#astraea's thoughts

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OKAY! So.

I am currently working on a new Playlist video! This one is based on my fic Beyond the Veil and Into the Dark and it's themed around the first 27 chapters.

I will be working on it over the next few days, but my internet is being shitty, plus it's raining (which makes my already shit internet 10x worse) so when it'll be uploaded, I don't quite know.

Anywho, I'll share when it's up!

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Looks like fun

anonymously make an assumption about me and i'll confirm/deny it

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Okay, so...

I may have started another fic. Again, this one will remain unposted for some time, while I work on writing and posting more of the others, but it will join the others sooner or later.

Essentially, this one is based roughly on the concept of the anime Alya sometimes hides her feelings in Russian.

⚠ More details below the cut, but it will basically be an uneloquent version of the idea's general premise that I came up with.

Basically, what if Hiruma spoke more than one language, and found himself flirting with Sena in that language, thinking he can't understand?

Unbeknownst to him, Sena can speak the language, and is silently hiding a mental crisis.

Alongside that, I decided to merge this with another separate prompt idea, cuz I thought it would be especially interesting.

Sena, after his father died when he was 8 (not long after Riku left) moved with his mom back to her hometown in the Philippines. Things didn't get better for Sena, seeing as he's always a target, and without Mamori there to 'protect him' he had to find a way to survive, and fast.

Enter stage right: Backbone

Now, back in Japan, Sena is navigating the manga's events, and Hiruma is down bad suffering for it.

Please welcome to the stage...

Hiruma Hides His Feelings In Russian

You can thank me later for this disaster 😄

Current count in the vault as of this post: 9 chapters, 40 pages

P.S. The whole Filipino thing was because of this meme:

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Deimon Devilbat Headcanons

Hiruma Yōichi:

Sexuality Headcanon: Gay or Omnisexual

Gender Headcanon: Cisgender, but he couldn't care less about gender norms

A ship I have with said character: Hiruma/Sena will always be my main, but I can also see Hiruma/Musashi

A random headcanon: The black around his eyes? Eyeliner. Soon to become a tattoo.

General Opinion over said character: I love this psychotic boy

Sena Kobayakawa:

Sexuality Headcanon: GAY BOI

Gender Headcanon: Libramasculine (It means to be primarily Agender with some hints of masculine)

A ship I have with said character: Hiruma/Sena FOREVER but Shin/Sena, Riku/Sena, Juumonji/Sena and a few other more minor ships (Kakei/Sena and Yamato/Sena) are some casual likes of mine.

A random headcanon: He would 110% be the first out of all them to get a tattoo

General Opinion over said character: Precious cinnamon roll (who is not a cinnamon roll)

Gen “Musashi” Takekura:

Sexuality Headcanon: Bisexual

Gender Headcanon: FtM Trans Icon and you can’t tell me otherwise

A ship I have with said character: Hiruma/Musashi

A random headcanon: He is 100% taller than Hiruma. He gives me tall vibes. Also, he can read Hiruma pretty well.

General Opinion over said character: Good Boi

Kurita Ryokan:

Sexuality Headcanon: He gives me many vibes, but primarily Gay/Ace

Gender Headcanon: Masc Nonbinary

A ship I have with said character: I honestly can’t think of a ship for this cinnamon roll. Maybe Kurita/Gaou, but idk

A random headcanon: He’s not as naive or innocent as he looks and when his friends start in on more interesting conversations, he is very much interested in listening LOL

General Opinion over said character: Cinnamon roll

Raimon “Monta” Tarou:

Sexuality Headcanon: Straight. That’s all I have to say about him on this front

Gender Headcanon: Cisgender, but possibly Demiboy

General Opinion over said character: Funny Monkey

Mamori Anezaki:

Sexuality Headcanon: Bisexual, possibly Lesbian

Gender Headcanon: Cisgender

A random headcanon: Her type is Milfs and Buff women

General Opinion over said character: Sometimes bothers me, but she’s silly and fun

Suzuna Taki:

Sexuality Headcanon: Bi/Ace

Gender Headcanon: Demigirl

A ship I have with said character: Suzuna/Karin (I just think it'd be cute)

A random headcanon: She has a sixth sense, and knows when her friends start dating/get crushes

General Opinion over said character: Cute, silly, and fun

Kazuki Juumonji:

Sexuality Headcanon: Gay, possibly Bisexual

Gender Headcanon: Cis

A ship I have with said character: Juumonji/Sena

A random headcanon: He would hurt anyone who harasses his friends. Said friends are well aware of him being gay, but since he doesn't want the whole world knowing, they make an effort to make sure people don’t find out (but do a bad job of it)

General Opinion over said character: He protecc

Koji Kuroki:

Sexuality Headcanon: Bisexual

Gender Headcanon: He’s cis, but people keep expecting him to come out as something -anything really- at some point

A random headcanon: He’s well aware Juumonij is gay and doesn't want people to know, so he tries to throw people off that thought whenever it’s brought up.

General Opinion over said character: Game Addict (mood)

Shozo Togano:

Sexuality Headcanon: Straight

Gender Headcanon: Nonbinary

A random headcanon: He’s the one that gets the most angry over any bigotry directed at his friends. Kuroki and Juumonji have had to forcefully take the bat from his hands a few times. He's especially bad at hiding Juumonji's sexuality, but that's just because he's a doofus

General Opinion over said character: Manga Nerd (mood)

Daikichi Komusubi:

A random headcanon: He can speak normally, he just likes to watch people’s confusion when he doesn’t

General Opinion over said character: Mini cinnamon roll

Manabu Yukimitsu:

Sexuality Headcanon: Aro/Ace

Gender Headcanon: Questioning

A random headcanon: After graduation, he made it a hobby of his to help his friends analyze their matches

General Opinion over said character: Dude, can I have some of that determination? I’ve lost mine.

Natsuhiko Taki:

Sexuality Headcanon: You’ve undoubtedly heard of “Flamboyant Gay” but he somehow accomplishes being “Flamboyant Straight”

Gender Headcanon: Cis, but people wouldn’t be surprised if he came out at some point.

A random headcanon: He’s not good at flirting, simply because he has no idea how to be subtle, nor does he even really know what flirting consists of.

General Opinion over said character: Silly boi lacks braincells

Tetsuo Ishimaru:

A random headcanon: His soul has withered up long ago. Look in his eyes. You can’t deny that.

General Opinion over said character: Poor bastard just got dragged into this mess and went along with it… Admirable

Doburoku Sakaki:

A random headcanon: He’s incredibly confused how so many people on the team are queer, but just rolls with it

General Opinion over said character: Drunk but has some wisdom somewhere in that alcohol-clouded brain of his

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Headcanon Thought: Hiruma deals with Arachnophobia

@fandonnavyce and I were talking about one of my future prompts, and this thought came up!

It's a normal and mundane fear, and nothing of the like ever comes up in canon! So here we go, some random thoughts from me and Vyce on the topic:

Random situation, let's say they have to walk down a spider-infested hallway. Dude would find 101 reasons to not do so, and will fire gunshots to scare the others into going in his stead. No one questions it, of course. It's Hiruma, after all!

EXCEPT Musashi, who gives Hiruma a side glance that just screams "I know what you are"

Hiruma will have a 3-meter-away staring contest with a spider, silently willing it to fucking go away so he can pass

He will randomly kick someone, and out of context, no one gives it any thought. In reality, he saw a spider, and kicked them that way to squish it.

He'll suddenly pull out his flamethrower and torches a bush. No one questions it. (The bush was absolutely infested)

He may have a stone-cold poker face on while doing this, but he's screeching unintelligible demonic noises internally

Of course, he will kill them himself. Usually with a well-aimed bullet, or flamethrower. No one thinks twice. "It's Hiruma. To him, "there's no Kill like Overkill" (thanks to Vyce for that quote LOL)

To Hiruma, there's Over-the-Top, and Disappointing. Nothing else, no in between

[HiruSena Extension] - aka Future Fic spoiler

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Any other writers out here

✨struggling✨

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Hiruma saying this to Vamp!Sena

Based on this meme I found on Twitter ahem I mean... "X"

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Quick Question

For those who saw my previous post, I made a pic for a fic quote. Would you be interested in seeing more of them? (Higher quality, of course. I just derped and made it too small LOL)

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My Upload Schedule for the Month of December

Once more subjected to change.

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I'd love to hear what any of you have to say!

New ask game:

Reblog if you want your followers to tell you what your trademark ™️ is. Like, what’s that thing that really identifies you.

[celesteablack]

Today, I accidentally picked up a red pen while writing, and I instantly hated it, so bright, so harsh, it almost hurt my eyes. And it took me back to a memory: when I was a child, I loved red pens. I used to play “teacher-teacher,” pretending to be in charge, and the red pen felt like a symbol of power, importance; something I deeply desired but was too shy to ask for. It felt out of reach, something magical and grown up. And now? I have red pens. I’ve bought them. I use them. I need them sometimes. But I don’t love them anymore. They feel too loud, too overwhelming.

And that’s when it struck me, maybe growing up is exactly like that red pen. As a child, I dreamed of being older, being independent, being mature. I craved it, thinking it would bring me freedom and joy. But now that I’m here, now that I have all those things, it feels too bright. Too much. It pokes at my peace. And I find myself thinking; this isn't what I thought I wanted.

[aaja-pia-tohe-pyaar-du]

I never really felt like I belonged. Not truly. Not with my family, not with my friends, not even with acquaintances. Yeah, there were moments, times I had real friends, people who saw me. But then life happened, my father's postings, their own shifting paths, and we drifted. Slowly, silently. And I was left behind.

I've never truly known that feeling of belonging, not in shared laughter, not in teasing jokes, not in loud, chaotic fights. I was just… there. Smiling like I meant it, sitting quietly, wondering how long before I'd be alone again.

It's in the way I always came last on the priority list. The way I was left out of cousin hangouts. The way my interests were laughed at, not leaned into. Maybe because they were all boys, and I was just the girl, the odd one out. A burden, maybe. So why bother taking me along?

And so I sat, again, with people twice my age, absorbing their critiques like bruises: how wrong I was, how short I was, how incapable I seemed to be. And it never ended. "You're always on your phone," they said. But no one asked why.

Why I was always the one left out.

Why I was trying so hard to hide my tears.

Why my hands kept shaking.

Why I dug my fingernails into my skin just to hold it all together.

They never looked beyond the surface. Never saw the quiet battles. Never really saw me.

All they saw was someone who wasn't enough. No one ever stayed long enough to see who I truly was.

[marchioness-of-the-flowers]

I only got interested in Elden Ring after the DLC came out so I don't know what the fandom was like before, but I thought Miquella being morally questionable was actually a super interesting plot twist.

Not necessarily in that "good guy is actually bad guy," way, but in how it plays with the player's expectations. It really surprised me to learn how controversial it was.

Miquella in the base game is only truly selfless demi-god, with a dream of a world of kindness and equality. He represents the "perfect option"

One thing that Elden Ring shares with it's FROMSOFTWARE predecessors is that there are no perfect options.

In the basegame, this concept is carried out by having this "perfect option" unavailable to you. Miquella has been diminished by Mogh's mad actions, reducing him to a thin arm falling out of a strange cocoon.

It's part of the tragedy, That even if you wanted to fix everything, you cant.

The DLC furthers this concept, revealing that this perfect option never even existed to begin with.

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More than happy to get stuff like that in my inbox!

Reblog if you write fic and people can inbox you random-ass questions about your stories, itemized number lists be damned.

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If you do end up writing for ATLA, which ships would you write for?

Honestly? Tokka, Zukka, or Tophzula

(I don't think i have in a bone in my body that will allow me to write a straight relationship. I have too much fun making things gay LOL)

[celesteablack]

"you drew stars around my scars."

That one line. So simple, so soft, and yet, it holds galaxies of emotion. It’s the kind of love that doesn’t run from your pain, but paints it golden. The kind of presence that doesn't flinch at your cracks but kisses each one like a prayer.

And somewhere, in another quiet corner, it echoes:

“Kis liye tu itna udaas? Sukhe sukhe honth, ankhiyon mein pyaas… kis liye? Aaja piya, tohe pyaar du.”

Two different moments. Two different hearts.

But the same ache. The same tenderness.

they find each other in the same feeling.

That quiet yearning. That softness that doesn't demand healing first. Just the permission to love you through it.

The kind of love that's full of warmth, it makes even your wounds feel seen.

Like someone gently saying, “You’re safe. You can rest.”

And maybe, just maybe…..you start to believe them.