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bosjess · 1 year

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The guy I had been seeing a bit told me he’s not looking for other dates right now (and at this point we had been ok with no exclusivity so it’s fine) but then goes “in a couple of months when I’m done with work I’ll be on the apps” and I’m like ??????

we discussed that we were trying to take this to somewhere serious and check in (in like a month?) so completely antithetical to that unless like he has already made up his mind to not see me anymore, knowing what I want and what we discussed, just revealed it and still had invited me over to stay anyway (so used me for sex I guess?)

I’m so tired and feel sick so I would be more upset but Jesus Christ

#I literally despise casual dating #I feel like a sex doll #and I hate casual intimacy too now #casual intimacy is a fucking oxymoron honestly #but it feels so hollow and meaningless and fake #you’re a warm body #these people are like reptiles on warm rocks #yet I’ve been terrified of being honest and communicating each time #because I don’t want to be difficult or unreasonable #fuck that #life is short #to me that means trying to explore real intimacy or a real connection #I guess for others that means sex #or it means never being vulnerable #I am a person #I am like many people a monogamous person when it gets to that #I’m fucking tired of feeling like a body #yeah update dumb past me he cannot see a relationship with you but he has feelings for you but now he’s ignoring you again #where’s that it will end in tears jacket

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