#but she shakes... to me :3

[fruit-snacker]

You know i think I'll inflict my tremors on pepper ii next (cuz she's a pepper SHAKER lol) but also because pepper shaking to the point of her hands being basically unusable feels so incredibly correct to me. Also her shaking when she's emotional (or getting emotional when she's shaking) feels real too

[triangle-strategy-notes]

Missed this on the anniversary itself, but we got new art from Rina Yoshiura of Avlora and Cordelia! (and Exharme and Kamsell in the background)

[thatneoncrisis]

has gideon ever won a fight ever or is the whole series just her getting publicly owned

[spooky-activity]

💕✨🌚🌑Shadowheart🌑🌚✨💕

[stellartistic]

Bug: XI

Must protect eggs

[khaoala]

People with this kind of personality tend to be introverted, idealistic, creative, and driven by high values.

QL Characters + MBTI

[basket-of-radiants]

Well, my public library hold on Wind and Truth just came through, I suppose we're doing this.

[itissadbutitsmy-artblog]

in a world where EVERYONES names match their career and grown up self eerily perfectly, it's the people with Human Names who are the trans ones. the ones who chose their own names. like see Young Mister Creampuff is clearly a birth name that matches him perfectly but Ann. now that’s a woman choosing her own destiny.

[yourgamemasterthewhiterabbit]

Both my parents actually suffer from HORRID emotional dysregulation and are prone to snapping and going into rages. My sister is the same way tbh. I am now realizing this is why they are constantly baffled by the question of whether or not I am mad at them.

I don't have external meltdowns.

I could. I don't let it happen.

I keep my rage on the inside and stay pretty quiet about it. It's just as strong as theirs [physically shaking nose bleed from high blood pressure kind of bad], but like as a kid I saw how terrifying it was to be around [dad breaking dishes, mom putting our lawn chairs into walls] and I just internalized that I wasn't going to wear that anger on the outside.

So my mother genuinely cannot tell if I am just being quiet or if I am silently hearing the dial-up noises of pure rage. This has lead her to both making strong and confident statements like "You are a pacifist who would never hurt a fly U.U" but also acting like I am secretly dangerous maybe... It's because she has never seen me snap.

She knows what her temper is like [throwing chairs through walls], she knows what my father's temper is like [pick up child and toss out door], and she can tell I am being tested, but she doesn't know what happens when I snap or where that breaking point is.

Her -perhaps unhinged- solution to this, my whole life, has been to do things that should obviously enrage me or shut me down completely, like ignoring important boundaries, repeatedly, punishing me for expressing emotions or needs at all, etc... And then to constantly ask me if I am angry with her when I get too quiet [right after near directly telling me to shut up].

It has occurred to me now, they have never once seen me lose my temper, so they literally just can't tell if I am angry at them. My sister is easy, my mother fights and screams with my sister constantly, my mother understands this. My mother doesn't have any grasp of feelings or boundaries that are not screamed at her [apparently, and I fear my sister is the same way]. Her and my sister are close despite constant fucking fighting because they understand each other.

They are trying to get me to engage the same way and it is not working. I realize now that this has been hard for them.

I was so successfully taught to suppress my emotions, by being punished for any outburst, that rage quiet looks the same as any other kind of quiet from the outside. To them anyway.

I did tell her. For the record. I used my words. I did tell her very calmly that my response to rage, in order to avoid doing the things that terrified me as a child, was to simply leave [the autistic urge to GTFO]. When a situation or person causes too much of the dial-up rage noise, I simply extract myself from that situation, up to and including never speaking to a person again. I explained this calmly. I explained it calmly 100 times and I explained that I explain myself calmly as my rage response 1-5 [also pretty much every other negative emotion tbh], and I told her that what came next was me simply opting out and fucking off. I told her this. I couldn't understand why she never took me seriously, or why she never fucking understood.

I couldn't understand what made her like this.

But it's the same problem I have with everyone else multiplied by a factor of 10.

If I am explaining myself calmly, they can't understand that it's actually serious or that I am actually upset. ESPECIALLY because they read me as "female" and women "aren't that rational" so if I am not screaming and crying about something, which I never do, people assume I can't be upset and it isn't serious.

And then after having my boundaries ignored too many times despite having calmly explained how and why it's a problem [shaking inside or not]... I leave. I leave and everyone gets upset like this is unexpected behaviour, even though I told them 50 times that is how I would respond if they kept doing *the thing.*

And for neurotypical people especially, they are expecting there to be a disconnect between what someone says they need or feel and what their actually boundaries and feelings are, and they expect the latter to be demonstrated with emotions. Telling them bluntly you do not function that way somehow never helps?

My mother isn't just looking for normal yelling or a few tears to know I am serious, whether or not I do those either [I don't], she's looking for an explosion to know there's a problem at all.

Fucked if I know how she proceeds through life this way in general or if this is just her expectation of her own kids???

And I couldn't get why my mother couldn't read my emotions and didn't seem to think I have any. It's because she's testing for the rage limit to see where my 'actual' limit is instead of taking my word for it. Never the fuck mind that she could simply *not* test at my boundaries instead of letting me have them. Separate issue.

I couldn't figure out what made her *like this*

She's expecting me to throw a giant meltdown violent tantrum at people when I have 'actually' had enough. Maybe she got away with those being like 5'4" in another time, but I am the size of the average man, I do not get to have giant screaming rages, whether or not people perceive me consciously as a woman, and least of all because a lot of people -at least unconsciously- read me as 'masculine' or at least always "they guy" of the situation compared to all other women and some men [bigger stronger and more rational, more able to just absorb the damage and let it go so the less rational screaming/crying one doesn't have to be dealt with]. Even if it was in me to be willing to terrify people [usually never], there are such limited instances where it wouldn't just blow back on me. Potentially very dangerously.

I am going to be the quiet calm one. You are going to have to let me use my words, bitch.

So she kept ignoring my boundaries until I had to cut her out of my life, and she probably doesn't understand and probably thinks it feels sudden -after 36 long years of bullshit- abrupt and unfair.

But I told her hundreds of times.

I probably should have just screamed at her.

[clownakai]

Akam Princess Mononoke AU with Shuuichi as Ashitaka and Rei as San. That is all

[kadextra]

"How is my brother? Is he still alive? Is he here? Did I come looking for him? I don't remember his face or his name, just the feeling of his existence... It feels like I lost my other half.”

“They (islanders) have known each other for months and have no reason to trust me. I know why… but does it have to be like this? They are so closed off, I ended up closing myself off too.”

Badboyhalo kinda became my friend, he’s probably the person(?) who has spent most time with me and included me in everything! It feels like things are more simple when I’m near him.”

“Pac stands out (among the Brazilians) he is definitely a person with a huge heart, that includes people he trusts in his investigations. but I wonder if anyone close to him might try to hurt him.”

Some translated parts from q!bagi’s diary that are destroying me 👍

[autistic-katara]

u guys won’t believe how normal i acted yesterday when one of the kids i volunteer with was making miraculous references during part of a game

[justaboymadeofhoneyandglass]

"god knows if he had given me a dick I would've been unstoppable."

Harley. Harley i beg you stop being funny my father is in the room. ahh

[nene-nelle]

Man I HATE it when people compliment me on my drawings and then add "but oh 😣, I can't draw a stickman😭".

YES YOU FUCKING CAN MATE

YOU DRAW A CIRCLE. A LINE. TWO LINES. TWO MORE LINES. AND A BLOODY SMILEY FACE. ITS NOT ROCKET SCIENCE.

ITS LITERALLY SO EASY?????? EVEN MY 3 YEAR OLD BABY SISTER CAN DRAW A BLOODY STICKMAN. AND SHE CAN'T EVEN WRITE LEGIBLE SENTENCES YET!!!

do NOT piss me off istg. the next person who says "oOh y0u'rE soooo GoOd aT aRt!! I can barely draw a teeny tiny stickman" is getting clobbered by a bottle of radnor splash on the head. i'm not bloody joking right now mate, i've had enough

[kattahj]

Post 9 Gifs of Your Favorite Characters* and Let People Guess Your Type

(QL edition, in my case.)

I was tagged by @waitmyturtles thank you for tagging me!

I decided to stick to BL/GL/QL shows to make it easier – and by "easier" I still mean, "this post should be at least 20 people long".

Of course, if I had made one with every media ever, it would be a very different list! (And much harder.) But if there's interest, I could try. (Internal screaming)

Now, many of my favourite QL shows didn't make the cut for favourite character, while some lower ranked did, because for most of my favourite shows, I can't just pick one character! It's the way they all interact that is so beautiful.

I have some descriptive adjectives I can think of for these nine, though not all of them fit all the characters. Also, none of them are saucy delinquents, which is surprising, but I guess most of the QL shows I've watched don't even have those.

Anyway, first three, the easy choices:

Cher from Wandee Goodday

and speaking of milk

Milk from Choco Milk Shake

Jim from Moonlight Chicken

(Okay, I admit to hesitating between Jim or Li Ming, or both, but I am confident in my choice.)

Next three, let's get this less dude heavy:

Jung One from She Makes My Heart Flutter (I couldn't find anything through gif search, so here's credit for the original post.)

Nida from 23.5

Molly from Warp Effect, which I count as a QL in this context.

And yeah, being played by Silvy Pavida helps.

Final three, OMG, what do you mean I only have three left? (Quickly shuffles a dozen favourites under the carpet.)

Chopper from Never Let Me Go

Tang Yi from History 3: Trapped

and considering how feral I've been about this show for the last couple of months, I can't leave out

Shaopeng from See Your Love

I just tagged a whole lot of people for the music game, so let's pick some other ones for this game! (Pick a genre of media as you like, or all media if you're braver than me.)

@mimeparadox @introvertia @vampirerex @ranchtastic @black-silverwolf @shampoot @grietahatkeinnetz @scottishdreamergirl @cdybedahl

Of course, if you haven't been tagged, you can still play! And everyone can guess a type!

If you want me to do a different genre, or all media (HOW!?) drop a comment.

[whippetcrimes]

Puppy is being born today probably!!!