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rosaetae · 7 years

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sweet apple biscuits

pairing: jungkook x reader

genre: angst, 'orange' au

word count: 15.5k

a/n: inspired by the anime 'orange' which made me cry like a little bum. ALSO! make sure you look at the dates to not confuse yourself in each transition. it’s ordered in dd/mm/yy and the italics are what’s written in the letters. this took me awhile to write, but it’s finally here- so please enjoy ok goodbye.

summary: a story about someone who receives letters from themselves ten years in the future and asks them to fix all their regrets and save a particular boy.

“Hold him and love him. Tell him how you feel. Tell him how much he means to you. And whatever you do, never let go of him.”

07/04/27

Life was never how you would plan it and you knew exactly that.

They say that life is unbearable if you make it unbearable- and as half of that statement is true, half of that statement is life on its own having a way of unravelling itself before you. As if it were knots to seams to threads- life had untied itself in an inevitable way, you could no longer complain anymore.

So as you stood at the pile of stones stacked before you, being a daily routine every week to visit, you couldn't help but have this fervent dislike for life for awhile. The air smelled like daisies and you knew it was his favorite flower next to apple blossoms. The sun peaked through the clouds as the very few sun rays familiarly kissed your skin as you were reminded of when he kissed yours. And you missed him.

But it had been exactly 10 years. 10 years had been enough for healing and resenting for all the mistakes and regrets that could have been avoided but all you could think about was how it would have been different.

Would you have been standing there, endlessly crying if you could've changed how you were? Would you have been married to him within these past years if you held onto his hand a bit longer? Would you even be thinking about the regrets from 10 years ago and just wonder if you could actually change it if you were given the possibility to?

If only you could take a needle and thread and sew life together in hopes that you could fix everything,

But then again, life was never how you would plan it and you knew exactly that.

19/03/17

Two things happened that day.

One.

An unusual envelope decorated with strawberry washy tape- in which you had the same one- and was written to you in blue ink in the same hand writing as yours had surprised that morning. There was no particular name that said who it was from nor were there any stamps on it.

Being curious, you had opened it during your 8 am class of philosophy- in which you despised with a heart aching passion- and sat there bewildered the whole time when before you was a letter with handwriting that was too identical to yours and ripped pages from your day journal. You bit your lip in astonishment at the papers you held in your hand.

You turned to the one that had you completely baffled when you read the first thing written on top.

Dear Past Y/N,

That simple introduction had your eyebrows furrow in confusion- but your brain laughed it off, declaring that it was just a prank from your sister of some sort who probably ripped out pages from your day journal (in which you'll find retribution soon).

But when you continue reading with a curl of your lips, it soon fades as the words start to become hair raising.

Before you freak out or assume this is a prank, this is Y/N 10 years into the future and not your sister, and I'm writing to you in hopes you would do me a favor.

Biting your lip, you subconsciously continue.

I ask for you to fix my regrets and mistakes that I still think about as of now. There are pages from your day journal that you had written inside the envelope and I need you to fix everything that I tell you in order to change the future.

You might think this is some sort of joke, but on the second of March, a boy switches into your class- and his name is Jungkook. He sits next to you and I really want you to introduce yourself to him because it took him awhile for him to introduce himself to you. It's small, but a little can go a long way.

Just please do it.

As someone who had grown out of naivety, you have grown to never fall for things like this- but you saw that the rest of the pages seemed to be ripped pages from your day journal had really caught you off guard. And the letter itself could not help your mind fully register what you just read. You wanted to laugh, just crumple up the paper along with your so-called pages, and continue on with your life making your own decisions, but you just couldn't.

And that's when the second event happened that day.

The door of the classroom had opened, and usually you ignore those who had walked in, but your eyes had flickered from the papers in your hand to the boy of strange familiarity who had strolled into the class with an aura that made you think of a raven due to his dark hair and the expressionless face he wore. Your eyes had took the full sight of him as he had roamed the aisles on his side to find a seat that seemed to be currently full.

Seeing that his eyes were nearing your direction, you averted your gaze back to the letters where you hastily cleared your throat and read a few more sentences of the letter.

And before you stop reading, make sure to keep Jungkook in your life. As the days go by, you'll understand why. (That rhymed).

You stifle a laugh before you set the letters back into the envelope and to mentally take note to continue reading afterwards. You shove it into the small slip of your brown woven bag that your mother had bought you as a 'congratulations for getting accepted to college' gift and you never stopped using it. As you did so, you felt a presence linger over you and you slowly look up to find the boy staring down at you with eyes that hinted curiosity but his facial expression still stayed emotionless.

"Is this seat taken?" He gently asks with a sultry voice that had you automatically entranced as you sat there frozen, your eyes staring at him. And that's when the sudden realization that the boy who would sit next to you in class had the name of Jungkook. The boy who had an enchanting voice and is somehow meant to be in your life for a purpose, stood before you with another hesitant look.

He waved his hand over your face before you find yourself blinking rapidly out of your dazed state to avoid his gaze all of a sudden. "U-uh, go ahead," You managed to stutter and he just gives you a tilt of his chin in a way to thank you as he sat his backpack onto the desk in front of him while sitting next to you.

It wasn't until you felt his warmth radiate heat right next to you that you felt your fingers fidget and you find yourself continuously checking the time every now and then to see if the longer hand had moved a bit closer to 8:13 am- precisely when your professor would arrive with a donut or bagel in his hand.

The phrase written in the letter, I really want you to introduce yourself to him, had played like a continuous mantra in your head and it wouldn't stop. To kill time and get your mind off of it, you take out your notebook and pencil pouch, opening to a blank sheet of paper, ready for your professor to begin his lecture once he walks in- but the ongoing sentence had replayed itself over and over again.

Then you let out a sigh and turn over to the boy who had to supposedly be Jungkook and introduce yourself, to which he becomes surprised at your sudden introduction but seeing that he gives you a warm smile, your anxious feeling goes away. He takes out his right hand and introduces himself as Jeon Jungkook (you cursing at the letter in your head) and he had apparently transferred from social studies to philosophy. Meaning, he moved from one class to another one that was exactly across the hallway.

You look at him with steady eyes before taking his hand in yours and giving a light shake at the simple greeting and continued the class itching to read more of the letter that you had begun to slowly process and rely on.

After the monotonous lecture provided by your professor and endless notes, the class finally ended that had a bunch of your colleagues scurry off like ants out the door whereas you had taken your time to pack your stuff- and so did Jungkook beside you. You noticed that he didn't rush like the other people and that after a few seconds or so, you and he were the only ones in the class- and you automatically felt the major awkward tension grow thick in the air.

Tensing, you quickly stand up once you had put everything away and you moved down your row to exit, but you paused. You wanted to say goodbye and hope to see him again tomorrow, but as you turned around to do so, he was already walking down the steps down to the door and you bit your lip and suddenly remembered at the letter.

Walking out of the door, you pull it out to continue reading.

And just like your gut told you to bid Jungkook a farewell, you saw that it was a regret that future you wanted you to amend, but you weren't able to do so. Sighing, you continued reading as you walked out of the building and took the stairs down to sit at the coffee shop a few buildings away.

On the same day, you regretted not to say goodbye to him- I hope that you could do the opposite and say goodbye to him, at least.

Too late.

Also, your friend inform you that day that Jungkook is actually with someone and has been for 5 years already and they're still going strong. However, despite how deep in love he is with her, something happens later, but for now, make sure you're befriending him.

And, whatever happens, don't ever lose him.

You bit your lip once you reached the coffee shop and sat at a table outside while you took out your day journal, quickly jotting what had happened that day besides the letters that were given to you and compared the handwriting from your original day journal to the pages that were supposedly yours.

And the resemblance was uncanny- completely identical.

The words and your weird looking a's were completely the same on both of the pages and you let out a sigh due to the comparison that had brought chills up your spine.

Shaking the feeling off, you put the journal away and the letter back into its envelope. Once you've done so, you felt a hand on your shoulder causing you to jump slightly at the physical touch and you turn to look at the person to see it was none other than your friend of countless years, Chaeyoung.

You sheepishly smile at her as she giggled at your reaction. "You're always jumpy."

"How could I not when you're always scaring me like that," Sighing as you interject while she gleams a smile once again.

Chaeyoung tilts her chin upward as she sat in front of you with her arms crossed across her chest, usually indicating that she was going to inform you on some new news that you should probably open your ears for- but half of the time you don't. "So... I heard that Jungkook guy moved into your philosophy class today."

You stare at her with bewilderment at her sudden speculation and she smiles gingerly.

"So, he did?" She confirms.

"How-"

"He got kicked out of his previous class because Professor Yu was incredibly done with him," She answers as she leans closer to you. "That and he is the most well known guy on this campus... and it's probably because he has this long term relationship with his girlfriend and everyone admires the 'lovely couple' since they've been together for 5 years." She speaks and you felt the strange deja vu feeling as the letter was right once again. "But then again, I feel like they'll break up one day. It always happens to long term couples."

"You mean long distance?" You corrected and she looked at you.

"Both," She shrugs. "I mean look at Yoongi and me. He lives a billion oceans away from me a-"

"Stop," You cut her off, not wanting to listen to her story of her and her ex- not because it was completely stupid, but it hurt you more than it hurt her knowing that you brought them together. "You know I am a pro-Yoongi-and-Chaeyoung-fan."

"Well, sorry to break it to you, bud, but Yoongi-and-Chaeyoung are no more."

You roll your eyes at her simply and she cheekily grins, but you couldn't help but have this weird feeling in the pit of your stomach.

19/03/17

The next day, you received another letter, except instead of its pink envelope with strawberry washy tape, it was a simple white envelope with a few stickers and doodles decorating it. Before class started, you made sure to read all of it to make sure that you were able to think ahead and not make another regret like yesterday- and thanks to that, Jungkook didn't sit next to you that day.

You were warned that he didn't sit next to you after that day and future you (that's what you called her now) told you to find a way to speak to him after class, but during he whole lecture, you focused on Jungkook's head who sat a few rows down in front of you, thinking of a billion things to say to him.

'Hey, Jungkook, do you want to go get coffee later?'

No, it sounds like you're asking him out on a date.

'Hey, uh- Jungkook, right? Do you understand the lecture today? Oh? You do? Do you mind teaching me?'

No, no, he's still new to the class.

'Hey, Jungkook! Do you mind if I can copy your notes you took today? I didn't get to fini-'

"Y/N, would you mind answering what the three branches of culture that are most commonly used in modern day?" You were snapped out of your inner debate when your professor noticed that you weren't paying attention and had put you on the spot.

You sat up straight when you realized a lot of your colleagues turned around, hesitating for your totally-off answer and you bit your lip, hoping to b.s. this question as best as you could.

"Uhm-"

"Were you paying attention?" He asked and you bit your lip, shaking your head, and you felt yourself shrink down in your seat as he sighed and continued on to his lecture that had you close your eyes in embarrassment.

If only future you would have warned you about getting caught off guard during your philosophy class, you would have one less regret to worry about.

You continued onto the day, realizing your next class was cancelled due to your professor calling in sick so you had a free 4 hours to do whatever. So you reread the letter to expect later.

The next time you see him, you're going to encounter him on the bus and as cheesy as it sounds, the only seat available is the one next to him. Sit next to him, I'm sure he wouldn't have mind, but I thought he didn't like me at the time which is why I chose to stand instead of sitting.

So when you do go on that bus, make sure you sit next to him. Starting a conversation or not, just sit next to him.

And right enough, you meet him on the bus when you were going home after your 6 pm class and the bus was entirely full- that is, except the seat next to him. When you climbed onto the bus last after the row of people that had filled up the remaining seats, you saw that he sat on the window seat, staring out at the window ignoring the people around him.

You slowly strolled over to his seat and on the way to his seat, your mind circled around the question of 'should I ask if I could sit down or not?' and as you inched closer to the seat, you cleared your throat loud enough for him to become aware of your presence.

"Is this seat taken?" You asked and he shakes his head as you give a small smile and take the seat when you notice he looks back out the window in which the skies were darkening.

The whole time you thought of questions to break the ice and start a conversation with him, but all you could do was play the scene in your head while fidgeting your fingers- in which did not help as you felt anxious by the second. But when you reached another stop for more passengers to get in and get off, you finally swallowed the lump in your throat and gained enough confidence to speak up and say his name.

He turns to you with an emotionless face and you felt your stomach squeeze in nervousness.

"Did you take notes on today's lecture?"

When you let out that word in the volume of a mouse, you couldn't help but look away from his gaze that almost made you explode if you dared look at him any longer.

"Uh, yeah, I did," He says casually and you nod in acknowledgement.

"Do you think... I can see them? I just had a rough day and-"

"Didn't pay attention at all to the lecture? I could tell when he called you out today," He smugly states and you look up at him taken aback to see him now chuckling, his eyes scrunching into a very cute eye smile and you automatically thought, 'his girlfriend is incredibly lucky'.

"In my defense, I was-"

The boy shakes his head with a grin. "It's okay, you don't have to explain yourself to me," He grabs his backpack in which his notebooks were shoved in and you watch as he did so. "We all have those days."

Once he takes out his white Five-Star notebook and hands it over to you, you look up at him with a grateful smile and saw through his eyes that he was genuinely kind, and you hoped that you could get closer to him as the days go. As you thanked him and put it in your bag, he only gives you another curl of his lips.

"You can return it to me tomorrow during class."

And you nodded, realizing that the ice was officially broken and you could feel yourself fall into a pit with a sign that alerts you not to fall in it, but easily, you fall as if you were Alice and you wonder if Jeon Jungkook was this profound Wonderland that was already founded by another person who loves him as much as he loves them.

But realizing that the letter wants you to keep him in your life and to hold onto him for as long as you could, you plan to do exactly that.

07/04/27

"Do you think they received it?" Chaeyoung had asked as you looked up from a book that was Jungkook's very most favorite. It was a historical fiction and you remembered he enjoyed reading historical fiction because the story may have seemed real- but in reality, it isn't.

You stared up at her as she sat next to her husband on the couch while Jimin sat in a chair he had pulled up from the kitchen and Yuji stood beside him while you roamed through the books of Jungkook's very bookshelves that were specifically arranged from genre rather than author or just by his personal favorites.

You smile at them with the very hope that kindled within you. "I'm sure they did. I know I did."

25/03/17

Keeping your promise, you gave the notebook back to Jungkook the next day- resulting into an excuse to sit next to him that same day. He didn't seem to mind at all and so forth, you and him got along over the course of 4 days as you constantly sat next to him in your philosophy class. This included debating on the idea of religion and other concepts and arguing if chicken or pork tastes better and admittedly, you admired his open-minded thoughts when he got into an argument with your professor about the usage of religion in modern day life- along with the choices of pork or chicken as well.

But today, you were sat outside Chaeyoung father's bakery with a new letter in your hand as Chaeyoung went to grab you both bread (meaning she was most likely going to steal the ones that were fresh out of the oven). Knowing that, you took out the letter and read it as quick as you could.

After skimming through it, Chaeyoung came with two warm loaves of almond cinnamon bread on a wooden plate that was one of the best sellers inside the bakery as you two sat there, talking as you usually do while doing homework.

"You know, I've noticed you've been getting closer to that Jungkook guy recently," She says and you peered up from your stats textbook with confusion written in your eyes but Chaeyoung was too engulfed in her own textbook to look up, so you look back down, trying to understand the basics stats and all its glory.

"He's cool," You state while turning the page of your textbook. "He let me use his notes."

She only nods in response and hums in a tone in which had you suspicious.

"What?" You inquired and she finally looks up.

"What?" She repeats you with eyebrows raised.

"You made that hum. The usual 'oh, I see' hum."

Chaeyoung laughs at you while taking a bite of her now half eaten bread. "Nothing. Absolutely nothing."

Chaeyoung was someone who did that. Despite her stupidity of most things, she was the most clever and surreptitious person you could have meet in your lifetime. You didn't realize it earlier but soon into your long, long, long friendship, you figured out that she notices things in a snap. She'll notice things before the thing actually happens. And you pondered a lot if she was a witch or not, but whenever you would ask, she only laughed and shrugged in response.

You give her an unsure glance once more before you continued onto studying for your stats test.

Chaeyoung noticed something- again- and if you ask her what it was, she'll just laugh it off. You'll understand why she did later.

That later in the day, the sun sank into the sky, delivering orange hues that blended with the clouds as the crescent moon began to fade in. The wind was strong that evening and your hair had hit your face and you were caught pushing it away numerous times as you were heading home after your long day with Chaeyoung studying about the art of math and bread. You waited with the crowd of people waiting for the crossing light to turn green, a lady beside you hastily talking to her partner about cooking chicken casserole for supper through the phone.

Another wave of strong wind breezed through your hair and you cursed yourself for not bringing a hairband and a jacket. You move your face to flip your hair over your shoulder, hugging onto your tote bag that contained your heavy text book, notebook, and your wallet as you felt your arms grow goosebumps to the temperature that dropped each minute. And as you looked over while you brought a hand to tuck a strand behind your ear, you noticed something.

Or rather- someone.

Your eyes fixated on the person that was on the other side of the road, casually walking down with his hands in his pocket. Before you knew it, the light turned green and people surrounding you had began to move as you just there and your eyes were focused on that one person, your legs being pushed forward, following the crowd involuntary.

Oh, and when you're walking home, you spot Jungkook on the other side of the street. I thought that maybe I could have run over to him and ask him for a quick snack- but I didn't.

So when you do see him, try and reach him and maybe ask him to get some coffee.

I want you to get as close to him as possible.

Biting your lip, you try to take your escape out of the sea of people that had prevented you from getting out, but once you made some rough bumps and exchanged sorry's and excuse me's you finally made your way out, your eyes still following Jungkook's form and you ran to the other side, not caring that the light turned green for the cars.

You called for his name and you saw that he was caught off guard when he turned to see you running towards him with all your speed and throwing your hand up to the cars that honked at you just to get to him. Once your feet fell upon the cement and you were safe, you take a deep breath as your chest heaved up and down, Jungkook watching you with amusement.

"Do you- w-want- to get- coffee- w-with me?" You say in between breaths.

"Did you just run across the street just to ask to get coffee with you?" He asks with a slight snicker and you nod, trying to regulate your breathing and he releases a mellifluous chuckle. "I mean, I don't want to say no to someone who just ran across the street for me."

"Correction: Someone who just ran and risked her life for you."

And then, he smiles at you and nods with his teeth gleaming.

"Alright, but I'm paying."

02/04/17

The past few days had you soaring.

You learned more about Jeon Jungkook than you could ever expect and every time he made your heart flutter, you had to constantly remind yourself he was in a relationship with someone else.

And that someone else was Inha- and by meeting her up close, you understood why they had been together for so long. He would talk about her constantly because you had asked out of curiosity and you fell in love with their relationship. He had talked about how accepting she was and how even if they were busy, they had found some way to see or talk to each other.

It was like she was his missing piece in him as a whole and you were incredibly intrigued by that. She was this bright beautiful misfit and she fit him just as much as he fit her. From her wavy hair to her glimmering smile, you knew that she was Jungkook's girlfriend before Jungkook introduced you to her.

Indeed, she was glowing. She had this aura that utterly defined angel and when you saw them stand next to each other, your stomach did something that had you feel queasy, but you ignored it as you talked to both of them as casually as you could.

However, on that day, you spent it with Jungkook studying for the midterm for tomorrow that had you graying and pulling strands out of your scalp- but since Jungkook had a 101% in that class, he offered to tutor you (which you found appalling since he was new to the class a couple weeks ago).

You joked with him and he jokes with you and somehow, you had begun to fall in love with his laugh and all you wanted to do was hear it over and over again.

And there was a point where he had threatened to tickle you if you didn't answer a question right, and being as ticklish as ever, you had thought about the question over and over again, but only resulted into being tickled in the end. But, you didn't expect these knots tugging inside your stomach and your heart beating as loud as a drum when he had stopped his tickling and held onto your waist while the laughter died down.

It was just that little thing.

It was enough to make you fall.

Of course, you told yourself to ignore everything- every single heart beat that beats for him.

So when you came home afterwards, you received another dose of your usual letter sent from future you- but this time, it was odd. Very odd.

Jeon Jungkook dies on the 7th of June- a few weeks after he realizes his girlfriend leaves town without a trace- at 8:06 pm on impact by a truck.

In all your life, you made enough letters and essays with hooks that did not suck you in as much as that letter's beginning sentence made you freeze at the spot.

I'm telling you this now, because today- despite all your efforts to get rid of the feeling inside your heart and stomach- you have fallen in love with him. And I want you to know that if you keep suppressing that feeling, it won't save Jungkook or you.

Your heart had skipped a beat when your own feelings were confirmed by future you. However, that didn't stop you from swallowing the lump in your throat when reading that someone you had fallen for would leave earth in two months.

So please, don't let this happen.

The only thing that could save him was you and the letters and you had most definitely hoped that you could at least save his life.

07/04/27

You were about to get into the large car that had been Chaeyoung's brother's best friend for road trips. And that was what you and everyone did on the 7th of each month. You would visit Jungkook's grave in a secluded place 5 hours away from your home.

He lied right under a couple of immense apple trees and whenever it was April or May, apple blossoms would fall and land on the pile of stones, making you almost certain that it was Jungkook's way of saying hello. Sometimes when it was apple season, a few apples would fall out of it's place and you could almost hear his laughter in the wind- but then again, you ignored that and assumed you were just hallucinating.

But before you were leaving his secluded place on top of the mountain under the few apple trees, you heard Jimin and Yuji's bickering and Yoongi trying to yell over them. You turned around to see what the commotion was about and Chaeyoung only laughed as she saw your confused face.

"They're fighting over the last apple biscuit," She whispers with a humorous tone into your ear, resulting into you giggling and rolling your eyes.

"It's just a damn biscuit! We'll make more for the both of you when we get home!" Yoongi aggravatingly yells whereas Chaeyoung only laughs at him, strolling over to her husband and calming him down.

It was odd, comparing your friends ten years ago to now. Especially Yoongi and Chaeyoung since you never expected them to be together again. Although the couple had their ups-and-downs due to long distance, they ended up marrying each other because if Yoongi hadn't found her after three years of being apart, Yoongi-and-Chaeyoung would have been nothing.

But seeing that Chaeyoung had held onto his left arm with such love and care as she gently stroked it while Yoongi tried his best to cool down by the other couple's immaturity, you had only admired them afar.

You saw Yuji pout her lips and cross her arms and you snickered at her technique to get her to win against Jimin.

"But, babe. You had 3 and I only had 2! I'm pregnant, you know." Yuji exclaimed while you stifled another laugh as you saw Jimin's internal conflict hidden his face until he finally gave in, resulting into Yuji's very happy squealing.

Your lips unconsciously curled into a smile as you watched the both of the happy couples, with the wind blowing at your face as you stood near the door of the van.

And even if your heart had carried such regret, you felt a sense of familiarity as the wind blew through your hair and for once, a weight had finally lifted off of your chest.

29/04/17

Jungkook and you had gotten close through the daily philosophical classes and ice cream parlors. You learnt that his favorite ice cream flavor was totally beyond random. He chose three scoops; on the bottom must be rocky road because he loved tasting marshmallows that blended in with the melting flavors; the middle scoop had to be mint chocolate chip because he enjoys a bit of a minty flavor; and on the top would be either pistachio or vanilla- depending if he was in the mood for an odder flavor or just plain ol' vanilla.

But from the continuous side comments and debates in your class together, everyone knew that you had become friends in under a month.

A month that had been filled with laughter and joy that you couldn't quite decipher- but you let yourself fall for him each day, each minute, each second. You realized that he was an extraordinary boy that had loved the night because he claimed it was prettier than most would think. You realized that he enjoyed iced macchiatos more than cold and his favorite color was a peach color because you could only see them mostly in flowers. You realized that he had a passion for historical fiction because he claimed that the story or plot is always seemed as realistic, but once you pry your eyes from the literature, you realize that it really isn't real- but that's what you told him what general fiction defines and instead of interjecting, he simply pulled out a book for you to read in hopes you understand what he means.

But a month wasn't just about knowing him. He was able to get to know you too. He found out that your favorite ice cream doesn't matter as long as it's in a waffle cone and that your favorite time of day was whenever, as long the sun shows itself the next day. He found out that you preferred your lattes hot because you always enjoyed the latte art. He found out that your favorite color was white because black was too overrated and that you never read historical fiction unless it was for class- but you never really reach the end of the book- and that you read a lot more fiction than the historical fiction.

But a month was usually you forgetting that he had someone he loved. And future you had written continuous letters about not trying to suppress them- but you always ignored it.

I know you're in love with him, but just trust me on this when I say not to ignore the feeling he gives you. I completely regret that.

But one day, when you asked him about the person he loved, he would smile at the sound of her name. He described her as indescribable. She has been his best friend since day one and that he had finally had the guts to ask her to be his during freshman year in high school- and just that story almost made you cringe but he laughed it off when he heard your weary "awww".

On that Saturday, Yuji and Jimin made a surprise appearance at your usual hangout with Chaeyoung outside her bakery, sitting with them in front of you.

Chaeyoung introduced you to Yuji a few years back and you learned that Yuji was a more modest version of Chaeyoung as Chaeyoung was more of the wild, reckless type. Yuji also had this sense of independency when you met her, being which you got along with her a lot. Jimin was the kid who was best friends with Yoongi back in the high school days and Chaeyoung considered him as a brother- and so did you.

So it wasn't a bother to see them in front of you as you all got along well- that is until laughter died down from a joke Jimin stated and they all looked at you with a sense of unusual seriousness that had you furrow your eyebrows.

"Why are you guys looking at me like that?" You asked and you noticed that Yuji and Chaeyoung had glanced at each other to exchange looks and it had you confused and worried as if they were about to tell you some odd news.

Then they looked at Jimin, resulting to him sighing in defeat as he dug into his back pocket and you looked once more between Chaeyoung and Yuji before Jimin places a grey envelope on the table. Glancing at it shortly, you looked back up at Jimin before you rose a single eyebrow.

"What is it?"

Then Jimin clears his throat before Chaeyoung and Yuji simultaneously places different colored envelopes on the table and you bite your lip, having an idea of what it was in your head.

"We've been meaning to tell you," Yuji starts after clearing her throat and you sigh. "We've been getting letters recently- and it might sound crazy- but they're from-"

"The future."

As you finish her sentence, you notice that all their eyes were focused on you and you tilted your chin a bit before digging into your back to take out the letter that was ripped open this morning by you as you sheepishly smiled.

"Yeah, I've been getting some, too."

Jimin stares at you wide-eyed, along with the rest of them and you purse your lips into a thin line.

"What does your letters say?" You simply ask.

"Mine says that we need to save Jungkook," Yuji said and you nodded.

"Mine says that and to bring Y/N and Jungkook together," Jimin chirps with a smile across his face and you had to admit, you were taken aback a bit at the sudden phrase of you and Jungkook together.

"Mine says all of that and making sure we all stay together from 10 years from now." Chaeyoung says with a cheery voice that made your heart warm and you're sure it made the others' hearts warm up as well.

Then you told them that your letters had consisted solutions to regrets you'd make and making sure to keep Jungkook in your life- and when you shyly told them that, you saw their reassuring smiles, and you do hope that you were able to stay with them even from 10 years from now.

08/05/17

Today was the day of the annual sunset festival that the whole town would rage over because the entertainment, the colors, and the food were spectacular- and of course, it was set at a venue on top of a tall mountain that overlooked the breath taking sunset in the horizon.

Chaeyoung, Jungkook, and I went to the sunset festival together, but most of the time, Jungkook felt left out since Chaeyoung came. If you could, include him (or you could make Chaeyoung thirdwheel).

However, Yuji and Jimin tagged along with you, Chaeyoung, and Jungkook, making you suspicious as to what future them wrote to present them.

But, you hoped that the future was changing.

Besides that, the festival was lit with hanging dim string lights from above and you could faintly hear the children and people exchanging laughs and soft talks that had made you smile unintentionally. You observed the way that the festival was alive and animated with the loud colors and pretty lights that were spread out everywhere and as you did so, you turned to smile back at your friends behind you who seemed to be as intrigued by the festival as you were.

"They really outdid themselves this year," Yuji comments and Jimin smiles while taking her hand in his.

You peered over at Jungkook to notice that he was still admiring the festival with his own eyes and it didn't occur to you that you were staring at him until you hear Chaeyoung's awkward cough to grab your attention.

"Okay, so we're going to play some games over there," Chaeyoung started and when you opened your mouth to ask her if you and Jungkook could join, she continued her sentence in one breath. "We'regoingtogetgoingyoutwostaytogetherdon'tgetlostyouknowmynumberalrighthavefun!"

And she was off pushing the two love birds away with her somewhere where your eyes lost them in the crowd. You sighed in defeat when you realized Chaeyoung's plan and you could mentally hear her saying 'you're welcome' in that smug tone of hers.

Jungkook only let out a chuckle and smiled down at you.

"So what should we do first?"

You both ended up playing a few mini games, in which he won most of them- but you didn't mind because you figured he would be competitive- and then, you both found a mask booth decorated with hand crafted masks that had you drawn to it easily, wandering off away from Jungkook. Jungkook found you staring at the masks before he picked out a tiger mask and attempted to scare you with a growl but you only laughed at him whereas you picked out a medusa-looking mask in which made him jump at the sight of it. You shared laughs at that and every time you heard his sonorous chuckle, your heart skips a beat and you have to take a deep breath to remain sane. Then later, you both decided to get festival food and he ordered you both a potato swirl on a stick in which you enjoyed a lot. When it reached to the sun beginning to set, you both rushed over the edge of the hill, standing next to each other as you watched the sky transform into different shades of pink and purple to a deep navy as the sun began to sink below the horizon and a few twinkling stars made its appearance. After the appealing sunset everyone fawned over, you and Jungkook spent the rest of the night talking while looking for the rest of your friends.

And as you did, you spotted a booth that was selling statues and pinwheels that you wandered over there, not realizing that Jungkook was not following behind you when you did. As you admired the pinwheel that had colorful vibrant strings flowing with the wind, you felt an arm wrap around your waist. You quickly jump away from the sudden touch and turn to look at the person who did it to see it was random stranger with a smirk plastered on his face while his eyes raked your body.

"Hey there," His words were slurred and it made you cringe to realize that he was drunk, reeked of tropical alcohol and was trying to hit on you. You took a step back with an uncomfortable smile on your face but he took a step forward to grab at your wrist. "Don't be like that, I don't bite."

You stare at him in distaste and try to pry his hand off of you. "Uhm- Well, I do."

He scoffs. "Kinky. I like it. It makes me wonder if you have a boyfriend or not-"

Before you could defend yourself, the stranger's hand was thrown off by another, making him stumble back a bit at the force. You widened your eyes and look up at the person who helped you.

"Seriously, don't wander around without me knowing," Jungkook tells you with an unfamiliar strict tone to his voice that had you open your mouth to defend yourself, only for the stranger to disrupt you.

"And I'm guessing you're her boyfriend?" He asks trying to steady his on feet on the ground and Jungkook raises an eyebrow at him.

"I am."

Suddenly, you're staring at Jungkook with even wider eyes and you heard the drunken man laugh in front of you. "Don't leave her alone next time or else I might-"

Before he could finish sentence, Jungkook pulls on your wrist, zig-zagging you through the crowd of people to get far away from that man while he settled under a lamp post where it was more secluded.

He lets go and you press your hand onto the lamp post to catch your breath and he watches you with steady eyes as you heave your chest up and down.

"You good?"

You nod a bit and straighten yourself to look up at him under the dim light. "You didn't have to do that-"

"A 'thanks' would suffice."

"Thanks," You say, crossing your arms. "But, I was completely fine."

"No, you weren't."

"I was too."

Oh, and when he turns around,

He shakes his head at your stubbornness and finally gives in while turning around, "Whatever tickles your peach. Let's just go find the others."

Hug him.

And you did, wrapping your arms around his waist and pressing your cheek against his back, making him suddenly freeze at the unexpected embrace you gave him.

Say you were grateful for the well-spent day and that you wished for more days like that with him.

"Thanks, Jungkook. Not just for helping me earlier, but spending the evening with me. I didn't have fun in awhile until now and I hope we could do it again soon." You say with your heart thumping the whole time with each word you spoke. Then you felt his hand over yours, making you tense as you realized that his hand was warmer than yours.

"I had fun, too," He states and it was just enough for you to breathe normally and let go slowly, your cheeks turning red, but you thanked that the dim light wasn't bright enough to show it.

That late at night, you didn't expect him to be shown up at your door at 3 am with a strong stench of vodka and rum mixed into his clothes and his eyes swollen from crying. That late at night, you never thought your heart would shatter until you saw his red eyes and a tear fall when he blinked. That late at night, you didn't realize you were hugging him until you heard his entreats and sobs.

At night, you wake up to an unexpected drunk Jungkook continuously knocking on your door and he tells you that Inha left a goodbye note. It said that she was leaving and that she was sorry because she wasn't coming back. So please, comfort him. Take care of him.

"S-she left. Inha- she left me," He would say and you patted his back, letting him release everything his drunken state could release, not knowing what to do than just comfort him. "She wasn't answering her phone the whole day and I just thought... b-but when I went home, she left a note-"

"A note?" Your heart dropped as you pulled apart slightly to make eye contact with him.

"A stupid fucking note. A note on my door that says she's leaving and she's s-sorry. I tried reaching her, calling her- I even ran to her house to find out she out she packed her things and left," You saw as he unravels himself in front of you with his eyes and cheeks that both turned into a shade of red that made your heart break a bit. You had to look away slightly and continue hugging him, laying your chin onto his shoulder as he held you tightly.

"She abandoned me, Y/N. She said that she wasn't coming back-"

You were nodding as you stroked his hair gently, cooing him as you felt his arms tighten around your form again. "It's okay, it's okay. We'll find her."

"I just don't get it," Jungkook was now choking on his sobs. "Maybe she just doesn't love me anymore-"

"Don't say that," You muttered.

And I ask you do one more thing for me for the night.

"Maybe I wasn't good enough. Maybe I wasn't enough for her."

I didn't get to do it before, but I want you to do this- no matter how crazy and over-exaggerated it sounds.

"Jungkook," You pried away from him to look at his glassy eyes. "Stop saying that. If anything, you were more than enough for her. She probably had a reason to leave, but we'll find her, okay? We'll find Inha. I promise that."

Make a promise.

And fulfill it.

And he's staring at you with his hands on your waist, he fingers massaging small circles onto your hips, but you were too determined to make sure that Jungkook would find the girl that he loves that you hardly noticed the lust in his eyes.

"You're too nice to me, you know that? I don't know what's happening right now, but my heart is racing and- for some odd reason- whenever you look at me, my heart just skips a beat and my cheeks go warm."

You scoff slightly, a small smile creeping up your lips, but your heart completely stopped when he continued.

"Maybe I'm in love with you."

And it was that statement that had you quickly alert, realizing that he was looking for someone to help him forget about Inha, but you knew it wasn't going to help him with this. So, you gently took his wrist and gently removed them off your waist and you looked at him with pursed lips while patting his cheek.

"Or... you're just piss-ass drunk."

12/05/17

After his intoxicated sobs and yearns, you let him sleep on the couch with some pillows and blankets you found in the cabinets. And after that, you made sure that your promise to him will be fulfilled- no matter how ridiculous it may seem to find or hunt someone down- but it wouldn't be so hard right?

The next few days, Jungkook had barely talked to you since that night at the foot of your living space, but you didn't blame him. When you woke up that morning, you realized that he was gone, but he folded up the blankets and set them on the arm of your couch.

You did try calling Inha, though, only to find out she disabled her phone number, so you try calling her parents through Jungkook's phone to find out that they had no idea that she left and they were in fact as worried as Jungkook was. You then try to ask her friends- who indeed had no idea she disappeared either and you were left with nothing.

You'll find her. I know you will.

But just how? was the question. How could you possibly find her if you couldn't contact her, nor even figure out where she would go to?

However, after days of asking and trying to piece things together like a sleuth, today, you were taking your trip to the bookstore, using your saved up money to buy your workbooks to study for your midterm in a week. When you got home carrying numerous workbooks in your hands, you got a call from your phone that rang in your tote bag.

Stumbling to set your books onto a nearby table and struggling to fish your phone out of your bag, you quickly answered without checking the caller.

"Hello?" You spoke, squeezing your phone between your ear and shoulder, putting your bag onto the hook that was next to the front door and picked up your heavy workbooks from the table to put it onto your desk in your room.

"Y/N?" A voice called your name through the phone and you never thought you would hear that voice again.

"Yoongi?" You asked, bewildered at his sudden call and wondered why would we be calling all of a sudden as you walked to your room.

"Hey- yeah- uh, this might seem crazy but I actually found Inha- the girl you're looking for..."

"What?" You nearly yelled, but you controlled yourself when you dropped your books onto your table with a loud noise.

"She's actually living in the apartment next to me."

And it was enough for you to drop everything and plan a very last minute trip to the possible destination where Inha could be.

San Francisco.

18/05/17

Once you told Jungkook, he didn't say anything, instead you both found the cheapest bus to San Francisco taking nothing but your bag and Jungkook. You didn't have a chance to tell Chaeyoung that you were going to see her ex that was too far away from her despite that she texted you multiple times.

Your letters seemed to be different from most of your days, so you didn't bother reading or expecting most of them.

However, the trip to San Francisco was long, but you took the time to talk to Jungkook for real after that night Inha left him. He admitted that he remembered saying that he could have been in love with you being which he never talked to you until now, but you only smiled at him, assuring him that it was fine and he was just drunk was all. And after crossing that bridge, you both talked throughout the ride, him telling you he was thrilled but nervous that you both were actually going to see her- that you were able to find her.

Sometimes, you would fall asleep when the sun was down and the moon was in full bloom or take several naps here and there, and he would let you sleep on his shoulder so you wouldn't wake up with a stiff neck. And whenever you made a restroom stop to change buses and get snacks, Jungkook found it amusing that you would always buy sour gummy worms, a water bottle, and tea whenever you made a stop but never go to the bathroom, and halfway through your trip, you would complain to go pee- and for some reason, he thought that was an interesting and beautiful side of you.

But, after hours and hours of being stuck together, you passed the sign that said Welcome to San Francisco and you and Jungkook exchanged a smile, whereas yours was more supportive.

You and Jungkook had reached the place she was reportedly staying in. In front of you stood a tall and high skyscraper which blocked the sun from your eyes as you looked up at the windows that were closed or open in various ways. A small smile crept on your lips as you tore your eyes away from it and looked over to Jungkook. You could tell he was nervous and if you closed your eyes and focused your ears on the little thumping sound that fastened within each second, you would know it belonged to him.

"Hey," You say, patting his arm encouragingly. "You can do it, okay?"

He looks at you and shakes his head slowly, but you sighed and looked at him in the eyes.

It was that moment, your heart couldn't bare to let him go- but you made a promise.

"We came all this way, Jungkook. I'm not gonna hear another word from your mouth about how you're afraid and you want to go back because I'm not going back without you until you talk to her. Look, people come and go in your life and maybe she had a reason she left. But you'll never know that unless you talk to her," You purse your lips and he continues staring at you. "You love her right? If you do, go and talk to her and make sure you get an answer. I'll be waiting at the cafe over there. Give me a call when you're ready."

And with that, you give him one last hug and a reassuring look before turning on your heels and walking away.

Oh, and Y/N? Just remember,

"Y/N?" He calls your name as you were walking away, but once you heard your name, you paused and turned around to look at him. And how breathtaking you looked as you turned around, the sun hitting your face and the wind blowing messily into your hair until you had to tuck a piece behind your ear.

He didn't want you to go.

"Thanks," Jungkook manages to say and you momentarily smiled.

You made a promise.

"I made a promise, didn't I?"

And fulfill the promise, you did.

Jungkook found you an hour and a half after, reading a book from the bookshelves courtesy of the coffee shop you went to. He admired you from afar as you had your glasses on because he knew that you probably tried to order something on the menu and couldn't see it. Your eyes were trained onto the words of ink, eyebrows furrowed at the concentration of the story held in your hands and your fingers anticipated to flip to the other page. He loved that image of you.

He strolled over to you in long quiet strides, that you didn't notice that he was walking over to you. A smug look grew on his face when he snapped in the distance between your book and your eyes, making you subtly jump off the seat you sat in when you pried your eyes off of the book to look up at the person.

When you saw it was him, you quickly stood up. "How was it? Did she say anything? Are you guys still-"

"Calm down," Jungkook chuckles at your jumpy state.

"Sorry," You did as you said while picking up your bag and the book, walking over to the bookshelf to put it back. "So? What did she say to you?"

He nods once you two left the store together. "She said that she needed space."

You stay quiet, hoping for him to continue, but he didn't. "That's it?"

"Yeah," He confirms. "Inha said that the town wasn't for her and she was sorry for creating a scene, but she said she had to get out."

"And what did you say?"

"I understood her," He says as you both walk back to the building to stay with Yoongi for the night. "She's a very complicated person since day 1- being which I loved her. But, I knew that she was never meant for a place back home. Inha's a wild and spontaneous, outgoing girl who was never meant to stay in one place, and I understood that. She's still finding herself."

You slowly take in his response, bit by bit until you asked; "What now?"

He presses the elevator button and he looks straight into your eyes. "Who knows? She's fine and I'm fine. It's not always going to be a happily ever after for everyone."

And the elevator doors opened and he allowed you to step in first.

When you both enter Yoongi's household, you smiled at Yoongi who was definitely different from the last time you saw him. His hair was back to black and he looked tired than usual, but he was just as happy and welcoming to see you. You quickly introduced him to Jungkook, in which they got along quickly after Yoongi mentioned something about his major.

Your mouth kept opening to say something going back to Chaeyoung and your mouth itching to tell him to go back to her, but you didn't say anything when he had given you enough blankets and pillows for Jungkook to sleep on the floor and you to sleep on the couch.

And the rest of the night went unsaid.

08/04/27

"You know, I'm starting to wonder if past us ever got the letters," Yuji blurted out while Chaeyoung looked behind her in the passenger's seat, Yoongi driving right in front of her.

"Why do you say that? I'm sure they did," You say with hope dripping in your tone.

"Well," Yuji starts. "If they got the letters and did everything we said, wouldn't our lives change right now? I don't know about you, but I still remember everything I've experienced and I don't feel any different right now."

Chaeyoung furrows her eyebrows at that thought, making everyone look at her, Yoongi taking a second to look at the rear view mirror to look at her as well.

Just then, you shook your head, being sure that past you had received the letters and were able to do everything you wrote in it- because you had this feeling, no matter how risky sending letters through time is, you were going to change the future.

"Don't say that-"

"Maybe- just maybe," Chaeyoung starts. "The letters were sent to another universe version of us, being which why nothing is happening to us."

It was one of the rarest Chaeyoung moments that all of you in the car focused your attention to her, your grip on the pie on your lap loosening.

Chaeyoung explains, her eyes focused on the road ahead of her, as if everything she spoke was something that didn't come from her own brain- but it did. "Yuji's question is valid because if we were to send letters to our past selves, we should have changed a least a smidge- but I think the reason why we don't is because we have a different dimension or universe version of us.

"It makes sense! We should have changed by now, but we didn't, right? This means that the letters that we sent to our past selves will determine another completely distinct future- different from ours."

You and Yuji exchanged looks with each other as Jimin shrugged at the both of you. "So what you're saying is-"

"Jungkook will be saved, just not in our time." Chaeyoung finally makes eye contact with you all and your heart dropped into your stomach. "He's going to live, but in another dimension."

19/05/17

You woke up to the sound of the trollies outside, your mind alert when you realized all your events yesterday led to you sleeping on the couch. You sat up, realizing that Jungkook still slept peacefully on the ground next to you and you let out a yawn, checking the time on the clock on the wall in front of you to see it was 8 AM. You threw your legs over the couch, careful not to step on the snoozing comfortably and looked around the household.

You walked over to the kitchen, grabbing a glass of water and standing near the island as you gulped it down, the morning taste on your tongue disappearing. Just then, you noticed an odd copper envelope sitting in front of you, already opened.

You don't usually snoop, but you saw the letter sticking out so making sure it was quiet enough for you to see, you reach over and take out the letter.

You know the girl that moved next to you? Her hair is brown and it's pretty long? She always wears golden earrings? That's Inha.

I need you to call Y/N and tell her that you found her. You'll understand why later, but you have to call her soon and tell her that the girl living next door is Inha.

Before you could continue, you hear footsteps, making you close the letter and shove it back into the envelope and pushing it away from you as you turned around to pour more water in your cup.

Maybe Yoongi does end up Chaeyoung in the future.

"Oh, you're up," You hear Yoongi's raspy voice and you turn around waving at him as he sat down on the stool beside you while you gulped away. "Did you sleep okay?"

You nod, smiling tiredly. "Yeah, thanks for letting us crash in-"

"It's fine, no worries," He says, rubbing his face with his hands and he looks at you while blinking several times. "So, is Jungkook your lover or something-"

You choke on your water while looking at the tired man in front of you, a bit puzzled at his question. "What? N-No! Of course not-"

"Yeah okay, well, keep hiding your love for that guy who snores ridiculously loud at night because I already know you like him."

Usually, you'd deny, wanting to change the subject or reject everything he says about you and Jungkook put together, but you just stared at him, already knowing for sure that he's just not going to take that involves denying.

"Figured," He says while nodding as he noticed your silence. "If you love him, why did you bring him all the way here to find the one he loves. Aren't you supposed to be glad that Inha's gone?"

Then, you smiled smug at him, a tired look in your eyes as you spoke. "If you love Chaeyoung, why did you break up with her? What happened to the, 'we'll make it work, we'll make it work'?"

Yoongi sends a look at your way as you laughed at his reaction.

"Do you still miss Chaeyoung?"

"Of course, I do "

"Then why don't you tell her that?" You inquired. "If you miss her, then you go to her. If you love her, don't lose her. You guys are meant to be with each other and I don't understand why you had to end it. You're the one who said that'd you'd be able to make it work with her, but I just can't stop wondering why my best friend could not move on from you- and I guess it's because she's still in love with you."

Yoongi doesn't say anything and you felt like you've done some justice once again when Yoongi realizes that you were completely right.

"Talk to her. I didn't get to tell her that I'm meeting you right now, but talk to her soon, okay?"

The boy nodded as you heard the loud yawn of Jungkook, indicating that he just woke up and you peered over the kitchen island to see that he was sitting up with his clothes still on from yesterday- a bit wrinkled but it'll manage- and his hair a nest.

"Morning!" You chimed and Jungkook looks over at you with a pair of exhausted eyes as you wave over to him. You look back at Yoongi and smile. "What do you have in your refrigerator? I'm starving."

25/05/17

You finally make it home that a few days before, you and Jungkook had returned to being friends, talking more and more after each day. Chaeyoung wasn't at all mad that you went out of your way to find Inha, but she was quite mad that Yoongi had told you he missed you.

"That son of a bitch," She cursed under her breath when you told her the exact conversation that you and Yoongi had a couple days ago. "He can't just say that and have me expect a call from him soon?! Who does that?!"

You shrugged, trying your hardest not to laugh.

"It's not funny! That idiot is going to call me soon!"

"But don't you want him to call you soon?"

"No, I don't! I don't want anything to do with him!"

"But don't you miss him?"

"No, of course not! He left me-"

"And you want him to come back, don't you?"

"Of course, but-"

"And you love him, right?"

"No, no, no, I don't love him. H-he... He left me without a full explanation-"

"And you want answers. You want him to call you so you can have answers, right? Not just answers, but you want to hear his voice because you miss him and you love him and you want to tell him how much you miss and love him? Keep saying no all you want, but I know you miss him and he misses you." You take a sip of your tea that Chaeyoung made for you as she stared at you with defeat.

You knew her well enough to know that her weakness was love and as of right now, she was practically on her knees.

"Why am I best friends with you?" She pouted and you laughed inside your tea cup.

08/04/27

"I could be wrong," Chaeyoung states with a bit of worry in her tone. "I was a music major, not a time travel paradox major."

Before anyone could say anything in return, Yoongi made a stop at the familiar place in which you only visited twice before. You held onto your freshly baked apple pie in your hand and prepared to get out of the car.

The aroma of flowers filled in your nose as you felt a bit of nostalgia hit you. A small house on a huge plot of land stood before you, decorated with beautiful trees that provided enough shade from the sun, and a bunch of bushes that had complimented the place nicely. The first time you came to visit was with Jungkook. He took you here to show you his collections of books because he still couldn't get over the fact that you had not read one good historical fiction in your life. He introduced you to his mother who had loved you from the start when you stepped into his house and she was as gleaming and beautiful as ever. She taught you how to pick apples and harvest tomatoes and strawberries that were scattered around her plot and during the whole time you were having fun with Jungkook, you thought that maybe living in a rural place with him wouldn't be so bad. The second time you came to visit was after Jungkook's death. You brought flowers for her as you let her cry and sob for as long as she could. It broke your heart every time you heard her cry for her son.

This was your third time.

All of you walked on the steps of the patio, you pressing your knuckles onto the white wooden door and knocking slightly.

You stood there, hesitating and waiting with the pie in a plate clutched in his your hands. Once the door opened slightly, you met the eyes of Jungkook's mother whom you haven't seen in a long time- and she didn't look a day old.

"Hi, Mrs. Jeon," Carefully, you greeted her quietly. "I don't know if you-"

"Y/N," She says her name as a motherly smile appears on her face, opening the door wider as she stepped aside for all of you to walk in. "It's good seeing you again."

You all sat at the table, pie in the middle while Jungkook's mother had came into the room with a small baby blue box with white stripes across it.

"These are Jungkook's memories," She says while sitting down slowly. "When he was around 5 years old, his father told him to keep his memories growing up in a box and ever since then, he would put something small into the box and he said when he turns 30, he would open the box and go through it." She sadly chuckles and all you did was stay quiet as she pushed it towards you both. "Inside are everything he collected- from pins to photographs to little knick knacks here and there. You can open it."

Hesitating, you reached out to the box, preparing yourself for a wave of ineffable nostalgic feelings hitting you all at once when you removed the top. And as you did, the first thing you notice was a picture and it was enough to trigger tears welling up in your eyes and something caught in your throat as you took it out of the box.

"It's us."

The picture was taken at the sunset festival where you and Jungkook got into a fight on who had to ask a stranger to take a picture of the both of you with the sunset in the background. You ended up doing it and you called him a wimp for being afraid of strangers. You noticed that your hair was longer at the time, your smile was brighter, and you looked happier beside him.

Then you wondered how he would have looked like if he was there with you right now.

06/06/17

It was bizarre- how he fell in love with you. It was something so simple as to making fun jokes about pork and chicken, to finding out that you were a lover of books- just never approached historical fiction- and a lover of coffee. But it wasn't just your likings and traits that had him hooked. From the way your eyes looked when you promised him that you would help him look for his long gone lover to the way your laughter rang in his ears and for that reason- he set a goal to make you happy and to continue hearing that laughter for as long as he should live.

And maybe it was the way you always had an urge to fall asleep anywhere and at anytime and that he was able to offer a shoulder for you to lay your head on. Or it was just how you wanted to make people happy- being which you tried to fulfill your promise to him. But for some reason, he can't comprehend why he doesn't feel anything for Inha anymore when you both travelled all the way to San Francisco to see her.

You had planted these flowers in his lungs just by the simple way you looked at him. It was hard for him to breathe every time you sent your look his way and it was ineffable for him to see a breathtaking starlit night sky in your eyes.

No wonder why he loved the night more than the day.

He was going to tell you. Soon.

But for now, you were at home, blasting music while cleaning the household with the windows open, feeling happy. Ever since you took Jungkook to see Inha, you didn't receive any letters from future you anymore- and you hoped that the future changed enough to the point where future you didn't have anymore regrets, because of now, you barely had any. As you were sweeping excess dirt and dust on your wooden floors, your music got interrupted as you got a call from someone with an unknown ID.

"Hello?" You strolled over to your phone and answered it anyways.

"Y/N?"

Then you froze completely.

"Y/N? It's me. Have you talked to Jungkook?" It was the familiar voice that had you speechless in person and through the phone.

"Inha? Uh- I was talking to him yesterday-"

"Is he okay? Is he alright? Has he talked to you about me lately-"

Leaning your broom and dustpan on a wall, you put your hand onto your phone to understand clearly. "Woah, woah, wait. Slow down. Didn't he talk to you in person?"

"No... I saw him outside my door, but I was so scared to talk to him..." Her voice trails off and you bit your lip in confusion.

"So he didn't talk to you... at all?" You clarified.

"No, he didn't."

Then you hung up.

08/04/27

Once you went through all of his memories, being some of which were quite humorous as Mrs. Jeon explained half of them and story behind his knick knacks, you tell her about your given chance to save Jungkook through the letters all of you had wrote. She only responded with a happy sigh, nodding at your hope to save his son.

"But, there could be a chance that our Jungkook isn't saved- but a Jungkook from their time will be," Chaeyoung states and Mrs. Jeon chuckles lightly. "But I could be wrong..."

"You all have done so much for him," She starts as she sits up in her chair. "And even if our Jungkook can't be rescued, I'd finally be able to sleep at night knowing that another life has been saved."

And everyone took that moment to smile at her, not a word leaving their mouth as you all agreed with her.

Then, when it was just about ready to have a long trip back home again, you all were saying your goodbyes.

"Thank you for having us," Yuji says while giving Jungkook's mother a warm hug in which she smiled brightly while rubbing her back.

"Of course, of course, darling. It's nice seeing all of you. I'm glad Jungkook made friends with someone who remembers him to this day," She says and you grin, ready to throw your arms at her while the others wait for you outside.

"Thank you," You whisper in her ear when she hugs you.

"Oh," She said with a jolly tone. "Here's a secret darling; Jungkook loves you and I'm sure he loves you even more as he watches you from above."

You don't say anything but just continue hugging her wishing that you could have done something where she wouldn't have said, he watches you from above.

"Don't push yourself too hard about him. He's probably wanting you to live your life with no more regrets," She says and you nod, taking a deep breath and you give her one last squeeze before letting go and walking out of the house, promising that you would visit again.

And during the whole road trip back home, you stared out of the window, gazing at the stars, wondering if Jungkook was twinkling at you from afar.

07/06/17 ; 19:46

When you woke up that day, you had this feeling in the pit of your stomach that made you feel nauseous throughout the whole time. It endlessly bothered you as you tried to survive the day.

However, at 7:46 pm, you got a surprise letter with its first sentence being enough for you to drop everything.

Save him.

09/04/27

Sometimes, life is never how you planned it. Even if you have a billion of back up plans roaming around at your sleeve, life just has a way of counteracting them. From trying to take two steps forward, life had pushed you back two steps backward.

But maybe, you can take four steps forward.

07/06/17 ; 20:00

When he had called you and stated that he was leaving his house at 8 pm to tell you everything he has been feeling and you entreated him to not take a step foot out of his house, he was quite confused as to why you would say that.

Jungkook wore a smile that evening as he called you, his heart jumping out of his chest when he heard you pick up. "Hey, Y/N, I'll be at your house around 8:10-ish-"

"Jungkook, don't you dare leave your house!" Your abrupt voice startled him a bit, but he just laughed it off.

"What? No, I need to get to you. I have to tell you something-"

"No, stop it!" You begged, almost crying as you grabbed your keys to the car you thought you'd never use because you only ever transported through foot or bus. "Jungkook, if you take one step out that door, I'm going to hate you forever."

"Looks like you have to hate me forever, Y/N," He chuckles and you hitched your breath. "I'm in my car."

You silently cursed as you rush over to the elevator and pressed the number to the underground parking. "Okay, where are you right now? What street?"

He hesitates before he speaks. "Uh- 19th East Street, I'm at a red light."

You could make it.

"Alright," You say when the elevator opens and you rush to find the car. "Jungkook, don't hangup yet."

"Well, this light is going to take forever so I don't see why I have to."

Once you revved the engine and started driving, you drove to the street he was in, your heart pounding as you realized that you probably couldn't make it- but you had to try.

Ten years with regrets hurts. Ten years without Jungkook is painful enough.

After weaving through cars that could have gotten you three tickets at least, you noticed his car down at the intersection on the same street, seeing that he was still focused on your call with you as he waited for the light to turn green. You looked around through your mirrors and the sides, searching for the truck that caused his death, and there, you saw it rolling down the hill at a fastened velocity, making you hitch your breath at the direction it was rolling down towards.

Quickly, you get out of the red light that your car was at and drive towards the bottom of the hill where you could save him.

If I could rewind everything,

"What the- There's a crazy person driving in front of the intersection-"

And as you drive forward, you realized that this was it. This is where you were going to save a life and you were going to no longer live with regrets. And you hoped that the Jungkook in the future is with everyone else.

I would do anything. I would do anything and everything in my power just to save him, to make sure he was breathing.

There, you realized that the truck was going down faster than you thought and you did hoped that this plan would work.

"I love you."

09/06/17

You wake up two days after the accident, your eyes fluttering open to an all white ceiling that had you sigh.

'Guess I'm gone', You think but as you flicker your eyes to see the rest of what was in store for you, your eyes notice Chaeyoung staring at you with tears rolling down her red face.

"Oh my gosh," She gasps and before your mind could adjust to your surroundings, Chaeyoung was hugging you tightly.

You felt her warmth radiate off of herself and you wanted to sob into her shoulder as you heard her bawl her eyes out on yours. "You dumbass, why did you-"

"I had to save him," You cut her off and Chaeyoung pulls away with her eyes narrowing into slits.

"You are lucky I'm too relieved that you're awake because I hate you so much for doing that."

As you giggled into her embrace, your eyes raise and you spot Jungkook. Your giggles faded and you could see the way Jungkook's eyes softened at the sight of you and once Chaeyoung parted once again, she noticed that she was in the middle of an awkward tension. Clearing her throat she excused yourself out of the room as you sat up in your bed slowly and painfully as you realized that you must have broke a bone.

"Careful," Jungkook says while strolling over to you. "You sprained your wrist and broke your ankle."

Your eyes never left his as he spoke to you.

"I'm guessing you didn't really talk to Inha?"

Jungkook laughs nervously while tensing. "Yeah..."

"Were you really afraid to see her again?"

He shook his head while shoving his hands into his pockets.

"When you told me you had found her and you had an idea of where she was, I was- beyond thrilled. But, inevitably, when you told me that there should be a reason why she left, right? Because you said people come and go in your life? I realized that Inha had to go, and then you had suddenly came into my life. And when you said that you would wait for me in that coffee shop, I wanted to grab you in my arms and head back home without talking to her without fixing things because you were the one who fixed me- I guess I forgot that a lot of things have cracks in them."

"Wait- I'm sorry-"

"No I'm sorry. I guess what I'm trying to say is... I love you. And I know it's weird hearing this especially when I just went through a rough breakup, but you made my heart beat again. I guess you always made my heart beat from the beginning, but I love that you went out of your way to pick up my broken pieces and put me back together. I love that you put my heart in front of yours. And I love that you came into my life and brought purpose to it. People come and go, but I do sincerely hope you stay."

You didn't realize it, but you were crying. In fact, you just thought you were in heaven and this is what heaven would feel like. But no, you weren't. He was there in front of you and you were there in front of him, breathing, and your heart stopping every now and then that the heart monitor made several cuts.

And the look in his eyes was something that you could clarify that he was indeed in love with you, and boy, you never thought you would have planned that.

Jungkook then kissed you, and you were convinced this is what heaven felt like. His lips were warm and you enjoyed every second of the moment. If this is what heaven felt like, you didn't care if you died knowing you saved his life.

As you parted, he stroked your cheek with his thumb as you held onto his wrist, crying in front of him and he couldn't help but smile a bit at how he loves someone who would do anything for him.

"I love you, Jeon Jungkook," You stated and he pecked yours lips as he nodded while grinning like the happiest man on earth.

"Finally, you guys are more complicated than Yoongi and Chaeyoung," Jimin says while opening the door with an aggravated tone that you realized that they probably heard everything through the thin doors and you couldn't help but laugh into Jungkook's arm, with cheeks turning red.

12/06/17

Of course, you made sure that Jungkook had told Inha, and this time you were going with him to make sure he doesn't leave like he did last time.

Chaeyoung tagged along, being the thirdwheel through the whole bus ride there, but once you made to the 6th floor in which Yoongi and Inha lived in. She said she wanted to talk to him and hopefully she could have him back.

Besides that, Jungkook was nervous because apparently, 'talking to your ex girlfriend with someone who you've moved on with was very out of the ordinary', but you reassured him the whole ride there, standing in front of her door while rubbing his elbow with comfort.

When the door opened, Inha stood there, her hair cut into a pixie cut and she had worn her pajamas. But the first thing she does is smile. She let you enter inside her household and you were the first one to give her a hug and when Jungkook just stood there, you rolled your eyes and pushed him as Inha gave him a hug.

Then, she told you both everything, knowing exactly why you had came. Long story short, she ran away because she felt like the old town was swallowing her whole, being which why she had to take her leave and settle in this apartment with her aunt in San Francisco. Then she apologized, feeling terrible that she left Jungkook because she felt that the relationship was nothing more than just a friendship than a romantic one- but she grinned once again when she noticed you were holding hands with him.

The next thing she said shocked you that you everything started to piece together.

"I actually found someone," She states and Jungkook's eyebrows shoot up. "Her name is Tia and I found out she works at the coffee shop over there."

And you squeal, realizing that Tia was the girl with a septum piercing that chose out a book for you to read while you waited for Jungkook the last time you came. "I'm happy you guys are together."

Then Jungkook decided to pull Inha into an embrace again that had you smile. "I'm happy that you're happy."

Inha patted his back and hummed. "I'm glad that you guys are finally together."

Jungkook pulled away in confusion. "Wait-"

"I knew you guys were going to end up together. It's inevitable that you guys belong with each other," She looks at the both of you with a smug smile and you found yourself looking at her the same look as Jungkook. "Jungkook. I did love you- I really did- but overtime, you had to admit the feeling died and I didn't want to break your heart at all- but seeing that I left and you found someone else so quick...."

He rose his eyebrows, preparing himself to defend himself. "Okay, wait-"

Inha shook her head while chuckling at Jungkook's flustered face as you stifled a laugh at Inha's statement. Jungkook shot you a glare and you grab his arm and rubbed his bicep.

And as you kept laughing while Inha kept making fun of Jungkook, you realized that it worked out in the end.

You were sure that Yoongi and Chaeyoung had made up because as you left Inha's in good terms and went to knock on Yoongi's door, they didn't answer for a while so when you called Chaeyoung, you heard her phone ring inside the apartment that you and Jungkook looked at each other in suspicion. You laughed and just went out to explore the city with the man you loved.

You were happy, Jungkook was happy, Inha was happy, and everyone else was happy.

29/06/27

You were inside your shared room, trying to dig into your closet, looking for something in particular until you found it- the small box full of memories. Smiling as you walked over to your bed and opening it while it sat on your lap, you couldn't help but have your smile grow bigger as you saw the picture that sat on top of it.

It's been 5 years already and you couldn't help but laugh at the picture on top of all the memories.

It was a picture taken at your wedding.

You were in your white long dress with flowers in your hair and you had cake on your face and the photographer just happened to take a picture of the moment when you got caked. And in the photo, your husband stood there with cake on his nose trying to put more cake on your face.

You remember the moment clearly that day that it still makes you laugh once you see the photo.

Smiling, you take out two pictures from the side of your bed and place it on top of the picture.

One picture was an ultrasound of your baby 6 months in. The other picture was a family picture with your daughter at her one year birthday. Your husband was kissing your cheek as you held baby Eunmi in your arms while colorful balloons floated behind you.

You smiled as you put the pictures in the box and closed the box.

As you closed it, you heard a voice calling your name.

"Y/N?"

"In here!" You called out and you stood up with the box in your hands.

"Love, Eunmi wants-" He stopped as he spotted you with his box of memories. "Is that my box?"

"Yeah, I had to add two more pictures in it," You say while putting it back into your closet.

"Ah," He says as you walks over to you as he wraps his arms around your waist while putting his chin on your shoulder. "You know, I'm glad we decided to move on this hill. Eunmi seems to like it a lot."

You hummed in response and he rocks you gently. "I love you, Y/N."

It's been 10 years since he first said that and every time he does say it, you still get goosebumps. "I love you too, Jungkook."

29/06/17

You walked over to the top of the hill in which the apple trees were secluded and you gasped at the view that overlooked a scenery of green fields and ahead, you can spot the city. You marveled at the beautiful and unfamiliar sight in front of you as you smiled. Jungkook looked down at you as if he was so incredulously grateful that you had came into his life and he most hoped that you'd stay for a long time.

"Wouldn't it be nice to raise kids here?" He bluntly asked.

You looked at him raising an eyebrow. "We've been together for a couple of days and you're already talking about kids?"

"Why not? It'd be nice to live here with someone I love," Jungkook smirks.

You couldn't help but laugh at him and his cheesiness as he pulled you into him with an arm around your waist. You had to agree when he suggested living here since the view on the hill was breathtaking and you could get used to seeing it everyday- especially waking up to your husband and raising a child.

"You are lucky that I do love you, Jeon Jungkook."

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