#chyba

[nataneks]

W nienawiści, bez miłości

Żyć ciągle, tylko z listości

By pewnego, pięknego dnia

Stworzyć piękne wspomnienia

Z kimś ważnym u swego boku

Wyjść z tego mroku

By móc zrobić wszystko

By mieć swoje towarzystwo

By uśmiech nigdy nie znikał

By pięknem swym przenikał

I kiedyś się przekonać

Że nie można tego dokonać

[feel-like-a-monster]

nie wiem co dzisiaj zrobiłam innego ale nikt sie do mnie nie dosiadł w autobusie 😍

nawet jakaś stara baba, która ledwo stała, mimo że miejsce obok mnie było wolne

marzenia się spełniają kochani

[archvampyr]

Can you talk more about your time as a film extra? It sounds very interesting

Sure!

It started in winter 2020, during my second year of uni. I studied graphic design and prinmaking, both are expensive af (Adobe programs for design + special papers and ink for prints, one sheet of said paper can cost up to $20/80PLN). I was born in the city that I went to uni in, so there was no need for me to pay landlords or even buy my own food, but still, the materials were bonkers costly, so I decided to earn some money for them. It's really easy to become an extra, all you have to do is find an extra studio (Wrocław has two, I'm signed to ABM to this day), record a scene straight from a shit pseudo-documentary (ukryta prawda, Polacy wiedzą), which isn't published, it's just for them to see if you're ok for speaking roles. Then you sign a paper and they send you emails with movies or shows they need people for. It doesn't pay well, but it's ok if you just need a tiny, tiny bit of money.

My first show was Pierwsza Miłość, it was an episode about some guy getting spiked during a party? I never watched this series before and had no idea what was going on :) But turns out the medical people in Polish TV are actual medical pros and the equipment (like defibrillators) is 100% real! On my first shooting day it was freezing cold, around -8 C, but we could eat and drink everything that was on the tables during the fake party we were filming. I went for that show a few times, since they were making an entire season.

The main event of this job happened last autumn, when TVP (we hate TVP here I hate the government I hate homophobia I hate sexism <3 I want them dead) was filming a (kinda crap) historical drama Kordian. The source material is a classic of Polish romanticism, but they took it let's say liberally. I went because I like the book and it's a historical costume film. A few days before shooting, me and the other extras had to go to the main TV and radio building to get our costumes fitted. I had no idea who was about to play the important speaking roles, and when I found out I was literally shocked? Some of my mutuals know that I'm into Sienkiewicz's trilogy (a book series from the 1880s), which got adapted into movies when Poland was a communist country. I love the films a lot, the most known one is The Deluge (which happen to be the movie with the most historically accurate saber fight in film history), starring some of the most well known Polish actors of that time. And they were about to be in the movie I was in IN THE SAME SCENES? We had mr. Olbrychski (Kmicic), mr. Teleszyński (Boguś) and mr. Nowicki (Ketling z Pana Wołodyjowskiego). And Pazura but I found out he's an awful dude, and he didn't have a role in Trilogy movies, he's just famous. I got my makeup done right next to Pazura and I wanted to punch him in the face because of all the sexist stulejarz stuff he was saying <3

99 % of extra work is waiting, so we did that for like 7 hours (legit) and then played a few scenes by the Wrocław cathedral. It was brutal since I was in a historical outfit and heels on a renaissance pavement :/ I talked to some fellow extras, tbh it was slightly intimidating to be next to mr. Teleszyński, dude is like 2m tall and very, very proud and stoic. Mr. Olbrychski on the other hand is such a walking meme. He's like a million years old, yet I wish to be as fit as he is. Bro literally run off into the churchy distance because he was done with the film crew, smoked a cig and came back only because he was excited to see a horse he was about to ride. (he likes horses a lot and I think rescues horses on his own or somethin??) When he met the horse and befriended him (just a disclaimer, I know nothing abt horses), he got on it and escaped the set yet again, to have a ride around the cathedral. The street wasn't closed off so it was pretty funny watching pedestrians be like "o kurwa was that Olbrychski on a horse rn?". He played his role, it took two takes, his voice is as loud as a whole ass Rammstein live show, pyro included. Also he uses a flip phone from the 2000s. I got a picture with him. I was sitting on the pavement, scrolling on discord, while he just materialised out of thin air right in front of me and talked to some coffee people I believe? So I got up as quickly as I could and screamed CAN I SNAP A PIC into his unimpressed face. He just murmured "yea", and we got a photo. I have a pic with all the actors, but I'm an average young (1970s-1980s) Olbrychski enjoyer and my pinterst board is impressive. Mr Teleszyński I met maybe after 30 minutes of being on the set, as I said he was very stoic but much less done with everything.

I must admit, I expected these actors to be just kinda normal, but they're such unforgetable personalities! Can't say much about mr. Nowicki, because I didn't notice him in the makeup camper :)))) I didn't move my head much since I didn't wanna piss off the makeup artist, it was a different extra that told me we even were in one place together.

That was my last time on a set, but I'm willing to go back once or twice, if they do some other historical movies.

[ve-vi-ci]

,, Chyba już zawsze będę dla Ciebie tylko jedną z opcji"

[twoja-prawdziwa-wariatka]

Nie robię tego specjalnie. Nie umiem chyba inaczej. Znikam, kiedy jest mi bardzo źle. Odcinam się gdy nie umiem sobie z tym poradzić. Po dobno to żaden wstyd. To dlaczego ja się tego później wstydzę?. Niby jest to efekt licznych traum, przewlekłego stresu, nadmiaru emocji oraz nie leczonej depresji po relacji która mnie prawie zabiła. Ja tam nie wiem, obwiniam tylko i wyłącznie siebie i własną głupotę. Wszystko to tylko w końcu użalanie się nad sobą, wymówki oraz moje dziwne fanaberie..

[my-cat-eats-toes]

kurwa zapomniałam pokazać tego gifa co zrobiłam

[futrynka-ii]

Niby chciałabym wrócić ale tak mi łatwiej

[pyramidazkaret]

prý se bojí, že jednou bude mít dceru

a já se bojím taky

jeho podvědomá nenávist k ženám

pocit, že mu všechny něco dluží 

potřeba je mít pod kontrolou

ignorovat „ne“ 

vysmívat se „nechci“

vymýšlet nejnechutnější sexuální praktiky

ale být zhnusený kojením a menstruací

…

snad nebude mít dceru

[dumkana16]

kto opisuje osobę jako "podobna do shazzy".... girl

[pustazapalniczka]

Nie mam zamiaru nikomu w życiu dorównać

Chyba, że sobie w drodze do lepszego jutra

Już nigdy w życiu sama siebie nie zawiodę

Trzymam się mocno steru, obiecuję będzie dobrze

[mgrvasko]

Súhlasíš ? Čo si o tom myslis ? Aký máš na to názor ? 🙏ďakujem za všetky chyby ktoré som urobil a hlavne za tie z ktorých som sa poučil🙏 👂počul som aj toto: Chyba je chybou len vtedy ak ku opakuješ a poučením vtedy keď sa z nej poučíš🤷🏻‍♂️ #chyba #chyby #poucenie #motivacia #motivácia #inspiracia #inšpirácia #vďačnosť #zamyslenie #myslenie #pozitivnemyslenie #osobnostnyrozvoj #osobnyrozvoj #rozvojosobnosti #hodnota (na mieste Bratislava, Slovakia) https://www.instagram.com/p/CiJ0KLuq1lb/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[nataneks]

Wykonywałem kiedyś wyzwania

By później składać zeznania

Nie umiałem się zmienić

Bo chciałem się uśmiercić

I w końcu zrozumiałem

Że to są podstawy

Życia zabawy

[taconafide2]

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[automatonknight]

MIŁOŚĆ DO RYCERSKIEGO KODEKSU ALE RACZEJ NIE DO SEKSU ⚔️

[skrzynka]

BOZE ZAPOMNIALAM ZABRAC OD RODZICOW OLEJ SEZAMOWY

[rudycrowley]

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