#but also the insight that it’s like: how do I not highten this and also do badly when I’ve just watched everyone else implode

[differentcollectionexpert]

Episode 15 - A Leap of Faith. Or as I like to call it:

The Kristen-ification of Destiny’s Children

[silver-wield]

i don't get it. Favorability system= gameplay where we highten the character we wanna spend time with. Favorability system isn't equal to no canon gsd?

That's gameplay. And other one is an event. Sure its birthed because of that mechanic but but that's not how it works even in otome games?

I think what nojima is saying here is, technically all gsd are semi canon. Separate this from main story. But I still opt there's canon because most likely it'll be referenced in part 3. Would tifa after contemplating it's puppet cloud or real cloud get hurt or question the kiss / "not one bit" or is it non existent? Like that never happened? That's just jarring and strange? Cloti kiss is too huge and a big deal. The story pace since remake also talks about Cloti. It makes no sense for it to be anything else. Unless gsd is just that unimportant an event that whoever is fine? Which i think is wrong. That's just a cop out way to answer.

Favorability mechanic 3 choices is ❌. Take with a grain of salt (although there's still insight here, like way of talking or possibility of being Rude).

All gsd are semi canon. All are Totally Platonic, except Tifa's.

But there is only one canon to the main scenario, that would be Tifa. The one who kept being repeated in almost every gsd.

What they're saying is none of the events are superior to the other and one date did occur but they're not stating which is canon.

The events that happen on the dates are canon to the characters personalities, but again, you don't know which date he went on, so they all become irrelevant to the events that happen before and after it.

All you do know is that in Aerith's she literally confessed and Cloud rejected her, then later the rejection is repeated in her "dream date" which is set in a world where she has no responsibility to the planet, there's no Sephiroth, Zack or Tifa to consider their feelings or actions or interference and yet Aerith still doesn't know if she likes Cloud romantically, while he literally friendzones her again.

Basically no matter the world or situation, Cloud will never love her, and she will never have definitive feelings for him the way Tifa does since she was 13.

[whumpshaped]

Okay listen… imagine if craven had been kidnapped not by his master but by Saccharine… I think that would be interesting (just because I love craven and I love saccharine). How do you think they’d interact?? What would they think of each other? ~🐸

ok lemme try to. think. use my noodle

craven is used to a highly structured environment with routine and a bunch of instructions. deadlines. attention to detail is super important too

this is perfect for saccharine, who literally provides an environment just like that. routine. rules. tasks to carry out. stuff to learn. attention to detail is everything

now, craven isn't a genius. but he's very smart. he can absorb information quite quickly, and he can put it to use. he will parrot whatever people around him say, because he just wants to fit in, be accepted, and most of all - not hurt

however, he also has anxiety. it's hightened by the electrode system, as he's always waiting for the next shock. he gets very twitchy and flinchy during his time with saccharine

he does well in training, and the praise he recieves in exchange absolutely fuels him. saccharine is very generous with complimenting his progress. he fears nothing more than disappointing her

he makes one (1) attempt at getting out of the pet situation, and that is when he hears zarya and saccharine talking about business and numbers. he was in school studying business and economics. he tries to offer insight and a solution to some problem saccharine is experiencing, and offers to help out. he's hoping not to be sold off at the end of this road, and getting a job like zarya's seems like heaven on earth

saccharine grabs him by the face, squimshes his cheemks, and tells him "don't be silly, [dessert pet name she chose for craven]. i wouldn't trust you any more with my finances than i would a cat. the people can handle the people stuff."

craven secretly hopes her pet business goes bankrupt

eventually, craven gets trained on a schedule, and within half a year, he's sold right off

if he gets a nice owner, he kind of thinks saccharine did good by him by not allowing him to work for her. lounging around in a collar is a much more comfortable life. maybe she knew better all along

if he gets a bad owner, he still doesn't hate saccharine. in fact, he uses her as daydream fuel. he just wants to go back to how it was during his time in training

[tigerkirby215]

5e Soraka the Starchild build (League of Legends)

(Artwork by Riot Games)

That feel when I put off making this build for so long that I can now remove my warning for this build using Theros content.

Soraka is a very obvious choice for a Theros character. Along with being a Satyr (by the way Soraka’s a Satyr she has goat hooves so of course she’s going to be a Satyr) she has a clear divine connection with Mount Targon. So she’s a great pick if you want a healer in Theros, or a healer in general!

GOALS

To heal and protect - Soraka is the first character people think of when they want a support in League. She heals so much it hurts her!

Violence cannot go unanswered - That doesn’t mean Soraka can’t do damage, calling down the wrath of the heavens to harm enemies and heal herself.

Have hope! - Soraka isn’t just a good healer because of big numbers. She’s also a good healer because she’ll rush to your aid if you’re in danger!

RACE

Along with being a Satyr (by the way Soraka’s a Satyr she has goat hooves so of course she’s going to be a Satyr)

Soraka’s a Satyr she has goat hooves she’s a Satyr. As a Satyr your Charisma increases by 2 and your Dexterity increases by 1. You count as a Fey rather than humanoid, and henceforth have Magic Resistance for Advantage against all magical effects.

You can Ram enemies to do 1d4 + your Strength modifier as an unarmed strike, and have Mirthful Leaps to add a d8 to any jump you make. You are a Reveler with proficiency in Persuasion and Performance, as well as a musical instrument of your choice. (Divine Soraka’s artwork shows her playing the Flute so choose that.) And finally you can speak Common and Sylvan, and have a walking speed of 35 feet, which I mention because it’s more than average!

ABILITY SCORES

15; WISDOM - All the compassion abilities are tied to Wisdom, and you have to be pretty damn compassionate to main Soraka.

14; CHARISMA - With a base model like that you’re still one of the most popular champs in the game. That takes some form of Charisma.

13; DEXTERITY - With the +1 from our race it gives us enough to dodge a few hits. And by “dodge a few hits” I mean wear Medium armor.

12; INTELLIGENCE - As a child of divine power and an enchanter you’re bound to know a thing or two about Religion or Arcana. (Feel free to swap this with Constitution if you want more health but worse skill checks)

10; CONSTITUTION - You’re an enchanter support. Squishy.

8; STRENGTH - You’re an AP support, not an ADC.

BACKGROUND

I actually had to read Soraka’s lore; end me. Do you know how many times this shit was revised? Didn’t Soraka have a rivalry with Warwick at one point? Regardless based on her lore Soraka was... literally formed from the stars? Fuck me... Well Hermit gives us Religion and Medicine proficiency so that’s good enough for me. Your background feature “Discovery” essentially says “the DM gives you plot spoilers.” Maybe you learnt that you were a child of the stars? Maybe you saw the coming of an army and a great war? Maybe you won’t be playing a campaign in Runeterra?

(Artwork by Riot Games)

THE BUILD

LEVEL 1

“Oh Soraka’s a healer so she must be a Cleric I bet she’s going to be a Life Cleric!” Nope! Wrong!

SORCERER 1

Soraka was born from a star which means her healing power is innate, henceforth meaning that she’s a Sorcerer! Her subclass is pretty obvious too but let’s get her proficencies sorted out first: choose Arcana for knowledge of magic that may cause harm, and Insight for knowledge of people who may cause harm.

For your subclass: want to heal as a Sorcerer? Divine Soul! Divine Soul Sorcerers have Divine Magic, giving them access to the entire Cleric spell list along with the Sorcerer spell list! Additionally they get another spell tied to their alignment and naturally Soraka is a holy good girl of goodness so you’ll learn the Cure Wounds spell to... cure wounds. Divine Soul Sorcerers are also Favored by the Gods, letting them add 2d4 to a failed saving throw or attack roll once per short rest.

But now for spells! Along with Cure Wounds you can learn 4 cantrips and 2 leveled spells from the Sorcerer list or the Cleric list. To guide your allies the Guidance cantrip is a good choice, letting them add a d4 to an ability check. And to guide them through the darkness Dancing Lights will let them see what’s ahead. For some generic magical effects Prestidigitation is good to help in small ways, and to sling a banana to inflict Grievous Wounds grab Chill Touch, because sometimes you need to harm to heal. For leveled spells Healing Word will let you heal at a distance and not get in harm’s way yourself, and Sleep will let you end a fight without bloodshed.

LEVEL 2 - CLERIC 1

“Oh well Cleric at level 2 is clearly done so you can get Life Cleric for increased healing!” Nope wrong again! While Soraka heals a lot her heals aren’t really empowered; they’re just really big. But you know who Soraka does heal a lot? Those who are injured. Time for Grave Domain baby!

Grave Clerics are in the Circle of Mortality, letting them heal for the maximum amount on any target who is at 0 hitpoints. Additionally they get the Spare the Dying cantrip with a casting range of 30 feet, and can cast it as a bonus action! Grave Clerics can also detect those who insult life’s natural circle, and can use Eyes of the Grave to detect any undead within 60 feet that aren’t behind full cover or protected from divination magic. You can use Eyes of the Grave a number of times equal to your Wisdom modifier, and regain all expended uses on a Long Rest.

But let’s talk spells, because woo boy you’re going to get a lot of them with this build: as a Cleric you can learn three cantrips from the Cleric list. Sacred Flame is another way to deal damage which we didn’t take as a Sorcerer, and Word of Radiance is a way to keep yourself safe if surrounded. Finally Thaumaturgy will let you perform some divine acts that are a little more intimidating than Prestidigitation.

You can prepare a number of Cleric spells equal to your Wisdom modifier (2) plus your Cleric level (1 - so a maximum of 3.) As a Grave Cleric you always have Bane and False Life prepared, to keep your enemies at bay and keep yourself from being harmed. To further protect your allies grab both Shield of Faith and Protection from Evil and Good, and to illuminate your foes in an Equinox grab Guiding Bolt. It’s worth mentioning that Clerics are prepared spellcasters because Sorcerers are not, so any Cleric spells we grab as Sorcerer are “essential” while the ones we grab as Cleric are more “optional” and can be swapped out as you see fit.

LEVEL 3 - CLERIC 2

Second level Clerics get access to Channel Divinity: all Clerics can Turn Undead, forcing all undead within 30 feet to make a Wisdom save or run away from you. Additionally Grave Clerics can further set up with Equinox thanks to Channel Divinity: Path to the Grave, allowing you to curse an enemy and make it vulnerable to the next attack that hits it. Root your foes to set up for some potent skill shots! Regardless of what Channel Divinity you use you gain the ability back on a short rest.

You can also prepare another spell like Bless, letting your allies add a d4 to attack rolls and saving throws.

LEVEL 4 - SORCERER 2

Lol what’s second level spells? Second level Sorcerers get Font of Magic, giving them Sorcery Points equal to their level in Sorcerer. You can convert sorcery points into spell slots, and thanks to the Class Feature Variants UA you have a few other options: Empowering Reserves lets you spend 2 Sorcery points to gain advantage on a skill check, Imbuing Touch lets you spend 2 Sorcery points to make a weapon magical for the sake of overcoming magic resistance, and Sorcerous Fortitude lets you convert Sorcery points into d4s which you can roll to grant yourself temporary hitpoints. None of these are really in flavor for Soraka except maybe Empowering Reserves, but it’s still nice to have the option if your DM allows UA.

You can also learn another spell and to keep you safe from those who’d wish to abuse your power (and try on new skins) grab Disguise Self, letting you alter the appearance of yourself and your clothes! No what do you mean we have too many first level spells?

LEVEL 5 - SORCERER 3

Third level Sorcerers get Metamagic to alter their spells with their Sorcery points. To keep enemies at bay grab Hightened Spell and spend 3 Sorcery points to give enemies disadvantage on their first saving throw against your spells. If you want to cast from bush and not draw attention to yourself then Subtle Spell will let you spend 1 Sorcery point to ignore any verbal or somatic components of a spell, so that you can cast without a sound and without drawing attention to yourself.

And hey look at that: actual second level spells! You know me: when given the chance Misty Step to Flash is always going to be my spell of choice.

LEVEL 6 - SORCERER 4

At 4th level you get your first Ability Score Improvement, but we’re actually going to be a good support and ward with the Observant feat. Along with a plus 1 to your Wisdom you also get a +5 bonus to your passive Perception and Investigation by watching the minimap, and you can read people’s lips to make sure they aren’t complaining about how you’re a shit support. What no I’m not projecting.

Also yeah with an increase to your Wisdom modifier you can prepare another Cleric spell.

You can also learn another spell and another cantrip! Minor Illusion will let you make a small image you can use to deceive enemies; maybe it’s a scarecrow? For your leveled spell you have a silence in your kit so grab Silence to silence enemies. Silently.

(Artwork by Riot Games)

LEVEL 7 - SORCERER 5

5th level Sorcerers can grab third level spells: to protect yourself and your allies with a Banshee’s Veil grab Counterspell, blocking incoming magic and keeping yourself safe!

LEVEL 8 - SORCERER 6

6th level Divine Soul Sorcerers get Empowered Healing, allowing them to empower... their healing. Whenever you or an ally within 5 feet of you rolls dice to heal you can spend 1 sorcery point to reroll any number of those dice once. Soraka’s healing isn’t strong because it’s high but because its consistently high.

Speaking of healing Life Transference will let you give your life to others. You hurt yourself for 4d8 necrotic and then heal that much to the target you choose. I should also mention that technically speaking you can cheese this spell with Empowered Healing: since only the healing is affected if you roll all 1s against yourself you can then Empower the heal and get more value out of your self harm! ...That sounds really weird when you say it out loud!

LEVEL 9 - SORCERER 7

7th level Sorcerers can learn 4th level spells but I’m actually going to suggest quickly hopping back to third level for Fly. Why? Because it’s Fly, and because Star Guardian Soraka can fly. Also because it’s Fly why do I have to justify this?!

LEVEL 10 - SORCERER 8

8th level Sorcerers get another Ability Score Improvement: seeing as most of investment so far has been in the Sorcerer class get more Charisma for better Sorcery.

You can also learn another spell but again we’ll be hopping down a few levels for Hold Person for a Root with Equinox.

LEVEL 11 - SORCERER 9

9th level Sorcerers can learn 5th level spells which means it’s finally time for Starcall! Enervation is a ranged attack that heals you: the targeted creature must make a Dexterity saving throw or take 4d8 Necrotic damage. On each of your following turns you can continue doing 4d8 to that target without them being able to make a saving throw! If they succeed their save when you target them you only do 2d8 damage, but regardless of if they save or fail you will be healed for half the damage you deal to them!

(Artwork by Riot Games)

LEVEL 12 - CLERIC 3

Third level Clerics can prepare second level spells. Grave Clerics have Gentle Repose and Ray of Enfeeblement innately prepared, keeping foes from harming your allies and keeping your allies that were harmed... fresh for respawn. Lesser Restoration will let you remove some minor CCs with a crucible, and Zone of Truth will let you figure out who blinded, deafened, paralyzed, or poisoned your friends.

LEVEL 13 - CLERIC 4

4th level Clerics get an Ability Score Improvement: now that we’re taking Cleric levels increase your Wisdom for better Cleric spells.

A Wisdom increase means two more prepared spells, along with the new Cleric cantrip you can learn! We may as well grab Mending because you hardly need more offensive cantrips. For prepared spells you can lend Aid to your allies to increase their max HP (and use some of those higher level slots you don’t have spells for.) We’ll hold off on preping anything else until...

LEVEL 14 - CLERIC 5

5th level Clerics Destroy Undead of CR 1/2 or lower that fail their saving throw against Channel Divinity: Turn Undead. Of course it’s unlikely you’ll be fighting CR 1/2 enemies at level 14 but...

5th level Clerics can also prepare third level spells! As a Grave Cleric you will have both Revivify and Vampiric Touch innately prepared, for more healing from harm and a way to bring your allies back from literal death. To further keep your allies from dying Beacon of Hope will maximize incoming healing in the area while also giving allies advantage on Wisdom saves and Death saves. For a close-range Wish (the League of Legends ultimate, not the D&D spell) Mass Healing Word will let you heal 6 creatures within 60 feet as a bonus action.

LEVEL 15 - CLERIC 6

6th level Clerics get a second use of Channel Divinity per short rest, but more importantly as a Grave Cleric you’re a Sentinel at Death’s Door, letting you negate critical hits on allies within 30 feet! You can use this reaction a number of times equal to your Wisdom modifier and regain all expended uses on a long rest.

You can also prepare another spell and to further aid against crowd control Remove Curse will let you... remove a curse affecting a target.

(Artwork by Riot Games)

LEVEL 16 - CLERIC 7

7th level Clerics can prepare 4th level spells. Grave Clerics will always have Blight and Death Ward prepared. How Blight falls into your mantra of not doing harm I don’t know, but keeping from falling off the brink of death is always useful! Speaking of useful: knocking an enemy out of the fight harmlessly with Banishment can allow your allies to focus on more dangerous threats.

LEVEL 17 - CLERIC 8

8th level Grave Clerics get Potent Spellcasting, letting them add their Wisdom modifier to the damage of their Cleric cantrips. Naturally since your cantrips are going to be increased with Wisdom I’d suggest increasing your Wisdom with the Ability Score Improvement you just got!

With our final increase to Wisdom you can prepare two more spells and we’re actually going to be hopping back a few levels, first for Daylight from third level to banish the fog of war, and then all the way back to first level for Detect Evil and Good, so you will know who has evil in their hearts.

LEVEL 18 - SORCERER 10

10th level Clerics get another Metamagic, but none of these are really that impressive so you may as well grab Empowered Spell to keep your enemies from ever damaging your allies in the first place.

You can also learn another spell and to root more powerful beasts grab Hold Monster, which is like Hold Person but it works on monsters! And you learn another cantrip like Resistance, letting your chosen ally add a d4 to a saving throw, so you can support them without using any resources.

LEVEL 19 - SORCERER 11

11th level Sorcerers can learn 6th level spells and of course we’ll be going all out for the most reliable Heal in the game. A creature in 60 feet is instantly healed for 70 health and cured of any blindness or deafness.

LEVEL 20 - SORCERER 12

12th level Sorcerers get our final Ability Score Improvement, so cap off your Charisma modifier to have the strongest spells from two spell schools.

What? Did you think that you’d get another spell to learn? Lol nope screw you Sorcerers only get a spell every other level past level 10 because I don’t know. Feel free to replace one of your older Sorcerer spells with a 6th level spell if you wish, because you’ve certainly got the slots to do it.

FINAL BUILD

PROS

I lend my aid - You’d never guess that the character built specifically to heal would be good at healing, with tons of supportive spells to keep your allies alive and your foes at bay.

What must be done - You also do quite a lot of damage with powerful spells like Vampiric Touch, Blight, and Enervation, not to mention an insane array of cantrips and your Channel Divinity empowering the attacks from allies.

Where am I needed? - Even out of combat you are constantly helping the party with an ungodly amount of cantrips and insane utility with both Charisma and Wisdom skills.

CONS

Be at peace - Sorcerer levels plus no Constitution modifier equals less than 100 max health on average! Your foes don’t even need to hit you: just hit the Power Word Kill button and you’re down for the count! Not to mention that your AC and saving throws are incredibly subpar, even if being a Satyr helps against magic.

Never waste a breath - The vast majority of your damaging spells are Necrotic, so while you may be intended to be the healer of the group you might struggle to do much else against foes that resist necrotic damage.

This is my path - There’s such a thing as too much Cleric. Doing a near-perfect 50/50 split between two spellcasters means that while your slots go up to 9th level the actual spells you know only go up to 6th. And you don’t even get Wish; that’s literally the name of your ultimate! What’s more is that Divine Soul Sorcerer really doesn’t help us much with the only use you get out of the class being Empowered Healing. Sure 2 more levels in Sorcerer would give you wings but then you lose out on Potent Spellcasting and an ASI.

But your job was to heal and protect which is a job you do well. Any brute can save the day by crushing the head of the bad guy, but saving the world through compassion is a tough task. But keep a level head, support your team, and be ready to mute everyone if it becomes too much to handle. You’re just a Deathcap away from becoming the very thing you swore to destroy.

(Artwork by Riot Games)

[vitosscaletta]

🧛‍♀️🎹💘👯‍♀️ for the legends erin and helena pwease >;3

YOU are the legend!!! thank u so much 💕

ERIN

🧛‍♀️ Do they have any preference regarding who they feed on/how they feed?

Not really, she’d rather not drink any blood at all, it’s all so messed up :( she mostly lives off of blood packs but is eventually forced to hunt when Vandal bans her from the blood bank 😒 also is taking blood donations really better.. anyway she generally just feeds on anyone she finds but stays away from the homeless

🎹 Do they have any special talents or skills?

nhsdhjds not many, she has a great insight on things and is really good at reading people/interpreting things.. her vampiric condition only hightened those senses to a supernatural level.. auspex queen!

💘 Do they have a romantic interest?

Yeah.... Mitnick (yknow the Nosferatu dude in the warrens who sends virus mail to random people hmdsjk) is her boyfriend :~) copypastes this from twitter but it's classique nerd dude has a crush on hot chick that's out of his league trope from every 90s/early 2000s high school movie ever but she's weird as fuck and has prophecies.. she just starts hanging out down in the warrens at this point because she likes it down there & she thinks he’s kinda cute..😳

👯‍♀️ Do they have any notable allies/friends?

The anarchs I suppose?? She’s good friends with Nines and I guess Damsel eventually even though they had a bad start bc Erin dresses like a wannabe Paris Hilton.. however Damsel eventually respected her for being a class traitor jkkjds they’re friends now.. and of course Beckett & Mercurio because the malkavia voices say they’re trustworthy bla bla

HELENA

🧛‍♀️ Do they have any preference regarding who they feed on/how they feed?

similar to Erin - If it were up to her.. not at all kjdfkjdf she HATES having to drink people’s blood that’s so fucked up. Unfortunately she has to so she mostly sticks to artists and rich people since they’re an easier target for her and are generally healthier :( .. also because drinking blood from homeless people is kinda fucked up

🎹 Do they have any special talents or skills?

Oh definitely acting baby!! She was still in acting school at the time she was embraced but she was really good at it and managed to put out some really great performances 😳 Of course her whole acting career never came to be so she’s putting it to use and works as a kinda spy (??) for the camarilla, combined with her op charisma stats.. she’s too much of a weenie to give people’s secrets to her superiors though... sometimes. She’ll gladly snitch on some nosferatu who said something rude to her but not everyone deserves that :c

💘 Do they have a romantic interest?

Nope.... she and her sire Christian were dating for a while before he embraced her but the whole thing didn’t happen with her permission so she dumped him 😒 She’s single now!! Idk if I mentioned this before but she has a stupid crush on L*croix aka her boss but that’s it! 

👯‍♀️ Do they have any notable allies/friends?

The hollywood anarchs, even though she’s camarilla but she’s not loyal to them anyway and is mostly in it because of her sire and bc she’s still young and inexperienced 🙄 

[straykids-jiisung]

i ahve hightened empathy/sympathy/emotions today and while it is really really cool and insightful and just a really cool feeling, it also means that everything i consume (muisc/tv/internet) just leaves me with such a lot of feeling in my chest and makes me cry over every little thing.

Start of the day - read some stories- wasnt that bad, still didnt really have that much heightened emotions - in fact in was actually nice cause i wrote some nice messages about stories and art work.

building up - i watched the good place and starting thinking about the character who cant decide on anything and feels anxious about everything. I suddenly thought og god some people are like this, how do they DEAL with it. It really must be hard.

now the main top of the mountain (where ia m right now) It started where i saw another video about The East Light - they were filming a chat backstage video, standard stuff, every kpop group does it, in the background a member was being punished for a mistake apparently saying that it hurts. The way that the members were acting, saying oh he made a mistake, hes being punished all nonchalant like it was a normal thing, they went to show the beating but the company deleted the video. They were acting all happy and normal and if there hadnt had been a translated version of the video, i wouldnt have known that there was anything wrong.

To chear me up i thought i know, i watch an episode of doctor who, of course i chose the wrong one - turn left- where half of Britain is boomed or gasses, theres no room for everyone so the government made a decision to put non british people go to ‘labour camps’. The man was acting all happy for donna to not scare her and then the grandad says oh its happening again and then she sees that man from before crying in the truck thing and i think then she realises whats going to happen.

And its not just fake world that im worrying/upset about. Its this world. Dad says that hes never seen the world like this before, people are getting murdered left right and centre for doing their jobs. A journalist went to a place to apply for a marriage licence on got murdered because he was a journalist and said a bad thing aka the truth abut some higher up.

Global warming is a massive thing, and it is going to get catastrophically in my life time, and us normal folks ant do anyhting about it and it jsut makes me so so sad and angry that rich people get out of taxes and dont do anyhitng to help just because theyre rich and have power and they wont help cause all they want in life is to stay rich ad if it doesnt benefit them, they wont do it.

Ive just got tons of things in my head, tons of thoughts and i just feel some emotions that the  people might be feeling and its a very cool thing but also a lot.

I mean, i was listening to music, and heard chan sing i cant sleep, and that was like 500 different emotion, i love his voice but the words hes singing is just so, and i was just thinking about his life and how hard and stressful it must of been but then i thought well at least he has close people  to help him and then i compared it to me and how i nee to work harder and if i do, i might get close people as well. cause in this day and age, it feels like if you wasnt to be really close with someone you have to be in a romantic relationship, but i dont WANT a relationship, i want friendship.

This village sucks, its so isolated and theres no people. on one hand im glad that im going back to england soon because i love people and i love the school and placement but i will miss my mum and dad and siblings so so so much. Its been ard trying to think of who i should spend time with, mum or dad. 

I think englands better for me. Im sad because i will never achieve anything great. I  have gt some minnie projects coming up:

10 - inktober

11 - write left handed, writing in general, assignment

12/1 - the dance project 

2/3/4/5/6/ ....???

i really wish i could push myself hard, overcome my comfort zone and o something really great. I admire chan so much as he has really pushed the limits ans he has a really nice voice and i wish i could have a nice voice like that, but im a girl and i don’t have singing voice or work ethic to be proud of.