#but it'd be nice u know

[nataliawoods]

i've spent so much time and trial & error learning to cut my own hair because every time i go to a hair stylist i end up with beach waves. i bring photos of the 60s haircut i want, say i do not want a modern twist on it plz, and instead of pattie boyd i come out with 2010 vanessa hugdens every time. i just don't get it :(

[samanthamulder]

THE X-FILES (1993-2018)

SEASON ELEVEN — It’s time to face the facts, guys. This is the end of the X-Files. But maybe the point wasn’t to find the truth, but to find each other. For no matter where we go in our lives, we will always have the memories of our time together, and no one can take those away.

[magicaldreamfox1]

so i'm just thinking abt the reputation pete must have post-canon among main family bodyguards.

like as we know from pete himself, word travels fast amongst main family bodyguards and there must be a few who survived the ep 14, confrontation. obviously people would've known pete at least in passing, he's tankhun's head bodyguard that must mean something. and suddenly he's missing for a few days, rumour has it he went to the minor family's house (with the fit tankhun threw (rightfully so) surely people would've heard abt it right? right) and everyone knows what happens to bodyguards who are sent to the minor family's house. except pete returns and word spreads fast about that too. pete returned, covered in blood and injured but alive. then the family showdown happens, a lot of people die but surely a few main family bodyguards would survive. and they would hear abt it. pete left. he resigned. and they let him. which i'm sure not many bodyguards can say for themselves. rumour has it he went after vegas. and then shot a bodyguard of the main family dead for him. and that he's with vegas now.

vegas who has A Reputation, everyone knows that. so pete not only made it out of the minor family's house alive, he also managed to resign and then went to be with vegas.

and maybe they'd even see him sometime, pete coming to visit porsche or tankhun and he looks fine like he's doing well.

and like. they must be terrified of him. and like even when they get new bodyguards word would spread just as quickly. u don't fuck with pete bc pete has seen the worst of the worst of this world and not only come out alive the other end, he also willingly walked back right into it.

[khaotunq]

hey hi i meant to do this ages ago, but if y'all wouldn't mind, go show some love to Shash, who podficced two of my Boston-centric stories? (their voice is so measured and soothing to listen to btw)

[Podfic] there's an end to my horizon by shash_reads (sunkitten_shash)

[Podfic] two parallel lines by shash_reads (sunkitten_shash)

[sp4cepunisher]

thinking about giving ellie a hug — and i’m talking like, your arms draped around her neck and hers squeezing around your waist, (not too tightly, but just enough for you to feel protected and, like? wanted? if that makes any sense at all idfk i’m just rambling because i literally just had this thought) with her chin resting on your shoulder — just to hear that fucking mennacingly pretty, freckly lesbian who usually appeared so dissatisfied, so annoyingly unfazed by pretty much everything!!! the one who never seemed to be affected by the unremarkable, mumble, “you smell really good.” 

pleeeeeeease oh my god

[giantkillerjack]

Uh-oh! You are like, SOOO awkward!!

You're so awkward that it is occasionally mildly uncomfortable for people!

You're so awkward that sometimes people are confused by you and then there are awkward silences!

You're so awkward ...... that ultimately no one is harmed!!

Oh damn!!! What a vile crime you have committed! What an unforgivable thing it is to make a fellow human briefly confused!

Why, if *I* were ever briefly confused and kind of uncomfortable as a result, I'd be devastated.... by the absolute net zero change in my happiness and health! - From which I might never recover!! Yes indeed! No punishment can ever be enough for you!!

So you better absolutely hate yourself for it.

Better be SO MEAN to yourself about every single missed social cue so you don't forget your horrible crime! Meaner than you'd ever dream of being to someone else for the same thing! This is YOUR responsibility!

Better accept that idea that bullies carry like guns in holsters - the idea that people who have trouble with social cues should suffer. Better carry on the burden they placed on you. Aid the cause of the callous by enforcing shame and suffering upon yourself extra hard; try your best to do their work for them. They're very busy.

Better not recognize that you need patience and kindness to heal from your trauma. Better not find out that it was trauma rather than personal weakness filling your head with self-hating thoughts. Better not find out it wasn't your fault.

Better not find out that awkwardness is not inherently harmful or unkind, and, in fact, the people who act like it is *are the ones enacting harm and being cruel.*

Better not get righteously angry when you realize just how much unnecessary damage this has done to you. After all, if you get mad, you might realize you deserve better. You might even feel brave enough to DEMAND better! You might build boundaries that keep you safe! You might make other people think they deserve to feel safe too! And we obviously can't be having that, so...

Better not show yourself even a little kindness a little bit at a time.

Better not make a habit out of it after all that practice.

Better not get confident.

Especially if you can't first wipe out every trace of awkward. (And you probably never will. Because people who experience absolute social certainty at all times tend to be insufferable assholes that enforce the status quo. And you just don't have the stock portfolio for that.)

Better not be confident and awkward because then you might confuse and delight people

- you might accidentally end up making other people feel less shame for their social difficulties

- you might make isolated, traumatized, and shy people feel like they deserve to be included in social situations

- you might even make them feel they can be themselves around you

- you might start loving the effect you have on a room

- you might enjoy conversations more

- you might forgive yourself and bounce back from shame more easily and frequently

- you might come to enjoy some of those moments of harmless confusion you cause because NOBODY expects the Confident Awkward, and that can genuinely be an advantage in social situations

- you might stop apologizing so much.

- you might find that socializing is like a video game: it requires practice but also a safe space for it to be fun and positive.

Or if you can't become assertive and confident, better not remain awkward and shy and quiet, and then love and forgive yourself anyway!

Why, it would be carnage!!

In either scenario, you run the risk of finding out that it's not your fault that safe spaces full of kind people can be really hard to find, create, and nurture. You could end up building a skillset that helps you do those things!

- You might realize that it was never your fault that it took so long to like yourself.

- You might realize that you were always worth talking to, even when you didn't like yourself and communication felt impossibly difficult.

- You might realize that you'll still be worth talking to even if communication becomes harder as you age and/or experience disability.

- You might know that you deserve to be heard even on bad days when words come slow and blurry.

You might discover that you were always deserving of kindness, first and foremost from yourself.

So. As you can see, it's FAR too much of a risk to take to cut your awkward self some slack for your many heinous and harmless crimes. Better to just leave it there.

[ilikeyoshi]

so this isn't an emergency or life or death or anything but i have literally $0 in my checking account right now. i'm unable to work due to a disability that's been worsening for the past three years, but my doctors have yet to find a specific diagnosis, and in my state i can't get disability aid without it. my living expenses are handled with money from my mom that would normally be going toward my inheritance, and i get about $50 a month from her as well so i have spending money; $15 of this goes to subscriptions.

baldur's gate 3 just came out this month and everything about it looks so so so fun, but due to my situation i wouldn't be able to afford it until october. obviously this isn't an emergency, but i've been really sad about it; i LOVE dungeons and dragons but due to my fluctuating health i'm not sure i could handle more than one campaign right now, especially because i've been trying to start dming a second one for years.

i'd love a game where i could scratch that dnd itch as needed without dragging a whole group of people into it, since i'm just not sure i could commit to that; but something that only needs me to play means i could do so whenever i was having a good fatigue/pain day.

if i posted a ko-fi or venmo link, would you guys consider sparing a little money towards a $10 goal? if i can scrounge up $10 this month, i'll be able to afford the game next month if i cancel my subscriptions for september. if i could get to $25, i wouldn't even have to cancel the subscriptions. and if i miraculously hit $60, i could get the game immediately.

it'd be a huge boost after what has been an especially bad month for my disability; i've spent more time stuck in bed than not. but it's NOT an emergency and i want to make that clear. i'd be overjoyed if i can play this sooner than later, so if that's worth it to you, it'd be amazing. ;_; but please don't feel pressured!

please let me know? <3

[cinna-bunnie]

re:self perception, I feel like that one drawing where the person is Very lesbian from head to toe but like she lost her pin or her bracelet broke or something and she’s like “oh no how will people be able to tell now ):” except me with being trans.

except my analog for the pin is I’m just not in makeup or making slightly more of an effort to dress fem. like idk, shaved face alone I already feel really pretty and own so few masculine looking outfits so idk? (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠) I would hope I don’t come across as cis esp interacting with other trans ppl lol.

anyways, at least on here I feel like we’re afraid to talk to other trans ppl on the street bc we don’t want to out/clock them but we also desperately want to be Seen and interacted with by other trans folk when we’re out. idk... is getting clocked by another trans person rly even that bad? would we not be rly happy to have another trans person pick us out from the crowd and be excited to talk to us? Personally I don’t rly care about “passing” and all the implicit standards around it and just kinda see clocking as a neutral “i can tell”.

street etiquette is confusing. idk what the answer is or even what my question is exactly, I just know there’s a lot of trans ppl out there who wish they knew More trans ppl and that we’re also kind of afraid to interact with each other when we’re out. what’s up with that?

these r just some silly passing thoughts so don’t read too much into it, but ykwim though?

[recovering-vamp]

dating sim (VN or CYOA... hmmm) with a mostly/exclusively fat character cast... with lots of cool gender + poly inclusive... this would be nice. mayhaps time to put my RenPy or Twine love to use... idk what sort of thing. just. might be nice to stretch the coding muscles again.

[hopemp3]

they call me the girl who can never let things go

[yume-fanfare]

btw today on super crazy news im actually almost done with the trks filming comic

[gothamcityneedsme]

finished my soul hackers 2 replay yyayyy. i bought the story dlc and i liked the sidequests, the superboss was kinda disappointing though, not for gameplay, they were incredibly difficult, but like. i expected at least a little lore or nana involvement in the end and there was neither which was sort of odd.

[lunarharp]

outside the sanctum of lady edelgard's parlour - that birthplace of so many plots through the years - how absurd it seems. but now several seasons since the long war's end, needs be that someone go to leicester. the gesture has grown necessary, and ultimately, it does have to be him.

"and you. I want you with me," is how hubert concludes. simple is best, perhaps. ferdinand sits very still before him, hand over mouth. "look - this was never my idea. but I also can't downplay your role. I hope I've elucidated how valuable your presence would be."

"you - you really have. I," and he takes a strong sip of wine, then another. (hubert pours a generous replacement.) "excuse me." he then moves to the adjoining room, and paces rapidly for a good many minutes.

this is as difficult for me as it is for you, is what hubert longs to call, fingers pressed to his temple. but he has already put that mortification aside out of necessity, and his duty now is to affect total calm. he must not distract from the seriousness of the endeavour, nor the confidence lady edelgard has imparted in them.

ferdinand doesn't need to know that he needed a full day to process the idea.

 "hubert, dorothea once confided in me a worry. that if I were to wish you marry, whosoever I commanded you take as your partner you would accept. well, I ask you now to put on the act."

a ~17k T-rated ferdibert fic for the “fake dating” prompt 🧡 🖤

link!

[worstloki]

AU where pre-Thor 1 Thor ends up in a universe where Jotunheim and Asgard were making a peace treaty where Loki and Thor get married.

[britomart]

unfortunately i rlly wanna get some stupid skeleton fingerless gloves but idk if they'd arrive in time 😭❤️‍🩹

[citresse]

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐚𝐠 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬 ;

send any of the following for a headcanon about the muse. 　　　　　(　fly high, caeldori !　🐦　)

　— this is how the arrow hunts the hunter, whispers solitude as it flies.　　how do they define family? what differentiates this from friends, significant others, or other types of relationships?

　— his body hung for death, and the muses called him atlas.　　what do they value more than their own life? what would happen if they could no longer have it?

　— hope is an incurable hemophilia; you bleed and bleed and bleed.　　what keeps them going on their darkest nights, when everything seems lost and there appears to be nothing left for them no matter where they turn?

　— the sun-flower, weary of time, contests the burning steps of the sun.　　what are their short-term goals? long-term goals? do they foresee any of these changing down the road?

　— the wolf who cried girl, wearing the clothes of the dead that raised her.　　what are their views on fighting, conflict, and violence? where do these views come from?

　— he was merely borrowing the space between scars, falling in love with life where he could.　　how much do they rely on faith to see things through, or do they need concrete evidence before taking a leap? why?

　— forgive me father, for i have dreamed a dream where blindfold and bandage were one.　　what would be the worst possible punishment they could receive, something to be avoided at all costs? why?

　— the angel, who does not yet speak the language of bodies, is afraid.　　what is the one trait, goal, or core belief without which they would not be who they are today?

　— remember that poppies grow already carrying the colors of war.　　is there any part of who they are that is a compensation for something missing? i.e. compensation for something they can't be or have; compensation for something someone else can't be; etc.

　— scion of history, true love, & other such poisons.　　how do they feel about stories with happy endings? do they find them reassuring? repulsive? saddening? why?

　— his fall was decidedly icarian, man-made and free of fear.　　in general, have they followed the path that was set out for them, or have they fought against it and chosen something different? what influenced their choice?

　— his is the religion of the ticking heart, a grenade of everything language has no room for.　　in what ways have they had to take care of and fend for themselves, and in what ways have they been nurtured by others? how does this balance influence who they are?