#did you know i like orange a lot more bc of him. it's nice

[cheollipop]

So maybe I am just emotional but I am in the soft girl hours of the sleepover.

You know I love big, kinda dumb men that are in touch with their feelings, Song Mingi... Just imagine having a bad day, a rough week, or an okay month. It kind of seems like it's dragging on, and for the sake of holding on, you try to keep pushing forward. Today is not a push-forward day. Water overflowed in your bathroom; you have to turn the water off bc there's no off value to that pipe. You are a little behind on work, and the sites that you need are down, and the deadline is closer than you would like it to be. All you want is a warm shower and to curl into the covers until you forget what day it is. Mingi notices you slowly folding into yourself. It's difficult to be present with so much to worry about. So today he called just to check in. Through blurry eyes, you answer. Unable to hold the dam back any longer, you let out a soft sob, and he's throwing on his coat and snatching his keys off the counter to come get you.

Mingi stays on the phone with you until he climbs the stairs to your apartment. Opening the door to him, there are dried tear marks on your cheeks that you have failed to wipe completely away, but he just wraps you in the biggest hug. His hands pull you close and tight, squeezing a few more tears from your eyes.

"Let's go shower at my house. Then I'll feed you while we watch TV on my couch. That sound good?" He mumbles before pulling you back to look at you. Pinching your lips tightly together, the worried look on your boyfriend's face just makes you want to cry more, but maybe a nice shower and some private time is what you need to clock out of life for a bit.

Shut up, I'm going to cry my eyes out lolol

Nora I am too soft for life rn

2𝙠 𝙎𝙡𝙚𝙚𝙥𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙀𝙫𝙚𝙣𝙩

oh, my nabi. the warmth and comfort this made me feel—reading your ask and writing it out—drove me to tears, on multiple occasions. i was initially saving this drabble for a bad day, and ended up starting it after a particularly taxing one, but I actually wrote most of this while feeling quite...happy. so putting myself in mingi's shoes instead of reader's was the way to go, i guess. I really hope I did this justice, and that it floods you with lots and lots of comfort <3

pairing: bf!song mingi x gender neutral!reader

w.c.: 0.8k

tags: hurt/comfort, angst, fluff, mentioned symptoms of anxiety & depression, non-sexual nudity (they shower together)

note: you are not alone

The drive to his apartment was silent, save for the wind blowing through the cracked-open windows to send short, blonde strands flying in different directions. The sun had departed from its locus, descending the changing sky to kiss the horizon, a gradient of orange and pink painted before your eyes. Your gaze moved off the breathtaking scenery to focus on Mingi—a hand resting over the leather wheel while the other locked with yours, glancing over at you every few minutes, squeezing your fingers to remind you of his presence.

As if you could forget, you thought, as he guided you down the hall to his door, twisting the keys while your hands remained intertwined, his thumb drawing soothing circles over your skin as he ushered you inside with a swing of his arm.

Steam engulfed the small bathroom, the warmth of the shower brushing against your skin as delicate fingers helped you out of the hoodie you should’ve washed last week. Mingi didn’t complain, though; he didn’t even comment, wordlessly adding it to the pile of clothes building up in the corner. Your insecurity must have bled into your expression, strong arms pulling you ito his chest and plush lips pressing against your forehead.

“I’ve got you,” was all he said, but it was though you were already immersed underneath the balmy stream, a comfortable heat searing through your skin as he held you against him.

With your back to him, Mingi noted the way your muscles slackened under the steaming water, the soapy droplets rushing down the curve of your spine while he worked his fingers through your hair, hoping his shampoo was strong enough to cleanse away some of the burden you’d carried on your shoulders, the dread he’d helplessly watched eat away at you for weeks. Twisting your body to face him, his thumb and pointer closed around your chin, tilting your head back to rinse the scented suds out of your hair, leaning forward to press his lips to your cheekbone while the water warmed your scalp.

Washing away weeks-worth of grime and self-loathing with delicate palms and a lathered washcloth, Mingi silently spoke of his infatuation, his care, his unconditional, overwhelming devotion to you. Even when you were broken, anxious, blind to any and every possibility of a future worth looking forward to. Mingi was there, calloused hands picking up the brush you’d broken and painting tomorrow, then the day after, one stroke at a time—open fields of daisies and sunflowers, the hopeful orb of light splaying golden rays over the land while the man with the grown-out roots stood amidst the flora, pearly teeth reflecting the daylight as he watched you approach him, his warmth seeping into your very soul as you buried yourself within his embrace.

You felt light, your breathing steady while you rested your head on Mingi’s chest, his thighs on either side of you as you curled up in his lap. You’d heard the doorbell while you were dressing, walking into the living room to find takeout containers spread out over the coffee table, and a shoujo anime paused on his TV.

“It’ll pass,” he spoke, tapping the spoon against your bottom lip and watching you take the steaming food into your mouth. Your eyes remained downcast, and he noticed hints of guilt tainting your features as you processed his words with inexorable disbelief.

“Mingi-“

“I know it’s difficult to see it now, so I’ll believe it for the both of us,” he held his lips to your forehead, your eyes fluttering shut and heartbeat erratic. Not because of anxiety, or dysphoria, but because of the overwhelming sense of tranquillity Mingi flooded into your chest so easily, the animation in your peripheral and the cheesy sound effects now masked under the faint movement of his lips over your face, planting kisses over the trail of tears rushing down the skin. “I’m here, (y/n). You don’t need to go through this alone.”

And you didn’t. Episode after episode played on the big screen, takeout containers and popcorn bowls resting empty on the coffee table while you remained encompassed within Mingi’s arms. The moonlight, aided by the warm hue of his standing lamp carved shadows over the drowsing man’s face, and you took in the slight part of his lips, pretty eyes shut as he explored the dreamland, limp arms somehow still firm around your figure, as though he couldn’t bear to leave you alone again, even while dormant.

The overbearing weight of your thoughts had long since mitigated, your chest rising and falling to the same rhythm as Mingi’s, and now that it was no longer overcrowded with taxing angst and negativity, hints of credibility laced themselves into his words. You ran your pointer over his knuckles—his fingers draped over your hip—a silent ‘thank you’ stuck in your throat as you mooned over the tomorrow he’d drawn out for you. A tomorrow you wanted. A tomorrow you didn’t dread. A tomorrow illuminated by a gentle sun, and a contagious, toothy smile.

[ghostherlig]

even more random hcs!!

bc i probably wont be home until after christmas :')

anyway, take more johnrailaoshi bc ive been thinking about them all day-

(if you saw this early no you didnt- im stupid and pressed the wrong button-)

raiden really loves valentine's day bc it gives him extra reason to show his appreciation for the people he loves in his life- he always hand makes cards and folds origami pieces for his bfs to find around the house- he went all out one year and made each of them a jar full of paper stars

johnny and kung lao's favorite holiday is halloween!! they go all out for costumes and always decorate the house to match- johnny even hires smaller actors to dress up and play characters outside with him and lao to have fun with the kids- they have a scare actor section and a section for cartoon characters

kenshi's favorite holiday is christmas!! he doesnt have a lot of fond memories from childhood, but after johnny first asked kenshi to celebrate christmas with him, oh that man was hooked- johnny was happy to see kenshi beam all throughout december, holding warm mugs and wrapped in blankets since the cold always got to him

jax and johnny still have this kind of strange rivalry, esp when kenshi is around- kenshi thinks it's funny bc most of the time it's them trying to out do each other with history facts, but both just end up having a nice convo.... it's the only time kenshi can get paperwork done without headaches

lao and raiden still have mini bets they place with each other all the time- half the time kenshi and johnny find out abt them bc lao brags abt winning- raiden bets poorly on purpose sometimes bc he knows lao likes to win and it only costs him a little..... sometimes he humbles lao, though (the superbowl is the biggest bet of the year for them)

raiden isnt known to swear, but his favorite song is "I Don't Fuck With You" by Big Sean (thanks kung lao) and he can be heard singing the lyrics, uncensored and all, randomly

kenshi can very easily peel or cut any kind of fruit- apples, oranges, pomegranates, persimmons, pineapple, watermelon, anything- if he is handed a fruit and asked to cut it he will and it will be fast and done beautifully

raiden has johnny do his hair!! braids is usually the most common style outside of his bun, but johnny always insists on doing his hair if they're going out-

kenshi has lao help him cut his hair!! lao does his own undercut and knows his way around a buzzer/clippers- the first time lao asked to cut kenshi's hair the swordsman was unsure, but he decided it wouldnt hurt and lao did it perfectly and has done it since

johnny has a cameo on a sooby doo episode!! he somehow convinced them to put him in an episode with the hex girls and it actually was so awesome-

johnny is super good with puzzles- like insanely good- kenshi, lao, and raiden just started getting him those really fancy puzzle boxes for christmas/his bday and he's cracked every single one without fail-

they have board game nights!! monopoly and uno have been banned- but when everyone is over their favorite game to play is 'one night ultimate werewolf'

for several years johnny has done a Santa Livestream on his insta and has donated a lot of money to charities that buy gifts for kids in need as well as done fundraisers to get others to chip in too- he got tomas, syzoth, kuai liang, lao, and raiden to help him keep people entertained on the live- kenshi even agreed to do a "face reveal" if they hit ten million in a day- they hit the goal in six hours

raiden and tomas are actually pretty close as friends- both bond over their combat abilities and their lives in general, and both have dragged the other into different media- now they watch episodes of different series' weekly and talk over the phone about it- their bf's know better than to interrupt them on the phone with each other

lao is the only Only Child in their polycule- raiden has his sister, johnny his brother, and i hc kenshi as having an older sister and a younger brother-

johnny will randomly start dancing, sometimes bc he just has a song stuck in his head, other times bc he just needs to move- his bf's always smile when they catch him- the most extreme move any of them have seen him do is drop into a split

none of them are fond of using their powers for silly or stupid reasons... however, each of them have definitely used their powers in a way they werent supposed to- kenshi has for sure used his telekenesis inappropriately, raiden has used his lightning to cook smth, kung lao has used his force/air manipulation to throw things at ppl, and johnny uses his weird shadow powers (give him his green back ]:) to scare his bfs-

johnny owns the house, bc it's a five bedroom, six and a half bath, super expensive house- it gives each of them their own room and then a shared room with a big asf bed, a nnice kiving room, incredible kitchen, big dining room for guests, a wine cellar, in home gym, etc- literally a second mansion-

as soon as anyone gets sick, raiden makes chicken congee- he got the recipe from madam bo after he told her him and lao were moving to stay with johnny for a while- she was happy to give him the recipe and even showed him how to de-bone a whole chicken for it

johnny is actually so interested in tarantulas- he thinks they look super cool and that some of the colors and patterns are really pretty- if kenshi and lao werent as insect averse he would definitely get one

lao's favorite reptile (after syzoth) is the arabian sand boa (pls google these guys, they're adorable-)

kenshi really loves reptiles and has always wanted a leopord gecko or a hognose snake- but he fears not having enough time for one with work and his bf's

johnny very lovingly refers to raiden as his wife after kenshi made a joke abt johnny "wife-ing" him by making him his favorite meal- raiden always gets flustered bc johnny is very open abt opening an LLC with them all as a kind of "poly marriage loophole"-

they all have jewelry that they wear as sort of "promise" jewelry that they almost never take off- johnny has his silver bracelet/band, kenshi has a steel ring, raiden has an anklet, and lao has a necklace

johnny, to his personal assistant and manager, refers to his bf's as "The Council" and always answers scheduling questions with "i'll have to consult with The Council"- it's rubbed off on the other three which has to led to raiden telling liu kang he cant give him a firm answer bc he has yet to "speak with The Council" (liu got flashbacks to "I Must Consult With the Elder Gods-")

johnny makes the worst jokes abt US tragedies- the jfk assassination is his personal fave bc he knows he can mess with kenshi with it- "it blows my mind that you can be so childish, cage-" "yknow who else got his mind blown-" "JOHNATHAN CARLTON-"

lao still has his first chakram hat and it's hung up in the mansion living room- all of them will stare at it or remember it's there and think back to lao telling the story of his Inspiration (thanks bi han)

raiden really loves smoothies, especially mango- he will down a mango smoothie if you hang him one-

johnny has all kinds of videos on his phone of all of them doing stupid shit- his favorites are one of kenshi drunkenly eating takoyaki out of the fridge, turning to face the camera with his cheeks full- one of raiden mumbling "i dont fuck with you" under his breath, panning to lao and kenshi who look at raiden like he just vacuumed their hamster- and one of lao dancing for a good minute, really, really well, just to trip at the very end and scream-

johnny has a lot of those videos and goes through them whenever he misses his bf's

raiden will send videos of cats playing or napping together and caption them "us" and send them to whoever or to the gc- all of his bf's always melt and go to find him and give him a kiss if they're in the house together or they'll send back a little emoji if they're apart

you'd think johnny is the worst but kenshi is the most overdramatic abt not getting attention- like "my husband is off to war" levels of dramatic- lao had to get up to use the bathroom and kenshi sighed like a sickly victorian, put his hand over his forehead and monologued until lao came back- he does the same to raiden and johnny, always "why has my love left me?? i am always abandoned by my dearest... beloved, where have you gone? why have you forsaken me??" "i need to pee, ken-" "am i so unimportant?? so easily forgotten???? so unloved??????" "🙄✋️ okay-"

johnny isnt as dramatic but he does pout and sigh and sometimes follow his bf's around until they love on him a little- johnny needs the little pick-me-up's but kenshi normally waits until he needs a full battery recharge

the four of them talk shit like there's no tomorrow- you do not want to be on the recieving end of their judgemental staring- each of their side eyes alone could kill someone, all of them together??? good fuckin luck-

johnny is mesmerized by the snow- kenshi, raiden, and lao all grew up with it, but johnny isnt used to it since he was born and raised in CA and enjoys the sunny weather- so when kenshi or lao and raiden take him to japan or china during the snowy season he's always so excited- the other three love it bc his cheeks get so pink in the cold

raiden gets super flustered when one of them gives him affection and attention, but all three are evil and will pile affection and attention on him to watch him squirm and act all shy- raiden loves it but also knows to tell them when he's overwhelmed

lao knows all of his bf's humor and how to make them laugh- johnny and kenshi laugh at lao's darker jokes- johnny especially likes anti-jokes- raiden likes puns and "a ____ walked into a bar-" type jokes- kenshi also cant help but laugh at people doing stupid things and kenshi and raiden laugh together at children falling- (older sibling moment)

raiden gets super lovey sometimes and will write out in letters how he feels about his bf's and slide them under their doors- all of them have a drawer or folder or smth that stores all of the letters

lao is the only one with a real sleep schedule- he's a morning person and goes to bed by 10 almost every night- raiden tends to get distravted watching tv, and kenshi and johnny tend to overwork themselves and work into the night and wee hours

sleep is usually tough for all of them anyway (lao takes melatonin to be asleep early) bc of all that they've seen and experienced- they all like congregating in their shared room to sleep together but sometimes they go off to their own rooms when they need/want the privacy or peace

that's all for now- wishing everyone a happy holidays!! <333 hopefully im back home soon :') also pls excuse any typos, it is 2 am-

[obeymetournaments]

I think Levi gets a lot of extra bad bc while orange isn't an inherently bad colour a orange-centric outfit is hard to do well

And obey me sure doesn't manage that often for him

I think you bring up an extremely interesting point! After taking a quick look at all of Levi’s worst outfits, bright orange is definitely a common trend with them. It isn't impossible to make an outfit look nice with orange, it certainly isn't an easy color to work with--especially with how bright it is. if they did more purples and blues for him it'd be better (which, a few outfits are, and those were fine, such as his yokai outfit), but I understand solmare wanting to stick with orange since it's the envy color.

I also know nothing about colors and how they compliment each other tbh, but I feel like it's sage to say working with such a bright orange is hard lol

[mqole]

hbjhkgvhj ok here are uh. some character designs i did abt a year ago

these are all based on the incredible @kayzero's fic zero win game, which is a rewrite of ztd with akane as the protagonist, and it has possibly THE BEST characterization of akane ive ever read- listen just. just go read it you will be enriched i promise.

im not putting an image description bc i dont know where to start (sorry!!) BUT ill put a bunch of character design notes below the cut for people who are insane like me <3333

ok first of all. i know when i sent these to kay the other day they said there were some details canon to zwg that i missed (akane's lil hoodie pocket, aoi wearing white to contrast junpei's black (which is SO inspired btw.)) so just. PRETEND those are there bc i forgor <3

i spent the most time on sigma, phi, akane, junpei and aoi just because they've had multiple iterations of designs. it was fun to take bits and pieces from each version of them, so thats why they get a feature page

you can see a lot of my little pink notes with criticisms of the ztd designs there. in general, i really dont like the ztd designs, they all feel unnaturally bland to me (although thats probably also the artstyle).

most people whove looked into the colour symbolism in zero escape are probably familiar with the whole red/blue thing: that is, theyre colours representing the morphogenetic field. akane and aoi are the most obvious examples of this. 'aka' means red, and 'ao' means blue. in the first nonary game, akane and clover wear red - the colour for transmitters - and aoi and light wear blue, the colour for recievers. in 999 proper, akane wears purple, to symbolise how she can recieve AND transmit, while junpei wears red and blue by themselves. you can do a whole analysis of these colours and i will not put it here thats a whole SEPERATE post

anyway! the actual designs!! i'll start with sigma. i wanted to reconcile his vlr design with zero ii's design, and initially i planned on giving him a coat, but it didnt really have a nice silhouette, so i ditched that idea. instead, i turned his jumpsuit from vlr into a polo shirt - much like what he has in ztd - and gave him some zero-y accessories: the white turtleneck, the belt and the gloves all come from zero's design. once id included the white turtleneck, making the pants white felt really logical. in character design, its generally best to limit the palette of colours as much as you can, so it was a good excuse to reuse a colour while also paying homage to his ztd design. i also cut his hair bc hes a scientist and he'd do that.

phi's design is a lot more like her vlr one than her ztd design. the blue coat was her hallmark accessory, and im shocked that they ditched it for ztd, so i gave it back - along with her boots and hair accessory. i kept her pants and glasses from ztd, as well as the way the bottom of her shirt is tucked into her pants. they just have a much nicer silhouette to me. between my first pass of colours and my second pass, phi's colours changed the most - i realised i had too many blue guys in the lineup, and wanted to make the colours stand out individually. so i leaned into phi's orange-ness. giving her hair accessory, pants and boots an orange hue instead of a blue one, as well as shifting her coat to a more teal colour really helped make those colours pop.

AKANE MY BESTIE!!!! her design was probably the one i had the most fun with. i basically just took her ztd design and purpled it. I did want to include some more details though - her neck scarf was in both her 999 AND vlr design, so it felt wrong not to include it. i also added some gold highlights to her design, just to complement the purple - her boots are also toned yellow, so it felt fitting. the cut of her sleeves, as well as her hair, felt really natural: i gave her the side ponytail from ztd, while letting more of her hair fall to the side to retain her silhouette from 999. i stole the sleeves wholesale from vlr akane, but can you blame me. look at that robe. its so pretty.

overall i have mixed feelings on ztd junpei as a character, but i think his darker turn is at the very least a fun direction to take him. I do like the jacket he has in his concept art. IT SURE WOULD BE NICE IF THE MODEL ALSO HAD A JACKET. his design went relatively unchanged overall, i basically just retoned his hair, gave him a button-up instead of a t-shirt, and puffered his jacket. the red and blue from his vest in 999 is reused here, but in darker, more muted tones. you can see in the corner of the drawing i played around with swapping the red and blue, but the red focus felt too edgy for junpei. the blue also pops really nicely against his dark clothes, so i kept it.

anyone who has spoken to me for more than ten seconds will know how insane i am about aoi kurashiki i mean come on my name is santa. i think a lot about his two designs: that of the first nonary game and in 999. in the first nonary game he wears a blue scarf, harkening to his role as a reciever, but in 999 he wears monochrome. my personal interpretation of this is that his 999 fit was him purposefully disguising his connection to the morphogenetic field. so post-999, since he doesnt have to worry about that, i gave him his blue back!!! his general fit is the same- his pants and shoes are artistry so obviously i kept those, and i ended up making the rest of his look black to contrast his 999 design. if i were to redesign him now wearing white, id probably go a different direction altogether. that third little drawing ive included has some test outfits for him, carlos, and maria, but i never really went anywhere with them. also i gave him dark roots to show his relation to akane a bit more. and also because i like projecting my roots always grow back SO fast

that brings us to the 4 characters introduced after vlr: carlos, mira, diana, and... maria??? yeah like i said go read zero win game. do it. maria is such a fun character. she was, coincidentally, ALSO the only character where i had to design someone from scratch. you can see i fiddled a little with colour palettes, trying to figure out how to give every character a unique look. diana and carlos' designs actually go almost unchanged here- i think dianas design in particular is actually pretty great, and works as a nice foil to luna in vlr. carlos is just kind of normal. he can have his silly polo shirt.

miras ztd design is. ugh ok look its FINE but i hate the boobie designs in zero escape because they always feel like they were designed seperately from the character. mira in zwg is still a sussy baka, but she's a lot more cordial- i enjoyed seeing her more as a snake lying in the grass. I ended up giving her green because its a fun colour to give characters who youre meant to distrust. SO MANY TIMES reading zwg i was like "oh maybe mira's chill - oh wait maybe shes not - oh wait maybe shes chill again" and i love her for that honestly. she still gets boobies because i love women but i gave her a fun little long sleeved corset top. the amount of skin she shows directly correlates to the amount you should trust her (i am only half joking.)

i wont talk about diana because honestly the only change i made was giving her a little blue strip at the bottom of her skirt, but i'll talk about maria and carlos together. carlos i kept as a little pink boy because i love him and i love pink and listen its my character design ill do what i want. maria in ztd AND in zwg experiences reverie syndrome, which is connected to the morphogenetic field. her and carlos' designs both incorporate red and blue again- (just realised diana also has red and blue. pretend that was intentional) -to show their connection to the field. yes yes i know its pink but listen its red enough. like aoi, i gave maria and carlos both different iterations of their designs. i'm less sold on carlos', but i did actually like the baggier, heavy designs for maria. with those ones she looks more depressed than she does wearing overalls, so im calling that a win. maria's was the design i was least satisfied with overall, but hey i did these like a year and a half ago and ive gotten much better since then soo.

if youve read this far this is once again a reminder to read zero win game by kayzero on ao3

[pjsk-writin]

can u write the boys with a reader that has a weird affinity for cats and keeps bringing them stray cats that they're somehow familiar with to pet and whatnot

odd rq but I think it would be adorable

cute req to start with !! im just combining these bc they're pretty similar, and welcome aboard 💮 anon !! I hope you both like this!! <3

♡ STRAY CATS - Akito Shinonome, Toya Aoyagi, Tsukasa Tenma and Rui Kamishiro x Reader

Akito:

In all honesty, Akito is just glad that you're not bringing home dogs-

Sure, he's a bit bewildered that cats seem to love you so much, but at least it's not dogs-

At first, he doesn't really want to pet the cats, mostly out of fear that they'd hate him or hiss at him

However, his opinion is entirely changed when a little orange kitten approaches him first and nuzzles his hand

As much as he would hate to admit it, he absolutely falls in love with the cats you bring in. Sometimes, you'll find him sitting with all the cats, a wide grin on his face as they play with him <3

He'll immediately tell you that it was nothing, but you could see the bag of treats right by his leg. He just loves the kitties okay, leave him alone-

Toya:

Toya's never really been around animals, so he's definitely pleasantly surprised by the cats!

He does ask why the cats love you so much, and you just shrug. Ah well, he loved you just as much as they did anyway!

He doesn't really know how to be around cats, he doesn't want to risk hurting them after all-

However, his nerves slowly begin to wash away every single time a cat approaches him willingly and nuzzles against him

He asks you for help most of the time, far too scared that he'll piss off or scare the cats- You get the treat of his look of awe every time he pets a cat and it purrs <3

He always feels weird asking, but he wants to go out and help you with the cats. He just finds it to be a nice bonding experience with you!

Tsukasa:

Tsukasa absolutely loves animals! No matter what kind, he'll always gush over them!

So, he's more impressed than anything with how much cats love you. You were a lovely person though!

He immediately starts trying to pet as many cats as possible, much to some cats' displeasure-

You have to tell him to slow down, and he'll give you probably one of the saddest looks you've seen to date

Still though, he thinks it's worth it when the cats start going up to him one by one for pets. His eyes sparkle, and he gives each of them an affectionate nickname <3

He begs to keep a couple at his house, which depending on how many, Saki also ends up adopting a cat or two!

Rui:

Rui doesn't spend a lot of time around cats, but they are definitely one of his favorite animals!

He relates to their nature quite a bit, so he isn't too shocked when he discovers how much cats love you!

He'll stand perfectly still and just watch all the cats, a small smile on his face as he observes them. He definitely asks about each and every cat

Some cats were content with just staring and watching him, while others approached him. He rewards those cats with little scritches

Soon enough, all of the cats are on him, and you just have to laugh as he pets all of them and gives them forehead kisses. He teases that they love him more than you <3

He is a natural with them though, and is very helpful whenever you go out with him and save stray cats

[bella-rose29]

episode 5 commentary - Death Is Coming

the usual warnings of swearing and lack of context, as well as a lot of comments on hands and arms and obviously spoilers for both the series and the books

girl has stare down with a skull in a jar

omg it's been so long since I watched and I forgot how pretty lockwood is

OMG HE ASKS IF SHE WANTS JUICE

WHAT IF THE JUICE IS ORANGE AND HAS BITS IN

lolllll George is shipping already and the episode only just started

Georgie needs more sleep

lockwood takes the Mum Stance

I always think that the DEPRAC van is a lego van bc it's yellow

ohhh you can really see how big the coat is on lockwood :(((

ooo nice detail with the lavender pin that he has

'wILL yOu cAN iT pAm'

hands

ugh Lockwood's so pretty

Georgie noo

'bobby Vernon will have been at it since dawn'

'alarming how quickly you got into character' (code for: I am completely in love with you')

careful Georgie that's a lot of blood

ew dead body

'I know him' YOU CAN SEE HOW UPSET HE IS BUT HE'S GONNA HIDE IT BC HE FEELS THE NEED TO BE STRONG ALL THE TIME

I JUST WANNA GIVE HIM A HUG

CAMERON CHAPMAN THE MAN YOU ARE HOW DO YOU DO THE MICRO EXPRESSIONS SO WELL

ohhh lockwood is trying so hard to not be upset and it breaks my heart :((( poor boy

✨swagger✨

I want an epic breakfast

'I hardly knew him' BOY DON'T-

wow she's a bitch let my boy do research

get away from Georgie you bitch

eeeeeee

'when am I not nice' Luce I hate to break it to you

Lucy that is very clearly a ghost and not a real baby

silly goose behaviour

'I did' QUEEN

'who's the latest slapper?' ICONIC

'oh wow, a female serial killer? aspirational, why don't you stick it on a t-shirt'

I love lockwood bc he makes sure the remains go to a good home AND Flo gets her money

ohhhh I just had a Thought! what if one of the reasons they made Joplin a woman was to draw parallels between her and Mary dulac??? one of the headlines on the papers is 'mystery madwoman: Bickerstaff connection?' so maybe they wanted to repeat the past but this time make the crazy one go too far and die? idk if that even makes sense but oh well

Georgie noooo

no leave him alone

let him go clean the oven and I'll be there to make him a tea

WIFE BEHAVIOUR

he can't even slice toast without being Extra

JONATHAN BESTIEEEEE

'a suicide note' Lucy honey have you noticed that your bf has a tendency for suicidal things

I really wish the bisto was in the background bc that would be hilarious

'I thought you'd be dead by now' NO LETS TAKE A MOMENT TO TALK ABOUT THIS

BECAUSE HE GOES FROM QUIRKING A LIL SMILE, TO LOOKING DOWN AND THE SMILE DISAPPEARING, TO INHALING AND SMILING EVEN WIDER BECAUSE HE KNOWS LUCY IS WATCHING HIM

give that boy some therapy for free

aw two nerds talking about mythology (I wish I was the other one)

also can we talk about the STAGING OF THIS SCENE??? BECAUSE JOPLIN HAS A MIRROR OVER HER LEFT SHOULDER AND GEORGE HAS ONE OVER HIS RIGHT

also George has the city lights behind him and Joplin just has the beige walls and I love that for some reason, maybe to show that George's life is bright and he's got life left in him whereas Joplin can only gain brightness from George bc she needs him for the mirror? idk if I'm explaining that right but oh well! also Joplin's mirror reflects the light behind George which is funky

just you wait for my next analysis of the show which is almost certainly gonna be on the use of mirrors lol

THE STAGING AGAIN

FILMING THEM IN THE MIRRORS

I LOVE THIS GHOST SHOW

'how did you meet Flo?' 'can't remember. ages ago' LOL HE'S HIDING THE FACT HE GOT HIS ASS BEATEN

ohhh the green lighting

'I'm not worried. are you?' well not when you say it like that

while I do love this show I am very sad we didn't see more of lockwood using disguises

of course he knows how to pick locks

I don't like it either Lucy dw

I love how jarringly innocent the stuffed bear is compared to the fact that they're in the warehouse of a family with a significantly traumatised boy

lockwood and kids <3

sack of potatoes

I cannot stop thinking about the fact that she must be dragging the Actual Cameron Chapman out by his feet

Georgie noooooo

idk why he's looking around bc he doesn't have his glasses on so he can't see shit

I shouldn't feel the way I do about lockwood regaining consciousness but the expressions- I just- hmm

'I'm a burglar, you should call the police' honey not one of your better lies

no bc why when I first watched this did I think that winkman was the same actor as Pekka Rollins

winkman: 'shall I draw some pretty pictures on your pretty little face'

lockwood: 'omg you think I'm pretty?? 🤭🥰'

ohhh I'm getting inspiration for a fic I started planning 👀

I can't imagine having to pretend you're being electrocuted like how do you know how to act that

I feel like something can be said about Leopold wearing red and mrs winkman (I forgot her first name WAIT ADELAIDE) also wearing red but idk what

omg hedgehogwood

winkman is actually so funny *points at lockwood* *puts hand over heart* 'ohhh' he's literally us

aw lockwood pls don't say that she's got more to live for than you :(((

omg Lucy tells Leopold to get out the way <333 she'll regret that :D

this couple loves setting fires

Georgie seriously how are you without your glasses rn

green light green light green light

funny looking bird you got there george

'total psychos' dude-

'I prefer to call it a noble sacrifice' NO I COULD WRITE AN ESSAY ABOUT IT

greeeeeeen lightssssss

'what is going on with you' Cameron Chapman Acts his Fucking Face Off

omg lockwood saw the knife and then looked out the door to see what was there

that's such an awful angle to be lying down

omg poor lockwood

the way he's sat in that final frame breaks my heart bc he's literally just had someone else die in his home :(((

wow what a depressing note to end on

[electraslight]

Not a request, but a question: just...what are your thoughts on Gwen? Like, what impressions do you get from her character? I'd be lying if I said she isn't my favourite B10 character, but I'd like to hear your thoughts. What you think of canon Gwen, which Gwen is the best iyo, if you want maybe some headcanons...

But only if you want to, of course. Thanks in advance!!

hey!!! to answer ur question i love gwen very dearly and shes one of my favorites!! shes probably the charatcer ive drawn the most bc i draw her all the time traditionally. Shes also the character ive done the most fanon stuff for as her drastic personality shifts between series kind of make it so u have to be fanon-ey lol. i kind of merge classic gwen's bitchiness pettiness and general childishness with uaf gwens maturity and (while not very present in the show) angst potential. as for what gwen i think is the best i still always love classic gwen bc i paticularly hate how they made gwen a mom character and also nullified a lot of her personality to make gwevin work. i just love girls that suck lol, but i do like uaf gwen for the anodite stuff, which plays into my super ultra fanon hcs and my 'gwen is trans' conspiracy, plus i like that her villians changed to reflect her struggles in a way in uaf, becoming less fun evil magic people and more cruel predators preying on her and the people she loves.

i dont really know how to condense my gwen fanon into single headcanons lol, i have a very complex narrative in my head about her.

-before the roadtrip one of her worst fears was transformation, she used to watch movies where someone would be transformed into something against their will and get really scared which she became more desensitized to bc of ben but which is also one of the reasons she is extremely distressed by her not being a real human. she has nightmares all the time of her stepping out of her skin and it being stolen from her so shed be stuck as an anodite forever

-she loves computery stuff and coding and the like, and when she went to college she majored in compsci. she lost this interest around uaf bc she was stressed due to the anodite thing and the DNaliens invading but she picked it back up around ov. shes likd of sad cooper was such a creep to her because she wanted to talk computers with him

-she doesnt like being alone in public so she always takes ben or kevin with her anywhere.

-shes very bad at making female friends because she has a tendency to hate most girls she knows for insignificant reasons or just the mere association of them and ben. shes only able to really become friends with girls who r either unrelated to ben or who shes forced to be around all the time. this is also why she hates all her girl cousins (shes kind of a mysoginist lol)

-shes very judgy and often very harsh in her judgements and not easy to trust, but she puts on an air of being trusting and nice so as to not appear hostile or mean. she did this with kevin and never really trusted him fully even when she was trying to get him to ask her out. she only really trusts grandpa max and ben in her life, then later kevin.

-her mom didnt allow her to have a lot of sugar as a kid because it made her irritable, but once she goes to college she contracts a crippling orange soda addiction

there ya go!! sorry soem of these r heavy i have a lot of gwen thoughts. here take a gwevin 4 the road

[hyunsvngs]

okay my 🧅s on a/b/o incoming and i warn u its kinda long bc im insane so yall are getting this in two parts so u can feel free to like take part 2 and put it under here or smth! i do have to preface i have a sensitive sense of smell and a lot of scents make me nauseous so i don't think of them on first thought

so hyung line first!

Chan: i honestly agree with the ocean/sea breeze, i mean, of course aussie boy who swims smells like the ocean. BUT i also think that like bc scents shift around some that also rainfall/petrichor also falls into his scent, and that like when hes pissed off its like a thunderstorm

BUT! THERES MORE! so when i read fics i have read chan as an omega in fic bc i think it's fascinating the duality of writing. i feel like sea breeze is universal but i have a heavy bias for something sweet and strong like vanilla and bergamot. i think people have said his cologne smells like this? which, cool. mf could smell like a sweet cheesecake and ill eat him up. but also like, i also see him as pack luna(?) so like the idea of like intimidating people off with like a strong heavy burnt cream with an undertone of light citrus or nuttiness in his scent is kinda funny but like, he'd still be intimidating,

lino: okay SO i usually see lino as a beta but as the stats show, he's all over the place. i think in particular from a fic i read, mint stuck with me, and i think that's a very, stark, standout smell. like mint can be cool and calming but also overwhelming. i think scents like that work. I could see like, raspberry ish /grapefruit/basil/ really strong stark scents that can easily be overwhelming, as something for him. i think you guys said chocolate but i dont think thats stark enough. maybe like, orange chocolate, cherry chocolate? i think it really works for any designation BUT i did see one fic say with minho as an omega, magnolia, which i was like woah wow thats a good one but i think he needs more starkness to his scent. i think it just suits him so well.

changbin: OKAY SO changbin is hard to place bc part of me thinks he just smells really clean and like a bit like sweat, which can be nice when its just, clean and soapy. i feel like he tends to get kinda heavier woodsy scents, like sandalwood, teakwood, pine. which i think works. i think i also associated like, amber, which i think also falls under the woodsy scent. i had to go and look it up and one fic i read recently gave omega changbin a cherry scent which had me like hmmmmmmm, maybe. i feel like changbin just smells really good no matter what, and maybe i like the woodsy deeper scents bc thats what my cologne smells like, i do like that teakwood. i do also vibe with it bc upset hed end up smelling like charcoal or a campfire? which personally i love the smell of campfires, makes me feel all warm and cozy.

hyunjin: okay so floral scents all the way. rose, magnolia, lavender, cherry blossom. i definitely think he smells like a meadow, maybe a hint of citrus or fruit right underneath it. fresh, calming, relaxing. maybe also with a hint of rain in it. another one where i dont read enough in any designation to know if i lean certain ways with particular scents but floral all the way with hyunjin. i need to pay more attention when i read!

part 1/2 :) -dream anon

WOWWW OKAY. sooo i really love the idea of chan as pack luna that is INSANE. i can’t believe i didnt think of that i lurv it

and minho with cherry chocolate smell.. thats SO true oh god. okay let me post ur second one and everyone can let us know our 🧅s

[racfoam]

Hello best author in the world I have a doubt harry has a lot of money both form her parents and Sirius so couldn't she buy something for the Weasley like buying ron a broom from one of your spoilers , can I have a scene where it shows that Harriet is rich , by rich means loaded

Hello, hope you’re doing well! Thank you for the ask.

I think Harry — since it is from Harry’s POV — she doesn't really talk about being loaded. She definitely is, but she never goes talking about it like some people *cough* Malfoy *cough*

Huh, I never wrote any sort of scene in nynn of Harry buying her friends sth expensive to show she is rich. She absolutely is. Harry bought three omnioculars on Quidditch World Cup, after all... Hmm, I think Harry gets them expensive stuff for their birthdays and for Christmas bcs it's the only time she can get away with buying the Weasleys expensive things without making them feel bad... Hang on...

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Gift shopping for Christmas has become Harry’s favourite time of the year. This time — and birthdays — was the only time she could spent some extra cash on a gift worthwhile. Of course, she set herself a limit. Nothing more than fifty galleons (too bad, she wanted to buy Ron a Firebolt) each.

Hermione was the easiest to shop for. Harry bought two books for Hermione — Arithmancy and Warding — which cost twenty galleons each but when she asked the librsrian in the Hogwarts library for the best material, she swore up and down on those two books.

Ron could be a bit tricky. She would have bought him some robes, but Fred and George already got him those. Harry decided to buy him the best Keeper gloves, ones worn by professional, star player Keepers. They cost fifty galleons. Worth every coin.

For Mrs Weasley — and this gift was brilliant in Harry’s mind — she got her a full-day package at the best spa and massage salon in London.

For Mr Weasley, Harry bought him the Culture of Britain and Its History that would teach him all about Muggle history in Britain and the current culture — something he didn't learn in school. She thought about buying him a ticket for theatre, but she didn't know what genre Mr Weasley liked, so she settled on this book. It cost her fifty pounds, but it was university grade learning material. It was bound to be very educational for Mr Weasley.

For Snuffles, she bought red paw shoes (they were too cute, all right?) for snow, and for Sirius, she bought the best wizarding cologne, with a scent like fresh clouds. It was a comforting, nice scent. It cost sixty galleons, breaking the budget, but it was worth it.

For Ginny, she bought her hair shampoo, conditioner and perfume Ginny always gushed about with Luna.

For Fred and George, she bought them wizarding ties. For Fred, blue — his favourite colour — and for George, an orange one, which was George's favourite colour.

For Lupin, she bought lots of Earl Grey teabags to last him for six months, a wool winter cloak, a light brown wizarding robe (Lupin liked brown) and two pairs of footwear: oxfords and men’s boots. Did it cost more than fifty galleons? Maybe. Was it worth it? Absolutely.

For Tonks, she bought a yellow fluffy sweater Tonks liked in a shop in Diagon Alley but was too expensive to buy — the shop in Hogsmeade luckily had it.

To Luna, Harry bought a hand-crafted, shell necklace of numerous shells and pearls on a simple string, which she would send off with Hedwig.

For Dobby, she bought ten pairs of socks.

With all her purchases placed in lightweight charmed bags with an extension charm, Harry walked down Hogsmeade, very happy with all the purchases.

However, something stopped her in her tracks. A thought she never had before — or maybe she did, when she was young and hopeful, and didn’t remember it.

I wonder what Voldemort would like.

Long moments passed, and Harry stood still among the snow and the snowflakes, face cuddled in the crook of her Gryffindor scarf.

Probably Harry in a big gift box with green ribbon and all. Wasn't it Harry, after all, who was supposed to be Voldemort’s gift for his rebirthing party in the graveyard?

Well, Harry couldn't do that. Maybe some lotions for his skin to appear more smooth? Voldemort was very pale... Maybe sunscreen against sunburn? Or, maybe, she could buy him shoes and socks...

Harry frowned. Why was she thinking so hard about a hypothetical gift to Voldemort? Nothing would be good enough for his standards, anyway...

Harry sighed, looking up to the white sky. A few snowflakes landed on her face; little stars falling from the sky.

Then, the answer dawned on Harry. What she could get Voldemort for Christmas. It was so simple, so obvious, that Harry felt stupid for not realising it before. How could it have taken Harry this long to figure it out?

Invigorated, Harry rushed back to the castle. She needed to find Collin. She needed to ask him to take a photograph of her.

[burninlovebutler]

21 - Blue M&Ms // Forever Winter Series

pairing: austin x fem!oc

warnings: sad sad austin, fluffy? but in a sad way, mention of drugs, ferris wheel, mention of dom/sub dynamics, cursing always, lots of dialogue, inaccurate depictions of NY bc i live in a hell pithole lol, 18+ mdni

21/? -3k words- after showing up at austin’s loft unannounced & catching signs of a possible relapse, elsie drags him on an adventure to get him out of the house. she grasps at anything he loves trying to get a glimpse of her best friend

see masterlist/summary for background info & chapter log

pls like/rbg if you enjoyed 🥺

(again not austin!elvis, just liked the ferris wheel lol)

'I know we got our problems & it's probably me Don't you ever leave, don't you ever leave I know we got our problems & you'll probably leave I could never leave, I will never leave So hold onto me, hold on to me'

-ELSIE-

After a ferry ride that seemed to take forever, we finally arrived at the island. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t regretting the decision to visit the beach in the dead of winter, but it was the only thing I could really think of to get him out of the house, I had to get some fresh air in his lungs.

After the mania and hallucination, his mental state took precedent in the forefront of my mind, whether I showed it or not. Especially when I caught him lying earlier about being high. But I knew better than to press him further, I couldn’t risk him pulling away. I even lied to him when I said I took a break from work. In reality I had pushed back another deadline on my article just to go check on him.

He was mad, I knew that. I didn’t blame him, who wants someone showing up at your place and prying your eyes open. Or who wants to spend a holiday with someone who gave you a black eye. But I made a deal with Nox and that was the compromise. I could either leave home again or spend Christmas with him. And then it was me agreeing to stay but having Austin join as my own bargain. Nox didn’t want to be alone on Christmas either, no matter how much he masked it. So, pulling at heartstrings by emphasizing about how alone Austin would be on Christmas to someone who had the same fear wasn’t that difficult.

Not to mention since I told him about about truth or dare he oddly seemed to trust me more? Which was not what I expected at all, but I was happy that things were improving. It wasn’t a lie that Nox was doing better with me, he was. He’s doing all the things he did at the beginning, taking me on dates, leaving me notes, actually talking to me about his day and we’ve barely fought this week. That was the biggest one, it was so nice not having screaming matches with him daily. They were improvements, small ones, but improvements nonetheless.

He’s not perfect, but neither am I.

We strolled the strip with iconic Coney hotdogs. The sun descending dark reds and oranges over the skyline. “And why exactly did you want to come here?” He asked, wiping the side of his full mouth.

I shrugged, “I don’t know. Just something to do. Thought the ocean might help you relax a little.”

“I don’t need to relax.”

Right because you aren’t taking meds to ‘relax’.

He barely spoke to me the entire ferry ride here, not even cracking a joke or a smile. Do you know how hard it is to cheer up someone that grumpy?

Well, I guess I do, since Nox was a perpetual grump. “You wanna go on the ferris wheel?” I perked up, rides always cheered him up.

“I guess, sure.”

I didn’t know how I expected him to react, I knew it wasn’t going to be excited, but I didn’t think it would be that apathetic. Whatever I interrupted must've really dampened his afternoon plans.

We made it just before they closed and were the only ones on the wheel. The ride began to rise, his expression hadn’t changed but I could already sense a shift in him. A tiny one, but it was something. An urge to reach for him tingled in my fingertips, but I restrained. I remained silent for a bit, not wanting to annoy him any further than I already was.

For the sake of not watching him too long I reframed towards the setting sun on the ocean. When we stopped at the top, “The sky is really pretty.” My voice light.

“Mhm.” He replied simply, keeping his attention on the expansive portrait of the island below us.

I twiddled my thumbs before speaking again, a very familiar tension in the pit of my stomach. An anxious pit I normally felt with Nox when he was a ticking time bomb. “I uh- I brought you something.” I attempted to mask the sadness in my voice.

He just raised an eyebrow at me while I reached into the backpack I brought to carry a beach blanket. I timidly handed him a pouch of peanut M&Ms, his favorite. The dimmest light flickered in his indigo eyes for the first time all day. “Oh, thank you.” He gently took the candy from my hand.

I was really pulling out all the stops here, rides, M&Ms, fair food. All things that normally brought out the happiest version of Austin. “Of course.” I gave a soft smile.

He tore the corner of the yellow package and plopped a blue M&M in his mouth. The colors obviously made no difference in taste, but he had a preference for the blue ones. I sensed his mood shift once more. The plan might just work after all.

“You’re so funny.” I playfully shook my head.

“How?” Plopping a green one on his tongue.

“You like the blue ones, when they don’t taste any different.” My freezing hands sliding up and down my thighs for warmth.

The tiniest crack of a smile, “That’s not true.”

“Oh no?” I teased.

“Nope. Here,” He handed me a red one, “Try that.”

I took it and dropped it in my mouth, took a couple chews of the chocolate candy, “Okay, it tastes like an M&M.”

“No no, watch.” He leaned forward across the now descending car, reaching his hand to my lips, a blue candy tucked between his index and thumb. The rising thump of my heart against my ribs must’ve paralyzed any bodily autonomy because my mouth was still shut.

“C’mon, open.” Gesturing me to comply.

His words and fingers so close to my lips caused my mouth to dry up like the Sahara desert. I precariously opened up for him, my eyes glancing from his face to his hand.

“That’s it.” He reaffirmed, the only thoughts in my mind pictured him saying those for a different reason.

A flash from that night in his apartment of me in his lap praising me similarly, ‘that’s it, good girl’ filled my head. I couldn’t say this was a rare occurrence, that night haunted the back of my mind often. I suppose often isn’t quite the right word when it was almost constant. Especially when I was alone, but even with Nox. Sometimes when he was touching me, I’d find myself imagining it was Austin. Guilt and confusion filled me every time, part of the reason our sex life had dwindled.

I was never one to fall into one of those dom/sub dynamics, perhaps because my partners were controlling enough already. So, the affinity to praise was new and I only ached for more. Though, the thought of anyone else taking control or praising me was repulsive.

Austin’s fingers slow and gentle as he placed the m&m on my extended tongue. His focused eyes never leaving my mouth, if I didn’t know any better I’d say he was enjoying the sight of me opening wide for him. Maybe he’d been thinking about that night too. Whether it was the moment causing my heart to race, or if he was right about the stupid candy, I didn’t know, but that was the best fucking m&m I’d ever tasted.

“Mmm,” I cleared my throat, “You might be onto something.”

Finally, a smile spread and outstretched his arms in victory, “See! I told you.”

Between trying to rebuild my relationship with my boyfriend and monitoring Austin, the conflict of how I felt or didn’t feel took a backseat. I couldn’t be thinking of my best friend’s hands – or tongue – on me. It was precisely the reason behind the promise I made so many years ago. I found myself avoiding him because of my own confusion, my own turmoil. And I couldn’t do that, I needed to shove and bury it down so far that I didn’t feel it anymore.

I hadn’t even realized we were already at the top of our last lap, now stopped. The cart squeaked as it dangled back and forth. The freezing wind sent shivers through my bones attempting to relieve it by rubbing my hands together. I suppose in any cheap, cliché movie this would be the moment he’d offer me his jacket. But we weren’t a pining couple, and this wasn’t a movie. This was me babysitting my fucked up friend.

“You cold?” He asked.

No shit I’m cold.

“Yeah, a little.” Replying through chattering teeth.

“Here let me help.” He leaned forward motioning at my hands to take them into his own. Hesitantly, I obliged placing them in his offering hands. His hands were huge compared to mine, able to encase them completely.

“You’ve been awfully quiet.” He stated, watching his hands kneading mine for mutual warmth.

“Well, just, ya know.” I stammered. There were just so many swirling thoughts clogging my brain, I could barely think around him. “I missed you.” I replied quietly almost in a whisper, “I don’t like it when you disappear on me.” Keeping my gaze on our tangled hands.

He flickered a tender, almost surprised, glance up at me then back down to our hands. “I know.” Speaking lowly, “I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay, I’m just happy I came to see you today.” My pitch a bit happier. He lightly squeezed my hands, “Me too.” His eyes meeting mine once again, but he lingered this time. I attempted to search them for more answers though I didn’t entirely know what I’d be looking for. I was once so good at reading him but now the only thing I detected behind the blue hues was a wall, a thick brick wall.

It wasn’t until I heard the worker, “C’mon lovebirds, time to go.” That I noticed we reached the bottom. I was stuck atop Mount Everest, trapped on the most terrifying summit that threatened to unleash some sort of avalanche at any moment. “Oh- I’m sorry.” But I was glued there, to that plastic bench.

“You comin or what?” Austin beckoned, already out of the cart and holding out a helpful hand to pull me out. I finally peeled myself from the seat.

“You’re so slow, c’mon these people wanna go home.” He chuckled.

He chuckled.

He chuckled!

He apologized to the worker and even tipped him, plucking a $20 bill from his leather wallet and handed it over tucked between two slender fingers.

There he was. There was my Austin.

After a trek across the dense cold sand, we found an empty spot and laid down the large Urban Outfitters-style blanket. The stars flickered across the navy sky above me, I folded an arm behind my head for support. Austin pulled down next to me, his hand landing his centimeters away from my free one. Pinkies one tiny movement from touching.

The silence shouldn’t have been so awkward, or it might’ve just been me perceiving it as such. Either way, it was glaringly loud. My nerves wanted to talk to fill the void, but I didn’t want to ruin the peaceful moment. I began counting stars to keep me occupied.

“I’m glad you discovered the magic of blue m&ms.” He broke the silence.

“Yes, it was life changing.” I joked, rolling my eyes.

The candy brought a concept, that maybe we were just like those stupid little blue candies. He was a man just like any other, a friend like any other, we were doing something friends do and yet it felt forbidden. On paper we were just friends but the way my body reacted was anything but friendly. We were just like the rest, but we tasted different.

Clearing his throat, he asked a question I’d been avoiding, “So how did you get Nox to agree to a group Christmas?”

“Oh, um, well, like I said he wants to apologize.” That was the truth, part of the truth anyway.

“And?” He pressed and I felt his eyes glimpse over at me.

“Well, he does want to apologize,” I reaffirmed, “But it was my compromise for staying home. He doesn’t want to spend Christmas alone.”

“Hm.” Processing the words, “So, I was the compromise?”

“Well yeah, of course.” I replied without a second thought, “I didn’t want you to be alone either. We always spend the holidays together.”

“Yeah,” His voice trailed off, “Doesn’t Nox have like a big rich family, why isn’t he taking you there?”

“Yeah, his grandpa is some sort of politician or something, he has a huge estate. Like huge.” I used my hands in the air above us to exaggerate the size. “I’ve never been there but I’ve seen pictures, it’s stunning.”

“And you’re not going because?” Propping up a questioning brow.

“Oh, right well, his grandpa invited all his brothers, but not him.” Looking over at Austin with a frown, “He isn’t impressed with Nox’s business career, and,” I paused, not having said it out loud til that moment, “He doesn’t agree with him dating me.”

He immediately turned to face me, eyebrows scrunched, “What’s wrong with him dating you?”

“I don’t know, I guess because I don’t have a fancy last name in whatever social circles they’re in. Or my own career isn’t impressive. I suppose writing online articles isn’t exactly wealthy family behavior.” I shrugged. Sometimes I suspected that was the driving force behind Nox’s behavior towards me. Because I acted as a wedge between him and his family. “All his brothers are doctors, politicians, or attorneys. And they’re all with women who are a million times prettier and more successful that I could ever be. All from high society families.”

“That’s so fucking stupid.” He replied with a grimace, “I know you’re prettier and better than them, they’re probably just basic white women.”

I erupted in laughter smacking the back of my hand into his arm, “They really are! The Ugg boots and scarfs and everything!”

He smiled at me, the most genuine I’d seen it all day. His sapphire eyes sparkled alongside the midnight sky. There was a flutter in my chest as he held my gaze, followed by warmth filling my cheeks. Thank god it was dark, I was probably bright red.

“That explains a lot about Nox though.” His focus returned to the sky. “He would come from a family like that.”

I chuckled, “Yeah, his parents are shitty. Nox is the black sheep of the four but his oldest brother, Bradley, is the golden boy of the family.”

“Wow they really set him up for failure huh? Naming his brother Bradley and then naming him Nox? They really did that to themselves.” He joked, the edges of his mouth curled into a witty grin.

God, it was good to hear him like this, playful, sassy, clever. I gave another laugh back, “Yeah I guess that’s true.”

A bit of quiet came before, “Thanks for thinking of me for Christmas, even if it is with the Grinch himself.”

I rolled my eyes and nudged him, “Shut up.”

A longer silence.

“Thanks for checkin’ on me.” His voice so raw, so authentically him. His pinky ever so subtly moved closer to mine, causing air to catch in my throat.

“No problem.”

Another hush fell.

“Thanks for the M&Ms.”

“You’re welcome, you blue candy freak.” I teased, he grinned.

Silence again.

I didn’t dare look at him, I was scared of what I would feel. Of what I would say.

“Thanks for today.” In a swift motion, he crossed his pinky over mine.

It felt like someone had just threw a fist into my stomach, knocking all the air out of me.

“Of course,” Quietly, then curling my pinky into his, “Always.”

This was eerily similar to so many experiences we’ve had before, like the night at his house when I wouldn’t take his bed. He initiated it this time, it made me wonder if he experienced the same confusion as I did.

There’s no way. A guy like him would never love me.

Love?

That’s definitely not what this was – lust maybe, but love? No, never. Not in a million years.

The thought still stood, he’d never see me that way. Not with the way I looked compared to his Greek goddess looking girlfriends. I was heavier than them, duller than them, and excruciatingly average looking. There’s absolutely nothing he could see in me, nothing he could find attractive. That shit when we’re drunk was just that – shit. He was just drunk and horny, and I was just available. Eager and available.

Since the four years since his Dad’s passing, we had so many little moments like that. Dancing, touching, asking for more than friends give – but that’s just who we were. Who we had become, friends who do those things, casually. We became that during relationships – between Josey, through my ex Michael – and various others. At some point it was just normal. Never crossing the line, until a month ago. Who had we become now? At what point is it not friendly anymore? When we’re drunk and dancing and taking off our clothes? When we beg each other to stay? When I’m in his lap and I can feel him underneath me? When his head is between my legs? Where was the line and when did we cross it. How do we uncross it if it can it be uncrossed? Everything became so fuzzy.

His fingers patterned between mine, now fully caged over my hand. “Aus?” I asked, “Don’t disappear on me again okay? Please?”

His hand over mine squeezed, “I won’t.” Some part of me believed he was lying, but it was the truth for me right now.

“You don’t leave either.” He spun it back on me.

All I wanted was to lean into him, curl our fingers together, rest my head on his chest. Even in the freezing wind and sharp whirling sand, I could’ve fallen asleep there with him.

“I won’t, not ever.”

“Good.”

Chapter 22 - Christmas Special (ft. The Grinch) - Part 1

As always thank you for any like, comment or reblog. It truly means the world to me - I love seeing others enjoying my lil story & I love hearing your thoughts 💗

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p.s - next two are the Christmas chapters and well, they're somehow simultaneously heartbreaking, angsty, fluffy and filthy so… do with that what you will lol

[azureaqua]

Giving the Ikesen guys modern outfits (because I can) <Pt. 1>

Yeah, we’re doing this. I've probably put way too much thought and time into this. But at this point I have to share it. Why the Ikesen guys, you ask? Because they have the most traditional clothes, especially seeing that nowadays western-style fashion is present everywhere! Let's get it!

→ PART 2 HERE!

How did this post even came alive? Tbh, I was just browsing Pinterest and one of my secret hobbies is that I like to thirst over fashion runways and designer stuff. Not that I would ever buy them, or have the money to buy them, but I still enjoy it for some reason haha. So one time, I was looking at an outfit and suddenly a warlord popped into my head. That's when I decided that I'll do a full detailed research on this. Inspired mainly by their armors and color palettes. (First I thought about drawing the outfits myself, but my drawing skills are questionable, so I edited them instead. My editing skills are better, I promise.)

Also, as I said; these are from fashion runways, so almost everything is from luxury brands and/or quality designers. So not the 'typical' street fashion, because I figured it would be more interesting this way. Plus since I needed a lot of jackets and blazers for the guys, I'm thanking Balmain, because most of these are from their shows XD.

Toyotomi Hideyoshi

I started with him for some reason, when I decided to put together the collages (?). I don't know why, because when I searched for materials and inspiration I was a bit gutted when it came to him. Nonetheless I think managed to craft a decent outfit! A light traditional-looking top, nothing too fancy. Then these cargo pants that can connect as a top as well, in a garish orange color. I just had a vibe that Hideyoshi would rock it. Also it can be very functional! Then boots, to not slip in the hallways. Some leather gloves, to protect the hand and the skin (and he sometimes gives it to Nobunaga, bc he's worried.) And a bigger bag, because he packs for two people usually; Mitsunari and himself.

Maeda Keiji

The free, sometimes unhinged party guy. Who dresses as if the concept of summer had raided a party store. So I wasn't afraid to give him something unusual! Big, loose-legged pants that ventilate well. Some chunky white basketball shoes, that you also see in street dance videos. A traditional-looking top as well, with a kimono-like neckline, even simpler than Hideyoshi's. A magenta belt for good contrast, looks as if it's made out of satin! And to top it off, a leather jacket with an interesting opening! I admit, at first I wanted to use the jacket with nothing under it, making Keiji shirtless... But then I didn't. 🤫 Nonetheless, he rocks it anyway!

Mouri Motonari

I admit, this wasn't the first setup for him. I changed almost all the things, when I revisited it, since I did his outfit early on. I changed everything except the shoes lol. But for the better, since my first attempt was a disaster. I like his tailcoat the best, since it makes me remember sailors and the navy - you know, seeing he's a pirate -, with it's design. Also, it color IS navy blue, so plus points for that. The pants are quite simple, but still got that nice blue color, like the sea. I also wanted to honor his tassels, that are on his main design in the game, and I like the harsh red accent color, it matches his eyes! The top under the jacket is a simple long-sleeved black shirt, with a little extra cut in the front. He's got nice, lace up boots, with some animal printing on it, I believe? I liked the shape haha. And I added his gloves on, since we know he needs them.

Naoe Kanetsugu

I won't lie, he looks like a K-pop poster boy, but I just got these vibes from him, when I was putting this together. The black-and-white contrast is strong, I'm not sure why it's him out of all the warlords, but it was intuition haha! His outfit is fairly simple with the thight black pants, and black shoes. He has a longer, leather belt on for important design elements. His top/shirt is the most extra, with the half-and-half form! I think overall it's pleasing for the eyes. Not as colorful as Keiji, but still cool and collected!

Sanada Yukimura

I wanted only black and red pieces for him, strictly. Especially some harsh red, since he's that kid who speaks his mind no matter what and has a strong sense of honesty and justice. So red seemed appropriate and in-character for him. The details are very sharp-edged and abstract on them, mainly the top. Yukimura is also like that in a way. The pants got a red add-on as well, and the boots' laces are blood red too! Then there's this weird harness thing and the shoulder blades (?)... I was trying to mimic something like an armor, not sure how I did, but it has the rough-around-the-edges vibe - literally -, that I was going for. Then gloves, and a baseball cap too, because he's the town's cool kid!

Oda Nobunaga

My first idea was a big, epic mafia-boss fur coat. Then it ascended into something feather-like, since he has Haguro. Then it became this fancy black feather thing, on his shoulders. Another tailcoat, probably from the same runway as Motonari's XD. With luxurious black velvet design, with some nice accent blue details, and the materials mix on the belt, which is good contrast! The pants are a big baggy which I don't mind, but they're simple enough to tone the outfit down. And lastly the tall boots, which I was a bit hesitant to give to him, but it was a good decision! It's aesthetic is still very boss-like, so I'm happy that I achieved my goal!

Imagawa Yoshimoto

Did I went overboard with the idea that he has a pet peacock? Yeah, but if it's Yoshimoto, he needed something fab! He looks like a crazed bird lady, but I promise he's a crazed bird lady at a fashion show, so it's not forever. I found this photoshoot where the models had peacock themed coats, shirts and everything, so it was meant to be. I didn't put anything under his big coat, but let's pretend he wears a thin shirt, for good measure. Also, the main piece is the poncho-like thing, so I made the pants simple as well. The neckline is an intricate lace, to mix textures. And on the sides I tried to mimic the colorful feathers of a peacock. It's obvious the coat was put together from many separate pieces, but it's special. As a last touch I gave a hat to him, to add to his gentlemanly side.

Date Masamune

The huge urge to dress him in those cool dragon-patterned clothes! I had a blast finding pieces like that! I wanted to give him a loose, care-free outfit, to capture the real reckless side he has! Although the top and the pants aren't that compatible; since the top is a more elegant suit jacket and the pants seem like a pair of trainers, I still think it looks good! (Also because I definitely wanted to use that top and refused to let go.) I found this another harness thing I believe, and I wanted to mimic his armor with it, and I think it certainly makes the full picture better! I gave him gloves too, but fingerless ones this time. Also I found this super cool, over-the-top mask that made me remember an ancient dragon so it seemed like a good accessory. Instead of an eyepatch. 😅

This was a long process, and we're only halfway in!

The others are in part two, due to picture limit!

[kimtranssexler]

Ok I finished trigun stampede an few hours ago and um my review of the show overall: quite a few epic moments, the last episode was mostly epicness with not too many complaints, it was fun to watch. However overall the way the plot is told is needlessly packed…. we need some time to breathe! I feel like I just watched 8 season finales in a row. It just KEEPS pressing on.

Just….there’s no TIME for anything! I feel like I would not have gotten attached to the characters of Meryl and Wolfwood at ALL if I did not know them prior. I certainly did not have time to get attached to Roberto, and I feel like his screen time is basically the same as Meryl’s. Like, there’s just major event-after-major event and absolutely no time for us to get attached to characters, because almost every single one of their interactions happens when they’re under pressure, which simply doesn’t give us a well-rounded impression of them.

+ Plus points for Vash’s Stampede redesign; he looks the least like his manga counterpart but I actually think he retains his energy the most out of all the characters. It’s cute!

+ Plus points for Meryl, I liked Meryl and I can’t wait to see her in s2. She didn’t do much in this season but I think most of her scenes were really fun and actually showed a lot of character when compared to Wolfwood. Maybe that’s just me ?

- Minus points for Elendira being a child!!! And…I think not trans? Why are you nerfing one of like three women in this season AND the only LGBTQ character in the entire series!!!

* Neutral points for Brad being an adult, it was actually kinda cute bc in the manga Vash is the one who’s like “aww look how much you’ve grown ☺️”.

+ Plus points for the Vash backstory at his “Home” overall, I thought that was a real nice touch, I enjoy how they expanded on it and showed his life after the fall but before he became “the Stampede.”

- Minus points for Wolfwood bc who is that. That’s not Wolfwood that’s Dogbark. He’s just edgy and nothing else, like I’m sorry but he’s boring. In the manga he’s fun bc he’s dark but the fun from his banter doesn’t just come straight from edge, he’s a little silly and it plays off Vash. And his “edginess” is actually sensical nihilism and not Hot Topic teenage angst, as it is in Stampede.

- Also ik Nightow himself not have the greatest consistency when coloring his skin but Studio Orange you could have made him slightly visibly darker. Literally I’m pretty sure even ‘98 anime was better and his shading flip flopped a LOT in that one. Also give him his nose back! No excuses.

- Basically NO reason to introduce Livio this early on, especially since we see them for ONE episode. Like you’re just cluttering the show by introducing all the cool stuff all at once. He’s completely forgettable, simply because SO much shit happens in this show! STOP IT!!!! STOP! PLEASE! JUST GIVE US! A FUCKING! MINUTE! TO! CATCH! UP!!!!!!!!!

+ However shifting the timeline around for CERTAIN things was done well (eg Vash losing his arm at that one place instead of July). Like I’m actually pretty impressed w how they recontexualized certain things to rewrite the plot as a backstory while still maintaining cohesion.

+ I love Zazie the beast! I’m glad we see a lot of them! Plus points!

* Neutral points for making Knives the twin with more Plant powers? Like where he doesn’t eat? I have no opinions on it, just wondering why they chose to do that.

+ I like Knives bubble wrap cloak a lot! I also like the piano thing, it’s really cool.

Ummmmm ya that’s my critique. Epic stuff happens but like it’s just all epic stuff. And epic stuff with no substance is worse than no epicness at all. I would maybe say the problem is that it’s all fanservice. But idk which fan this is servicing lol. It’s like….almost like MCU? Maybe it’s Marvelization. Maybe that’s what I’m looking for. Too much cool stuff. Just show me the fucking cat or something. Give me 1 (one) funny moment. Idk.

Edit: wait one more thing. I’m sad that they didn’t make baby Knives the more outgoing/hopeful one. I really enjoyed that in the manga, bc I thought it added so much to his character.

[lizardsfromspace]

I've referenced things sounding like "boomer poems" several times but I don't think that's as universal a reference as I think, but once upon a time the dominant mode of expression for boomers online were interminable nostalgia poems and not memes where the Minions express fascist leanings. I found a lot of these on the old Snopes Glurge boards but sadly those are gone & a lot of these gone with it

Let's take a look at an exemplar of the form, preserved by this glorious Web 1.0 website (and some thoughts on the genre at the end)

Long ago and far away, in a land that time forgot, Before the days of Dylan , or the dawn of Camelot. There lived a race of innocents, and they were you and me,

"Race" is a interesting choice of word here. I also like that this is very specifically 1950s nostalgia and excludes even early 60s nostalgia, even the parts of the 60s that were still the 50s culturally (aka the American Graffiti years)

For Ike was in the White House in that land where we were born, Where navels were for oranges, and Peyton Place was porn.

"Navels were for oranges" Nobody had belly buttons until that bastard LBJ

We longed for love and romance, and waited for our Prince, Eddie Fisher married Liz, and no one's seen him since.

One gender was expected to get married as soon as possible in a more limited social circle than now, a situation that never once went awry!

We longed for love and romance, and waited for our Prince, Eddie Fisher married Liz, and no one's seen him since.

Because his career was destroyed over marrying his dead friend's widow, Elizabeth Taylor (I didn't know who that was, I had to look him up)

Only girls wore earrings then, and 3 was one too many, And only boys wore flat-top cuts, except for Jean McKinney.

We strictly enforced gender standards and we had no choice but to like it!

I have no idea who Jean McKinney is. Searching for "Jean McKinney 1950s" just turns up this poem???

And only in our wildest dreams did we expect to see A boy named George with Lipstick, in the Land That Made Me, Me.

Boy George is a fearful icon of gender fuckery to older people, which makes him becoming a vocal transphobe who makes pronoun jokes even more depressing. Sorry if you found out that way. Also he once kidnapped someone and handcuffed him to a radiator for two days. ...sorry if you found out that way

We fell for Frankie Avalon, Annette was oh, so nice, And when they made a movie, they never made it twice..

We didn't have a Star Trek Five, or Psycho Two and Three, Or Rocky-Rambo Twenty in the Land That Made Me, Me.

I love these lines bc for one they aren't true. 1950s cinema was rife with remakes, extremely long series, and actors who played the same character in the same plots over and over. They made seven movies about a talking mule named Francis (not to ding Francis the Talking Mule, not to ding anything starring Donald O'Connor, who firmly Rules Actually).

But also it's funny that the bankrupt, formulaic era here is the 1980s. Which is now subject to identical nostalgia only now it's people sitting in front of posters for The Fly and Friday The 13th VIII: Jason Takes Manhattan bemoaning that Hollywood used to have ideas man, not all these remakes and sequels today

Miss Kitty had a heart of gold, and Chester had a limp, And Reagan was a Democrat whose co-star was a chimp.

The 1950s were great bc of a Western show that mostly ran in the 60s that had a character who was all but said to be running a brothel

We had a Mr. Wizard, but not a Mr. T, And Oprah couldn't talk yet, in the Land That Made Me, Me.

Oof! Oh boy! Oh yikes! Oh, oh boy! Oh boy! Oh, dear! Oh, man!

I don't think these lines mean...that, but also could've, uh, been more thoughtful about what celebs they picked to say weren't around back then

"Oprah couldn't talk yet" Because she was six, or because if she tried to have a show, she'd uhhhhhhhhhhhhh

We had our share of heroes, we never thought they'd go, At least not Bobby Darin, or Marilyn Monroe. For youth was still eternal, and life was yet to be, And Elvis was forever in the Land That Made Me, Me

Bobby Darin was chronically ill his entire life, and his knowledge that he would die young from his illness was the main motivator of his entire music career, but fair on the rest. In the 1950s, some famous people died young, unlike every other decade

We'd never seen the rock band that was Grateful to be Dead, And Airplanes weren't named Jefferson, and Zeppelins were not Led.

*groan*

And Beatles lived in gardens then, and Monkeys lived in trees, Madonna was Mary in the Land That Made Me, Me.

*GROAN*

We'd never heard of microwaves, or telephones in cars, And babies might be bottle-fed, but they weren't grown in jars.

Something else that identifies this as clearly written in or about the 80s is the jab at test tube babies, part of a full fledged moral panic then. A time where people would sincerely tell parents of children conceived by IVF that their children were abominations born without souls

And pumping iron got wrinkles out, and 'gay' meant fancy-free, And dorms were never co-Ed in the Land That Made Me, Me.

Apparently the 50s were the last decade where "gay" usually meant "happy" instead of "gay", though it did also mean "gay"

Also, *groan*

We hadn't seen enough of jets to talk about the lag, And microchips were what was left at the bottom of the bag.

Tbh I don't actually mind the reminder that, for people of the time, casual air travel was still so new, so seemingly miraculous that all the minor inconveniences wrought by it being a routine thing didn't even occur to people

But also, *groan*

And hardware was a box of nails, and bytes came from a flea, And rocket ships were fiction in the Land That Made Me, Me.

Rocket ships were a fantasy detailed every week on Walt Disney's TV show by a scientist with suspiciously few stated qualifications & a thick German accent

T-Birds came with portholes, and side shows came with freaks, And bathing suits came big enough to cover both your cheeks.

We used to goggle at disabled people in carnivals and cover our entire ass when swimming, unlike now

And Coke came just in bottles, and skirts below the knee, And Castro came to power near the Land That Made Me, Me.

I really didn't expect one of these boomer nostalgia poems to include nostalgia for Castro's revolution. Viva la revolución, comrade

We had no Crest with Fluoride, we had no Hill Street Blues, We had no patterned pantyhose or Lipton herbal tea Or prime-time ads for those dysfunctions in the Land That Made Me, Me.

Not here for bemoaning toothpaste polluting our precious bodily fluids but honestly a world without boner pill commercials is tempting

There were no golden arches, no Perrier to chill, And fish were not called Wanda, and cats were not called Bill

Perrier was introduced in 1898, but I also love the specific jibes that fish weren't called Wanda back then. What a weird pop culture property to single out and what a weird way to single it out

And middle-aged was 35 and old was forty-three, And ancient were our parents in the Land That Made Me, Me.

We all ate lead paint and were forcibly sent off to die in wars and we LIKED IT!!!

If you didn't grow up in the fifties, You missed the greatest time in history,

...gender, race, and sexuality permitting!

This is a mild one but there were some much more haughty ones I should try and dig up. I thought these were hilarious when I was like 16.

I think what this exposes is how often nostalgia is nostalgia for being a child. People get lost in the weeds and think their childhood was special for when it happened, but if they're lucky and grew up in a stable situation, people tend to remember the same things about childhood regardless of when it happened. Nostalgia for a specific time becomes a problem when they assume nobody born after, or before, can have something similar, that the modern world took away everything special, but...they're still kids. Their childhood won't look like yours, but twenty, thirty years from now, they'll remember it the same way you do.

The greatest time to grow up is a irrelevant question, because the greatest time to be a kid wasn't great because of the time. It was great because you were a kid

Really can't overemphasize that a lot of these aren't so gentle and are in full "back in my day we RODE IN THE BACK OF THE PICKUP TRUCK and NONE OF US EVER DIED!!! Pansies!!!!" mode

[crystalflygeo]

You have good tastes in fictional men and only like fictional men (mood but I’m also ace so that’s as good as it’s gonna get for me-), your favourite colour is yellow, probably have a collection of plushies or pillows on your bed, and idk you give me the vibes of someone who likes tea more than you do coffee. Not that you necessarily drink more tea, but you definitely like it more.

Now I return to work...

OOOOOHHHH I like this lemme see

-Absolutely RIGHT you don't know how right you are lmao. I remember once I did this meme "why are you still single" filter and I got "you are in love with fictional characters" and I burst out laughing. Weeks later I redid it bc of a friend tag and I got "you cannot date a fictional character" and liKE BRUH CALLED OUT. I wish I could date Zhongli ;w; ... and get railed by him

-Close enough but my fav is orange hehe Yellow is close second tho and was my fav when I was little!

-You got me here bc I only recently bought my very first plushies (Barbatos and Dijun) so I don't have a lot but..... they're both on my bed 24/7 so.... yes?

-Funny bc I was like nah I def like coffee more, but it's probs only because I do drink coffee more (everyday) I actually do enjoy a nice cup of tea once in a while hmmmmm.....

hilariously enough I JUST finished a cup of Hibiscus tea lmao it had been a while but I was craving it idk

scarily accurate descriptions there friend omg Thank youuuu! <3

[noro-noro-noro]

i had a lot of dreams and I already put the first one somewhere so here's the last one (it's already kind of going away). summary: i'm a white girl with a pet rat & unsettling friends who want to have sex with me but i'm hiding a sinister secret...

i was this white girl i think my name is Elenore or some shit like that. most of this dream took plave in/around my mom's house tho she was not there. the piano room had a star in it taking up almost all the space & it was guarded by a couple angels. i had a pet rat or maybe it was a small rabbit, & I kept it in a cardboard box next to my old desk. some days I would forget to feed it & then get really worried, & I was also looking into getting a better box & some toys for it rather than literally just an open topped cardboard box that used to have oranges in it at one point. when I looked out the eindows of my room it was an unfamiliar neighborhood. my dad kept walking in & out of my room to randomly comment on stuff, or pull out clothes I haven't worn in years from my mom's closet. there was also a really nice bomber jacket in there that I wanted to look at but ended up not. I told him we needed to upgrade the rat's area since it sucks rn & he was like yeah maybe so & I was like no it's literally bad he keeps chewing a hole in it and escaping. he was a very cute rat/rabbit though. very very friendly.

anyway a group of people that said they were my friends but I didn't really recognize showed up a few days in a row & we hung out. they all had kind of a slightly weird and uncomfortable vibe, & they liked to do stuff that was just a little outside my comfort zone, but we were friends, so...? I don't remember who all was in the group - I think there were 4 people, a dude, 2 girls, & one mire person who I legit don't remember. the dude was hitting on me on day 1 & I was like hm. nah. on day 2 this very.. she looked and talked a bit like a cowboy & dressed a bit old fashioned, a debutante? she had not super curly red hair, long, partially tied up, was wearing a teal dress with ruffles from the waist down and a briwn leather corset, and she talked like a cowboy esp when she was hitting on me. I liked her more bc she was attractive but I still wasn't that interested bc all of the flirting so far consisted of innuendos. I remember putting a different top on & thinking I needed to hang a gigantic ace flag on the wall so they'd get the idea.

anyway, after I changed I heard the pinging notification sound of my old body starting to resurrect, which was a minor inconvenience that could lead to a major one, but i did this all the time - i needed to eat something to keep her down, but there was nothing on hand.. i then wss like well fine! I'll just drink some of the star from downstairs, I've done it before. purifying fire will scorch it to pieces. and I got a really long straw & threw a rock to distract them.

something went differently with drinking the star this time - I think every time I'd had some, some pixel game overlay would appear that looked kinda hellish with lava pits and fiery rock & pixelated angels that would chase you or seing their swords that fired little projectiles. they couldn't climb surfaces though so once you ran out of sight they lost interest. I don't really know what I was looking for though - i just kept going to the right. this time, some kind of flying seal mount spawned that let me take a shortcut over all the lava and angels to this pedestal in the middle of a pool of lava that had something glowing on there. we picked that up.

back to the real world & in my room, the old body pushed through from under the new one like bad clipping. Elenore's head fell off on the floor. she had brown hair and rather nice blue gray green eyes & a long narrow nose & pale & blemish free skin like fondant & she was looking at us and realizing that she'd fucked up & the blood was such a nice cherry red in contrast. such a tasty looking red on whitish gray, so we sank the teeth into the bridge of her nose and it was all soft and malleable, and we ate her. she didn't even cry out. how could she? she knew she was in the wrong trying to force herself over the skin of an angel, to be us. the friends were from her to continue to pull our moral core further away from what it'd used to be, or if not her than someone she was allied with, since the angels in the piano room didn't like us either. we weren't supposed to be here.

anyway after eating the head down to nothing, then we were "me" & "her". I was me & she was the body that had come back with the star, an Asian girl from like the 1940s & she was looking at her face in the mirror and crying and touching her skin like she thought she'd never see it again. elenore had tricked her a million years ago and put her in a body with wax wings and eaten her and had kept her down every day since then. but she was back! her name started with an L, I think it was like liu or something, very generic last name. she was also happy to see me - she'd felt so isolated from other asians due to her circumstances so she just felt a lot better that I was there. this is something I understand as well lol when I was travelling abroad & there was a group of Asian tourists I'd feel better to see people like me...

anyway we needed to escape the hell from the dream. there were a couple things overlaid - picking up the glowing object in the pixel world increased our stats by a lot, but also the negative ones. illumination - damnation - infernal flame - etc etc. this explanation was given by like a gaming youtuber trying to explain the game. on the second sidr we were sneaking more fire from the stars to get back to the pixel mini game, which was proving much more difficult to escape now that the seal thing hsd despawned. and also I was trying to get the blood from exploding out of elenore's body out of my carpet, but it had a really silky texture like a nice lip tint and just was only spreading around. the girl was not doing very well in the pixel hell minigame & i was worried what would happen if she failed.

[kstrolotea]

Hi! May I take part on your free readings, please?

Hmmm... about me, I'm recently playing Animal Restaurant again and I think it's very fun. I love cute animals and food but I hate when a character comes to steal, someone orders food that I can't unlock or stinks the whole place lol (I usually don't notice bc I'm tapping as fast as I can to get customers)

If there's a song (or at least one I really like) is Momotaro by Wednesday Campanella. The tale is also very lively, imagine being born from a peach (is like Kaguya being born from bamboo)

And my fav flower could be lilly of the valley, I would like to have a tattoo with some

If it's okay, it would be nice if clairvoyance or tarot is used. The questions are:

1. What's my ideal career?

2. How will be my life in three years?

3. Am I with my future spouse? (Most of the time I've had readings that sound like him)

Thank you!!!

Thank you for allowing me to read for you! Please send feedback letting me know how accurate the mentions of your current situation are and how things play out for you❤️

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I see you working somewhere quiet. you��re at a desk in a bedroom on a rainy day. it’s possible you live in the uk, ireland, or somewhere near there. the colors of the room are a soft pink and orange with some white, beige, and browns. you work for yourself or a small company. possibly a freelance copywriter or graphic designer. things feel cozy and peaceful. you are on a call with someone who speaks softly. it is rare that you speak to people over the phone. i see you doing mainly writing. this feels creative and peaceful to you. maybe you’re writing a book in your spare time. your boyfriend makes you coffee in the kitchen for when you get off your call to take a break soon.

page of swords, the lovers, knight of swords - it will feel very fresh and inspiring. things seem balanced and warm. in a commuted relationship—engaged to be married very soon to someone you’ve known for awhile. lots of projects and activities. you are always moving on to something new. very intellectually stimulated. possibly back in school or taking a random history of poetry course.

strength - i’m psyching myself out with this one… it feels like you’ve got your eye on someone and you desperately want it to be them so you’re bringing up the topic all the time and sticking yourself to their side like one of those annoying dryer sheets you find up your butt halfway through the day and the experience of finding it completely sours your mood for the rest of the evening. more than an answer, this card feels like a warning sign for you to be patient and chill the fuck out. i’m hearing something about enjoying the present moment instead of worrying about where things are going. i’m seeing you having a boyfriend right now where you’ve been around each other for awhile but the romantic relationship is fairly new, think 3 or 4 months ish, and you keep talking about marriage. not even asking him to marry you directly, but asking him for his hypothetical opinion on wedding cakes or showing him your pinterest board of dresses and rings and it’s freaking him out to the point of wanting to break up with you. your energy feels very frantic and fluttery like a bumblebee and he’s afraid of being stung. i see him shutting down emotionally, wanting to spend way less time with you, and making excuses to be at a friends house overnight or throughout the weekend. maybe he’s planning a trip without you. do you guys live together? did you just move in together within the past couple of months? i’m seeing two toothbrushes on the bathroom sink and you talking with a mouthful of toothpaste while he’s taking a dump so maybe it’s not a new relationship but a new living situation? unless you were friends for awhile and things moved way too quickly so you’re already living together within the first 6 months of making it official. those are the words i’m hearing from his head btw “way too quickly”. you need to be more patient.