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jmin · 2 years

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went thru the traumatic experience of hanging out with highschool acquaintances and having to explain how my life sucks rn and I’m still not over that conversation

#the humiliation #the cringe #they even made me spell it out bc apparently my social cues weren’t enough #and everyone was looking right at me #like literally no one bothered to include me on conversation throughout the night and the only time I don’t want to be part of it #they all suddenly are so interested lmao #ah it’s really hard sitting with people you feel like you have to prove something to #and you absolutely can’t bc you’re exactly the failure they all thought you would be #like I clearly remember getting out of highschool and thinking clearly I didn’t want to see this people until I had my shit together #surprise almost 10 years later and I don’t #I don’t have my shit together and I think that’s okay a lot of people don’t #but it’s so extremely painful when you’re the only one in the table who doesn’t lol #and when they treat you like shit for it #like damn this guy asked me what I was doing for a living #and I said nothing and didn’t want to get into details but he actually made me explain it #bc apparently he doesn’t understand the concept of unemployment #which fair since he’s so privileged and full of connections and probably unemployment was never on the table for him #but like I’m not you bro leave it alone #and I felt myself making excuses like ‘yeah I’ve been studying and finished my post grad’#and he was all like ‘and?’ fuck dude there’s nothing else leave me alone lmao #I don’t need to be reminded of my problems you’ve never even knew me well #stop talking like you’re demanding me something lmao #anyways I’ll delete this in a sec maybe #it’s been like two days already and my anxiety about it won’t leave #I can’t stop thinking about it and feeling humiliated and retracing every single thing I said that night #which wasn’t much like I said I was mostly cast out lol #none of my actual friends were there except for the one I went there for #but he had all these people there for him so naturally he couldn’t give me that much attention I had to make do with the other people #which means I only observed them talk and laughed when it was appropriate LMAO #l.txt

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