#didn't figure that out until my last year of college 😅

[girlscience]

so so sleepy cause i was up till 2am being a freak

[cloud-somersault]

Hey, how are you doing? I hope you’re alright. 💕 I’ve been reading your status updates on Constellations and the Epilogue, and I just wanted to let you know that I think you’re amazing. Your writing is incredible and I love it. Your stories are so well thought out and the characters are ✨on point✨, and the plot is complex and detailed and aaahhh! It has me hooked! 🤩

And I understand how it hurts when you put so much effort and love into a story, only to post it and not see others be anywhere near as excited or invested as you are. I know how discouraging it can be. And it may be a little silly, but I do want to apologize for not commenting lately—life took some difficult turns for me healthwise around the end of last year and I haven’t been able to catch up! I’m still on Chapter 4 of Constellations! 😭 BUT Chapter 5 is open on my phone, and I am READY to read it as soon as I have the time (and mental energy, but that’s a whole ‘nother issue 😩). Don’t worry that your writing isn’t enough, or be discouraged if some readers don’t catch hints while others are figuring it all out seemingly too easily. Everybody reads and comprehends stuff differently, and it’s not a sign that your writing is bad if they don’t catch it! Honestly, I’m pretty bad at catching hints the first time I read a story unless they’re pretty darn obvious. I don’t usually notice subtle hints until the second, or third, or even seventh read-through, haha! (on the bright side, rereading stories and rewatching TV shows is always fun!) 😅

I guess what I really wanted to say is… don’t give up hope. Don’t lose your love and enthusiasm for your works, or feel like they aren’t worth writing because others don’t seem interested in them. At the heart of it all… at the end of the day… write because you love to. Because it makes you happy. And know that it doesn’t have to be “perfect”—the main goal should be that you enjoy it. That’s something I’m trying to teach myself, too. 💕

Thank you for taking the time to write this message and send it. I appreciate you're very kind words 💕I'm doing okay, I just had to take a step back for a bit from socials and stuff. I'm gonna keep that up for a while.

Please don't apologize for not commenting or taking your time reading. Your health always comes first, and I'm sorry if I came off as childish or needy, that wasn't my intention. Two things just happened that set me off and the timing of it was incredibly poor 😓

Please take your time reading; none of it is going anywhere, and don't feel obligated to leave comments either. i'm realizing that, even if chapters are short or long, finding the time to finish things is difficult, and everyone lives different lives. And I'm sorry about all the spoilers on this blog, I'll tag that better from now on.

But I really do think I got confused or disjointed in my perceptions; everyone here knows so much because i've been asked questions and given answers and people have interacted, so people following me here have more context than the average ao3 user. But I've kinda been expecting everyone to be on the same page, which will never be true.

I'm also the same way where it takes me a while to pick up on hints. I actually changed my writing style to prevent this. I got tired of reading books in college where you had to dive into every little thing. the hints and clues weren't obvious to me. I decided then that, when I wrote, I wanted things to be bold, obvious, but beautiful. I didn't want to make readers feel like they're missing something. I wanted them to trust that every answer, every clue would be answered in time. I made that promise to myself a decade ago, and being reminded of how different people interpret things just...made me remember.

I take writing really seriously, probably too seriously, but I've been doing it for so long and I love doing it. I want to be good at it. When it feels like I've gone back on that promise to myself, I get frustrated. I think of ways I could've fixed things. But I also remember that those books and those writing styles just weren't for me. I wasn't the target audience.

Sorry to go off on a tangent, but I wanted to explain why I got upset. I still love Constellations and I'm posting it on ao3 out of convenience, really. It's easier to reference and search there in one "Entire Work" than to have 5 documents open. The fact that others can see and read and have fun is a bonus. But I'm committed to telling this story, and I'm gonna finish with a bang.

Thank you, I won't forget why I'm doing this and that my thoughts/feelings come first! 😤I hope your health concerns are taken care of soon. Take it easy, and thanks again! 💕

[like-rain-or-confetti]

I’ve been mulling this around in my head 😅 sorry for the ramble, you don’t have to answer the request since it’s not an x-reader thing if you don’t want to but how would the Gotham villains react (scarecrow, riddler, blackskull, joker) if they found out their daughter from their deceased s/o (the love of their life) was a superhero. Like a few years prior there was an accident that only the daughter barely survived and they got powers but didn’t tell anybody and have been doing solo work but during the day in a full body suit.

The Gotham villains found out or figured out it was their daughter because Batman had foiled their plans once again but there was an explosion and the building was crumbling/sinking and the superhero/daughter saved them and left them in a safe place asking if they were okay then left.

Aloha! So I'm actually gonna pick this up on what happens afterwards because you just know they'll see each other again long before these rogues are over it. I will have to put a TW because Roman Sionis.

Where the Apple Fell...

The rogues never anticipated you following your mothers footprints and as the last thing left of her that they have. There's not a chance in hell you're getting out of this without a serious punishment. One that will make you think twice before stepping outside after sun down.

Scarecrow: The one thing that was constant with your father was his blank expression. Even when you were barely out the womb, your dad was stone-faced, and it was terrifying as a kid to grow up with a dad who simply didn't emote. You know what's terrifying? Doing something wrong, and your dad doesn't yell or look angry. He just stares into your very soul, asking way too hard, hitting questions.

Nowadays, you expected it and were used to it. You didn't see your father much anymore with how focused on his work he was. (Priorities, am I right?) So that made hero work easy peasy- the man didn't even notice! He thought you were off to college and probably partying at nights like any other. He wishes you were. He really wishes you were right about now because clearly you're not. He lost your mother from this very same compulsion, and he hated it then, and he hates it now.

So the last thing you expected was to be cornered by your father one night. His piercing gaze into your soul and asking you how long you've been doing this. After a while, you begin to think he's actually taking it well. That's until you hear a deadpan. "No." He doesn't expand further, but it was clear that he wasn't going to take this easily. Without warning, he sprayed fear toxin in your face. His henchmen come speeding around in a white van, and Jonathan carries you into the back. You're going to be staying with him for a while until you learn a lesson. One Jonathan never thought he'd have to teach his own daughter. Some might call it evil, but Jonathan considers it necessary. Parenting is just filled with things you have to do for the well-being of your child. His family just have a particular issue that other families didn't. A silly compulsion to save people who cannot be saved.

Black Mask: Roman is the kind of dad you just dont mess with because he's scary when he's mad. You saw what he was like around anyone that wasn't you or your mother, and the man has anger issues. That only escalated when your mother died. That's when the hero thing wasn't so funny and much more frowned upon. He was much more comfortable with the little kid routine than he was when you got older when you were more difficult to please and more of your own person. Paying for college was a relief because it seemed like maybe he could do something right by you. However, that pride in you quickly vanished after that night.

Your dad had a very particular way of telling you that he wanted to speak to you when he was angry. He was less inclined to open his mouth. He surprised you when he tore your mask off your face and proceeded to drag you into the car by your hair. He didn't speak a word after that until you were back home, glaring and staring you down the whole way there. After that, hell broke loose. "What the fuck am I paying for college for if you're trying to get yourself killed every night, you fucking dickhead! Do you not have a fucking brain!? Did you even get into college!? Are the standards that fucking low!?" He was far from done. "What you wanna put me in prison, huh!? What's your problem!?" There's no correct answer to that as it turns out. "Your mother DIED from doing this shit and now you want to do the same thing? For what!? You want me to lose my kid too!? The only thing I have left of her!?" What you didn't anticipate was a smack across the face before he grabbed your face. "Yeah, I fuckin' hit you. I hit you because apparently that's what you're after every night. Here's what's gonna happen. You're not gonna leave this house for a damn thing until I decide your head is on straight enough that I can trust you go back out there. If you ever pull this shit again, I'm not gonna come after you as your dad and you're gonna get so much worse than a fucking slap, you hear me?"

The Riddler: Okay, yes, he's dad, but he's one of the most absent present fathers ever known. One of the few people who could achieve both my being physically in his child's life but be completely unavailable in every sense of the word. It was to the extremes that he might as well not be around, and sometimes, as a child, you even forgot your dad isn't off on some business trip... He's running around Gotham committing crimes, and he's building and plotting. None involved his kid ever. A kid he often forgets. So there wasn't really a need to worry about consequences from him... because that would imply him paying attention. When your mother died, he did enough to ensure you were still alive on a regular basis, but he didn't know the first thing about you beyond that. So his chances of finding out his kid took up hero work after the love of his life dying was actually rather small. Or at least that's what you believed.

Turns out that was very wrong as the Riddler had eyes and ears everywhere. It just took him longer to figure out your identity, but when he noticed-oh, when he noticed you are going to be skinned by the Riddler, he's that furious. "YOU THINK I DONT KNOW MY CHILD'S MANNERISMS? IT'S SO OBVIOUS ITS YOU!" The Riddler seethed as he showed you CCTV footage. You looked at it. It was very much you, but the quality of CCTV is horrendous, and a potato might have given more video quality. This was the first time in your whole life your father had actually yelled at you, and it wasn't terrifying as one might think. It was...weird. like watching a deranged madman yelling. Was this really how your dad was? You didn't get much time because the Riddler began to rant about your betrayal, and clearly, you're just as stupid as everyone else to go against him like this.

Apparently, you lost your right to live freely at this point. He's literally getting an ankle bracelet right now to track you. You'll be staying home every night from now on. He'll watch you like you're a toddler because clearly you don't know what's good for you. At this point he's not even thinking about your mother. If you thought about it. This might actually be coming from a place of fear rather than betrayal.

Joker: He hasn't been an actual dad since you were five and hasn't tried either. That whole ship sailed for him well and truly after your mother died. That's when he was well and truly done. So he's the one dad who...actually couldn't care less. He finds it a joke. Absolutely hilarious because -of course- his own child would turn against him and try to lock him up, siding with the people of Gotham who don't even care about each other but that's all a part of the game right? So much for the apple not falling far from the tree, eh bats? There really isn't a connection there anyway. Joker is always in his own state of mind, never connecting with anyone well and truly. Unless it's the Batman of course. Maybe the Joker can understand the appeal in that regard. He can't exactly fault you for being interested in the Batman. So... I guess this counts as a pass? A do what you like in the least supportive way possible?

[hetalia-has-a-secretary]

Allies + Canada and Axis + Prussia and Romano react to their child who doesn’t want to go to college (they tried to do it but stress got to them so they dropped out and now they are in a period of depression thinking that they are a puppet being forced to do something they don’t want to do)

(Sorry for the long explanation but hope it’s worth it 😅)

Allies+Axis+Canada+Prussia+Romano and their child dropping out of college

(These are going to be typed out slightly different than usual since there are so many characters here, but we shall endure together lol)

Allies:

America- He's confused at first, just trying to figure out why they weren't following their dreams like he wanted them to. It's been quite the theme of him having to call England for help and be reminded he was like that once too. That's when he realizes how forceful he was being about it. "Hey there sport. We need to tall about this, huh?" He brings them their favorite breakfast and the talk goes for 2 hours. After some emotional outbursts and crying he tells his kid they could always have done what they wanted to do, and apologized for being overbearing. He only wanted them to succeed in life, no matter what they chose to do.

England- His heart wrentched because it didn't take long for him to see what was happening. he didn't want to go through losing another kid to some silly little system. He was gentle and only spoke when his child was done with their outburst. He pulled them in and held them, reminding them how special they really were, and that no one had control over their life. He even talked a little about his relationship with America and promised they wouldn't ever have to take it that far.

France- He's a little heartbroken they quit and had a hard time understanding why they felt the way they did. It took a while but he started to understand when he saw a group of their friends without them. He couldn't remeber the last his kid smiled the way they did. At that point it didn't matter why they were upset, he just knew he had to make it right. He started to ask them about everything they like, and what they wanted to do with their life. Cause it was theirs and no one elses.

China- Oh he was ABSOLUTELY livid when he found out. He already tends to get into heated arguments with his kid, but didn't expect them to run away and move in with Japan. Embarrassingly enough he decided to call either England or Germany since they're usually the only other responsible countries. Thankfully both of them had the common sense to tell china it probably wasn't just about having to be in school. They were right. Even though China started to understand he still scolded them for not trying to talk about it first. He even admitted to the fact it still would have lead to an argument, but at least that argument would have been over the truth, and not what China had assumed it was about. They agreed upon at least finishing up the year, and then they could start to look to something they actually wanted. Even if they didn't want to it's sometimes more important to finish what you start, and say you did then just giving up.

Russia- Russia didn't get the chance to break off from those kind of duties, even the ones he pushed off onto the Baltics, but it still got done. He wanted to instill that into his kid. He fought with them over it until they blurted out what they really felt. That pretty much tipped Russia over, and he started crying a little himself. He didn't want to be like any of his bosses, and having a kid was teaching him a lot. Especially in this moment. He also had the "My child is no longer a child* Epiphany as well, and there was a LOT of sobbing. His kid probably had to help their father out of his own episode before being able to continue their own. After it was discussed, it turned out a little like China's situation. They had to at least finish the year, and then they could figure out what they really wanted in the meantime. Although Russia's theory was that there's no such thing as too much knowledge and they should still take advantage of what knowledge they can get. Especially when they pay for it (^J^)

Axis:

Canada- There wasn't any fighting or anything, and Canada isn't just chill, he's also pretty smart as well. So it didn't take him long to start asking his kid all the right questions. Turns out Canada never really cared if they went to college or not. He thought he was just supporting them. He can't fully relate to feeling like a puppet but that didn't change the fact his child was feeling that way. He does his best to understand and even goes as far as getting parenting advice from America. And yes they went out for waffles and pancakes the next day.

Germany- He may be screaming, but he's not angry, just a little frustrated. If his kid was feeling that kind of pressure he wish they'd had just said so at the beginning. Later on he remembered how he can come across and apologized if he made them feel that way. Took them out to eat and helped them rearrange their classes so they could say they went. He wpuld still expect their best effort and offered any tutoring if they needed it. It was pretty tame and went smoothly.

Japan- He didn't care that they dropped out, but was very concerned as to why. He's probably one of the best listeners out of everyone. His even temperament makes a very safe talk space for his kid. And because it's his own life, he places a gentle hand on their shoulder, instantly calming them. They don't have to go back and feel miserable again. What's important now is to rest their spirit and star anew, but this time on their own terms.

Italy- he takes it to heart, and apologies several times. He never wanted his to to be that overwhelmed! He was just so excited to see them do more with their life then he had. He found comfort in having everyone else pamper him and make decisions, so he never realized his kid was getting put under so much pressure. His heart instantly broke and he promised to do everything he could to make it right.

Romano- He gets emotional cause he kind of gets it. He was always a stand up guy, but when it comes to his own kid he has no problem bending the knee and becoming vulnerable. He tries to hide the fact he wants to cry a little because he already figured this would happen. He blames himself right away and much like Italy, promises to help make it right. Though he still wants them to have SOMETHING under their belt college wise, and only because that's how the world seems to work. But they can do whatever it is they want, and he will support them full force.

Prussia- He thinks they're overreacting until he notices them locked away in their room. His body softens and he goes into protective dad mode. He's asking all the questions and even making off handed jokes about how school sucks anyway, and it is not that awesome. Eventually his kid opens up and they tall it through. A few hugs and whipped tears later and they are free to do what ever they chose, and he will help take care of the rest.

[jeongjaebae]

yes yes !! it is i, squirrel anon!! i've just been lurking around every month or so and saw you had a few gaps on not posting so i wasn't sure if you were that active anymore !! (glad you still are active though)

i'm doing great! i'm not sure if i ever revealed my age group?? (oh well) college apps have been quite stressful and the thought of after hs scares me 😭 jacob and i are still together! i actually gave him a nickname cobbie bc i was like why not with tbz jacob too HAHAH. i was supposed to visit my family in the north so i can experience snow again but sadly they said the tickets were too expensive ㅠㅠ. how are you? any life changing events? oh remember about my new year's resolution last year? i've made it to 8k!! while i've been slacking a bit i'm so proud of myself :D

oh no was whisper bad? i mean i watched and listened to the song but like i don't remember anything at all 😭 thought it was an average kpop song i guess... still love tbz though !! but yes i did watch wednesday! ever since i saw the trailer i promised myself to watch it... and i finished watching it in the same day... i also love one of the actors tyler 🫶🏻🫶🏻 i haven't really seen any special stages (• •;) aside from that one han jisung part and yuna stage. i hope you know what i'm talking about HAHAH.

awww i'm so glad my message made you happier! hope you're having a good day cherry <3 (btw idk if the spacing is going to be weird for you? but the spacing on here seems so wide 😭) -🐿️

haha i wouldn't say... i'm too active on here :') like i'm pretty much out of material to post for now until i finish one of my long wips or until tbz's comeback next month magically sucks me back into the fandom LOL

ohh are you an 05 liner then? ah i figured as much!! college apps are indeed a stressful time and picking a major even more so 😭 the fear is understandable, i guess it's kinda hard to picture your life until you get there? hopefully it'll be a smooth transition for you! aHHH that's good that you and jacob are still together!!! omg you nicknamed him cobbie HAHA that's cute, does he know tbz at all? and yeahh everything is so expensive these days, i hope you do get to visit family and experience snow again one day!! it's been a fairly warm winter here so far so it hasn't snowed much, but it's been soooo gloomy all the time 😔 oooh your resolution was clearing photos right?!? 8k is decent progress!! i probably said i had like 2k last year but... here we are at 7.5k this year (it's the many concerts i went to... i wanna keep svt and ateez on my phone forever, they're beauuutiful HAHA)

i'm doing well but life is kinda boring atm 😅 hmm in terms of life changing events... i got a job!! also did a bit of travelling and went to 8 kpop concerts within the past 6 months, and a few of them were life changing (skz, svt, ateez). also started a kpop album/merch collection which was unintentional but... here's where my newly earned money is going LMAO

whisper was... well, i think they were going for thrill ride 2.0 but it didn't meet expectations? i personally didn't like the song and thought that the concepts they teased weren't really related to the song 🥲 but hopefully next month's comeback will be better!! ahh i still have not watched wednesday but... will start... one of these days :') ooh is the actor you're talking about hunter doohan? just googled him rn LOL. the only thing i know related to the show is that emma myers is a huge svt fan HAHA. and yeahhHH i know that stage, the one with han's iconic hockey uniform that everyone went Wild over!!

and dw the spacing looks fine!! not surprised that it might look weird bc tumblr always does things like that, also i think they went through a recent update? things are a bit wonky HAHA. anywayyy hope you're having a good day too and that everything goes well with college apps and acceptances!! <3