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PopTeacher!Kylo Ren x Student!Reader

Boundaries and Apologies

Summary: Your training is going well but Kylo knows you can do better, you can do more, but only if you try a little harder. He pushes you over the top to see what power you are holding back but he goes a little too far.

Another hit from the fake sword, this time to your ribs. You already had bruises and welts forming elsewhere on your body and you couldn't help but groan in pain.

"Stop complaining, (Y/n) , and fight back." Kylo swung and hit you in the back. You fell into your knees and tried to catch your breath.

You had been snuffed out by Snoke and because the Rebellion hadn't gotten to you first, you were forced to train under Kylo Ren, who was just as or more than upset as you were about it. He hadn't taught you much about the force and it was frustrating you to no end. Your force sensitivity was very unstable and all you wanted to do was learn how to control the power within you.

"Stop it..." you pleaded quietly.

"Get up, we aren't done!" His harsh training sessions were too much for you. You thought him training you would be a little more helpful instead it was always him yelling at you and hitting you with either his hands or a fake lightsaber.

"No! We're not done until i say we are." Kylo was about to land another hit on you but you had enough. You growled and clenched your fist.

"I said stop it!" You shouted. The sword froze inches from your body and hovered. If you hadn't stopped his swing with your force powers, Kylo would've hit your spine. He pulled the sword away from you and huffed.

"That's better but still not good enough. Show me more." He demanded. You got up and glared at him.

"I dont want to train anymore today. Just let me take a break."

"Not until I know what you're capable of. If i dont know what you can do, I wont know what I need to teach you!"

You let out a frustrated groan and held your hand out away from you a bit. The sword flew into your hand and you got back into your fighting stance. As you and Kylo clashed swords, you felt yourself getting more and more irritated and exhausted. It was making you unable to focus and Kylo took this as an opportunity to sweep your leg with his. You fell on you back and laid there, not having the energy to fight back anymore. Kylo put his feet on either side of you and pointed the sword at your throat.

"Dead."

"I dont caaaareeee!!!" You yelled out and slammed the ground with your fist.

"Get up!" Kylo moved and you got on your feet. He was a considerably taller than you and when he went to get up in your face, he always had to bend down a bit.

"When you're fighting you need to focus and stay focused. And you also need to be more forceful and swift when it comes to wielding a lightsaber. You're sloppy! Now try to push me."

It took you a minute to register what he had just told you to do. You looked at him confused and he slapped his chest hard.

"Go on! Use the force to push me!"

You tried to concentrate and move Kylo but he only moved a little. He was clearly frustrated and you were as well.

"Well what do you want me to do? You are teaching me all this hand to hand combat and swordsmanship. Why bother with all of that when you can just teach me about the force and be done?"

Kylo flicked his hand and you fell on your butt and went flying backwards, hitting a wall. Kylo marched over to you and kneeled down to look you in the eyes and slammed a fist against the wall.

"To use the force requires energy and power and you need to learn basic combatics before you waste your energy on the force. You can't just take the east way out, (Y/n)!" Kylo stood and held his hand out, his hand began shaking a large rack of weapons began to float into the air. It took 6 or more people to lift that and carry it into the training room and now Kylo was lifting it without breaking a sweat.

"I want you to be able to do this but you have to have the mental power and that comes from your physical power. If you are weak on the outside, you are weak on the inside."

You grumbled and stood, brushing yourself off and looked at your master.

"Isnt there some other, more painless, way to do that?"

Kylo put the rack down and pinched his temple in annoyance.

"I suppose there is another way. The way I used to use the force before realizing how draining it was. We find the most emotional moment in your life and turn into a sort of alternative source of power that you can focus into your abilities."

Kylo stood in front of you.

"This will hurt a little, are you ready?"

You hesitated but looked up at him and nodded. He lifted his hand in front of your face and you felt yourself go numb and blacked out.

You opened your eyes to see yourself in a large, marble room with thin white, silk curtains that seemed to be hanging from nowhere and marble columns with vines wrapped around them, you on one end and on the other was a very elegant, yet unnerving, white and gold coffin. You were frozen in place and felt yourself begin tearing up, you knew that coffin.

"What is this place?"

"My mother's funeral. The only woman who wasn't afraid of what I could do, and one day she was just...gone."

You felt Kylo's presence and knew he was now standing next to you. You let the tears stream down your face but you kept your eyes locked on the coffin.

Kylo looked at your mother, then you. He put a hand on your shoulder and you gasped for air, blacking out again.

Kylo glanced at you.

"She was sick....there was nothing I could do." You began to slowly walk towards the coffin, Kylo following behind you.

"That day, my emotions got the best of me and I destroyed so much. I just felt so powerless and was so heartbroken, i didn't know it would make me so destructive. My father was so angry...and scared, I could feel it inside burning inside of him. But I'm his daughter, he shouldn't be afraid of me. My mother wasn't. So I ran away, lived on my own for a while and then you and The First Order found me."

You reached the coffin and looked down. Your mother looked as if she was sleeping peacefully and this made you feel calm but still filled you with overwhelming sadness.

"I didn't know what to do without her."

You opened your eyes, panting, and were standing back in the training room. Kylo scoffed.

"Say what you want about me, Ren. Break my bones and make me bleed. But do not, I repeat, DO NOT, speak about my mother like that!" You stopped the choking and made a throwing motion, tossing Kylo at the wall with all the force you could. You wanted him to feel the pain you felt. All the toment from losing your beloved mother, you wanted him to feel that physically. You made him fly across the room several more times, hitting the walls harder and harder, but then you felt weak and your body became exhausted. Kylo fell from the air and landed roughly, coughing up a bit of blood. You were huffing and glaring at him, he looked at you as well, in shock and disbelief. He didn't realize that you had so much power bottled up and why? Because you were scared of what destruction you would cause again? That's just what he wanted. That power, but imagine you being able to control. With power like that, you and him would be unstoppable. The Rebellion wouldn't stand a chance.

"You just ran away. They feared you and you just ran. Your mother would've been so disappointed in you. It's probably best that she passed away before seeing what a pathetic mess you became."

Of course, kylo didn't actually mean any of this. He was just trying to push your buttons to unleash what untapped power you still had hiding away inside you. And it worked, a little too well. You become silent and had a deadly look in your eye. There was a thick tension in the air. Kylo waited to see what was going to happen next. Suddenly, he was lifted into the air and being choked by an invisible force, he was caught off guard and couldn't fight back immediately. Your power was now fueled by nothing but rage and it made what you were doing even more painful. He had just learned about your weakest moment and then mocked you for it.

You got up on your feet and hobbled over to Kylo.

"Get up." You instructed firmly. He did and you both walked to the med center.

As he was being worked on, next to him, you were also being looked at. You glanced over at him. He was plotting an attack on the Rebels but you mistook it as him being upset that you injured him so much.

"I'm sorry, Kylo. I didn't mean to hurt you so badly. I was just so angry at what you said. I just wanted you to know what it felt like for me emotionally, but on the outside. " You spoke softly, feeling that anything louder would upset him. He heard you and looked over at you, then gave you a stern look.

"Don't apologize. I pushed you on purpose to get a reaction and it all went accordingly."

You looked away and began thinking about your mother. You felt yourself begin to cry and Kylo took notice. He did feel a bit bad for you. He cleared his throat and grumbled something.

"I'm sorry about your mother."

You turned to him, tears still streaming down your eyes, and looked at him with surprise. He had never been nice to you in any way so him showing sympathy was strange, but very considerate. You smiled a little as you looked away.

The bots finished their business and you and your master left the room. As you walked back to the training area, you looked at Kylo.

"So...what now?"

He kept his gaze forward, a stern look still plastered on his face.

"We go back and train more. Now that I know what power you are hiding, I will show you how to direct that into the force."

You sighed, of course it was back to training, but at least now he was going to teach you how to use the force.

You got back to the room and Kylo instructed you to stand on one side of the room and he would stand opposite. He gave you a sword and he took his with him.

"Now, you are going to be doing self defense maneuver. I want you to use your sword and combine it with a force push. Do you understand?" You nodded and he began his charge at you. You took and breath and thought about your mom watching you train. This was a calming thought and it motivated you. Kylo had gotten only feet away and swung hard and fast at you, you skillfully blocked it and you used your force to push him away. The rest of training went on like that. After all was said and done, Kylo approached you.

"That was very impressive. Your mother would be proud." That was all he said and then he left the room. You smiled, proud of yourself. Not only for learning quickly how to control your powers but also for proving to Kylo and yourself that you don't need to feel a bad emotion to motivate your abilities.

The next few training sessions were great and Kylo had lightened up a bit on the harshness of his training. You were finally in complete control of your power but little did you know the horrible things Kylo had planned to use them for.

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