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possamble · 3 months

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I'm not allowed to be on social media for more than two seconds today but I just wanted to say that Laios will absolutely have his own reaction to all this as someone who would die for Falin but has also imprinted on Marcille as his Emotional Support Comphet White Girl Not-Girlfriend along the way

#a little creature #sometimes i look at the way i want marcille to be the closest thing hes ever had to a girlfriend but in a 100% platonic way and im like #is this what they mean by queerplatonic or have i just never had a dude best friend who wasnt like. a super fruity gay twink #anyway its gonna be as hard on him as it is for us bc he loves them both so much #the most important women in his life bar none #marcille probably slapped him when she got back tho. like she just saw his face and all the misdirected anger at him 'taking falin' just #rose up and burst again #its ok tho. you know she immediately broke down crying in his arms again blubbering incoherently bc she felt bad but also shes still mad #and she just doesnt know what to do with herself #the hardest part about this fic is that like. there are SO many juicy things going on offscreen #but. i have to breathe deep and keep calm and let them happen out of falin's POV #the ryoko kui method. what happens in the story happens and what happens outside can be explored in extras if need be #edit: also just figured out why ive been chafing a *little* bit against ppl assuming that it's the fear of falin dying that motivated #marcille's denial of her feelings so far #bc it's technically true but something just didn't sit right and i didn't wanna say anything until i figured it out #in little creature she has in part already realized that falin's passing is going to hurt no matter what she does right now #bc she's already passed the threshold of preemptive grief and sealed her own fate by how much she cares about falin #so it's not really... about that as much as it would have been during the canon story #it's just that. to acknowledge that she has romantic feelings for falin means recontextualizing their relationship in a way where #she has been the one hopelessly chasing while falin didn't realize/ignored her for the most part #and she couldnt allow that to be true both bc she couldnt bear to make falin the 'villain' in her love story #and bc she subconsciously knew the scope of pain would be too much for her to handle #so now my problem is. how do i make that clear in the fic from falin's POV without getting too heavy handed about it

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unopenablebox · 15 days

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im literally soooo cute

#and so is my girlfriend. but we're talking about me rn #also i am smart! and funny! and people like me #and i have several friends #and i am a good cook. and i can knit. and operate basically any fluorescence microscope incl TIRF and STED and so on #and i give excellent feedback on presentations and experimental ideas #and my girlfriend is so in love with me because of all of these things.#ok we can talk about them also a bit i guess #box opener #😊.

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elliesbelle · 1 year

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lol

#i'm literally like.#sooooo done with life #i've been on the verge of tears on and off today fr #work itself has been ugh #my kids are being so crazy and i love them but very draining #and my work friends are basically pulling away from me and it makes me wanna die #they essentially replaced me with someone else and i'm literally sitting here like oh ok lol #and my ex and i are in this weird fucking space and i can't fucking deal with it #siri play 'boyfriend' by ariana grande and social house #like... she's not mine and like... technically she can date other people lol #but lol you're really taking her out on a date that would be perfect for ME?????#you know what ur doing lol #but i mean ig #'you ain't my boyfriend!!!! and i ain't ur girlfriend!!!!!'#screaming and crying and throwing up #i hate my life y'all #i'm legit at my limit #i don't want to make my every-three-years trip to the ICU and psych ward but!!!!!!#sorry y'all i needed to put this somewhere lol #i'll prob delete later #belle speaks #v

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just-rogi · 2 months

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its so weird and wonderful watching in real time as i become more intimate with my friends... like oh.. your husband doesnt think of me as "my wifes friend" anymore but got drunk in costa rica and started talking about how he wants me at his birthday party because im his friend too... oh your brother is drinking a beer and talking about how his wife makes rice and asking me for recipies... oh your aunt is going on and on about how she wants her son to marry someone like me and how good it is to see me again... oh all your husbands old college buddies are excited to see me while since we saw eachother and are including me in alll their inside jokes now.... oh your sister in law just gave me a big hug and your nephews are asking me to draw bluey with sidewalk chalk again... oh im in the kitchen cooking with your mother and shes saying how proud she is of me for getting my teaching license .. she gave me a kiss on the cheek before I left... oh your dad leaned in to hug me to say goodbye this time instead of giving me a handshake and a clap on the back..oh i think im loved i think im loved a lot

#like its one thing to know #yeah of course my friends love me #and ok yeah my friends partners like me too #but now im getting to know my friends parents and extended family and cousins and old college friends and its wild #like i forget how wonderful it is until my friends girlfriends brother shows up and is so so excited to see me and is telling everyone how #good i am at baking and how they have to try my pie #or how my other friends husbands sister is watching me play with her two young sons and tells me how good it is to see me again #like.... ive made a real impact on your life.. for the better #your siblings love me your parents love me your in laws love me i actually belong exactly where i am

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iratusmus · 1 year

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there are so many many funny things about fiona/scourge as a relationship but somewhere at the top is definitely the fact that if it wasnt canon and somebody told me they shipped them i would actually think they were insane

#yes this coming from fiona/scourge stan number one #ok . the thing is . the thing is if it wasnt canon. i would think that fiona would hate his guts #because hes just generally an incredibly unlikeable person #like . very likeable character. like as a reader i love him. but if i met him irl i would actually want to kill him #and scourge is absurdly selfish this is like. its like that one bit in earlier archie #where tails is talking to sonic about girls and sonic says something to the extent of #''if i have a girlfriend ill have to share my chilidogs with her :/''#so its like that but applied to everything humanly possible #so i think. the real fun of the ship. to me. is figuring out why theyre dating in the first place and how to make it work #you know.#actually i think thats probably why 99% of my ships are just canon ships. because its like #like generally when i see ships its like ''i mean ok but i think theyre funnier as friends''#but when they are explicitly in a romantic relationship. the fun of it is figuring out how to fit those pieces together #in a way that i like. you know. anyways sorry im thinking fiona/scourge again <- always thinking about fiona/scourge

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mochela · 3 months

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uhgg coworkers dinner tomorrow. they decided to go in a place thats like 30m by car from mine (we live in a pretty small city and im in a town connected to it so it's not that little time. most places would took me 15m at max. so i cant even ride a bike) and i dont have a car because we have 1 in family and it broke. so im gonna have to ask one of them to. give me a ride 🙂 but i dont want to say no. i have to grind the "good workplace enviroment" because if i dont it wont ever feel *okay* to work.

i was talking with my brother and he was complaining about the daughter of the owner of his job. he said he doesnt like her because "she's lunatic, one day she's your best friend, one day she doesnt even talk to you" and i realized im probably that one person at work. i talk when i want which is not every time.

is it that bad in the eyes of the majority of people?? i never really realized it. i even though that it was good that sometimes we talk because i wouldnt talk to them like. ever. theyre so so bland and talk about boys, ibiza, clubbing or shitalking people they know (and i dont). i tried to make friends so i ask aboht them about these things and listening. i talk about me too. but i really dont care. its not a friendship that gives me anything excpt for not feeling like highschool freak when we work.

i dont get it. what do this kind of people want? they dont include you in their talk but if you dont force yourself in them youre a lunatic. so you either suffer from being excluded or suffer from looking desperate to talk to them

this rly brings me back to highschool. uhg. i havent experienced this in a few years because i guess i surrounded myself with people way different from them. good

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chiistarri · 3 months

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what if instead of messaging me in the middle of the night about your stupid fucking girlfriend and your stupid fucking problems with her you actually act like my fucking friend and message me like how you message everyone else in our group

#bye ignore my venting bigger problems what fucking ever #im sick of her ass she only messages us for us to help her with her fucking girlfriend problems like we arent even friends atthis fckn point #and i love her shes so funny whatever but god shes literally the worst because i just want to be friends i dont fucking care ab her goddamn #selfish ass gf thats shes obsessed with. be obsessed tell me about it but cant we be friends ab other stuff too #we used to be her 'favorite friend' cause we shared so many interests and we hung around what fucking ever but fuck that right #get a gf and just use us to help better yalls relationship without even telling her you're sharing her private msgs w us huh yeah sure #what fucking ever im so done with this bitch and i cant even get my contacts out cause i have long nails and im js poking my eye #AND SHE WOULD NEVER BE SORRY if our friendship fell apart she would tell everyone i was jealous of her gf or what ever i literally dont care #she was like an older sister before i dont get why getting a gf would have to change shit like ok good for u but what ab us #what about me its not even fucking fair like is it that hard to keep up w ur friends?? NO its fucking not #taking me so long to write a post bc im still fucking helping her with her stupid dumb selfish idiotic gf omfg #just BREAK UP i literally dont fucking care just leave her if she makes u unhappy its literally online tf is she gonna do to u nothing omfg #why am i the one being punished when shes the one with the stupid dumb gf that hates her and herself i dont fucking care i js want m friend #and i cant tell any of our mutual friends cause she dont do that to them its js me so itd be like im being dramatic #and like shit i guess i am but i dont care atp thats all she ever talks to me ab like ok i get it i helped u but stop jfc #but if i said that we'd never talk again bc what fucking ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cause im just dramatic whatever #if u cant resolve these simple problems of communication on ur own then maybe u shouldnt be in a relationship idk js my thoughts! die #sry the 1 person who knows what xactly i mean is asleep and im so tired of getting late night msgs being like hii can u help me SHUT UP #id love to help if we were actually still fucking friends but we arent so js leave me alone bruh #post #nickpost #will delete in morning my mom keeps telling me to put my phone down bt i need 2 say smfh 2 some1 #i hate change i hate slight differences in my normal day to day i hate everything i hate not having smth to rely on i hate change i hate it #sry im alg now im js sick of her ass js leave bruh #nimbhe my moms yelling im tired anyway i need to js isolate myself forever no problems if im on an island alone #living my best life in the shade drinking idk water or whatever and just talking to myself bc who even needs friends right!!!!!!!!#its 11:11 make a wjsh #adding more cz whatever im deleting this ltr anyway #its so clear where i stand with everyone cause its always close but not close enough friendly but not friends and i guess its the same w her #bye im out of tags etc whatever nobody matching my freak ever never comfortable in any friendships

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l-cereta · 6 months

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Feelin sad

#Ok I’m feeling like less than well which is probably influencing my emotional state — this too will pass & whatnot #but it’s rlly. Sad I guess. It’s just sad?#That like I am never the most important person to anyone else. Everyone else has like partners and best friends #& wow I’d love one of those but everyone else seems to have gotten to each other first #I cant expect them to change & i don’t want to like tear apart relationships or anything & i know people do care about me #but it’s just like. There’s always someone else they care abt more. Like i love my roommate and it loves me #but it also loves its long-distance girlfriend who it’s 90% of time on call with #my other two closest friends are in a relationship with each other & then like every other friend and person I care about who cares abt me #cares abt someone else more #I wish I could live with someone who cared about me and would ask me about my day and actually care about the response #or hold me when I was feeling down or even god forbid kiss me and tell me how much they cared about me #guess I’ve gotta wait a few more years for that tho

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boombams · 9 months

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dont u love it so much when u just burst into tears with how much u love everyone in your life

#really having a moment there fr i love my girlfriend i love my friends i love my sibling theres so many people i love #ok i was actually crying pretty hystercially for a second omg ahh #i feel better tho ..#hae speaks nonsense

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roryzs · 11 months

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the one thing about toh is now i crave more kids that seem cool at first but they’re actually huge dorks. and this becomes progressively more apparent as the series goes on as it should be