#but know that he also does that! allll the sweet messages

[sideeve]

hiiiii

i just wanted to send a message cause your vent kinda hit home for me as im sure it hit you 10x worse, imma just talk in points cause i talk in circles so yea 😅

- your writing, everybody has a writing block and feels sometimes their work isn’t good enough, a hiatus is always recommended don’t feel forced to write anything

- idk about your relationship so i don’t wanna dig too deep into it but if it’s anything of him not talking to you or anything he may wants to give you space because he knows something wrong with you or he distancing himself for other reasons

- stop looking at his exes page, it’s not worth it allll. comparing yourself never ends up good. no matter the body comparison or face comparison you’re always gonna feel a certain way but that’s okay as long as your comfortable in your body.

- i noticed you said you don’t know if you be alive before your boyfriend and ex, and while i hope that joke to feel better i hope you aren’t having suicidal tendencies or thoughts, i understand having doubts about everything and anything about yourself may hurt but you need to be able to have level head, if you are feeling suicidal something i did when i felt the same, i would keep a count of how many thoughts i had of unaliving or relapsing and make it a goal of keeping those thoughts at bay, i wouldn’t recommend doing it through an all but rather on paper. (for me to stop it took two years )

- with becoming into you head and letting thoughts consume you, you may feel like you can’t function. all you need to know it’s okay to shut down and not want to do anything, sometimes it’s okay for your body and yourself as in your conscious to relax, take a break and work on yourself, try different hobbies other than writing and try to keep it often so while relaxing your always moving away from thoughts you wanna keep away

- with weight loss i can understand completely, i had two ed’s back to back and trying to healthily eat was hard and it’s still hard. if you’re naturally skinny it’s gonna be like this all the time, gaining and frequently losing weight, same thing your plus size. but start with small meals, they don’t even have to be meals!!, have snacks that can constantly eat without getting a sweet tooth. drinking things can also help, mostly cranberry juice and it can be any variation. what also helps is it just being able to give into your desires, be a gluttonous, and random meals during the day can help also, don’t use a scale!! that’s your worse friend, let your body gain the weight it needs to

- cry, cry everyday if you need to, talk to yourself or someone about everything you’re feeling, scream it into your pillow, speak it out. it makes you feel better even if you don’t feel like it does in the moment. it definitely helps. getting ahold of your emotions helps you become emotionally intelligent. crying is one way of releasing built stress and other emotions.

ik i yapped a lot but i can’t stand to see someone hurting in such an important time in their life (i saw your blog said level 16, so i’m guessing you’re 16) and remember these are normal teenage emotions and it’s okay to be a teenager about it. i hope your okay and know your loved by anyone

i hope this finds you well <33333

thank you very much.

-i even cried while reading this ngl😭i had talked it over with him and he and i came to the conclusion we are distancing ourselves because of mental issues going on in our lives and on top of that, not being able to see each other :(

-the eating situation is due to body dysmorphia, my mind constantly telling me how fat i am (tho i’m literally under 140 at this point)

thank you for even writing this all out for me😭❤️it helped me more than you know

[saeran-imagines]

Hi! I read some of your work and got totally mesmerized hahaha I'm so happy someone's still active and having request open. (Also sorry if it's not the right place to ask this but I'm bad at using tumblr). But I wondered if you could write something about a reader suffering from depression/hinting often at suicide for the smallest things, with Ray or Saeran GE . If it's a trigger it's fine you don't have to do it!

Awhh thank you so much!!  ❤ I’ll hopefully be a lot more active in the near future since I don’t have so much work to do, sorry about the wait! I hope you like them!

Edit: Didn’t say which Saeran I’m writing for OOPS! This is for GE Saeran :D If you want Ray too feel free to ask!

⚠️ Warning for depression and (very light) mentions of suicide ⚠️

He’d be REALLY concerned at even the slightest hint of suicidal thoughts. You’re the most important person in his life, his love and sunshine, and he can’t lose you. The second your life is in danger he’d strongly encourage you to seek outside help. He’d move mountains and part the sea for you if he could, but he knows there’s only so much he can do on his own.

That said, he knows all too well how hard it is to ask for help. It’s a struggle for him to talk to anyone outside you and the RFA, and even that’s difficult at times. If it’s too scary to talk to a therapist he’d be happy to go with you, even if it’s just to silently hold your hand and make sure the therapist respects your boundaries.

Saeran may not have depression specifically, but he’s been through enough emotional turmoil that he’s built up a little toolbox of coping mechanisms over the years. He’ll try all of them out with you, and if none of them work out he’s always looking for more that might help. 

When he hears you talking bad about yourself he helps you spin it into something positive. “I don’t like this part of my body” turns into “this makes me unique,” and “I can’t do anything right” turns into “noticing my mistakes means I’m learning from them.” He can be a bit… well, very cheesy, but it’s hard to disagree with him when he flashes his signature sweet smile and softly strokes your cheek while he tells you everything he likes about you.

He’s happy to stay in bed and cuddle when you’re having a bad day, but if you’re feeling up to it he’ll want to do something fun with you. If moving is hard he’ll encourage you to get dressed and come out to the living room to watch a movie. He’ll help you out, of course! He’s always wanted to see if he’s strong enough to carry you. If you have some spare energy he’ll suggest baking or cooking something together, and if you’re feeling even more adventurous he’ll want to go outside with you. From his own experience he knows that a change in environment can break the cycle of thoughts that threaten to drag you down. Gardening is his own personal escape, he’ll work with you to find yours :)

If you DO just need comfort he’ll pull you into his arms, play with your hair, and massage circles into your back until you feel better. If you want a distraction he’ll ramble about whatever’s on his mind. He especially loves planning out your next trip and coming up with activities for when you’re there, he writes all of your ideas down in a little travel journal (complete with stickers, of course.) He’ll give you something to look forward to, even if it’s as small as trying the new flavor at your local bubble tea shop or going to the grocery store to pick out treats for your next movie night.

Apple’s lil note under the cut (feel free to ignore this if you don’t want my little depression pep talk hehe)

I’ve had my own struggles with depression and I hope this helps you (and everyone else reading this who’s going through the same stuff!) Here’s your usual reminder to call the hotline if thoughts turn into plans or actions ❤ BUT it’s not always easy to call the hotline. They’re wonderful people and they want to help you but calling people is HARD!! I’ve always been too anxious for it, my escape has always been reading headcanons like these 😊 SO here’s my own little hot tips for horrible days-

Here’s a checklist to go through when you’re feeling bad, sometimes the mood booster I need is just getting a snack or putting some clothes on and this list is a good reminder!

If you’re feeling hopeless try and plan something to do in the next few days, something that might get you excited to wake up tomorrow. It can be something super small, I have a lot of beads so I might choose making bracelets.

On the bracelets note, making something is a good outlet because it can give you something to be a little proud of. It can even be something like building something in minecraft or cooking a meal :)

Anyways life is hard and I hope my writing can make it a little less hard! Remember that Saeran loves you and wants you to eat all your meals and take care of yourself 🥰

[tellywoodtrash]

balh2 31.08.21 lb

priya stops the auto to let ram in, but he's whisked away in the now-fixed car by his posse, and she's like yeahhhhhhh seems about right for rich ppl, and goes her way.

very subtle playing of song show title is based on. ram hums along happily while priya tells auto bhaiyya to pls turn it off. lol she really does hate any type of sentimentality, and i'm here for this peak grumpy girl representation.

blah blah time waste establishing ram's family. aaaaaaaaaand they have shubhaavi choksey playing his mom when she's the same age as him irl. wonderful. best. very nice. i'm not angry about this at all.

snobby rich ppl greeting exchange. air kisses missing.

priya comes home to discover maitreyi and her husband are visiting. she just ignores them and walks into her room.

meanwhile ram walks into heartache after heartache. ek toh sagaai went on without him, and shivi's toast is only for her other brother shubham and her mom and her besties. (one of whom looks very familiar, where do i know her from???????) anyway someone give ram a (non-vegan) cupcake to feel better from having a shitty fam.

vedu notices ram and points him out to shivi, who's suddenly all RAM BHAIIIIIIIIIIIII, MY BIGGEST SUPPORTERRRRRRRR. pssssh.

oh btw, that fucker who wanted to use that totally non happening video for blackmail seems to be vedu's husband/???

ponky from naagin 5 is a friend of ram's. but he's a literal fetus???? i'd have thought he was a younger brother ala rudra.

priya's brother has his fucking shoes on her bed and mereko jo gussa aa raha hai na by goddddddd. YOU JUST CAME IN FROM THE FUCKING RAIN YOU DIRTYASS............

anyway priya's like idgaf that maitreyi married my ex bf.

"humein khush rehne ke liye kisi ki zaroorat nahi hoti." she's saying words i agree with, but show immediately cops out by showing her tearing up and blubbering "i don't need anyone, i'm fiiiiiiiiiine" unconvincingly. guh. idk if i'm gonna be able to watch this show if it keeps diluting its messages like this.

ram toh udhar giving lecture on baarish. BRO ENOUGH. I AM SO DONE WITH THIS TOPIC OF CONVERSATION. itna toh baarish se lagaan ke champaaner waalon ko pyaar nahi tha jitna iss show mein log karte hain.

priya doing a very convincing mimickry of kinda pretentious maitreyi to entertain one new younger sibling. how many fucking siblings does priya have??????? (too fuckin many, is the answer.)

i do not appreciate the characterization of ram's chamcha friend's wife as a nagging ball and chain type.

new mangatar and bitchy shubham are snidely remarking about ram and his bechaara broken dil thanks to vedika.

ok if shivaay was obnoxiously self assured, ram is just......... almost annoyingly roll over and show your belly type of soft and diplomatic and people pleasing. only extremes for nakuul sir i guess.

adi's wife (brinda?) catches him looking out into baarish and shedding a few silent tears, and she's here to nag HIM now about getting a wife. yes brinda, because you make marriage look like SUCHHHHH AN APPEALING PROSPECT.

ram's like no i don't need anyone and then wistfully stares at vedu saying i'll never find someone who loves like she does her husband.

brinda's like it's all fake, dude. real couples fight and argue and cuss at each other and wow.... i think brinda and adi might need couples' counseling coz..... you're not SUPPOSED to be so complacent about your marriage being so dysfunctional.

oh breakup was 6-7 saal pehle. ok yeah sir you should have gotten over it by now. therapy for you too.

NO NOT THE EK TARFA PYAAR KI TAAQAT SPEECH NO FUCKIN NO OK

SHUBHAAVI AS NAKUUL'S MOM WILL NEVER NOT ENRAGE ME. I NEVER THOUGHT IT'D GET WORSE THAN MANASI SALVI, BUT LOVE THAT TELLYWOOD MANAGES TO FUCKING ENRAGE ME WITH THIS SHIT WITH EVERY NEW SHOW.

priya refuses to have ice cream because of her principles against capitalism. which............... ok??? there's no ethical consumption under capitalism, sis. just eat the overpriced ice cream.

just realised that the eldest sister is played by the actress who was jai's elder sister in just mohabbat.

anyway eldest sister (sara) and youngest sister (sandy) are team!priya over maitreyi.

priya is as anti-shaadi as me and asks sara if she's happy (priya clearly doesn't think much of sara's husband who leaves all the child-rearing to her, in addition to running the bakery) and sara's like "maate, mujhpe mat shuru ho jaate, pls" snort. yeah, no one likes their bad choices rubbed in their faces.

oh, their dad ran away after allll the betiyaan and married someone else. zindagi gulzar hai sitch hai.

more of priya asserting that she's happy single and show undermining her with the music cues and character reactions. fuck this messaging. why can't it be that she's genuinely happy single and ram is just a good complementary partner she finds and decides to change her mind about marriage coz that's what they want for themselves. i hate this black and white nonsense.

sisters are forcing priya to go on a date (with whom?????) and the scene just cuts off awkwardly.

ram has PINK shoes on today. man this is so a nakuul thing, this one (1) atrangi styling element of an otherwise formally dressed man.

ram also being set up on date by adi/brinda. should be with someone else, i guess. i don't think brinda and priya run in the same circles.

ram is right in that the least these ppl could do is ask consent before setting it all up.

priya is grumpily refusing to do any thaam jhaam dress up for date. good for her.

lol @ sara trying to sneak away priya's beloved raincoat.

anyway psych 101 shit ki priya has confidence issues and is so down on herself that she rejects everyone before they can reject her.

lmao priya is me at hearing the date is in some hoity toity place where they give small portions for exorbitant amounts of money.

sara di gets call ki some "unhone" didn't pay their share of bakery emi? the nikkamma husband? or some other business partner??

priya is out on warpath to go confront that person.

she's psyching herself up outside their door. i think it's her dad?

OMG CHACHI FROM IMMJ2 LMAO, IS SHE THE SECOND WIFE?

ok dad's a rudeass fuck. he's all she's not my daughter, but all ready to dole out thappads when she says it like it is. sperm donors like these should be kneed in the nads.

idgi tho? there's ONE beta there tho???? is akshay not his biological son?????

anyway, priya is right in thinking men suck. #yesAllMen

precap: her date niiiiiiicely validates the misandry by being a fucking jerk. looks like ram is cheering her up in a sweet moment? priya catches akshay getting cosy with.... shivi i guess??? idk all these girls look the same to me. #faceblindness

[canadiankazz]

So... rather a lot happened in L.A. by Night, Season 3 Episode 2

Do you want to read my real reactions to the stuff with Jasper in the second half of the episode? Then read on...

I was messaging @cravatfiend​ while I was watching. She had seen the episode before me.

canadiankazz

OK I'M BACK LET'S GO PART 2

I’m so scared

I’m sorry I ship them too

I feel so guilty about it

He’s afraid to touch her!!!!

Omg are they going inside his sanctum??

Aaaaaaaahhhh

cravatfiend

I was FREAKING OUT at this

canadiankazz

Everyone gonna party at Jasper’s place

Aaaaah!!!!

WHERE WAS THIS DESCRIPTION WHEN I WAS WRITING?!?!

ARGH

cravatfiend

RIGHT?

canadiankazz

Fuck

At least everyone knows I wrote that before I saw this

He is awkward and adorable

Fuck

More knowledge dump

I love it but I wish I hadn’t written so much!!!

cravatfiend

I told you they're FUCKING WITH THE FANDOM TODAY

canadiankazz

I’m mad and in love at the same time

cravatfiend

Awww

canadiankazz

Because like... I couldn’t know but I wish I did

cravatfiend

Fair

canadiankazz

lol he explains all that about the cells to Eva then turns to Jason and says “the body is removed “

HE IS AN AWKWARD BOY AND I LOVE HIM

cravatfiend

Haha I loved that too

Also confirmed cellS

canadiankazz

Yup

He’s all fidgety!!

The ring came from her aww

cravatfiend

He's so adorably awkward with her rn

canadiankazz

Russian omg

I am screaming

I can’t!!!

Help

I had to pause it omg

cravatfiend

THIS IS WHY I SCREAMED INTO CHAT AND TIPPED YOU BOTH OFF

canadiankazz

Omg

He’s adorable

Pretty girl likes him and he’s all flustered

Bless him

Yeah fuck it, I ship them too

I feel bad but I can’t help it!!

cravatfiend

You can ship whoever you like! Shipping is not in anyway mutually exclusive.

canadiankazz

I know... just been first mate of the S.S. Jaspabelle for so long

I feel like I’m cheating

cravatfiend

Like I have little headcanons shipping a bunch of people as monogamous couples, and also as various poly combinations, and also as like hate sex and EVERYTHING

You still are matey!

canadiankazz

Omg he is making all kinds of noises right now and I can’t even

cravatfiend

So much GROWLING

canadiankazz

And stuttering

cravfiend

Yesssss

canadiankazz

Fucking trap door???

Argh

I’m so angry I didn’t know these things before!!

Maybe... there’s more than one door

cravatfiend

Could well be. But yeah that one made me punch the couch

canadiankazz

Like the metal one and the trap door

Sigh

Awww Abrams looking after Nelli!!!

Cute

cravatfiend

Yeah :3

canadiankazz

Awww they go dancing that’s cute

Omg back to it

I need to up my labyrinth description

cravatfiend

They did good with that in this ep

canadiankazz

Omg it’s like when you take a date through a haunted house

He is smitten

That mirror is so eerie

cravatfiend

To be fair if you are trying to impress Eva specifically 'Look at my big house and large number of occult books and special spooky magic maze' is an A+ way to do it!

canadiankazz

At least I have that part of his backstory right in my newer fic

cravatfiend

Which part?

canadiankazz

The vampire in torpor

cravatfiend

Yus

canadiankazz

Yeees thank you for this description Jason!!

And it has come before I wrote the chapter of what Jasper did to him

cravatfiend

He's on the ball this ep

canadiankazz

Thank god

cravatfiend

Woo!

canadiankazzT

Ooooh that thing about the lay lines is interesting

Jasper please

With the growling

He doesn’t like purple lol

He went to comfort her and pulled back awwww!!!

Aww he did it anyways!

cravfiend

:3

canadiankazz

They all know he does foolish things

Uh oh

His grunt of surprise at being lifted omg

I’m dead again

cravatfiend

The subtitlers will have a field day with this one

canadiankazz

lol yup

This mental image of them flying is too much

AWW

Come back whenever she wants omg

cravatfiend

Eeeee

canadiankazz

Aah kissyface!!!!

AHHHHH!!!!

Holy shit

cravatfiend

!!!!!

canadiankazz

Grrrrrrr

cravfiend

This is the bit where I screamed stuff and you read it!

canadiankazz

Yup

cravfiend

THEY WENT THERE

canadiankazz

There is more than one route thank god

They so went there!

Do not pass go, do not collect $200

"It's been a long time"

YUP

I SAID THAT

BUT

SMOOCHY

cravfiend

Smooooch

canadiankazz

DOES SHE SPEND THE NIGHT?

OH FUCK

YES

cravfiend

....

canadiankazz

BUT THERE'S ONE BED!

LOL OMG

well fuck me sideways

cravfiend

Well they've slow burned for so long ;)

canadiankazz

OMG THE BOOK OF NOD?

THIS IS A THING

RIGHT? THAT'S A THING

THAT'S A... ugh i can't remember it

but it's a thing

Daffodil in trouble lol

Chloe in trouble lol

cravfiend

Allll the trouble

canadiankazz

I screamed into the pillow so hard my throat hurts lol

I mean...still gonna ship the Jaspabelle ship but

Jasper and Eva are sweet and...sigh

it's the moment of happiness I wanted for him

and Annabelle too is so happy with Mark!

I just want them all to be happy

with... whoever

[milkybonya]

Hi Milky! I hope you're doing well 💙 I read your recent journal on your study abroad blog and gosh I just wanna say how.. Inspired I am of you? Like proud? Idk.. I just had a mental breakdown bc of classes yesterday (its a bit harder than I expected to say the least 😅) and to see you power through such a tough day... Idk I think that's amazing! Your kind message at the end really touched me. I can get through my classes too I know it 🙏🏻 I'm just going to have a minimalistic life until they're done 😅

My graduation went well btw! It was nice to see my mom. She liked the origami hehe I expected her to like the elephant I made the best bc her dad's favorite animal was an elephant and Idk she seemed really happy to get them so it made all the effort worth it 🥰

I know there is never a rush to write back, but I feel bad I haven't written in so long 😭 I've just been going through it recently with school and then chiwoo leaving kingdom on top of that. I'm doing better now (it's been a week since the news dropped) but it took out like a whole working day for me bc I was so upset 😭 I never would've expected something like that to happen so It was really shocking. Idk if any of your ult groups have ever lost a member before but for your sake I hope they never do 💙 But I'm staying positive and my roommate is helping me stay distracted by introducing me to drippin hehe do you know them?

I'm glad to hear about all the fun things in Korea!! It must be getting close to you leaving :( I hope it's been a good time overall!! Hearing how you feel like you've grown is so amazing and gosh I'm so happy that you're a stronger and more independent person now!! Adversity really does help with growth 🥺

I'm going to go now bc I'm writing this on the bus and my stop is almost here! Sending you all my love as usual 🥰

hihi my angel!! i always like reading through your asks as soon as you send them and then i save replying for when i can give you allll my attention hehe <3

also i'm so,, i'm blushing i'm so shy literally you're?? proud of me?? aHH i will cry T-T that is honestly so sweet... it was such a mess of a day and so long in that moment but now that it's passed.. it's honestly just a fun memory?! so of course! you can get through your classes too!! and as tiring as they are, i know it will be somewhat heartwarming to look back on these memories some day <3

i'm so happy your graduation went well!! that is your time so if it didn't go well i would be angy at whoever organized it >:O because you deserve the best! and omg you made aN ELEPHANT THAT IS SO CUTE T-T she must have reallyyyy liked it omg

of course my dear there is never a rush to write back! always take your time,, especially since it sounds like things have been so hard :( have you been taking care despite it all?? i hope so ♡ you're doing so well..

i'm honestly so shocked to hear a kingdom member left ?! it must have been even more shocking for you :( i hope him and the group are okay and that they all have a good future ahead!! i remember i became an ikonic just before Hanbin left ikon, and it only took me a month to fall so deep before he left and i was devastated :( so i can understand and i hope this never happens to either of us again !

ahh and i don't want to drop anymore bad news on you, but finding out Yedam and Mashi are taking a longer break and that treasure will have an ot10 comeback without them was a bit hard to swallow, but i'm happy Mashi will be with his family longer and that Yedam will be giving more time to learn what he loves: composing!

your roommate is a sweetie 🥺 i do know drippin!! i've been meaning to learn more about them--i know their songs nostalgia and young blood! so gooood :>

yess only 3 weeks left until i go back to canada T-T it's bittersweet but i'm excited that i'll be able to write more again and see my friends! i miss them a lot T--T

to hear you say you're proud of me makes me melt ahhh i am so so proud of you too!!!

i hope you arrived at your stop safely and that you have the best day/night!!!

[surveystodestressme]

48.

5000 Question Survey Pt. 9

801. How often do you change your mood in a day? not a lot 802. When you ask people how they are doing you actually care about their answer or is it just polite? well, when i ask while i’m at work i’m just doing it to be polite but when i ask someone i know, i care. 803. Would you consider yourself to be very polite? yeah, i think so 804. Do you like movies and books that involve nuclear holocaust? sure? lol i don’t think i’ve ever read/seen any 805. Have you ever had a lucid dream (a dream in which you knew you were dreaming and had complete control over what happened in the dream)? i don’t think so.  i’ve tried to lucid dream (apparently there’s a specific way that you have to fall asleep in order to be able to do it.  i don’t think it works tho)

806. Have you ever had a flying dream? i’m sure as a kid i did 807. Have you ever had a lucid flying dream? nope 808. What’s the oddest law you ever heard of? none at the top of my head but i’ve looked up stupid laws before and there is plenty lol 809. What is the ultimate way to connect with another person? just getting to know each other and sharing things about yourself with them 810. Can you be intimate with someone without touching him or her? i think so? sexting ig 811. Can men and women ever really be ‘just friends’ with no interest in anything more? absolutely.  i have plenty of male friends and i don’t have interest in them whatsoever.  813. Are you addicted to this survey like drugs? no lol 814. If your significant other wanted to wait for marriage could you hold out or would you leave them (or would you cheat)? well, if you’re talking about sex we’ve already done it lol.  but if he wanted to wait, i would wait for him.  i love him 815. What’s the longest sentence you can make using only words that start with the same letter as your first name? cierra cried continuously covering curious cats cruelly.  that’s all i got 816. If you had a theme song what would it be? i’d have my friends write it for me 817. Are you cranky? yeah 818. Which group generally annoys you more, people older than you, or people younger than you? people younger than me for sure 819. Do you refer to older people as old farts? lol sometimes 820. Do you refer to younger people as the kids? usually 821. Which is better: Poems that everyone can relate to or poems that are intensely personal to the author? both are good honestly. 822. Is it worse to be too hot or too cold? too hot. 823. Are you so flexible that you can put your feet behind your head? nope 824. Would you enjoy reading fairy tales written about robots? i enjoy reading lots of things 825. Is smoking a turn on or gross? not a turn on lol kinda gross 826. What is the one way you wouldn’t want to die? drowning 827. Which would look sillier on you: A cowboy hat or a Rasta hat? a cowboy hat 828. Would you rather have a job doing something indoors or outdoors? indoors. 829. Would you rather learn more about human nutrition or meteorology? meteorology 830. Have you ever taken honors courses? yeah 831. What do you think of crop circles? they’re weird 832. Where do they come from? aliens??? 833. When was the last time you screwed up big time? a couple weeks ago 834. You have a choice. What do you eat: A veggie burger this one A turkey dog A cheese sandwich 835. Do you get a lot of random instant messages? nope 836. Do you have a paper journal also?

yes 837. VHS or DVD? i don’t care either way 838. Vinyl, cassette tape, or CD? casette man.  i never got a mix tape and i’ve always wanted one 839. Have you ever seen the video/heard the song Days Go By, performed by Dirty Vegas? nope 840. MTV: should it play more videos or more shows? more videos for sure 841. Name a band: five finger death punch Do fans of that band tend to share any characteristics with each other? i don’t know? i guess so 842. What does the expression 'touch and go’ mean? do something fast 843. Caffeine or alcohol? caffeine 844. Betty or Veronica? betty Archie or Reggie or Jughead? jughead 845. What book are you reading right now? i’m not currently reading a book although i need to 846. Is the news too depressing? sometimes 847. Would you rather have a stuffed lion, elephant, pig or duck? pig 848. Are you late for a very important date? not that i remember 849. Ever use star 69? yeah 850. Is everyone as smart as you? sure 851. Have you ever seen the musical Annie? nope 852. Sheets: silk or satin? silk 853. Bath: soap or bubbles? bubbles 854. Your best color: blue or red? blue. 855. What’s your favorite candy? sour punch straws 856. Can you sing? somewhat 857. It’s the end of the world, as we know it. How do you feel? a lil mad 858. You take your little sister (she’s 12) shopping for school clothes. Mom gave you the money to hold. She picks out a skimpy top emblazoned “Hottie” and hip-hugging pants that leave at least two inches of skin north and south of her navel exposed to the wind. She insists: If she doesn’t have these clothes, she’ll look awful, the other kids will tease her, and she’ll feel like a nerd. Do you think she should or should not wear these clothes? hell fucking no Do you buy them for her? absolutely not 859. What do you think is the most annoying cliché? everything will be okay 860. What band is underground right now but will one day get really popular? uhh.. idk 861. Of the following which word best describes you: versatile (flexible): this i guess. wonderful: x-tra special: your own best friend: zany: 862. What does BYOB stand for? bring your own beer 863. Who is sexiest: Marilyn Monroe James Dean yesss Elvis Jim Morrison Madonna Cyndi Lauper 864. Do you always do what’s expected of you? i try to 865. Do you believe everything you hear on the news? nope 866. Would you prefer a $100.00 gift certificate to Hot Topic or Abercrombie & Fitch (assuming neither store gives change, so you’ll have to spend the whole thing)? hot topic 867. Have you ever won a competition? not that i remember 868. Who looks sloppier when they are over weight, guys or girls? either honestly.  but only when it’s severely overwight 869. At what age do you become all grown up? in your late 20s or early 30s 870. Have you ever written graffiti on anything? nope 871. Can you remember what you wrote? - 872. Are you a force of nature? sure??? 873. What do you think of blue eye shadow? How about gold eye shadow? they can look good 874. Would you ever wear any of the following Halloween costumes: Flapper? Hippie? Disco dancer? i’d wear all of them. 875. Should birth control be taught in high school? How about in jr. high or elementary school? yes to both 876. Would you consider yourself a genius? not at all 877. What did you think of the movie Solaris? never seen it 878. Which is usually better movies or books? books allll the way.  but i love movies too 879. Do you think The Hobbit will be made into a movie? it already is 880. Do you research which brands use sweatshops to make their clothing before you shop? no but i probably should 881. What gives you a magical feeling? love? lol idk 882. Have you ever pulled apart a Christmas cracker? i don’t even know what that is 883. Would you rather watch basketball or play basketball? watch 884. Do you think that everyone makes his or her own problems? most of the time 885. Do you often consider how your actions will affect other people? sometimes 886. Are J-Lo and Ben Afleck interesting to you at all? not really 887. Do you use bad grammar or hate bad grammar? i hate it but i occasionally use it lol 888. Make up a tabloid headline: morgan freeman lives forever 889. Do you like to learn new things? yes. 890. What’s more important, fame or personal accomplishment? personal accomplishment. 891. Sweet dreams are made of this….What are they made of? goals? lol happiness??? idk man 892. Two trailer park girls go round the outside…Round the outside of what? idk 893. Are you wearing a piece of jewelry that means a lot to you right now? nope i don��t wear jewelry 894. If someone was going to inscribe a message on a ring and give it to you what would you want it to say? i love you? 895. Guys who are losing their hair: Should they shave their heads? Get implants? Or let it go? whatever they want to do 896. Do rock stars work hard or lead the easy life? a little bit of both 897. How much water do you drink every day? ,maybe a glass of day sometimes more 898. Are you driven or kinda apathetic? driven mostly 899. Who do you turn to when you are down? jack 900. Would you ever wear seran-wrap? no??? lol

[god-hunter]

Secret Empire #2

This was a loaded one.  And the ending confused me...

But for an event, I do like the fact that so many things are packed in.  It does make it hard for a comprehensive review, but like last time, I’ll try to do so as best I can.

There are so many directions occurring in this dense issue, that I couldn’t just outright say whether it’s good or bad, but basically this whole thing is an aftermath of the ending of Issue 1.  That is to say, if bombs were to be dropped from the last issue, this one takes us to after the smoke clears.  ...if that helps...

Also, there wasn’t nearly enough Defenders in this issue.  Still though, I’m happy they’re included at all.

[Spoilers below.  The only way to understand what happened, really]

Like I briefly said, this issue begins ‘after the bombs dropped’ from the end of issue 1.  You may recall Helicarriers hovering over cities after the death of a certain, Rick Jones.

Well this one insinuates that bombs dropped and people died.  It starts in Las Vegas with Wonder Man, Hawkeye, Hulk and Nadia Pym digging for survivors through wreckage, etc. etc.  Black Widow is there too, brooding about how Steve Rogers needs to die.

Then we get a glimpse of what’s going on in New York.  It’s no good.  There are aliens everywhere in the darkness, who do a bit of a number on Luke Cage and Danny Rand.  The only way we see what’s happening in the darkness was through the clever use of a night vision cam, or what-have-you.

Jessica Jones ended up coming to their rescue, and we find that Dagger has been basically, using ALL her power in order to light the city for hours and hours at a time.  It’s gotten to the point where she can only keep the light going for 4 hours a day.  Then for the remainder of the time, the city is in darkness, and I guess these aliens have their free reign, without many heroes left to stop them.

Let’s not forget normal every-day looters, who are just trying to survive.  I can’t blame ‘em.  King Pin of all people says that he’ll save them.  And when he does, he wants the whole World to remember that he was the one who made things right.  “...On the day when we see the sun again, you remember-- It was Wilson Fisk who kept you safe.”  [Ooh.  Pretty interesting thread for the Defenders to go on.]

Meanwhile at ‘The Mount’, which is I guess what they’re calling the Underground HQ, Spencer made an interesting choice in copying or rather, nodding to Hickman’s style of narration.

“It was the day two of us stood, and two paths were laid out.  A familiar story, but somehow different this time.  One was Light.  And the other was Darkness.”

[This was a strange, slightly forced nod to Hickman’s Avengers, back when they symbolized Captain America to ‘Life’ and Iron Man to ‘Death’.  This time the comparison was set that Tony A.I was ‘Light’ and Black Widow is ‘Darkness’ now.  Choosing A.I Tony for Light is a very interesting choice for a lot of reasons.  But the main one I want to go with for now is that he literally is made of light.  The idea that an A.I representation of Tony is the ‘Hope’ of the group, however... implies that he only has pure motivations. Which, I’m sorry, but even the biggest Stark apologists know he’s got his hang ups.  Particularly that thing about how this A.I feels that Humans are obsolete.  But I’m pretty sure Spencer is ignoring that one completely.]

Um.  Without diverting any further, basically a line is drawn in the sand about the direction which the Underground should take.  Black Widow wants to kill him, and Tony wants... volunteers for a different sort of mission.  Not killing though.

He puts on a video of Rick Jones speaking to the group, and it’s nice to see him again.  We get the whole “If you’re getting this message, let’s be honest--there’s a good chance I’ve been made dead,” trope.  But then he tells them exactly what happened to Captain America.

We get some decent insight from everything that went down since Pleasant Hill - [what I know] and Spencer’s run of Captain America: Steve Rogers - [stuff I don’t know.]

He informs the gang via dead video message that Kobik was manipulated by Red Skull while in Pleasant Hill.  That she truly thought Hydra was a good thing, and so she was the one who changed Steve’s entire disposition, memories/history, etc. when granting him Youth again.

“She completely rewrote reality--his life experiences, his beliefs--Everything right down to the DNA.  She made him their perfect soldier.”

From there he laid out his own plan.  “A plan that included capturing Kobik--and killing his best friend, Bucky...” [Damn, he’s dead again?  Fuck.]  

He apparently destroyed Kobik too.  She’s been shattered into a million little fragments.  And the basic idea now is that if they find the fragments to put the cube back together [not her, but the cube..] then maybe they can all salvage this and write the whole thing off as a horrible nightmare.

“...They’re out there somewhere.  I’ve attached everything I’ve got--all the Hydra files on the Cosmic Cube... all their intel.”

So, now it’s down to a hunt for the fragments and A.I Tony is all in.  But Black Widow doesn’t buy it at all.  For her, This is Reality.  There is no rewriting it.  And they need to kill Steve for his Treason.

She believes this to such a degree  that she slugs Clint in their downtime, in only the most Romanov way.  She shares a sweet kiss with him and agrees to do things his way, only to turn on him and punch him while his guard is down.

[This punch didn’t mean Civil War III or anything.  It was just a way for her to get out of there and do what she needed to do.  But it’s still fucked up.]

Clint comes to pretty soon and informs Tony A.I about this, who seems to already have a plan.  Hercules, Quicksilver, Ant-Man and Mockingbird are all going to help him look for the fragments.

“Good team, right?” Tony asks.  “It’s a start.” Clint says.

In Black Widow’s corner, Spider-man somehow tracks her down in Colorado a day later.  And he tells her that he wants to help her kill Cap.

We get an awesome reference to Civil War II.  Now suddenly that Future Vision makes perfect sense to Miles.  And he actually wants to do this.

[And suddenly there entirety of Civil War II is all the better for me.  I only liked half of that event, before it became so Miles v Cap focussed.  But NOW.. hoohoo.  Damn.  That’s good planning Marvel.]

Miles didn’t come alone.  Hulk, Nadia, Riri, Viv and whoever is manning the Falcon suit came too.

Despite saying ‘no killing though’, Black Widow is happy to train these children in her ‘Red Room’.

Nearly at the end of the issue, in Montana, Clint, Tony’s A.I (who can apparently wear clothes, like a Red Hoodie now... - [Come on Man!]  They end up finding Sam Wilson, who seemed to have hung up the Cap Costume since all of this until now.

Then the very end of this issue confused me.

We see a bloke girl in a white dress running away from Hydra people.  Particularly a dude in a snake costume.  And she gets beat down on until a random Old guy gives the snake leader a big boot to the head.  He knocks out the other guys with ease too.

Narrations insinuated throughout this entire issue that there was no hope to be found.  Until this one moment, right when things seemed at their worst.

“W-who are you?!  What do you want?!” she asks, frightened.

An older, white-haired bearded dude in Army fatigues tells her, “My name is Steve Rogers.  I’m just trying to get home.”

-To Be Continued!-

...I give up.  Not on the event, but on trying to understand it.

I don’t know what is going on here, and I’m not going to conjure up any theories.  The reveal might be stupid, or it might be genius.  But I’m just gonna wait and reserve judgement until then.

Ugh!!

This event is half entertaining, and part frustrating!  I’m not sure what else.

...by the looks of it, Secret Empire #3 will focus on our teams in Space, which I’m actually interested in following up on for once.

We’re also at the point where allll the tie-ins are going to splinter out from this Event, causing this thing to go on foooreeever long this Summer.

I am not interested in Secret Empire: Uprising, which involves Black Widow training the Champions to do her bidding...

In fact, the only tie-in I am interested in is the Doctor Strange one.  [Which is a funny story for it’s own reason.  I’ll get into it when I actually review the issue.]

Anyway, I feel like it’ll be a moment before we get to Secret Empire #3.

So until then.  I guess we’ll just have to sit on this.

For now though, it’s still more entertaining than frustrating for me, I think.