didn’t want to go to his studio with him, because right now you really didn’t have the energy to talk to anyone, but when you were with Jaebum you never felt tired. Jaebum was a great friend to you. Not only could he read you like a book, but when you were calm, he was energetic, and when you energetic, he was calm. In a sense, some could say you completed each other. Plus if Jaebum’s song DID turn out to be a hit, you wanted to be able to boast that you were one of the first ones to hear it.

   While reviewing this all in your head, you hadn’t even noticed you were about to walk right into someone. When you had looked up realizing there was someone right in front of you, you hadn’t had enough time to move out of the way. Thankfully though, Jaebum pulled your arm so that you were out of the man's way just in time. 

 After a moment you looked to Jaebum who was staring at you, with eyes full of concern.

  Jaebum was always such a gentleman. He was ever so cautious and thoughtful, especially over the small things, which was something you liked about him a lot. Just this time last year, you had a crush on him. You never diverged more into what the two of you’s relationship could be outside of friends, because just months later that spring, you had gotten a boyfriend. The odd thing was that when your ex-boyfriend had suggested you’d see other people, you hadn’t cried over it. You often questioned if that was even okay, considering you were with him for 7 months. Nevertheless, you had never gotten any confirmation if Jaebum liked you back. It was only a mere crush.   

  Then again, it was possible the two of you were just friends and your feelings were getting misconstrued. That happened often when you had guy friends ..,right?

   What was odd though, you thought, was just after he touched your arm just now you felt slightly more awake.

  You then proceeded to look to the side at Jaebum. His skin was tan and dewy, his jawline sharp, and his hair wavy from the rain. He had two beauty marks under his eye that were so perfect they looked like tattoos. It was no wonder he had so many fans. Jaebum was handsome as hell.

  Being too distracted admiring Jaebum’s perfect imperfections, you hadn’t noticed that your clumsy ass was about to walk into the street, when it wasn’t your turn to cross.

   Before you had gone too far, Jaebum pulled you back to him. Realizing this, you looked to Jaebum in shock, only to find him as in shock as well.

  His eyebrows furrowed together, trying to figure out why you were acting so oblivious to your surroundings...twice within 5 minutes. It was then that Jaebum probably realized there was something really wrong going on with you, and that it was more than you just not feeling well lately.

   Sighing yet again, he let go of your arm, the back of his hand grazing against yours. The rest of the way to JB’s private studio, you kept on looking from your hand to his, wondering if he was going to grabs yours, or if you should just grab his. Would that be too forward? Was that weird of friends to do?

  On arriving at the secluded alleyway where Jaebum’s private studio could be found, his hands dug in his pockets to find his keys, to which he used to unlock the gate. Allowing you to enter first politely, he then proceeded to close the gate behind the two of you. The both of walked down a shady flight of stairs to meet an orange door on the side of the building. Jaebum used the same set of keys to open this door as well.

   Stepping inside the studio, you were reminded of just how long it had been since you had visited. You had only been to JB’s private studio a few times before, but for some reason, it was even nicer to you now.

   “Did you change something about the place?” you asked him, having a look around. 

  “No, why?” he asked in response. You ran your fingers across his keyboard. “It just feels…” you turned around to face him. “More professional.” you smirked to him. 

  Jaebum looked you up and down.

  “No, It didn’t change much. Maybe it’s because you just haven’t been around lately.” he responded nonchalantly, sitting in his desk chair beside you. You narrowed your eyes at the seemingly shady comment, as he spun the chair around in a circle once or twice before turning to you, and giving you an innocent look.

  “...What?” he questioned staring at you like he didn’t know why you were glaring at him.

  You crossed your arms and walked over to his couch on the other side of the room. “I said I’m sorry, you don’t have to hold it against me ya know, making me feel guilty and shit.” you groaned, taking a seat.

  He studied you for a few seconds, before looking down at his phone.

“I’m just stating the facts. If you feel guilty about not visiting your best friend of 3 years for weeks, then that's on you, not me.” he declared before swiveling to face the computer. 

  You knew he could feel your glare on the back of his neck because he looked over his shoulder at you.

   “Yah! Best friends don’t give each other backhanded comments!” you exclaimed annoyed.

   “Best Friends don’t ignore each other for 3 weeks.” he responded without even looking at you.

   You rolled your eyes and flopped down on the couch, stretching your arms.

“I didn’t know you were one to hold grudges, Jaebummie.” you whined, turning to face the back of the couch, snuggled into it after feeling a sudden wave of tiredness come over you.

   “I’ll get over it. Anyways, do you wanna hear the song now or order food?” he asked you.

   When he got no response he repeated his question. “Y/N?” he questioned, turning around to find you asleep. He scoffed to himself. Did he bring you all the way here just for you to fall asleep? Jaebum rolled his eyes and got up. He was about to wake you up and nag at you some more, but when remembering just how tired you were at the bus stop, he refrained himself. 

  Not to mention you looked so peaceful sleeping, he didn’t want to disturb you. With a sigh, he walked into another room, and returned with a blanket he usually slept with when having an all-nighter. He placed it over you gently, smiling at how quick you fell asleep. He couldn’t help but stand and stare at you for a few seconds before he turned around and opened the window beside his desk. This way the room would be less stuffy. He then proceeded to sit in his swivel chair and work on his computer.

   When you woke up from your nap, you stretch and yawned, forgetting where you were to begin with. Your eyes shot open when you realized a few things.

 1.) That was the first time in weeks you had slept on a whim, and 2.) you were at Jaebum’s. 

  You rolled over in search of Jaebum, but instead you found a seemingly empty studio. Jaebum was not at his desk like he was before you took your nap.

  You yawned tiredly, scanning the room over. Slowly, your eyes landed on a few photos tapped onto the wall beside his keyboard. You stood up curiously and wandered over to it.

  There were several different photos. A lot were of the rain.

  You wondered why he had so many random pictures of the rain posted on his wall. Your eyes were then drawn to a photo of what seemed to be Yugyeom and Youngjae on a plane. You smiled to yourself. it made you happy that JB had great friends like Yugyeom and Youngjae, as well as the rest of GOT7, who loved and supported him.

You fingertips touched the polaroid, feeling slightly guilty for not being around recently. It was a privilege to be apart of Im Jaebum’s life, and lately you took that for granted.

   “You’re awake.” Jaebum’s voice wrang beside you, causing you to jump. 

  As you retreated your hand from the photo, tense, Jaebum couldn’t help but laugh at your reaction.

  In his hands, he held a box of chicken you assumed, as well as 2 bottles of beer. “I ordered chicken and beer for us.” he announced. You felt your mouth water at the mention of it.

  “How long was I asleep?” you asked, changing the subject. 

  “An hour or so.” he responded after setting the box down elsewhere. He made his way over to you and the pictures.

   You felt tense in his presence and guilty, almost like you were caught in the act of doing something bad...but you were only looking at pictures. Jaebum had this strange effect of making you second guess your every move.

   As Jaebum stood directly next to you, his broad shoulders only a few inches from yours, he stared at the pictures on the wall with you.

   “I took that picture of Yugyeom and Youngjae when we were going to Japan.” he explained. You smiled at it, then looking to Jaebum. 

  “I’m glad you have friends like Yugyeom and Youngjae. They’re definitely better best friends than me... that's for sure.” you laughed to yourself, but it came out more depressing then you intended. Jaebum looked at you out of the corner of his eyes, indifferently. You looked back at the photos.

   “Ahem… so… what're all the pictures of the rain for?” you asked him, trying to lighten the mood.

  “...Well pictures give me inspiration for my songs, the rain ones influenced the song I've most recently been working on.” he explained to you. You raised your eyebrows staring at them all. It was interesting his method of creating music… but why such a depressing thing as rain?

   “But… why rain? It’s so… sad.” you questioned, looking to him. There was something in the way Jaebum’s eyes flickered when he turned to you that caused you to shiver.

   “It’s best just to show you.” he stated simply. You raised your eyebrow at him as he walked past you to the keyboard.

   He then looked to you over his shoulder, and patted the empty space on the bench, as if to inviting you to sit down.

  Hesitantly, you sat in the spot he directed you to, as he stood over you. He leaned down, his hands grabbing a hold of yours.

Your body tensed again, as this was totally unexpected.

“Girl, just let me hold your hand.” Jaebum whispered to you.

His breath on your neck caused you to shiver, because of its warmth contrasting with the rain’s cold. It was good he was behind you so he wouldn’t have been able to see your blush.

   With his hands perfectly aligned with yours, he started to play on the keyboard, pushing down your fingers with his to play a few notes. He LITERALLY could play you like an instrument. But it was when we started singing that every hair on your body stood up.

  ‘Since I’ve been distant from you, for me it’s been rainy all the time

   Even if I have an umbrella to avoid it, It’s just a work in vain

   Can’t erase you, over you

   I know that this isn’t it but

   Even today by myself I’m constantly

   I love you I love you, alone

   No one, not even my friends can understand me

   This world is getting stained by rain

   I don’t know why I can’t let you go baby,

   I don’t know why I can’t forget you

   Your way of talking each and every way of your expression

   That’s left for me

   I can’t throw them away easily

   It’s raining again

   You (always)

   Make me depressed

   Think of you (always)

   It’s the same anyways

   Even if I think it will be okay

   The whole world is bruised all around

   The whole day Is gloomy

   The future that I see is no

   Over you

   I shouldn't be doing this

   But my heart, repeat it over again

   I love you I love you, alone’

  His voice became soft towards the end of the song. He sang it so well your eyes began to slightly water. You were at a loss for words.

  You didn’t even have to say anything, it was obvious what you were thinking when you looked at Jaebum, who was still hovering over you, his hands still overlaying yours.

  His face turned red as a result of just performing in front of you.

“That song is perfect.” you finally stated. He cleared his throat. “Thankyou.” he smiled.

  “Seriously, everything about it was perfect... the words, the chords, EVERYTHING Jaebum! Everything about it made me want to listen to it on repeat! It’s the first sad song I actually liked!” you exclaim excitedly.

“Thank you Y/N.” he repeated.

  You were truly in love with the song and you wanted to get that through his head.

  “Everything was thought of so well!!! The fact that the chords are sorta happy & jazzy, but they’re supporting the monotone lyrics!!!” you shouted. “I-It kinda reminded me of today.” you began.

  “A rainy spring day. It’s supposed to be a happy season, yet you’re not happy, you’re lonely… like a rainy day.” you nodded your head to yourself. “Your theme was perfect! I understand the pictures now.” you understood.

Turning your head back to him you had thought of something.

  “The lyrics talked about a one-sided love in the middle of spring...” you observed while studying Jaebum. “...I’m guessing this is about you?” you asked quietly.

  His eyes darted elsewhere as he stood up. You ignored the feeling of deprivation at the bottom of your heart because you were just too eager to hear his answer.

  Jaebum nodded his head.

  You sighed, looking back down to the keyboard. “We haven’t talked for 3 weeks and you’ve already been in a relationship AND got your heart broken?” you scoffed.

   You really missed a lot these past 3 weeks.

  “Jaebum, I’m so sorry I haven’t been there for you latl-” Jaebum’s loud snicker interrupted you of your serious apology.

  You snapped your head in his direction to find him laughing his ass off.

 “What is so funny!? I’m being serious Jaebum, I’m sorry!” you apologized. Jaebum still couldn't stop laughing though for whatever reason. In fact, he had his face in his hands, shaking his head.

  “What!?” you shouted at him, wanting to know what was oh-so funny.

  After he was somewhat finished with his laughing fit, he looked to you without saying anything.

  You blew a piece of hair out of your face in annoyance. “Who is this bitch you’re talking about anyways? You can’t fight her, but I will.” you affirmed, proceeding to crack your knuckles. You looked to Jaebum waiting for an answer, but all you could find was a smirk plastered on his face.

  “Who is it!!?? I need a name!” You exclaimed, waving your arms. Jaebum’s smile then faded, as he looked to the pictures on the wall again.

  “No one.” he muttered to you. You rolled your eyes at his response.

  “That's BS JB and you know it! Didn’t you say we’re best friends!??” you pleaded with him. Your pleads caused him to look at you out of the corner of his eyes, but with still no response. You stood up from the bench and touched his arm cautiously.

  “Best Friends don’t keep secrets from each other! You can tell me anything! Tell me!” you whined, trying to console with him, but he wouldn't budge.

  You looked to the ground guiltily. It was obvious he wasn’t going to tell you considering you hadn’t talked to him in 3 weeks. Why would he tell someone who doesn't seem to want to be in his life anyways, something so personal as heartbreak? You sighed understanding his silence now.

   “I understand now Jaebum, I’m really sorry I haven’t been around-” “It’s about you.” he interrupted.

   Your eyes darted up to meet his.

   “What?” you asked in shock. His eyes narrowed down at you, in a half-lidded type way. Slowly he pressed you against the side of the keyboard in one swift motion.

  “You heard me Y/N. The song is about YOU.” he repeated again. Your throat became dry at his sudden austere manner. It was hard to make eye contact with him when he was looking at you like that.

   “Why...why the hell would you write a sad love song about me!?!” you exclaimed defensively.

He still remained silently looking at you.

   “JAEBUM!” you shouted at him. Your yelling didn’t seem to phase him in the slightest.

   “ANSWER ME! I deserve answers at least!” You yelled. “YOU’RE the one who deserves an answer?” he scoffed. You ran your tongue over your teeth.     

  “YOU’RE THE ONE WHO DIDN’T TALK TO ME FOR 3 WEEKS! NO CALLS, NO TEXTS, NOTHING! What up with that!!??” he fumed, pressing you furthermore against the keyboard. One of your hands pushed down a few keys behind you, making a loud chime of notes. Thank god he bought soundproofing pads for the walls, or else someone would have definitely heard the two of you.

A shame the chicken was probably cold by now.

  You pointed your finger into his chest. “I DIDN’T TALK TO EVERYONE FOR THREE WEEKS!” you beckoned. He furrowed his eyebrows together looking offended. “AM I JUST EVERYONE TO YOU?” he questioned loudly.

   It was almost as if your head couldn’t keep up with his questions.

“Yes… I mean-no!” “THEN WHAT AM I TO YOU!!?!?” he barked. 

“MY SERENITY!”

  The two of you stared at each other for a moment, trying to catch your breaths after the screaming match between the two of you. But that didn’t last for long considering you and Jaebum went at it the next second… with your mouths that is.

  At that moment, the two of you simultaneously went for each other's lips. You both had surprised yourself considering the two of you had thought of the same thing, but it didn’t take long for you and Jaebum to get adjusted. Jaebum gripped your waist roughly, pushing you somewhat on top of the keyboard, to which several keys chimed loudly. Your hands went from his neck to his hair, being indecisive. You proceeded to wrap your legs around his waist.

  Being with Jaebum today made you a realize a few things about your life that you hadn’t noticed before, aside from the fact that Jaebum was a great kisser...you realized that you hadn’t avoided Jaebum due to your stress, but rather because seeing Jaebum during this time of year reminded you of how you felt him ever since last spring, and how you’ve been feeling towards him since.

  You don’t just get over a crush from dating someone else, feelings don’t just go away after you’ve tried suppressed them, or ignore them. They’ll always be there until you address it. You knew once you hung out with him, the truth about your feelings would come out. You thought ignoring him would be the only way to prevent it, but it turns out not only were you hurt in the process, but so was Jaebum.

  Your hand pushed on Jaebum’s chest to pause the makeout session for a second. Ignoring the look of desperation on his face, you proceeded to ask a question that had been on your mind ever since.

  “...So what am I to you?” you asked him. He leaned in close to you once again, forming just enough space between the two of your lips.

“You can be my finest, you can be my all.” he answered, proceeding to peck you on your lips. It did not take long for the two of you to get back to where you had left off.

Who knew addressing one’s feelings could be so rewarding?

[is6621]

The Doctor is In(ternet) by Allison Puglisi

As an upstate New Yorker, my quarantine activities consisted of either a) hiking in the Catskills, or b) hiking in the Adirondacks. Which was great… until I slipped and my ankle turned an ugly blue and purple color. With my county deep in quarantine and Gov. Cuomo showing no signs of releasing us anytime soon, I connected with Dr. Parekh, a podiatrist located 1,000 miles away. I logged onto my computer at my designated time, showed him my foot via different angles through my phone camera, and was logged off and picking up a prescription 30 minutes later. The telehealth industry is booming as millions of Americans are unwilling or unable to venture into a doctor’s office, which begs the question...will we ever go back to our old normal?

What is Telehealth?

While virtually connecting with medical professionals has become far more popular during the COVID-19 pandemic, the concept has been around for much longer than you might think. Way back in the 1900s, the advent of the radio led to some innovators dreaming about radio doctors. Only a few decades later, in the late 1960s, clinicians at the University of Nebraska were the first to use two-way video setups to send information to medical students; less than five years later they had advanced to performing video consultations.

Telehealth has been especially prevalent in rural areas, giving individuals who live remotely access to medical professionals hundreds of miles away. However, it did not become popularized in society for many years. In 2013, the number of telehealth users was less than 350,000. By 2018, this number was projected to rise to 7 million… a big jump, but still not very widespread or readily available, at least until the coronavirus pandemic of this year.

Telehealth in the Era of Coronavirus and Beyond

COVID hit medical professionals hard as states began quarantining in mid-March. Not only were many residents in quarantine; they were afraid and unwilling to go see a doctor for anything less than dire circumstances. To combat this issue, many medical providers began offering amped-up telehealth offerings. By April, approximately 54% of medical visits were conducted virtually, a massive increase on previous numbers. Engaging in telehealth visits creates a virtual barrier between doctors and patients, and between patients and other visitors, which is especially useful now as social distancing is so heavily needed.

Apps are already popping up to help make your telehealth visit easier. Providers like ZocDoc and FollowMyHealth allow you to communicate with providers, schedule visits, request prescriptions, and pay entirely remotely. I’ve become a big FollowMyHealth user in the past six months, communicating with my neurologist and her team entirely remotely, shooting IMs back and forth to make sure my prescriptions are updated and my virtual visits are confirmed, and I’d estimate I’ve saved ~3 hours of my life every time: 1 hour for my roundtrip car ride to the doctors’ office, 1 hour for the wait and visit, and 1 hour for the time I typically spend playing phone tag with the nurses to make sure everything is all set. I’m not a mathematician, but those numbers don’t lie: there are some serious perks to telehealth.

We are in an age where consumers are overwhelmingly looking for the easiest, most convenient, most seamless user experience possible. A recent Accenture survey showed that 76% of consumers would be willing to do a virtual follow-up exam, and 70% would participate in a virtual visit for a non-urgent health matter. Telehealth visits will never make up 100% of our medical practices in the United States (I don’t even want to imagine what telehealth surgery or childbirth would look like), but they aren’t going to rapidly disappear once COVID is gone. Even after the coronavirus is (hopefully, eventually) no longer a concern when making medical appointments, expect to still see many telehealth options at your office. Why wouldn’t this be the logical next step in an age of incredible convenience and speed?

Sources

https://evisit.com/resources/history-of-telemedicine/

https://blog.evisit.com/virtual-care-blog/36-telemedicine-statistics-know#:~:text=The%20number%20of%20patients%20using,less%20than%20350%2C000%20in%202013.&text=Already%2C%2029%20states%20require%20health,(as%20of%20August%202015).

https://www.medpagetoday.com/infectiousdisease/covid19/87340

https://www.beckershospitalreview.com/telehealth/it-s-time-to-meet-patients-where-they-are-telehealth-in-the-age-of-covid-19.html