#clarksibs

[favvnsongs]

me: trying to figure out if I can re-purpose any of the songs off my clarksib villain era playlist and stick them in my mainewash playlist

[katelynnsmusings]

Description: Clark sibling thing idek. Characters: Alicia Clark, Nick Clark Notes: This one’s just kind of... angst-ish?

Nothing’s ever felt like home to Alicia more than her brother has. Even when he’s the chaos he’s the calm among the storm, the safe harbor to anchor in, the only real home that she’s ever felt. It surprises her that a person could feel that way and that Nick of all people would be hers after the whirlwind of benders and vanishings and rehab trips that have taken up the last few years of her life but somehow despite all of that, he’s still her brother.

She can’t sleep when he’s not home. She barely even wants to breathe. When their dad died, the first and only thing she wanted is to be able to hold him close even though time and time she’s never been enough for him. It’s not healthy, she thinks, that the only person she lets lay a hand on her is someone who has been so intimately involved with her hurt over the years, but fuck if she’s gonna fight it.

Bender four thousand six hundred and twenty-seven, she thinks as she lays in his bed, obviously exaggerating the numbers as Nick hasn’t even been lost in drugs for that many days in his life. It feels like he has been, though. As much as she can remember when the were younger and happier and everything was easier, it all just feels like a dream when he’s not home. She’s not sure she remembers what his laugh is like any more because she never hears it. 

Maybe he’s not even high this time - maybe he’s just dead. It’s a morbid thought but sometimes Alicia thinks that maybe that would be better for everyone. There would be no more worrying about where he was or what he was doing. There’d be no more praying to just finally be good enough. 

She rolls on to her stomach, pulls her arm in towards her chest. It’s his bed and his blankets smell like him - it’s the closest thing she has had to her brother in a couple weeks now.

For a moment it almost feels like he’s really there, and that one moment was all she needed to fall asleep for the first time in three days.

She wakes up to the creaking of a door startling her from her slumber, demanding her attention as it peeks open and a form walks in. The light flickers on faster than anyone can even realize there’s another person in the room, and immediately her heart drops in her chest.

“Nicky?” She croaks, voice tired and gravelly from sleep. She thinks that she’s still dreaming for a moment as she watches his expression turn somber and she lets go of his blankets just enough to use her elbow to prop her body slightly up.

“What are you doing in here?” He asks as he walks in, avoiding her eyes the whole time. It’s awkward, he’s awkward, as he brings a hand to the back of his neck. The make eye contact but only for a second, just enough for Alicia’s dreamy haze to be replaced with a mixture of bitterness and happiness. He’s back home and there’s always mixed feelings when he comes home.

He’s her person, he’s always her person, but Alicia wouldn’t be damned if each time he left didn’t sting a little worse than the last. All she wants is to be enough, and it seemed like she never would be.

“I... have a hard time sleeping when you’re gone,” she admits as he closes his door behind him and she watches through heavy, sleep-clouded eyes as he chews on his lip. He was trying not to look her in the eye - can he tell that she’s upset? That he’s hurting her? All of the things she wants to say but can never find the words to? Sometimes she just wants to scream at him.

The silence that follows is deafening. For a moment neither of them moves - and she probably should, because this is his bed and not her own and he’s probably going to want it.

She doesn’t though - and he doesn’t ask her to. Instead he looks everywhere but right at her for a minute and then walks over to the bed. He sits on the edge and leans over the mattress, supporting himself with a hand braced against the sheets.

“I’m sorry,” he says. He always says he’s sorry and Alicia always wants to believe him - but is he really if he keeps walking away? He scratches at the back of his neck nervously as she rolls away from him and on to her back. Her arms go up, resting behind her head, and her expression is unreadable - she feels like she can’t even read herself.

“If you’re so sorry...” Her words are tainted with bitterness and once she realizes that she cuts herself off short, gives him an unimpressed stare with tightened lips before looking away. Then, once she can no longer see him, she speaks softer: “If you’re so sorry, then can I stay? I don’t... I don’t wanna be alone. I missed you.”

Nick chews on his own lip again, looks up to his ceiling before back to the brunette. Even if he doesn’t say anything, doesn’t acknowledge it, he knows that he’s the main source of her pain.

Maybe one day he would be able to get it right and stop hurting the person that matters most to him - today was not that day though. For now all he can do is wordlessly slide his covers over himself and take up the space she had just emptied when she slid over. 

He leans in close and kisses her forehead. “Anything you need,” he agrees. 

It’s the least he can do, and for her it means more than he could ever imagine.

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Can you please gif Nick's look after he shot Otto? Also, the end scene of the three Clarks lined up on the porch? Thank you!

Yes, sure! We’ll post it as soon as we can, thanks for asking :)

- Camila

[pian-ran]

clarksibs replied to your post:*

i feel this in my soul

that’s why i don’t visit the tag anymore and if i want gifs i make them myself

[clexaao3feed]

let thy wander

by clarksibs

She decides then that she does want to keep moving forward, if only to see what life is like when she doesn't have people strapping themselves to her like a lifeline. When her sole concern can be herself.

  Or Clarke takes a well-earned sabbatical and works through some things.

Words: 2846, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: The 100 (TV)

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/F

Characters: Clarke Griffin, Lexa (The 100)

Relationships: Clarke Griffin/Lexa

Additional Tags: clarke goes for a walkabout and ends up with a little more than she bargained for, lexa's a little bit of a stalker but really just wants clarke to be safe, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence

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WELCOME TO MAXIMOFFSOURCE

This is a source blog for all things Maximoff ( i.e. Wanda and Pietro Maximoff. ) It is currently being run by @clarksibs / @haosvestica but I may look for some help in the future !! I am tracking the tag #maximoffsource if you want me to reblog something. Or you can always shoot me an ask or IM. Happy fandoming and, again, welcome !!

[idontneedtobeforgiven]

@favvnsongs and @clarksibs I'm gonna need you two to tell me what's happened with out trash tonight

[smolgaysnake]

for @reshopgoufa and her sads :( love u loveeey ❤️ Clarksibs bath. nick drawing it, hot with rose oil and lavender salts and soft frothy bubbles. helping her undress and dropping a kiss to the juncture of her neck and shoulder. holding his hand while she steps in. groan sigh when she slips in fully. fingers skimming the water in one last check before kissing the tip of her nose. leaving the door open and skmethjng soft and easy playing while he cooks something warm and heavy and easy, soup and rice or stew over noodles. checking on her every so often with a call of her name and her answering hazy hum. chris straggling in with dirt and dried blood on his shirt and a faintly bruised look about him. sighing at the door and tilting his face to the light to check the state of his nose and lip. murmuring to ease the sting of the alcohol wipe. leading him into the bathroom and Alicia's distressed noise at the arts of him. stripping him neatly and quickly and the water gone low enough he can settle in against Alicia's damp flushed chest. cradled and cooed at and hair pets until he's limp and relaxed against her. little sneak bite of whatever nicks making between his teeth and cuddled safe and warm. Nick coming in one last time with a kettle of hot hot water to give them a little shot of heat before he drains it and wraps them up in fluffy towels. sitting naked on the bed and braiding hair until nick calls them to the table. helping each other into big hoodies and pajama pants. Kidsquad in each other's laps feeding each other with the tv on low and empty dishes set haphazard on the floor so chris can flop over nicks lap with cheek on thigh and nose against nicks belly and Alicia draped over him, comforting weight. dozing with stroking hands and carding fingers.

[ao3feed-the100]

let thy wander

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2v6x8tz

by clarksibs

She decides then that she does want to keep moving forward, if only to see what life is like when she doesn't have people strapping themselves to her like a lifeline. When her sole concern can be herself.

  Or Clarke takes a well-earned sabbatical and works through some things.

Words: 2846, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: The 100 (TV)

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/F

Characters: Clarke Griffin, Lexa (The 100)

Relationships: Clarke Griffin/Lexa

Additional Tags: clarke goes for a walkabout and ends up with a little more than she bargained for, lexa's a little bit of a stalker but really just wants clarke to be safe, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2v6x8tz

[favvnsongs]

clarksibs

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NICKY LOVE PROTECTING LUCI I SWEAR TO GOD IF SHE...

I YELPED

honestly!?!?! LIKE WHAT A LOVELY BOY. CAN YOU BELIEVE. HES SUCH A GOOD KID. PURE PROTECTIVE BOY I CANT EVEN WHAT AN ANGEL KSDVHFJSD

[katelynnsmusings]

because this initially got thrown in to the comments of one of my things and i just... it deserves attention too.

favvnsongs i mean i super duper am in love with the thought of them in the after life?? i mean can you imagine alicia dying alone and scared and in pain? everyone else is gone? leeshy loo the last one standing and shes cold and everything is dark until it isnt? until nick is there? until she hears him say her name again for the first time in months..years?? somewhere warm and kind and gentle.

she's long since given up but her body hasn't, not quite yet. there's no one left. everyone she's ever loved has died but there's one death she never got over with. as she's laying there dying she's *almost* at peace because at least it's over. she's tired and done and there's nothing left for her in this world and she just wants it to be *over with*.

there's not even anyone around to put her down after she turns. she knows, at least for a little while, her body is going to continue without her. what's it like? is there anything after it? alicia's long since given up hope that anything good can await her. she's long since given up *any* hope at all. she's just ready at this point because there's no more reason to hold on.

the fire stops and is replaced with a coldness, somehow it's harsher than hurting at all. she's afraid of what awaits her but at the same time she lost all of her reason to hold on a long time ago. she wants to cry but she has no one to cry to. there's no one to tell her it will be okay, like she's done for everyone she's loved over the years.

it's when she hears his voice that she knows she's gone, but in that moment she's okay with it. she looks up, raises her head from her huddled form and he looks like he did before he was a mess. he looks alive and healthy and though she can see a pain in his eyes (he'd wanted her to live a full, happy life - but he's watched everyone he's ever known join him so he knows damn well that she's been alone) he's still so happy to see her.

the first thing he does is tell her that everything will be okay. the second thing he does is hug her. and then, for the first time since the world ended, alicia finds her peace again.

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Hello! Can I please request Alicia offering her knife to Nicholas? Thanks a ton!!

Yes, sure! Can’t wait to gif all the angst. We’ll post it as soon as we can, thanks for asking :)

- Camila

[clexaao3feed]

the spirit still rattles — an alternate

by clarksibs

All is silent as they tread through the brush, paws barely making a sound, when a scream pierces the air. The party’s hackles raise in unison, small growls are pulled from the muzzles of the pups padding behind them. The elders of the group freeze, wary looks pass between them. The scream came from a human which means they’re walking into a situation far more dangerous than just a pack of Twisted.

Or — Clarke and Lexa find a wounded Costia in the woods and nurse her back to health.... While accidentally falling for her.

Words: 2107, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: The 100 (TV)

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: F/F

Characters: Clarke Griffin, Costia (The 100), Lexa (The 100), Bellamy Blake

Relationships: Clarke Griffin/Lexa, Costia/Clarke Griffin/Lexa

Additional Tags: the costia/clarke/lexa takes a while, everyone else is there too, Alternate Universe - Werewolf, but they're called shifters

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[logicaltribbles]

*whispers* senpai...

[panagiota-k]

happy birthday, darlin' ♡♡♡

aw thanks hon <3

[katelynnsmusings]

Description: You wanted Clark sibling bonding at the diamond and instead you’re getting this which is... kind of Clark sibling bonding at the diamond? Characters: Nick Clark, Alicia Clark Requester:  @favvnsongs

Nick doesn’t talk about what happened out there. All anyone knows - all his mother, Strand, his sister knows, is that he was a mess the day he was found. He doesn’t seem to be the same person that he was before and Alicia gets it because she is no longer the person she used to be either. This world changes people.

She’s bitter now. She doesn’t want to be, won’t admit it, but this world isn’t fresh any more and she has grown tired. Nick’s back but he doesn’t feel like her Nick anymore. She misses the way that he used to look at her. She misses when he looked like he was actually alive instead of this shell-shocked expression he wears nowadays. She misses his fearlessness and confidence and the way that he always seemed to know what he was doing even when he actually had no clue at all.

It’s not right, but time changes people. This world changes people. She can’t spite her brother for not changing in a world where moving forward was so important. She just wishes he would talk to her again. She wishes that he would talk to anyone because she’s not sure she’s heard more than a dozen words come out of his mouth in the last week.

When she approaches him on the stands she’s scared that she’s going to be pushed away. When she tells him that she needs her brother back she expects to be told that boy doesn’t exist any more.

He pulls her in, though - takes her by the waist and the gentle pressure of his hand against her body urges her to move in close. He hugs her and for the first time in months she starts to feel okay. “I’m sorry,” he says as her hands find his shoulders, cling so tight because she’s scared this wasn’t actually real. She leans in close, breathes deeply even though she just wants to cry. One of his hands finds her hair and urges her head in towards him; Alicia can’t help but rest her head on his shoulder. He was gentle, and two words were all she needed to start feeling the littlest bit okay again.

He kisses the top of her head and for the first time in months Alicia finally feels like someone cares about her again. She knows that she’ll have to let go of him at some point but she doesn’t dare - it feels like if she releases him he will cease to be real, like this wasn’t real in the first place.

It’s not much, he doesn’t say anything else, but for those few moments Alicia started to feel like she had a chance to get her brother back again. Maybe with time they will learn the broken pieces of each other and this time, Alicia can care for him just as Nick had tried to in the past.