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clotpolesonly · 1 year

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idk what switch flipped in my brain on my birthday but i've averaged 3.1k words per day for the past week

i haven't written this much, or this easily, in 4 years

#god it feels good i've missed this so much #idk if it'll last or for how long #but for now i'm riding the wave #if i crash at the end of this fic and writing goes back to being as hard as it's been the last few years #i will cry #personal post

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captcutshaw · 4 months

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I love getting invested in shows 10 years late

part 2

#sorry if any of these have been done before #I'm not used to being hyperfixated on stuff that has actual content #I'm used to the autism latching on to films with 3 active fans #anyway gotta ride the wave of the hyperfixation now #inspired by @glitterslag's text posts bc those make me howl #true detective #rust cohle #marty hart #maggie hart

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theplantbish · 1 year

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I'm crawling through the internet cables straight into Jere's livingroom picking him up by his ankles and shaking him until the new song falls out of his pockets

#käärijä #jere pöyhönen #I'm small I'll fit inside the cables I'll ride the interweb waves all the way to vantaa I'll do it #i need the whole entire song right now GIMME!!!!!

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brontes · 8 months

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how it was supposed to be...

rosalie hale

#rosalie hale #twilight #the twilight saga #twilightsagaedit #tts #my edit #I am back from the dead because I'm not doing graphic design work right now #so my creative muscles aren't overstrained and angry #also I licherally cannot listen to this song without thinking about rose #like she is the girl who got frozen!#her life was ruined before it froze but like !!! not in her memory!#in her memory she is still perched at the edge of her great triumph!#of her launch into society at the top! riding the wave of her beauty into love and ease and adoration!

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chiimeramanticore · 3 days

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#im not dead quit asking #I'm just really really really not doing well #sorry if i scared anyone. that wasnt my intent #things got. let's say worse. for me irl. more complicated for sure #i hate to publicize my breakdown I really do. but maybe i... need this? in a weird way?#i haven't really been adjusting well to having a platform online. that's not anyone's fault but mine ofc #i feel that my 'fans' (if ive earned the right to call them that) dont and frankly cant ever care for me as a person #i dont know you and you dont know me. you dont know all of me at least. just what i make public. what i allow others to see #i had it kinda bullied into me that i need to keep my mouth shut abt my own issues. and ive spent a lot of this year trying to unlearn that #maybe publicizing this is a bad idea anyway #I just know ive been more honest abt my emotions and my personal life with my friends and my partner #and not everyone enjoys it but i know I'm not like. traumadumping so i feel somewhat assured that anyone who doesnt wanna hear abt my life-#-probably wasnt all that interested in forming a close relationship w me to begin with. even if theyre friendly at first #everyone else; the people who I know care about me; have shown me that through their actions #my point is being honest abt how youre doing w other ppl is a good idea. revolutionary i know lol #and i still don't know a lot of you personally but #parasocial or not i got some very genuine sounding messages while I was gone. and i. feel really bad that i worried those people #I guess theres my proof that people would care if i disappeared suddenly. people would notice pretty quick it seems #im never gonna kms btw. even if i didnt have the support i have im simply too stubborn to die lol. to put it lightly #and to those who thought this was abt fandom drama: it's not. those who shall not be named are genuinely the least of my problems these days #I'm on a journey of self actualization. or something. im trying to get my shit together. im trying to stop being clinically depressed lol #but god keeps throwing wrenches in my plans and. i beat myself up about it too much #but that's just life. they say you make a plan and god laughs #im. trying to be okay with just riding the wave. im impatient but if i keep trying to somehow speed up time im just gonna exhaust myself #which I think is where im at now. burnt out #and on top of all that i still feel this need to like. perform for you guys #if i dont keep making content everyone will forget i exist. if i dont make another video essay this year can i even call myself a youtuber #etc etc. its the spiral its impostor syndrome we've all been there #im trying to end this on a positive note but idk. i dont have all the answers yet #hoping i figure it out soon. i hope you dont forget me in the meantime

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thelingering · 25 days

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heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

*said with the intent of being your friend*

#rb if you want to be friends #*said with the intent of being your friend again*#i need to sleep #i have things to do tmr #and i'm on my own nerves #riding the nerve wave baby #4 #i have no idea why i do this #like #choose ONE specific thing to try and make a tradition #like 4 #i just randomly thought of it and impulsively tagged it #and now it has become #my thing #i need sleep #as you can tell

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pregnancykink · 2 months

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watching another show like 12 years after it being part of the cultural zeitgeist. rocking up to the party like so has anybody seen shameless

#knowing damn well that migratory slash fandom had ian/mickey on LOCK in like 2014 #i needed a bingeable show with lots of seasons now that i'm taking the train to work again and i'm riding the jeremy allen white wave

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daz4i · 27 days

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yo guys it's need to be put down like a sick dog sunday

#well it won't be in a minute from now so gotta ride the wave while i'm at it

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give-soup-please · 9 months

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"is it depression, or am i between hyperfixations?"

-the title of give-soup-please's latest autobiography

#god help me if it's both lmao #this is not bad depression with ideation and the like #but it's manifesting as an extreme malaise #don't care about anything. don't want to do anything. just want to sit on couch.#i don't generally do well when i'm in between the hyperfixations #i need media to think about to keep me afloat #hmmmmm #so- neurodivergence comes in many forms #for me- i take great comfort in soothing myself with repetitive media #which means it's hard to branch out into new things #which leaves me in a position of 'i need to try something new to find something to latch on to'#and the other part of my brain starts screaming #i tend to get overly attached and ride the up and down waves to the extreme when it comes to experiencing new media for the first time #i generally spoiler myself for all new media so i can watch it and be mentally prepared to deal with it #but of course this causes my brain to stagnate and desire surprises while rejecting them outright #so i find myself in a complex position of-#'this old media isn't cutting it.'#'but i can't bear to try anything new right now'#'if i try something new i gotta vet it and look up all spoilers before heading in'#'because i'm feeling too fragile to handle catharsis that is too large right now'#(insert spongebob card here)#'my god it's been more than ten months since i've tried any new tv show or video game'#'i'm stagnating. can't move forward and i can't move back.'#'FUCK'#just wanna love the stuff i remember loving- you know?#yeah...#(melts into soup puddle on the floor)/neg

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dylanconrique · 1 month

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took a couple days break cause i really haven't been doing well mentally or emotionally at all, but i gotta power through it ig, huh??

#*carly catalogs #tbd #gotten past most the sad stuff #now i'm just riding the wave of contentment #donating plasma rn too and then i might honestly roadtrip across the border so i can get some bud #so who knows how active i'll actually be on here today

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polkadotpatterson · 11 months

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okeydoke as I have not had much energy for working on stuff lately (but lots of motivation) I'm not gonna do proper NaNo with a wordcount or anything, BUT I am gonna make it a goal to get some amount of work done on a writing project every day (at least until I go away on the 24th). Main priority blaseball projects are, in no particular order:

Fic about the ending

Abner fic

Simon's Quest

secret fic(s) :)

get the Talkers exchange set up

Aside from that, I've been poking at more non-blaseball stuff, which is a good excuse for me to plug my writing blog @cyndakip! All my fics get posted there, so if you're interested in my writing beyond just blaseball (especially if you like pokemon), I recommend following me there, since I don't post non-blaseball fics here.

#I'm in a weird place rn where the end of blb is coinciding with me finally feeling ready to get back to nuzlockes #and I very much want to keep writing blb fics! it's just complicated by me getting smacked over the head with pokemon motivation #and separate from that I think it's just been hard for me to work on blb fics knowing that it's over #writing the ending fic in particular means confronting that. and I definitely haven't fully processed it yet and idk when I will #I really truly do want to keep writing blb fics for a long time but I worry there will be not much of an audience anymore #and I know that doesn't matter. I'm gonna write what I want and I know some people will still read it. but yknow. it's rough #also my relationship with pokemon and the nuzlocke community has been really fucking complicated these past few years #to the point where I stopped engaging altogether bc it was stressing me out too much and I had lost all confidence in my writing #this happened to be right before I got into blb. which came along at the perfect time and gave me the community & confidence boost I needed #now it kinda feels like we've come full circle. blb has changed me and now I'm ready to go back with a whole new attitude #I just don't want these two things to be mutually exclusive! I want both! but that's easier said than done #especially bc I haven't had enough energy to work on much of either lately! I want to say things are getting better on that front but #it's complicated. you know how it is with human bodies. treacherous things #the thing is I don't want to waste this. I feel ready for pokemon again and god I missed it and I'm gonna ride this wave of motivation #if I had more energy this would be less of a problem. ah well #gonna get all this done sooner or later #talking moistly

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violenceenthusiast · 2 months

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made the mistake of google image searching butch haircut curly and in addition to photos of feminine women with pixies, got back nick jonas and john legend hm -_-

#anyway i need suggestions...#i had the bullshit mullet years before it was in style #as in have been wearing my hair the same way for 6plus yrs now #and thought i was strong enough to ride the wave thru but im thoroughly sick of it now #i have no idea what to do next but i think i would miss having a 'quirky' haircut if i did a normal short cut #also my curl pattern is specific and i'm too impatient and hate my hair to grow it out At All so the new style #will have to be same or shorter than my current. alas.

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bsaka7 · 3 months

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doing this extra thing for work where i'm gonna be working the occasional thursday night which is like honestly cool whatever but the BIGGER news is. this means i'll be able to run a road half marathon this summer. HUGE but also STRESSFUL. but also so exciting!!!!!

#i was thinking about doing this rando 10mi race bc there weren't any halfs that worked with my work sched but NOW THINGS CHANGE #and like truly. god knows on the time rw says i should try to hit..but maybe!#now i'm looking at my march marathon and wow did i run a reverse split holy shit #i ran a 2:05:46 first half and a 1:58:05 second half?????#i knew i ran a reverse split but i didn't know the extent until rn jfjffjf #my last marathon i didn't run a half i ran a 17k extremely hilly race. which was super fun #but i was also going for under. 4:30. which i was not really that worried about actually hitting. i'm much more concerned/focused now...#but i loveeeeeee the half distance.#this coming week i think i will go to the rando speed workout on monday and then wed will do a fartlek....?#tetrapod runs #SORRY THAT THIS IS TAKING UP MY BRAIN WAVES. i just need to get the whole schedule set and then work towards my goals. u know #TONGITH frisbee tourney. IF someone can commit to giving me a ride....#which seems. not very likely as of right now. but i made potluck pasta salad!

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molagboop · 2 years

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Fasteners? Polished. Whites? Freshly starched. Fucks? None given. Her demeanor is that of an arctic baclozen and her kill count is rumored in the thousands. All business, no shenanigans: Admiral Fuja is the face of calculating military genius.

And she's about ready to turn this frigate around.

Another sketch that has its roots in volume ii of Samus and Adam's Great Big Court Martialed Adventure, broadcast live from the mind of @sablegear0.

#Acaprian #goat #metroid #electrochromic #she is not taking us to mcdonald's #quick sketch before bed: wanted to ride the electrochromic wave before i could show any semblance of losing it #it fit her too well.#i'm not going to finish this until the commission i'm working on is done #for now you get Admiral Fuja in her 'shut up and get the job done before i take the wheel from you' pose #she's a very defensive driver

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nooelgallagher · 1 year

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Hey fam, it's been a minute. Popping on here briefly to say I'm not sure when I'll get back to regularly scheduled programming. I debated putting this in the tags but figured I might as well just rip the band-aid off...

My mom passed away on Monday unexpectedly.

I barely know what day it is. I'm focusing on functioning/surviving. Some seconds are better than others.

If you're the praying kind, I'd appreciate those. If thoughts and vibes are more your thing, I'd appreciate those as well.

Hoping to be back with you all as soon as I can manage. ❤️

#i debated even saying anything #i have no idea if anyone has noticed my absence #considering I'm not exactly a consistent poster on the best of days #i know I've missed things this week but the Internet isn't easy to be on right now #hoping to be start transitioning back on soon but I'm not giving myself any timeframe #just letting it happen as it happens and riding the wave #but i thought you should know especially those of you who have been with me for a long time #love to you all

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gorgeoussimplehousecat · 1 year

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i can't believe the sin nancy erased didn't change how nancy and ace felt about each other, they were just acting that way for no reason lmfao

#i have not been mad at the writers all season #i've been riding the wave #but now i'm drowning #nancy drew cw #nancy drew spoilers #mine

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