#camille delane

[katzenkrieg]

Cam’s got his Castrum armor. You go, casual Assassin’s Creed cosplay!Cam.

[vsangelssparkle]

Casting (Callbacks):

1.    Abby Champion (Callbacks)

2.    Adrianna Bach

3.    Aiden Curtiss (Callbacks)

4.    Alana Felisberto (Callbacks)

5.    Alana Henry

6.    Alanna Arrington (Callbacks)

7.    Alannah Walton (Callbacks)

8.    Alecia Morais (Callbacks)

9.    Alessia Mertz

10.  Alexandra Bonnesen

11.  Alexina Graham (Gerücht: ohne Casting dabei)

12.  Aleyna Fitzgerald (Callbacks)

13.  Alicia Burke

14.  Alicia Burke (Callbacks)

15.  Alicia Herbeth

16.  Alina Bobyleva

17.  Alyssa Riley (Callbacks)

18.  Ambra Battilana Gutierrez

19.  Amilna Estevao (Callbacks)

20.  Amira Pinheiro

21.  Amy Black

22.  Anabela Belikava

23.  Anamarija Crnoja

24.  Anastasia Panasenko

25.  Angelica Erthal

26.  Ange-Marie Moutambou

27.  Anne de Paula

28.  Antonina Petkovic (Callbacks)

29.  Aqua Parios (Callbacks)

30.  Ariela Soares

31.  Ashika Pratt

32.  Ashley Karah

33.  Aube Jolicoeur

34.  Azlin Nicolette

35.  Barbara Fialho (Gerücht: ohne Casting dabei)

36.  Barbara Palvin (Callbacks)

37.  Barbara Valente

38.  Barbra Lee Grant

39.  Blanca Padilla (Callbacks)

40.  Bojana Krsmanovic

41.  Brittany Noon (Callbacks)

42.  Brittni Tucker (Callbacks)

43.  Brooke Lynn Buchanan

44.  Brooke Perry (Callbacks)

45.  Bruna Lirio (Callbacks)

46.  Camille Opp

47.  Candice Blackburn

48.  Carmen Bruendler

49.  Carola Remer

50.  Carolina Sanchez

51.  Catherine Laylin

52.  Cayley King

53.  Chantal Monaghan

54.  Charlee Fraser

55.  Charlotte D’Alessio

56.  Charlotte Rose Hansen

57.  Chase Carter (Callbacks)

58.  Chelsey Weimar

59.  Chen Estelle (Callbacks)

60.  Cheyenne Maya Carty (Callbacks)

61.  Chiharu Okunugi (Callbacks)

62.  Chloe Braaten

63.  Chuyan He (Callbacks)

64.  Cindy Bruna (Gerücht: ohne Casting dabei)

65.  Cindy Mello

66.  Dahlia Savic

67.  Daiane Sodre

68.  Daniela Braga (Callbacks)

69.  Danielle Herrington (Callbacks)

70.  Danielle Knudson (Callbacks)

71.  Dasha Malentina (Callbacks)

72.  Destene Marie

73.  Devon Windsor (Callbacks)

74.  Dilan Cicek Deniz

75.  Dilone (Callbacks)

76.  Domonique Babineaux

77.  Duckie Thot (Callbacks)

78.  Ebonee Davis (Callbacks)

79.  Effy Harvard

80.  Elena Matei

81.  Elizabeth Turner

82.  Ella Rattigan

83.  Ellen Rosa (Callbacks)

84.  Elsa Baldaia

85.  Emma Bartlett

86.  Emma Brandstrup

87.  Eniko Mihalik (Callbacks)

88.  Eniola Abioro (Callbacks)

89.  Erin Eliopulos

90.  Eva Adams (Callbacks)

91.  Eva Berzina (Callbacks)

92.  Faith Lynch

93.  Fernanda Ly (Callbacks)

94.  Fernanda Oliveira (Callbacks)

95.  Fiona Briseno

96.  Flavia Lucini (Callbacks)

97.  Frida Aasen (Callbacks)

98.  Gabrielle Caunesil (Callbacks)

99.  Georgia Fowler (Callbacks)

100.               Georgia Gibbs

101.               Gizele Oliveira (Callbacks)

102.               Grace Bol (Callbacks)

103.               Grace Elizabeth (ohne Casting dabei)

104.               Greta Varlese (Callbacks)

105.               Gwen van Meir

106.               Hailey Clauson (Callbacks)

107.               Hannah Donker

108.               Hannah Ferguson (Callbacks)

109.               He Cong (Callbacks)

110.               Herieth Paul (Callbacks)

111.               I-Hua

112.               Iana Godnia

113.               Iesha Hodges (Callbacks)

114.               Imade Ogbewi

115.               India Makailah Graham

116.               Isabel Scholten (Callbacks)

117.               Isilda Moreira (Callbacks)

118.               Iwanna Bella

119.               Jamea Byrd

120.               Jasmine Daniels

121.               Jasmine Sanders (Callbacks)

122.               Jessica Clements (Callbacks)

123.               Jessica Strother

124.               Jessica Whitlow

125.               Jessie Li

126.               Joanna Bella

127.               Johanna Szikszai

128.               Jordan Rand (Callbacks)

129.               Josephine Le Tutour (Callbacks)

130.               Josie Canseco (Callbacks)

131.               Jourdana Elizabeth (Callbacks)

132.               Joy van der Eecken

133.               Juana Burga

134.               Julia Banas

135.               Julia Belyakova (Callbacks)

136.               Kamila Hansen

137.               Kate Bock (Callbacks)

138.               Kate Grigorieva (Callbacks)

139.               Kate Li (Callbacks)

140.               Keke Lindgard

141.               Keliani Asmus

142.               Kelly Gale (Callbacks)

143.               Kelsey Merritt (Callbacks)

144.               Kennidy Hunter

145.               Kiko Arai

146.               Kirstin Liljegren

147.               Kristina Perie

148.               Kristina Romanova (Callbacks)

149.               Lais Oliveira (Callbacks)

150.               Lameka Fox (Callbacks)

151.               Lara Ghraoui (Callbacks)

152.               Lara Helmer

153.               Lauren de Graaf (Callbacks)

154.               Lauren Layne

155.               Leila Nda (Callbacks)

156.               Leomie Anderson (Callbacks)

157.               Lexi Hipchen

158.               Lieke van Houten

159.               Lilly-Marie Liegau

160.               Lily Fofana

161.               Linda Helena

162.               Lini Kennedy

163.               Lola Hendrickx Lomijoh

164.               Lorena Rae (Callbacks)

165.               Lotta Kaijarvi (Callbacks)

166.               Lotta Maybelake (Callbacks)

167.               Lucia Lopez (Callbacks)

168.               Luma Grothe (Callbacks)

169.               Luna Castilho

170.               Maartje Verhoef (Callbacks)

171.               Mackinley Hill

172.               Madisin Rian

173.               Madison Headrick

174.               Madison Kirkbride

175.               Maeva Marshall

176.               Maggie Laine (ohne Casting dabei)

177.               Maia Cotton (Callbacks)

178.               Malaika Firth

179.               Mame Camara (Callbacks)

180.               Margaret Elson

181.               Maria Borges (Callbacks)

182.               Mariah Strongin

183.               Mariama Diallo

184.               Marianne Forseca

185.               Martine Fox

186.               Maya Stepper

187.               Mayowa Nicholas (Callbacks)

188.               McKenna Hellam

189.               Megan Irminger

190.               Megan Puleri

191.               Megan Williams (Callbacks)

192.               Melie Tiacoh (Callbacks)

193.               Melissa Cuc

194.               Melodie Vroom

195.               Melodie Vaxelaire (Callbacks)

196.               Meri Gulin

197.               Mia Jokic

198.               Mia Speicher

199.               Michelle Dantas

200.               Michelle van Bijnen

201.               Michelle Xavier

202.               Michi Delane

203.               Mileshka Cortes (Callbacks)

204.               Mili Boskovic

205.               Ming Xi (Gerücht: ohne Casting dabei)

206.               Miquela Vos (Callbacks)

207.               Moa Aberg

208.               Monica Cima (Callbacks)

209.               Myla Dalbesio (Callbacks)

210.               Myrthe Bolt (Callbacks)

211.               Nadine Leopold (Callbacks)

212.               Naki Depass

213.               Natalia Sirotina

214.               Neelam Gill

215.               Nibar Madar

216.               Nicole Potur

217.               Noel Capri Berry

218.               Olivia Edit Aarnio

219.               One Wy (Callbacks)

220.               Ophelie Guillermand (Callbacks)

221.               Oumie Jammeh (Callbacks)

222.               Paige Reifler

223.               Pamela Ramos

224.               Paulina Frankowska

225.               Pauline Hoarau (Callbacks)

226.               Peyton Olivia Knight

227.               Pooja Mor

228.               Raven Lyn

229.               Raylane Raysa

230.               Regan Kemper (Callbacks)

231.               Regitze Christensen

232.               Riane Herzik (Callbacks)

233.               Riley Montana (Callbacks)

234.               Robin Marjolein Holzken (Callbacks)

235.               Rocio Crusset

236.               Roos Abels (Callbacks)

237.               Roosmarijn de Kok (Callbacks)

238.               Rosmary Altuve Gomez

239.               Rubina Dyan

240.               Sadie Newman (Callbacks)

241.               Samantha Archibald

242.               Samile Bermannelli (Callbacks)

243.               Sandra Martens

244.               Sanne Vloet (Callbacks)

245.               Sara Dijkink

246.               Sarah Fraser

247.               Sara Witt (Callbacks)

248.               Sasha Kichinga (Callbacks)

249.               Shanelle Nyasiase (Callbacks)

250.               Shani Zigron (Callbacks)

251.               Shanina Shaik (Callbacks)

252.               Sharina Gutierrez

253.               Shayna Terese Taylor (Callbacks)

254.               Soa Denise

255.               Sofia Jamora

256.               Sofia Resing (Callbacks)

257.               Sofie Grace Rovenstine (Callbacks)

258.               Solange van Doorn (Callbacks)

259.               Stamatina Vlami

260.               Stefanie Giesinger

261.               Stephanie Jackson

262.               Stephanie Lyne

263.               Subah Koj

264.               Sui He (Callbacks)

265.               Susanne Knipper

266.               Symone Challenger

267.               Taerlo Thein

268.               Tako Nats

269.               Tami Williams

270.               Tanya Kizko (Callbacks)

271.               Tarah Rodgers (Callbacks)

272.               Tatiana Ringsby (Callbacks)

273.               Toni Garrn (Callbacks)

274.               Valentina Sampaio

275.               Valery Kaufman (Callbacks)

276.               Vanessa Moody (Callbacks)

277.               Varsha Thapa

278.               Victoria Lee (Callbacks)

279.               Victoria Seng

280.               Vika Ihnatenko

281.               Wallette Watson

282.               Wanesa Milhomem

283.               Willow Hand (Callbacks)

284.               Winnie Harlow (Callbacks)

285.               Xiao Wen Ju (Callbacks)

286.               Xin Xie (Callbacks)

287.               Yada Villaret (Callbacks)

288.               Yana Trufano

289.               Yasmin Wijnaldum (Callbacks)

290.               Yovanna Ventura

291.               Ysaunny Brito

292.               Zahara Davis (Callbacks)

293.               Zoi Ageliki Mantzakanis

294.               Zorana Kuzmanovic

295.               Zuri Tibby (ohne Casting dabei)

[cactuscreeks]

A Name List

I really wanted to make a list of name that aren’t the typical boring ones  it’s kinda long  so I thought I’d share? I’d recommend going to the doc for sorting faster. The names are also going under the cut because there is a bunch.

-A-

Ace

Adley

Agatha

Alexei

Aloe

Aloysius

Arabella

Archer

Arthur

Aster / Asterin

Astrid

Atlas

August

Auriel

Averil

Axel

-B-

Bandit

Barnaby

Blaze

Blythe

Belle

Benedict

Buck

Brycin

-C-

Cain

Callida

Camdyn

Camille

Capri

Cecilia / Cecily

Celaena

Chaol

Chia

Clara

Clover

Colt

Cora

Cori

Corin

Cyril

Cyrus

-D-

Daci

Dae

Dahlia

Dafine

Daia / Daian

Dash

Delan

Diesel

Dinah

Divya

Draven

Drusilla

-E-

Ebony

Edmund

Elaena

Eleanor

Elias

Elide

Emmett

Enoch

Etta

Evangeline

Enzo

-F-

Fabio

Fal

Fergus

Flora

Foster

Frances

Frankie

Freya

Fraser

Fyfe

Fynly

-G-

Gaeton

Gage

Garth

Gavin

Gen

Genavieve

Gideon

Ginni

Graham

Greer

Grey

Gunner

Gwyn

-H-

Hal / Hali

Hanly

Harlow

Harper

Henrietta

Hester

Holden

Horace

Hugh

Hypatia

-I-

Ida

Iggie

Ilia

Iona

Imogen

Indi

Indigo

Ira

Irene

Irwyn

Isla

Ivar

-J-

Jasper

Jax

Jessamine

Jezebel

Jia

Jinx

Jude

Jules

Julian

June

-K-

Kai

Kaltain

Karn

Kensley

Kenzo

Kieran

Kit

Krysta

-L-

Langley

Leo

Lennox

Lilith

Linette

Livia

Lorelie

Lumi

Luna

Lyra

-M-

Maeve

Manuel

Mara

Marabelle

Marlin

Mango

Magnus

Manon

Marlowe

Mica

Millie

Milo

Moe

-N-

Nadie

Naomi

Narra

Narses

Nehemia

Nelson

Nene

Nesryn

Nessa

Nigel

Nova

November

-O-

Oaklyn

Oba

Obbi / Obe

Ocean

Octavian

Odette

Ohara

Omari

Onyx

Onika

Opal

Ophelya

Orel

Orie

Oskar

Otis / Otto

-P-

Pace

Pandora

Parker

Pasha

Pavlo

Pea

Peanut

Perrie

Pia

Poe

Phoenix

Pike

Placyd

-Q-

Quillen

Quilla

Quincy

Quinn

Quintin

Quinty

Quix

-R-

Raely

Rafe

Rai

Rakeen

Ramzi

Ransom

Rayan

Rayner

Rin

Rio

Rocket

Rowan

Ruby

Rudy

Ruth

Ryker

-S-

Saffira

Sage

Sanjae

Sebastian

Sephra

Shade

Shiloh

Silas

Sinclair

Sinjin

Slade

Sloan

Soma

Sora

Suzume

-T-

Taddeo

Talon

Tatiana

Tavvy

Terryn

Tessa

Thames

Tiberius

Titus

Tobias

Tora

Trey

Tuesday

-U-

Udell

Ugo

Ulan

Uli

Ulrike

Umber

Una

Uri

Ursa

-V-

Vann / Vanni

Venus

Vernon

Vesa

Vic

Vida

Vin

Viro

Vyolette

-W-

Walten

Warren

Wasten

Wade

Waylan

Wednesday

Wiley

Willa

Windi

Winslow

Winter

Wren

Wyn

-X-

Xandi

Xavier

Xander

Xen

Xin

Xuxa

Xylon

Xzander

-Y-

Yan

Yasmin

Yazz

Yvone

Yza

-Z-

Zadie

Zadik

Zane

Zara

Zayden

Zeke

Zevi

Zion

Zia

Zola

Zoilo

Zora

Zuri

Zyler

[katzenkrieg]

Coming in for a landing after a long day of making life difficult for Hades/Emet-Selch.

[katzenkrieg]

Got Cam his wings finally!

[katzenkrieg]

Well, I spent real money in a frivolous virtual fashion.

But, damn, look at that bird. Glitterbird to go with my glitterWoL.

[katzenkrieg]

Why do you let me do this, SE.

Why. You knew I would have to.

[katzenkrieg]

Headcanon - Haurchefant

Finally got my lore entry written up for Haurchefant in my WoL lore document! Given that everything about Haurchefant is a Heavenwards spoiler, this is all under the cut.

Haurchefant (canon, illegitimate son of Lord Edmont; 28 at introduction, 29 or 30 at death) – Haurchefant’s sacrifice, like Moenbryda’s and Papalymo’s, was one of the defining moments in Cam’s journey to finally completely commit himself to being the Warrior of Light for his friends and the world. Where Moenbryda and Papalymo both chose to sacrifice themselves for a greater good, Haurchefant sacrificed himself entirely for Cam, without hesitation and without regret.

How do you process something like that? How do you honor someone loving you so selflessly that they died to save your life alone--not for future of the world, not because they saw you as something beyond yourself, but because they believed in and loved and hoped in *you,* personally, and didn’t want a world without you in it?

When he first met Haurchefant, Cam was, for good reason, creeped out. Clearly, Haurchefant wanted to jump his bones, and just as clearly, he was focused on Cam’s body before anything else. Cam hadn’t run into that kind of objectification--at least not to such an extreme level--before; certainly there had been people in the past who’d made it clear they found Cam attractive, but no one who was imagining him naked as obviously as Haurchefant. In general, Cam made a point of avoiding Haurchefant and of having at least one other person around if he had to deal with him.

Following his running from the Eorzean Alliance as a fugitive, Cam’s opinion of Haurchefant began to change. Though Haurchefant remained openly flirtatious, his sexualization of Cam toned down and instead changed to unwavering belief in Cam--not as the Warrior of Light, but as a person. His joy in being able to help Cam; his support when Ishgard challenged Cam, Alphinaud, and Tataru’s right to remain in the nation; his endorsement of Cam to Lord Edmont, his lack of expectation of anything in return, left Cam confused. Though the Scions and the leaders of the Eorzean Alliance had, in general, expressed support and admiration for Cam, they had done so in terms that made it clear they admired and supported the Warrior of Light and what he could do for them and for the Alliance as a whole. To be loved so effusively for being himself wasn’t something Cam could find a reason or explanation for -- in a way, it was more of a burden to live up to than even the expectations placed on Cam as the Warrior of Light, because how can you live up to the debt placed on you by someone who asks nothing from you at all? Even Cam’s increasingly close and increasingly public relationship with Cid had expectations by both of them attached, as partnerships generally do.

Cam never really got beyond accepting Haurchefant’s love with anything beyond bemusement and helplessness. And then Haurchefant died for him, with the final request that Cam keep the ability to smile, no matter what the future might hold.

It took Cam months to process Haurcefant’s sacrifice. At first he didn’t have time to really work it through--and he didn’t have the courage to ask anyone else to help him, either. Finally, in the aftermath of Thordan’s defeat and the rebirth of Niddhog, Cam opened up to Tataru, who suggested he talk to Alphinaud--who had also been deeply affected by Haurchefant’s death and who was struggling with his own reactions to Ysayle’s death and Estinien’s possession by Niddhog. Though Cam at first didn’t feel comfortable discussing his conflicted emotions with Alphinaud--who was a teenager, after all--he did eventually take the emotional risk of talking with Alphinaud about all of their recent losses, including Haurchefant. 

Alphinaud’s sensitivity and perceptiveness had increased remarkably since the fall of the Crystal Braves and the events of the Scions’ exile to Ishgard, and he surprised Cam by anticipating many of Cam’s feelings. Alphinaud reassured Cam that Haurchefant had made his choice with his eyes open, knowing that Cam likely didn’t and could never return his feelings. In talking together, they worked out that it wasn’t really up to Cam or Alphinaud to decide whether they were worth dying for; in the end, people do what they believe is right for those people, places, and values they love and what they do defines *them,* not the people or things they act for. Ysayle and Haurchefant had died defining themselves, not defining Cam. Louisoix and Moenbryda had done the same, as had those on the opposite side of the battlefield--Thordan, Lahabrea, Niddhog. There was no burden for Cam to carry in those who sacrificed for him, only hope that he would live to act for those he loved and valued, too. Cam’s holding deeply to the concept of acting for ‘those we have lost, and for those we can yet save’ had its roots in this conversation and in Cam and Alphinaud’s later conviction to do whatever they could to save Estinien.

Cam later had a similar conversation with Cid, who was very straightforward in reassuring Cam that Cam was absolutely a good enough person to be worth dying for, but that Cid himself intended to do everything possible to make sure neither of them ever got to a point where either of them had to make a decision to sacrifice themselves for the other. That was, in fact, part of what drove Cid in his engineering work--the belief that, if applied correctly, technology could help people avoid circumstances where sacrifices like that were necessary.

Successfully saving Estinien, and the feeling that Haurchefant somehow aided in that rescue, helped Cam finally reach peace with Haurchefant’s choice. Lord Edmont’s acceptance of Cam as, essentially, an adopted son also helped Cam; being a part of Haurchefant’s family gave him room to learn more about Haurchefant after his death and to share in the grief over his passing and in his remembrance. 

Eventually, his memories of Haurchefant changed from being colored by confusion and guilt to memories that strengthened Cam’s resolve to fight for his friends and never give up. Particularly in Norvrandt, these memories and this conviction were invaluable. 

Cam visits Haurchefant’s grave annually (or on special occasions, such as finally getting back from an alternate world…) and leaves small offerings of things he’s found in his travels he thinks Haurchefant would like. (He does the same with the graves of everyone else he’s lost, including family members, Moenbryda, Papalymo, and others. He even does it with Ardbert’s, despite knowing whatever remains of Ardbert is experiencing Cam’s travels right along with him.)

[katzenkrieg]

Bozja posing.

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Finally got the Manderville Mambo emote, Cam’s library of enthusiastic expressions increases.

[katzenkrieg]

Headcanon - Random Notes (some lewd)

Started out writing down notes to myself on what Cam thinks of the fact *so many arcanic/ghost/whatever entities* can just show up and watch him sleep whenever they feel like it; segued inevitably onto notes on Cam’s sex life.

And Cid’s and Nero’s. Honestly, half of this will end up in Nero’s entry when I finally write it up. Cid/WoL/Nero OT3. 

Spoilers for ShB, also just lewd silliness, including BDSM. Nothing explicit or graphic, though! I’m generally a PG-13 kind of writer; R at the very most.

Cam has absolutely woken up to find Emet-Selch watching him sleep--and looking as bored as he always does. Cam’s so used to having people watch him sleep--Ardbert, Feo Ul, Midgardsomr, Shanoa, etc., etc.--that he’d just throw a pillow at him or throw him the Eorzean equivalent of the bird and go back to sleep and/or get up and attempt to shove the Ascian out of the room/window/off any nearby cliffs or into any nearby thorny underbrush before going about getting ready for the day.

Cam never sleeps naked. Way too many people have the ability to just show up wherever he happens to be and watch him sleep. (Cid finds this tendency of arcanic entities to just suddenly *be there* in the bedroom/kitchen/bathroom/whatever a lot more disturbing than Cam does. Cam’s just like, “Tell them to fuck off and/or ignore them, I don’t know why they don’t all have better things to do.”)

Feo Ul has *absolutely* shown up while Cam and Cid were having sex. So has Midgardsomr. The commentary they offered was very different. Shanoa and Mochi (I headcanon the black coeurl kitten minion as Shanoa, and have lore for Cam’s Fat/Fatter Cat being an arcanic entity) both have to be forcibly shut out of the room, and will still occasionally and inconveniently just appear suddenly in the middle of the bed.

So far, Nero has *not* shown up while Cam and Cid were having sex, though he’ll certainly stop to watch and make snide comments and offer suggestions if they ever kiss or flirt anywhere he happens to be. And he *has* walked in when they were clearly about to start something and been very “hey, don’t mind me, I’ve seen at least half of all of this before” and then showed no signs of leaving.

Cid is ace-adjacent/demisexual. He’s prone to forgetting sex is even a thing, though he’ll respond when Cam reminds him. Cam and Cid don’t exactly have a wild sex life, but that’s fine by both of them. When you’ve already got the whole world(s) following your performance and pressuring you to give more than 100% all of the time in all other areas of your life, *not* having that in the bedroom (at least not with your primary partner) is actually a relief to Cam.

Cam has had sex with Nero, and they continue to occasionally get together even after Cam and Cid are married. Cid’s aware of this and has no problem with it. It helps get Nero off his back (literally, if Nero had his way), and, contrary to what you might expect, it actually seems to be good for all of them. Nero just wants *someone* to dom him, ffs. And it looks like it’s never going to be Cid, so the Warrior of Light will do as the next best thing. Cam’s actually quite competent--though obviously very *quiet*--as a dom. And, hey, he grew up in Limsa Lominsa around a lot of fishermen/women; he’s pretty good with knots. Unsurprisingly, Nero is a very mouthy sub, though he’s also remarkably creative and quite a bit of fun. 

Nero is also 100% the kind of sub who *will* try to get out of any ropes/gags/anything else and then try to get them on Cam--and if he succeeds, immediately go “wait, now what, this isn’t half as much fun.” Despite being very loudly interested in performing scientific tests (on his aether density, his memories/brain functions since Ardbert Rejoined with him, the sin eater mutation in his throat, trying to figure out whether he’s Tempered, etc.) on Cam when he’s around Cam in public, he’s not pulled anything like that in the bedroom. He would never admit it, but Nero absolutely knows where the boundaries are--and that if he crosses them, he’s not just out of Cid and Cam’s lives, he’s likely out of Eorzea altogether.

Nero *has,* though, left Cam handcuffed to pipes/machinery/desks/whatever in the Ironworks. But only in places/times where he’s absolutely certain the only person who’ll find Cam is Cid. This just makes Cam roll his eyes. And Cid go “You kill gods regularly, don’t tell me you couldn’t get out of that if you wanted to.” (Cam could.)

Nero has also never pressed for a threesome--in large part because he’s afraid Cid would turn out to not be very good in bed (by Nero’s standards) and that the experience would confirm that Cid is not attracted to Nero at all. Nero would rather not have these suspicions confirmed.

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So the pixie quests are amazing? /the Scions are going to be like, “Uh...has anyone seen the Warrior of Light? In...weeks, maybe?” /Feo Ul shows up to tell them he’s been goofing around in a magic playground the whole time

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Halloween glamour ready for being a Halloween wedding guest!

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Chibis of my WoL and my sister’s, for an informal version of the WoL sticker exchange. Accurate representation of how much my sister’s bard cares if my paladin appears to be in trouble.

Also of how much Cam loves cats and Ransom loves fish.

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Okay, the new mount has potential.

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Headcanon: Cam’s Physical and Mental/Aetheric Changes from pre-ARR through post-5.3

“What should I do today?” I wonder to myself. “I think I’ll stay on task and be produc--no, wait, now I’m writing a six-page overview of all the changes Cam’s experienced over the entirety of his story so far. Hm.”

Spoilers for everything through 5.3; Cam’s full lore document is here. It is currently 103 pages long. No regerts.

Physical and Mental/Aetheric Changes (A Rough Timeline):

The Battle of Carteneau begins - has first Echo flash (doesn’t remember it later)

The Battle of Carteneau ends - while knocked unconscious, has his face permanently tattooed by an experimental Garlean prisoner-of-war-marking device. The device is faulty, and also inflicts electrical damage that leaves Cam permanently mute.

The Calamity takes place and resolves - along with everyone else on the Source, Cam is assumed to have Rejoined with the shard of his shared soul that lived in whichever world was destroyed during the Calamity. The Rejoining took place across the rift/Lifestream, so no memories accompany the Rejoining, though it does increase soul density.

Regularly following the Battle of Carteneau to the present day - has Echo flashes, painful pseudo-blackouts during which he experiences the memories of others. He can’t predict when these will happen or will them to happen; though they can be useful, they’re also a serious liability, since they can (and do) occur in the middle of battle. The Echo also allows him to understand all spoken languages and to be understood when speaking (or, in his case, signing).

5 years after Carteneau, when he arrives in Gridania - first hears Hydaelyn’s voice and sees her in visions. It’s possible he’s Tempered by Hydaelyn at this time, giving him resistance to Tempering by other primals. Sporadically hears and has visions of Hydaelyn from that time to the present day.

Before the final battle with Gaius and the Ultima Weapon - receives the full Blessing of Light. Provides him with some protection against Ascian influence and allows him to summon a weapon of Light at pivotal moments, particularly when necessary to destroy Ascians.

After fighting Midgardsormr - loses the Blessing of Light, apparently due to Midgardsormr’s interference or in response to a bargain struck between Midgardsormr and Hydaelyn. His ability to hear Hydaelyn and call on the Blessing weakens; in particular, he no longer has unique protection against and the ability to destroy Ascians. He’s still able to be understood and to understand others, though, and still has Echo flashes.

Over the course of his time in Ishgard - regains the Blessing of Light.

During his final confrontations with both Thordan VII and Nidhogg - channels the power of both an eye of Nidhogg and an eye of Hraesvelgr. Doesn’t seem to be permanently influenced by either of these experiences, but it’s always possible something will show up in the future.

During his time in the First, prior to the defeat of Emet-Selch/Hades - absorbs the Light of five Lightwardens. Each absorption further disrupts his aether; to people with the ability to see aether, his looks exactly like that of a Lightwarden, even prior to his absorbing the Light of all five. Begins to experience brief painful convulsions during which he emits Light aether and has his vision blurred by Light. Following the absorption of Innocence/Vauthry’s Light energy, he loses control over the Light energy within him and becomes, for all intents and purposes, a Lightwarden in everything but appearance. 

He immediately begins to regain his voice, although it’s no longer one that’s recognizably human--it sounds almost metallic, extremely precise and clear, and seems to come from all directions at once.

Over the next few weeks, his new voice strengthens and sin eater growth forms around his throat; it replaces his damaged voice box. 

Regularly coughs up white ichor.

His hair begins to bleach to white.

His facial tattoos also begin to bleach, turning a very light gold/yellow.

His eye color begins to deepen to a truer red. 

White scar-like lines appear leading down from the sin eater growth at his throat straight down his sternum to the base of his ribcage, horizontally across the base of his ribcage, and across the top of his collarbones. These lines become more distinct over time and a recession starts to appear in the middle of each, as though the skin there is receding/pulling apart.

He begins to develop sharp downwards-pointing scale-like growth lining his throat, similar to pharyngeal teeth in some predators. 

His vision is permanently washed-out by Light and increasingly colorless. 

Any clothes he wears or objects he has on his person regularly also begin to bleach out to shades of white and gold. 

About a week into being a Lightwarden- he collapses during the Scions’ undersea search for Emet-Selch and almost loses control to the point of transforming. Fortunately, he has enough time to call on Feo Ul out of desperation; they answer and inform the Scions that Cam’s starving--he now requires living aether to survive. If he goes without living aether too long, he’ll collapse and transform; with living aether, he may be able to hold out longer against transformation. Feo Ul channels enough aether to Cam that he’s able to recover.

Following his first collapse from aether starvation - at least one aether-rich being stays near Cam (preferably touching him) at all times. Feo Ul, Midgardsormr, Shanoa, and Mochi (his Fat/ter Cat) all help by playing this roll in turns--usually by riding on his shoulder or on top of his pack. Ardbert also offers aether. At night, all of them (including Ardbert) sleep either next to him or curled up on top of him, feeding him aether throughout the night. 

By the time they reach Amaurot - even the combined efforts of the beings feeding him aether are becoming stretched, and Cam has begun to catch himself viewing living things (especially anything very small, like the tidepool invertebrates the Tempest is full of) as food/prey. 

After entering Amaurot - the nature of Amaurot and Emet-Selch’s power there prevents any of the aether-rich beings who’ve been helping Cam from entering the city; only Ardbert is able to accompany Cam into Amaurot. His time in the city is marked by increasingly desperate hunger, to the point that he *does* eat some small creatures alive (but magically stunned) to see if that helps. It does, but only a tiny amount. He tries to conceal all of this from the other Scions. (Cam’s about as sneaky as a box of rocks falling on your head, so this doesn’t work very well.)

During the confrontation with Emet-Selch - loses control entirely and collapses, coughing up ichor, and beginning his final transformation into a sin eater. Ardbert offers to Rejoin with Cam, and Cam accepts, giving them both enough aether and a strong enough Rejoined soul to channel the Light aether within them into a weapon of Light and wipe out Hades.

Immediately following Hades’ defeat - having used the weapon of Light, he appears completely purged of excess Light energy and almost all of his Lightwarden transformations have disappeared, except the mutation around his throat and his sin eater voice. His hair color and tattoos remained bleached; his eyes have returned to their normal color.

After returning to the Source (but before the other Scions are able to return) - 

His hair begins to grow back in darker, eventually darkening to his usual black with blue highlights.

His facial tattoos gradually return to black.

Over the course of several weeks, he weakens again, similarly to, though not as severely as, he weakened due to aether hunger in the First. He returns to the Source briefly to consult Y’shtola, the Exarch, and Urianger about this; they confirm that, contrary to their original impressions right after the fight with Hades, his aether is still over-aspected to Light and it seems as though he still retains some need for living aether. He’s no longer at risk of transforming into anything if he ‘goes hungry,’ but he will eventually weaken and possibly eventually fall into a coma. 

Feo Ul, Midgardsormr, Shanoa, and Mochi all again take up the responsibility of making sure to feed him enough aether that the aether hunger doesn’t affect him; this is much, much easier than before, and he really only needs a small aether infusion each day. The cats, in particular, are around him enough anyway that he rarely notices any deprivation. 

Krile also suggests he and Cid (or other researchers/scientists) find a way to cultivate an extremely aether-rich phytoplankton that’s native to oceans in the Source and make sure Cam keeps several vials of water infused with them on his person at all times, on the off-chance he’s isolated somewhere where Feo Ul, Midgardsormr, Shanao, and Mochi aren’t able to reach him. The idea is a successful one, and he carries this solution with him, in magical suspension so the phytoplankton stay alive, at all times.

His voice remains inhuman and disturbing, and the sin eater growth around his throat proves to be permanent.

Cid adapts an ancient Allagan caster’s torque so that it modifies Cam’s voice into something comfortably human. Cam starts wearing the torque at all times.

Cam has continuous (often several times a day) painful Echo-like flashes from Ardbert’s memories. He assumes (correctly) that this is a result of Rejoining with Ardbert, and just accepts that they’re a handicap he has to deal with and that they may never go away (though he’s concerned that they may mean Ardbert’s soul hasn’t completely Rejoined with his and is in pain).

He has night terrors and intense nightmares, most of them containing flashbacks of either Ardbert’s traumatic memories (particularly his own suicide and that of his friends’ and his time spent alone as a lost spirit) or the moments Cam came closest to transforming into a Lightwarden.

He discovers he can now fight using the great axe and a marauder/warrior style, despite never having trained with/in these.

He finds that he’s more apt to speak (though he still usually signs out of habit and preference, especially before Cid develops the torque that modifies his voice); Ardbert had no experience ever being unable to speak, and this affects Cam’s own tendencies. 

He’s now amazingly good with animals. He was never bad with them before, but he’s incredibly good with riding animals and sometimes even wild animals now, and can calm them remarkably effectively and quickly. This is, again, based on Ardbert’s own talents and life experiences.

After defeating Elidibus and being exposed to Azem’s memory stone:

The painful Echo flashes of Ardbert’s memories disappear, and Cam and Ardbert finally integrate completely. Memories from part of his soul’s time as Ardbert are all there for Cam to access, but they’re comfortably distant and don’t conflict with or disrupt his memories of his life as just Cam or his life after Rejoining; they usually come up to the surface when he needs them or when he runs into something in particular that reminds him of something specific from that time (sense memories, in particular, will trigger for him now and then). He’s able to navigate the First as though he’s lived there for years, and knows a lot more than people who don’t know about his Rejoining think could be possible about the world before the flood of Light.

His night terrors and nightmares become less frequent and severe, though they don’t entirely go away.

He remembers anything that involved Cam and Ardbert being in the same place at the same time from both sides, which *can* be a bit disorienting. One reliable way to make Cam blush is to ask about what that’s like and how much he remembers in that way--since he and Ardbert had developed a sexual/romantic relationship as time went on in the First (which obviously required quite a bit of creativity), he has some two-perspective memories that he’s never going to describe to anyone, thanks.

People ask if it feels like he’s two people or if Ardbert’s still there within him as a separate entity. Cam has yet to successfully explain to anyone, but to him it feels like he’s just always been one person--just occasionally that one person was in two places at once. He also thinks this should feel weird, and like it somehow invalidates his being Cam or Ardbert’s being Ardbert, but it doesn’t. It just feels natural.

Cam’s aether’s settled even more into a proper stable integrated state, more so than it’s ever been post-Lightwarden and post-Rejoining. It’s also more intense and slightly denser, even considering his Rejoining. Y’shtola and Urianger have concluded this, and the complete integration of Ardbert’s soul and memories, must be a result of Cam’s experience with Azem’s memory stone.

He still retains some aether hunger, but it’s extremely slight and even the normal level of exposure to arcanic or aether-rich entities that comes from going about an average day means he rarely even notices it.

His voice, even without the torque, still sounds recognizably inhuman but also less alien. He’s comfortable using his voice unmodified now in certain situations (especially if he needs projection or needs to be heard through a lot of other noise/chaos). The sin eater growth hasn’t changed.

He’s grown several inches. Fortunately, this growth spurt stopped after a few months and doesn’t show any signs of returning. It does mean he went without any clothes or armor that fit properly for a while :| Again, everyone assumes this was a result of exposure to Azem’s memory stone. Cam’s just grateful he hasn’t ended up 15 feet tall…

His hair started to grow in a different color again--this time yellow and orange. At this point, Cam’s just like, “oh, fuck it, who cares anymore” about changing coloration occasionally. This is likely another result of exposure to Azem’s memory stone; Cam’s body seems to have shifted slightly to reflect some of what the Scions assume was Azem’s appearance.

His facial tattoos have also lightened back to light gold/yellow, though they’ll shift rather startlingly to an intense light blue from time to time--sometimes quickly and briefly and sometimes fading into the color and back over the course of days. Nero’s posited that it’s related to aether conditions, either externally or internally, or possibly due to the interplay of both external and internal conditions, but, as usual, no one’s letting him test this theory out by exposing Cam to aetherical extremes. No fun.

After having it pointed out to him that tattoos aren’t *actually* part of someone’s living body and they really shouldn’t be able to change with him like that, Cam’s grudgingly accepted that they’re probably part of him and not just ink scarring his skin any longer. Urianger has also untactfully pointed out that they look remarkably like Ascian projection markings or possibly Amaurotine mask markings, and Cam gave him enough of a look that Urianger shut up. 

Cam can call up a glamour to make both his hair and facial tattoos appear their original colors if he wants to; he can’t do much about the height change, though.

Cam’s sure he’s not Azem, despite the physical changes; the memory stone gave him some general vague feelings about Azem’s existence and nature, but nothing specific. Overall, what he felt from it was rock-solid reassurance that no matter what changed in the future, his life was his own and not Azem’s and that he could be absolutely confident in that. It also seems to have, as mentioned above, strengthened his aetherical integration and smoothed over all of the cracks both becoming a Lightwarden and Rejoining left in his aether and identity.

Experientially, Cam is now the second oldest Scion, behind G’raha Tia. Ardbert was likely in his 20s and Cam is 35 at the end of Shadowbringers; Ardbert also spent a century as a wandering ghost. This brings Cam up to around 160 years old -- 60 if you don’t count Ardbert’s time after death. Thancred is very pleased not to have to deal with being the ‘old man’ of the Scions any longer, now that Cam and G’raha have taken that title and run off with it by centuries. Cid now occasionally emphasizes the ‘old’ when he calls Cam ‘old friend,’ if he really wants to give Cam shit.