#cuz im getting back into the book cafe feels

[toastyliltoasts]

Umbrellas and Busses (Tbh x Reader)

Ah .. Friday .. Youve been waiting for it to roll around all week .. *A/N : Mood actually .. We might need a Y/N x Reader book lmao* Dont get me wrong, You love your job .. It had short work hours and a fair pay .. But it just can be a little too much for you at times .. And not to mention some of your colleagues really getting on your nerves .. So thats why you were slightly excited to go to work today and get it over with for a week .. But as they say , All good things dont last long ..

Your boss , a chill person compared to the other bosses at work , asked you to finish some work , that was left unattended because of staff shortages ..

So thats why you were in your office / workplace , Way past the time you were actually supposed to get home .. Your face was illuminating with blue light as you check some work emails .. You look at the big , bland clock on the wall next to you ..

6.38 pm

You sigh as you look around .. Only a few people here .. And you got some more documents to go through .. "Just a couple more" You mutter , half-encouraging-ly and half-groggy , as you return to your so-called business emails ..

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You wave politely to the cleaner as you leave your office .. Work has never taken that long for you to do .. You shuffle down the steps absent mindedly as you walk to the bus stop ..

You get there earlier than expected so you sit down , legs crossed at the ankles , and pull out your phone to pass time .. From the corner of your eyes you see a brunnete man , dressed in red hoodies and jeans , sit next to you (in a respectful distance *A/N : Cuz , respectfully , He is da mannn*) .. You smile at him in a friendly manner and he returns it with the same energy ..

You go back to scrolling mindlessly on your phone as he does the same .. Youre a bit emerged in a specific post as you feel a sharp drop of something fall on your head .. You look up as another drop hits you square on the forehead .. Oh .. You think as it takes a bit for you to process .. Its raining .. Great .. You think as you scramble around your bag in search for an umbrella .. Thanks to peripheral vision , *A/N : Which is thanks to the author learning Science 😌* You see the man beside you mirror your actions , searching his own bag .. You realize that you both are going to be soaked if you two dont find your umbrellas or anything to take cover with ..

Right as it hits you that you forgot to bring yours , The man pats you on your shoulder and you turn to him .. "Follow me !" He says as he gently guides you while hovering his hand over his head , silently instructing you to do so as well .. Normally , You knew not to follow a random stranger and not to do as he said because of something called "Stranger danger" but he has that mysterious yet kind look in his eyes that you cant help but follow him ..

He leads you to an entrance of a small coffee shop which has a jutted out roof so that you both were shielded from the rain .. He finally lets go of your hand , which you didnt even notice he was holding until now , and lets out a chuckle ..

"Didnt know it was gonna rain that bad" He says while messing up his hair to rid it of its water droplets .. You giggle/chuckle/(whatever suits you yk?) and shift your weight onto your left leg as you lean on the wall of the cafe .. "Yeah .. But thats a lesson learned .. Never leave your umbrella at home ?" You say it , almost as a question , over dramatically .. He laughs once more and holds out his hand .. "Im Tbh .." He says , a hint of gleam in his eyes shining through the feel of dull rain .. "Im (Y/N)" You say as you shake his hand ..

You two talk about random things for awhile , the sound of rain accompanying your conversation , as the rain slowly dies down .. You also get to know that he doesnt live that far from you and that you both get off the same stop ..

"We should probably get back to the stop .. The bus is gonna get here soon" You say as you see the clock inside the closed , might I add , cafe hit 7.15 (pm) .. The sky has taken a mix between light and dark blue as you both fell into a comfortable silence after the rain .. Tbh nods .. Tbh and you both steps over some puddles created by the said rain like a couple of children *A/N : WHY IS THAT SOO FUN LIKE WHAT ??*

The bus arrives just as you both make it to the stop .. You both get on it as it starts to move .. Tbh and you sit down on two seats next to each other and continue your conversation .. But soon enough , the drowsiness from all the work hits you as you try to focus on Tbh's words and not dozing off .. Sleep gets the best of you as you nod off .. Tbh's soft words , suprisingly , lulling you to sleep ..

~ Third person POV cuz I can ^^ ~

(Y/N) falls asleep , much to Tbh's obliviousness , as he continues talking , using his hands to emphasize his point .. He stops as he feels a soft weight hit his shoulders .. He carefully looks over to see (Y/N)'s head on his shoulders as they peaceful sleep .. He slightly panics as he questions his every move ..

Do I put my arms around them ?

Do I need to wake them up ? No , That'll be rude ..

Should I move closer to them so that they can be comfortable ?

He decides to just wing it as he scoots slightly closer and tuck his arm around their waist .. He puts his head gently on top of theirs as he falls into slumber along with them ..

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Yooooooo

Les goooo :>

Hope yall liked it eeeEeEeEe

[saviorsbookcafe]

ohhhhhh my god its been so long since ive like. been here.

first things first is i have updated my info page for all details on getting the manga/light novels etc. to be updated properly but also wow. tumblr killed my page so it took me forever to figure out how to make it work (hint: it had javascript in it) so it unfortunately no longer has my neat askbox included feature but alas.. what can you do (i just added a link at the bottom)

volume 5 of the manga came out recently (does a month ago count as recent?) with a very very neato pamphlet bonus if you can get it (digital is also available) which includes a colored! comic of tsukina and ill post-volume 5 storyline very cute highly recommend (link on that info page)

but anyways due to the above and also getting caught up in trying to make myself a little timeline of where all the events in this series take place (super productive day i am very into excel) i ended up not getting like any actual work done on the next chapter except realizing its a cool 21 pages that i am like only 7 pages into i was Really hoping it was short or like not 21 pages

i know its been like. forever. looking at the published date on the light novel its been like 2 years since it was released and i am pretty sure its been a year and a half (maybe the full 2) since i started translating this light novel and obviously it has been very inconsistent.. but i do truly want to finish this translation if you can believe it lol so bear with me.. i am gonna try to work on more of chapter 9 tomorrow and maybe i can at least get some progress done.. and for tonight im gonna.. look at my asks! after years of waiting lol although i think this post will mostly sum up how things have been

[heyitsyn]

Manager!Seijoh OIKS ROUTE

a/n: this,,,, is probably the angstiest out of the routes and i seem to only write angst for oikawa and i think its a problem

this is for @what-a-creative-username​ bc oikawa is their favorite seijoh boy so this is for you 🥺

and actually buckle your seatbelts bc this is my longest work and its the biggest mess ever :’) also, this is kinda all over the place soooo

anon:

- May we have an x Oikawa ending to the Manager AU?

- okaayyyy so this is a request for the manager series. please pleASE PLEASEEEEE- make a oikawa ending! 🥺 cuz he’s my favorite and all those times with him in the story feel like more than just friends

OMG IM SORRY BUT MY INNER OIKAWA SIMP THAT I NEVER KNEW WAS EVEN THERE STARTED TO PEAK THROUGH

so basically yea

as seen in a lot of the parts,

oikawa is very,,,, loving towards you

like his entire demeanor was just so different and so,,, authentic,,,, than the ones he shows to other females

maybe it was because you didnt want him in the beginning?

the moment he saw you, he did his first antics and he expected you to turn red and fluster and cutely shy away from him 

yanno the works

yet you gave him a stony stare and denied him

ofc he was hurt and a little offended bc were you rejecting him?

hes never been rejected before and he prides himself for that but you just did and continued to do that

so he made it his mission to make you at least feel something for him

like the period part or his random proclamations of his love for you

he did it all

it didnt matter if it would bite him in the ass later because he was impulsive and he wanted you to show yourself being affected with his charms

because he was the FREAKING OIKAWA TOORU

ong this is like his validation that he is still a ladies man and has a charm that couldnt be resisted by anyone

he constantly told you that he loved you to see a reaction from you and he always was touching you whether it was just the shoulder or your hand

oikawa wanted to see you as his own personal cheerleader and you reacting to his affections would really bring him over the moon

this brings us here in the gym today

‘y/n-chan, do you want to go-’

‘oikawa-san, i dont trust you wanting to go on an innocent outing without any hidden intentions’

the team snickered and he pouted, eyes watering and curling at your side

‘y/n-chan, please? oikawa-san really wants to spend time with you~’

he begged and you finally looked up from the notebook and stared at him

god hes been much more annoying lately but you knew it was his way of letting out his anxiousness and nervousness for the incoming interhigh

so you decided to indulge him just this once and made a deal with him

‘the moment you try anything, even remotely romantic or flirty, i will leave’

you bargained but he gasped

‘what?! then what’s the point of-’

‘so you DO have hidden intentions, oikawa-san?’

you raised your eyebrow causing oikawa to quickly shake his head and detach from you

‘fine. none of that stuff, just hanging out, okay?’

he was still fussy but he accepted it

oikawa had a plan to take you to a cafe that just opened up and take you shopping and basically spoil you because girls like that, right?

they fall for boys who give them everything, right?

nope

so i read a study that surprisingly most girls arent into shopping apparently and they prefer to buy something themselves because apparently they feel indebt and dependent on men if they let them spoil them like that

idk about you but i would let oikawa spoil me tho

his plans were completely crushed when you argued with him for nearly 15 minutes to take half of your tab with the food

‘y/n-chan! i invited you out so i should pay! and boys have to pay!’

he complained, holding the other end of the tab envelope thingy but you pulled it back towards you

‘oikawa-san. you should never listen to societal normalities and instead listen and respect my wishes of paying for my half rather than going by the rules of males paying for females’

im sensing a bit of a bokuto and akaashi typa relationship between you two

oikawa shook his head and slightly stood up to lean over the table, his face approaching yours and you were slightly surprised by the sudden closeness causing you to lean back and be focused on getting away so your grip on the tab loosened

he grinned as he snatched it away from your grasp and quickly placed his card into the slot before running up to the cashier

your mouth was slacked and surprise was still written on your face even when he returned and oikawa held up a peace sign to try and lighten up

but your shock morphed into being upset

‘oikawa-san, listen here. you had-’

but he waved you off with a smile

‘no, you listen here, y/n-chan. oikawa-san loves you therefore he will give you everything in the world and all you have to do is sit there and point at whatever you want because my love will bring it to you~!’

you rolled your eyes

‘please stop being like that, oikawa-san. im not your girlfriend so dont act like my boyfriend’

he lightly scoffed, disguising it with a cough

‘y/n-chan, i dont think you understand. oikawa-san is telling you to be his good little girl and sit down. i dont understand why youre being so stubborn’

he growled softly

wHAT iS hE sAYinG

you shook your head in disbelief and stood up collecting your things making the brunette to also stand up in curiosity

‘y/n-chan? youre leaving already? i wanted to go see other places with you! i wanted to take you shopping!’

you halted and looked up at him through your long eyelashes

‘oikawa-san, i’d rather you save your money and rest your injuries instead’

you reasoned but he raised his hands in front of him to signify his wish for you to stop

‘but i want to be with you, y/n-chan’

he whispered and you blinked

‘i dont want you to spend a single dime for me after this. just you and me, oikawa-san, no money, just us’

he nodded eagerly

‘we can go anywhere you want! just,,, stay with me’

then he found himself in a bookstore with you

it was a quaint hole in the wall bookstore that you both found as you walked down the street and you excitedly dragged him inside, hand still laced together

the rows of shelves that contained different worlds in the pages were your serotonin

he watched you excitedly run to the fiction section and browsed through the different spines for anything special to check out

‘y/n-chan, i’ll go use the bathroom really quickly’

you nodded and oikawa kissed your temple before he left towards the restroom

your eyes flitted across the different titles and you snatched a book of poetry

oikawa hurriedly walked over back to you but he didnt find you at the place you were before

so he continued sifting through the mini hallways of shelves and then he stopped

it was so,,, domestic 

seeing your bright eyes looking down at the book  on your hands and the way your mouth slightly moved with the words

it was such a simple sight yet why did you look so beautiful?

the shimmering eyes that flittered when you came across a sentence you liked 

the soft lips that kinda jutted out making his desire to feel it increase that he would give anything to feel on his own

you were so focused that you didnt notice him moving behind you and wrapping his arms around your waist, only noticing his head resting on your shoulder

‘’come, my darling, it is never too late to begin our love again’’

he mumbled to your ear and you released one hand from the book to grasp his arms that were around your middle

‘you read poetry?’

you whispered and oikawa chuckled

‘of course. a man as romantic as I am ought to be a poet’

he reasoned and you laughed

‘yet you fail to sway me, oikawa-san’

‘no, there is a difference. you dont want my love but i know you want to be loved by me, i can assure you!’

you swiftly placed the book back on its former place and you turned around to swing your arms around his neck

‘hmm,,,, love was never something for me. especially with you boys around’

oikawa looked down to see your shorter height and he caressed your hip

‘i love you, y/n, so let me love you the way you deserve to be’

he whispered not understanding the weight of his words and you looked down to hide the growing blush on your face before burying your face into his sweater-clad chest

‘so not fair oikawa-san’

you mumbled against the fabric but he heard it and he bursted into giggles

‘ehh~~ youre not being the fair one, y/n-chan! youre make it so hard to not fall for you when youre so beautiful~!’

he whines and you rested your chin on him so you could look up at him and your pout made him squeeze you tighter

‘hah?! that doesnt make sense! im nothing but a mess of-!’

you started but was cut off when he kissed your nose and whispered:

‘but what a beautiful mess you are’

okay so i know this is the saddest one out of the routes but ive just been serving fluff so the angst is coming soon!!!!!!

once you both were finished in the bookstore, you suggested going to this hill that allowed you to see the stars clearer

‘hmm, oikawa-san, there’s this place that natsu used to take me to whenever he wanted to see the stars so i think you’d like it’

you mentioned while walking on the sidewalk

oikawa’s hand was clutching yours and you were swinging it back and forth while lightly skipping and kicking the rocks

he watched you, amused, at how child-like you were acting right now but he was also touched, knowing your knowledge of his love for space

‘sure!’

the night sky allowed the stars to light up and you both shared giggles and laughs as the two of you stumbled over your feet with no light except from above

however once you made it to the top of the hill, oikawa pulled you close to him as you huddled on a seated position

‘how’d you know i would like this, y/n-chan?’

he asked and you gave him an obvious look

‘hah? its so obvious! you keep drawing the cancer constellation on your skin and you had an astrology book in your bag that you were also reading in the bus’

your answer brought warmth inside him and he never thought you were so perceptive of him

you noticed every little thing he does and hes,,,, never had someone do that before

except for iwa and his family and team, no one knows of his little ticks and the way he becomes obsessive of a topic once he gets interested in it

you noticed it all

‘that right there, its the big dipper!’

you pointed and he followed the direction of your finger before nodding

‘yep! waaahhh its much prettier seeing it higher up than my roof!’

he exclaimed and your gaze left the constellation towards the boy beside you

‘really,, pretty’

you absentmindedly muttered yet he was sharp and heard you

‘but its different to look at something much more beautiful’

this caused you to quickly go back to looking at the stars so you missed his love-filled eyes

‘i want to name my children by constellations. so that they can keep the oikawa legacy going forever like constellations being at the sky for all eternity. or naming it after the sky! then i can make sure theyre never going away’

he said and you nodded

you kept pointing out different shapes and laughing at his funky claims of what some stars connected to and created

‘oikawa-san, lets go to the star festival later’

you offered and he in turn looked away from you, turning red at the way the small lights illuminated your face and somehow making it more,,,, angelic

so he covered it up with his own teasing 

‘oh? the meeting of the two lovers?’

you dont know why but your cheeks burned at the mention of the ‘L’ word and oikawa noticed, quickly poking fun of your cheeks

‘oh, y/n-chan, dont be so shy!’

you pouted and turned away

‘never mind’

oikawa’s laugh rang throughout the space and he pulled you closer, practically sitting on his lap, while pointing out the stars and him pressing kisses to your cheeks

the intertwining of your fingers combined with the kisses made you feel as if you were floating with how free you felt

and you loved every moment of it

after that outing with your captain, you were conflicted

it wasnt the first time he’s openly said he loved you and his shower of affections have been there since the very beginning

yet how come you were just now feeling,,,,, different??

you were sure you felt an odd feeling inside you when he said your name with no usual suffix and it wasnt just the food that didnt agree with you

whenever his lips came in contact with your skin, it left blazing trails of red that spread out as far as it could

the heartbeat that quickened once he kissed your forehead at your doorstep and the grin you last saw when you closed the door

or the unknown smile that you didnt know you had on until natsu, who was visiting, pointed it out

‘darling, why are you just standing there? and why are you smiling like that? its weird, stop it’

you didnt even have the attitude to scold him and you giggled before twirling and holding his hand

‘oh, natsu~ i want to dance! and sing!’

you shouted, taking him with you and dancing around the living room

tbh natsu was very worried but he remembered you mentioning that you were meeting some guy today and it might be the reason as to why you were acting like this

he was happy

you deserved to be loved as you are and you were finally getting that love

but,,,,,,,,,

it didnt last long

albeit having a lot of fun, oikawa seemed,,,, off to you

it was,,, awkward

maybe it was because you were now aware of some type of growing attraction inside of you or every little thing he does to you could send you into shapeshifting and channeling your inner tomato

forget potato, youre now a tomato

but even his touches and affections were now limited

restricted

like the the next time you both saw each other, you shyly but happily bounded up to him and greeted him good morning

but his eyes widened, taking a step back before laughing awkwardly

‘ah ha ha, hey y/n-chan’

oikawa greeted then side-stepped to enter the gym

god you felt like you were slapped in the face

you remained frozen, staring at the spot he previously occupied and your mind was running quickly

was it because your senses were now heightened that everything made you extra sensitive?

usually, oikawa would squeal at the fact you were even greeting him this morning but he literally just walked away from you

no, you were just,,,,

overreacting

right?

yea, just,,,

overreacting

iwa noticed your downcast expression and he had a feeling it had something to do with oikawa’s off expression

you hurriedly placed your bag down and took out your notebook to start taking notes for their practice

big boy ace went up to you and placed a hand on your arm which caused you to flinch

he immediately backed off, letting go and stepping back

‘wh-hey? y/n? you okay? did something happen?’

he worriedly asked but you shook your head, not even bothering to meet his eyes

‘uh-yea. mhm, perfectly fine’

you lied and he wanted to press further but mattsun and makki called you over to check out their blocks so you ran to them

but he had a feeling you were just taking every opportunity to not answer his questions

while you were pre-occupied with the meme team, iwa marched up to oiks and tugged him around to fully talk to him

oikawa watched your interaction and he knew iwa would immediately start questioning him too

‘oi, what the hell did you do’

there was an underlying tone in his best friend’s voice that he didnt particularly like

oikawa did what he does best and plastered a smile on his face

‘hm? what do you mean, iwa-chan?’

‘what the hell do you mean what do i mean? you speak japanese dont you? so tell me what the hell happened during your date because it seems like shit happened and now youre both acting weird’

oikawa flinched at the blunt words but it was the truth

he was acting weird and this caused you to probably act weird too

god hes so dumb

but he,,, was going through stuff right now

it was a situation that he didnt want to involve you in 

and,,, seeing you dancing with natsu with the biggest smile on your face through the window of your house

okay guys dont think this is weird or stalker-ish bc i actually saw this in a kdrama ages ago and i thought it was just so sweet and cute and dont take it the weird and stalker creepy way :(

it certainly brought him pain

this was what he wanted though, right?

he wanted to see a reaction from you with his antics and he wanted to see you flustered and giggling like one of his lovestruck girls

but dear god that was when he became aware of your growing feelings

oikawa even saw it before you did with the way you gave him those longing stares and small smiles and the small squeezes of his hand when he would laugh

initially, he wouldve teased you for it but then he kept quiet

this entire time he knew you, he felt,,, love,,, for you

and by god, he was so scared

he wanted to run away

because he was well aware of his personality and him as a person 

he could make you smile the biggest and the happiest but he was also the type to make you feel the most pain and cause the deepest wounds on your already fragile heart

he didnt want that responsibility and burden

it was too risky

oikawa knew he was a ticking time bomb and he was afraid if you got even just a centimeter closer

you would be the one hit with the blast the most

maybe it was that sight that made him want to distance himself

it was a sight that made him realize that you deserved someone much better and that someone couldn’t be him

the happiness that danced in your eyes and the smile that decorate your beautiful face

can you imagine the irony?

the moment you notice of your growing feelings, the moment he decides to withdraw and pull away

.......

practice was,,, suffocating? 

the team knew of the tension these past few days and you both def were not the same

oikawa has not said he loved you or even pestered you once and as much as the guys hated seeing it, they were getting worried

did you both fight?

what happened?

when oikawa was talking with the coach and you were grabbing something from the storage room, they immediately took this chance to pounce on iwaizumi since he was the closest to the both of you

‘oi, iwaizumi, the hell happened?’

makki asked and the others nodded, wondering the same thing

but they were surprised when he shrugged

‘dont know. stupidkawa refuses to talk and i dont want to bother y/n bc she seems,,, weird about it’

if iwaizumi didnt know, then something serious did happen

you and oikawa continued this weird eggshell walking and you even gave up after trying to ask so many times on what was wrong and only to be answered with,

‘nothing~! y/n-chan should never have to worry her pretty little head about old me~!’

that answer didnt bother you

it was his smile

the genuine smile that you were so happy to receive as it was only for you

now seems gone and replaced with his fake one as if you now became one of his fangirls

what took the cake was his appearance to practice with a girl in his arm

they were both laughing and seemed trapped in their own little bubble to even notice the team’s wide eyes and concerned looks to you

you didnt even notice your teary eyes until mattsun quite literally picked you up and shouted he wanted to help you fill up the water bottles

he placed you outside, sitting on a bench by the gym

you were biting your lip and staring at the ground while he was leaning back and looking at the sky

‘the sky is very pretty today’

he complimented but it wasnt heard by you

you only came back to reality when he nudged you gently and you shot him a crooked smile but he sighed at the look of hurt written all over your face

‘oh, y/n, i am getting increasingly worried for our generation. theres so many sad eyes on happy faces’

he tutted and returned to gazing back up to the clouds

you scrunched your nose and scoffed

‘i dont understand you, mattsun-san’

you mumbled and fiddled with your fingers

mattsukawa issei shook his head and pointed above

‘y/n-chan, our eyes enables us to identify beauty and we have the urge to immediately capture it to remember that we did find something beautiful. yet, we feel hopeless as we cant to put the beauty on paper because we are only given one crayon to draw the sunset’

it felt all muddled

there was no sense in his words and you were sniffed, trying to understand

‘mattsun-san, did you eat any more of those candy makki-san bought from that one guy?’

he bursted into laughter and you couldnt help but quirk your lip at the sound of his joy

‘who knows? taka is my boy and i trust him so if he gave it to me, then,,,, it cant be that bad, right?’

you blanched

‘mattsun-san! im not about to go pick you up from the er again just because makki-san dared you to do something!’

mattsun finally wandered his eyes over to you and he tucked a stray piece of hair behind your ear

‘thats the thing with you, y/n-chan. youre quick to love others but you lose pieces of yourself in the process. i have no right to tell you who deserves it but please ask yourself, is that sacrifice worth it?’

you knew he wasnt talking about your love for the team

but for the love for a certain setter that didnt go unnoticed by the middle blocker

leave it to mattsun to make you laugh and you were letting out your last giggles as you stepped into the gym

oikawa stopped talking and focused on the two of you, 

more specifically,

you

he watched as you laughed and swatted mattsun’s elbow as he jokingly made fun of your height by resting his arm on top of your head

yes this was what it was supposed to be

you deserved someone who could make you smile and only smile

he doesnt even hesitate but even imagine the tears that would fill those beautiful eyes and he knows it would all be his fault

no

he will stop that from happening way before it would occur

he will do anything to make sure you will never cry because of him so he will distance himself and now, he gives up

it could just be his stress and insecurities talking but he knows right now,

he wants you away from him

oikawa tooru, the boy who could get anyone he wants, couldn’t get the girl he wishes for the most

dear god was it laughable

after practice was finished,

you quietly and quickly packed up the nets and picked up the balls to get yourself out of there

these past few days made you feel so much confusion that it hurts

if there was anything worse than him not talking to you,

it was not knowing why 

that curiosity and desperate need for answers creates wild and self-destructive theories 

did you chew too loudly when you ate?

were you boring and not as fun as the others?

was he angry and humiliated of his pride as a man when you scolded him for paying for you?

has he gotten tired of you now that he knows who you really are?

that last question suddenly created a new set of tears to appear

throughout the day, you were so composed and distracted yourself with the lectures of your teachers and not anything of why this certain brunette was avoiding you

but a single insecure question made that wall crumble and you hurriedly shoved the trolley of balls into the storage room and grabbed your bag before rushing out of there

you sniffled and hurriedly walked home so you could go and cry on your bed in peace

but ofc 

hiroshi natsu exists so ofc he distracted you when you entered the house with a red puffy face

quietly, he led you to the couch and he wordlessly grabbed a tissue box from the coffee table to dab away the tears

you sniffled and clenched your fists to will yourself to stop these dumb salty water drops

‘i cant tell you its going to be okay because i dont want you to cling on to false hope. but i know it hurts. its worse that of all people, oikawa tooru had to be your first ever crush’

he chuckled

you took a shaky breath and wiped your face

‘this was why i shouldnt have liked him. god! all we did was eat dinner and look at the stupid fcking sky! thats it! so why-! why do i suddenly like him?! AM I THAT DESPERATE?!’

you wailed and blew your nose while natsu patted your back

‘i mean,,, to others it sounds like youre easy to sway’

you looked up from the tissue to glare at him but he continued

‘but to me,,,, it sounds like it was just the last push you needed to finally see oikawa tooru in that way’

you nodded, laughing weakly

‘i dont know why im acting like a lunatic like this. hes just a crush anyway so it’ll probably fade in a day or two so bear with me until then, kay?’

but his grim shake of his head gave you no hope

‘rather than fade, it will grow. and i might have to bear with this for the rest of our lives. now you be a bad bitch and sit there and look fine as hell while i go order 10 boxes of pizza and load up teen moms’

the impromptu movie night distracted you a little bit from it all but you still couldn’t help but think about it

GOD WHY WAS NATSU SO DRAMATIC?!

BECAUSE OF THAT IDIOT YOU ARE NOW SITTING IN CLASS, BAGS UNDER YOUR EYES, AND BREAKING YOUR PENCILS IN HALF

all you have to do is make sure you think of oikawa doing something disgusting to make that attraction fade away

oikawa licking his toes

oikawa licking his toes

oikawa licking his toes

oikawa licking his-

‘y/n?’

you snapped out of your daydream when kunimi reached out to you

kindaichi, who came over for lunch, and him were staring at you in concern and they shared a look

‘y/n, something must’ve happened that day with captain’

kunimi started but kindaichi snapped

‘see?! this is why we shouldve never let you go! the first time you go with him and now youre a mess! tell us! did he force himself on you?! did he-?!’

you stopped the onion top boy with a forced smile and a squeeze on the arm

‘o-oikawa-san would never do that, kindaichi. hes better than that’

‘but clearly not because look at you!’

he shouted and you flinched 

kunimi hurriedly knocked him to the floor

‘get ahold of yourself, kindaichi’

he mumbled and you stood up and walked to the bathroom at the west wing that nobody uses so you could freely cry without any suspicion

was it obvious?

was it clear that you have been a mess after a week of being ignored by oikawa?

nah, youre just being a dramatic little shit

youre sticking to your word of quickly forgetting about the whole ordeal

but you definitely cant if your nightmare was happening before your eyes

as you approached the bathroom from the end of the hallway, 

you saw an unknown girl but an all too familiar boy giggling and rushing to get inside the bathroom

and for good measure, oikawa looked around to make sure no one was there but then he saw you

despite the distance between you, he could see your glistening eyes from the sunlight that seeped in from the big windows

he saw the way your hand trembled and your eyes twitched when haruna poked her head out to see why he was still outside

‘oikawa-senpai~~’

she drawled out and reached a manicured nail to his wrist 

your eyes followed her touch and then you and the boy shared eye contact

through the watery eyes, he could clearly make out your silent plead

please dont go to her

please

stay with me

dont go

but he went in anyways

------

that was the moment you forced yourself to not think about him anymore

as if you werent even working your hardest lately, you will work your hardest now

everything between you and him was now strictly professional as practice that day signified the very first day of your moving on stage

you couldnt believe these past 2 weeks has been a real nightmare yet you were slowly waking up from it

there was nothing you could do about it bc oikawa obviously didnt mean anything he said to you and maybe thats what ticked you off the most

you were easily led on

he blindly tugged you along the moment you saw his smile

he definitely thought of you as just as a game and when he finally got tired and bored, he dropped you and went to another

kunimi and kindaichi noticed the coldness of your eyes and the stoic expression on your face and they were genuinely terrified of you so they didnt want to ask any questions

even with packing up, you aggeressively shoved everything in your bag and the blep boy finally gained the courage and nervously tapped his finger on your desk to gain your attention

you swiftly dropped in your pencil case and looked at him

‘what’

he flinched at the cold tone and his eyes showed concern

‘uh-i-are you okay?’

he slowly asked and you visibly clenched your jaw but you nodded anyways

‘never better’

you didnt bother waiting for him to finish packing up and even passed kindaichi by the door as you were walking towards the girl’s locker room to change into your manager outfit

your entrance to the gym made the noise die down and you noticed the third years with glares on and aggressively practicing

‘whats wrong with all of you’

you asked and iwa scoffed before shaking his head and opening his arm

‘cmere. i missed you’

he said and ngl you were a little confused bc this wasnt something iwa usually did but you still stuck to his side

‘why-’

‘he told me what happened’

iwa whispered and you stiffened in his arms

‘w-what?’

iwaizumi flung the boy to his own bedroom wall

he huffed, panting at both the weight of oikawa tooru and the intense anger that burned through his veins

‘you-you are a piece of shit!’

he shouted and he moved to grab oikawa’s collar and lifted him so the brunette could see the fire and disgust present in his olive eyes

‘you think i didnt see what the hell you did? fcking leaving y/n sobbing as you-you-! AGH!’

iwaizumi couldnt even finish his sentence as he was so angry that he harshly sent oikawa flying back down to his floor

oikawa was crying

not from the beating

but from his regrets

god he knew he messed up

he shouldnt have done it

but he did

iwa ran his hands through his hair and angrily sat on his best friend’s bed, eyes shooting daggers at oikawa

‘right now. tell me the truth right fcking now or so help me god’

he hissed 

oikawa tooru shuffled closer to the wall and brought his knees up to his chest

‘im so scared’

he sobbed

‘im so scared, iwa-chan’

his tears were pouring down and he brought a hand to muffle his cries

‘i-i just w-wanted to-to see something out of her. li-like a reaction! because she wasnt like th-the others! but instead i fell in love! me! and she did too!’

he pointed and quickly stood up, pacing and gripping his hair

‘it was all just for fun! she-she knows im like that! yet she still fell in love with me!’

‘how could you tell she-’

‘BECAUSE OF HER EYES!’

even iwa flinched

‘HER EYES SHOWED ME LOVE! HAPPINESS! AN-AND YOU KNOW WHAT SHE DID?! WHEN SHE GOT HOME?! THROUGH HER WINDOW, I SAW HER DANCING! SO HAPPY SHE WAS DRAGGING THAT BASTARD COUSIN OF HERS AROUND! I DID THAT! I CAUSED THAT!’

there was so much confusion in this poor spiky haired boy bc he knew oikawa was in love with their manager so why is he avoiding her now even though she reciprocates those feelings?

‘im missing something here, oikawa. youre telling me, she loves you, but youre here regretting that?’

his tone of disbelief made oikawa shut his eyes in frustration

‘DONT YOU UNDERSTAND?! YOU CALL ME A PIECE OF SHIT EVERYDAY AND I KNOW THAT! I FCKING KNOW THAT IM A PIECE OF SHIT AND A FCKING BASTARD!’

he shrieked

thankfully, his family wasnt home currently to see him breakdown

‘SO WHY THE HELL DO I DESERVE A LITERAL ANGEL?! A GODDESS?! A BEAUTIFUL PERSON FOR ME?! A FCKED UP NARCISSIST EGOTISTICAL IDIOT?! AN IDIOT WHO’S TOO PRIDEFUL TO GET THE HELP HE NEEDS?! I COULD HURT HER! I COULD DESTROY HER IN A SINGLE SNAP! THE SCARIEST FACT IS I COULD DO IT WITHOUT THINKING! I COULD SAY THE WORST THINGS TO HER AND IM SO SCARED THAT I WILL HURT HER! I DONT DESERVE HER, IWA! SHE DESERVES SOME-SOMEONE LIKE YOU! AND IT HURTS TO THINK THAT BUT I DONT CARE! A-AND WHAT IF WE GET TOGETHER?! HM?! HOW LONG DO YOU THINK IT WOULD TAKE HER TILL SHE FINDS SOMEONE BETTER?! HOW MUCH CAN SHE TAKE OF GOING THROUGH EPISODES OF SOME DEPRESSED, INSECURE, PRIDEFUL ASHOLE LIKE ME?! HOW LONG DO YOU THINK SHE WOULD REALIZE HER SELF-WORTH AND KNOW HOW MUCH OF A SHITTY PERSON I AM?! I CANT-!’

iwaizumi pushed himself up from the bed and rushed to grab his best friend before forcing the brown haired boy to his chest

oikawa tooru was having a panic attack

he heaved and wheezed and loudly let out his cries and iwa made them sit on the floor where he could comfortably cry

‘youre such an idiot, tooru. but she knows that, doesn’t she? she knows who you are, what you are, how you are, your flaws, everything- she knows all that. yet she still fell for you, doesnt that tell you something? for once in your life, consider other people’s feelings before yours. y/n is one hell of a girl and i wont allow you to let her slip past you just like that. i know- we all know- how much of a broken person you are, oikawa, and it hurts us all to know that no matter what we do, we can never fix you. but y/n-gosh, y/n is the only person to even have a chance to do that. and you admitted that youre depressed and you have a problem? well,, get some help for that, oikawa. the first step to be better is by accepting the only person who can accept you for you’

iwaizumi didnt reveal to the other third years of what happened but just said that oikawa did a really terrible thing to you and hes currently repenting for it

however mattsun and makki pretended they didnt hear oikawa regretting it and focused on the fact that the captain even had the NERVE to hurt you

iwa squeezed you tightly and you returned the hug

but he whispered something in your ear

‘everyone makes mistakes, y/n. the only thing we can do is to repent for them’

you pulled away, about to ask him what hes talking about but one look from his eyes made you realize what he was talking about

he mustve known what happened but hes defending him

you clenched your jaw and looked away

‘i destroyed myself for a stupid reason and its one of my regrets. im not going to make the same mistake twice’

you quietly hissed and moved to your station by the bench to begin taking your notes

you noticed that oikawa was late for practice today and although you kinda hate him, you are still a manager first and he was one of your responsibilities

you were about to go to the coach and tell him you’d look for the setter when the gym door slid and in came the devil himself

but there was a large bruise on his cheek and a cut on his lip

your feet moved quicker than the rest of you that you were in front of him in a second

‘what happened to you’

you worriedly asked and oikawa just stared at you

his eyes shook and watered at the sight of you

this was the first time you talked to him without any coldness in your tone and he missed it

he missed hearing you

his silence made you roll your eyes and you roughly grabbed his arm before throwing him on the bench you were sitting on

the team watched, on edge of whats happening, but was put back to practice when you gave them a side-eye

your fingers opened the ointment and your kit to treat the bleeding lip and the swollen side of his face

‘youre the captain. its not wise to fight before practice and be late. youre hindering everyone else’

you coldly scolded and oikawa shrank back

‘it was iwa-chan’

he mumbled and you stopped and quirked an eyebrow

‘what? why did he-’

then you froze

iwa knew

and he beat oikawa up for it

he fought his best friend for it

and iwa didnt look fazed at all

despite being a muscle freak, iwa was very soft and his iron defiency made him prone to bruising

yet why was he so clean

it was like iwa hit oikawa but in turn, the other didnt fight back

no

you must stop

youre overthinking again and youre over analyzing it and youll end up at the place you were before

however

oikawa noticed the dawn of realization on your face and he shakily reached out to touch your hand

‘i,,, didnt. because i deserved it. i-’

he sniffed and you knew he would start crying right now

the last thing he wanted would be to cry in front of the others so you immediately stood up and went to the coach

‘coach, oikawa-san needs treatment that i dont currently have with me. i would need to take him to the infirmary’

he nodded and waved you off so you had the clear

oikawa flinched when you harshly grabbed his arm and pulled him up so he could follow you out the door

it was such an awkward silence between you both but you bit your lip, focusing on the fact that you were just doing this bc he was your obligation

it was like you threw him to one of the cots then you rummaged through the medicine cabinet for an extra cotton ball and a better ointment

‘i fcked up, y/n’

your movements halted and your eyes drifted down, looking at the tiled floor

‘i messed up so bad’

he hoarsely said and you could tell how much pain he was going through by the way he let out a shaky breath

‘oika-’

you made a move to turn around but he stopped you

‘no! dont look at me! just-just dont,,, i cant-i wont be able to say it if i look at you’

he cried and you nodded

oikawa leaned his forehead on his intertwined hands with his eyes on the floor before starting

‘i want to say im sorry. because everything, all of this, it all started as a game to me’

you closed your eyes tightly, tears welling up in your eyes

‘you,,, you didnt bat a single eyelash at me. you didnt try to please me, you didnt chase after me, no, you didnt see me like that. it made me,,, i dont know,,, confused,,, that girls like you even existed. it,,, not gonna lie, ticked me off and i was offended that you brushed me away so easily like i was some,, some bug on your shoulder. so,,, i wanted to see,,, and try,,, if i could make you,,, like me. and i know! i know its messed up but god y/n i swear i didnt want to hurt you. i just,,, i wanted to see if i could ever make you look at me like the way they did but it backfired. i wanted you to chase me but in the end, i ended up chasing after you. i chased and i ran without knowing that you were slowing down for me so i could catch you. that,,, that date made me realize of how,,, how perfect and beautiful you are a-and how unworthy i am to even receive anything from you. i saw how happy you were after that, dancing, twirling that poor idiot around. at first,, it made me so so proud. and so happy that i made you do that. i put those stars from the sky into your eyes and somehow you made them shine much brighter. then,,,, i got scared. i started thinking about,,, about me. and how i am. ive been trying so hard to please other people that ive lost sight of the real me and how terrible i am. and y-you! i just- y/n its so hard for me to explain all this right now- my current mental state, the pain on my face- i cant,,, but at that moment i realized that you,,, you were better off without me. youre so kind, so beautiful, so smart, you could go do so many good things in life. and im just going to hold you back. i didnt want to hurt you so i,,, chose to just cut the string now and,, we wont get hurt later. but,,, i regret it. i regret it so much, y/n. all my life,,, everyone cooed and awed at this child just because of how he looked like and,,, he got used to it. everyone wanted me because i am oikawa tooru but they didnt want the entire oikawa tooru. iwa,,, iwa hit it into my head that,,, you,, were the only one who bothered to even see that side of me’

when he finished, he looked up but gasped at the sight of you standing in front of him

fat tears were rolling down your face and you wore the angriest expression

‘i-,,,i hate you so much, oikawa tooru’

you seethed

your eyebrows were scrunched up together and your nostrils flared as you cried harder and you let out a cry

‘i hate you, i hate you, i hate you’

you chanted and oikawa saw his vision cracking

his world was now falling apart

he did the last thing he would ever do and you were now at your most pained moment

‘youre so selfish, impulsive, and terrible’

you whined and punched his shoulder at each word

‘but i love you so much. i hate you because you made me cry and made me feel so hurt but i still love you. why-why cant you stop playing your games, tooru? stop playing with me now! stop it! stop-!’

you didnt get to say anything else because he grabbed your waist and held you in his arms

it was like you didnt even weigh a thing by the way he lifted you to sit on his lap and he gently led your face to his neck

‘im so sorry’

he repeated constantly while brushing your hair and rubbing your waist

you and oikawa tooru spent an hour sitting on that bed just crying 

after a while, you stopped and resulted to just hiccuping

‘youre selfish, tooru. you listened to yourself and did whatever you wanted rather than talking to me. i hate you but i,,, i love you, oikawa-san. i shouldnt say that but if i dont, im afraid you’ll go ahead and do something stupid again’

he chuckled but he squeezed you tighter

‘i dont,,, want to let you go, y/n-chan. let me be selfish a little longer and love you all to myself’

and by god did he become selfish

it took you a while to get over your defensive and guarded actions from him but you were slowly finding yourself forgiving him

YO IM SORRY BUT I WOULDVE DROPPED HIM LIKE PLEASE WHAT THE HECK Y/N REALLY REALLY LOVES THIS GUY

natsu absolutely despises him still and whenever oikawa even comes over, hes always glaring at him and oikawa would shift uncomfortably but accept it bc he deserved it

‘i didnt realize how badly i hurt you, y/n. i could never imagine you accepting me still. ill spend the rest of my life making it up to you’

he promised and you laughed

you were both lounging on your bedroom floor, mean girls playing in the background, while just staring at the ceiling

you brought your clasped hands up so you could look at it

then a goofy smile settled on your face and you turned to look at him

‘just continue loving me, oikawa-san. thats all i ask for’

then graduation came

of course the boys were all teary but oikawa seemed even more sad and he refused to look at you the whole day

you figured it could just be him being mopey over not seeing you everyday like he was able to before

then you both were walking home and he still hasnt looked at you

the silence was killing you but you just kept a tight grip on his hand and he would smile at you and kiss your hands

it still didnt wash away the odd feeling in your stomach but you would talk to him later after you gave him present

for the weekend, you were able to convince your parents to go on a beach trip at okinawa while you made natsu go over to tokyo and stay with katsuki

oikawa didnt know your family was out so he stood by your door, waiting for you to enter

you both stood there, staring at the floor, not knowing what to say

until you softly grabbed his hand

‘come in. i want,,, to talk’

you mumbled and oikawa’s eyes widened, silently panicking that you possibly found out

it was a secret not even iwaizumi knew so you couldnt have known

right?

you led him up to your room and pushed him down to sit on your bed

FLKDSJFLKDJ WHY AM I DOING THIS WHAT IS HAPPENING SOSOSOSOSOSOSOS

ALSO Y/N IS NOW 17 ON THIS YOU GUYS LIKE BLS SHES ONE OF THE OLDEST IN HER CLASS BC HER BIRTHDAY SITUATION SO SHES BEYOND THE AGE OF CONSENT IN JAPAN, RIGHT?

oikawa was confused and he watched you bite your lip and look off to the side

‘y/n-chan? why are you nervous? you said you wanted to talk?’

he asked

but you unzipped your skirt and let it drop on the floor

‘for graduating,,, and working hard for these years,,, im giving you this’

you finally met his eyes

then he knew

oikawa blanched and he quickly stood up and placed his hands on your shoulder

‘y-y/n! uh-i-are you sure? a-arent you-’

‘accept it, tooru. youre,,, my first love,,, so,,,, ill give you my other first’

KSDLFJSDKFJSDLK OKAY YALL LETS STOP THERE FOR NOW AND GO TO THE TIMESKIP OKAY?

OKAY

-----

oikawa was running in the airport

despite the shouts of civilians he accidentally pushed, he made no sign of stopping and if anything, ran faster till he reached outside

the rush of his sudden trip home was clear as he was only carrying a duffel bag full of clothing he hurriedly stuffed inside 

when he met the orange ninja boy in brazil, he quickly caught up with his underclassman and got drinks to talk about japan the last 2 years of his career

they both got simple beers and some appetizer to share as they reminisced the past

hinata was excitedly talking about the reconciliation of kindaichi and kageyama and how they were still enemies on court but were now friends

‘eh~? tobio-chan making up with kin-chan? what’s next? flying sushi?’

he joked and hinata laughed

‘it was partly of your manager, oikawa-san! she helped them make up!’

the previous smile on oikawa’s face slipped at the mention of you 

‘hmm,,,, she always made the impossible happen’

he mumbled and hinata nodded

‘l/n-chan became close to kageyama through kindaichi and kunimi and she would bring us food and stuff too! but only on times she wasn’t busy’

the ninja said and dipped his chip into the salsa while oikawa stared at the liquid

‘you guys must be special for her to go all the way to karasuno’

then hinata said something that caused the brunette’s ears to fall deaf to the loudness of the bar

‘it wasn’t a problem since coach ukai took care of her son’

oikawa didnt even give hinata another word when he rushed out of that bar after overcoming his shock and straight into his apartment

there were tears that blurred his vision as he shoved in shirts and pants and other necessities for a trip to japan

he argued with the front desk lady to give him a ticket to the earliest flight to japan despite her saying that it was hard to give him a seat when the plane was full

but luck seemed to pity this baby daddy as someone pulled their ticket out and he was able to take it for himself

it was the longest journey of his life and his hour long layover gave him an opportunity to call the only person he thought would even know where you were

iwaizumi

oikawa paced at the waiting lobby with his phone pressed to his ear as he listened to the ringing of his call

he bit his lip in anticipation and ran his fingers through his hair for the upteenth time until finally it was picked up

‘damn you, shittykawa, do you understand what time-’

‘iwaizumi, is y/n still in japan?’

of course his best friend was startled with the question as the setter hasnt asked him any question related to you in a few years

‘wha-how the hell am i supposed to know that? im in california, oikawa’

‘dont lie to me. she still talks to you since youre probably the godfather of my son’

he hissed and iwaizumi was now fully awake and his heartbeat was beating quite quickly 

how did he figure out

‘oi, oikawa, listen to me she-’

‘please! dont!’

he shouted and didnt care if he startled anyone else around him

‘dont lie to me! of all people! you dont lie to me!’

‘why should i tell you when you were the one who up and ran? huh?’

oikawa fell silent and iwaizumi could hear his sobs through the phone

iwa sat up on his bed, leaning against the wall as he contemplated revealing this secret you begged him to keep since his best friend sounded like he was on the verge of breaking apart

poor oikawa tooru already suffered so much

‘i swear youre going to make me regret this. but y/n is in,,,, tokyo and,,,,, she,,,,,, didnt want you to know about,,,, about everything. well-she did want to tell you but she had her own reasons not to and,,, and its perfectly valid for her to choose whatever she wanted. and yes, i knew and yes, i am his godfather but please, oikawa, whatever you do, dont go to japan, you understand? shes still hurt by it, idiot, and shes angry and you sound angry and-’

but of course,

oikawa didnt listen and he hung up but continued his pacing but this time, tears blurring his vision

the taxi driver noticed his frazzled expression and quickly stopped in front of him

oikawa gratefully hopped in and quickly told the driver the address he forced out of iwaizumi (with great reluctance)

‘this is the last time, understand me, tooru? youve already hurt her so many times and i cant bear to see it all over again so you need to fix it. but you mess this up again, not only will you lose her, you’ll lose me too’

the old man felt sorry for the young lad and stepped on the pedal to get him to his destination in the quickest time 

the apartment building was several stories tall yet the elevator ride felt like a snap when he finally arrived at the floor your apartment was supposedly on

what the real kicker was when he stood outside your door and he hesitated

would you let him in?

would you even want to see him?

would you punch him?

would you cry?

he was so worried but didnt realize that he already pushed the doorbell and a faint shout from inside made his heart jump

‘UNCLE KYOOoooo,,,,,’

the door opened and the boy’s voice went quiet, knowing this wasnt the man he was expecting and he quickly and harshly slammed the door shut to his face

oikawa was stunned

was this the right apartment?

did iwaizumi trick him?

but those thoughts were wiped away when the door opened again and a girl was softly chiding the boy before turning around with a smile to greet the person but then it fell

similar to her son, she slammed the door shut and oikawa panicked

‘y-y/n? h-hey!’

he exclaimed and with a clenched fist, he stood there

you were hyperventilating inside

how did he find you?

why is he here?

does he know?

‘mama? who’s that oji?’

the bright eyes of yozora looked up at you and you blinked, briefly seeing the man behind the door at the face of your son

you sucked in a deep breath before smiling lightly

‘yoyo-kun, can you go play with dino-kun while mama and oji talk?’

yozora blinked back up at you before shrugging and nodding and running off to your shared room

once he was gone, you quickly composed yourself and opened the door again, shocked to see oikawa already half-way down the hallway to the elevator

‘would you like some tea before you go?’

you called out and he stopped, almost giving himself whiplash at how fast he turned his head

it was like his instincts took over when your voice started speaking to him

as if he was 18 again, oikawa found himself trailing after your voice and you nervously led him inside

his eyes were moving really fast as if he wanted to quickly soak it all in before it would disappear

this was where you lived

with your son

who was his son too

there was a picture by the door of you and the little boy from earlier

it was at the planetarium nearby and tooru’s heart bloomed at the sparkle in that child’s eyes

jesus, he was beautiful

‘yozora. thats his name’

you said, noticing him staring at the picture

KDFLJSDKFSD PRINCE NOCTIS LUCIS CAELUM BABIESSS!!!

‘night sky’

oikawa whispered

the teapot was still hot and you were able to pour him a cup so you both sat on the dining table where he sat across from you

‘n-nice place’

he stuttered out

you nodded, tracing the rim of your own cup

‘its natsu’s and katsuki’s actually. my parents kicked me out so they offered to let me stay with them’

you reasoned, not meaning to sound cold but it came out as if you were being passive agressive

‘o-oh? ho-how is he-’

‘oikawa-san, what are you doing here?’

he visibly flinched

calling him by his last name stung since you called him ‘tooru’ the whole relationship so returning to his surname is your way of cutting off the whole thing

‘i,,, i found out. a few days ago. from shoyo. he told me their coach looked after yozora and,,, i knew he is,,, mine’

you let out a humorless chuckle

a scoff

then you looked up to meet his gaze, oikawa gulping at the hardness in your eyes

‘what makes you think so? what makes you think that i wasnt angry and spiteful enough to give myself to someone else so they could have what the great oikawa tooru had? what makes you think that i would remain loyal to you despite you just running off to the other side of the fcking world without a word? hm? oikawa-san? what.makes.you.think.so?’

out of guilt, he broke the stare to his own steaming cup of green tea

‘nothing’

you whispered

he shakingly sighed and you could tell he was about to cry

but you rolled your eyes and crossed your arms

‘go ahead and cry, oikawa-san. im used to temper tantrums. i have a son for god’s sake’

‘you would never do that to me, y/n. you promised that you would always love me and only me and i know you take promises to your grave’

he reasoned but it sounded like it was him convincing himself

the dry laugh you let out made him fidget

‘and you promised that you would always talk to me and communicate. yours is a much lighter and easier promise than mine yet you get to break it and i can’t? no, oikawa-san. to me, its like that year never even happened’

you were now just trying to rile him up due to your anger towards him

you shouldve let him walk to the elevator and leave and never come back

but you still invited him in anyways

oikawa snapped his head up

‘you cant say that or mean it, y/n. that boy over there, hes a reminder of me. he looks exactly like me so you cant ever forget what we have’

‘what he had. it was simply the past, years ago, and everything has changed since then. dont you dare try to dig up buried secrets, oikawa’

‘but why did you keep him from me?’

he pleaded, desperate for any answer as to why

‘i had every right. the moment you boarded that plane, he no longer was yours. you left, i stayed, and you cant just come back here and-’

‘mama?’

a small voice from the corner halted your loud voice and you and tooru looked at him

oikawa yozora was exactly like his father

from his loud and obnoxious personality to even the brown hair and brown eyes

KFDSLJFKDS REMEMBER THAT KID FROM OLD UKAI’S VOLLEYBALL CLUB?! THATS WHAT HE LOOKS LIKE!!

he looked absolutely nothing like you and people even get confused when you say hes your son

um maam i think hes my son since he came out of me

so oikawa was right

yozora was your daily reminder of the mistakes of your youth but he was anything but that as he is the greatest thing to ever happen to you

yozora became your light when you fell into depression after oikawa ran away

sure, your parents absolutely loathed poor child as he is a child of a child

but you kept him because he means the world to you

and the world he holds are in his eyes

‘i,, i heard yelling,,, and,,, thought mama and oji were sad,,, so,,, i bring my,,, star book because,,, it makes me happy,,, and i think,,, mama and oji will,,, be happy too’

he mumbled out and you smiled at him before moving to go to him but oikawa stopped you

his eyes begged you and you glared at him, deciding to withdraw

if he decides to do anything, you could always knee him between the legs

he slowly approached yozo and kneeled down to reach eye-level

‘hello, my name is oikawa tooru’

he softly introduced himself and yozora just stared at him

‘you oikawa too? but i oikawa! mama is he me?!’

yozora shouted and you giggled, running to take him into your arms

‘oh, darling, how curious you are. oji isnt you, baby. he just,,, has the same last name as you. like mama has hers but you have,,, oji’s’

your eyes drifted to oikawa but he remained on the floor, staring at the spot where yozo stood on

you kept his last name

you listened to him from that night at the hill by naming his son after the night sky

my god, you are so,,, 

‘--the book. oji? do you?’

he was brought back to reality when your son was now back on the floor and poking his shoulder

tooru blinked and looked at him

‘huh?’

‘i ask if you want to read my book with me, oji. mama say she happy but you still sad so my book make you happy’

not even an hour of meeting him, oikawa tooru already loves him

the volleyball player nodded and yozora offered a tiny hand to which he accepted

‘this way. mama say to read so she make food. i like food, do you like food, oji? i like food. i like milk bread. mama say papa like it so i like what papa like. i want papa to come home. sit there’

tooru’s heart beat faster every word his child uttered and it even went faster when he saw yozo struggle to get up on the couch

the pair of big hands that brought him on the cushion made him happily sigh then uttered a small ‘thank you’

‘my mama say that my papa give me my book and say to take care of it until he come back. and she say he come back when im a master of space! so i study and read my book every day and know all so papa can hurry home!’

tooru didnt even notice tears falling down his face until yozo blinked up at him with his small hands grasping his cheeks to wipe it off

‘why you cry, oji? no sad! no sad! here! i read my book so you not cry’

he babbled and quickly pried the book open and read out the words on the page, not realizing he was saying most of it wrong

that book was oikawa’s

the book that he read all the time in the bus and now, it was passed on to his son

you leaned against the wall and gasped at the sight of yozo just babbling and oikawa crying

‘yoyo-kun? what did you do to tooru?’

you fussed and sat down next to oikawa

yozo worriedly looked at him and now his own eyes were watering and soon enough, you have 2 boys crying in your living room

GURL IM SORRY BUT I WOULDA KICKED OUT OIKAWA LIKE NOT EVEN OFFER HIM TEA OR ANYTHING IM SORRY IM TIRED AND IDK WHATS GOING ON

‘a-ah, y-yozo! yozo-kun! oji is,,, just,,, uh,, sad because,, because pluto isnt a planet anymore!’

yozo sniffled and he went closer to oikawa

‘me too, oji. yoyo sad too because pluto is just small. other planet are onii-chan and onee-chan but pluto is baby so they not like him’

he rambled and oikawa pulled him closer

‘mama, can we keep oji? nana-san and katsu-san will like him! promise!’

you couldnt even believe what was going on right now

not only did your baby daddy ex-boyfriend suddenly pop up, your son was now wanting to keep him

you made a move to of course deny his request but oikawa opened his mouth first

‘yozora-kun, of course you could keep me. im your papa, after all’

OKAY THAT WAS IT

YOU DID NOT WANT HIM TO SAY THAT TO YOZORA

out of shock, you slapped him across the face

causing yanno what happened

oikawa screamed

a/n: yoooooo SO LIKE THIS IS RIDICULOUS LIKE THIS IS BOOTY IM SORRY BUT THIS IS ALSO IN MY GOING TO EDIT LIST AND I CHOSE THIS OUT OF MY 10 OTHER VERSIONS OF THIS ROUTE AND I MAY OR MAY NOT RELEASE ANOTHER ONE JUST TO MAKE UP FOR IT. but try not to let this flop 🥺 👉👈

ALSO CHI THAT K+Y AND THE T+Y IS ON THE WORKS RN AND IM LIKE HALF WAY DONE SO I MIGHT RELEASE THEM BOTH AT THE SAME TIME

[yuthoe]

Day 10: Paint Me (PENTAGON: Kino)

OH MY LORD THIS TURNED OUT LONGER THAN I PLANNED AND IT'S 12:30AM HERE, BUT IM JUST GONNA POST IT AND ADD THE REST OF THE TAGS LATER

anyway, today's prompt from this list is

Day 10: Meet Cute

and the scenario of reaching out for the same thing at the same time just would not leave my head lmao. so have this haha, it took me a surprisingly short time to finish, but the only reason im posting this on the 11th is that i was procrastinating

PAIRING: Kino/Kang Hyunggu x reader. GENRE: fic, fluff. WARNINGS: none. WORD COUNT: 1,389.

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Art Bar is four hours away from your apartment, and therefore a luxury you only indulge in every few months, when you have a free day or two. It’s also an excuse for you to splurge and get new art supplies—your favorite brush broke last week and you’ve run out of green paint for the landscape piece you’ve been working on.

But also there’s this really high quality sketchbook they started selling recently and you desperately want one. You’d been eyeing it for the past month, sighing wistfully every time an ad for it crossed your feed on social media.

The faint smell of coffee slips past your nose as you push past the glass doors, and you take a look at the overhead menu of the cafe corner by the entrance, making a mental note to get a latte after you do your shopping. You hook a metal shopping basket on your elbow and head in.

The first stop is the brushes, and you quickly look through the choices for the exact ones that broke, and another finer brush as replacement for the one that’s currently losing a lot of hair. You eye one of the more expensive options, biting your lip and considering getting one, but you’re probably not going to end up using it for fear of wearing out the bristles.

You quickly look away and head for the oil paints, running through the really good selection, and pluck out a green, white, and black tube, along with a pink for the flowers. The pile of canvases off to the side catch your eye and lure you over, immediately taking a 24cm round canvas, just about the size of a small platter and perfect for an experimental circular piece.

The voice inside your head is screaming at you to mind your spending, but your sense of reason and all self-control get left at the door whenever you step into the store. The copic markers are teasing you, sitting docilely in their neatly organized shelves, and the section of the store dedicated solely for Faber Castell tools further entices you to grab a whole colored pencils set and just run away with it.

But you sigh deeply, stroke the row of pencils longingly and whisper, “Soon, my lovelies…”

You look around for that sketchbook that’s been haunting your waking moments, finally spotting it by the cash registers and beelining for it.

There’s one sample left open and you run your fingertips over the page, testing the smoothness of the paper, the thickness of every page, and inspect the ones filled out with watercolor, charcoal, and regular graphite. The more you look at it, the more you desperately want it.

Alas, it’s expensive, and you can’t afford a really big one right now, especially with the other tools in your basket that need to be purchased, so you go for the next smaller size instead.

A hand meets yours as you reach for the pad, and you jerk back. The owner of the hand recoils as well and says, “Oh, I’m sorry—were you about to get that?”

Oh, he’s cute, you think, dumbly nodding at his question. “Ah, yeah… But it’s okay, you can take it.”

He tilts his head, brows furrowing slightly and chestnut hair falling over his pretty eyes. He’s carrying his own shopping basket, loaded with a few small rectangular canvases, a bunch of copic markers, brushes, and a watercolor tin. “Are you sure? I think you were reaching for it first, though. And it’s the last one on display.”

You shake your head. “No, it’s fine, it’s fine. I’m pretty sure they have more at the back anyway, ‘cuz this brand has gotten pretty good reviews lately.”

“Ah yeah, that’s true,” he replies, wagging a finger at you. “I’ve seen a lot of reviews of it on YouTube, and I’ve been wanting one so bad.” He giggles, looking at the sketchbook fondly.

“I totally get it, I’ve been saving up for one for a while, too.” You smile at him. “That’s why I’m saying you should just take it, they probably have more in stock.”

He hums, thinking it over, but the allure of the sketchbook is too strong and he says, “Well, if you insist, I’ll gladly take it.” He picks up the last packaged sketchbook and slides it next to the canvases in his basket. “Thanks for this,” he says as you both move to the register.

It takes a while for him to pay for his items and you look around the frames displayed behind the counter as you wait. After around five minutes, the man steps aside with a hug bag, cradling it like a child. You see him move to admire the Faber Castell section nearby as you step forward with your basket.

“Excuse me,” you ask the cashier as you set the basket on the countertop. “Is there any more of the A4 size of that new sketchbook?”

“I’ll check our inventory for you,” she cheerily says, typing in a code in the computer and looking at it briefly before turning back to you. “Oh, I’m sorry, it seems like the last A4 one was just purchased. The next restock won’t be for another week or two. If you want, we can get your number and notify you when our stock is replenished.”

You can’t help but feel a bit down at the cashier’s answer—you have been waiting for weeks to get one, and who knows now when you’ll be able to stop by here again?

“No, it’s okay,” you say and gesture to the basket. “Just these then, please.”

The transaction is smooth and soon enough you’re clutching a paper bag of your own and heading for the cafe corner to get that latte—and a cupcake because you want to feel slightly better about the situation.

Sketchbook Guy is there too, his lavender patterned cardigan contrasting with the green diamonds wallpaper in the most complementary way. He turns to go to the claiming area and sees you, waves with a tight smile on his face.

You reply with a smile and order at the counter quickly, and step aside to wait for your coffee and pastry beside Sketchbook Guy.

There’s an awkward silence between you, until he finally blurts out, “Okay, I couldn’t help but overhear the cashier lady earlier.” He rummages in his paper bag and takes out the coveted sketchbook, holding it out to you. “Please have this. You said you were saving up for it for a while.”

“No, I can’t,” you say, waving your hand to decline him. “You already paid for it, and I told you to take it, anyway.”

Sketchbook Guy smiles, nudging the book closer to you. “Please. I insist. And if it’s the payment you’re concerned about, you can pay me back. With coffee, or something.”

You scoff. “This costs way more than one cup of coffee.”

He’s nodding before you’re even finished speaking. “Yeah, I know.” There’s a mischievous purse to his lips and your brows knit for a moment before you register his words and feel a heat rise to your cheeks.

“Ah… uh… I mean, sure? Okay?” you stammer, taking the sketchbook with both hands and looking at it before meeting his eyes again. “I live quite far from here, though, so—I don’t know—maybe we can, like, schedule something?”

He smiles even wider. “Yeah, of course. Here, I’ll give you my number.” He holds a hand out and you pass your phone to him. Long fingers tap on the screen and you hear a soft piano a moment later.

“Here you go,” he says, handing your phone back. You peek at the screen, at the new contact simply named Hyunggu, and the string of numbers underneath it. “Now you know my name and number, and we can talk about when you can buy me that coffee.”

This dude has got to be the smoothest and most charming guy you’ve ever met, and it’s leaving you flustered and amused at the same time. You’re basically left with no choice but to go along with him, but you don’t even mind it.

“Okay,” you say, nodding and pocketing your phone as your drink and to-go bag arrive. “My name’s Y/N. I’ll message you later about that coffee.”

[imagine-a-killingharmony]

V3 Boys + S/O Sleeping After Big Meal

How about the V3 boys reacting to their s/o falling asleep after a big meal? BTW you did a good job Mod Atua!

im either gonna link the girls version of this later, or forget because im a lazy son of a heck doing most of this on mobile.

also thanks for the praise fhdhdjduhddjshaaa

-Mod Shuichi

Kiibo

Kiibo was just... watching you eat, like normal since he didn’t have the ability to eat himself, so he... watched, it felt slightly unnerving but you had talked to him while you were but...

He felt slightly jealous he had to admit, you were eating a lot for today, more than usual at least and... yawning a bit more than usual too- ohmygodyousuddenlyfellasleep.

“S-S/O?!” OHNO!!! HEWASNTPREPAREDFORYOULEAVINGHIMALONETOTHINKOFANSOLUTIOOOON!!!

“AAAAAAA” What does he do?! WHAT DOES HE DO?!

“aaah-?” You blinked, yawned again and stared at him screaming, which wasn’t helping you take a nap...

“AAAAAAAAAAAA”

“kiibo what the hell are you doin.”

“AAAA- S—S/O! You just fainted on me, I was frightened to say the least, how could you just suddenly fall asleep on me like that...?”

You blink, so that’s what you were doing, god wish you could do it some more, you pick yourself up, apologizing quietly, before getting lectured by your boyfriend who can’t even sleep about the importance of it.

Shuichi Saihara

You had went out to a cafe he had recommended to you, it was a calming place really, everything about it had been quite... relaxing indeed...

Really relaxing, then the food was really good too, the best part was watching Shuichi sip at the tea (extra sugar too.) he ordered and talking with him...

So... So calming, your heart felt at rest, so... a lil’ nap wouldn’t hurt right? You slunk down towards your seat, and began to go to bed...

Shuichi... noticed quickly, he wondered if he should have woken you or just left you to sleep, but you looked really... at peace.

He held in, placing his coat over you as you quietly rested over the table comforted by the newfound warmth.

Shuichi even pulled your plates away so you could sleep comfortably, it wouldn’t be too good for your back though so he would have to allow it for only a bit longer...

“shuuuuichiii,,, wub... yooou...”

...

“I love you too.”

Ryoma Hoshi

Ryoma Hoshi has never cooked for you before, so it was a real surprise when he told you he made something just for you, and only you.

You had to approach this calmly, savor every living moment of it, especially since Ryoma seemed doubtful about the entire concept- you could see it with how he was... pulling his hat down as you ate... so you had to... for Ryoma!

Trying to eat as much as you could, was it a pain? Somewhat, but it was for his sake so you pulled though, and though!

Wasn’t like his food tasted bad either, it was good! Not great? But good.

“Yaaaawn....”

Wow, was it always so tiring to eat this much? It is, isn’t it. Oh my god.

You did not think this though, you set towards the table about to bash your head against it, but a soft mushy feeling stops you...

“... Jeez, are you okay? I didn’t do anything to the food... you got a long way to go, I can’t believe ya’ fell asleep after that...”

You drift off to sleep before you can respond...

Waking up, it’s on the top of your couch, you have a blanket over you and everything... what were you doing? It felt important...

Meh. You go back to bed for at least five more minutes...

Kaito Momota

Kaito was already worrying, entirely about the bags under your eyes, you wearily explained how you just stayed up last night... but Kaito could see why, night is when most of the stars come out! How can he hold that against you?

Then you tell him you didn’t have breakfast either, well- damn, that makes it so he gets something for ya’, he had some leftovers from yesterday so it’s no big deal!

Wasn’t like the food he brought out was that bad either, he’d promise he try to get something better for you if you didn’t like it, so you took what you got and... ate, problem solved-!

Luminary of the Stars fixes everything yet again!

... then you fell asleep, at the table.

Kaito didn’t... notice at first, until he looked at you real closely, that didn’t worry him though, he just swooped you in his arms...!

Kaito’s genius plan? Simple, both of you on the couch, both nap, both happy and well-rested! Genius.

That’s right, he’s taking a nap with you, you can’t argue against it!

Kaito would put his jacket over the two of you, and huddle close to his favorite person on the world, grinning to himself.

Sweet dreams!

Rantaro Amami

Oh boy... he came over just cuz’ you invited him for lunch, how could he possibly refuse?

He really wasn’t expecting to have you fall asleep after eating everything you prepared... well, this wasn’t all that planned out at all.

He shook you into a semi-awareness, of course he would, what else would he do?

Sleeping here isn’t good, it’s bad for your back.

“C’mon S/O, I’ll bring you up to your bed just stay with me for a second or two...”

“nnnnooo...”

“Should’ve thought about that before sleeping on me, hm? We can have a date another time.”

He takes ahold of your shoulder, hup, he carefully brings you up to your bedroom, then place you on the top of the bed.

Rantaro texts you later upon the whole endeavor, thankfully it’s as simple as that, he even plans a proper lunch date for another time.

Gonta Gokuhara

You had been practicing day and night how to properly eat with most silverware, you hadn’t known half about this until now but you and Gonta had been invited to an important party, so you both tried to get into your most tip-top gentleperson personas as you could!

What you forgot was, people need sleep to function, it’s just the natural order of things, sleep is needed to live.

It didn’t help you were already tiring yourself out with telling your precious gentle giant about how to be on his best behavior, what not to do...!

...

You didn’t mention sleeping, it was right after the meal, you couldn’t take it so... you fell asleep.

Luckily enough, beside your side was Gonta who saw you tip over towards his side, leaning on his shoulder letting out a quiet snore...!

Gonta picked you up into his arms, excusing you and himself from the formal party, while being gentlemen important, S/O matters first!

Kokichi Ouma

Everything about it? Suspicious, Kokichi called you over tomorrow, that usually meant he was trying to prank you in someway, so you kept your guard up...

You ended up not sleeping a wink out of pure terror.

He promised that wasn’t the case, does he really have the face of a liar S/O?

Kokichi just wants to love-love his precious soulmate he even made you a meal... so you... dropped your guard, a mistake, an awful mistake.

You felt your eyes start to close, your boyfriend asking if your dying on him, then the world becoming nothing more than a swirl as you give in to the land of rest...

...

You wake up in the front of your house without anything but a note on the top of your head to tell you what’s happening, or what just possibly happened to get you here...

“dropped you off I dunno where ur keys are tho lol, so I dropped you off in front of the house :P”

It says that... despite... how your boyfriend knows how to lockpick, that son of a...-!

Korekiyo Shinguuji

How fascinating, he didn’t think it was true, right now you were snoring on his table, holding onto a lone fork in front of a large meal that had been prepared...

Korekiyo has wondered if such a thing was possible, indeed it had, he believed he’d read a book upon a myth about a princess eating an apple, before falling asleep only to be waken by true love’s kiss but...

No your only asleep, he can tell you can easily wake with how sluggishly you groan whenever he shakes you slightly, Korekiyo stares down at you, takes out his notebook and pen then begins to write down your sleeping patterns, it’s useful to have this information on hand afterall...

Yes, quite interesting to know indeed if the two of you ever come to share a bed if you come to live together...

You continue to sleep, blissfully unaware of the world around you, nor the man writing how your currently snoring.

[dreamsanddreams88]

Went from trail building to being in the world from Red Queen's War, where a witch made it nordic winter all the tjme, tedi was really excited about it. Surrounded by all these drunk norse ppl, ian and brian there and brian got water dumped on him from above while it was super cold out

In big ol hotel or mansion in the sabrina show, the devil came back and also teacher, wanted to me kill my counterpart girl. Somebody got possessed, i tried then to sneak into mayors mansion or whatev but alarms go off and allllll these ppl crowd around. Then a big talking lion comes out but hes the devil? He can fly so i ride on his back all over this beautiful lake. Then i can fly so i go up reallly high over power lines, then im level with rainier, then im so high i just hop right over to new york or san fran or paris where sarah is

Kenzie slept in alex's bed topless because she had to for some reason, both assured me it was totally platonic and fine but next day he said just feeling her nips touching his back "made him a real man" very upsetting. Then i was dating brian instead but it was a secret and he was still really mean to me, going on tinder, etc. Then i was with a group, maybe campers, traversing this weird snowy kinda alien landscape across streams n stuff maybe on a scavenger hunt?

Living in this sci fi place with flying cars n buildings that looked like accordion tubes that floated and moved. I lived in place called "the pit", smoggy place the size of a pool that was dangerous. Hit a button that shrank me really small into a little apartment the size of a barbie house. Some shit was on fire in the city, and i was out on a foresty beach like at the Elwha river with my mom and siblings, when Matthew went crazy and chased me with a knife, i ran to "the pit" cuz id be safe while shrunken and i had a car to get away. Also i was hangin with ginger and ellen at one point and ellen had a bf who might have been raping his football bro in the locker room

At some church and rick moranis had incredible powers, peoples faith had given him actual magic like in the Wheel of Oshiem, but then they all revolted and took him into custody, took his belt and shirt, they were gonna give him new shirt but all got distracted. Then it was me and my family. So mom had to go do something, matthew was a kid again and off somewhere. Then i was watching that serbian guy on youtube talk about this weird cartoon called the marauders, lookin like it was drawn by rebecca sugar, about blue mermaids and the main one was called lydia. She gave everyone at a school assembly potions that were supposed to taste amazing but everyone barfed instead

An elephant was in my parents house, we were trying to kill it. I had a bow and 3 arrows at once like legolas, hiding in the bathroom and made it angry. It ran into laurens room to charge, so i ran out and hid behind sofa in living room

Jenna and luis came over to my parents house, we're hangin out in the basement but something weird about it? Then dad was crying at dinner cuz somebody died

Bookshop in town called DC RI which stood for "district Columbia rape is ok" store, like the whole thing was somehow themed with all this porn and rape apologists and I never noticed, I went there all the time and kids went in there sometimes, cuz the front part was just a normal bookstore. People were mad at me for going there. Porn section had a bunch of cake in there, I guess related to some lesbian book, also I saw lizzo walking around there

Alex was emailing the girl from silver water cafe but her name waa Merula, she was married with 2 kids but wanted to run away with him

Was ant man?? Flying a jet around trying to do some badass rescue mission in the mountains, was bigger than everyone and could jump down from jet as it hovered then jump back in.

Lived in beeeautiful  country home for a month, tryna appreciate it before moving. Huge lawn w scraggly old trees, a barn, big meadow

[drews-diary]

21.08.19

today’s diary entry is gonna be weird. also hi, its been a while. a few days ago, i learned that the fourteen year old i tutor has a boyfriend. and while that is a perfectly reasonable age to have a boyfriend i just cant get over the fact that someone born in 2007 is already capable of typing let alone dating. I remember when my friends little brother who was also born in 2007 was crawling around and cried cuz he hit his head on the table. but to be fair that didnt really bother me too much as i always felt as though i was stagnant and things around me were the ones always changing. 

But then today i was listening to taylor swift’s old albums cuz i was feeling nostalgic and i listened to fifteen from the fearless album that came out back in 2009 and i realized that she released that song when she was around twenty which means she probably wrote in when she was in her teens writing about how she knows so much more than she did back when was starting high school that she wish she could tell her younger self. and i remembered listening to that album as a child and expecting myself to feel the same by the time i became an adult. yet here i am at 21 no thoughts head empty. and i realized that even if i met 15 year old me there is next to nothing i would want to tell her because i still feel like i am more or less still the same ignorant uninformed person. the only thing i would tell her is to stop fucking around and focus on school. 

i feel like i dont have as much experience as the other people around me. I never used to care that i’ve never been romantically involved with someone, but i always thought it would happen eventually when i got to college but a three semesters have passed and i have yet to take a single class on campus. 

to be completely honest the only reason i am even fever writing this right now is because i had a ice cream blending cold brew from starbucks this evening because i had to get up excruciatingly early for class registration (which i completely failed at) and had three tutoring classes today meaning i didnt have time for my daily afternoon nap so the coffee was the only thing making sure i didnt fall asleep during my last class. I purposely dont drink coffee regularly so that i can use it like a magic potion when i need it and the caffeine hits me like a bus. it has been six hours and i am still wide-eyed i should not have gotten a grande. today was also my first time trying coldbrew so there’s that. i was kinda grateful for the effects because it made sure i was awake for today’s episode of hospital playlist but now i kinda wanna sleep since i didnt get much last night and i would like to make sure i dont miss my class tomorrow morning, i have to get up at at least ten, but here i am typing this.and i think i am just going to keep going.

my family moved recently, and for the time being my entire room is surrounded by bookshelves because my brother’s bed is too big and we cant fix any bookshelves into his room and i am only using a mattress topper thing for the next few months. this is because i finally convinced my mom to let me throw out that horrid bed with the curved head and foot board with the flower decorations that always dug into the back of my head, neck, and back when i was trying to read. so that is the situation in my room until the end of the year when hopefully my brother’s whole situation will be over and we can finally go furniture shopping and switch rooms. (we are also currently living in each other’s room because his permanent room aka my current room cannot fit his fucking gigantic boat bed. actually i really love that bed i wish he was still young enough to use it its so cute.

i find our new neighborhood unsettling. like its probably because i got so attached to our old house that we lived in for nine years but i dont know. the place we moved to is a location that i used to spend some time in when we first moved to korea but i literally havent been here in nine years as mentioned earlier, and i am slowly piecing my memories of the geography as well as blending it with the incredibly limited knowledge i have of the nearby surroundings that i built riding the bus and when i was learning to drive because the school that i went to is kind of near our new place. anyways to get back to the subject this new neighborhood is full of too many happy families with these little kids that run around with their sticky little fingers flailing around. like hello we are still in the middle of a global pandemic i swear to god parents of little kids will go loose their minds when their children get sick yet they let them just run around spreading their disgusting little disease to the rest of us. ugh i hate kids. but thats besides the point the reason i think the new neighborhood feels dystopian is because all of the families, children and the elders too (why are there so many elders like i dont hate them or anything most of them are fine but like where are they all coming from?) look so happy. where are the depressed high schoolers and burnt out college students? my brother and i dont seem to have any friends in this bitch. anyways so the sheer amount of happiness that seems to radiate around me reminds me of books and movies like the giver you know or like the uglies series where you start off in this utopian-esque world until you find out that it is actually fake. its unsettling. 

okay now i am kind of tired good night. wait also the public transportation at our new place fucking sucks i know it’s pretty good by regular standards but i am used to subway stations, convenience stores, cafes and bus stops all being 30 seconds away from the entrance of my building. okay the bus stop took more like two minutes but whatever. and buses used to come every five minutes but now i have to walk at least ten minutes to the nearest subway station and the bus stops only have three buses and even those take so fucking long to arrive and they dont even arrive when they say they will they are always late which is why i end up fucking walking twenty minutes to the subway station because that way at least i can guarantee that i am not going to be completely late. unreliable ass buses.

fuck there’s a lot i dont like about my new neighborhood. oh wait we are also far from malls now i have to walk like half an hour to get to the nearest mall when at our old house i only had to walk ten minutes and the mall close to our new house is worse than the old one. this one’s movie theatre isnt even famous. but dont get me wrong i guess there are things i like about our new place like how you can call the elevator from inside the house or how there’s a gym and the fact that i now have ac in my room. i am just being a brat because i really loved our old house. it was perfect. even if i felt as though i was being burned alive during the summers sometimes. i also like my new blinds that let in light in the shape of constellations. 

i dont currently have a desk in my room so i dont know what im going to do when school starts again in a few weeks i guess i’ll have to take my lecture on the floor or maybe on the kitchen table idk.

[duchessofdongs]

Little Things to Think About (Final Fantasy XV Scenarios)

 Noctis getting so mad at this one fish like he’s spent hours sitting at a dock, he’s already lost three lures to this thing and he’s getting progressively more and more pissed off until the point where when Ignis comes to check up on him Noct has already abandoned his pole and is currently wrestling with that fish in the water he’s gonna get it Iggy just watch

The guys actually being mistaken for a boy band like maybe Prompto hears some factory workers in Lestallum talking about them at a cafe and they’re wondering about what kind of band they were and the workers ultimately decide, with Noct obviously being the lead singer, they were probably a punk-pop indie band

Prompto wants to be offended (onlyalittle) but he can’t argue with the logic once he realizes they’re basically a boy band holy shit we can make gil off this can noct sing??

no wait imagine prompto being the one to intercept in altissia when the guy asks why they’re there like just as ignis is about to say his excuse prompto just fuckin blurts out ‘we’re a boyband performing at the arena come see us live tonight at 8 pm sharp’ and ignis just rolls with it

The boys actually getting kinda uncomfortable with Gladio just not buttoning up his jacket not because they don’t like the view (theylikeitalot) it’s just that they don’t understand he has shirts they’ve seen him with a tanktop on he just never buttons up that jacket why why is this

Ignis just gets pissed off cuz he’s the one applying bandages and potions to the only incredibly vulnerable spot on Gladio’s body it’s bad enough Noctis can’t even keep the godsdamned buttons on his HIS jacket 

Noctis gets hit with some serious confusion ailments during a hunt and he’s not delirious enough to take out a sword and start swinging at Gladio because he thinks he’s an Iron Giant (has happened more than once) but just enough that he starts seeing Carbuncle and starts talking to him in a slurred, confused voice and the guys just let him go on and on talking to his imaginary fox friend with a horn made out of ruby yeah sure Noct

No but the guys actually think that Carbuncle is just some imaginary friend that Noct sometimes mentions until one day, under some magical circumstance, they’re all sitting around the campfire at camp and Carbuncle kinda struts out behind a bush and Noct just casually picks him up and puts him on his lap to pet him (he loves them ear rubs) and EVERYONE JUST LOOKS AT HIM LIKE HE’S INSANE ARE YOU KIDDING HE’S REAL THIS WHOLE TIME YOUR ‘IMAGINARY FRIEND’ HAS BEEN REAL THIS WHOLE TIME

One time Noct got recognized as the prince in a really small town/village and he got swarmed by a group of fangirls and of course Ignis has to go into Bodyguard!Ignis mode and it’s just like back in Insomnia when the paparazzi would gather in the lobby of Noct’s apartment before an event and Ignis has to carve his way through with the Prince behind him straight to the Regalia

Noct actually falling off the back of the Regalia when Ignis has to either brake or make a sharp turn and it’s because he was sitting up there again Noct how many times has Ignis warned you about that 

Noctis and Ignis having a real fight like a really serious argument maybe about Noct not taking his royal duties seriously enough when he needs to and Noct yelling that Ignis doesn’t understand the kind of pressure he’s under and they both have to separate to cool down for a while

Gladio and Prompto witness the whole thing and then proceed to be mediators; Gladio talks to Ignis while Iggy does angry stress baking and Prompto cheers up Noct with a little impromptu fishing trip in the lake by the motel they’re staying at

The moment after Noct has a mini-breakdown after the Marilith is dead in the Brotherhood series and he’s crying by the ocean and the boys just comfort him until he gets tired and apologizes for yelling at them earlier but they totally get it it was rough man

Somebody actually ACKNOWLEDGES the fact that since Regis is dead then Clarus must be dead too I just why didn’t we have that scene in game like Gladio HAS to know his dad’s dead but he never grieves Iris never talks about it no one ever brings up Clarus I DON’T THINK CLARUS IS EVEN MENTIONED IN THE GAME

Iris would definitely take it hard but big brother Gladdy is there to help her out. He’s grieving too but he feels stupid for doing it because his father was always there to remind him that since he was the King’s Shield there was always a chance that one day he won’t come home 

Noct and Gladio kinda grieve together since both of their dads are dead but they got each other to rely on now and they share a short moment together when Noct gets him to open up about the issue

Cindy becomes a temporary fifth member to the group when an issue needs her attention on the road (idk what im not clever enough to come up with one) and of course the guys are worried about keeping her safe but they get ambushed by sabertusks and stay close to Cindy during battle but a stray sabertusk tries to corner her and Cindy straight up punches it into the ground

She learned how to take care of herself with her and Paw-Paw living around so many demon spots and not only is she good with her fists, she also did a little self defense with a gun

Prompto lets her borrow one of his guns while she’s with them the boy is absolutely smitten with her she’s so amazing

They boys meet Ravus again during a ‘bust-a-base’ quest and he comes with a small troop of soldiers... which Ravus himself destroys when they least expect it. Turns out Ravus, reluctantly, wants to ally himself with Noctis because Niflheim is starting to get out of control and Noctis needs to fix things now

Ravus becomes a double-agent for the royal retinue, feeding them little bits and pieces of information when he knows the empire can’t hear him and helping them make their way to Altissia by getting Commodore Aranea to cross paths with the prince because he knows she’s becoming more and more hesitant to help the Empire

Things become slightly better between Ravus and Noctis because they talk more and Ravus realizes that his anger towards Noctis was supposed to be towards the empire but he’s far too proud to ever properly apologize

Which makes it hurt even more when Ravus is tricked by Ardyn in Gralea and Gladio and Ignis have to tell Noctis and Prompto that Ravus is dead

And Ravus is brought back as a demon-corpse hybrid and he’s trying so hard to not hurt them but he can’t control his body anymore he can’t control Ardyn’s magic in his body he can only beg them to kill him so he can’t hurt anyone anymore

The boys coming to their own conclusion when they see that Noct has disappeared and Ardyn is too cryptic for them they can’t understand so they wait for hours, days maybe just waiting for any sign that Noct is alive in there

They eventually have to leave because the demons are still there but they can’t take the crystal and they don’t know what to do without Noctis so they just... leave

They leave and make contact with Aranea, using the number Prompto still remembers on his phone. She asks them where the prince is and they have to tell her that they have no idea where he’s gone

It’s a long trip back to Lucis and it’s mostly filled with silence and grief

Everyone looked so excited to see them back, but their faces fall once they realize the prince, their King, isn’t with them and the guilt and shame is so clear on their faces

Talcott wakes up one night to talking and he recognizes some of those voices so he gets out of bed to go greet the prince and ask him about all his cool adventures, did he meet lady Lunafreya, did they get married, did Leviathan look cool, did you find the Crystal

“Prince Noctis?”

A month passes and everyone panics when they wake up one morning and the sun hadn’t risen; the world is completely dark and devoid of any light and Noctis is still gone

The guys stay together for at least the first year of the Long Night but then Gladio has to take a hunt in Tenebrae because Iris is going and she can’t be talked out of it so he has to go with her. Prompto and Ignis understand and they stay together to continue their own research into demons and Ardyn and waiting for Noctis to come back because he will come back

But then Cor asks Prompto to come with him to Altissia because they need one more hunter on their trip and the demons crawling there are too dangerous for inexperienced hunters. Ignis understands and he’s the one who has to talk Prompto into taking it because Ignis can’t hunt but he can read braille and take notes and Prompto needs to be out there helping.

The three of them don’t see each other a lot after that

Ignis gets so tired of being cast to the side and treated differently because he can’t see anymore and this motivates him to teach himself how to fight again because he will not allow himself to be useless when people are in danger

He dedicates nearly all of his time training to use daggers again, setting up the training dummies himself and teaching himself to rely on sound and smell to find out where his enemies are. He always does it alone; he knows that if someone were with him, they would try to stop him and he cannot allow that

Talcott watches him quietly from a high-up balcony from where Ignis has set everything up. He found him training one day when he came over to bring more books from the Lestallum library and he couldn’t help but watch. He knows Ignis’ training schedule and he always shows up just to make sure Ignis doesn’t hurt himself. He admires Ignis’ will and strength and Ignis becomes Talcott’s motivation to become a hunter because if a blind man can do it, then so can he.

Talcott actually approaches Ignis on cooking lessons. Ignis is flattered but he politely declines since he can’t see, let alone teach. But Talcott doesn’t want Ignis to teach him; he wants to teach Ignis. 

Talcott helps Ignis become reacquainted with the kitchen and Ignis is happy to help Talcott train as a hunter

They’re both so proud of how the other has come

When Gladio, Prompto, and Ignis are together again during a hunt to take down a Starscourge-infected Behemoth after at least a year of not even talking to each other. Gladio and Prompto are surprised to see Ignis there and they give not to subtle hints that maybe this is too dangerous for him but Ignis merely brushes them off and leads the way with a confident walk

They come across the Behemoth chowing down and what looks like a mangled Anak corpse but they aren’t sure. Ignis, ever the strategist, comes up with the plan while the two of them are still trying to get him to tap out cuz this is going to be a big hunt and they don’t want to see him get hurt

Cut immediately to Ignis throwing his daggers at the Behemoth’s eyes to blind it, throw a Blizzara spell at the beast’s feet to knock it down and disorient it and then proceeding to slice it’s stomach open and claim the kill

Gladio and Prompto are beyond impressed and Ignis decides to take a tooth as both a trophy and a souvenir for Talcott

There are times where they come to believe that maybe Noctis won’t ever come back and they’re going to be stuck in the darkness forever

Regardless, they still get together every year for birthdays, especially Noct’s

Because no matter what, they need to rely on each other to bring even a sliver of light into days filled with never ending darkness

There was one particular encounter that instilled hope in all of them:

Year eight of the Night

Ignis, Prompto, and Gladio were reunited once more to deal with the startling appearance of a Marilith down by the Vesperpool that had been killing all the hunters sent to take her down. Given their experience of having already killed one as a team, they figured they could do it again

They can’t

This Marilith is even bigger than the one they fought eight years prior and she’s attacking them ruthlessly

Ignis is about to pull the plug on the operation and tell them to retreat when suddenly the ground starts to shake and he can feel cold splashes of water on his face.

Something bursts out of the Vesperpool and Ignis can’t see her but he can picture her when Prompto suddenly cries out

“L--Leviathan?!”

The goddess is smaller compared to her appearance in Altissia but the Marilith is still dwarfed by her size. When the demon tries to flee, Leviathan grabs her by the tail and proceeds to shred her into pieces. All while the boys watch, too stunned to move.

The goddess turns her attention to the boys and they think she’s gonna attack them but she just stares at them. And they realize that she doesn’t looked like the goddess they saw across the seas.

Her body looks like it was made of water and shimmering glass, looking crystalline in appearance. Little shards of glass float in the air surrounding her and spirals of water surround the boys in a protective bubble.

The moment lasts only a moment and Leviathan roars once and then disappears, shattering and scattering the glass pieces into the air until they can’t see them anymore

They can’t really explain it but they all knows what it means

Noctis is still with them

Their King will come back

OKAY THIS GOT WAY LONGER AND WAY SADDER THAN I ANTICIPATED BUT WELP WHATCHU GONNA DO might add more idk let me guys know what you think

[astrolliegy]

all the gay asks if youre feeling frisky

1. ideal date: tbh a date in general would 🐝 lovely but i think just chilling and watching movies and eating popcorn,,, no pressure to ‘look good’ (in quotes because all girls look pretty all the time)2. my “type”: girls3. do i want kids: not at the moment i don’t but only because i don’t want my kid to grow up to be a murderer and have the news looking back on their childhood and saying ‘100% their mom was the reason this is all happening’ not cuz i hate kids 4. adopt/other birth methods? i would definitely rather adopt than give birth unless my partner wanted to have to experience of a biological child i would be totally on board with that i just hate thinking about all the children in need in the world :(5. cutest date: i haven’t really been on a real date sooooo6. first time having sex: HA7. morning time vs. night time: morning time gay!!!! i get so exhausted from wherever i do during the day so i fall asleep super early most nights but you could wake me up at 4 am and i’d be chipper and ready to go 8. nap dates? YES LORD9. brown eyes? YES LORD 10. dogs vs. cats? DOG GAY 100% 11. would i date someone that had rodents/reptiles? yeah?? i mean have you ever seen a bearded dragon? those bitches are cute as fuck12. turn offs before dating? racism, terfs, willing uncleanliness, doesn’t like dogs. pretty straightforward 13. misconceptions about LGBTQ before i realized i was gay as fuck? i don’t think i ever really had any. i’ve always been raised to be open minded and accepting of everyone and that’s just how i am. i may not know everything about gender and sexual identities but i’m totally happy to learn!14. advice for my younger self: the friend crushes you have on every girl that walks by you is gayness own it bitch 15. my “type” for other genders? IM GAY BITCH I THOUGHT THESE QUESTIONS WERE FOR HOMOS ONLY16. an ex i regret: ughh17. night club or cafe gay? cafe gay! do you know how loud clubs are? i don’t but i can assume they’re pretty loud18. who would i go straight for? harry. styles if we weren’t both the webster definition of homosexual 19. video games, books, or movies? books and movies!!!! but NEVER the movie adaption of a book! always teribleeeee20. fav gay ship? simon and baz from Carry On by Rainbow Rowell. such! a! good! read! 21. fav gay youtuber? dodie is half gay but my fav full gay is alexis g. zall 22. have i ever asked out a straight girl? haha i told a girl that i have a crush on her thinking that she was straight cuz i just needed to whet it off my chest but turns out i made her realize she’s bi so that’s rad!23. have i ever been in love? unfortunately 24. ever been heartbroken? fortunately 25. want to be them vs. want to be with them: FUCK IF I KNOW 26. fav lgbtq musician: DODIE OR HARRY27. advice for young/baby gays: take your time with labels! they are so unimportant and unnecessary so if you can’t find something that you feels suits you don’t use one! 28. am i out? i’m pretty much out i’ve never sat down w my family and said ‘i’m a gay bitch’ but i tell them when i think a girl is hot or when i like someone. my family is really accepting so i’m super #blesst 29. uncomfy coming out experience: when i still identified as bisexual i came out to my dad and he didn’t say he accepted me before he said ‘you’re far too young to act on your sexual urges. don’t make bad choices’ so that was gross30. advice for gayz without a safe space: the internet is full of resources for us but unfortunately i don’t know specific sites or people. places irl like planned parenthood, school counselors, and GSA clubs at school are a great space for keeping yourself safe because of protection policies 💜💜

[manabingu]

MANATAGGED! by Cozymochi

Tagged by the amazing @cozymochi

1) Name/nickname: Mana or Ginga if you found me via YouTube Idol

2) Gender: Guuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurl (but I consider myself fluid)

3) Star sign: Sagittarius  ♐ ♥♥♥( proud of it)

4) Height: 5’1  (I am fun sized ok? o-o)

5) Hogwarts House: Gryffindor ~*~*~*~*

6) Favourite animal: Manta Rays (or as I call em MAJESTICAL FLAPFLAPS)

7) Hours of sleep: Ranges from 6-10 if Im lucky (because I’ve gotten sick lately I try to have as much sleep as humanly possible cuz I wanna strengthen my already weak immune system.Getting sick forces me to sleep longer.BUT it takes me EONS just to get to sleep cuz my mind is racing 24/7))

8) Dogs or cats: KITTIES =^w^=! But huskies are cool

9) Number of blankets: 3 ...I get cold easily hush

10) Dream trip: Definitely Japan, I just wanna go to the anime cafes & Nakano Broadway & Akihabara like the weeb trash that I am. But I wouldn’t mind seeing England, Egypt, Hawaii or Bolivia (again) in this lifetime.

11) Dream Job: Has changed over the years but I feel in my heart I was born to perform & entertain. I want to keep pursuing singing/acting/voice acting as my top priority, music, theatre, & VA is such a big part of my life, I would love to do it as a career. Even if I do it as a youtuber or something at first. But If drawing is an option I wouldn’t mind storyboard artist.

12) Time: 2am...woops

13) Birthday: December 20th

14) Favourite Bands: Abingdon Boys School, JAM Project, Daizystripper, STARISH/Quartet Night/HEAVENS, DOLL$BOXX, One Ok Rock, OldCodex, Choutokkyuu, FoZZtone, SHINee, Got7,U-KISS,BACK-ON,Psychic Lover, Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas,Rookiez is Punk’d, Man With A Mission, Asian Kung Fu Generation,Scandal, Linkin Park, Big Time Rush, The Beatles I know I have more but this is what I could muster from memory

15) Favourite Solo Artists: T.M. Revolution, Aoi Shouta, Miyano Mamoru, Maaya Sakamoto, Kana Hanazawa, Amber from f(x), VALSHE, LiSA, Celia Cruz, Shakira, May’n, Nano, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, PSY (do my friends count? if so Ceonn, Phoebe & Kiba Walker)

16) Song Stuck In My Head: “CHANGIN’” by Nona Reeves FT. You The Rock

Its the 4th ED Theme from Getbackers & by far its the greatest thing I’ve ever heard in my life. It’s just a PERFECT song. I can play on repeat forever.

17) Last Movie I Watched: The Mummy (2017) 

18) Last Show I Watched: I just watched Kevin Probably Saves the World. It has slowly become one of my new fave shows of all time. It’s such an original & brilliant story, the acting is superb & heartfelt. Such a good comedy. I HIGHLY recommend it. It’s a good thing I watch The Voice cuz it came on after it & that made me wanna check it out XD!

19) When Did I Create My Blog: My first blog @manadarkmagiciangirl has been here since May 2012. But this one has been up since February 2015

20) What Do I Post/Reblog: Well this is supposed to be my art/singing/hobby blg where I share all my projects & life. But I also tend to trickle some fandom posts. Usually memes,abridged projects, ZEXAL, Darker Than Black, Utapri, Takanori Nishikawa (and other artists I like), & tokusatsu or whatever else I am in the mood for that day

21) Last Thing I Googled: Brown & Auburn wigs for me &  sis cuz for Holiday Matsuri we wanna go as CardCaptor Sakura & Syaoran from Tsubasa 

22) Other Blogs: @manadarkmagiciangirl (Fandom Blog), @okudairagalaxypalace  ( ESPer Robin fan blog)  @pendantposse (abridged)

23) Do I Get Asks: It’s a rarity even though I do wish to talk with you guys. But usually if i reblog some kinda interactive meme it happens. Or if I give any big announcements

24) Why I Choose My URL: It’s a combo of Mana (my fave YGO character) & Yuma Tsukumo’s catchphrase from ZEXAL - “Kattobingu”. Kattobingu means “to do your best & challenge yourself”. So I am Mana & I’m doing my best ^_^b

25) Following: 45 but I should check who is active or nah XD

26) Followers: 418 but on my other one I’m at 1,368

27) Lucky Number: 83,39,20 I think XD?

28) Favourite Instrument: Electric guitar but have yall heard electric CELLO? That shiz is BADASS! But my fave instrument to use is my voice ^^♥ I luv to sing!

29) What Am I Wearing: Long Gundam Wing tshirt, pj bottoms & socks XD?

30) Favorite Food: GREEN TEA. Give me matcha flavored ANYTHING & I will be groveling at your feet. Especially matcha ice cream ;W;o

31) Nationality: Bolivian

32) Favorite Song: BELIEVE IT OR NOT, I may be a jrocker....BUT My favorite song of all time is “The Blue Danube  Waltz” by Johann Strauss II. I grew up listening to a lot of classical music & BESIDES recently Yuri On Ice (the song). No piece of classical music has come to being as perfect as that song in terms of taking me on an emotional rollercoaster. I love songs that can take me on a journey. But if I had to pick a MODERN song, I would say it’s a 3 way tie (all sung by Takanori Nishikawa) “Vestige” by T.M. Revolution, & “WE aRE” + “Howling” by Abingdon Boys School. Those songs always resonate with me.

33) Last Book Read: Tsubasa World Chronicle

34) Top Three Fictional Universes I’d Like To Join: I wish Heartland from ZEXAL was real cuz honestly I would LOVE to live there. Tokyo Mew Mew because I wanna be a magical girl that protects endangered species, Pokemon FOR SURE cuz who WOULDNT want that? A fourth choice would be Saint Seiya because I want that cool armor tbh.

I’m tagging: @crystalwoodsart @marcosatsu @magishine-dance @masked-paradox @rosey-ballerina @pandaloverwwf @tyrestgwa @ahsimwithsake @laurathia @t-chan @rainbow-galaxy-supernova

[chahchani]

Secret Idol Relationship With Jaeyoon

-You guys make it super obvious like super. (More like you’re trying to save both his and your lives and does at the end but it’s always dangerous in any situation cuz he just can’t control himself when you’re around). Forgets people are around when he sees you-you could be walking across the music building to the bathroom and he’ll just yell out in the open, “oh! Yah! Over here! It’s me!” And you’re there walking with your head down like IGNORE IGNORE and fans are just like “Who’s he calling to? Definitely not y/n she’s not even looking at him” And at that point he’ll get really upset and pouty because ‘why is she pretending she doesn’t see me :(’ until he finally realizes ‘ohhhh im in public i forgot, the secret thing’

- Even though ya’ll have a secret relationship, he really hates it when alot of idol guys like you and was cool about letting it go at first but once two or more male idols were like ‘my ideal type is y/n’ or ‘y/n’s really pretty, I’m a fan.’ he also went ahead one day and said ‘OH y/n is my ideal type 100% I’M A HUGE FAN OF HER’ on a radio show even tho like jaeyoon noone asked you. Would be really obvious in being your fanboy though. Purposely move himself to stand next to you at a music show ending, or sing along to your part in his sf9′s behind the stage video. He’s such a fanboy, fantasies are so used to it and they’re not even fazed anymore as long as it’s just a fanboy thing and he legit know all of your group dances.

- But one day he messed up really badly where you looked extra beautiful one day during MAMA Awards, and he legit could not peel his away off of you and when you were walking past him in the hallways of the building’s waiting rooms, in the midst of walking past him without making eye contact, he grabbed your wrist suddenly and pulled you back onto him for a hug and U LEGIT HAD TO THROW HIM OFF U like ‘homeboy u serious this is a public hallway! even if there isn’t anyone there could ALWAYS be somebody you feel’ and he’s like not taking it seriously and laughing while  whining really cutely like ‘but you look so beautiful and i miss you so much’ but like you still walked past him because you’re not trying to end your career that day and he will understand.

-Days where you both have days off and are able to see eachother, you guys loveee to go to a cat cafe or any cafe that is dimmed super dark inside where there is a upstairs that is even more darkly lit with like a cute lamp or something to read books and drink coffee on the table. Lays his head on your lap while coddling a baby kitten as he looks up at you, babbling on and on about how one day he will take you out in the actual daytime and do many fun things and you smile rolling your eyes but inside you know he really means it and your lucky to have such a sweet boyfriend, hoping one day you guys actually do get to do those things because even though it’s hard dating, you don’t want to leave him at all. ‘the first place I’m taking you is to an zoo/aquarium, we can look at Inseong’s family, the foxes!’ 

-Sf9 had to go on the asia fanmeeting tour and he was devastated because that means no more cat cafe for a while, so every night he would face call you on the phone even when the time zone is different so you legit get a call during practice and everyone like ‘whos that? pick up your phone’ and you awkwardly and nervously laugh like ‘its ok its noone- i gotta go to the bathroom’ and would scold him saying how he can’t call you without warning, and you could hear him pout over the phone but you sigh and tell him you love and miss him alot, which makes him suddenly happy again and he’ll go over his day with you on the phone happily and you can’t help but laugh because you can hear the joy in his voice.’

-After the tour which lasted for weeks, he finally text you to come to the cafe again at 1am so you make your way there. You head upstairs to the room you always go to with him and you see him there silent. Once you make yourself known in the room, he will look at you and smile, slowly getting up. You smile back and you both just stand there apart from each other, exchanging looks until he breaks out into a teethy grin with a ‘did you miss me?’  and you can’t help but start crying but also laughing cuz you look silly right now being so emotional and he’ll just dash to hold you and he does-really really tight.

[audreyineu]

prague 3/31-4/2

when i arrived in prague it was rainy and freezing cold, i had gotten off the tram too early so i had to walk through it carrying my incredibly heavy bag (which im pretty sure is giving me awesome arm & leg muscles), and because i was holding the bag i couldn’t also hold an umbrella.. needless to say when i first got there i wasn’t the happiest camper.

BUT, i did an easter market near my hostel so i once i put my bags down and dried off a little i grabbed my umbrella and went over. i bought a piping hot keilbasa in a bun and when i say piping hot i mean it. i bit into it too quickly and ended up burning the roof of my mouth to the point where it blistered. but it was really tasty so in the end i say it was worth it

with that i retired to my hostel and wrote the other two blog posts, and luckily the next day was much nicer. while trying to navigate to a cafe to have breakfast i got distracted by a pretty builiding and decided to walk towards it instead and walked straight into a bigger and better easter market located in the old town square. in the center there was a decorated tree, which i’m guessing is czech tradition because they were at every easter market that i stumbled upon. they even had a petting zoo with TWO goats. one was trying to eat a bucket

and there wasn’t an easter bunny, but they had this thing

& the best thing about a prague easter market is all of the food. at this one i got a pastry called a trdelník (don’t ask me how thats pronounced cuz i have no clue), which is a “spit cake” - rolled dough wrapped around a stick and put on a spit roast and then covered in sugar, cinnamon, and sometimes walnuts

i got one filled with nutella & gotta say not enough nutella. im a nutella girl, when i say gimme some nutella i mean really GIVE ME some nutella

after a while of walking around i tried another bit of the street food, this time a hungarian dish called a lángos. its deep fried dough with some toppings. i don’t know what the traditional toppings are but this one had garlic butter, cheese, and ketchup and it was delicious, but honestly i love anything with garlic

from the market i began my walk to the charles bridge. it was beautiful, like everything else in prague

there were vendors and bands lining the edges of the entire bridge, theres even a jazz band called ‘the bridge band’ that play there every day. there was also a man dressed as chewbacca just standing at the entrance to the bridge

i feel like i could really make up some deeper meaning about this image it feels like an art piece to me. i could totally see it in moma, so i’ll keep you updated on how that goes

the other side of the bridge was just as beautiful

i feel like im using beautiful too much but prague is just . its beautiful. i love buildings. do i know anything about buildings or archtiecture other than remembering the word flying buttress? nope. but i love me a good building, and pragues got tons of em

after walking around a bit i went to the john lennon wall, because well. the people reading this know me. of course i went to the john lennon wall (i had a small beatles obsession for a few years, its still there. may or may not have listened to the beatles exclusively for a year. it happens)

most of the actual john lennon stuff had been covered by other artists but it was cool to see anyway

after that i headed back towards my hostel for a quick dinner and then went on a pub crawl with a couple girls i met from new jersey. there were people from all over the world there, i met a couple german dudes that broke out into john denver’s take me home country roads upon hearing i was from virginia. i was shocked and probably didn’t stop talking about how excited that made me until we moved to the next bar but how cool is that!!

the next day i went to the spanish synagogue, and god guys this thing is beautiful (theres that word again, i’ll try to use a different one next time)

i love that the glass is patterned with the star of david as well

i went to the jewish cemetery afterwards

i’ve never seen a cemetery just so. full. there were barely any spots between the headstones, i’m honestly not sure how all the bodies fit n there unless they were buried at varying depths

after i walked back over the charles bridge to go up to the prague castle. the walk up included lots of stairs and got a burn going in your thighs but the view from up top was definitely worth it

i couldnt figure out how to get into the actual castle,or at least where to buy a ticket, so i just walked into the cathedral or maybe the castle?? (who knows. not a lot of signage haha) either way, the stained glass windows were amazing (look didn’t use beautiful)

i walked back down after that and on my way back i got a trdelník with ice cream,

saw some people demonstrating how their abs are far superior to those of the rest of humanity,

(seriously, no wire or anything. that dude on top must have had like a 40-pack)

and found a museum dedicated to czech filmmaker karel zeman. my phone and camera were both about to die at this point so i have no pictures to offer, but it was a cool museum. the guy was a “master of special effects,” particularly with puppeteering. he designed and shot his live-action jules verne films to look like book illustrations, it was really amazing. he has two jules verne films if i recall correctly, definitely at least look up a screenshot

after that i got back and packed up my stuff. i had an early train, which meant of course that i hit snooze on my alarm and told myself that i was awake when i truly wasn’y the next mornig when it was time to catch that train. needless to say i was running late and a little bit stressed. i dont know if my uber driver sensed that and was trying to comfort me but at one point when we were across the highway (or something like a highway??) from the train station he looked very intensely at me in the rear view mirror and said theres the train station. i was fully convinced he wanted me to jump out o the car and go run across the busy highway and i didn’t really know what to do so i just kept staring back at him in the rearview mirror until traffic started moving again. he broke the eye contact and went back to driving, but i still am not really sure what was going on there. i ended up making the train! im convinced that my arm and leg muscles are gonna be huge after this trip withal the sprinting carrying this huge i’ve done

and so began my time in vienna, which is coming next

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SUMMER IN PARIS WITH MY BFF

Back in June, Daphne and I went for a truly spontaneous trip to the united kingdom to catch Coldplay and we thought that since we're in UK, why not make a brief trip to somewhere near (europe) ? We were torn between Paris and Amsterdam. But we wind up selecting Paris cuz seems like two girls to Amsterdam might go wrong... Well, I've been two years ago with my current lover *blush* but I guess it'll be a total different feeling to travel with your best friend. Daph hasn't been so it's kinda my role to make sure she loved Paris.

It is my second time this time, to Paris, we took. I recall the last time I took a flight, practically exactly the same cost but I personally think that taking train is convenient. I basically did all the booking cuz Im the best friend lolll.

Anway here's a few tips on travelling with your bestfriend!

1. DECIDE THE FINEST AIRBNB STAY.

I've saved tons of fine Airbnb stays and I believe it's an excellent idea to stay like a Parisian. Firstly, it's more economical compared to most hotels, better yet, it is possible to find really unique stays. Most of the fine ones were shot and some of the prices went higher. I'm happy we found one perfect stay! It's just like the pictures shown on Airbnb record. One disadvantage about Parisian flats is they mostly do not have lifts, only stairs, and we're on level 3, I'm not sad that we just have our handcarries for 2 nights.

We surely did go to some of the coolest cafes in Paris although it's amusing how we didn't have any french food during our trip except.

Nanashi

Address: 57 Rue Charlot, 75003 Paris, France

- I think it's one of the cool kids hang out area

Hollybelly

- Famed for his or her pancakes! Go in the morning cuz they only serve pancakes I had it two years ago, sadly this time Daph didn't get to taste them

Oggi

Address: 63 Rue Lepic, 75018 Paris, France

- Italian, superb enormous portion and it is not bad!

I suppose we did had a great time, although end up, Daphne was not a huge fan of Paris cuz some of the Parisian we met were rather anal.

I think it's vital to know who are you travelling with. It is amazing if you and your best friend have precisely the same interest and you both should not be unappreciative on the effort to travel. Be sure you both get to go, and attempt to plan ahead on places to go places you both desire to. Keep calm and have fun together!!

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SUMMER IN PARIS WITH MY BFF

Back in June, Daphne and I went for a truly spontaneous trip to the united kingdom to get Coldplay and we believed that since we are in UK, why not make a brief trip to somewhere near (europe) ? We were torn between Paris and Amsterdam. But we end up picking Paris cuz looks like two girls to Amsterdam might go wrong... Well, I've been two years ago with my present lover *blush* but I guess it'll be a complete different feeling to travel with your best friend. Daph hasn't been to Europe, so it's sorta my function to make sure she loved Paris.

It's my second time to Paris, this time, we took Rail Europe from London which cost us about 150 Euros per individual. I personally believe taking train is more convenient although I remember the last time I took a flight, nearly exactly the same price. I essentially did all the booking cuz Im the best friend lolll.

Anway here's a couple of tips about travelling with your bestfriend!

1. DECIDE THE FINEST AIRBNB STAY.

I've saved loads of nice Airbnb stays and I think it is recommended to remain like a Parisian. First of all, it is more affordable compared to most hotels, even better, you are able to find extremely unique stays. Most of the nice ones were taken and some of the prices went higher. I'm happy we found one perfect stay! It is exactly like the photos shown on Airbnb listing. We didn't get to meet our host Stephanie but she's kind enough to offer us a bottle of red wine as a welcome present ( yes we graciously accepted her present lolll. ) One negative about Parisian flats is they mostly do not have lifts, only stairs, and we are on level 3, I am happy that we only have our handcarries for 2 nights.

We definitely did go to some of the coolest cafes in Paris although it's amusing how we did not have any french food during our trip except for some Pierre Hermé macarons.

Nanashi

Address: 57 Rue Charlot, 75003 Paris, France

- I reckon it is among the cool kids hang out area

Hollybelly

- Famed for his or her pancakes! Go in the morning cuz they simply serve pancakes I had it two years ago, unfortunately this time Daph did not get to taste them:/

Oggi

Address: 63 Rue Lepic, 75018 Paris, France

- Italian, super enormous portion and it is not bad!

End up, Daphne wasn't a huge fan of Paris cuz but I reckon we did had a great time. Met a pleasant woman who brought us to her fashion exhibit while taking UberPool, bump into our KL buddies who are there for their fashion showcase, passed by Kanye's Pablo pop-up store and didn't buy shit cuz the line was massive and also made it to most of Paris' landmarks.

I think it's vital to understand who are you travelling with. It's amazing you both should be appreciative on the attempt to travel together and if you and your best friend have the same interest. Make sure you both get to go, and attempt to plan ahead on areas to go places you both need to. Keep calm and have fun together!!

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SUMMER IN PARIS WITH MY BFF

Back in June, Daphne and I went for a truly spontaneous trip to the UK to catch Coldplay and we believed that since we are in UK, why not make a brief trip to somewhere near (europe) ? We were torn between Paris and Amsterdam. But we wind up choosing Paris cuz appears like two girls to Amsterdam might go wrong... Well, I Have been two years ago with my current lover *rouge* but I guess it'll be a total different feeling to travel with your closest friend. Daph has not been to Europe, so it's sorta my function to make sure she appreciated Paris.

It is my second time to Paris, this time, we took Rail Europe from London which cost us about 150 Euros per person. I personally believe that taking train is suitable although I remember the last time I took a flight, practically the exact same cost. I essentially did all the booking cuz Im the best friend lolll.

Anway here's a couple of tips about travelling with your bestfriend!

1. PICK THE NICEST AIRBNB STAY.

I've saved lots of fine Airbnb stays and I believe it is a terrific idea to remain like a Parisian. To start with, it's not more expensive compared to most resorts, better yet, you are able to find genuinely exceptional stays. Due to fashion week, most of the ones that were pleasant were shot and some of the costs went higher. I am happy we found one perfect stay! It's just like the pictures shown on Airbnb listing. We did not get to meet our host Stephanie but she is kind enough to offer us a bottle of red wine as a welcome gift ( yes we graciously accepted her present lolll. ) We're on level 3, and one drawback about Parisian flats is they largely do not have elevators, only stairs, I'm not sad that we simply have our handcarries for 2 nights.

2. TOURIST GOT TO DO WHAT TOURIST GOT TO DO.

VISIT HIPSTER CAFES!

It's funny how we didn't have any french food during our trip except for some Pierre Hermé macarons but we certainly did go to some of the coolest cafes in Paris.

Nanashi

Address: 57 Rue Charlot, 75003 Paris, France

- I imagine it is one of the cool kids hang out spot

Hollybelly

Address: 19 Rue Lucien Sampaix, 75010 Paris, France

- Famed for their pancakes! Go in the morning cuz they merely serve pancakes before 12pm, I 'd it two years ago, sadly this time Daph did not get to taste them:/

Oggi

- Italian, superb enormous part and it's good!

End up, Daphne wasn't a big fan of Paris cuz but I suppose we did had a great time. Met a pleasant woman who brought us to her trend exhibit while taking UberPool, bump into our KL buddies who are there for their fashion showcase, passed by Kanye's Pablo pop-up store and did not purchase shit cuz the line was huge and also made it to most of Paris' landmarks.

I think it is vital to understand who are you travelling with. It's excellent if you and your best friend have precisely the same interest and both of you should not be unappreciative on the attempt to travel together. Make sure you both get to go, and attempt to plan ahead on areas to go places you both desire to. Keep calm and have fun together!!