#but im tryinf to be free...

[bayonetta-origins]

bittergiggle design thing... dont expect me to post him again because i genuinely dont like him #Sorry

dont repost reblogs ok

[5h0w1sh]

Cover Page!

[starrzby]

HEY YOU

YES,YOU

I'm doing requests,so feel free to ask or do any requests!:p

Preferably maintain the topics on tf2, I'm okay with ships,so don't be afraid to ask!!

Fluff is always welcome as well:3

[gendereyestransdragon]

Since you asked me about Astral earlier....I wanna know what you like about Mizael! You can yap and ramble for as long as you want to I'd love to read it!

Well only if that's alright with you that is, it's completely okay if not, feel free to ignore this if you don't want to ^^

omg omg omg mizael yap time

I'm freaking obsessed with this boys trust issues and separation from his own humanity omg(not to mention how suited to zexal specifically this makes him, yknow, it being a show all about the good in humanity and forgiveness and relationships and identity and stuff)

I also adore how he's introduced and this big strong bad guy and slowly shown to be the post pathetic shit-for-brains motherfucker ever.

his backstory and how it impacts his character frick man, humans frequently being in his life as a source of pain and trauma and betrayal whereas jinlong literally saved his life causing his current mindset witb distain for humans and reverence for dragons

I love every single one of his duels in the barian onslaught arc omg, the narrative told through them is just too good. first off we have tachyon being taken in his duel with the arclight brothers(and his subsequent freakout). then omg omg, HTE WAY THIS IS FOLLOWDD UP ON IN MOON DUEL. when hes told by kaito that tachyon is just a tool of don thousands to manipulate him and he says that tachyon "would never betray him like that" DESPITE THE FACT THAT LITERALLY IN HIS PRIOR DUEL THAT HE JUST FINISHED LIKE FIVE MINUTES AGO IN UNIVERSE TACHYON WAS USED AGAINST HIM.

(also sidenote, I love how mizaels unwavering trust in his dragons despite betrayal mirrors yumas faith in humanity and constant forgiveness offered to anyone and everyone).

plus then in his duel with Don thousand when his dragons are used against him by don k just like how his villagers were in his past life FUCK MAN. and then as he dies he says he "found something to believe in" functionally signaling him understanding the belief in the inherent good in humanity that is so pivotal to the shows themes, because really humanity is no different from dragons, mizael may be betrayed by them but that doesn't mean he's gonna stop believing in them FUCK

I'm also never getting over just how stupid and angry he is, and how he kinda just,, atops thinking when he gets upset. that moment when he horrendously displays by chaos drawing the seventh one while tachyon is an equip is genuinely just amazing, plus HIM LITERALLY TRYINF TO DO THE YUGIOG EQUIVALRNT OF SUICIDE BOMB *GOD* IM NEVER FUCKING GETTING OVER THAT HELLO?

also I would just love to mention how well designed both him and tachyon are, tachyon feels almost out of place in his deck, it's so weirdly mechanical in a way that really emphasizes that it was created to imitate something mizael loves to manipulate him augh it's so good. also its effect being referred to as going back in time?? in the show about allowing the past to stay in the past so you can live in your present and think to the future?? hello?? Just fucking go right for the throat then huh.(also this relating to his distrust of humans due to being unable to let go of past betrayals aughhh)

as for mizaels design, omg. most the other barians have pretty consistent color palettes between their different forms, but MIZAEL? despite his barian form being primarily yellow, he dresses mostly in monochrome in his human form, showing how he doesn't think of it as /himself/. plus the gems on his vest, shirt, and boots which feel reminiscent of the gems that barians have all over their bodies(this design aspect also being used on shark as a form of foreshadowing hehe), showcasing how he's trying to make his human form resemble his barian form, to die for. he's also notably VERY covered up(gloves, long sleeves, turtleneck(yeah ik the turtleneck is sometimes omittsd depending on the animator but idc)), and has funky little tats on his face, making it feel like hes trying to hide his human body so he doesn't have to acknowledge the human part of himself. (note:I am not saying that people who dress covered up or have body mods irl secretly hate themselves, I am just saying that this is how that design aspect is used specifically for mizael, please do not misinterpret my words on tumblr dot com)

ALSO his hair, him trying to project his identity outward in any way possible to overpower how human he is and how incongruous that is with with his identity, causing his hair to change in his human form so that tHE BACK OF HIS HAIR LITERALLY FORMS AN 'M', YOU CANNOT TELL ME THAT ISNT ADORABLE

I also rly like just how much an asshole he is lmao. like how he's constantly shown insulting alit and gilag, like him telling them to "just try their best" when handing them the sphere cubes BRO. and then when alit gets hurt and mizael clearly does actually care on some level based on his expression but he refuses to show it and has to be all tsundere about it and ends up just calling alit pathetic for getting beat up LMAOOO(zero fucking social skills or emotional intelligence, love an autistic king), and then him indirectly calling durbe a coward during sargasso fuck offffff

also his intense one sided beef with vector is so fucking funny, like threatening to feed him to his dragon and trying to break his nonexistent nose, it's forever hilarious to me that whoever was writing his game bios felt that this was an important enough character detail to mention it(with vector literally being mentioned BY NAME in some of mizaels bios)

this ended up super disorganized and rambly lol, oopsie

[meowrimo]

TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMORROW!

TOMORROW!

I LOVE YA! TOMORROW!

YOU’RE ONLY A DAY AWAAAAAYYYYYY!!!

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STOP IM SO HEKSJDKDJDKD JUMPING AROUND WITH JOY WHILE SIMULTANEOUSLY TRYINF TO BREAK FREE FROM WORK LMFAOOO i cant believe it waaaah i love you so much 🫂🫂🫂🤍🤍🤍

[pixiecaps]

ok yay im free TEHYRE TRYINF CRUMBL OMG

[skittlespizza]

SHAKING YOU AND SENDING YOU POSITIVE REINFORCEMENT ASKS m i need you to know you've genuinely inspired me to start being myself while out in public more often and give less of a shit what other people think. i wear kandi and cringy t-shirts and talk about my interests with friends and everytime i start slipping or feeling like i shouldn't, you somehow perfectly time a post about being unapologetically yourself and just having fun with life and it makes me try again. genuinely don't let any of the callout bullshit get to you, me and all my friends have ended up exploring interests we hadn't considered before through your amazing writing. fuck it you ball 🔥🔥

OK THIS IS AWSSOMEEEE??? IF I EVEN MADE ONE OTHER PERSON CRINGIER AND MORE FREE THEN THATS A#WIN LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOO SKITTLESPIZZA NATION WE ARE SOOOO BACK

Geniunely im happy ur able to feel confident in your interests and that makez me so happy... i was sooo unhappy when i was tryinf to be essentislly a basic shy hard to dislike girl because people liked me for someone who wasnt me. Be weird be a freak and be #awesome forever.

[g0om]

GUYS IM SO EXCITED i was very sceptical abt this swimming pool bc mom said it used to b bad but its like its an open

pool but has a tent over it in the winter and google says its not that cold and they say that the changing rooms are "retro" but our one at home litearly has so many roaches so nothing can scare me away!!! and omg im litearly excited like i feel happy hormones in my brain bc its cheaper its like 5 min walk from my dorm the lanes r free unlike the other swimming pool im very quirous how many ppl will. b there but the ticket and cabinet system sounds similar to the one we have at home and honestly the toehr ine is like 20??? minutes away or even more bc i take a bus then walk and its expensive and only the 25 meter pool is ever open and im kind of concerened thst there might be a lot of ppl i really hope theres not but also in the simmer like off tent period there probably is more but i can go in the beforenoon yeqaah im just excited tryinf not to get my hopes up too much

[director-yomi-hellsmile]

tryinf to figure out a way to walk that does not hurt like shit....... Soon im going to bed so I'll be free though........................

[ridragon]

I've been getting the weirdest and most specific delusions that i can't shake. Maybe writing them down will help.

dont read if sensitive to unreality probably wouldny be good also warning this is a ramble

the delusion is that right now, I am a dementia/alzheimers patient hallucinating the past. i only see what I want to see. Everything my brain can think of to justify the delusions it uses. such as "you watched such and such video it was telling you xyz" or "this conversation was a hint" I'm actually far into.thr future. what I'm experiencing exacrly jumps between a few things.

1) Some sort of medican technology is letting me live in simulation as I die irl black mirror style

2) I am dying right now and reliving the past and will soon dissapear (then the thoughts about being terrified of this. the idsa of no afterlifenis a while other anxiety of mine.)

3) everyone around is just placating me, some person just hallucinating inna care home or something. (you're supposed to do this for dementia patients. but i want to know the truth. but wouldny i rather live in the fantasy? but i want the truth but id fprget the truth anyway

every time i come up with a way to disprove the delusion it loops around to count that as evidence. I can *feel* my mind refusing to acceot the truth and twisting it into the delusion, but I can't stop it, despite knowing it's happening, trapped in my own mind (which then becomes another bit of evidence, and another bit of evidence, you get the idea, its trying to twist this post into evidence too. if my partner comforts me its because i told them to just pretend it never happened before, or to cry and be happy that i actually broke free but they actually didn't so that's evidence. again. i hate rhis. i hate being simultaneously aware and undwr its spell. is that what I'm tryinf to erase? and then fighting? or is that what the delusion wants me to think. another cycle see?

another one is that every like, true crime video i watched was actually secretly about me and I'm just an old person imagining this new life for myself but I'm acrually fucking. ted bundy or the guy that died in nutty putty cave.

another is im the creator of xyz thing i like and the simulation or memories are using it to "prove" to me my ideas are good by... erasing that i made them for an unbiased opinion? thats the weirdest most nonsense one.

another is the classic "I'm fictional this is fiction" that unfortunately has been being triggered a lot more recently due to pokemon irl and i really really dont wanna quit because of this stupid brain of mine because it brings me so mich joy to be ij that community

one very specific one was causdd by a creepypasta i read once called the egg i think. its that the mc is actually every single person on earth and just being reborn as someone else each time defying time and such. that would mean eceryone i care about dont exist and i purposefully got my mind erased becayze i couldnt livd wigt that reality, and its happened before, and its happening again, and itll just kesp cycling ill realizeband ask to know the truth and then cant handle the fruth and get my mind erased, continuing yet another thought cycle.

usually it swings between all of them. sometimes multiple or every one at once. i used to really love weed but it makes the feelings worse now and i think is a big contribuor to them becomingmore frequent. unfortunately i am Addicted so I gotta learn to quit. i guess

it is what it is. all the worry amd anxiety about being dementia patient trapped in their own mind being the thing trapping me in my own mind. what a wild ride.

i guess maybe its a DID thing but it's so weird to be in a delusion but also be aware of the delusion at the same time. having two minds at the same time is impossible to describe.

[yumenikke]

overwatch oc???? their name is atash and theyre tajik! they heal using smoke from fire

[sunstar121]

got invited to join a new dnd party the other day and I immediately had to sketch up my character :3!!!!!! meet calder fisker they're a thembo disaster being exploited by a fake kraken xoxoxo

[you-dont-count]

feels like ive had nothing worthwhile to share w the class lately. sorry i had the worst allergic reaction of my life then i got the rona. there will be nothing worthwhile in the near future thanks babes stay swaggy

[kr1llz]

does any1 have the link to that one post that had a ton of piracy links on it including a place to watch anime

[phocids]

I HAVE OFFICIALLY DROPPED THE IB DIPLOMA!

[closertosehun]

calling all xunqis

xunqis reblog/like this post so we can follow each other 😌😌