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kuroosdarling · 2 years
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my job rn is playing games with me and my coworkers are ready to walk out !! incoming rant …
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figula · 11 months
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i was reading the intros thread on the [open source slack equivalent] for the ch/ess site that i work for (woohoo i can say that again lol) and out of the absolute blue, this guy introduces himself as a huge fan of reading about cluster B disorders + announced that he's a victim of a person with BPD (he said it like pwBPD! lol) + then someone else came in and said he's writing a book about NPD and they started talking about how people with cluster B disorders are all so interesting and deceptive and i was like... ??? IN YOUR OWN INTROS THREAD? THIS IS HOW YOU WANT US TO RECEIVE YOU?!
anyway i decided to reply to this thread as someone w/ a cluster b diagnosis (BPD ofc bc im a woman with non-specific long-term distress lol) and i said this publicly where everyone can see it (textbook cluster b attention-seeking manipulation fr fr)
i was a bit taken aback to see this discussion bc i have a cluster B diagnosis and im literally just a normal person. i got married a few months back, have been with the same man for 10+y with no incidences of infidelity or abuse or anything similar, keep a job, keep the same friends ive had for yeaars, occasionally fuck up obviously as everyone does - but it was a bit bizarre to see myself being discussed as though i am some kind of inherently evil person... if either of you want to ask my thoughts on the whole cluster B shitshow i am happy to DM about it (or speak somewhat publicly but idk how much i want to go into my entire medical history where everyone can see it)
i thought going in immediately with "why are you into this STEMy astrology nonsense at all?" was not going to butter any parsnips but if they actually do DM me i am going to ease them into the concepts of a) medical misogyny and b) antipsychiatry
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florafey · 5 years
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Thoughts on QoN
I started reading The Queen of Nothing on 19 November, 2019, and finished it about fifteen minutes ago on 23 November, 2019. Much as I did with The Wicked King, here are my thoughts while reading.
Spoilers, of course, are under the cut
- Oak is EIGHT??? I’ve been writing him like a three year old this whole time lol whoops sorry Oak
- Idk how to feel about this whole Vivi/Heather thing it smells like manipulation to me
- Lmao Jude’s a freelancer gotta love it
- I have now named my Goblin Brain Grima Mog how dope is that name fr
- Jude is an adrenaline addict and that’s a fact
- “It feels good to be fighting someone other than myself” SWEETIE CARDAN LOVES YOU
- Oooooooh I like Grima Mog I have a feeling she and Jude are going to cross paths again, maybe in Faeire
- (Also not surprised by Grima’s prediction of Cardan being dethroned soon that boy hates his job more than retail workers during the holidays)
- Oh look, three books in and Jude is finally admitting her feelings for Cardan
- I love the juxtaposition between Taryn in her pretty dress and Jude literally being two steps from death and not seeming to care lol
- Hmmmm okay I want to believe that Taryn killed Locke but couldn’t this just be a way to get Jude back into Faerie??? Idk why they would want that but I don’t trust Taryn 
- (Also I hope Locke is dead it would be Taryn’s one redeeming quality)
- ooooooohhhhhh shit Taryn’s PREGNANT AASHHSJSDKJDKSSKLDSJDJSJ HAHAHHAHAH this is too good oh no
- There’s literally zero chance of this plan of Jude pretending to be Taryn is going to go well. Or even close to well
- “Squeeze hug” awww that’s gonna be in a fic I promise
- This feels like The Parent Trap
- I’m sweating
- ITS CAAAAAAARDAAAAAAAN 
- Oh and his tail is out wow good for him
- Fuck a duck I love his tail
- And gold eyeliner, stellar cosmetic choice if I may say so
- Yep I knew it see here she goes off to his chambers he’s gonna find out eeeeekkkkk
- He knowsssssss he been knew of COURSE he been knew how could I be so stupid to think he didn’t know it was Jude this whole time I’m a clown and a fool
- Wow I’m kind of soft right now I love my babies and they clearly love each other but they’re being so ANGSTY AAAAAA
- “Wisdom is for the meek” uhh??? Madoc what are you talking about bud
- Ahhhh see now Jude is getting protective over her throne and crown, she’s blooming into a Queen....good shit for sure
- Also Jude better be the spy she was born to be now that she’s in Madoc’s camp and he thinks she’s Taryn
- Oh, she’s going foraging in the woods? By herself? Yeah, this is gonna go great, Oriana, really
- Yeah def can’t trust Grimsen although I love how Holly Black describes his work and how they’re beautiful but also deadly and cursed
- I’d like to hear more about how he tried to kill Cardan with that ruby earring and failed lol
- tHE GHOST??? What the hell is he doing here???? Am I the only one who just thought homeboy was dead?? Yikes lol
- Ugh Locke was such a Man good thing he’s rotting now
- “You’re scheming” “I’m always scheming” yeah ain’t that the truth bby
- uh oh MOMMY KNOWS heheheheheh
- Well no wonder Cardan turned out like this look at how he was raised, poor boy
- I mean, to be fair, look at Jude while you’re at it
- Oh hey it’s the Roach
- OH HEY ITS CARDAN
- Awwww Vivi went to Cardan because she thought Jude was in trouble and not only did he go to the Roach to go get Jude but he came too !! wow for people who can’t stand each other they make quite the gang 
- I love how inconvenienced Cardan seems by Locke’s death but not actually sad lol what a mood
- Breaking into Grimsen’s forge does NOT sound like a good idea no sir
- Ugh king and queen wow
- I cannot WAIT for Madoc to realize the Jude is the High Queen I cannot
- AYYYY MY GIRL GRIMA MOG what did I tell y’all, hmmm?
- Wow Madoc really just stabbed Jude like that and is going to leave her ??? the disrespect
- Ohh my god oh wow her blood is making flowers grow she’s a QUEEN wow look at that, you go bby
- Ah fuck Jude, you got set up by the bumb ass father you have
- ABAHAHAHAHHHAH this isn’t funny but Jude falling from the rafters onto the banquet table is on par with the beauty of Kaz and Wylan falling through the ceiling onto Van Eck’s dining room table heheheh
- @hollyblack can I breathe??? Shit girl
- Cardan said THATS MY WIFE 
- Wow Cardan washing Jude’s hands herself??? This boy is in loooove
- Oak and Jude’s maid playing Uno ????? Iconic
- “You’re generally terrifying” oh same Cardan
- So Jude really could have pardoned herself this whole time!!!!!! Come ON sis how didn’t you pick up on that WE picked up on it (don’t worry tho we know you’ve been stressed it’s okay you’re here now)
- And Cardan really expected her to pardon herself I have no words for this boy 
- Jude and Cardan’s relationship is so strange but at least it’s healthy now, you know?
- Look at Cardan being vulnerable and Jude not being mean to him for it 
- He’s being KIIIIIND WHAATTT
- “This is my room, and that’s my wife” AAHAHAHHAHH
- Cardan touches her hair oh my gooooooood i’m dying send help
- Can y’all tell I’ve been deprived lol
- Hahahahah Jude trashed Lady Asha, as she should 
- So I think I like QoN Cardan the most, although I did find Cardan in the first two books terribly entertaining to read about (Srry Jude)
- So Taryn seems to be behaving better than she did in the first two books, kind of being a badass, knowing the Ghost’s true name and all
Cardan likes hearing about slushy machines are you kiDDING ME????
- “Our marriage is an alliance” okay but you sleeping in his shirts isn’t, now, is it? Or how about him petting your hair? Or you thinking he looks cute in gold eyeliner?? lol Jude get real
- Aw I like this Fand/Jude freindship us girls gotta look out for each other
- Grima Mog more like Grima MOM lol
- “Big horns, little dude” LMAO HEATHER STOPP
- I’m enjoying Heather, I have to say
- Finally they kiss it only took TWO HUNDRED PAGES 
- oh guys they really like each other im soft
- Casual hand holding? yes 
- I can’t believe these are the same idiots who were trying to drown each other in the first book 
- look they’re trying to be vulnerable and without armor I’m gonna cry
- I feel quite uneasy about this Queen Suren girl who’s parents have her leashed somehow
- Oh wow fuck Grimsen am I right
- Oh SHIT Cardan really broke the crown like it didn’t mean shit to him...the development...the wisdom
- Cardan really said I want my WIFE and my PEOPLE 
- Oh wait fuck fuck fuck oh no stop wait
- Lmao Jude collapsing on the floor is literally me whenever I have to be in charge
- Okay there’s gotta be a way out of this, I didn’t mean it literally when I said Cardan was a snake
- Hey, Jude’s like, smart as shit, no?
- Hahahaha she basically said “Cardan is like, 90% of my impulse control”
- I love how Taryn is hyping Jude up throughout this while shitshow, I love how the two of them have developed past their book one probems
- The Bomb teasing Jude about the dust on her skirts made my day
- Look at Jude really having healthy realtionships with the women around her, I’m so proud of my little murder gir
- Nicassia better come in clutch here, I don’t trust Jarel or Nore not one bit
- Uhhh that story Heather told about the snake that wanted to marry the princess made me howl with laughter and I don’t think it was supposed to
- Vivi got Cardan a snowglobe that says “Congratulations on your promotion” for his coronation gift and he kept did DID EVERYONE HEAR ME I SAID VIVI-
- Oh damn Kaye alright no need for all that
- Ohhhh I had totally forgot about the dress in book one that Jude ordered but received a different one instead... Cardan sent it?? wild 
- Okay I hope Jude knows what she’s doing but when has she ever not
- The UNDERSEA HEEEEEELLL YEAH
- Oh look and Cardan!!!!!!! Yeah Jude knew what she was doing that’s my girl
- Awwww look at that hug wow the development these two have been through is unreal I’ll keep saying it 
- “I knew little else, but I always knew you” KILL ME
- Oh wow mortals and mingling more with the folk this is good
- Robert of Jersey lmaoooo
- So the Ghost and Taryn ??? Kind of funny but I’m kind of here for it
- I’m literally so close to tears and I’m not kidding they’re having a fucking WEDDING CELEBRATION in the MORTAL WORLD with a banner that says “Congrats Newlyweds” yeah I’m crying now thanks a lot Holly
- Cardan adjusts his paper crown in the microwave reflection so it’s skewed......I don’t think I can react any more I really afjsflsdk
-Wow that was better than anything I could have imagined, hoped for, dreamed of
- The character development, the plot, the resolution, EVERTHING was astounding I’m blown away
This was long as shit If you made it this far, I appreciate you lol. Now go read all three Folk of the Air books again. Go now
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tareloin · 4 years
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I have nothing better to do (that I want to do) rn so pt 2 of me yelling about Frey and Allon’s relationship
Also this is a very long post. Probably not as long as the “do you love the sky” post, but maybe.
[cracks knuckles] So, remember me talking about how I love the little interactions Frey has with my other favorites? I will talk about those now.
Getting the obvious out the way first: let’s talk Mr. CaReLeSs OaF (Allon). I’ve touched upon this already about how the two of them are actually pretty close, but I think I’ll go in-depth on some stuff + give my interpretations on it.
Let’s start with Marmut (one of Frey’s guards)’s discussion about them (GMS2):
Did you know there’s a rivalry between Frey and Allon? Everyone in Tria knows. Guard Captain Frey and Knight Captain Allon have been best friends since they were kids. They’re both really good at fighting, too. A lot of people have high expectations of them, and everyone thinks of them as rivals. I don’t know if they’d agree, though. One second they’re screaming in each others’ faces, the next they’re fighting enemies, side by side.
Nothing really special, but here’s the (rough) KMS2 translation: [also be aware that all the mentions of me talking about the KMS2 dialogue/lines were translated through Google and should not be taken at face value since we all know how Google translate is sometimes.]
Did you not know? Frey and Allon are rivals. They were both friends, but ever since they became captains, many people began to have expectations for both of them. Their rivalry came naturally. But I don't think they consider each other rivals. Even if one reprimands the other's mistake, he wouldn't hesitate to help if the other was in danger. Both Guard Captain Frey and Captain Allon said that they were friends, ever since they were young.
I think it’s pretty clear that in the KMS2 version that Frey and Allon have a somewhat friendlier/closer relationship with one another than in GMS, especially since Marmut directly quotes the two of them saying that they were friends ever since they were kids rather than just. stating so. Which brings me onto my next point--
There’s a relationship chart of a handful of NPCs that includes Frey and Allon, and if you translate the relationship connecting them, it says “I only trust you / As do I” and I,,,, just think that is so sweet,,, while I do think that their relationship is somewhat strained due to the shitshow that’s going on in the world + other people’s expectations of them and the whole "lol rivalry???” there’s definitely a sense of trust and security between the other that is just. Unshakable. Childhood friends and also each other’s confidants,,,
It’s really telling when Allon gets flustered when the MC is like “Frey’ll protect Luanna with his life, eh?” because?? Dude doesn’t wanna hear that, wtf MC?? But Allon quickly just asides that because like. Man has a problem with admitting that he’s not a Cool and Calculated guy like everyone expects him to be. Which is something Frey picked up. [Very cool transition] From namu.wiki:
Knight Captain Allon always pretends to be cold, but his true personality is completely different. Even when he became knight captain, he couldn’t manage his emotions well. If you’re curious, talk about Empress Ereve in front of Knight Captain Allon. You’ll see quite the funny expression.
Like?? LMAO??? FUCK Allon got called out fr and by his friend no less??
Allon fires back, because of course he would. Same source:
Guard Captain Frey and I have been friends ever since we joined the Templar Knights. We were both still inexperienced, but we were able to see each other’s potential. By the way... Guard Captain Frey, I don’t usually mind that you’re older than me, but sometimes you act like a middle-aged man. For the guards that worship him, it’s unthinkable. It’s a bit disappointing that only I know this, but I’ll have to keep his honor.
Sometime u act like a middle aged man,,,, dirty blow sdjhdbasjbHDFD I love their relationship. God. It’s a mess. Also truth be told I’m not sure how or where they got this information, but I assume it’s pretty dated since I don’t think Frey was part of the Templar Knights?? That’s like a Lumiknights thing, right?? idk man there’s just a lot of history I don’t fully understand bc Nexon doesn’t tell us anything.
ALSO ON A SOMEWHAT UNRELATED NOTE I’m gonna talk about the dialogue they have in reference to one another in-game
So, I’ve already mentioned that their idle pop-up dialogues both mention each other directly.
Frey: Allon... Now that he's gone, I might actually start to miss him. Allon: Frey... it’s been too long.
Now from this dialogue. You might be thinking. Damn, Frey doesn’t really seem to miss Allon that much, huh. BUT the KMS2 dialogue has a different tone (Allon... Sometimes I miss you, now that I can't see you...) and I honestly don’t know why the English translators made him so goddamn stale but here we are anyways.
In any case, I think both versions are really interesting!! because like. In GMS2, Frey actually sounds kind of... reluctant? Like he might be on bad footing with Allon for whatever reason, noting his use of “might actually” instead of just outright saying “I’m starting to miss him”. Maybe he too has a case of emotional constipation that Allon has, but I also somewhat headcanon him as just being used to Allon’s company/presence? Since I expect that Allon was in Tria a lot more frequently pre-epic, it’d be no surprise for Frey to just accept Allon as part of his everyday life and move on with his day. Something something, absence makes the heart grow fonder.
BUT I also want to say that he could always be rest assured that Allon is safe? Like obviously Allon probably didn’t stay in Tria all the time but honestly idk what the hell he’d be fighting against pre-darkness. Possibly reconstruction, but that’s beside the point. What I’m saying is that Frey is confident in Allon’s safety, so he doesn’t really think about him much because he can always rely on him to be back. But when Allon leaves for Shadow Gate which is completely devoured by darkness, I think that’s when Frey starts to worry. Just a little bit. He’s trying to have some confidence in Allon being alright there but it’s also kinda hard. He starts missing Allon more because it’s probably the first time in a loooong while that he hasn’t seen him return in a few days. He probably still writes, but... writing’s just not the same.
On the flipside, Allon seems definitely a little more... yeah, dude misses him. Note the word “too” rather than “so”/any other variant with the same connotation, he’s sick of Shadow Gate and wants to return to Tria. Dude admits that when you talk to him. But it’s also a mix of “I miss you” in there, I’d say? Like, maybe he’s just reminiscing on clowning on the dude, but he misses him one way or another. Hell, Allon actually says this after the Eye of Lapenta/Frontier Foundation arc:
Good work, [Player]. I’d better head back to Tria now. I haven’t seen his face in some time.
Yeah. Dude DEFINITELY misses him. But wait!!! THIS IS ACTUALLY HIDDEN AWAY WHEN YOU JUST TALK TO HIM IN THERE. HE DOESN’T ACTUALLY SAY THIS IN THE EPIC QUESTLINE, YOU GOTTA LOOK FOR IT. What he DOES say in the questline is THIS:
I too have strayed too long from the Empress's side. I will return to Tria and carry out my duty.
HMMMM. Dare I say it’s not just the empress he’s strayed too long from. : ^ )
I have no idea how to cohesively blend together topics but Allon also talks to Frey during the siege of Tria too!! It’s probably not very significant but I like to overanalyze things as always so here we GOOOO
Let’s hurry, Frey.
Yep. That’s it. But I think it’s pretty interesting because of just... the wording. Let’s hurry. Let’s. Let us. Allon’s including himself in the situation, which is like a “duh” since everyone’s rushing out to see what happened to Joddy, but. Hear me out:
He’s talking to Frey, 1-on-1, because Frey’s completely shaken up about what happened to the city he’s supposed to protect. Allon could’ve just not talked to Frey at all during that part. Hell, he didn’t even need to SAY anything in reference to Frey. He could’ve just been like “What happened?” and nothing would have come out of it. Actually, a lot of the other NPCs (if not all) that you can talk to (like Ereve and Luanna, I think) have their default talk lines. Which makes Allon’s unique line even more significant.
Allon’s worried about the guy. He’s telling Frey to hurry, but he’s also including himself in it because, well... he made the decision to lag behind with him. He’s urging Frey to move forward, probably not just because they’re falling behind with the others, but because he doesn’t want Frey to just... stand there and grieve. As I mentioned in the other post with the two of them, Frey took the siege of Tria... pretty badly. He got his shit rocked. I think it’s reasonable to say that Frey’s not handling it well right now and Allon recognizes it, even if the others (and maybe even Frey) don’t. That’s some good shit.,,,
Like I imagine that Allon picks up on this stuff well because. they’ve known each other since they were kids. Makes sense to me. They both lookin out for each other.
Speaking of Allon looking out for Frey, did you know Frey has an (unused) voiceline that’s like “Allon, are you hurt?” like wtf WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN I KNOW FREY GOT HIS SHIT WRECKED BUT WHEN DID ALLON (outside of Holstatt cutting his arm or something in the EoL arc)??? Frey wasn’t there at that time!! When would he have said this?? I still don’t know, and it kinda really sucks. I would love to know, but I doubt it’s in the storyline anymore... but shit, him addressing Allon, AUDIBLY, and voicing his concerns about him?? :(
In any case that wraps up my main points about Frey and Allon’s relationship. This got way longer than I expected and I may or may not continue later if I have any other memory of something else I wanted to talk about between the two of them.......
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