#blaize rambles

[violets-and-books]

My favourite polycule? Oh, yes, thanks for asking. I quite like the Ghostbusters

[blazingstaro]

FREEBIE QUESTION, BUT IT'S FOR ALL OF YOUR FANDOM CHARACTERS AND ORIGINAL CHARACTERS

SPILL THE TEA TO ME, SIS!!!

HFJSI GIRRRLLLL YOU'RE OPENING PANDORA'S BOX

In terms of main Kirby OCs (fandom/franchise characters):

Eave, Twyla, Fintan, Slinx, Squire, King Orpheus, Jesse, Ducky and the Dusters, Princess Alatariel, Nimue & Gilroy, and Malacai

I love all my goobers to pieces! And Orpheus, oh Orpheus has taken over my life. I no longer have control over my story because of him. It's his story now, and I'm the lowly servant who's constantly subjected to his demands for me to rewrite things 😭 I've rewritten his intro episode at least 5 times, and now he's injected himself into DotS:MMM. Orpheus PLEASE I NEED A BREAK— I WAS JUST FINISHING PART 6 IN SCRIPT FORMAT YOU JERK

Thia man's made me rewrite his ENTIRE BACKSTORY THREE TIMES! And now I have to rewrite his WHOLE NOVEL SERIES. YES THE WHOLE NOVEL DEDICATED TO JUST HIM. I have to rewrite it from THE GROUND UP. JUST AS I FINISHED CHAPTER 2.

CHAPTER 2 HAS BEEN COMPLETELY SLAMMED OUT OF CANON. I spent 4 months writing it and he just went "mmmm nah, not canon". 20+ pages. TWENTY. PLUS. PAGES. Right in the trash. Gone. Reduced to atoms. I love Orpheus. But he likes to make me work. I'm not allowed to relax 😭 and what's worse is that's also in character for him 😭😭😭😭 I can't control this man, he controls MEEEE *SOB*

Woes aside– Main official characters that I manage in DotS are the following:

Meta Knight, Galacta Knight, Sir/King Arthur, Magolor, Kirby (shared), and Bandana Waddle Dee (shared)

My sis and co-writer @starlightfyre handles other officials in our AU! She's got King Dedede, Taranza, all of Arthur's knights (Falspar, Dragato, etc.), and more!

They're all pretty neat! :D

Original character and original content rambling below the cut here, if anyone is interested in my OG projects:

In terms of active proper OCs, my main cast has been demoted to just being doodle buddies and officially retired from being a series. All my OCs are sorta on standby until I have some story ideas for them! My mains under World Jumpers are these goobers:

Oswald, Tempest, Blaize, Asoné, Raymond, and Xylea! Ozzy and Tempest are the protagonists with the rest being secondary!

I've wrestled with their story for so long that I decided to throw in the towel and admit defeat early this year. It's been 14 long years with these guys collectively, and no actual plot or meaning to their story? Yeah no time to shelve it for good. I have a very fleshed out world for them, but it's really detailed to the point where it's kinda convoluted, but it's been set in stone for so long that I can't undo it without shattering everything

So I figured it'd just be better to start fresh with something else later. I love WJ, but after the history I've had with WJ, it's better that I leave it to rest. The world and story was too big for just me, and I tried for years to find a partner as passionate about the world as I was, but none were. I lost my passion after getting burned out due to stress writing and drawing everything. I love WJ, love my characters and world, but it's a story that never wanted to be told

Since then I've sort of been at a loss on what to do next in terms of original projects. I've got loads of WIP ideas and concepts from over the years, but none have really jumped up at me like DotS has for years 😭

I have a lot of OCs, like A LOT. I had a list and there's like easily 100+ named characters in WJ's universe alone

The others are much smaller! These are all my WIP OG stories:

Project: "Listen" | Animated anthro film inspired by "Cats Don't Dance", focuses on Kaeden who is a mute genet whose dream is to be an actor, despite having a job as a director easily lined up for him. Faces a bit of adversity in a market that hankers for a voice; he becomes friends with a frustrated actress who's been locked into the same kind of roles for years, and wishes to do more, who becomes a voice for Kaeden when he needs it most (I aspire to have an actual deaf/mute person be Kaeden's voice through sign language, since animators will nees references for his dialogue; they'll be put in the credits as his voice because they are! LOVE!)

Project: "Dragon Rider" | Sort of a chosen-one story with a twist, focuses on the struggle between duty and desire. Female protagonist is the prophesized reincarnation of a figure that's meant to bring her tribe into a new golden age, but when she bonds with an unexpected and common kind of dragon (and not the big gaudy one they expected), she faces a dilemma: follow the wishes of her people or her own heart?

Project: "Willemina" | Sci-fi detective story that was originally a spinoff of WJ, so it's set in the same universe. Main protag is non-binary hoomin (human-like species of mine), Willemina, a former space ranger gone private detective investigating the mysterious murder of a local guardian. Will befriends the late guardian's companion, a sweet little Weapon Spirit, and sets out to solve the mystery together (and discovering said weapon spirit's very useful defensive abilities)

Most everyone from each respective story has concept art or complete designs!

[artnerd1123]

Ok so here’s random rambles having to do with today’s Daydream ™ ft. Me talking with Rachel

Also this is rlly long so Hfjhdjsjjs lo siento—

To recap: everyone in the squad has different jobs in the horror attraction! They are as follows-

Clancy plays host, as we know, and he’s both chill and chaotic when playing his host persona. Less gentlemanly than usual (and likes to go off script n do stupid things whenever he wants) but we love him anyway

Berimont plays the shady deal man who “sells” things to the guests. He always insists that they take one object- a prop to signal the next attraction that they’re ready to go! He’s mysterious n shifty, but seems generally good natured. Generally.

Mara plays your typical horror monster! She gets to really let loose and shriek/chase/otherwise terrify the guests coming through. She uses her venom to scare people as well. And red paint. Or is it really paint???

In the woods, we have sable playing a happy go lucky potion maker who’s experiments go wrong! She makes potions beforehand that turn her into a few different monsters, and spends her time romping after people once she makes her ‘mistake’ in mixing potions!

Blaize plays the rescuer in the woods, scooping people up to fly them to safety after sable’s chased em enough. They make sure there’s no dark anything left on people, as well as calming em down. It’s a good arrangement!!!

Dawn plays a role similar to Blaize? Except they’re a bit more scary! They give the guests one final fright as they pop out of the main shop building- flaring their wings n making scary sounds- while also making sure nothing dark is left on the guests who leave!

Ok so now that we have roles (and that took 50 years), here’s some actual random shiz (some of which makes me laugh)

The prop Beri insists people take with them is actually Mara’s signal to bring on the chase! If a group goes down without the prop, she’s not allowed to chase them. This is done for groups that Clancy thinks wouldn’t do well being chased around. The prop is dropped before everyone leaves the room, so it can be reused.

Every time a new group goes up to Beri’s “shop,” Clancy breaks character to ask if he can purchase a kiss from the handsome shop owner. Berimont gives him one every time. Sometimes, if Clancy’s being particularly weird with the script/acting dumb (in the funny way), he’ll give him one “free of charge”

It becomes a running gag that Clancy gets a kiss “free of charge” if he does smth rlly stupid. He’ll ask for it or Beri will give it to him with the accompanying phrase

Someone does office style interviews with people during one of the horror attraction runnings.

Clancy, holding a glass of wine as Mara chases ppl in the background: I love my job. Whoever thought this up is a genius.

*someone screams in the bg, interviewer asks what that was*

Clancy, swirling wine in glass: ... that’s none of my business *takes a sip*

Mara, covered in paint(?): THIS IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!! IM HAVING SO MUCH FUN- AAAAAAAAAAA-

Beri, sitting at his shop dreamily bc kisses while Mara and guests shriek in the bg: ... I love him. This is the best week of my life.

Blaize, carrying someone to safety: well, nobody’s died yet! So I’d say it’s going well!

Dawn, fidgeting worriedly at the door: everyone’s always scared of me, a-and I don’t know why- I mean- I’m the one making sure there’s nothing bad left on you! I’m keeping you safe! I hope there’s not too many groups left...

Sable, throwing potions on the ground: I dunno exactly what’s going on, but this is GREAT :D !!!

Anyways all of them are dumb and Clancy’s a smug host man for one (1) week and I love them thank u for comin to my ted talk

[theladyoffangorn]

One word to describe each of the young avengers?

Hi!!! I'm sorry it took me this long to answer this...I have a terrible habit of not answering stuff when it's more than a day or three old because I feel like the person who asked is gonna see it and be mad it took this long and now I'm just rambling 😅😅

Laura- @justmebeingtheweirdmeiam - Sarcastic (or gay! Also loving)

Mel- @criminal-cookies - Caring (or thirsty! Or motherly)

Bri- @becausewhyknotme - Sweet (or a tad frazzled because of our antics)

Lia- @officialtonystarkprotectionsquad - Warm

Kat- @katbtracy - Happy

Kit- @agentpeggybarnes - Constant

Nat- @writing-for-hours-on-end - Bubbly

Ruby- @fangirl-introvert - Innocent

Jay- @imma-new-soul - Mom

Blaize- @blaizeannyt - Saucy

MJ- @ilovetomatoes3000 - Omniscient (alternatively, omnipresent)

Y'all I don't think I missed anyone......there are so many of us now!!! ♥️♥️💖💞💙 Love you guys so much @theofficialyoungavengers

[ofsanctuary]

Q.  WHAT  BELIEFS  OR  FAITH  DOES  YOUR  MUSE  CURRENTLY  HOLD? (  do  they  believe  in  the  spirits  or  the  gods?  or  perhaps  something  else  entirely,  i.e.  a  mostly  forgotten  religion  passed  down  through  generations  )

blaiz believes in the elemental spirits and with it that all things in the world exist because of them; that the spirits created all the natural or organic matter in the world. it’s the only thing that’s ever made sense to him, unlike many other children of his clan, blaiz had the opportunity to hear of how the other clans functioned, what sort of beliefs they held, and how they differed from their own. by the time his tutor had finished, it all sounded too unnatural and believing in all powerful entities such as ‘gods’ outlandish, even to a child with as wild an imagination as blaiz. 

Q.  HOW  DOES  YOUR  MUSE  FEEL  ABOUT  THEIR  OWN  CLAN?  how  do  they  feel  about  the  other  clans?  where  do  their  loyalties  truly  lie?

blaiz loves his people and while his brother had been alive and the crown destined for a head that wasn’t his own, the youngest prince wanted to be there for them; he just wanted it to be in the background. despite his insane plan to get his clansmen to essentially turn on him, blaiz still loves his clan wants them to remain strong and in control of their own territory, perhaps even more powerful than they currently are—he simply doesn’t want it to be his responsibility to keep or get them there. 

like many of his clansman, blaiz is very distrustful of outsiders, especially of those who hold beliefs different than his own. this suspicion primarily stems from childhood as his brother used to frequently mess with him as a child by telling him things like if the disruptors ever captured him, they’d feed him the metal devils. now grown, blaiz knows his brother was only trying to get to him, but he’d never been able to forget the tall tales. 

where he is right at this moment in his life, blaiz would say his loyalties lay only with himself and the people he cares for. that includes venus, mira, his uncle, and his closest friends. 

Q.  DO  THEY  FEEL  AS  THOUGH  THEY  CAN  TRUST  THE  PERSON  LEADING  THEIR  PEOPLE? explain  why  or  why  not.  refer  to  the  lore  page  for  information  on  the  leaders  of  each  clan.

not in the least. even though it’s his own mother and some part of him still loves her, blaiz lost any faith he had in her leadership abilities and her desire to do what’s best for their people when she sent her warriors west to march on an army she knew they were ill-prepared to face. had the battle never took place, there’s no doubt in blaiz’s mind that his brother, aydan, would still be alive, well, and ready to rule.

he would go as far as to say that his mother has been blinded by her own ambition to have it all, to rule it all, and that’s potentially even more dangerous than whatever it is he knows the children of the oracle are cooking up. 

Q.  WHAT  ARE  YOUR  MUSE’S  VIEWS  ON  THE  MACHINES? are  they  someone  willing  to  do  battle  with  them  or  do  they  avidly  avoid  detection  while  in  the  wilds?  what  are  their  theories  on  what  the  machines’  true  purpose  is/what  they  were  made  for?  if  they  don’t  believe  that  the  machines  were  made  by  the  gods,  do  they  have  any  ideas  or  beliefs  about  who  made  them?

blaiz considers the machines to be unnatural abominations, like much of his clan. they are beasts that have no right to exist and without the help of mankind, they never would have. the prince has expressed his views in the past, primarily during drunken ramblings when he’s had a few too many at the tavern. just as their ancestors made weapons that ended their world all those centuries ago, they must have made the metal devils, for only mankind could do something so evil. the spirits never would have created something so destructively monstrous. 

taking out machines is something of a civil service as far as the prince is concerned. allowing one to go free is only ensuring the death of someone else. 

Q.  IS  YOUR  MUSE  A  SKILLED  FIGHTER? if  so,  who  taught  them  how  and  what  weapon(s)  do  they  use  most  frequently?  if  not,  how  does  your  muse  defend  themselves  in  the  wilds  or  against  enemies?

incredibly skilled. blaiz has been trained by the best warriors, generals, and specialist available, just as his brother had been. the prince was tutored in numerous fighting styles and techniques, by masters from each of the different clans; the ice queen refused to allow the other clans have any sort of advantage over her heirs. 

blaiz’s weapon of choice when going into battle is an axe and shield combo, however, there is also always a broadsword attached to his left side, a dagger on his right hip, and a second dagger tucked inside his right boot. to be caught unarmed is the last thing he’ll allow. the broadsword is the weapon he uses most often as he’s found it does the most damage to his opponents.

when leaving the confines of the city and entering wilds, blaiz typically brings his bow with him and he’s found it’s the most effective weapon for taking out machines without having to bother to get all that close. 

[lowkeyjustvibing]

Time for some more EOTE :)

Chapter 1: Hello World

Regenold Schippel P.O.V.

So you may be wondering how we got into this situation. To put it simply, World Ender managed to end the entire world. The apocalypse isn’t as cool as you may think. There are no zombies to beat the crap out of or even cool vehicles to ride around in. Instead, we need to survive every day while avoiding homicidal maniacs. It isn’t fun at all.

I have tanned skin and brown eyes that go along with my black hair. I wear a red t-shirt and grey sweatpants and I love running and am always hyper. And I love doing anything dangerous that I will get a kick out of. Most of the time, I tend to wear my own man-made armor since, y’know, the world is overrun with psychopaths, and I have always had a passion for building things, especially weapons. I made my first well-functioning weapon when I was 8, but honestly, my favorite weapon I ever crafted was, when I was 11 where it has 2 chambers, one for producing lightning, and the other that emits flames. On the right side of my face is a scar, which I got from being pushed off a building right onto a pile of bricks. Before the entire apocalypse, I used to study reptiles and tried to save them from any animal-abuse related situation. I did save an alligator not too long ago that was being abused by poachers, and it was only a baby. The baby and I have grown attached and I now carry him wherever I go. I did have a family, but once the apocalypse struck, I was all alone.

Lucky for me, I managed to find fellow survivors of the incident, Blaize, Germ, Datura, and Ahiru. Weird names, I know. Blaize has dark red hair and golden eyes. He wore a leather jacket and a black shirt. He also wore blue jeans and black sneakers. On his left eye was a scar that he got when facing off one of the members of the elusive yet horrifying Class 09. Despite the fact that it was obviously a very traumatic experience, he likes to flaunt the wound, using it as a sort of badge of honor. He tends to make jokes during tense or dangerous situations and if not jokes, then occasional flirty comments. He’s a really friendly guy and only managed to stick around with us because he was nice and I figured going for strength in numbers was a good plan.

Germ is a short girl with dark brown hair and tanned skin. She wears a gas mask, sweatpants, and an oversized T-shirt. To add on, she also wears worn-out climbing gloves and hiking boots. She got her nickname due to her extreme germaphobia, which is also why she wears that gas mask all the time. Due to isolation, she tends to talk to herself when she isn’t listening to music. Strangely, she tends to ramble on and on about souls and the main components. When she isn’t doing any of that stuff, she is making us weapons and her lifelong project, the ETPD or Electronic Task Performance Drone. I guess we allowed her to join because we were in desperate need of weapons at the time.

And then we have Datura. To be completely honest, I wouldn’t say she is part of the group or even trustworthy. Why? She is one of the original members of Class 09 and still is. She isn’t even with us half of the time! She has sun-kissed skin and curly, black hair. She has feline-like emerald eyes that gleam with mischievous intent. On the bridge of her nose and cheeks are freckles. Like, freckles galore. She tends to wear a plain shirt underneath a pair of green overalls. She also wears a sun hat with several lovely flowers on it. She lives farther away from the rest of the group, in a little run-down tree house, atop an old willow tree. From the branches hang bottles and charms. When the sun shines down the under-side of the tree it is like a disco. Her house is creaky and old, having lived there since...well, I don’t really know. The inside is dirty and filled with herbs and other plants. She has many cats, all of them with odd names. She says she’s a witch but I just think she’s crazy, just like all the other World Enders. She also seems to enjoy what the world has come to. She loves how nature runs rampant, along with all the psychopaths, but she can be sweet. She helps the group occasionally, giving herbs and healing wounds. 

But even with all the help she provides, I still consider her untrustworthy as she did help end the world and she is kind of a psychopath herself who jokes about murdering us at times. Unfortunately, the other two don’t entirely share my caution. Blaize is quite neutral towards her but is a lot less casual when she’s around. Germ is the exact opposite of me, she actually tends to hang out around Datura. She says that it’s because the treehouse is very clean and Datura is nicer than we thought. After the first 10 times, I stopped trying to stop her and figured that if she got killed, it was her fault.

This other guy that we met during one of our supplies runs was very strange. He acted like the whole apocalypse never happened. When we asked him if he knew where was going he said he did, but just didn't care or worry about it. He seemed to be able to handle himself since he's been able to survive for this long on his own. He said his name was Ahiru Fujita. He wears a cyan hoodie and jeans all the time, maybe he's cold or maybe he doesn't have a shirt I don't know. It's not something you really ask during the apocalypse. Ahiru had short black hair, light brown eyes and he isn’t that tall he's only like, 5’4. There isn’t anything special in the way he looks, he’s just an average person who has done what is needed to survive since there is no way he survived this long if he didn’t do that. The way he acts as if everything is alright is worrisome but there is strength in numbers so after some convincing, we managed to have him join our group. 

That’s all of us, just a group of idiots trying to survive. It isn’t easy but things turn out better with people by your side. Sure, they are weird but they are better than nothing. We are planning to head out into the city this morning. I just hope we don’t die before we get there.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

We reached the city unharmed, somehow.

It didn’t help that we had to wrestle Germ out of Datura’s treehouse and then fight off a bunch of the man-eating plants around it, but after that, it was smooth sailing. We were all surprisingly silent the whole time. It wasn’t awkward though, it was a mutual sense of peace. When we finally got to the city, it was as destroyed and overgrown as usual. Vines covered the buildings and trees had grown up through the pavement, shattering it like glass. There were still lots of people living in the ruins but you had to know just where to look to even catch a trace of them. Honestly, it was a choice between the Wastelands and the Ruins that were occasionally visited by the 09’s. 

Germ carried all our weapons in her backpack in case we came into contact with one of them. Today, we planned to raid a couple of stores for any food we could get our hands on. We split into groups of two, I went with Ahiru while Blaize and Germ went the opposite way. Ahiru was silent as usual and only spoke to point out possible locations of food. We also had to be careful of crumbling buildings and the fairly hostile plant life. There were patches of poison ivy that had become even more potent and could give you a bad fever or even kill people if they came into contact with it too much. 

Thankfully, we were able to avoid all of it and find a couple cans of noodles, beans, and even a couple of seeds for growing our own food. After stocking up on all the supplies we could find, we started heading back to the rendezvous point. Halfway there, Ahiru stopped me.

“What’s up?” I asked.

“There’s more poison ivy” He responded, pointing his katana at a patch of bright green leaves poking up through the road.

“Oh shoot,” I muttered, “glad you’re more observant than I am.”

I was about to continue on around it but he stopped me again.

“That’s not the thing.” He said, “There wasn’t any ivy there before. That’s an entirely new vine.”

I slowly started to piece what he was saying together, “That either means we didn’t notice it the first time, or someone’s trying to kill us with plants, or…”

“Datura.” We both said simultaneously.

He tightened his grip on his katana and I grabbed my rifle and glanced around. 

“What’s the game plan?” I asked, “Do we go after her or head back to the meet point?”

There was silence for a moment and I glanced back at him. He was staring down the empty streets viciously, as if he was about to see some monster appear from nowhere. 

“I think we should head back.” I said, nudging his shoulder, “It’s probably not a good idea to go after her when we’re surrounded by huge plants.”

He nodded, still looking around. We made our way back slowly, twice as cautious now. After a couple minutes, I spotted Germ and Blaize. Blaize was carrying the food and Germ was showing off one of her newest models for the ETPD. 

Blaize noticed us and waved, “Over here guys!”

We made our way over and after receiving a few snarky “Did you get lost?” comments, I explained the situation. Blaize looked worried and Germ… Well I couldn’t tell if she was indifferent or happy, it’s hard to tell with the mask. 

“We should probably get out of he-” Blaize started but was interrupted by a squeaky voice.

“SQUEEEEEE!!!!!” There was a high pitched squeal coming from a nearby alleyway, “A TRILLIUM! IT IS PERFECTION!!!! IT IS HAPPINESS! THIS GORGEOUS PLANT. Look at you!!!! How amazing you’re thriving in this chaos! Have the animals been leaving you alone? What a wondrous thing! What a fancy plant!” the voice continued in a high pitch, indescribable to human ears, and tortuous to most animals.

“Is that..?” Ahiru asked.

“Definitely.” I responded.

Germ looked up from her blueprints and I could practically feel her smiling, “Datura!”

“Blaize stop her before she goes after Datura.” I said.

“Alright.” He said, running up to stop Germ, and hold her back.

From the alleyway where the voice continued to screech, plants, and vines were protruding in every which way, blasting out of the alleyway. The vines were going crazy.

“Guys, look!” I said pointing at all the greenery, “What’s happening?”

“I think Datura’s doing it.” Ahiru said, slicing a nearby vine in two.

Suddenly, the screeching stopped along with the vines. The street was eerily silent for a moment before a soft “Ow!” came from the alley.

“What did you do?!” Germ hissed, “Everyone knows you don’t attack Datura’s plants!”

“Uh oh…” Blaize muttered and Germ squirmed out of his hold.

“Germ wait-!” I tried to stop her but she was already running towards the alley. 

“Datura!” She called, disappearing into the alley.

We all glanced at each other and I sighed, “Well, I think we know what we’re doing now.”

[violets-and-books]

Thinking about Crows getting married

With kanej, I feel like Kaz would 100% take Inej's name. He's still 'Kaz Brekker' professionally but every contract he signs off is 'K. G Brekker'. I don't think Inej would want to take Kaz's name because it's... this is difficult to explain. It would feel like taking away another part of her freedom? Like, obviously, that's not what Kaz is doing or wants to do but, like, idk

Jesper would take Van Eck. He'd be so fucking proud of it. Rolling up to mercher meetings like "Oh, Mr Van Eck? No, you're talking about my husband, I'm just his secretary" He'd be so damn proud. (full names would definitely be Wylan and Jesper Van Eck-Hendriks but Van Eck for professional situations)

Matthias Zenik sounds better than Nina Helvar (in my opinion) but I feel like neither of them would want to lose a bit of their culture like that? So they keep their original names. Can you imagine Matthias introducing Nina as "my wife", though, I'm dead-

[violets-and-books]

Sulu in the naked time is ultimate bbg. Peak gender. My rotten cheese, my little soldier, my good time boy

I mean look at him

[violets-and-books]

Wylan: You should do what you love

Jesper: Can I do you, then?

Wylan: What?

Jesper: What?

[violets-and-books]

I'm thinking about Wylan as Kuwei

Wylan pretending to be Kuwei, tailored as Kuwei and standing beside Jesper every night on that ship. Never speaking to him because he's not allowed. He follows orders well. He's learnt to be seen and not heard, it's the only thing he's good at.

I'm thinking about Jesper too

Jesper, stood on the deck of that ship every night, thinking about Wylan. Thinking about why Wylan won't see him anymore. Wondering why he never comes up onto deck anymore. Wondering why Kuwei always comes to stand near him. Is Kuwei some sort of messanger for Wylan? How many times did he replay the "not just girls" conversation in his head? How many times did he wonder what he'd done wrong? He always does something wrong. It's his fault, somehow

Neither of them knowing how to fix the situation but both of them just stood there. Every night. So close and yet so far away. Both wanting each other and yet having no way to reach out

[violets-and-books]

JESPER THOUGHTS TIME BECAUSE IF EVERYONE ELSE CAN DO IT SO CAN I

This is a man who longs to be loved. He longs to be loved and to be allowed to love. This is, genuinely, the first impression of him I got from the books. When Bollinger was revealed as a traitor, Jesper didn't react with anger, as you'd expect from someone who, yknow, had been betrayed. All he said was "Oh, Big Bol... you idiot." And it sounds REGRETFUL. He regretted what Bollinger had done, he regretted being betrayed by someone he saw as his friend. He and Bollinger weren't even that close but he acted so regretful and disappointed

He wants to love. He reaches out so desperately to everyone around him. He reaches out to Kaz so much, everyone's analysed that to death, but he reaches out to EVERYONE. Everything about him is crafted so people will like him. The humour, the flirting, the style, the laid-back personality, it's all a way to present a version of himself that everyone will like. And it takes such a toll on him - we see that with his gambling and his intense self loathing - but he doesn't try to change it. Because he wants people to like him so much

Jesper's childhood was so full of love. His mum loved his dad, his dad loved his mum his mum loved him and his dad loved him. There wasn't a person in that house who didn't feel intensely, completely loved and accepted. Out of all the Crows, Jesper had the healthiest early childhood.

And then his mum died.

And he suddenly didn't feel so loved or accepted anymore. Not because of anything anyone did but because his mum's powers had killed her and her death ripped a huge rift through the family. Colm still loved Jesper but he was afraid for him. Afraid that his zowa would take Jesper from him like it took Aditi from him. So, Jesper learnt to hide that part of himself. He learnt that, in order to be loved, he had to hide parts of himself away. He had to hide his power, the dangerous part of himself, the part his mother had given to him.

Then, when he fell into the Barrel, he had to hide more of himself. I'm fairly certain he was only 15 when he dropped out of uni. He was incredibly young and probably absolutely terrified. And so many of the people around him were strong and apathetic and dangerous. So, again, Jesper learnt and he adapted. He's a master of change, he can create whatever image of himself he wants. He knows how to make people like him.

All because he wants to be loved. Because he wants to love. He trusts and loves people so implicitly, so quickly, he treasures his friends. He loves people so deeply and completely, verging on the edge of blindness. And people just don't give him that love and trust back. He fights for it. Every bullet out of his gun, every quip or insult or fist thrown is because he wants his friends to love him. He wants to be useful and needed and wanted. He's got such a hole in his heart, such a well of emptiness, that he doesn't let anyone see. Because if people know he's weak, if people know he's human, they won't like him anymore. If they know he's more (or less) than the jokes and the empty promises and the easy pick-up lines and the guns and the flash, they won't love him anymore and he will be completely, utterly alone with his thoughts

[violets-and-books]

Spirk Princess Bride AU

[violets-and-books]

I'm thinking Jedi Initiates and Padawans,,, they're kids, right? So, they've got to have kids jokes, right? So, I had thoughts:

*slight inconvenience happens* "This is going to tempt me to the Dark Side"

Trying to imitate Yoda's voice

Playing baseball or rounders with lightsabers and rocks

Midnight feasts or sleepovers, shushing each other when Jedi teachers come by

"I bet you can't Force lift me over that wall" "Watch me!" *proceeds to not be able to lift them over the wall*

"Last time that news was relevant, Yoda was a Padawan"

Just a lot of jokes about Yoda

[violets-and-books]

🍃 Hello 🍃

You can call me Blaize or Odysseus :] (pronouns they/he)

I write fanfic on ao3, if you want to check me out!

I love getting asks so feel free to ask me anything

I am in a lot of different fandoms (big ones are Six of Crows, Star Trek, TNBC and Doctor Who) and am open to new ones 👀

Fics by mee

(more to come, hehe)

Bow Before your King | Wesper, show universe {playlist if you want it}

A Prize for Traitors | Wesper, Helnik & Kanej, Star Wars AU {playlist if you want it}

Inlaid with Stars | Wesper, background Kanej & Helnik, Tangled AU

A Breath Away, a World Apart | Wesper, Kanej & background Helnik, The Little Mermaid AU {playlist if you want it}

A Barrel Rat's Guide to Being a Mercher | Wesper, Canon Divergence, Mercher AU {playlist if you want it}

(some of the) Favourite One Shots I've Written:

Starlight - Wesper [T Rated] {Canon Divergence}

Something to Stay For - Wesper [T Rated] {Newsies AU}

How to get a Tired Demo Expert to Sleep - Wesper [G Rated] {Post Canon}

Sainted Snow - Kanej, [G Rated] {Modern AU} - - for @thrxughthenxght

More Playlists

{Wesper} | {Jesper Fahey} | {Kanej - Taylor's Version} | {Wylan Van Eck}

See you, Blaize/Odysseus✨✨

[violets-and-books]

Me and the bad bitch I pulled by being autistic except it could go either way

[violets-and-books]

Freddy Carter appearing in my Death in Paradise has given me an intense - intense - need to write about the crows on San Marie

Somebody sedate me