#blaming my astrology chart for this one tbh

[memecatwings]

you see whats wrong with me is that whenever i find myself interested in someone i go out of my way to avoid doing anything about it. id rather never approach them and just let the unrequited feelings wash over me savoring the bitter feeling of never seeing them again. so rarely do i find myself interested in someone and i self-sabotage every time bc i like that feeling more than anything i could expect to get out of a relationship. this is not the result of trauma or anything ive literally always been like this. my first "crush" i had, i had for years and never did anything simply because i liked having an unrequited crush. this is normal to me, everyone else is weird for actually persuing romance

[djservo]

now, let's see some questions............

1. do the bros find each other attractive?

2. how is their compatibility?

3. some thoughts about their relationship? (looks at you with a serious face from behind the glasses – we need an emoji for that 🤓 this one is not serious enough)

I'll indulge you bc i respect your audacity but I'd like to know which gutter you crawled out of (affectionately💞)

according to their sim profiles (& their preferences, which were developed based on who they have already or will eventually get with story-wise) Yes .. but NOTE that it's Just attractive rather than Very or Extremely, so sit ur butt back down 🫵

2. nothing about compatibility based on the WW mod (no puzzle pieces or anything like that) but OK full transparency umm they did recently start autonomously flirting with each other I BLAME DIEGO OK !!! u know how when 2 sims are flirty + a 3rd joins the convo That sim gets flirty too... Ya. they kept flirting even after diego left it was Madness I had to cancel so many interactions for straight DAYS until I gave up n just cheated their romance value to 0 kjgldjg so now they have a scorned lil red line in the romance bar sorry boys </3 take from that what u will

3. as for my own Personal interpretation 😮‍💨✊ (that's me clearing my throat) look I tried really hard not to turn this into an astrology thing but every thought directs me back to their charts! I'd argue it even fits their EA lore to a T bc For Starters aries & libra are sister signs right like technical polar opposites, but its those clashing extremes of their personalities that balance each other out so well ⚖️

and tbh a lot of aspects in their charts kinda point to extremes - both with a pleasure-seeking fire venus (sergio - leo, joaquin - aries) which demands attention and makes every desire feel especially heavy 🥩 then they have these stubborn moons (sergio - taurus, joaquin - scorpio) that need a strong sense of security to feel at ease & if we wanna be silly, we can relate this to the part of their EA description that talks about climbing ranks/making money/furnishing their house -- shared motifs of financial stability and the necessary comfort of home yada yada (what is this, an AP english class??) but litrally... little in common but the finer things in life 4 real...

ALL THAT BEING SAID / TLDR: I think when they have their shit together their relationship is a really fun + rewarding balancing act that gets tighter with time and inadvertently makes the other a better version of themself but when it's bad it's Bad and though I think they were a little rocky/frigid/unsure of what to make of the other upon first meeting, it hasn't necessarily gotten Bad™ yet to the point of an explosive fight that various aspects of their chart show they're certainly capable of having, all low blows and personal attacks from accumulated knowledge about each other throughout the years. hopefully it stays that way 🙂👍

[camuslittlesister]

The one where I use Astrology to argue in favour of a TRIGGER threesome

And I don't mean swapping me and Tenn although I also don't not mean it

Contains spoilers so proceed at your discretion. Because this is a R18 synastry I will look at the most obvious placements for that, Venus and Mars. On a serious note, I believe synastry is not romantic in nature and will illustrate the potential of any relationship among people, and all charts should be read in their entirety if you're serious about understanding how to relate to a specific person through this tool. If you're new to astrology, the side of these two planets I'll be looking at here is not the only side to them. Also it is my personal take as a devoted student of this art that both planets represent how we attract and what we are attracted to, just slightly different and complementary ways in which we relate to ourselves and who we like. I'm just having a bit of fun on a weekend, so I'll keep it surface level.

I will spare you the details of how I ended up down a rabbit hole involving an unfinished fanfic inspired by Diamond Fusion and my friend dropping a million Tenn CGs in the chat, however it had something to do with how Tenn has some obvious major Virgo energy and also is a bit of a domme (I said what I said).

So I looked up his chart based on the canon age at release. And of course I was correct. He has some major Virgo energy.

He's a Virgo Moon, Lilith and North Node, so his ultimate destiny is to be me. Also I learnt today that one interpretation of Saturn synastry is that you owe a karmic debt to the person you have the synastry with, so lucky him that I do not exist in the same plane of existence so he gets to play dom(me) with the other two ikemen in his idol group instead of sub with me.

A three-way synastry

Ryunosuke is the only character that canonically is pretty clear cut like, he can't even hold hands with someone, the only thing he's got going in favour of being the top is he's the tallest. Tenn and his Virgo energy are very dom(me) not letting that go but he also has some serious brat potential, and possibly if he lets himself go (asking a lot of a Virgo Moon, I know) just your old standard sweet boy uke.

Gaku is a gruff outside, soft inside man, but he has some major animalistic sex appeal and 50% his father's genes so could be a D, could be a switch, probably scores about the same as me on the Energetic Blueprint tbh. He has a kind of instinctual quality that's a bit different from how Ryu could double as a service top because he would just do anything to make someone happy.

As for the dynamics of who'd be what with whom? That's where it gets interesting.

Tenn: Mars in Libra, Venus in Leo Since Ryu is a Libra, and Gaku a Leo, that's the first variation that strikes. Sun conjunct Mars in synastry is some serious sexual attraction and physical chemistry. Mars is the Yang planet, so would make Tenn the one with the chasing energy.

With Venus being the Yin planet, it's less of an intense sexual energy than other aspects, but the Sun person (so Gaku) feels more loving and beautiful in the presence of the Venus person. 

So Tenn gets to be a Venusian little b* who gets adored by two ikemen. The dream life.

Gaku: Mars in Libra, Venus in Cancer

At this point poor Ryu has no room to ever come out on top, although plenty of top from the bottom potential in the other two to make him be physically there 👀

Apparently everyone is insanely attracted to him (can't blame them), but he also gets to bring the harmonising Venusian effect to Tenn and his Cancer Sun. Ryu: Mars in Cancer, Venus in Scorpio

I'd like to say "well, we now have the placement where Ryu chases Tenn" but it's Mars in Cancer, that's the sign of his fall. So a placement that challenges Mars' highest potential, and therefore a little bit subby. Well, not its only expression, but it's Ryu we're talking about. However, as a major Scorpio girlie, I have to point out that Venus in Scorpio is an intense placement so overall his vibe ends up being quite strong. I guess he gives me the vibe of the kind of confident lover that would make a girl feel like a queen. And as much as I hate to admit it I'd so go for it. He's so lovely, 10/10 would wife.

So fujoshi and fudanshi of the world rejoice, the stars have aligned in favour of whatever TRIGGER ship variation you dig.

[satanandsoul]

damn okay thank you so much for the hyuck birth chart reading. i need a few minutes after reading that bc where do i even begin?!

the part where you mentioned him being hurt by people possibly making negative remarks was just plain sad tbh. but then i lived the part where you mentioned him and lana del ray having a common something (im sorry i forgot by the time im typing this) it was really fun! he's also wild fhjsjs but thank you so much again! i feel like i got a new perspective hehe.

Thank you so much for taking the time to write a reply for my Haechan birth chart analysis. You are the first one to do so. I really REALLY appreciate it! 💕💛💕 It helps me understand more about how I should improve my writing as an astrologer.

And I must apologise for overwhelming you with my writing. I am not a good writer. I suck at explaining things. I always receive comments like "Do not expect your readers to know what is inside your head" all the time for my papers. I blame it on my Saturn in opposition to my Mercury. 😅 I hope one day I can communicate as clearly as gg-astrology. 🤞🏻That blog rocks btw!!!

But thank you once again for your ask, your help with confirming Haechan's birth time and your reply. If you have any other celebrity/ Kpop idol you would like a reading on, feel free to contact me. Have a nice day!

[yet-another-leo]

Astro Note 4

Here comes a 4th astro note 👩‍🚀

Also I recently checked my dominants and turns out Saturn is one of my doms 😃

Disclaimer: I am no professional astrologer. I do like to observe so here are some of my observations, there are also a few assumptions I make about some placements. If something doesn't resonate with you, then leave it be. These are just for fun.

‍👩‍🚀 Asteroid Zavist shows envy. If it conjuncts a personal planet/ASC/MC, then it shows the place where you are envious and if it opposites a personal planet/ASC/MC, then it shows the place where you attract jealousy.

👩‍🚀 Don't Blame Me by Taylor Swift feels like a lilith in 7H song to me

👩‍🚀 "She looks like every other bitch like-" is me when I lose a mutable rising in a crowd

👩‍🚀 When Doja Cat said "I'm clumsy, made friends with the floor" my libra rising felt it

no because one time I literally slipped on a piece of paper-

👩‍🚀 I have a virgo venus and my stomach has been acting up since virgo season started.

👩‍🚀 I attract mutable signs/placements most of the time

👩‍🚀 but I am so drawn to scorpio placements ESPECIALLY THE RISINGS. Idk why tho

I love listening to Melanie Martinez, MARINA, Lana Del Rey, Mitski and Fiona Apple

I had huge crushes on BTS Namjoon and Taylor Swift.

and guess what they all have in common? FUCKING SCORPIO RISING/placements

I also had a crush on a teacher who is a scorpio and I think I already said this but "that one crush I can't get over" is a scorpio rising

I'm not sure if it's cuz I lack it in my chart or that scorpios are actually kinda hot.

(most of the time they ignore me tho. I hate this so much ksksjlfkjd)

👩‍🚀 Aries moons are like 🔥mind on fire🔥 bonus points if you have it in your 5H. Flowing with passion and creativity.

but they can also feel burnout easily

👩‍🚀 In the rulership book, serpent/snakes are ruled by Pluto, Saturn and Scorpio which does make a lot of sense tbh

They are so misunderstood and people hate them for no reason. Like if you give them their space and leave them alone, I swear they wouldn't even want to look at you.

this reminds me of the time when I saw video of a snake swimming in the ocean and thought it looked cute and peaceful.

👩‍🚀 In the opera singer post, I mentioned Venus doms as one of the common placements of opera singers. Now I checked the rulership book and saw that opera is ruled by Venus.

well yah it should've been obvious cuz Venus rules art and opera is another form of art.

👩‍🚀 Chiron is in Aries and is transiting my 6H and I have messed up my routine and also can't seem to fall asleep. This is ruining me

(┬┬﹏┬┬)

👩‍🚀 Neptune rules "escape" so I think that Neptune in 3H/5H/aspects to Mercury might like to read or write to escape from reality/family. + if it's in Aquarius they might like to read or write fanfics or just like to spend time on phone to escape.

That is all I got for now. Sorry if this felt short.

byee <3

[Exeunt Leo]

[daddy-pops]

🥳 🎉 Astro Notes Part 7 ✨

creds to: @omgits_ella on instagram

(please don’t take anything i say too harshly or close to heart this is just astrology and opinions of mine but thank you guys for supporting me regardless c: )

😉✌🏻From the perspective of a Scorpio Sun, Virgo Moon, Capricorn Rising, Aquarious Stellium in the 1st house:

👁‍🗨🖤✨Planets or Signs in your 9th house show you what parts of your chart or what areas in your life you need to work on. It shows you where you need guidance and what lessons are going to be thrown at you in life. For example, I have Venus in my 9th house and life has thrown me a lot of lessons regarding my relationships and how I love in general. How I express that love, etc. I have a Scorpio Venus aswell, so it’s also shown me the bad parts of my Scorpio Venus and what I need to work on. (Like paranoia & jealousy, what not)

♊️💜🔮✨Gemini Moon’s, Gemini Saturn’s, Gemini Sun’s are pro’s at putting on a mask & hiding their emotions. They can say something but be thinking something entirely different in their head.

✴️🧡🎊Leo Sun’s are SO on and off with attention. Like, one moment they want ALL of your attention RIGHT NOW but then the next they don’t really seem to care as much once they have it lmao

📈📌❤️Capricorn placements in personal placements and mostly in general, usually have this internal fear that time is running out and they need to do more. They will push themselves past their limits because of this and put themselves under huge amounts of stress. They usually aren’t all that good at balancing their relaxation time and hard work times very well. They have spurts of, “I need to get everything I need to get done right now.” and “I don’t wanna fucking move rn. I want to lay here forever.” I have a feeling that most undeveloped placements feel like this, but I think all Capricorn’s in general have had troubles balancing their time & work at some point in their lives.

🌈⭐️✨ALL THE SAGGITARIUS SUN’S I HAVE EVER MET ARE SUPER FUNNY AND PRETTY GODDAMN CHILL FOR THE MOST PART. YOU GUYS HAVE THE WILDEST IMGINATIONS AND FUNNIEST PUNS SO KEEP BEING YOU💯

💥☄️🔥Saggitarius Mars in the 12th house when undeveloped is SOOO good at pointing fingers, playing the victim and never taking responsibility for their actions. If you don’t agree with them, they just have a fit and leave. Very childish anger sprinkled on with some ignorance. (Sorry :/ , but this is why I say undeveloped)

🗝🖤❔Chrion in the 12th house can create a lot of confusion because it’s placed in the house of Neptune. It can make you feel like you don’t know the ways to better yourself or how to help heal yourself. You don’t know what actions you should be taking or what you should be doing to help heal yourself. It all just seems very foggy and confusing tbh. Like you want to take the steps, but you just aren’t entirely sure how to.

👹💋❗️Mars in the 12th house in a Synastry Chart is a pretty harsh but magnetic placement. The couple has issues expressing their emotions towards eachother, and may come off as hostile with miscommunication errors. They also may be prone to maniplation but this is in undeveloped placements. I think this placement really just needs a lot of boundaries and open, healthy communication with one another to really make this work. It’s a complicated placement since it’s placed in the 12th house and it can just be really confusing & irritating for both parties while in arguments. But, with this placement this couple is extremely attracted to one another, and can sometimes even forget why they’re angry with eachother in the first place. This placement can get really unhealthy in my opinion so please be careful, and just remember mindfulness.

🌀✨Mercury in the 12th house in a Composite Chart makes it SO hard for the couple to communicate together effectively. The couple always assumes what the other is thinking & feeling, they can say things to eachother but they mean something entirely different, or maybe they come off in ways to eachother that they don’t mean. Just a lot of miscommunication that can be cleared up with healthy & open communication. Needing to be honest with eachother about your feelings rather than pointing fingers or blaming. This placement can sometimes turn out to be unhealthy if partners are undeveloped and take the route of being hostile rather than loving & caring. They could have a tendency to emotionally maniuplate eachother aswell if unhealthy.

Hey guys!!!

So I spend a lot of time making these posts and it would be GREATLY appreciated if you go and check out my other Astro Notes c:

Here’s all my Astro Note parts !

I hope you enjoy 🥺👉🏻👈🏻

astro notes part 1

astro notes part 2

astro notes part 3

astro notes part 4

astro notes part 5

astro notes part 6

[shingia]

i was wondering if you were still doing the matchups, if not feel free to ignore this!!

i'm 5'3, i do have an hourglass figure but more on the chubby side i guess, shoulder length, black, curly hair with bangs and brown eyes. i'm an infp and surprisingly an aries with taurus moon and scorpio rising. i'm in my first year of college and i study political sciences and human rights. i absolutely adore cats, loooove sleeping in general and sweets. my music taste is all over the place but one thing that i take pride in, is that i have everything organized in playlists cuz why not? i love astronomy, astrology and i love reading in general. i tend to get lost in my thoughts pretty easily and i try to be as positive as i can most of the times. my love languages are touch and quality time.

i hope this wasn't a bother and i hope you have a nice day!!<33

🖤 a/n : hii ! it wasn’t a bother at all, hope your day was good too ! <333 (aries gang strikes again yaaay 😼)

i ship you with…

𝐘𝐀𝐊𝐔 !

and for good reasons !

let’s not beat around the bush here : he would be so relieved that you’re shorter than him !

i have trouble realizing that it’s technically not canon but he just gives off super clever and cultured vibes so he would probably be v interested by your studies

also, let’s be honest here, yaku with cats is probably a heavenly sight. like he would be so gentle and affectionate with them <3 completely different from his usual behavior but that’s what makes it so enjoyable

i feel like he would value your sleep A LOT and he’d probably be willing to fight and/or scold anyone that would even try to disrupt it

and lev would be sooo mad that you’re allowed to sleep whenever and wherever you want to

if yaku ever notices that you start to get lost in your thoughts, he would certainly not bother you or interrupt you - actually, he might even stare for a bit because he thinks it’s a beautiful sight to see <3

ngl he might get mad if you start blaming his behavior on his birth chart or stuff like that, but i have to say that this sounds really fun to do

“wow that’s such a leo moon thing to say” plz be would be so mad 😭

i’m not sure he’d be the kind of guy to really care about his playlists overall but show him yours once and it’s a radical change of mind

one of his biggest flex is that, thanks to your playlists, the team always asks him to be in charge of the aux

we know he’s really straightforward so i think he would totally be capable to show up at your house one night and be like « let’s go stargazing right now »

because he loves to hear you talk about astronomy. to hear you talk in general, actually

which also includes reading to him because nothing soothes him more than your voice

so yeah you would definitely get a lot of quality time with this boy. you’re basically his haven of rest and we all know he needs a lot of rest and a lot of your positivity to calm his nerves

i think he’d be down for physical touch too. and tbh nobody on the team would ever dare to tease him about pda so you’re all good

he would LOVE for you to sit on his lap because he can’t do that with many ppl because of his height

overall he’s a huge fan of every gesture of affection that can only be done if he’s taller than you (good luck trying to make him be the little spoon)

(timeskip yaku makes me awooga v hard)

<33

[yeoldontknow]

15 questions tag game

tagged by @chillingtae to do this fun game. thank you so much bright angel!! <3 i dont think ive ever seen questions like these around here so this is fun <3 

placing this under a cut because it is long !

1. It’s your birthday! What did you ask for and did you receive it?

uhm...im an old bean, and ive found that over time ive stopped asking for things necessarily and request more experiences. time spent with people matters more to me than items - i can pretty much buy things on my own if i want them. if im asking for anything id ask for money to put towards bills or savings or trips. this year i asked my parents for some money to convert to yen before i went to japan, which they gave me. of my friends, i asked if we could go for dinner and drinks which was a lovely evening <3 

2. What was the last song or album you listened to?

song = Kvrt in Space by Fraunhofer Diffraction

album = 1 Billion Views by EXO-SC

3. What is your go to snack when you’re hungry or bored?

depends on my energy level. usually chips and veggies with hummus because i dont have to make anything. my ultimate snack is popcorn so i have to be careful about how often i have it because i could eat an entire trucks worth and not feel the least bit guilty.

4. What is your morning routine?

check emails. text parents. catch up on group chats. roll out of bed and wash up. feed the cat. start the day!

5. What mythical/cryptic creature would you be?

god probably some bog witch or oracle on a mountain

6. How do you interact with someone that you don’t like?

i dont. if they are interacting with me i will be polite but the conversation will be curt and brief. 

7. How do you define a toxic person?

=> habits of  dishonesty, manipulation, gaslighting, deflection of blame for wrong doings  => reacting to criticism or conflict rather than responding => engaging or meddling or perpetuating drama simply for the attention, thrill/endorphins of it => someone who drains your energy in their company rather than heals it => inability to admit they were wrong or let situations go

8. Have you ever been to a concert or fan meet type of event? If not, would you want to?

ive been to a significant amount of concerts in my life. i love love love concert going and, before quarantine, i would list this activity as one of my favorite hobbies. while not a fan meet event, ive wound up meeting and becoming acquainted with a number of musicians - either by running into them on the street, working with them in some capacity, waiting in the queue before doors, waiting after a show, etc. i once was able to attend an after party of a show with @queenoftheimpala because i knew what a tubulum was after a band member jokingly posted about it on twitter and we started talking. one of my all time favourite bands provides ticket packages which are both a ticket to the show and an earlier event in which there are panels with therapists discussing the importance of mental health etc etc. 

regarding kpop, i have not attended a fanmeet and tbh i dont think i would. the set up feels unnatural, and it is not that i want to spend hours talking with an artist but it feels very rushed and not entirely personal enough for me to express what id truly want to say. this is just my opinion. i know many fans have attended these events and have had a wonderful time. i just dont think this would suit my energy as im quite introverted and feeling rushed would make me anxious.

9. Do you believe in astrology? Why or why not?

oh for sure i do. when you research charts, planets, alignments, etc etc it can be quite revealing when it comes to personality traits, needs, expectations. while i dont believe it accounts for every single thing about a person (upbringing and societal/cultural influence matter too) it can account for the fundamentals. astrology, tarot, and light work have seen me through some extremely difficult situations in my life and reading tarot/charts has helped me understand why i feel what i feel on certain days.

10. If you had only one sense (hearing, touch, sight, etc.), what would you want?

i rely so heavily on all my senses that i just...dont even know how to pick this. i think id go with touch. taste is a sense omg you mean i cant taste food anymore? oh god. ok uh yeah im still gonna go with touch. touch helps you feel the connection with other people - hugs, hand holding. sounds have waves which you can feel on the body. the earth has texture. touch is how the body relates spatially to other and to itself so yeah i would go with touch.

11. Who is your favourite celebrity or idol?

non kpop = prince, david bowie, chris corner, maynard james keenan....mostly its women. rihanna or sabrina claudio or rosalia. women in the root of their power and sensuality. they are unforgiving in their bodied expressions and i respect them so much. they are unforgiving in their femininity. 

kpop = chanyeol lmao like....unfailingly so

12. If you could talk to your favourite celebrity(s) for a limited time, what would you tell them?

for the non kpop celebrities = im usually just really supportive of women in the entertainment/arts industries so id love to just hear their stories. in this instance i dont think me saying anything is beneficial, more that its important we listen to their journies and their path to success. they have a lot to teach us. chris corner ive met several times and have had many amazing conversations with so in this instance, id just ask if hes doing well, how california is, how his dogs are, give him the update on my tattoo plans etc. for maynard...idk just cry because hes the celebrity ive loved since i was like 4 years old.

kpop = if i had the chance to talk to chanyeol i think like...id just like to talk about his music, thank him for having women as his video editors/videographers, ask his genre tastes, talk about the sheer amount of retro/nostalgia modes on the recent sc album. maybe talk about astronomy. thank him for his power and remind him to eat and that he doesnt need to master everything. achieving perfection is a pursuit of pain, all he has to achieve is happiness within himself. again, remind him to eat.

13. I’m taking you out on a date and it’s your choice. Where are we going?

oooo lets go to an arcade and for dinner. theres some really great barcades in lower manhattan and on LES we can get some amazing dumplings for really cheap and just have a night of talking, playing games, drinking. then maybe walk along the river before we catch the trains home

14. Do you like sweet or savory foods?

my sweet tooth has a limit so while i do like sweet im more into savory

15. Do you have any band merchandise or merchandise from any of your favourite artists? If so, what?

i have a lot of band tees, signed posters, albums of theirs theyve signed for me. i have some drum sticks given to me by a few bands, signed set lists. one band gave me a turntable slip cover. i have a few first press or numbered records that ive framed. i have some lightsticks from when i attended some kpop shows. ive got lots of stuff!

tagging: @yehet-me-up @queenoftheimpala @kyungseokie @jenmyeons @j-pping @yoonia @jamaisjoons @ditzymax @jiminiethot @blackberrykai @hkynm @ninibears-erigom @readyplayerhobi @imdifferentshadesofpurple @red-exo and anyone else who wants to do this. as always please only do so if youre comfortable <3 

[astrologysvt]

🐯 trying to make this astrology related so like - is there something i can look for in my chart to blame for my laziness and being behind with all my uni stuff? 😔 y’know i’d rather fight any planet than actually get things done hhhh

ehehe you don’t always have to make it astro related tho it’s obvi always welcome! tbh, leo placements tend to be lazy. taurus placements, while super ambitious, love being comfortable so that can sometimes lead towards laziness or at least just a slow pace. libra placements also just tend to be rather lazy or at least lower energy especially for libra suns because the sun is fallen in libra which can kind of debilitate ones general energy/vitality. and man i’d hate to run the risk of starting even more beef with ur saturn but i’d also look at saturn to see if it has any hard aspects which could lead to laziness/lack of initiative. i’d look to see what sign the rising, 6th, and 10th house are in as that could relate to someones general attitude towards work/self-discipline. i’d also see if anything was potentially debilitating the sun, maybe hard aspect to mercury or saturn could bring a disillusion between ones sense of self/work ethic. maybe the sun is in a more stationary house like 2nd or 4th. i also found trines can indicate a certain degree of laziness depending on the planets involved/context. with trines, these are seamless parts of our personality that we naturally call upon and so with that ease can kind of bring a feeling of “why even try.” it can make someone complacent, especially if they do ever face resistance in which case they may just give up. i also noticed the same with well aspected jupiters. lots to consider 🤔

[wydmariana]

well hellooooo beautiful people !!  my name’s dani, i’m one of the admins on the main! i’m 20, i’m from toronto & i also play the hailey fc alanna !! i’m so fkn excited to have wealthy back up & running and to bring my baby mariana back ! she’s the same old girl and if you don’t know anything about her...everything u need is under the read more ! i rly need all the connections rn so like this & i’ll hit you up for plots !!!!

❛ new york’s very own mariana cavello was spotted on broadway street in  christian louboutin’s. your resemblance to selena gomez is unreal. according to tmz, you just had your twenty-third birthday bash. while living in new york, you’ve been labeled as being reticent, but also quixotic. i guess being a gemini explains that. three things that would paint a better picture of you would be fishnets, tequila shots, notebooks filled with lyrics. & ( cisfemale & she/her ) + ( dani, 20, she/her, est )

☇   ❪    ˚･ﾟ ❛ STATISTICS :

full name: mariana marisol cavello

nickname(s): mari

age: twenty three

date of birth: june 4th

hometown: new york city

current location: upper east side, new york city

ethnicity: half mexican

nationality: american

gender: cisfemale

pronouns: she/her

parents names: tanner hastings, liliana cavello

orientation: pansexual but she doesn’t like labels

religion: grew up catholic, undecided

political affiliation: democrat

occupation: singer/songwriter

living arrangements: lives in her own mansion in the upper east side

language(s) spoken: english, spanish

accent: american

face claim: selena gomez

hair colour: x (most basic/accurate/but it changes)

eye colour: brown

height: 5″5

weight: 120lbs

build: petite

tattoos: mostly selena’s canon, but x instead of the music note

piercings: x (both ears)

drugs/alcohol/sex: yes/yes/yes

pets: one cat, 5 years old, named sergio - x

astrological chart: gemini sun, cancer moon, scorpio rising

☇   ❪    ˚･ﾟ ❛  BACKSTORY/CURRENT :

mariana was born to tanner cavello (famous hotel owner, entrepreneur, multimillionaire, been on forbes, think bart bass) & lilliana cavello (hispanic model/socialite)

her parents marriage was very much settling, the two of them cared about each other & were excited to start their life together in effort to please their parents and keep their images pristine

they were quick to fall out of love though, if you could say they were even ever in it

once mariana and her brother became teenagers, their dad started having affairs with his employes, the hot, young ones of course. & their mom found out, but confided in a 16 year old mariana about her father’s actions

( sexual abuse tw ) this infuriated mariana, especially considering the hours she would spend waiting outside her father’s office doing homework while his business partners molested her in the empty conference room starting at the age of 14

she never told anyone about it, although she knew her father had known the whole time, remembering how many times he’d interrupt it by summoning his partners for work or a meeting

mariana began absolutely hating her father, while still yearning for his approval, & this went on for 4 years until she turned 18 and got revenge by sleeping with one of her dad’s business partners & allowing his wife to find out

so his wife threatened to tell the media about this little scandal, unless mari’s dad paid them off, which is exactly what he did but not before taking his anger out on mariana & blaming her for the whole mess

she has barely talked to her dad since & moved out right as that whole situation went down. she does her best to avoid family gatherings, doesn’t visit the house to see her parents too often. she does have weekly phone calls with her mom & tries to see her as often as she can, no matter how much she resents her

she got into the party scene around 17/18 as well, and became new york’s resident “wild child rich kid/socialite” in her teen years, so she has that reputation in the media still to this day

her parents have been rich as fuck since the day she was born, so she’s definitely a spoiled brat, never worked a day in her life, had daddy’s credit card whenever she needed it

music had always been a passion of hers though, being her favorite class in school(on days when she would actually attend)

so when she was 20, she started getting back into writing, sold a couple of her songs to artists like zendaya, the weeknd, etc

when she turned 21 she released her first single & album within the same year, began touring, and got to the top of the charts almost right away & gained a huge fanbase, whom she loves

she’s now 23 and has two studio albums out !! she’s v successful and happy w her music <3 she releases things very sporadically & im probs gonna  release random selena songs along with other voice claims maybe IDKDKKD hope yall dont mind  my  messy ass kskffsk

she works hard though, & loves writing and releasing music now and never wants to stop. it’s truly the thing that makes her most happy in the entire world and keeps her sane

☇   ❪    ˚･ﾟ ❛  PERSONALITY  :

mariana can be a brat, to put it simply. she thinks she’s always right about everything & it’s rare you’re ever gonna get an apology from her when she’s done something wrong (unless she really cares about you which….)

she’s lowkey a softie, bc of her cancer moon tbh. she tends to get herself into relationships and then mess them up for the sake of it or because she stops trusting herself to be in the relationship at all

but when she loves someone, she LOVES them, like w every fibre in her body u know?

and she cares fiercely about people, it ends up being a problem for her a lot of the time

she hasn’t worked through her trauma & probably never will, she bottles that shit up tight & doesn’t let anybody know it’s there. the only way she’s ever opening up is if she’s writing, cause she wants that shit to be real

but she’s still gonna hoe it up, catch her in the club trying to get some dick for the night, u know what i mean?

super depressed if we’re being real here. she’s sad, and she has abandonment issues because of her dad. so her mindset is- there’s no forming attachments, because everyone leaves me anyway

( drugs tw ) she loves cocaine, is most definitely an addict (but who isn’t in this city), tequila is her alcohol of choice, but she’ll drink anything you give her & weed is her creative saving grace

she started popping pain pills on her 21st birthday, opioids occasionally & mostly xanax, stuff like that, is most definitely also addicted to those

we love a bitch who doesn’t care about her health!

her management team frowns upon it, but she does smoke cigarettes pretty often, but mostly only when she’s stressed

mariana’s the type of bitch to call the paparazzi on herself, she loves attention. but with her music career now it’s been 10x harder for her to keep her life private, not that she cares. but at least she doesn’t have to call the paps on herself anymore lol

she thinks it’s important to treat people w kindness and respect, but no doubt she’ll be ready to fight a b*tch if she has to…

catch her at any protest that involves saying “fuck you trump”

her instagram is a big mix of stories of her cat, dumb selfies, ig model posts, her friends, career stuff & political posts. she’s very active on the gram & snapchat lol

honestly thank U for reading this trash if u didnt…i understand. catch her pinterest board for more here & i have a wanted connections page here ! ok bye i love u, plot w me <3

[rewrittenending-blog1]

emilie de ravin, cis female ( she/her ), pansexual. did you hear ? CLAIRE LITTLETON, a ( canon ) character in ( LOST ), went deviant FIVE MONTHS ago ! now they’re a 22 y/o server. people either think they’re [ KIND-HEARTED & FRIENDLY ] or [ SENSITIVE & NAIVE ] but associate them w/ sandy beaches, peanut butter straight out the jar, converse, emo phases, blonde waves, stars, & knitted baby booties either way. they DON’T remember going into the jungle to find the vaccine. ( pace, she/her, gmt. )

in a shocking turn of events, i have interests other than musicals !!! tbf, lost and waitress are pretty much my two favourite things, but that’s besides the point ! this is claire & i’ve played her in a few different places over the space of, like two or three years, i think ? so i am, to put it lightly,,, extremely overly attached.

CANON FOR THOSE WHO DON’T KNOW:

i assume most people are familiar with lost tbh even if they haven’t seen it, but tldr: a plane flying from sydney to los angeles crashes on an island. drama and sci-fi fun ensues !

claire’s life has been pretty hard tbh. she was driving the car that ended up putting her mother in a coma, she then met the dad she’d been told was dead in hospital after that crash, went to live with her aunt who blamed her for her mother’s hospitalisation, she had to live the next few years feeling guilty re her mum, and living with the fact that one of the last thing she said to her mum was that she hated her, she then got pregnant unexpectedly but decided to keep the baby after her boyfriend essentially talked her into it and had her thinking that a baby could be wonderful despite her very valid concerns, said boyfriend then chickened out AND LEFT HER, leaving her to deal with the pregnancy all on her own, she then decided to give the baby to a family who could look after it better than she should, but was adviced by a psychic that nobody else should raise her baby but her & bad things would happen if it grew up without her kindness and her spirit, got harassed by said psychic, and then ended up on an island thanks to said psychic because he knew the plane would crash and it would stop her from giving the baby up. and that was only before the island !!!!! after the crash the poor git got kidnapped after several attempts were made beforehand and nobody believed her but charlie ( shoutout to my mans ) she had a baby in the middle of the jungle which tbh just sounds like the most unsanitary thing on the planet to me,  had her baby stolen from her, her baby then got sick, she nearly drowned, she got sick, her boyfriend died, THE LIST GOES ON. WE DON’T EVEN TALK ABOUT JUNGLE!CLAIRE. she was essentially used as lost’s chew toy but i’m,,, clearly,,,, not bitter,,,,,

good news is, claire’s only canon up to her baby getting sick ! she got kidnapped while pregnant with him, and was so drugged up while she was gone that she couldn’t remember a damn thing by the time she got back, but when baby aaron got sick, she began getting flashes of her time when she was taken, and remembered that The Others(tm) had been giving her injections, and since she was told it was medicine for the baby, she went off into the jungle to go and hunt for it to help him 

FUNKY RP STUFF:

luckily, claire was holding her son, aaron, when she escaped her canon world, so he’s with her ! and because canon is Gone, he’s perfectly healthy !

memory loss isn’t something that’s foreign to claire in canon, so it felt fitting for her not to remember anything before arriving. she knows aaron is her son ( motherly bonding thing ? who knows ) but can’t remember anything else, and thinks she’s from this world and that aaron was born in blue creek 

tbh she’s not qualified for much, so i gave her a job as a server as it matched one of her canon jobs ( the other was a piercer in a tattoo studio but like,,, with a gun,, and..... bro don’t let anybody pierce you with a gun it’s 2019 just don’t do it. she’s not qualified to actually properly pierce ? plus she was like 17 at the time so like,,, sketchy ) and i’m just thinking that her job maybe has a creche for lil aaron since she doesn’t really trust people with him and he’s still REALLY young. the lil guy is only five months old, but claire needs to earn money somehow so !!! we’re winging it !!! but aaron will probably be present in most threads, but i know that babies are a big Nope for some people so no worries if that makes you uncomfy and you’d rather skip that, just hmu !

despite her hardships, claire’s lovely. she’s definitely one of lost’s softest characters, bless her. she has a heart of gold, and a very hopeful view of the world at times. even when a lot of people had come to terms with the fact they might be on the island forever, claire still hoped they’d get home one day, even if she didn’t logically think they actually would. her mother’s love of nature has given her some wildlife knowledge, she’s very much intro astrology and will happily do your chart for you, she’s usually chirpy, a little naive, very much still getting a hang of this whole Adulting thing, let alone the whole Mothering thing. she’s honestly just trying her best. but she’s very nice !! easy to get on with !!!! maybe a little sceptical at points !!! realising that everything was just on repeat was probably weird for her, and it would’ve been a very shifty-eyed moment and tentatively trying to go off script and change the narrative while being Very Scared 

it’s a good thing her memories are gone tbh, as otherwise she’d be feeling even more,,, ahem,,, lost. like the people on the island became like a family to her and helped her out in so many ways, especially with aaron and coming to terms with motherhood. and she doesn’t remember how much help she used to get, or how minimalist looking after aaron could be when all they had was the bare minimum. she doesn’t have to compare her time, or miss the people she grew to love, especially charlie, kate, locke, sun etc. plus her life sucked and she was sad, so all’s well now, my child 

so she’s just trying to get by ! nice young lady with a crappy job and a baby just trying to live her life !

[yunhohours]

entering your inbox…

definitely agree, like obviously researching astrology and getting to know the signs and planets etc is helpful but i think actually putting it into practice helps the most. i love reading idol’s and my friends charts for this reason; so i can get familiar with making those astrological connections! ohmygosh so ur a taurus moon ??? thats so cute !!! does one of ur love languages happen to be gift giving/ or receiving ? also i am a taurus rising <33

hshshs joshie will have to do a LOT for me to ult him, I’ve only got two ults, one of them i considered more of a semi ult >_> but yeah! my ults r v special to me :33 but i wouldn’t mind him joining my ults hehe. and i would love to see what you write for him but dont pressure yourself too much, out yourself first.

hshshs my perfectionism tends to lean more towards being a downfall but it has its good moments. and i 100% get it, i also like writing and have had multiple blogs on tumblr before but more often than not, perfectionism takes over and i abandon the blog bc its not “good enough”. i do want to get back into writing but it takes me a long time to complete one piece. ahhh thank you 🥺🫶hehe thst made me blush a tad !!

question of the day who are your kpop ults ? >:D btw do you prefer longer asks or shorter ones ?? <3

💌 — virgo anon

yes, me too! i am so known amongst my friends and family to be like "his ____ moon is popping out rn" because i familiarize myself with idol birth charts so much hahah. yes, i am a taurus moon! tysm you're so sweet <333 the love languages i receive the best are actually quality time and physical touch, but i do LOVE gifts and especially giving them! i find that i tend to prioritize all 5 love languages equally when giving love to another... virgo perfectionism, perhaps. hahah.

aah, who's your other semi-ult? i think you've only talked to me about taehyun before joshua so i'm curious! my personal ult list is LONG and grows all the time. what can i say? i've got a lot of love to give dsdfgs. i think i will write something for joshua soon! he is quite inspiring. thank you for not pressuring me though, i appreciate that so much <3

oh, me too. my perfectionism is the bane of my existence tbh. i'm glad it helps me put out good work when i need to but it makes me feel the need to be perfect in EVERY way and that is just not realistic nor sustainable. i love hearing that you've had writing blogs before! i can't blame you for feeling that way and taking them down because i have thoughts like that from time to time too. and writing does take SO LONG to complete like... anything. and it's the worst because most people don't care as much about the quality of my work as i do. there's no reason for me to be so obsessive about it ahh. you can always dabble in writing by posting little things to me if you feel inspired! i don't want that love of writing to go to waste entirely <3

oh gosh, i mentioned earlier my ults list is long and i meant it gjsgs. my ults are pentagon's wooseok, cix's hyunsuk & seunghun, ateez's yeosang & yunho, wayv's ten, seventeen's junhui, wei's junseo, omega x's junghoon, and seungwoo! i love them all to pieces <3333

and i don't think ask length matters to me much tbh! i think the content is more important. i can answer a long ask that inspires me much easier than a short one that i don't feel inspired by.

i hope you're having a lovely day, my virgo anon <33

[uraniaconjunctmc]

A Sagittarius Mercury story

What you’re about to read was not written to define Mercury in Sagittarius as a placement, it’s just more me related, like my Mercury in Sagittarius. However, if you resonate even a bit, that’s still cool.

I do not blame what I have in my natal chart for my struggle: Answer to those who talk like they invented astrology.

I just wanted to talk about what I go through due to its relation to the placement and share my story here.

During the past 3 years I did nothing but learned astrology positioning my hand between my mouth and chin. 🤔—>This. I read so many books that I don’t read anymore. I write my own stuff.

I have Sagittarius Mercury and am old enough not to have Uranus in Capricorn in my natal. So you name it.

I see everything around me with a philosophical perspective, either those things are abstract or concrete. “Why do we have this concept in our lives? What caused it to be that way?” are questions that I usually focus on.

I have never felt understood by anyone, and that pushed me to be more quiet and talk about subjects that I wasn’t even interested. I had no choice but to learn about them otherwise I wasn’t able to communicate with anyone. Throughout years the internal struggle grew, exploded and with the Saturn return I decided to live a life like a Hermit, but that has to be modified cause I’m in a new cycle for my progression according to my other findings.

Sagittarius is fully intercepted in 6th with the planets located there. I thought to myself “maybe that’s how your life is, and what you’ll be occupied with. There is no escape for you until the time you begin to speak and write. (Gemini - also intercepted)” Philosophy has been always my biggest interest even as a kid. I don’t remember a moment that I didn’t ask why. I don’t, however, reside where I was born therefore Mercury is now my ascendant on my relocation chart. Since I’m physically located somewhere different than I was born I rely on that chart too. The interception is gone, however since I was born once at a time and place I can’t disregard my natal chart.

When I write astrology, I always think the abstract meaning of the concepts and where it takes place in our lives, and finally I try to explain those via astrology- there is something called “metaphysics” that’s what I mainly do, but when the audience reads, they take it as something we literally have in the 3D world right that moment. Because human mind operates making things more solid to comprehend- mine, on the other hand,is the opposite, which is why when people find out some information about astrological placements they see it as some type of law or a code. Therefore, they either react negatively because they don’t like what it says or they first want to know if the person who they date is the right one for them as if astrology had some written codes to tell about it. Astrology is about interpretation of philosophical concepts. It’s not necessarily a tool for fortune-telling, but certain things may be predicted, especially by looking at transits and other forms of charts. But still it’s not like you marry X on this month on that year. My mom has Gemini Mercury and asks me questions that require precise answers. When I say I can’t know that she goes like “Nah! You don’t know anything.” I’m not labeling Gemini Mercury here, but she thinks rationally most of the time. She has south node in there too. She is still in the process of developing her Sagittarius north node.

We’re not supposed to accurately know who’s going to be what in the future. First of all, think this way each decision we make shapes the future and believe or not everything is connected. So that predicting what will happen in the future is always meant to be unknown unless someone is truly psychic, not necessarily an astrologer, and tells you certain things because you need to know that for your own sake at the moment.

We can’t say your child is going to be an athlete or military officer because the kid has Aries Mc. Aries Mc mean many other things. However, any general interpretation can be made for any placement.

When I was little my mom visited an astrologer and that’s what she said for my Mer-Ura conjunction : “fast speed of mind. Have her some lemonade. She needs glucose for that brain.” (My aunt who was with my mom at the moment took notes of that. That’s from that notebook) Well, I don’t know. I consume a great amount of sweets and remain slim. I cannot deny that my brain is always active with something, particularly philosophical. Not like overthinking. I enjoy thinking about existence. Makes me feel complete tbh.

There are 12 pies in a natal chart and each has their signs and rulers. Everything exists in the world and space and even the unknown belongs to one of those pies, in other words houses. It literally includes everything. From the table in your living room, concrete (an object you posses - 2nd house) to your emotions, abstract (4th house. Your emotions mainly lie in your subconscious. Sometimes you don’t even know why you feel that particular way.)

[strawbnie]

Hey do you do astrology compatibility too?? If so, I’m a sag sun, Aries moon and Gemini rising and my boifriend is a Pisces sun, cancer moon and Gemini rising. If not that’s totally cool and I hope you have a wonderful day 💖.

fkjfjdjdjjd okay omg sorry this is. so late 💞💙 i can't guarantee anything i say will be right im not an Expert™ n before i say anything I'll say I don't necessarily believe in the science of compatibility the way most ppl do like. I think our chart points certain traits we have and ones we lack and subsequently bc of those traits we attract and are attracted to ppl with traits we need or that we have in common w them but that leaves such a wide berth and a lot of ppl go against their gut just bc of a certain circumstance or a really pretty face and r attracted to ppl who they're not necessarily compatible with BUT furthermore every relationship has its struggles and unique issues and i think love is all about the work people put in to help their relationship move forward WITH THAT SAID let's carry on:pisces and sagittarius r two of the most sensitive and perceptive signs. there's a tendency in both of these signs to be underestimated or to be perceived as sth they're not. pisces ppl tend to push forward this concept that they're very tough to break and a lot of the pisces i know hype up their intellectuality more than their other traits, there's this underlying worry that because they're so overemotional, they won't be seen as valuable in social and interpersonal contexts. that's total bullshit imo but I can't blame them for worrying. in summary u get huge softies with a boner for learning but ugh some pisces (men specifically) can b the insufferable type of alternative indie boy know it all type u KNOW the ones but tbh when it's a pisces IT'S OKAY bc u dont even need to dig that deep it's right under that thin coat of film thot that they're gigantic uwu crybabies and fuck i love them sm!!!!! sagittarius is a fantastic sign but u do sorta the same thing u r usually very easy to please, pliant, and don't take urselves tooooo seriously so you're very good at lightening the mood but that means u present urselves as extremely optimistic happy-go-lucky human fortune cookies and that fucking sucks bc it leads to a lot of ppl taking that for granted and u feeling like u can't express ur down moments in fear of shattering this flattering image uve adopted. the truth is pisces + sag r very similar in some ways and u guys can both benefit greatly from opening up to one another but EQUALLY. there's a LOT of suppression involved in these signs but especially w ur moons (cancer moon.... ugh! how doES HE live honestly im only a cancer rising and i cry at everything + aries moon i wont even go into that) u might both forget urselves and like. just take into account that u r a team and ur on the same side and u r there to guide and love each other and u should be good. you guys r lucky bc u have very comprehensive placements like. all ur placements here click well, there's a flowy back n forth of I Understand You You Understand Me which is a goddamn blessing. sharing the same rising is very convenient too and sagittarius and pisces w gemini rising is abt the most chilling thing I've ever heard sjdkdksm Ur definitely the hot intimidating couple fjdjdjdjdj also FIRST TIME AROUND I MADE AMISTAKE N SWITCHED UR MOON SIGNS BUT NOW EVERYTHING IS EBEN CLEARER SMDMDMDM OKAY SO GO EASY ON UR BOYFRIEND i know sag+aries as a combo comes w a refreshing bout of honesty n u cant sugarcoat things but cancer moons tend to get carried away and spiral into negativity easily bc theyre very sensitive to other ppl's attitude towards them and esp w such a fragile sun sign woofkfjfnffndnnmfm but ur both good tho, very soft im !!!!!

[aemoonie]

Idk if this counts as a request and is probably so bad fo ask astrologers, but what is your ranking from your fave signs to not fave?

soo no, it's not a request, it's all good!:) but the question is kinda iffy tbh, because no (good) astrologer should tell you that there is one sign that is better than the others, even if it was because of personal preference. every sign and placements shows differently in everybody, so imo it would be impossible to say: oh i hate this and that sign, bc i simply can respect every sign for it's qualities. and being a shitty person has usually little to do with astrology lol

but to answer your question at least somewhat, i'd rather answer to what signs i get along with the best. so i noticed in my life are a lot of water heavy people, one of my friends even has only water (cancer and pisces) in his chart. i also have quite a few air heavy friends, but usually it's not their suns but their moon or mercuries. idk this question is also so hard to answer hahaha i've noticed that even though i do have friends with libra and leo in their chart, i still don't like it when these signs seem to be underdeveloped and are shallow / gossipy. blame my 8th house stellium but i hate it when people can't keep a secret (or their mouth shut ig) and go around telling everyone my life's story. i also hate it when people are super narrow-minded and hate on every hobby / preference they don't understand, and i've noticed this the most in cap / aqua and surprisingly, some fire signs. even though i've also known some very chill cap and aqua friends, so there goes my theory from before :)

[cocona]

you have a moon mercury square? that SUCKS i have it too... i blame astrology too sometimes, especially my saturn aspects... why are they so harsh :/ my mom has a virgo moon like you , i don’t know why i’m telling you this it just came to my mind sksnsk i hope everything will work out with your therapist, i’m sure you’ll find someone great who will help you a lot 💫 🍃

YES ugh its my tightest aspect nd also my strongest since my moon is in my 1st nd my merc in my 10th.....it SUCKS !!!!!!!!!!!! u understand my struggle....loving 2 talk but struggling 2 reach out,, having difficulty wording feelings but being told what u say is v witty nd sensitive... high emotional intelligence but being a general fool....being a good listener nd having a fast intuitive mind... idk there r lots of perks 2 this aspect but mostly is TENSION nd FRICTION nd NERVOSITY............. ftgyhu i once read tht this made up for the moodiest ppl bc it literally makes u unable 2 pick between feeling nd thinking. idk if it’s why im so moody but anyway i hav.. the moodiest placements so it’s rlly no surprise...

nd u have saturn aspects !!!!!! which ones omg !!!!! it seems tht we have similar placements...tbh i Could make ur chart knowing ur bday nd ur age but id rather let u tell me. most of my saturn aspects r conjunctions nd oppositions so im having a BLAST esp knowing tht its one of the highest lords in my chart ! its lots of fun to always feel guilty no matter what u do 🤡

ALSO... it’s weird how ur mom and i share a moon sign when u nd my mom have a cap sun nd a significant cancer placement (asc for u nd moon for her...)....HM... also i can already tell tht theres a lot of libra energy in ur chart so def ,, lots of venusian nd saturnian influences (saturn being the esoteric nd former ruler of libra).. omg i wonder in what decan ur aqua venus is. if its 3rd decan ..fetgy it means ure a libra powerhouse !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol just 2day i learnt tht libra was the most compatible sign w a profile like mine ,, nd it makes sense considering tht we’ve been talking for six months now nd tht my best friends r also libras....... interesting. i, however, am Not a libra. no placements at all in tht sign, no aspects to it nd whatnot..ftyguhijo my chart’s p much empty

astrology is a great tool bc it helps ppl 2 get 2 know themselves better....yanno. u grow into ur chart when u discover it, acquire its lessons, nd grow out of it nd past it in a better way !!! it’s so nice ! i have yet 2 get past most of my struggles tbh but i realise tht a lot of what ppl seem 2 find hard 2 deal with (saturn aspects nd transits mostly) dnt affect me as badly bc ive always had to function with this exigeant nd demanding mantra tht tells me to work until i cant go on anymore... luckily i feel tht saturn gives us a lot of endurance nd strength,, a harsh teacher w great lessons nd morals . at the end of the day,, we grow mature faster nd become the best of ourselves faster as long as we dnt ignore it’s messages. i mean,, my sun is conjunct saturn nd theyre all together in the 10th house (which also happens 2 b a saturnian house 🤡), a strong saturn/pluto opposition tht makes creates this weird tension of fear nd authority issues rooted deep within me....nd also how cld we forget my generational plague ! saturn trine both uranus nd neptune ! these arent the worst but u know. it rlly feels like theres a net on my face any time i try to look up nd be positive.... this is sth im growing out of, though.... 

i just read a lil desc of a pluto/sun opposition nd rlly DRFTGYUH it’s Exactly what ive been feeling during the past days ! i suppose tht it’s bc several planets r contacting this part of my chart now tht the sun is in taurus but still.... tht inner violence nd the tendency 2 have deep crises ... spying nd guilt nd power struggles nd tension nd a need for truth nd excellence... lol life is fun. wtv tho ! thts how it is ! nd like all pluto aspects, theres a Lot of potential for growth, rebirth nd enlightening destruction... i miss being good @ analysing placements n stuff ! i miss being an astro blog :( i remember tht u once told me u admired how knowledgeable i was abt astrology,, mayb i shld work harder nd learn even more things so tht i can talk abt it w u nd help u to understand more complex aspects of this field......