#but people online dont understand that relationships form and sometimes its hard to hold people accountable or be confrontational towards

[rrapmonster]

the switch up on brian puspos on twitter has been absolutely comical to watch

[youareunbearable]

Catch me not having a clue who any of these gods(?) and people are, but still sitting here like, "I ship that pretty one with the gruff one, and that brown haired one with the other(?) gruff one?" without knowing names or what this is except the fanart I see you reblog, because this fandom apparently has lots of nice art

Fam i have no idea what ur talking about or when u sent this im so sorry asfkjhfkjhf but i thiiiinnnkkkk??????? it’s “Heavens Official Blessing” or  Tiān Guān Cì Fú (TGCF for tagging stuff) its originally a chinese gay novel that is soooooooo long by the author  Mo Xiang Tong Xiu (MXTX) who wrote 2 (two?????) other novels that I know of that are also gay historical fantasy but i personally havent actually read TGCF???? im just watching the anime and looking at the wiki and reading fanfics so i have a vague idea whats going on but not really???? so i cant really give a good review BUT i LOVE THE CHARACTERS MXTX WRITES SO MUCH AFHAFKFHKFAKF IM SO SORRY IM SHIT WITH TAGGING SO U HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IM HYPER FIXATING ON BUT

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Pretty one and the gruff one im THINKING is He Xuan (or Ming Yi/ Ming-Xiong/Ming Bro) for the grumpy one and Shi Qingxuan for the pretty one and both are kinda gender fluid?? (more Shi Qingxuan but they both change their forms to be both women and men which is Iconic and the anime put her in the TRANS FLAG COLOUR instead of her canon white and green which is ICONIC) AND THHEYRE SO TRAGIC AND HOT AND I CRY JUST THINKING ABOUT THEIR STORY LIKE AFHDFKJAFDSGS like i want to kinda read the book just for them, the two super minor characters, but i also read somewhere that their story doesn’t really have a clean ending so im also holding back from just getting Emotionally Hurt because im a cancer and i know it’ll wreck me

I think The Two Gruff Idiots are Feng Xin (dark haired gruff boy) and Mu Qing (brown haired gruff boy) and theyre both martial gods and both knew each other for over 800 years and both tried to take care of Actual Human And Heavenly Disaster Xie Lian, failed, and tried to do it again 800 years later but with stupid glasses with moustaches in hopes that Xie Lian cant figure out that they care about him but OOPS Xie Lian does in fact have the braincell of the three of them fajfafjajf 

Heres the link to watch the anime, there are 11 eps rn but it updates every weekend (I dont actually know when but i watch it on sundays) Make sure u have ur ad block on tho lol there is a manga too and the art style is TO DIE FOR like its GORGEOUS but its roughly at the same pace as the anime so eh

Heres where to read the whole thing online, just a warning its BIG AS FUCK like 244? plus extras I think?? 

I’d also recommend MXTX’s other books!

Mo Dao Zu Shi (or Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation/ The Untamed/MDZS) is both a Book as well as an Anime (the whole thing is on youtube) , a Live Action which you can watch on Netflix (look up Untamed, also a warning, the plot is a little different from the book and anime cause of uhhh censorship?? also i guess to make it more live drama friendly, my friends an i binged it and really liked it, but some of the fandom doesn’t), a manga which is not finished I think???? idk im not caught up, and a fucking chinese AUDIO DRAMA LIKE BITCH ITS SO WELL DONE but i have to stop listening sometimes cause like there is a difference between watching/reading characters kiss, and then like just hearing them, i get so embarrassed i have to skip the kissing scenes and god forbid i accidentally click on the smutty extras alfjajlfjalfjaljf u can find it on youtube, i linked the one i listen to but i havent finished it and i don’t think it’s all of it, but you can find other episodes/chapters easily

Its about 1 Dumb Yet So Smart gay/bi man (Wei Wuxian) who honestly tries his fucking best, fucks up everything, dies for over a decade, and then is forcefully brought back to life to solve a murder mystery with the guy who has been in Super Gay Love with him since they were teens (Lan Zhan), a bunch of teens Who Are Just Honestly Here For A Good Time And Yet (Lan Juniors, Jin Ling, and Best Boy Ouyang Zizhen ) while badly hiding his real identity from all the people he knows, including his foster brother (Jiang Cheng) who is out for blood and hunting his ass down with a whip and also Lan Zhan who is travelling with him. Also the Killer. There is a killer on the loose and is willing to murder whoever to keep their secrets. Also Nie Huaisang. I adore him and his brother Nie Mingjue, if there is one bitch u gotta remember from this summary it’s this little twink (he and his brother also have a fucking spin off movie from the live action drama THAT I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO FIND A ENGLISH SUB VERSION AND ITS BEEN KILLING ME SINCE I STARTED WATCHING THIS SHOW LAST YEAR. GOOGLE GIVE ME MY FAVOURITE TWINK AND HIS BEAR OF A BROTHER HAVING A FUN FAMILY ROAD TRIP!!!!!!!)

My Personal Current Favourite is Scum Villain’s Self Saving System (SVSSS) which is SOOOOOOO FUNNY Like it’s not as popular cause the comic was discontinued, and the anime looks like its from 2005 with the weird 3D animation but its my current comfort media!!! 

Its basically about a spite reading millennial (Shen Yuan) who died after reading a REALLY awful popular cheesy smut harem novel (think like 50 shade series but worse cause the protag had 600 wives) and was forced into the body of a minor but important villain (the protagonist’s teacher, Shen Qingqiu) from the novel who was fated to die with all his limbs cut off and his eyes and tongue plucked out and is told he has to fix the story so its not trash, he reasonably freaks the fuck out and hugs the protagonists (Luo Binghe) thigh so hard he turns him gay without realizing. Sadly, he does have to make sure certain plot points happen, which fucks him over a lot,  and he thinks Luo Binghe still wants to kill him instead of love him cause he has the Emotional Intelligence of a Rock, but its so funny reading about him handling all the awful tropey stuff, like imagine u have to be a character in My Immortal But With Porn?????? without breaking out of character too much?? I wouldn’t be able to handle it ajhakfkfhjfj He also finds out that he’s not the only transmigrator in the novel either, but it doesn’t matter cause theyre both So Fucking Stupid Collectively but everyone would honestly die for the both of them

warning for this story though, the main relationship is a teacher/student relationship, but nothing happens until the student is in his 20s and also kinda not his student anymore cause he’s running hell??? but if that squicks u out i totally understand and offer you to PLEASE still enjoy some of this media, and instead of the BingQiu ship, I offer you the LiuQiu one, where both me and the main character cry over how a beautiful man/fellow immortal lord loves the main character so much that he literally fought every day for 5 years to be by his side and I Think Thats Beautiful and I kinda like this ship more than the main one tbh PLEASE just look at the art for Liu Qingge because i love him so much, he’s like if you took Lan Zhan and Jiang Cheng from MDZS and mashed them into one beautiful man the author is trying to tell me is straight but u take one look at him And Tell Me Otherwise

[fairycosmos]

chloe what do you do when you feel really suicidal? but like not like before- but NOW that you are grieving such a painful loss? dont need to answer but i read your a. to the anon that felt trapped and like they couldnt leave now bc their sibling died too and like you and that anon i feel the same. im so so suicidal chloe. i cry every day and night and i feel despertate but my parents just lost their child so. how do you cope... as much as its possible. what do we do? fuck.

dude i am so sorry you're in the same position as me and you are going to hate me for saying it but there is no satisfactory answer 😔 it's a cruel joke. we're in the worst pain we've ever been in, and our instinct is to want to make that stop. but we can't because now we're obligated to stay alive, where all the hurt is, because we're one of the only ones left. and we dont want to cause more of this feeling by ending it all. it's like a contract you didn't agree to and are now trapped in for the foreseeable. grief is the absolute heaviest thing a person can carry, it's a fucking nightmare. it doesn't make any sense, it doesn't have a cure and it's disorienting as fuck. it's ok to be exhausted by it. reality has been irreparably  worsened and it's an absolute tragedy,  it's completely unfair. personally i'm more suicidal than i've ever been, but like you, i know i'm not going to do anything.  and in moments of great pain, where i want to act on those thoughts, i find myself coming back to that fact. i watch the idea of suicide run its course through my head and then i acknowledge the reality of things, that i can't leave. that it doesn't matter how sad i am and how tired i am, because i'm still here, and processing these emotions is a part of that. the urge to kill myself is there, but the actual act of suicide has never been less of an option than it is right now. so i can feel whatever i need to feel, but there's no point leaning into it or daydreaming about it. because it's not going to happen. sometimes i'm screaming and crying to myself in absolute agony while this is all going on, and sometimes i'm just sitting staring at my phone, numb. the desperation is very real, and i understand that. but it is not as urgent as it feels in the moment. no matter how many times i think i'm at my limit, i know that there's going to be tomorrow. and at the moment that sounds like a really bad thing. but i know that by waking up my parents aren't getting a call saying i'm dead, which for now is kind of the whole point. i am living to minimize their trauma, i am living for them, and an optimist would have hope that that could keep me alive long enough until i get to the point where i can eventually live for myself again. i could definitely see that for your future, even if you can't. the thing is you don't have to know what to do and you dont have to look for ways to fill the void that has been left behind by your sibling. you just have to learn to exist alongside it, and i do mean just exist. as awful as it is. waking up, putting one foot in front of the other, crying and crying and crying. that is good enough. i know it doesn't feel like much of a life, but. it's the short term answer, or so it seems to me. another thing i remind myself of is how it all comes in waves. waves are the nature of both grief, and strong suicidal urges. maybe they're always running in the background, but the moments of pure despair where you feel like you're bursting at the seams, they're so strong and harsh that they flare out faster than you realize. and they feel unbearable, and i know those moments are very frequent when you're in our position, but it's good to remember that the intensity of their nature makes them temporary.  especially if the grief is fresh, every little thing triggers an avalanche of hopelessness.  but some part of me believes these experiences will either a. become less persistent with time or b. become a part of us we learn how to navigate.  at the moment, the simple act of being completely broken by these episodes means you're surviving them. i think it's not a matter of knowing how to cope, but knowing that if you're here to ask these questions - what do i do, how do i go on, etc - then that is proof you have been coping. and it probably doesn't feel like you have been. i think there's a common misconception that coping is thriving, letting go, having positive memories. and sure that's a part of it. but there is a lot of darkness and absolute horror to work through before that. additionally,  there is no rule book on how exactly to work through it. theres just time, experience, learning what works for you and hanging on. i'm trying to hold my own hand through it, i'm trying to look at the present moment i'm in and just think about what i need at that very second.  not what i'm going to do tomorrow, not what i should've done yesterday, but what i have to do right now to make it through.  a lot of the time the answer is nothing, and i just sit and stare or cry, because like i said, ultimately nothing can fix it. theres no epiphany that can change what happened. 

as far as practical things you can to do combat suicidal thoughts goes, i have a few suggestions that i really hope you consider as viable choices: talk to your doctor/therapist - idk where you live or what your financial situation is like, but if it's at all an option i would really urge you to seek professional help. at least let your GP know what you're dealing with so maybe they can refer you to a therapist, or give you some mental health resources. grief counselling is also a step in the right direction. having someone to talk to and implementing positive coping mechanisms into your day to day life, even if it's the last thing on earth you want to do, can work wonders. understanding your own suicidal thoughts, why you react the way you do and what you can do about it, can really come in handy when you're breaking down. it's ok to reach out. it's ok to visit different counsellors until you find one that fits you. it's ok to treat your emotional turmoil as seriously as you'd treat any physical disease. there is always support and treatment options available in some form, and it is always worth looking into.

call a (grief or suicide) hotline - i've had the hotline number open in my browser for days. if you are in a moment of crisis, it can absolutely help to have someone talk you through your emotions, listen to your pain, and then give you some gentle recommendations as to what you should do next or where to go from here. you don't have to tell them your name, you don't have to say anything you don't want to say. you're in control of the call and they care about keeping you going. you're not alone. theres also online grief support groups - i'm in a sibling loss group on fb.  it's absolutely crazy how many people are in this position. 

talk to your parents/family/friends - i know saying 'this is a tough one' is a giant understatement.  idk if it's the same for you, but i've been isolating to cope and i don't want to tell anyone what i'm thinking because they're already having such a hard time grieving my sister. but if there's anyone you trust, i just want you to know it's alright to lean on them. it's up to you how much you open up, but the urge to keep to yourself leads nowhere. those around you can relate (to an extent) with your grief, and sharing it, talking about memories and crying together - it's fucking awful, god it's the worst thing ever, but it's necessary. and i don't want to say it helps, but a shared burden is always better than trying to shoulder it alone. you deserve to be listened to and supported. and if you think you're being an inconvenience to your loved ones, that's your inner self hatred talking. they would likely rather be there for you when you need it, than have you harm yourself because you kept it all pent up. it's a lot easier said than done, but it's important to keep in mind that it's an option.

try to create a safe space - try to remove things from your living space you could use to harm yourself with, and make the environment as comforting as possible. refer back to safe coping mechanisms/ distractions that have worked in the past - this can be as simple as going for a walk, watching stupid shit on your phone, meditation, having a crying session, writing to your sibling or just about how you feel in general. these are not suggestions that will solve anything or cure mental illness by any stretch of the imagination.  they just get you out of your head. that can really make a difference. 

create a crisis plan and learn what triggers you - this is a bit of a process but that's alright. being able to identify what sets you off, and being able to recognize your own toxic thinking patterns/behaviours, is the first step towards combatting them. another idea is, if you do end up talking to a loved one or a mental health professional, come up with a plan with them regarding what they should do when you're suicidal and your judgement is impaired. you can even start by just making one for yourself, like writing down a few suggestions as to what you should do when you're in a crisis, what your other options besides suicide are. 

i think that's all i've got right now. i'm sorry this got so long, especially when i know nothing truly helps. i just know what it's like having all this useless life in front of you that you're going to have to fight through without the one person who always should've been there. i keep thinking about what she'd say to me if she could see me, and i know she'd be livid if i threw my life away, but. that doesn't change the fact that she didn't get to live hers, and that i miss her so so much it aches. i keep coming back to the idea that our relationship will continue to grow beyond  death. i can still talk to her, reminisce  with her, understand her, love her. so much of this reality was shaped by her. it's not the same as when she was here, but it's not total absence  either.  anyway, i'm so so sorry for your loss and i hope you can just focus on taking care of yourself, love. because your life still has so much worth and you deserve to see your own future even if you cant stand the thought. moments of happiness and peace are still 100% possible. it's just never going to feel like it did before. and it's ok if you spend the rest of your life struggling to come to terms with that fact, because at least you got to live the rest of your life. i'm sending so much love to you and i'll be here if you need a friend. one day at a time.

*no pressure to read all this you can just refer back to it whenever you feel the need

[jwnbwnjwn]

Entry 4 (3.23.2020)

Its currently 9:40 AM and I haven’t slept. Waiting for my online class to start, by the way, all my classes got moved to online now due to the Corona virus outbreak. Anyways, my sleeping schedule is once again fucked up and flipped, but surpringly I dont feel as lonely in the middle of the night. I did just get a wave of sadness though.

Sometimes I feel like im fine, and lifes fine and everythings fine. My relationship, friendships, family. But i know it still bugs me to the core, i know it still replays in my mind, i know its going to take a long time to forget, or to fully make peace with it. It still runs through my mind the possible ways that couldve gone down. The different positions, the different things you did to her, the different names you called her, all the places you took her, what you told her about me? The degrading stuff you said about me? I still look through her stuff, maybe a hint; the subtlest one. I stare at her photos to try to see the parts of her that caught your eye, the parts of her that you kissed, that you touched. The times you did stuff, did I ever come to mind?, even if it was for half a second? Did you think of me? Did you think of my emotions, my feelings? No right? You didnt even know what I was feeling because we were in a situation where I was too scared to tell you because I would just be ignored or shrugged away. But its okay - the blames not all on you. We were in a really rough patch, im surprised we even made it out alive. I still think of the few times I saw her, if it was going on then, if it was still happening then, if you kissed her before or after, while i was still in the same building, if right after you went to see me or after you dropped me off you went to see her. I think of it so much and I just want it out of my head. I think of how you continued to check out other people, even after everything. After help, after the many tears i shed, after most of the hard work was done. I think of how you had girls nudes, how you had my friends nudes, my bestfriends. How you traded with other disgusting fucking pigs, how you wanted to fuck all these other girls. I think of the stash you had. Deja Vu, DEJA VU. I’ve seen this before, me typing this, all of this. I wonder if you still are like that. If you still have your stash, a stash. I know you’re in groupchats that do that stuff, and I know because you told me. You said it was just photos of girls like Belle Delphine, my fucking queen lol, but even then it kinda hurts when i still have all this overbearing pain left over and  to be so sensitive and insecure about still so many things. It pains me a bit to think youre staring at a girls ass, nudes, etc, whether you know them or not. Anyones. And I wanna see your phone, I wanna see who you text, what you talk about because im looking for these things. Im looking for these messages, these photos. The stuff that will destroy me. The stuff that will make me question why I kept going. I wonder if you still do. I just keep pondering, and I think i will for a long time unless i see proof. I think its going to be long, and difficult process for me in order to solve that. And I know, im scared. Im scared to bring this up because I know its somehow going to be flipped onto my side. I know its going to be somehow turned into my insecurites and on my behalf. And you know if thats what it truly is than be it, but it hurts so much because it doesnt feel that way/. It feels like im always blamed on for it. I wanna ask you to leave the chat, I wanna ask you to leave any chat where they talk about girls in that matter, where they send lewd photos, because its too much for me, its too much for me to know youre there, to know yore watching that. It hurts my heart over and over and everytime i think of it it takes me back to that place where I tried so hard to escape from. I think about you when youre with your friends and the many things you probably talk about. I think of how disgusting those conversations can easily turn into, how easily it is for them to show you, for them to tell you, for them to talk about all these girls to you. Or maybe its worse, maybe you still have photos, maybe youre still a pervert and talk about girls, maybe youre the one still causing the trouble. Maybe you never changed. What if it was just your lies getting better, you faking it better, putting in a little more effort into that. I go insane thinking like this. I drive myself crazy. I know i overthink, and I know I get paranoid, i recently figured that about myself; that im always on edge, that im always paranoid about things in an odd way. But its true. I could see clearly why everything Ive stated so far could be happening, but i always give you the benefit of the doubt so i dont fall further down the rabbit hole. Im tired. Im tired of it all. Im tired of seeing her, seeing you, sometimes when I look at you I cant help but have my mind running over how that exact face across of me that I love so much can do all of that, can do it to me. I constantly think of the time you told me about her, going over it, replaying it all in my head. I go over it so many times in hopes that ill catch a detail i missed, anything. I drive myself insane. I dont know how much longer I could do this for anymore, im getting more and more exhausted by the day. With all this extra free time in my hands thats all I think about. I look and search in hopes that something new will pop up, something that will define anything from that time. I wonder if youve talked about her recently, talked to her. I wonder what you’ve said about her, about me, if you’ve ever compared us and how. Thinking of this just makes me want to apologize about me thinking all of this, of my looks, everything. I feel like i’ll never forget.

Sometimes I think, what if I took the bold move? What if I did was would be considered “right” of me? I hate admiting it and even writing it down anywhere, but I think of leaving you. Leaving you and finding myself, finding my true self; not the version I set of myself for you, the version i struggle to love but learn how to little bit a day. I want to know what its truly like to be able to express myself in my true form, in order to want to do stuff and not get shut down for it, in order to fully be me and be able to defend myself without feeling bad for doing so; without feeling like a loser or like im on the outside looking in. Sometimes i wonder what it would be liked to be loved by someone else, someone who deserves me. They say what I want is out there, and i ponder on that. I wonder if theres someone who will always open the door for me, someone who will walk to my doorstep everytime they arrive and everytime they have to go. Someone who will hold my hand and kiss it, someone who hugs me gently; a hug that will make me feel something again. I want someone who protects me, who will keep me safe. Someone who will prioritize me. Someone who no matter what fights we come across, he will protect me out of love, because thats exactly what I would do. I want someone my parents love, someone my family loves, someone that could get along with my friends that i wouldnt have to be worried about. I want someone who will understand me, and someone who will see me as their world. I want someone to view me the same way i view them, i want someone to be there for me and go the same exact extent that i would for them. I want equalization. I want loyalty, I want someone to come into my life and strip me away from THIS “life” and show me what its like to smell the flowers, to show me what its like to be happy and be in love. I want someone who will appreciate me, someone who wont have to try so hard to do so. I just have to keep wishing.

But I love you, I love you so much. Even after all the ugly, even after all the fights, all of this; I still love you so much, I wish you could be the man i need, and hopefully you will. Im just scared that when you do itll be too late. Im scared that you wont. I wish you would put me first. I wish that over everything. I just want to be loved, and I want that to be real. im scared, im so constantly scared all the fucking time and it eats me alive. I love you, but I want to live. I want to love, and live, and be happy. i want to smell the flowers, dance in the rain, roll in the mud, I want to know what its like to be alive. I just hope its with you. I just hope I can forget, I just hope I can make peace.

Ended this at 3/23/2020 10:25 AM

-jen

[thefuckingmurderhouse]

The Confessions

All 69 confessions (yay!?) That got posted before I made this, no filter.

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I fantasise about Rutger

1/18/2017 4:21 PM

Here's the mother of all confessions, i cant help but sing along to Justin Bieber...and I dont even like him.

1/18/2017 3:59 PM

I admit bossy makes me all squirmy sometimes but other times I want to strangle the bossies.

1/18/2017 3:42 PM

If someone says something that turns me off during cyber, I fake a disconnect. I have the crappiest net connection ever!

1/18/2017 3:18 PM

People who bitch about courtesy and manners irritate me. Just because someone isn't up the crack of your ass or your best friend, doesn't make their sentiments any less genuine. Can you sound more ungrateful?

1/18/2017 2:21 PM

Everytime she walks into a room, I want to make love to her face.

1/18/2017 1:59 PM

DOn't never forget when you getting that temporary thrill; the one you shoved off to get it is getting the distance they need to walk away..

1/18/2017 12:49 PM

you think you are god's gift to women, and yet at some point maybe you were. now though you are just one man in the long line of rejected boys.

1/18/2017 12:47 PM

People who aren't your friends congratulating you on things, annoy me. Not friends that truly understand the struggles that I went through to get to the place where I am.

1/18/2017 12:40 PM

I'm a Barbie girl, in a Barbie world. Life in plastic, its fantastic.

1/18/2017 11:40 AM

What is the point in congratulating someone on a new relationship online? It's not something we go around doing in real time, why do we insist on doing it online?

1/18/2017 11:37 AM

If your lonely and you know it, submit to Vulgar - claps hands- If your lonely and you know it, submit to Vulgar - claps hands- If your lonely and you know it, then your knees will surely show it , submit to Vulgar -claps hands-

1/18/2017 10:16 AM

I confess I would be happy in seven collars. One for each day.

1/17/2017 9:13 PM

I don't think my husband understands how much I really love him. We are stronger than ever and I truly happy with our life and how it is going. I just wish I could convey it better then I do.

1/17/2017 9:00 PM

I have a crush on Malice's hoochers ...

1/17/2017 8:55 PM

I'm so over you.

1/17/2017 8:27 PM

I confess, I have a girl crush on myself, too. -winks- <3

1/17/2017 8:26 PM

I still sleep with a stuffed bear, one that came from my niece because it makes me feel close to her and well it's better then being in bed alone.

1/17/2017 8:02 PM

@Q Don't worry, there are sexual desires involved in said fantasy too! -coughs back-

1/17/2017 7:57 PM

I think I finally found the one, It feels so right and natural to be upon my knees before him, and yet, I will never be able to call him Daddy, but I shall always call him Master.

1/17/2017 7:53 PM

I have a filthy dirty mouth but people wants me to be lady like well fuck that shit take me as I am or can fuck right off. I like my dirty mouth thank you very much it allows me way to decompress from the stress of real time

1/17/2017 7:49 PM

I am with the wrong person.

1/17/2017 7:28 PM

I'd totally do Murder, like fuck her, not kill someone.

1/17/2017 7:28 PM

I confess to the fantasy of being in Q's collar. The one and only woman to ever elicit such feelings from me.. in a non sexual way.

1/17/2017 7:25 PM

I'm in love with somebody who's taken and doesn't even know I exist.

1/17/2017 7:09 PM

I confess that I bite my tongue too much. I'm afraid that one of these days I'm just gonna blow up and say everything that I've been holding in.

1/17/2017 7:01 PM

I wish my skill at design was half as good as care's

1/17/2017 6:59 PM

I have a girl crush on Q, and malice, and care

1/17/2017 6:56 PM

Being online is such a trip. I mean honestly, take a step back and evaluate how we interact with one another. Would you do that in real life? Would you straight up grope people just cause they're your friend? Would you talk with them about imaginary characters as if they're real people? Would you stab people in the back the way that you do? The screen is just as much a window into some wonderful fantasy, as it is a shield between you and the real world. It's given me some of the best people, and some of the worst people I've ever known. I need the periodic break to get a grip on what's really important, but with this age of technology it's hard to know who is a real friend, and who needs to say on the other side of the internet.

1/17/2017 6:51 PM

*farts* -waves hand - Oh god !. I confess I was holding that in for quite a while.

1/17/2017 5:12 PM

if I ever win the lottery ... I know two bitches that will be hello kitty spa'ing it up ...

1/17/2017 3:32 PM

They will never understand the anger I feel when they act like they were your best friends when all they did was cut you out because of their jealousy.

1/17/2017 3:21 PM

He's moved on and he'll never know that I'm still in love with him

1/17/2017 2:33 PM

Nothing like having your heart broken in the worst way and then being ripped off on top of it. Even though you could literally ruin him, but he took for granted the fact that your just not that kind of person. Sometimes, I wish I was that kind of person.

1/17/2017 2:21 PM

I confess I always want more than I have, even when I have everything I could want.

1/17/2017 2:06 PM

All the lonely people Where do they all come from? All the lonely people Where do they all belong?

1/17/2017 2:05 PM

there are many times I wish I could go back and change some things, and yet I wonder if He would still had been with me through those changes or if he was meant for other great things and I was a stone in the path of life

1/17/2017 2:05 PM

i wish you would put yourself in my shoes, then you might understand and stop making excuses.

1/17/2017 2:03 PM

I have missed you for so long, it became a habit to say I am hurting. I just realized, I am not hurting anymore and I am not sure when that happened, but it feels fucking great to be free.

1/17/2017 1:41 PM

I wish Addiction was free too.. but he charges. 20 bucks an hour. Totally fuckin' worth it!

1/17/2017 1:15 PM

I wish that I was good enough for you to hang around all the time, and not just when your others are busy.

1/17/2017 12:48 PM

Originality - like Common Sense. Not all that common in the RP world.

1/17/2017 12:44 PM

I'm happiest when I'm being a puppy.

1/17/2017 11:42 AM

I wish he would live less in RP and more in the real world. Maybe someday he will be a real live boy

1/17/2017 10:11 AM

Sometimes I think the past pain, and hurt won't allow me to be truly happy with my One.

1/17/2017 9:33 AM

I solemnly swear that I am up to no good.

1/17/2017 8:59 AM

Sometimes I wish, He would look at me as more then a Friend. That he would take me like he means it, and be the one for me.

1/17/2017 8:57 AM

My heart hurts for the state I'm in right now, stuck between having what I want on one and then not having it fully on the other side.

1/17/2017 8:25 AM

My trust keeps getting broken. I thought I had learned my lesson, but apparently not. Makes me want to pack it in and disappear, and quit RPing entirely. I've considered it for years.

1/17/2017 8:16 AM

I wish just once he would look at me the way he does her.........

1/17/2017 3:58 AM

Your words say "You are important. I need you in my life. I miss you when you are not here" Your actions say "I won't let you in because (Reasons). You don't excite me enough to flirt with anymore. I don't have the energy to learn the you, you are becoming. So I will treat you as if you are still the old you." And yet, you are amazed that I don't give you attention anymore? That I won't chase you anymore. That I no longer hang on your every word. You see, it is because I am off spending time with people who want me my attention and show it. I don't hate you. I miss you, and how you used to make me feel. I just don't believe your words anymore.

1/17/2017 1:03 AM

My collar is a halo ...

1/16/2017 10:55 PM

I met the worst person I've ever known online, and they are still the love of my life.

1/16/2017 10:35 PM

Sometimes I wonder if the people on ReVo would like me half as much if they knew I was actually a man in real life

1/16/2017 9:50 PM

I wish Addiction was free

1/16/2017 9:41 PM

When you seek acceptance for your own kinks and quirks, remember that you must give others acceptance for theirs.

1/16/2017 8:33 PM

Sometimes I feel like the people that claim to be my friends or to like me only come around if they want something and consider me a doormat, or someone they can easily manipulate

1/16/2017 7:50 PM

I would probably murder a really bad person for a pizza right now.

1/16/2017 7:47 PM

I in my role play went from being a bad ass bitch to being a cyber bunny to now finally forming bonds in true role play and thoroughly enjoying the role play I do have I am learning it is not quantity its Quality

1/16/2017 7:31 PM

I miss being wanted by many women online. I use to have pick of the litter, I can't even get one to be with me now and I am very lonely over it.

1/16/2017 7:17 PM

Sometimes I wonder if people realize they paint me a bad person when they don't even know me. At least know a person before you villainize them.

1/16/2017 7:11 PM

ReVo is my home and family even when I feel like taking long breaks from the online world due to drama others can and do create

1/16/2017 6:39 PM

Sometimes I wonder if people really enjoy and want me around or if I'm just something they tolerate.

1/16/2017 6:07 PM

I come to ReVo for the people, I stay for the loyalty, and I am consumed by the roleplay which I haven't yet created.

1/16/2017 4:50 PM

I sometimes miss being popular everywhere and having my IM's blow up. Not as much as I used to. Its like the older I get, the more I dont care about roleplay as much due to the amount of drama in every single genre!

1/16/2017 4:01 PM

I have an incredible need to submit to one particular man.

1/16/2017 3:42 PM

I confess I am attracted to roleplay for the sex and now it seems almost taboo to admit that it's for cybering over playing out only stories. Sure that is great to have in it and to create along the way but my confession is I want the action a lot more.

1/16/2017 3:30 PM

my Oh so well kept hidden confession is that ReVo rocks and has some really epic people in. Oh and Grey is hot!