#claireified

[itsbeenclaireified]

Last night my friend asked me if wanted to go see Taylor Swift in Scotland in June, and I was like “I’m interested” and then she called me and was like we should do it!! And then I was like well what are flights etc? And spoiler it was very expensive (read $3k for 30 hours in Scotland), but last night I was like YOLO.

And her/her husband were like looking up a bunch of flights and options and stuff, but they never presented me any options and stuff? And they are two hours behind me so I said I’m going to bed, let me know what you find in the morning.

Well in the cold light of morning I was like actually…I’m having second thoughts. So I texted her and apparently they booked a nonrefundable hotel and like our plane or train tickets from London to Edinburgh? Which I did not agree to, and was like we’re still in the 24 hour window for any tickets just cancel those.

So now I feel like an absolute asshole asking for things to be canceled because I didn’t realize she was doing things. I’m just not really in a financial place to just drop $3k??? Like I could figure it out if I really really wanted to and that is a privilege but also ughhhhh I’m not in a place where that is a small amount of money.

And I keep looking at my texts and now I’m interpreting them differently and being like…did I lead her on??? But I was expecting them to like give me options on like what flight and what hotel and stuff??? And I didn’t expect her to book a nonrefundable hotel without asking me.

Anyway, she spent $1.4k on the nonrefundable hotel and maybe I will have to help split that cost with her unless I can talk to her into just going alone or having her husband go or the hotel decides to be merciful.

[txttletale]

i rly like your opinions and your style of explaining and elaborating on them. good & accessible rhetorical style

thank you!!

[caspia-hibiscus]

i must claireify

she is trans

[mbabol]

@claireifier re: discoposting I KNOWWWW THE HALOOOOOOS BUT I WAS WONDERING IF THERE WERE LIKE….ANY IN GAME ASSOCIATIONS W THE COLOR WHITE LIKE THE OTHER COLORS AND BEHOLD

I FOUND ONE

[fruitbag]

my brain worms are unionizing. au ?

spoilers for hxh under the cut

anyway i say that but the REAL analogues are jake-killua and dirk-gon. this is my thesis for an audience of one.

[redpandarascal]

Grimes. this is exactly what has happened. you do not get to control the PR around all the dumb shit you do so that people word it as though it’s cool. that sentence is exactly what has happened and is entirely accurate (unless Grimes claireifies that she is doing a weird project and not actually pregnant)

[notatruefan]

I got a couple requests yesterday and while I briefly entertained the idea that I could write them after my instructor training, I grossly underestimated how tired I would be rolling home at 10 pm. And since I'm an old lady now with morning time responsibilities I basically just passed out. But tonight! I do not have training so you can expect me crank that like Solija Boy and have them posted sometime in the later evening. So Peace, Love, and One Direction everyone!! I can't wait to see what you all think of me crashing back into the writing scene. I wore a One Direction shirt to work for luck. The things I do for these boys...

[itsbeenclaireified]

So this season I decided to be like FUCK IT let’s plant ALL THE PLANTS.

So today, with the help of my sister, I put in 2 new planter beds and filled them, and then also planted 19 containers with some veggies and herbs. There’s still some planting to do INSIDE the planter beds. But that’s a good chunk for today.

I managed to build the beds themselves on my own while I was waiting for my sister, but then caffeine induced panic started to set in that was like “but what if it doesn’t work”?

And if my sister hadn’t been there I might have stopped after I bought all the soil for the beds. Because I really started to overthink it all. Like when we were throwing in sticks to add a little bulk to the bottom of the raised beds I definitely was like “this feels like prank?? How can sticks be part of this??” And “how can I be allowed to make decisions alone, I am a baby”.

But now! Like half the things are planted, and I can just throw in the rest on another day!

So many things to look forward to! And yes some of those seeds are duplicate but I went wild with a variety pack and some other seeds when I had a Lowe’s gift card. So not everything will be planted but the possibilities are fun!

Also I feel like I’m being edged by tulips and daffodils because they are still not actually in bloom lol

Trixie helped from inside the house.

[itsbeenclaireified]

Update on my friend and the whole hotel debacle

The hotel wasn’t refundable, and I basically told her that I wasn’t going to contribute and maybe she could find like a third party vendor (or still go herself) so they didn’t just eat the cost.

She accepted that they got swept up in the moment and she hoped it didn’t impact our friendship. Which I told her it hadn’t, and it hasn’t, but it has re-certified that i will need to communicate stricter boundaries if we ever try to plan again.

[itsbeenclaireified]

it's been a while... life update?

It’s been busy!!

I went on a ski trip with (new) friends to Taos, New Mexico (February)

Then skiing with my family in Utah (February)

And then lastly to Snowmass, Colorado for a ski instructor spring rally. (April)

I also went to a conference in Chicago for my role, and it was both educational and also damnnnn it was fancy. (March)

My job has been busy as we start to gear up for a BIGGGG test we’re going to run in October and basically every time I went on vacation shit hit the fan while I was out. And that’s a whole other story of shenanigans. Like you shouldn’t try to plan life around work, but also it’s hard to come back on a Monday and be like ughhhhhh. But all the trips were worth the pain.

And then on top of all we wrapped season 7 of fine pairings and then recorded a bunch of bonus episodes 👀 and yeah…that was a lot of work but also fun.

And now that it’s starting to be spring in Minnesota I feel the energy returning to me! And I’m getting excited for projects! And organizing!

And look! My bulbs are growing!! We’re getting close to flowering.

And most importantly, Trixie remains cute.

Stay turned to see if the 20+ seed packets I’ve purchased turn into an interesting garden this year!

And I’m going RAGBRAI again this year (pray for me because its gonna be HILLY). I’ve started training, but this week I need to start incorporating hills training.

[itsbeenclaireified]

Inside me there are 2 wolves.

One wants to cancel every plan I could ever have, and catch up on chores: clean my house, organize my furnace room, paint a bathroom.

The other wants to drink in every moment of summer with friends and activities and circle back when it’s fall.

[itsbeenclaireified]

So I work in medical devices right? Well today I get to present some slides to the FDA, and I’m both excited and nervous about it.

Which maybe that would explain why I ate a whole tub of buffalo chicken dip last night for dinner.

I mean it’s a presentation, it’ll be fine. They’re just people. But yeah I’m responding to questions they had to our questions to them in a pre-submission, and I hope it goes well.

[itsbeenclaireified]

I am wearing press-on nails for the first time, and out of the box they were way longer that I imagined for my first attempt. They’re the Olive and June non-glue ones so you put some like sticky pad down and so far they’re holding up!

I was just reflecting I thought I was bad at nail shaping but actually I think the real reason is that my natural nails curl so unpredictably I can’t know if the shape I do will stay. But now I’m seeing that I actually do an okay job.

Anyway, if feels sort of crazy on my hand because my nails are much much thicker that normal, and also feel weird when I try to pick something up.

[itsbeenclaireified]

I finally cracked a break thru in my personal skiing yesterday in carving and it felt absolutely amazing!

I need to figure out how to get a photo or something of me doing it because it felt crazy. And the clinician I was working with is one that I’ve been working with for 10 years so I just really value his input and so it just felt extra special.

It’s just been a while since I’ve felt like I’ve made a big jump in level, and when you’re at my level everything is at such a fine tune that sometimes I gaslight myself and think “you can’t really tell what’s wrong there, you’re just guessing”. But yesterday I really felt like it clicked and it felt amazing.

[itsbeenclaireified]

January is for logistics.

The first week of the new year I got quoted $17k to have my sewer line dug up and replaced, after multiple hours of inspections from my basement drain backing up.

Then I called MORE plumbers and got the sewer line snaked instead for 1 million tree roots and it’s appears to be fine now.

While all of that was happening work stuff was also happening. Because this week I had to fly to Chicago for a study so everyone was getting me parts for that.

Luckily the sewer thing got resolved before I left because that was stressful, and then at the study I was do MORE logistics for the study and having to call people and do all sorts of things to fix things that were happening.

Now I’m home again, virtually watching the study and my colleague who has also been there the whole time with me is sort of useless? So it’s like why are you here if you are no help? And even now that I’m not there it’s still me he wants to fix things. Like no my dude, you are tapped in.

So let this be a reminder: if it’s more than a couple hundred bucks definitely get another opinion and also damn adulthood is expensive and tiring.

[itsbeenclaireified]

Also I looked back and I wanted to also update that the mouse count got to 12…..and now it’s quiet. So that’s another win.

I had sort of a tough day at work where I got some feedback from my manager that I talk too much in the smaller room my team has been assigned to work in. So I’m a distraction. And this has struck an insecurity of mine, so I’m working thru that.

But I didn’t cry about it until I got to the car and that’s also a win! And I’m trying to reframe it that this is feedback just like I would get skiing, and it’s just meant for my improvement and not that I’m in trouble.

Because I’m an adult and we don’t get in trouble.

But yeah it’s hard because it’s a sensitivity of mine. So I’m gonna try to be better and instill some quiet hours at work.

I also finally ordered my Christmas cards (now new year cards) and I’m happy with them.

So here’s some Christmas cheer to also lift my own spirits.