i've been trying to stay positive about yjs all season because i desperately wanted to keep loving it but after last night's ep i just cannot pretend it's well-written anymore. that was the most nothing, poorly-paced episode i think we've gotten, at least for an ep that should be a CRUCIAL turning point. there was virtually zero exploration of the worst choice the teens make in 96 (the ritual discussion should have been a fucking bottle episode, tbh, with all that should have gone into it), and too much time spent recapping what we already knew in 21 (without it actually meaning anything/changing the characters when they learned). oof. just truly disappointing tbh.
121 notes
·
View notes
I don't like to follow bookstagram trends but I find one super interesting (it's definitely NOT reading a popular bookstagram book).
I'm currently working on creating a box to randomly pick the next book I read. I have hopes to lower my tbr, well with my erratic reading sessions and me ordering second hand books cause I can buy more, it's gonna be a harsh task. Also it's gonna helping me read the books I bought to step out my comfort zone and then I ignored them. But also books that are in my comfort zone but have been here for year. And since my apartment is very small, yet 1/3 books if I avoid the same book lot of time, I will get rid of it.
BUT
While crafting this at past 10pm in the middle of the working week cause I needed to do it now (didn't finish considering the numbers of unread books I read), I have been struck by a sudden illumination.
Maybe, and really maybe, it's a hypothesis, I could apply the jar stuff for the daily stuff I have to do, chores, administrative paperwork, everything a normal human adult has to do. Maybe I could pick a task to do every day and it feels less overwhelming. I definitely need to try it.
12 notes
·
View notes
I’m waiting for translations before posting too much about the new chapter (though i have been freaking out over on my rp blog lol) but AAAAAAAAAAAAA IT WAS SO GOOD
there’s so much to be excited over!! akutagawa reunited with atsushi for one (he’s totally gonna have a moment where he resists the vampiric influence at a key moment i think and it’s gonna be SO GOOD... god i love akutagawa so much ;~;)
plus there was set up for chuuya next chapter! i know this isn’t as important but i’m a chuuya simp so let me have this :P i pray he gets a similar moment to akutagawa in resisting the mind control but i don’t want to get my hopes up no matter how bad i want it... yet i feel like it’s at least a little likely?? idk, i don’t trust myself to figure out what’s going to happen...
most importantly though. the sigma and fyodor interactions!! I’M SO HAPPY i didn’t know how badly i needed that scene until we got it! i love sigma SO MUCH GOD ;~; i’m so proud of him for recognizing fyodor’s manipulations and choosing to trust dazai... as well as just cornering fyodor to the extent he has in general. in spite of me not wanting fyodor to die, i was still cheering sigma on with excitement the whole time haha
and the potential of finding out more about fyodor next month makes me so happy too I JUST KEEP THINKING OF NEW THINGS TO GET EXCITED ABOUT, 10/10 WOULD FREAK OUT OVER AGAIN
9 notes
·
View notes
I'm so tired of being left out of things. I was left out of things all the time because of my horrible job that left me completely unable to do anything, and now that I'm jobless and decided to try and do something for fun, everyone I arranged it with has decided to bail on me at the last second. Meanwhile, I've paid money I don't really have to go to this event and now I have no one to go with, again, just like every other time I've tried to arrange things--my birthdays, the few times my bands have come out west, etc. I'm so tired of having to go to everything alone.
3 notes
·
View notes
trying to explain charoum cries during sex like okay so it's not that charoum has never felt an honest emotion, it's that he's just inherently disinterested in contextualizing his emotions in an authentic way, and so the single time he genuinely feels something and is unable to sublimate it into a performance to further an agenda, he immediately gets so overwhelmed by the experience he collapses in on himself and it all ends up leaking out of him.
and it just so happens that this happens while astarion is attempting to seduce him.
so by the time charoum settles back into himself again, and is better able to channel his emotions into something productive, he now has one single core memory of feeling something, genuinely, as himself, with absolutely no ulterior motive behind it. and he links that experience with astarion. which does (un)fortunately link them together tighter than charoum has ever been bound to anyone else in his life. which should be fine for them.
3 notes
·
View notes
i love my teenage/early 20s self but i wish she had picked more descriptive titles for her mix cds. i'm supplying the music for a roadtrip with my mom and i need to know what kind of songs to expect on mixes with such titles as "The third of July", "Sleepless.", "driving around money", and three that are just called "Seattle WA No. 1, 2, 3". the only ones i can venture a guess on are called "Modes of Transportation Parts One and Two"...pretty sure those are just songs about trains, planes, automobiles, etc. annoyingly, teenage me did not annotate any of these with notes like "mom would probably hate this" or "wow! this would be awkward to listen to with someone in my immediate family!"
12 notes
·
View notes