my dysphoria has been SO fucking bad and now i find out that the hormone control pill that prevents my period never shipped bc they couldn’t contact a doctor. and i was never notified so i assumed the prescription i picked up today was that. cool. this is so great. i think i might die
I keep seeing that one poll going around saying wide Sargasso Sea is Jane eyre fanfiction and while I’m not opposed to saying soemthing is fanfiction I would strongly suggest that you think about that assertion for like. 1 or even .5 seconds or even like .3 or .003 seconds. Like I’m really really really really really. Really. I’m really. I’m really asking begging requesting that everyone take a step back on what we’re saying here
We ran out of food (and money) a few days ago so we’ve been really only eatting one meal a day and I’m so fucking hungry. They also shut our internet off a few days ago :( My schools asking for several thousand dollars of tuition and we can’t pay. If we don’t pay, I can’t go back. But we don’t have food, internet, rent, my dads medication, and a ton of things we need to live. The next thing to get shut off is our water
My anxiety was really bad so I went on a walk. My anxiety got worse, I almost cried, didn’t, then my head got all fuzzy and I knew if I stopped walking, I wouldn’t start again. I walked to a place in the park where two of my sisters classmates drowned, didn’t throw myself in the river, had a panic attack instead, and forced myself to walk the mile and a half home.
I’ve been nonverbal for almost two hours now. Logically, I know it’s bc I haven’t been eating but there’s no food. I’m so fucking hungry
it's funny how when you'll give actual explanations as to why people are racist or transphobic or something similar, like how that happens and why it's happening now out of all times, that go beyond "white people/cishet people evil" so many people will instantly attack you for "apologia"
I think it kinda comes from this idea that identity politics has pushed that people of the unmarked categories like male white and cishet can't possibly struggle with things in life. but economic crises, which we have been in for 16 years now, affect everyone that's not part of the ruling class. prolonged economic instability alienates people from the status quo, from established parties, rhetoric and such. they begin to look elsewhere for solutions. the powers that be know to counteract this with reactionary politics. using scapegoating they'll promise the return to an (often imaginary) better yesterday, the very definition of reactionary politics.
these ideas sound plausible and actionable. things used to be better after all. those scapegoats used to not be there (as visibly) after all.
the way of solving this isn't to go "waaahh people are evil and fascism is back, woe is me" but to a) point out that these reactionary politics are not going to solve the problem because they are not the cause b) point out the actual cause of the problem (capitalism) c) offer actual alternatives (organizing, strikes, expropriating the bourgeoisie, and eventually total labor democracy)
woke up to a mysterious alarm going off somewhere INSIDE OUR CEILING for 40 minutes while I had an extended meltdown trying and failing to track it down hi how was your morning
because friday is my art posting day i've literally been in a conundrum about stuff... like not every commission that comes my way is some big bitch!!! and i kinda built a brand for awhile on posting my big beautiful catgirl on fridays. im slowly working through like. doing this stuff As A Job™ (which is insanely difficult believe me) while still being aware that im on a time limit because i'll be back at school in the fall...
but im almost through my queue! i'll be starting my last wips tomorrow and then probably reopening slots early on in the week! once im through this current queue honestly i'm probably gonna. not do stuff for a week or so as i take care of other stuff (i have a completely different job in ttrpg work, believe it or not).
the next batch of commission slots will be a bit pricier than the last and there'll be fewer, but its moreso because at my current rate its just not tenable! after i open slots again towards the end of this month, i'll probably open them one last time towards the latter half of august and that'll be it for the summer. i might take one or two here and there throughout the proceeding school year, but in all actuality im probably staring down the barrel of the most stressful one i've ever had.
ty to everyone who likes to come and look at my silly little drawings!!! getting to a stage in my life where it actually seems possible to subsist off of my commissions is really heartening, and i owe it to people who reblog and retweet and buy my services ;w;
happy fat girl friday night gay people!!!! im gonna keep drawing big bitches!!!!!!!!
The people that have abandoned me really need to stop talking to me like they have any right to tell me what to do, or I swear to God, I'm gonna get the FUCKING hammer.